#hadn't been in like 7 years

[owlfromthemeadow]

What if I changed my pfp for a little bit to this fucked up owl I found at Casa Bonita

#owl's hoots #casa bonita #had fun there #hadn't been in like 7 years #scheduled post

[backpackingspace]

thinking about how for like the first two years of obi wans apprenticeship qui gon did not give a fuck what obi wan did (or even really what happened to him) before snapping out of it and realizing he was actually very much responsible for this child and course corrected into being a helicopter parent and how obi wan always read this as mistrust instead of concern and guilt.

#Star wars #qui gon jinn #obi wan kenobi #The disaster linages complicated relationship #Neglect #Trauma #Like qui gon was deeply traumatized individual #And I think he just could not deal with being responsible for another child #Like I'm pretty sure obi wan would do something and qui gon would be having literal flashbacks of xantos #Which is not an excuse for obi wan being left to fend for himself but #And that lackluster care ran deep man like obi wan regularly ended up on a completely different planet during those early missions #But to that 13 year old baby wan it felt like trust #So when qui gon started suddenly giving a shit and putting rules in place it felt like mistrust #It's a pretty common reaction to see in kids when their parents who hadn't been parenting get it together #Qui gon having so much guilt being a helicopter tired dad #Wrestling his feral padawan into one of those kid leashes #Qui gon: through gritted teeth: its the will of the force Padawan stay fucking still I mean it I swear to all the gods #Obi wan: 15 and feral and war veteran twice over embressed to the point of finding this humiliating: #Master hates me? Mater distrusts me?? He thinks I need to be held on to like I'm fucking 7 years old when will I ever be good enough for hi

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #he is welcoming you inside :> #I want to get to the part where both my partners live with me sooooo baaaaaad ;n; #(I've lived with my wife for 7 years) #(but our other partner stayed put up north when we moved last summer) #(cuz they hadn't been with either of us that long and we knew from the beginning this was a 1-year move) #(they've come to visit us three times now and every time we all love just. existing together.) #(getting groceries. they took my wife to the urgent care the first time we were here. food prep. just. existing together.) #(also by the time we move again they'll've been with us a whole year longer than last time we moved ofc :v ) #(so hopefully they can move with us this summer wherever we go.) #(don't tell them this I don't think they check the tumblr but we reeeeeally like them) #(we both want to keep them forever if they'd be okay with that) #(like. rings-forever.) #(though you can only have one legal official spouse in the united states.) #(and I get dibs on the legal protections due to my disability.) #(and. like. already legally married my wife lol) #(and we want to actually live with them for a little bit before we actually bring it up) #(just to make sure everything's as worth it as we expect) #(which is why you can't tell them :v )

[phoenixcatch7]

Love how every zelda has a special interest and that special interest saves the world.

#Like whether it's piracy or history of light magic or ninjas or technology or art zelda ALWAYS gets super interested in the one thing #That'll save her and the kingdom down the line. Like oot zelda 100% idolised impa and demanded to be taught shiekah techniques #And disguise only for those skills to become vital during the 7 years link was gone. #Tp zelda had the most knowledge of light magic it's history and applications and spirits by FAR and all of those enabled her to save midna #And summon light arrows #If ww zelda was sitting pretty on an island instead of roaming the seas with a loyal crew and several cannons link would have been screwed. #If botw zelda had been allowed to pursue her fascination with shiekah tech or even science as a whole who knows what they might have manage #Ganon might not have been able to take them over at all. She might have learned to channel her power through artifacts or learned to mimic #The energy flow of the shiekah magic which is directly derived from hylia/the tf of wisdom! She wouldn't have been stranded at the mountain #When ganon attacked if she hadn't been forced up there on her birthday. She could have outfitted the champions with better weapons that #Would have been more effective against the blights. She might have unlocked the slate or the shrines. She would have been more confident #And thus less abrasive with link. They would have been able to bond sooner and faster. Link would have been more relaxed and ready. #The shiekah might have been able to rework teleportation instead of 106 years late. #I am salty about rhoam banning her. It never would have worked out well. #Never keep a zelda from her special interest okay!!!! #Like as soon as she and link got to do whatever they wanted the problem got solved within a few months. #Never tell a link to behave or a zelda she can't research #loz #legend of zelda #tears of the kingdom #Totk #loz totk #loz tears of the kingdom #Botw #loz botw #breath of the wild #Zelda #princess zelda #loz zelda #loz link

[pocket-prosecutor]

trying this new thing called "draw tiny Miles at peace and sleeping". it's good for the soul

#wereshifter miles au #aa gt #aa g/t #g/t #giant tiny #giant/tiny #art tag #him sleep..... #this one and the one where he sleeps on Phoenix's arm/stomach where Phoenix also reclines #they have the same energy #Miles gets to be comfortable with the people he trusts #honestly this wasn't drawn with the intent of them being so similar. it crossed my mind this would be cute and as i sketched it out- #-i realised it was gonna be kinda similar #although this one looks better imo #miles is around 7 or 8 here. so like. about 1-2 years after he first shrinks #so it's been long enough that it's become routine and they both accepted that this is just how it's gonna be #they both make the best of it #i mean what else can Gregory do? better make your son comfortable with the whole shrinking thing #maybe they just sat down like this while watching signal samurai. maybe Gregory fell asleep first and Miles hadn't shrunk yet. #maybe after the sun set and he shrank down he climbed up a bit so he could sleep there with his father #ALSO! the dad energy exuding from Gregory here lmao it reminds me of my own father

[bylerposting]

outside the realm in its source media plays when the characters learn they live in a simulation after they're temporarily removed from it. surely that doesn't imply anything

#this game is really cool but ST used this track WAY better im sorry #mabye if i hadn't already heard it in ST it would've matched better but eh #the themes though? like there is no way they just used this track bc they liked how it sounded or whatever #this game 100% inspired ST in some way and im gonna write more abt it once i finish it #suprised i havent been able to find any metas done already considering s2 is like 6 or 7 years old now

[widevibratobitch]

moments like this when im really glad im a sad little cynic who always considers the worst possible outcome and never lets herself truly get comfortable and trust the good things in her life to stay there and builds her life around trying to soften the blows of the eventual disappointments just waiting around the corner lol never leaving my edgy teenager era peace and love

#i mean if the alternative is whatever the fuck is going on with my best friend rn then hooooo boy #cancelling therapy immediately i never want to change i wanna keep my trust issues forever and ever if its gonna save me from THIS #is he a dick? kinda. yeah. and a coward because if dude was sure he didnt want it since AUGUST and didnt have the guts to end it till now #actually he didnt end it. she was the one who finally snapped. but we seriously fought twice before because she just woudlnt listen #when i said that girl this isnt gonna work and you trust him too much and you're attachment styles are incompatible as hell #your* #but nvm. the least you could do when a 7 years younger girl who's clearly obsessed with you is breaking up with you #cause she just cant take it anymore. and you can see she's still in love with you because you've been lying to her for half a year. #imo the least you could do at that point is just. dont tell her that jfc. just say you're sorry it didnt work out etc etc #dont fucking tell her you stopped being in love with her in fucking august #and just 'didnt know how to end it' and lied when she asked if everything's alright #like my god. yes ig this would never have happened if she hadn't trusted him so completely and expected love to fix her whole life #but jesus dude. she's not even 23 she has a right to be naive. you're almost 30. you DONT get to be a man child anymore #christ. okay. #anyway i wish i could help her but telling her to 'trust less' and 'never truly rely on other people' sounds horrible and cringe and edgy af #but i genuinely dont have any other advice #like babygirl im sorry but your bestie is a piece of human garbage and she's doing the best she can but her best is Not Much alas

[maddy-ferguson]

hbd volume 2

#a year ago i hadn't seen it yet i watched episode 8 at 5pm and episode 9 at like 7:30. so i didn't know #it's so funny i wrote an entire page in my journal about just episode 8 and the van scene like i was distressed and it only got worse #then i wasn't home and i couldn't write for a week and when i came back i'd calmed down obviously so there's no post-monologue despair it #would've been really funny😔 #and like i say: brf slt

[elenadoeslife]

your first love hits different

#another day another vent-in-the-tags post #i came across a picture of me and my fiest boyfriend of five years today. picture must've been 10 years old at this point #found many more pictures of him and us on my dad's old pc #i can just feel my body pull and heart ache when i look at him in the pictures #wondering what my life would've looked like if i hadn't broken things off between us #we tried to stay friends and a couple of months later we went for a drink. when daying goodbye he moved in to kiss me #i was hesitant and stepped away. he couldn't bare having me in his life while not being together so he cut off all contact #don't get me wrong in any of my thoughts- i love babe whole heartedly and he's the only man for me now and in my future #it's just that nagging feeling burried deep. the 'what if's. what if i felt more confident about my body back then? #what if i hadn't moved on so quickly? what if i had let him kiss me? #i tried texting him telling him i was approved for gbp surgery (i broke things off because i was very insecure about my body) #he congratulated me and sincerely wished me all the happiness in the world but also asked me not to contact him again after this #it's been 7-ish years but every now and then i wonder how he's doing and what he's up to #he doesn't really have social media apart from facebook (and that page is private) and i only stayed in touch with his former best friend #but i'm not gonna ask him because i know they haven't spoken in years either #i've had plenty more relationships after him but i rarely ever think about those guys #am i okay? is this normal? lol #i should get my head out of this rabbit hole asap #add: the picture is almost 15 years old lol. my math ain't mathing. we met in 2009. not that it's important #i think i just moved on too quickly and didn't allow myself time & space to grieve. that's why he keeps popping up in my thoughts now & then

[supercantaloupe]

i had a meeting to discuss the grad fellowship job and while it was overwhelmingly positive and both myself and the professor/faculty are happy and excited for me to take the job my stupid fucking brain can't stop turning over the one (1) slightly negative comment i got regarding my candidacy/qualification like shawarma

#she told me that during honors evening one of the professors said i'd said something in front of the prospective students #that wasn't altogether positive or encouraging of the school #which like. idk i understand that this job is public facing and part of the responsibility is to maintain positivity and confidence #in the school and the program #but i hadn't. been offered the job yet? i wasn't Working? at honors evening? #it was like 7 pm after a long day i was tired and in a big room full of strangers and i just wanted dinner #not my strong suit socially speaking....not that i can even recall saying anything Bad #maybe just like saying how busy i am with my classes and rehearsals and concerts all the time #but like no one i spoke to was a musician so. how much does it actually matter. #also who fuckin snitched on me. put em up #idk. i'm Definitely overthinking this. i still have the job i'm still qualified and they're still happy to hire me #and i know i can maintain a cheery customer service kind of affect when i'm in the office #like i was a camp counselor for 6 year olds i should be able to manage the lounge at a university a couple hours a week just fine... #but. argh. what did i sayyy. #once again forcibly reminded how utterly shit i am at socializing. #even when i think i've improved i always Awkward And Bumbling in some way. sigh #i wanna talk about me

[muqingists]

family reunions are like. you're haunted by the echo of something you said 15 years ago and nobody can remember something that's been true about you for your entire life

#grandma like. oh i never knew you didn't like mushrooms or that you couldn't have seafood. #when i haven't liked mushrooms a single day in my 22 years of life and i haven't been able to have seafood since i was like 7 #but when it's to bring up smth i said forever ago that hadn't applied to me in years suddenly everyone's memory is back #zksmsks sorry. we haven't been here 24h and im tired already #txt

[hidden-highlands]

i've been backreading my tumblr posts from high school lately because i am feeling very nostalgic for my teenaged self and. viewing my teenage experiences with the added perspective of adulthood is really emphasising how fucked up a lot of those experiences were.

#sometimes i think i am exaggerating when i talk about how i grew up w food insecurity and having to ration food etc #but i used to make whole PAGES of posts about how i hadn't eaten for three days or only had 6 crackers for dinner #(bc that's all there was to eat) #or felt proud at having stolen a handful of chips from the pantry bc i was hungry but would get yelled at for eating #like. that is not fucking normal. #the tone of my posts IMMEDIATELY fucking nosedives the moment my parents moved back in together too #and i knew even back then that it was a terrible toxic damaging living situation #but it's really making me think that it probably messed me up even worse than i realised. #also like. there are so so many posts where i get angry at myself for not using my slivers of free time on schoolwork #and playing video games or watching tv or whatever instead #and it just makes my heart hurt so bad for 17-year-old me like baby you were EXHAUSTED you just needed a break you just needed rest #2015 burnt me out so terribly in every possible manner and even though it's been 7 years i sometimes think i never fully recovered #kiwi speaks #personal

[syxnewt]

probably really fucking horrifying for sans when he realized he couldn't tell from frisk's expression how many times they had fought

#like he walks in hoping it's the first maybe second time expecting somewhere closer to 7 but takes a look and just can't twll #the human's face is so contorted with rage or whatever and he can't tell #had it been 13? 70? who knows? not sans #maybe he had been in this cycle for years and just couldn't remember it #worst part was that they still after all this time hadn't given up #maybe they would outlast him #idk I just thought of it and it fucked me up #undertale

[stupidmanscamera]

Oh please, none of this is probably even REMOTELY caused by you.

WELL IT FEELS LIKE IT GOD DAMNIT.

I still should've checked on him when I had that stupid feeling- I should've-

#dale/red #oh dear he's having that type of episode/mindset that i don't blame him to have since he already feels like shit and he already is in a- #-a place who he already is uncomfortable in (increased from something that happened YEARS ago. he already had a uncomfyness before that.) #also he totally hadn't been bottling up his emotions. which he usually does but is usually decompressed a bit due to drinking alcohol 24/7 #whixh he hadn't done for a while now #... #Mod infodumps in the tags #again