#h50 1x18

[teruel-a-witch]

Steve Looking At Danny in season 1, or The Headtilt Of Horniness and Fascinated Fondness

(1.01/1.03/1.06/1.18/1.20/1.22)

#mcdanno #steve looking at danny #h50 picspam #h50edit #myh50 #h50 graphics #h50 caps #he's really just a lovesick puppy #steve mcgarrett #hawaii five 0 #h50 #h50 1x01 #h50 1x03 #h50 1x06 #h50 1x18 #h50 1x20 #h50 1x22 #love at first sight or something like that #pining!steve

[ellena-asg]

@neanderthal-pessimist

Babe, you asked about Danny's suicidal thoughts/attempt so here it is.

In 1x18 there is a moment when Danny and Steve have a talk with FBI guys and later, when boys are alone, Danny is devastated by the news about Matt's financial crimes and Steve's "what if Matt is really guilty?". Danny wants Steve to have faith in Matt (or: Danny tries to still believe in his own brother, he wants to be loyal) and there's his confession.

Very dark and painful confession: once Danny thought about suicide (and I guess/interpret that he TRIED to kill himself - and that's why Matt was always there, was there almost 24/7).

Why? Because of damn Rachel. No, it wasn't because of the divorce (he could live without her, he would be happier without her and his mental health would be much better when she's away from him). It was because of Rachel's plays. GRACIE. She used Grace against Danny, she wanted to ruin his fatherhood. She took Grace away from him and was like "You'll lose her, Daniel. I swear" ("I'll punish you, Daniel"). Once she and her mother behaved in toxic and abusive way towards Danny and then, after divorce, Rach ruined Danny's mind again. She knew well what would hurt him, what would really hurt him. She knew well that Grace was Danny's everything. Danny's forever-love. Rach knew where to hit so she hit.

So in 1x18 we can see all Danny's pain. All painful memories. It's a double pain cause it's about Gracie and now also about Matty. Matty saved him. We can say about Matt many things but yeah, he saved Danny's life. He helped Danny to be strong again. He helped him to fight for Gracie. Danny almost lost Grace, almost lost his life (literally and metaphorically) and in this moment he fears that he will lose his brother - a brother who helped him so much.

Gosh, Steve's face. He's shocked. He's terrified. He tries to stay calm but he can't - he's shaking inside. His Danny, his beloved Danny, his angel, best friend, his best human ever, sunshine of his life... Danny almost died. Almost killed himself. Danny. Suicide, fuck. Yes, Steve understands Danny's loyalty and love for Matthew BUT THIS. SUICIDE. Steve can't think about Matt now. He is focused on Danny. On Danny's old pain. He can't believe that his boy tried, thought... His strong, "there's always hope" boy... Fuck. No. God, why? Why Danny had to suffer? Why Danny has to suffer? Oh, Steve knows well that part of the pain is still there - cause Rachel still wants war. She is still mean to Danny. Her smile can't hide it. Steve knows her. He observes. He listens to Danny and believes Danny, not her.

Steve is pissed off. He was pissed off earlier when he saw Rachel's games. When he heard Danny's bitter words, Danny's fears. But now Steve has such a face like... It's the face "I wanna go back to the restaurant and...". Shout at Rachel. Tell her that she's the worst. Gosh, Steve looks here like he wants to punch her. He can't do this, he knows (plus: he doesn't want to ruin Danny's fatherhood). But in his mind he is punching her. He is shouting at her (well, maybe one day he will tell her, one day he will punch her with his bitter words, one day when Danny and Grace are safe).

Steve is here (and always will be) for Danny. He touches him. This touch is like a touch of guardian angel. And in the end he is looking at Danny and there's so much love and concern in Steve's eyes. Rachel can't hurt Danno anymore, no fucking way, he thinks.

It's such a strong scene. Danny opens his heart. Oh yes, Steve is the only one - Danny lets only him to know. To know about the darkest moment in Danny's life. Danny knows that Steve will understand. That Steve will treat this seriously. Steve is like him. And Steve is the opposite of Rachel. There's no shame, Danny. Steve loves you. Your pain is his pain. All what is yours is his.

I love that they're together SO MUCH. They're together so it will be all right. They're strong together. So strong.

I'm not a fan of Matt but it's so good that Danny had him around. Matt saved Danny and all what he did for him as a brother... It's touching. It's beautiful. All that beer, all those talks, all this time... Thank you, Matthew Williams. You saved an angel.

But... I can't believe that this Matt, this Matt that saw his brother's pain, deepest depression, that witnessed Danny's suicidal attempt... Why the hell Matt still tries to be nice (SO nice) to Rachel? Why the hell he wants her around Danny? (and Grace) Why the hell he invited Rachel for his family dinner with Danny and Grace? Why the hell he told Danny "You love Rachel, I see this"?! Why the hell he behaves like he wants to see Danny and Rachel together again (knowing well about Danny's pain and seeing well how much Steve means to Danny)? Why sometimes he behaves like HE is in love with Rach? (well, sometimes she looks at him like "I chose the wrong brother" so... hmm...).

And Rachel, geez. Why show's plot is on her side? Why no one sued her for what she did? She's guilty. She (and her mother) ruined Danny's mental health. After divorce she ruined Danny's mental health even more. Her toxic/destructive behaviour (and using Grace in her war against Danny) was the cause. Her behaviour and toxic deeds, her "I'll take Grace" pushed Danny to suicide attempt. Why didn't she face any consequences? Why are people still kind to her? Why the hell Grace lives with her? Where's "I'm sorry, Danny?" (oh, okay, there's no apology cause Hollanders are never sorry, right?).

Six months. SIX MONTHS! Six months full of deepest anxiety and depression. Six months WHOLE of that. Six months without light. Six months, for six months Matt tried to change Danny's mind. For six months there was a danger - that Danny would do it. I can imagine Matt's fear when he went to work and for those few hours per day Danny was there alone... Six months with darkest thoughts. And before and after that? Still dark. She made/makes Danny's life dark (and Steve's too, by the way).

Where's the law? Where's the justice for Danny? What an irony - he fights for other victims' justice but he as a victim got no justice.

Yeah, I know. Writers hated Danny. And Lenkov wanted Danny/Rachel so badly...

"I would not have gotten through that"

It hurts. It's blood-curdling. Danny, our bamf!Danny said that. It's generally scary to hear such words. To see other person's pain and feeling of total loss. Gosh, I can't 😭 This line kills me. It kills my heart.

(Thank you, Matthew for saving the life. Thank you, Steve for saving this life again. For giving Danny a real good life, safer and colourful. Life full of love).

#danny williams #steve mcgarrett #McDanno #h50 #grace williams #matthew williams #rachel edwards #scene analysis #1x18 #h50 meta #Rachel's worst deed

[telltaleclerk]

I love how Steve and Danny get up from dinner with Matty, Grace, and Rachel and say: “We’ll be right back.”

AND NO ONE QUESTIONS IT.

#h50 #1x18 #mcdanno #loa aloha

[mcdannowave]

When you take your new Navy SEAL boyfriend to go meet your brother, who is in town for a visit.

#h50 1x18 #mcdanno #height difference #hawaii five 0 #alex o'loughlin #scott caan #alex smile #scott smile #danny williams #steve mcgarrett #arms arms arms #(bc i saw those golden hairy arms Mr Williams ^^) #''Ok. now /Behave/ McGarrett''..''What..?Why?I didn't do anything?''..''Oh I know u. and I know my brother.Both create chaos'' #''Huh...''Steve said.looking away.Danny could see a glimpse of his frowning there.''Okay.Say it already'' #''Nothing.It's just that..I can see u growing up & being ..u know..'/You/'.And i just think i'm gonna sympathize w/ him'' #''Yeah. Bc both like to make my life harder than it needs to be''...''Ahh C'mon Danno. It's not like that.U love when i push ur buttons😏'' #Steve at the time tried to tickle the blond on his waist area.Something he learned during the countless times on bed together #''Stop it!They are right there..Stop it.I'm serious Steve!. Just..behave.pls''..''Okay Danno.I swear i'm gonna behave'' #The smirk on Steve's face didn't projected much confidence for Danny.who only sighed.''It's gonna be a looong weekend...'' #Head down. Danny walked towards them at the hotel pool.Steve too amused w/ it.Kissing his head before getting closer to his side #headcanon tags #mine #(i still hav som old plan for a proper incQ but Steve is just too ease to write.specially w/ that grin there xD.He loves his danno so much) #(also..that forearm tattoo there..so sneaky and looking good.Danny makes sure to pay close attention to them when he can)

[having-conniptions]

Hawaii Five-0 1x18 is so heartbreaking

I wanna punch Matty and then hug Danny and then watch 5x04 and cry and hug Danny more

#hawaii five 0 #h50 #h50 1x18 #h50 5x04 #danny williams #matthew williams #uncle matty

[cowboybuckleys]

h50 + gif an ep        —> 1x18

#h50 #hawaii five 0 #danny williams #grace williams #* #q #h50 gif an ep

[artisticfangirl]

MacGyver/Hawaii Five-0 Crossover + Deltas vs. SEALs → 1x18 “Flashlight”

#macgyver #macgyver cbs #hawaii five-0 #h50 #angus macgyver #jack dalton #kono kalakaua #chin ho kelly #lucas till #george eads #daniel dae kim #1x18 #my gif set

[protectionfromhaoles]

in h50 1x18, I didn't quite catch what steve said to the FBI. did he lie and say matt had a boat when he was actually flying? to throw them off?

It’s been a while since I watched that ep but yes, I believe that’s what he did.

#asks #anonymous #this blog isnt about steve but i guess ill answer these

[itsalycenotalice]

#macgyver #hawaii five-0 #hawaii 5-0 #h50 #macgyver 1x18 #crossover

[teruel-a-witch]

1.03/1.18/5.06 Danny's Family Problems Are Steve's Problems

'I'd be alone on this island', from the first scene that touches on how deeply lonely Danny feels in Hawai'i, it's clear Steve vows that it will never be the case, that Danny won't have to solve his personal problems alone. Danny is bracing himself to brave the unruly waters on his own but Steve shows up for him every time.

When Danny is looking into an uncertain future, Steve is always looking at Danny in his quiet intensity, firm and certain that he will be there for him, they are each other's Sure Thing. 'I may not carry your burden, but I will carry you'. Danny once told Steve that there's no 'my own' in their relationship so that 'your problems become my problems', Steve shows him that it goes both ways.

#mcdanno #h50 #steve mcgarrett #danny williams #h50 parallels #actual married couple mcdanno #myh50 #h50 picspam #h50 graphics #h50 meta #hawaii five 0 #h50edit #mcdanno is eternal #mcdanno soulmatism #h50 1x03 #h50 1x18 #h50 5x18

[ellena-asg]

#h50 #McDanno #danny williams #steve mcgarrett #2x16 #1x18 #lyrical McDanno

[cowandcalf]

Humm, hey! I wasn’t sure whether to write to you or not but I was reading your analysis about Danny and Rachel, and I wanted to tell you about some ideas that came up by reading your meta. You can ignore me if you feel like it, I really only write because it was a interesting point of view because it's very different from mine and it helped me. Rachel’s a character with whom I can’t sympathize but it’s more for personal experiences because in my country (I’m from Argentina) [1/?]

the concealment of identity is something that marked our history, our memory and I know that I would never judge Rachel very well. It's one of the reasons why your reasoning helps me think more about her side of the story, and I like that. I understand Danny better because I see him through the lens of his anxiety disorder (it’s a predominant personality trait). He has all the symptoms of the book: catastrophic thinking, concealment, fear of the unpredictable, insomnia, perfectionism, [2/?]            

a tendency to depression, phobia, pretending that EVERYTHING is OK even when NOTHING IS OK, a pretense of infallibility and feeling excessively responsible for things that are beyond his control. I think even Matt alludes to this in chapter 1x18 and, well, there is 4x19. Danny doesn’t let anyone in and Rachel, even if she tried and tried and tried really could not get to the bottom because her personality is also fluctuating (she’s impulsive and emotional) [3/4] 

I think Danny's anxiety disorder is very well written in H50, really consistent, and I would love it to be recognized more within the canon. Thanks for your writing, you really helped me think about Rachel, Danny, and their relationship. [4/4]                      

Hi, dear anon!

First, thank you so very much for reading my Danny and Rachel analysis. The relationship topic between Danny and Rachel is a minefield and I was so convinced to get anon hate for having the guts to put my opinion out in the open for everyone to read.

But I wasn't prepared to get such a great, excellent addition to my essay about those two. Your insight and your explanation are perfectly explained. It confirms and supports my thesis and the way I've tried to analyze their relationship. Thank you very much for sending me your messages. I'm so very pleased and thrilled, and also happy that my Danny/Rachel insight has kept you thinking. I'm happy you get to know a different angle that has helped you to see their relationship from another point of view.

I never would ignore you and your great messages! Everyone who takes the time to write to me will get an answer. I cherish this attention, the one you give me by reading my stuff and the other one you gift me with by writing me your thoughts.

So, of course, I'll write you back!

I love to read about your others, well-expressed points of view on the topic of Danny's and Rachel's psychological issues. I'm always keen on sharing opinions when there's a threat of thoughts I can follow to reach the end that helps me to understand why someone, you, dear anon, came to this conclusion. What I can't cope with is senseless bashing and complaining and hitting always on the same spot without coming up with a solution or at least a resourceful opinion. So, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me.

I like your messages a lot and what you've expressed in the text. It explains in an explicit way how Danny's and Rachel's personality has been built through their lives and their experiences, and why a relationship between those two doesn't work. I appreciate it very much that you feel like sharing your view with me.

You've analyzed Danny spot on. It's so well said. Yes, that's exactly that. I'm still not done talking about him and the way he behaves with his girlfriends. Rachel has a very special place in his heart and the way he has treated her still has some potential to keep discussing. I'm currently in season 2 where Rachel calls Danny in another time of need. She's in labor and Stan's out of town. So, Danny jumps in without any second thoughts and supports her with all his mighty love and affection, what's real and honest at this point.

I assume Danny and Rachel get along great when they aren't involved in a relationship together. It's so obvious to observe. Both are seriously trapped in their pattern as soon as they get involved emotionally.

Thank you again for getting back to me. It's so appreciated. I wish you a great day, dear friend and Mahalo.

 If someone is interested that's the link: Danny and Rachel Meta.

#anon ask #ask answered #danny and rachel #discussion #meta #Anonymous

[bisexualstokes-archive]

favorite episodes from season 1 H50 is 1x01 1x02 1x03 1x04 1x05 1x06 1x07 1x08 1x09 1x10 1x11 1x12 1x13 1x14 1x15 1x16 1x17 1x18 1x18 1x19 1x20 1x21 1x22 1x23 and 1x24 loves all the Alex from these episodes and the pics of him oh my he's so sexy maybe a collage of pics idk I need to be cheered up just found out the season finale of H50 is May.17, 2019 I'm worried Alex is going to leave the show after it wraps for the season never to return again for another season I have that sinking feeling.

lol i started reading the numbers and i was like “wait isn’t that all of them?”

why would alex leave?? (i’m super new to this show so i have 0 idea of what’s going on bts??)

#mk talks h50 #hawaiianohana15

[artisticfangirl]

MacGyver/Hawaii Five-0 Crossover + BTS 1/? → 1x18 “Flashlight”

#macgyver #macgyver cbs #hawaii five 0 #h50 #angus macgyver #jack dalton #kono kalakaua #1x18 #my gif set #lucas till #george eads #grace park

[fyeahlucastill]

Some gifs of Lucas Till from the behind the scenes ET interview for MacGyver “Flashlight”, the MacGyver/Hawaii Five-0 crossover

#lucas till #lucastill #lucas till gif #gif #gifs #macgyver #macgyver reboot #macgyver 2016 #macgyver 2017 #macgyver gif #macgyver tag #macguyver #angus macgyver #macgyver cbs #macgyver 1x18 #macgyver flashlight #h50 #hawaii five-0 #hawaii 5-0 #george eads #jack dalton #peter lenkov #playful #smiles #csi #nick stokes #bts #behind the scenes #bts macgyver #macgyver preview