#had to voice my frustration

[uncanny-tranny]

I think I've cracked why it makes me so irate when customers have this expectation that workers not only offer service to them but to Do It With a Smile.

It's this sense of entitlement that it isn't enough to have a service offered to you, but that it must never remind you why workers might not be chipper.

What people mistake is that this country is built off freedom that makes us All Happy. What they miss is that this country was built on façades and platitudes - the comfort of being shielded from any uncomfortable reality.

#politics #workers rights #kind of adjacent #but i've said it before: if you want chipper workers contribute to something that would ACTUALLY make us chipper #like... so many people think i'm Rude because i CAN'T HAVE A CUSTOMER SERVICE VOICE (nor am i paid enough even if i could) #and frankly... if they are providing the service without A Smile then what is the problem officer? #is the problem that you had to contend with the idea that... maybe they don't WANT to be here and probably have little choice? #is the problem that you contended with the idea that there's something miserable about that place? #is it the uncomfortable reality that people aren't absolutely elated and enthralled to Serve You? #the frustrating part is when somebody tells you that and you KNOW if you told them that at their placs of work they'd also Not Be Happy #and RIGHTFULLY so because (at least in my eyes) it comes across as needlessly entitled and demanding #had somebody ask if i was okay and i contemplated actually being honest (not a Good idea)

[solradguy]

Having ADHD but only having it just enough to get the like 2 symptoms left out of every conversation about ADHD fills me with an apathy that has no practical solution. Rolling up to the ADHD conversation like "Some days I can't focus and everything pisses me off and the best I can do is lay on the floor with music on and scowl at the ceiling until it stops because if I don't then I'll be mean to other people because I have no patience when I get like that" just makes everyone side-eye you because they immediately jump to the conclusion that you want to commit unspeakable acts of violence.

But a lot of people don't know that this is something people with ADHD can experience. The only time I ever see it mentioned is when I go out of my way to find research on it...

#textpost #I'm actually in a really good mood right now and had a really good day but I've been thinking about this for a while #Like I've been to a behavioral specialist this IS ADHD albeit a milder form of it but NO ONE ever talks about the Grumpy Threshold™️- #-in conversations about ADHD. It's always about how it makes people loud and easily excitable #Which are also symptoms of ADHD and I recognize that those symptoms are significantly more common than the main ones I experience #But it would be nice if there was more awareness about the cranky side of it lol #It doesn't make me physically violent or an absolute asshole it's just like being annoyed by everything cranked up to 11 #Turbo grumpy. Low heat simmering frustration #Wellbutrin's helped a lot and I've figured out most of the things that causes it so I can avoid them #(shrill sounds/voices and ASMR are two big ones. *Especially* ASMR) #But some days I wake up and my brain chooses anger and there's nothing I can do about it besides ride it out rofl #Anyway thank you for coming to my TED Talk I have to go to sleep now good night

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE BEST OF THE NORMANDY SUMMIT

Featuring: Cmdr. Sophie Shepard, Primarch Adrien Victus, Dalatrass Linron, and Urdnot Wrex With: Comm. Specialist Samantha Traynor Commander, you need to keep Cerberus at bay- I can't overstate what a victory a treaty between the Turians and the Krogan would be for the Alliance. We need all the help we can get... Mass Effect 3: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #sophie shepard #urdnot wrex #samantha traynor #mass effect #mass effect 3 #me3 #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #finally got around to gif'ing the sur'kesh footage and i ended up splitting it in half bc the summit just had too many good wrex moments #by best of: the normandy summit i really just mean best of: wrex bc this is literally just every wrex moment from the summit LMAO #i was gonna stuff this in with the priority sur'kesh set but literally when i had like 10 gifs of just the summit i was like #sur'kesh is getting the mars split bc wrex has too many good moments to just start cutting half of them out tbh #also victus in his fancy primarch robes with THAT VOICE??? i'm not down bad for most turians but DAMN victus #maybe we talk about how fucking real he was for hearing wrex say that the krogan were the ones who spilled their blood to stop the rachni #and immediately looked at the dalatrass and said that wrex was fucking right #and then said that the dalatrass was helping wrex or she'd never see another friendly turian again?? like he's a fucking ICON for that tbh #and soph in the dress blues????? HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT (mass effect women in uniforms and armor 😍) #her angy face coming back at the dalatrass to defend wrex is everything to me #and wrex's expressions during the summit are so fucking good #there's so much raw emotion on his face that you can see and you can tell how like angry and frustrated he is with the dalatrass and victus #and how much he's holding back!! especially when linron insults him!! when she basically calls his people useless!! #like there's just a thousand+ years of pent up krogan rage about the genophage just boiling behind wrex's eyes #and he somehow manages to keep somewhat cool during the summit? like obvi wrex isn't a thousand+ years old but he's his people's rep #he's such a fucking interesting character especially during this scene when you think about a thousand+ years of the genophage #bc you get to watch him balance keeping his cool in a political situation he's a leader in #vs. remembering he's a krogan in the presence of the leadership of the people who literally created a sterility plague for his people?? #and the raw emotions of that for him??? #wrex my love you deserve the world for dealing with the summit in the cool-headed way that you did bc it was 100% bullshit for you #canon soph would have thrown the dalatrass off the normandy so fucking fast for insulting wrex and his people and you cannot change my mind

[thewatercolours]

Podfic: "Captive Crown" by GerbilofTriumph

A shabby narration of GerbilofTriumph's excellent King's Quest fanfiction, "Captive Crown," complete with outrageous attempts at accents and enough bloopers to start a drinking game (with um, raisin juice. There are too many goofs for the real stuff.) This wonderful fiction, full of courage, nightmares, and healing, is gratefully recorded and shared with permission of the author, @gerbiloftriumph. Go check out her awesome creative blog.

All seven chapters are available at the link above, but if you just feel like listening to the first chapter while you scroll, voila:

Original text here:

#podfic #king's quest #king graham #I learned a couple of things about Audible in the process but you're still getting the unedited version because I'm not confident enough to #implement all I've learned. :-) #As usual the thing that frustrates me most is that I cannot for the life of me do a good Graham impression. I mean - none of my impressions #are ever going to land me an act in Vegas - but at least with the others I can kind of hide behind the fact that they're all very zany #voices. Graham's more normal and so it feels like I ought to be able to give a better impression of the music of Josh Keaton's speech #and in my head I do a slightly better job at it then when I hear it played back. But it's all for fun anyway - I just wish my voice #was magic. #But regardless of quality I had a ton of fun and am very thankful to my good pal Gerbil for letting me do this! #I mean I'm preaching to the very small choir here but this really is one of the best KQ fics online and it was a joy to narrate. #if there's any tech flaws please let me know - I should preview the whole thing before I post but I'm too chicken to listen to my voice for #long. ;-)

[biblicalhorror]

The most frustrating part of engaging in any of this discourse with pro-Israel people is that they claim there's just something ineffable about "seeing and understanding" how supporting Palestinian liberation is directly calling for the eradication of Jewish people (as if that type of rhetoric isn't exactly how actual antisemitism often manifests in online spaces but that's a topic for another day)

They get through people debunking the "the land belongs to the people of Israel anyway" argument and the "LGBTQ Palestinians are safe in Israel" argument and the "Genocide isn't what's happening here so you should educate yourself" argument and when all of those points are meticulously disproven over and over they still stand with "Well, myself and your Jewish friends see the hate you have in your heart for us" and it truly doesn't matter what you say at that point because even if you yourself are Jewish they will claim that refusing to support the state, government and military of Israel is inherently hateful and bigoted, as if a religious ethnostate is some inherent human right that is being taken away from them. I know many of them are blinded by the relentless propaganda that's been around their whole lives and how hard it is to break free from a belief system that is so tied to your core identity as a human being but it is so frustrating watching people being led straight to the point over and over again and just turning around and refusing to see it.

It's also so frustrating to see people using the momentum of this movement to casually tack on actual antisemitism to these discussions, as if having Jewish people in positions of power is why the US bends over backwards to excuse the actions of Israel and not, yknow, the fact that our government directly benefits from having a military stronghold in the middle east. I've talked to some well-meaning pro-Palestine friends irl who casually use antisemetic talking points because they've ALSO bought into the narrative that Israeli = Jewish and so they blame the actions of Israel and the IDF on Jewish people's "religious values" and ignore the fact that this conflict really has almost nothing to do with religion itself and everything to do with capitalism, imperialism and maintaining the US's status as a so-called "global power".

#dont get me wrong there are lots of people on the pro palestine side who are very much aware of and vigilant against antisemitic rhetoric #but i genuinely worry about some of my non-jewish leftist friends and allies falling down some super shady pipelines because of all of this #i spend a lot of my time on my public facing social media sharing articles and graphics and whatnot about antisemitism #and how careful we need to be when calling out these atrocities and our government's complicity in them #but when one side is genuinely claiming with no evidence or argument that being against colonial occupation is just antisemitism #it makes it so hard to call out actual antisemitism within these spaces bc it delegitimizes antisemitism as a concern #i just want to scream #like. im not even jewish and i vividly remember when we had a special lesson in girl scouts about how wonderful Israel is #and they had us make little mini versions of the israel flag and they told us that israel stood for the safety of the jewish people #and i came home and i told my mom about how cool israel was #and she promptly pulled me out of girl scouts #which at the time felt unfair because she didnt explain why #but also how do you explain the horrors of colonialism and imperialism to your newly zionist 10 year old #anyway the point is that if i as a non-jewish girl scout was exposed to that kind of propaganda #i can only imagine how inescapable it must be for many american jews in the US #and i truly empathize with the amount of unlearning that needs to be done #and how hard it must be to let go of some of these ideas #but that doesnt make it any less frustrating to watch these dynamics play out on such a massive scale #and i hold so much respect for people in white jewish communities re-educating themselves and standing on the right side of history #as well as for all of the people of color and especially American Palestinians standing up and using their voices as much as they do #personal

[sskk-manifesto]

(*・ω・*)b♪

#I'm a bit late but :) #Mmmhh lots of thoughts about this episode. Nothing really relevant though lol #I like it... Mostly. Well‚ I like Atsushi‚ and I like Atsushi screentime. #I always forget that there's actually a one week timeskip within the Guild arc #I think these chapters were generally better executed in the manga. #But even then it's just... #Why do the make the Guild / Fitzgerald so. dumb. Why do they make them act so wildly irrationally and at the protagonists' advantage #It really gives villain acting entirely mindlessly to make the plot advance and the heroes win. It's really sensless. #I mean especially when Atsushi yielded. Why didn't Fitzgerald take his offer. For real!! #For real. He had NOTHING to gain from proceeding with his plan. He already obtained for Atsushi and the ada to collaborate. #Now they are NEVER going to help him‚ and that's agreat loss for him. #And idk. i hear that little Tumblr post in my voice saying “why would you complain about characters acting irrationally! #Do people irl never act irrationally?” #And yeah I get Fitzgerald was frustrated for losing Mitchell and his fight with Hawthorne. Okay I understand. #But that's definitely too much. That's him acting downright stupid at the heroes' advantage and it's just pretty underwhelming to read? #That said. It's just general notes I'm not particularly annoyed because like. That's just b/s/d to you. Dumbing down the villains a second– #so the author can escape the trap they put themselves into. Very Marvel-esque move lol. #On that exact same note WHY WOULD LUCY HAVE THE DOLL. #The doll is the whole premise for your plan working why would you not protect it with everything 😭😭😭 #I'm not getting in the Lucy / Atsushi scene itself. I love Lucy but I swear every time that scene gets played a femminist dies #(it's me. I'm the femminist dying every time.) #Mmmhh a couple more things. I dislike the ost choice in the scene where Steinbeck is torturing Q it feels so out of place #And I really don't get what's the deal with the Hawthorne / Fitzgerald convo it's so confusing to me. Like it It looks like Hawtorne is– #blaming Fitzgerald for Mitchell's condition (both in health and for her family status) but... #Objectively neither of those things are Fitzgerald's fault? Idk maybe I just have very little media comprehension for this arc because– #a lot of things just seem to happen with no sense. But it's okay #Im complaining a lot lol but its mostly irrelevant things (or like with the dumbification of villains things I've learnt to live with lmao) #But the episode was generally nice. The animation this season is consistently very pretty. #random rambles

[perilegs]

ok i might need to force myself to not romance astarion bc i don't want to know what it says about me to turn down karlach, the woman of my dreams, the character made to cater me personally, like, if she was real i'd bring the moon and stars down for the chance to see her smile, she's everything i've hoped for in a rpg companion, what does it say about me if i turn that down for someone like astarion

#ngl karlach would be too good for me and i wouldnt deserve it #shed probably ask me stuff like 'what do you want?' upon which i would be paralyzed with fear my mind completely blank unable #to process why i can't answer a simple question #and she's so up front with her emotions which i absolutely adore but i could not reciprocate that #wait am i actually for real avoiding the karlach romance bc i feel like this fictional character from a video game is too good for me #a real human being. like. i think i would feel guilty about romancing her #which makes no sense bc i romance characters too good for anyone all of the time. but idk #in those cases ive always had like a strong character i play as who is very divorced from who i am #but playing as durge there is no past so idk who my tav is yet so all i can do is project so he feels very. personal #im v sleepy and also ive had brain fog all day so yea idk #i mean i do genuinely like astarion and his character but in his case i dont feel guilty bc i feel like i #i have no idea how to finish that sentence without it sounding like 'i can fix him' #bc i dont want to fix him i want to show him compassion and respect him and his boundaries so he'll be able to reclaim tje feeling of #being in control of his life #so he'll stop putting people down to feel like hes on a pedestal #like i get him and why he is like that but i just feel like being kind and caring towards him would feel so good #it wouldnt fix him and thats a good thing bc i dont want him to change who he is but i do think he needs support #also hes hot im so mad at myself for being so atteacted to him #we wouldnt b here if i didnt have a thing for voices #besides thag back to the main point of astarion its like. ugh! im so frustrated rn bc i dont have the words #to express my emotions toward him bc everything ive said lacks the nuance that im feelikg but idk how to put it in words #i guess i want to protect him? that such a terrible sentence and still not what om going for

[sapphire-weapon]

probably the most interesting observation about RE fandom since the release of RE4make is that RE4make brought in a shitload of new fans, and yet it created absolutely zero new leon/ada fans.

this isn’t even a case of “fandom only cares about m/m” either, because i’ve seen a dramatic uptick in support for leon/ashley. it’s just that the only people that i’ve seen making leon/ada content have already been doing it for years.

it’s just fascinating to me because for like 20 years, leon/ada was THE SHIP in RE fandom, outclassing even chris/jill, and it seems to have fallen out of favor ever since capcom starting releasing the new remakes.

you know, the remakes that are determined to write the characters as though they were actual people and not ridiculous caricatures.

funny how the ship just falls apart when you do that. which is what i’ve said for actual literal years, but, much like RE2 leon, no one ever listens to me.

#i'm not going to put this in the tags because i don't want a fucking shitshow on my hands #but it's like when they sat down to make the remake and had a discussion about what leon and ada's dynamic was going to be like #the director and/or producer just showed the very end of the krauser fight in OG #and pointed out the frustration and exhaustion in leon's voice as he says #'maybe it's time you tell me the reason why YOU'RE here?' #and how ada just walks away from him and flippantly says #'maybe some other time' #and said director/producer was like #THAT #THIS #THIS IS WHAT THE RELATIONSHIP SHOULD BE THE WHOLE FUCKING GAME #and that was absolutely the right call to make #because absolutely nothing about their relationship after RE2 makes any fucking sense at all #unless you look at it from the perspective of #leon clings to ada only because she's been the only constant in his chaotic shitbag life #even if she treats him like an asshole #it's something he can always count on happening #and every time she does it to him #he's reminded of a rookie cop named leon kennedy who bled to death in the sewers underneath raccoon city in 1998 #and the whole thing is just a sick horrific trauma response #AND FOR THE DEVS OF THE REMAKE TO ACTUALLY *GET THAT* #AND GO #NO #FUCK THAT #IF WE'RE GOING TO LEAN INTO LEON'S TRAUMA WE NEED TO GO ALL THE WAY WITH IT #AND THAT INCLUDES ADA'S BETRAYAL OF HIM #is just #it's so good #it's so vindicating #this remake is everything

[redrockbutch]

I wouldn't say that I have Voice Dysphoria but I do have Voice Troubles due to it having dropped as a tween girl and subsequently pitching up for a decade and thinking everyone's throat hurt at the end of a long day, which means my natural inclination is to speak in a higher pitch than is natural. Customer Service Voice but for my whole life

BUT! I think getting back into vocals is helping w All Of It bc I feel so much more comfortable in that register and it's stronger and easier

Thank u metal and harsh vocals for my gender euphoria I feel so much more comfortable in and aware of my body 🙏

#cassidy.txt #and yes my voice dropped #I had a month with a 'persistent cold' where it was either raspy or pitched very high and at the end of it my voice was lower #I don't have dysphoria it's just. frustrating when I sound like I'm trying to be Straight lmao. so it's euphoric when I just sound like Me #vocal voyage

[thedreadvampy]

Just listened back to a drunk voice note I sent Kofi on Saturday and holy shit you guys nobody told me how bad I lisp when I'm drunk

Literally most of the time the remnants of my childhood lisp are like. a slight softness/buzz on sibilant sounds. In this message it's a full on eth. "That thoundth nithe." there's even like. emphasis on the eth. I sound like a cartoon character. Don't get me wrong it's adorable. wild though. I literally didn't even notice when I was recording it that I was stumbling on the sibilances.

All I can thay is I'm thoooooo lucky that I'm the twin they gave a name containing an eth, not the twin they gave a name beginning with S. "Ruth" is a blessing to a child with a pronounced lisp. "Lisp", by the way, is not.

#red said #hi my name is ruth thedreadvampy and it took me over a decade to learn to speak while keeping my tongue off the back of my teeth #i remember finding it SO FRUSTRATING as a kid. i never had speech therapy cause it was never like. unintelligible. just noticeable. #but i hated it so much i was so embarrassed by it and mum and my siblings would be like JUST KEEP YOUR TONGUE CLEAR OF YOUR TEETH #and i was like I CAN'T THATTH IMPOTHIBLE!!!! WHERE IS IT MEANT TO GO WHERE IT ITHNT CONTACTING MY TEETH???? #anyway i largely lost the list by secondary school but it still pops up if I'm drunk or tired or talking too fast #which implies it still requires An Amount of attention to get an S sound out I've just successfully sublimated it #but hahaha it's SO exaggerated in this voice clip i cannot BELIEVE I was fully unaware of it #also. I've just realised. i was this precocious little girl with big round glasses freckles pigtails and an adorable lisp #i was a fucking sitcom child. help. adorably toddling up to adults and telling them solemnly in a soft lisp about emotional health #recontextualising all my memories of interactions as a child around the fact that i was literally the goddamn #schmaltzy Hollywood sentimental image of idealised childhood. you know uhhhh what's her name? in Matilda? the blonde girl with pigtails? #'my mommy says they're cute'? THAT fuckin kinda voice and demeanour and also you are my teacher and I'm 4 and i keep correcting your maths #unbearable.

[remyfire]

The good/bad news is that Tumblr hates fun and is not letting me upload my screencaps so you are all free from my emotions about the episode I rewatched today.

#it's going to be very funny if THIS is the straw that breaks my back after 30 hours of persistent hell #gently petting my frustration intolerance and my quivering autistic brain like a horse no we do not need to have a meltdown #maybe the straw that breaks the back is my metamour just now coming to ask what i want from the weed store #and the guy who had to cancel on plans to see friends in a week and who also just had to commit blood sacrifices #to make a huge amount of money in 24 hours because all other safe roads to do so were cut off #and who has nothing to her name and who needs weed to control her pain and also to sleep and is down to maaaaybe a week's worth #had to keep her voice very very steady when politely saying that she can't afford it right now but thank you #i've said it once and i will say it a million more times i would really love a win #just one #my ramblings

[illogicalghost]

save me silly coffee drink. dear god please save me

#personal #trying to drive to my regular coffee shop turned into a fucking Ordeal™ bc the road its on is closed #like for a whole mile or something its fucking obnoxious #and google of course kept trying to get me to take the CLOSED TORN UP ROAD and i was losing my mind #if i had gone thru all that and the cafe was closed that would have been the last straw in my stupid baka life #my head hurts and my hair feels gross even tho i showered yesterday and theres loud construction outside here too #and i have to wake up early tomorrow to drive my mom to the hospital for a procedure and stay there for who knows how long #AUGHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHH #one of the things i used to do before my voice dropped on T was scream really well but i cant do that anymore 💔 #i used to shriek in my car to let off steam when i got overwhelmed but now its just more frustrating bc i cant do it anymore 😭😭😭😭 #im fine btw im just The Complainer

[doodle-birdo]

Snfhjdksks pk gets plucked out of his kingdom and is put in a jar, scientists cannot figure out what kind of bug they caught and pk is furiously scratching at the glass trying to escape.

It’s just this.

#hollow knight #hk pale king #the pale king #I absolutely had to make this after voicing my opinions about on the size poll #like YES #PICK THIS GUY UP AND PUT HIM IN ONE OF THOSE LITTLE SPECIEMN TUBES TO STUDY #I honestly don’t know how he would feel about it #whether or not he is scared or curious or frustrated with other creatures treating him like this #but one things for certain #he bites. HARD. #you would really need to wear gloves when handling him. #I am really good at replying to this fast as you can tell /s #but I just really had to make this #birdo’s inbox #birdo’s asks

[jackienautism]

wrote all of this b4 seeing how max’s rejection letter explicitly talks about graduate school, so take it w/ a grain of salt. but i still think it makes a plausible case.

showing means more than straight up telling in my opinion, and the writers did a terrible job at conveying that laura + max were supposed to be going into grad school. so here

gonna be talking about this response, ill be referring to the post linked. unless its SPECIFICALLY stated that laura is a college graduate and i just somehow missed it entirely, then ignore this whole thing i guesss

anywho, based on the information given to us IN GAME, there's little to no way that we're meant to interpret laura + max as already graduated college students. (JUST based on how they speak about school, i mean). especially when its said that max is entering school as undecided. and, correct me if im wrong, but i dont believe you're able to graduate undergrad school STILL without a major! i think the most that will happen is the school graduating you as liberal arts, but laura explicitly talks about max being undecided + him needing to pick a diverse set of classes because of that.

and based on the post im currently referring to, its said that both laura and max are currently going into college for their masters / doctorate degrees. which IS possible, except for the existence of max’s undecided major still. in order to get a masters (and ESP a doctorate i assume), you must have prerequisite courses under your belt and so forth to even qualify. youre not able to strive for a masters or doctorate without knowing what you wanna major in! at the very least, max going into his second college experience just doesnt make any sense.

and this is very much so subjective but, the way they both talk about it? it reallt does not seem like theyve already encountered 4 whole years of college. plus laura LITERALLY says that she just needs "the classes that'll let [her] major in veterinary sciences." if she was in school for her postgrad degree then she would already have her major all set and confirmed, would she not????????? YES the writers or whatesvesrg or WHOEVER may have "wanted" both laura and max gto be in their early twenties with a bachelors degree, but trhe game has several pieces of evidence that go against it!

so, no, you can't blame people for seeing both laura and max as fresh out of highschool! because the game SUPPORTS that theory! with ttheir talk surroundning college and the fact that the other counselors are STILL TEENAGERS....

in conclusion. the quarry really droppped the ball w/ this one LOL. i couldn't give less of a fuck if you still see them as 21 / 22, do whatever you want i guess, just don’t be dicks about it. and please be AWARE of how and why someone may think otherwise, especially when this scene in chapter 7 exists and provides much more than needed for us to make a plausible inference. because nothing they say aligns with them being postgrad students, nothing makes any goddamn sense and it pisses me off!!!!!!

#laura kearney #max brinly #the quarry #mine #text #[emma mountebank voice] ok :) i’m done #discourse #just wanted to get this out. i’ve had it in my drafts for 2 months now #and it’s funny bc like. the game paints it as the ‘wrong’ decision to snoop in max’s bag…. aka when you’re able to physically see that- #-they’re grad students #so ??????? youd think the game would want us to see that. right? #and also. who the hell brings their rejection letter to summer camp?😭 #these writers just love to leave me confused and frustrated i swear #think i’m gonna keep seeing laura as younger just to piss ppl off #my laura tag #my max tag #my TQ tag #my thoughts #TQ

[lagt-duck]

I want to expire

Why do hiring forms ask shit like

"oh what are your soft skills?"

BITCH I DUNNO???? HALF OF THIS SHIT FEELS IMPOSSIBLE TO RESPOND!!!

why is the hiring pretending to sell yourself?

That is stupid!!! Someone good at the job could slip past you because you preferred someone with a better silver tongue!

I am so frustrated I feel stupider and stupider the more time passes without a call from any job-

And my mother makes this worse because she sends me random hiring forms but refuses to look up what they are to begin with!!!!

I keep getting anxiety for so many fucking forms and frustrated because I feel stupid because my mother talks to me like I am a fucking rock!

"oh you really have to get a job"

OH REALLY WOMAN? SORRY I DIDN'T KNOW THAT IT WAS ME!! WHO CHOSE IF THEY CALL ME BACK!

#vent post #i want to cry all the time i hate everything i unironically wanna not exist #i joked i had to live until my degree but now i wosh i didn't #i am so fucking frustrated because IT'S STUPID! #i know it's probably society making me feel stupid like usual but I don't want to be this!!! #i don't want to overwork myself just because my mother is a stupid fucking moron #who is so narcissistic she can't hear past her voice!!!!

[fabulouslygaybean]

i only woke up like 10 minutes ago but now im feeling emotional

#had a really nice dream about visiting my old elementary school #and then i woke up and heard voices downstairs #and realized that my brother's on the phone with my mom and they're just chatting about cats #im so used to walking up to the sounds of anger or frustration so hearing them happy just. man. it's nice #i can barely even understand what they're saying #but id recognize my brother's tone anywhere #and they're both laughing and chatting and things feel good #im not used to mornings like this but i really like it #id love to wake up to happy sounds more often