#hardest step too

[tobusysinking]

Friendly reminder that the first step to healing is opening about about it

#hardest step too #I hated it #actually mentally ill #cocsa survivor #actually ptsd #csa vent #cocsa vent #personal vent #traumatic experience #ptsd vent #childhood ptsd #living with ptsd #ptsd recovery #tw ptsd #ptsd awareness #post traumatic stress disorder #mental health

[lilybug-02]

I wanted to redo my attempt at drawing Dess Holiday. But she seems more "stereotypical deer person" here, so this may just be a practice on anthropomorphic characters.

#art #my art #sketches #dess #dess holiday #deltarune #I have thought way too much about Dess Holiday in 5 minutes than I ever have in my life so I am going to give you my two cents in the tags #since its never confirmed if Noelle's mom was absent from their life after Dess' disappearance it could be said she was hardest on her- #eldest daughter. So Dess may have played a “protective” role to Noelle against their mother. This saying Rudy wouldnt have stepped in... #WHO KNOWS?!

[layalu]

WIP Whenever

tagged by @herearedragons! :]

using this to announce Picrew Feedback Phase lol, since i've been working on it more again recently and now basically have everything in place, just need to add and fix items!

Yes i am still procrastinating on adding hair and having fun adding animal features instead u.u But ye! Basically if anyone wants to have a go with it and you have suggestions as to what you'd like me to add (like hairstyles or w/e) or you notice something that confuses you or anything really, feel free to hmu! Sorry in advance for my awful value choices on all the head parts (that's gonna get fixed once i Actually start doing colours) |'D edit: added some screenshots of the picrew maker website, in case anyone is curious what that looks like! :]

tagging @creativegoblin, @superboyconner, @absyntthe, @exotic-inquiry, @curiouslavellan, @cao-the-dreamer, @a-drama-addict, @brainwormterrarium, @snowberry-pie, @goofsoup, @scorbutic-properties, @daggerbeanart, @greypetrel, @ndostairlyrium, @shivunin, and anyone else who has something to share! c:

#wip wednesday #<- its not wednesday but its easier to sort xd #my art #its a constant back and forth of drawing and checking and fixing lol but thats whats fun about it! #its a big puzzle :] #not everything fits together 100% but i think i managed to get lots of things to work p ok! #...though ive been dreading to do the hair since thats gonna be one of the hardest parts fkdsdfl #i want to split it in a way where it will (hopefully) work with most horns without looking weird #& ive also been going into different game ccs to check where the biggest overlap for hairstyles and types of tattoos etc are #to add those too #also need to figure out if i can put in hair that goes from the back over the shoulder without weird clipping #or if i can split the back part of some of the horns to work with hair and headwear better #(for which the first step is figuring out if i can remove a layer from an existing part without fucking it up lol) #and also if i can make horns with different bases/shapes since rn them working relies on the base being the same

[mejomonster]

On a serious note, I do feel mysterious case lotusbook has a lot of sincere themes about getting older, realities of responsibility and dreams realized, how it's difficult to succeed and not always the direct path one expects, how there's value in little aspects of life. Almost every li lianhua scene seems to be about that to some degree. The murder cases aren't particularly deep as far as super complicated to figure out or Able to be predicted super well (since they don't always give all the details in the initial setup), but the themes about who was killed and why do connect to li lianhuas situation.

#mysterious lotus casebook #lb #by all this i mean: a lot of the positive things li lianhua AND di feisheng say are fairly good advice tbh #like a fei? hes like you need to be fair in your decisions for your actions to be worthwhile and earned #li lianhua: sometimes being the one taking all responsibility was bad for you and the people you led who felt burdened #by You taking the burden. and stepping back can be a respectable choice. #cooking is more difficult than fighting. keeping yourself alive is Hard and its the hardest thing we do #and its admirable even when youll never be a hero never be able to achieve what those around you might #your peers are worthwhile if they choose diffetently than you (qian wanmian isnt lesser for not choosing to lead a sect and instrad #dissolving it. di feisheng doesnt think li lianhua is no longef worth his time even though hes weaker now. li lianhua is still someonr he #wants to see alive see brlieve in himself see passionate about things. the monks think its never too late to #reconnect to people again. that people who love you will want you and accept you even when you fail. #even fang duobing by knowing li lianhua gets the experience of someone who wants him alive #and fondly smiles and Is proud of him. evrn if hes learning and fails and moody #fond of him in a way his family wasnt that strangers lied about due to his status #in a way that he clung to li xianyi for ALSO seeing value in him when he felt he didnt live up to expectstions of the world #its the Kindness of little moments of acceptance. of being kind to yourself and kind to others (even down to #not wantjng to kill suspects but take them to trial. not wanting scapegoats blamed. which arent usually done in wuxia) #its the fact this show is quite about gentleness and healing (i see the Love and Redemption screen writing ismilarities) #rather than about power struggles. do you know what i mean?

[weird-unlimited-ramblings]

Season 2 Glenn is Season 1 Glenn, but more conscious of what he has done. Glenn in season 1 didn’t really know/understand what he was doing wrong with raising Nick, Season 2 Glenn knows what is wrong, but has no real way to fix it. Nick is thirteen in season 1, in two years he will start to build independence from both Jodie and Glenn.

Glenn and Nick loved each other, but they weren’t close. So Glenn steps back and falls back into his old habits, and Nick at the time doesn’t care because it’s like four years of stuff that doesn’t really matter. By the time Taylor is born Glenn hadn’t been changing his behavior, and he realizes that.

Then you have the next however many years of covering up that behavior. Then Glenn is back to the start.

#Changing is the hardest part of growing #acknowledging the change is only the first step #unlike Glenn Nicky isn’t too late to change #more a character choice defense than an actual defense of Glenn I would say #but I think Nicky needed to see that to acknowledge how he hasn’t change either #I mean a little but not enough #dndads #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #Nicky Foster #glenn close dndads #taylor swift dndads #I feel like recovering from addiction is a great metaphor for this #you can spend however many years sober #and could fall back to your old habits the second you fall back to it

[quillkiller]

coolio my abusive ex reached out

#fun! #we havent talked since 2022 #feeling paralyzed #she wanted to congratulate me on my apartment and job. ok #thanks #wonder if its bc she always used to say i wouldnt amount to anything on my own and that id need too much help #bc ’you’ll always be one step behind even if you try your hardest’ #KILLING MYSELF

[emile-hides]

If I don't break gold tomorrow I'm going to explode

#I was sitting SO pretty in Bronze at 109 perfectly under the line #Chillin #Then BOOM #The Hardest squad I'd ever seen fell on my lap #I'm talking 40 eggs minimum PER ROUND #And I'm like 'Oh shit???? We're gettin my ass to Gold in one easy step??? Hell yeah???' #Carry my ass past ugly silver take me to the beautiful final evolution #And then we were SIX SHORT #BECAUSE I WASN'T FUCKIN RUNNING EGGS FAST ENOUGH IN THE LAST ROUND #I was rolling instead of swimming because I didn't think we had enough clean area #I FLUBBED GOLD Y'ALL IT WAS RIGHT THERE AND I FLUBBED IT #Grizz PLEASE take me back to Bronze the 129 was a Statistical Error #Give me the Bronze Egg PLEASE #I HATE the Silver trophies I think they look gross and most the time I dislike the gold ones too #But GOLDEN GOLD EGG I WANTED #But didn't dare to try for #Because I was terrified of being stuck with Silver #AND NOW HERE I AM #STUCK IN SILVER #Tomorrow is Gold Grinding Day #I don't have anyone to squad with so it's just me and a dream I suppose #Ignore my loss streaks I was going good down before the 100 #I just also wanted to put the 129 game in the center and only have so much room #Same image three times to try and make the post shorter #Sorry

[freakylilnutjob]

“what if” this, “but what if” that

what if you stop worrying for ten fucking seconds and just live

#I’m saying this @ myself #really trying to drill this into my head #cause the what ifs are what cause most of my problems #I’ve been taking life way too seriously for my entire 25 years and I’m tired of it #I’m gonna try my hardest to start living a silly goofy life #and I think the first step will be getting a tattoo #sams spam

[noxtivagus]

oh man first time actually being alone at home

#🌙.rambles #the rest of my family's going out #i don't feel well so i wna stay at home T_T my stomache aches n i'm Tired #i feel sleepy still. i'm yawning #this feels kinda lonely #not being with apollo is weird #i like being alone n all but it's never properly /completely/ alone bcs #yeah at night apollo n i are often like. in the same room or wtvr doing our own different things #comfortable silence n just enjoying each other's company #i'm really not used to actually being completely alone #it feels so quiet #since i decided not to go out i'm gna be productive! #so weird tho... thinking abt it i typically do things in pairs #bcs i have a twin sister yeah n i typically feel most comfortable in groups that are even numbers #grps of 2 i'm pretty shy / 3 i get overshadowed / 4 i mostly listen but it's comfier #this all sounds rather miserable but in general it's not too bad. i believe and trust in myself but i just really get anxious at times #in social situations particularly the first step is the hardest but after that i can adapt/adjust decently enough to the flow #aaaa i'm too tired to go outside but i don't know what to do at home

[yousaytomato]

Thinking about that post about men in the 70s and 80s, because I also think there's something to be said for women pre-2000.

If celebrities wore makeup it was lip stick and eye shadow, no such thing as a concealer or contour, middle aged women allowed to look middle aged....

#woes of emily #y'all say you want milfs but all these women have a 20 step regime where they try their hardest to not look like they're a day over 25 #i was looking at old met gala pics and its so so cool seeing women bare faced. women with wrinkles. #still high glam!! still in the ball gowns and lacquered hair! #idk. probably they were covered in products and i just don't know enough about it to notice #maybe it's that they simply look different than now so my brain thinks that's better #and look. women can of course wear foundation constantly. they can use a slurry of chemicals. they can get surgeries. #in the pursuit if beauty. because they want to #but the argument of empowerment through these things has always felt too convenient to me #which is not a conversation we're ready to have and i am certainly not the one to lead it lmao but. yeh

[xueyangmybeloved]

i know damn well the first person who is going to figure out that they’re biologically related is gonna be MHX because they keep behaving like this

#the fact that earlier in this extra MHX was already giving them the side eye because their behavior was odd was peak #like yeah he stepped in to try to diffuse the situation bc he didnt want XM to incur JX's ire but the reaction was sus #something is absolutely going on there esp since XM keeps getting away with it and these two have eyes they'll def see the resemblance #you know SM would've figure it out too but we cant include him here #MR and CWN would have the hardest time putting 1 and 1 together though esp since we already saw that TXJ thinks the two are romantically #involved but anyways i am on my computer again reading this extra but failing to finish it every time lmaoooo #incoherent rambling

[hypocritic-trash-baby]

If somehow you haven’t seen by now, while the Super Bowl is being aired, Israel is striking Rafah.

The people of Palestine had been told to go there, they were promised it was safe.

And while this is happening, even though earlier several tags on Palestine were trending, only one or two are now.

I haven’t written any posts personally on Palestine myself. I didn’t feel I had anything to add here aside from reblogging and boosting whatever I can but please. We can’t forget Palestine or its people especially now.

This has gone on too long and gone much much too far MANY times and now is when we need to push harder.

Many of the heads of Western countries are either beating around the bush and wasting time, or outright denying the things the Palestinian people don’t have the privilege to ignore. They don’t have the choice to look away from their pain, or the pain of friends, family, neighbors, their country. And even through all of this they’re still trying their damn hardest just to live. And we all need to listen.

So now, especially if you live in a western country like I do, now we step it up a notch. Now is the time if you haven’t already to read up on Palestinian history. Listen to what the people of Palestine are saying. Hold firm on the boycott like never before. Any and every way you can donate, do it. eSIMs, aid, anything that will reach. Save as much evidence as you can. Videos, articles. Don’t let Zionists pretend all of this never happened.

Even if you think there’s nothing you can do, I’m telling you, keep going. Even if you feel you can only give a little, if we all give a little together it becomes much more.

Hit imperialism where it hurts. In the wallet. Follow the BDS instructions, find protests in your area if you can, boost as much information about Palestine as you can find, call your reps, and do not lose hope. The people of Palestine are not dead. They are holding on even through all this and we all owe it to them to do the same.

A Free Palestine will happen in our lifetimes. But it will be hard fought. So go out there and fight hard! The governments can’t hide from their own people forever. The companies can’t bleed cash forever. The people will win. So push until we do. Do not look away. Free Palestine

#important #palestine #free palestine #social justice #gaza #from the river to the sea palestine will be free #free gaza #justice for palestine #gaza strip #palestinian genocide #israel #end israel’s genocide #endisraelsgenocide #end occupation #gaza genocide #end israeli occupation #end israeli apartheid #current events #jerusalem #free palestine 🇵🇸 #end israeli siege #I don’t usually makes posts personally and I apologize for lack of links in this one #but seriously #boycotts can crack oppression and they’ve done it before #no more complacency #boycott israel #decolonise palestine #end israel's genocide #from the river to the sea 🇵🇸 #superbowl

[tkbrokkoli]

wanted to write smth abt top surgery ⬇️

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #trans stuff #ok so ive been wanting top surgery longer than ive wanted to go on T. my chest makes me the most dysphoric and if it wasnt so hard to acces #top surgery i wouldve gotten it long ago lol #so the hardest for me is the many steps that are involved. finding and contacting a surgeon. getting there for a 1st appointment #for the sugery for getting the stitches out. getting Surgery in general and its risks. staying at a hospital which is not my #Routine environment. possible pain itching restriction in movement complications. the results might no be as expected #just a lot of steps involved that require me to step out of my comfort zone and stay out of it for a longer time as well. #but what are a few weeks of discomfort compared to a chesticle free rest of my life right. so i def Want it #but. there are like 3 decent top surgeons that have a lot of experience in my country that i know of. id have to travel at least 4 hrs #or longer and ive never driven my car for that long and im too scared to take the train/bus by myself and i dont think i could make myself #do it. like. if it didnt involve all that other scary stuff i might manage to try taking a train by myself. but just the train. nothing els #i just cant tackle several things that are difficult and uncomfortable at the same time. #ive read that a few ppl have gotten top surgery in the city i live #ive taken the bus and tram here. no problem. this would be perfect #only problem is there are almost no reviews on those surgeons. there seem to be at least 2 thatve done top surgery. idk who the 'main' #surgeon is. ive seen like 4 result pictures that ppl have posted. ive talked to 1 person whose currently 3 mo post-op but said they #might get a revision done if the results wont look better in a few months. the surgeons themselves dont mention top surgery on their websit #one mentions doing surgery for gynecomastia so this is probably the one ill contact first #basically there is barely any information available. if it comes down the surgeons might not even have done many top surgeries #so my results might not look good. i dont necessarily need it to be perfect. i just want my chest flat. i dont plan on being shirtless #except for doctors appointments and sex if ill ever have any. its unlikely ill go swimming in public and there i would probably wear a #rash guard anyway to protect myself from the uv rays. so my priority is a chest that looks flat underneath clothes. and if it looks like #shit i can get a revision if i want to . i think im gonna contact the surgeons here and prepare a list of questions for the appointment #i feel like i can take these steps. but i cant take them w the far-away surgeons. im gonna talk to my therapist abt this as well. maybe the #have some information on the surgeons here. i also contacted the local queer organization but i havent heard back yet :/

[i-miss-breathing]

Man I’ve healed so much I’m so proud of myself, a year ago today I wouldn’t be able to tell you one good thing about myself but now I’m like “omg I’m accomplishing things!” “Holy crap I’m standing up for myself!” “I’m taking steps to feel more comfortable in my own skin!” And I love that. I’m not completely better, I still spend a lot of time only thinking about the bad parts but I am making progress and I’m proud of myself for that

#and if you’ve made any progress congratulations! #a journey starts with the first step and the first step is always the hardest to take #and if you aren’t ready to take that step that’s ok too #you’ll be able to do it one day #just keep going at your own pace #i belive in you #positivity post

[always-a-slut-4-ghouls]

Duolingo will send you a notification with words in the language you’re learning but it uses words you haven’t learned yet :/

#emma posts #I’m still mixing up and and or #as well as water and wine #and am still figuring out when to use the thing and thing words #I get that the message kinda explains it but I’m not good enough #and I dread learning to speak it with no experience doing so #I have some history with Spanish (not enough for a good conversation) but I have NONE with Norwegian #luckily my main goal it to know how to read and write/type Norwegian properly #I want something better than google translate when sorting through old records from before my family moved here #and Norwegian is step one #I was hoping for it to be step two but because of how much harder it is to translate English to Icelandic there are no free courses online #I was hoping to learn the hardest one first because that was also closest to the root language of all three of the ones I’m focusing on #and my amma is learning Icelandic too #but alas #it’s not meant to be #I know a lot about the history of the language #but I can’t read it #after I learn at least one of the three Nordic languages I’m focused on I’ll refresh on Spanish #my biggest issue with Spanish is remembering which gendered the is used before a word #I keep mixing up el and la

[helioscasereports]

I want to start fan translating but I do not know where to start!

I am very glad you have started down your journey! Please let me know if there is anything that I can do in order to help out, and as always, my inbox is open (so if you would like to you may send anon questions !) So, what is the first step in japanese translating? Well, I think ((in my opinion)) most english to japanese, natrually english speaking, fan translators come from a background of either absolutely no japanese interaction or something like anime. Any start is a good start! You can do it!!

------- I can't read japanese at all / very much yet That is perfectly fine! Honestly, the hardest thing (in my experience teaching / aiding) is going to be learning how to read. If you are coming from a Latin based alphabet of course this is going to be hard for you. Do not think that you are doing anything wrong just because you cannot yet read, everyone starts somewhere. There is no such thing as too old to learn! I am in my late 20s - early 30s and I am just now getting a real job in translations. Not only did I STRUGGLE with my english test (I failed 4!!!! times!!!) but I was turned away from many companies for this fact. I live in america and have actually never left the country! All of my learning and experience is from media and family. So, if I can do it you can too! You can do it :D Practice your charts! Its going to be really easy to start leaning because the internet is a thing, as well as you can add japanese keyboards to your device! This will help you definitely start to learn how to recognize letters! While I think flash cards are nice, I have never really learned from them. So download yourself a key board ---- Download a romanji keybaord! This way you can see it in english, press a button and see what comes up! This will help you familiarize with what letters are being pushed! Do not worry about grammar right now! I personally think japanese grammar is easier than english, but that's a step to take a later second. Download you some keyboards! Don't know how? Easy easy~ I got you Windows Mac Apple Android

This is a really good way to start getting familiar! ------ Which alphabet should I learn first? I think a lot of people suggest Hiragana? I am not sure, but this is the most of what I see from new learners. Guess what I do not suggest as a new learner? Yeah. Hiragana. So, why do I suggest katakana before hiragana? Well, for the pure fact that its going to be a lot easier for you to read. -- Hiragana is used for words that are japanese. Now, I know this sounds weird just hang on and follow with me for a second. Words that are like pencil, or water bucket, or things like this. Just. Words. They are written in Hiragana. I like to say that the unchanging is written in Kanji. Such as the sky, the water and the air, you cannot change or control them, they have a kanji. But things that are not japanese, such as McDonalds, stapler, english names. These are written in outside of japanese. They speak their own language. Such as saying mcdonalds or google. You would read tit グーグル (gu-guru) So this is easier for you to sound out than to have to learn a word in hiragana as well as reading the alphabet. Make it easy for you to start! ------- I can already identify / read Hiragana and/or Katakana, I just struggle with Kanji and Grammar Nice! Good for you! Half the battle is already over, look how far you have made it! Now that you can read or identify, even if you are using a reference chart, you can start typing! The best way to do this is to copy things from the media you like. Start in text and then once you are good to go, you can try your hand at audio. Pick a media you like! Or (once I have content to post) try copying one of my posts in japanese. All you have to do is sit and type the letters that you are looking at. It is more than ok to not be able to read kanji at this point in your journey. You made it this far you will be able to make it! One step at a time. Use google translate, this is my best suggestion for you. Not for the use of the translator but this guy

this little pad guy will help you to write out in the field ! So if you are writing out and come to a kanji you don't know, draw it out and google will help you

Google will give you several results down here to match to and click on. Maybe I missed one itty bitty little piecey of ice so I only have water right now. That is also suggested, see him next to the water? (we are looking at the kanji 水 and 氷) ((shhhhhh don't judge my handwriting i am lazy and draw with mouse)) Then you can get started in transcribing! I personally think this is the best way to get introduced to things :) It will allow you to look at and identify things more and more. And if you are transcribing from a game, or something I have posted, you are going to be able to pick up context. (I have posted this before I have posted any transcribed and translated works) Try copying one of my translated pieces, transcribe the japanese that you see and look at the english while you are doing it. When I translate I translate very by the book and with no personal inflections, so you should be able to identify words as they mean.

Good luck in your journey!! Let me know if you have any questions. I am not the best teacher but I will do my best for you

#japanese translating #japanese #translating #how do i start japanese translating #I know you can do it! #You can do it!!! #The first step is the hardest so if you are here because you think it is too hard don't worry! you are doing great!