#hope u don't mind the shoutout lol

[greaterspawnislands]

hi! hope you don't mind me asking, but do you have any tips on writing hc!phil? he's gonna be in a fic i'm working on and i don't want to accidentally make him ooc if i can help it lol

HI. sorry this is late i was at a poetry open mic. but i have ur answer! shoutout philza nation discord i crowdsourced them for answers cause my brain was so broken by today's lore /pos

I think there's a few important aspects to his character that you'd wanna focus on beyond the like. Typical phil cubito-ness. the first is hc!phil's relationship with time.

"hardcore Philza writing that rings true to me often has a really chill, almost meditative element, especially with regards to time and completing things. It doesn't really matter whether he finishes today, there's always tomorrow. He's not going to give up or get frustrated (redstone sometimes excluded lmao), he's not intimidated by the idea that something's going to take a lot of time or effort." @the-arctic-commune

I'll be paraphrasing some of my other friends who contributed (thank u ty, xeph, rakk, and talon!!), but i felt like this quote is a standout in terms of how hardcore phil operates...there's no real end date to his story barring some accidental disaster that will cut his life short. he's free to take his time and lose time entirely as he works on his projects. ccphil before has spoken about (and implied today with the qphil lore) that being in hardcore causes some time dilation issues - what seemed like a week to the crows was Weeks upon Weeks in hardcore time. but for hc!phil, that time passes all the same, and it's not really a stressful thing within hardcore. the time is gonna pass all the same.

also, hardcore!phil is an archeologist. within the canon as it's currently establish, hc!phil isn't the one building those big projects. he's uncovering them as he moves through the world, maybe you could view it as restoring them, but he spends his time uncovering the histories of the deities and what happened before he arrived in this world. he views the world as something beautiful to be observed rather than something he's creating, if that makes sense.

aaaand also hardcore phil is easily the most carefree of his cubitos. he's still got plenty of classic phil anxiety and wouldn't take unnecessary risks, but he's the only living thing he has to keep track of in this world. this enables him to be a bit more of a bastard than other worlds - the most likely to "coo at an animal and then kill it to laugh at the crows" in the words of @manmadesunshine lol.

and he's also the most carefree because he's able to fly, of course. you can't ever forget the flying <3

any other hc!phil loreheads r more than welcome to add on!!! but i hope this gives someee subtle flavoring to ur hc!phil writing!

#again thank u philza nation discord for helpin me out mwah love yall #duckmumbo #philza s4 #philza

[i-am-church-the-cat]

do NOT apologize for rambling u can expect several long emails of literary analysis in this invox by the end of the week (provided i am not killed by the anvil of a deadline first o7) please continue to say things to ur hearts content <3333

okay then im using you as an excuse to get on my soapbox lol

i hope you don't mind me putting on my maxiel cap for a second, but i've been thinking about other drivers in my patron deities au and there's is just- ahhh

so Max was claimed by the goddess of conquest whose symbol is a lion (this is based off of the book im currently reading lol, shoutout to the Realm Breaker trilogy). this is the verstappen family god BUT she actually skipped Jos because she knew he would never achieve anything.

Daniel was claimed by the goddess of caged things whose symbol is a honey badger. The general thought process here is that when an animal is caged, they fight vicious and desperate, meanwhile that's just a honey badger's natural state lol. It also means Daniel has a harder time sharing things (emotions, secrets, even just inconsequential things) and he has a huge fear of being kept in one place. So more accurately his goddess is the god of caged things that desperately want to get out lol.

But anyway, im just sitting here giggling over this bc Max wants to conquer everything and Daniel never wants to be trapped anywhere so they also have two conflicting energies. it kind of makes them doomed here but isn't that almost more fun? max wants daniel too much (according to daniel) and daniel doesn't want max enough (according to max) so they're stuck in this stalemate

i can just imagine at the years at red bull, max was taking over the space because that's what he does and daniel could feel himself getting squished tighter and tighter until he hit that fight or flight instinct

and max is constantly chasing daniel and daniel is constantly running away. just like "there's nowhere you can go where i will not be there but nowhere i can go where you are mine". horrible horrible thing :))

#i love maxiel #i love when they're doomed by the narrative more #maxiel #series: hunting down dreams #patron deity au #anon ask #ask answered #f1 rpf #ramble

[watermelinoe]

hey hi hello i have a rant i hope you don't mind. but i made a bi positivity post that broke containment and mostly the notes/replies have been sweet!! But there are so many pansexuals tacking themselves on to it like "does this include pansexuals too 🥺" "what about panseuxals" "do i count if im pan?" no no and NO. get your own post? if you want so badly to be your own biphobic identity then stop inserting yourself into bisexual posts?? like what??? u can't have it both ways. its very much giving that "i am uncomfortable when we are not about me" tweet lol

oh and don't even get me started on the amount of people tagging it #q*eer

lmao anyways shoutout to bisexuals who identify as bisexual <3

it does not at all surprise me that the people who thought bisexuality wasn't inclusive enough are whining about being included in posts for bisexuals lmao. they wanted to make up a new sexuality, they can make their own posts

#answered

[cat-scarr]

BenKai is weird because I'm pretty sure I know what the writers are going for and intend for the pairing. They wanted BenKai to be seen like a bickering old married couple who who eventually smooth out their edges and get softer to each other (as seen in some of the future scenes where they do look like a happy family). But from a fan perspective I'm left wondering why the execution was so terrible. Kai never really stood out as 'Best Girl' material for Ben because she never acted like -

like she wanted to be in enough obvious way (for fans and Ben). Again I think I get it. Maybe the writers were trying to go anime style on us and do some class is Tsundere love interest who is too stubborn to admit her interest. Like I get it. She smiled and blushed when Ben accidently kissed her. Her only complimenting his alien forms is her way of denying admitting anything to Ben’s face. But yeah I’ve seen plenty of anime who did it better. Kai’s problem is that the writers didn’t care to make her a fully fleshed out character with enough depth to stand out as interesting on her own. She’s pretty simple: loves archeology. Furry lover I guess. Not nice to Ben 99% of the time (who is her main source of interaction in the show). Also they kept the dynamic stale but not throwing in softer moments that showed growth from Kai. But instead of getting support/understanding/compassion we got more bickering and mocking. You can say Kai could work because she’s such a blank slate. Which kind of reminds me of my Hunger Games days where I loved the story for its story and characters but some fans were obsessed w/pairings and Gale/Katniss had a following. Gale is better then Kai character depth wise but for the life of me I couldn’t understand why enough people liked such a bland character they could project any personality into. He felt entitled to Katniss. Hated the capitol. Looked down on anyone who wasn’t his family or Katniss. Every Time I read a fanfic his personality changed. I realized some fans didn’t care. They liked shaping his anyway possible because there was so little to define him in the first place. The fact some fans thought he was better for Katniss made me confused since almost every interaction post HG was negative. She went through all this trauma but he acts like a huge jerk to her whenever she cares about someone else or has surviving/protecting loved ones on her mind over romance w/him. Sorry for the rant but it got on my nerve every time Katniss was having a moment contemplating the inhumanity of it all and how likely it is she’s going to die or watch someone she loves die. Then Gale shows up to be all ‘gee golly Katniss pay attention our love triangle problems!’ Got me every time. Boy she’s having a crisis you can’t understand. Don’t push her around like you own her or know better. But yeah terrible relationships w/mains you love is terrible. Doesn’t hurt in omniverse Ben never acts like he wanted to be in love with anyone. Briefly I actually thought he was going to end up alone because that’s what he wanted. =P In the end the writers botched up. Romance isn’t a big deal in Ben 10 and they made Gwevin act like a couple. You think giving Ben a minor healthy romance wouldn’t be that hard but no I guess it was. They failed to make Kai a actual character (They put more effort in Skurd and his relationship w/Ben. Let that sink in) or the 2 invested in each other in likable/healthy ways.

 (I don’t know how much I like that formatting but I felt keeping the numbers was distracting. Anyway…)

I actually haven’t seen the Hunger Games, so I can’t really comment on that. However, I do see where your perspective is coming from in relation to the character dynamic. You bring up an interesting point:

“People liking such a bland character they could project any personality into.”

I feel like that’s what it is. 

I feel like people only like Kai’s character when they step away from the canon presentation of her character. 

When they begin to project their own values - things like being a good representation for Native American people, and appealing to feminist values through ambition and independent success - they see the potential of a character like her, and then believe that is what was attempting to be introduced to the audience through the Omniverse portrayal of Kai. 

While being an ambitious, smart archeologist interested in history, or a strong, independent female who empowers women are good traits, it was not heavily focused on in her actual canon presentation, unfortunately. 

Instead, what was majorly focused on is this “Tsundere” type personality, likely for the reasons you mentioned above. 

Now, just to be clear, I don’t personally think there’ s anything inherently wrong with projecting on characters. I mean this in the sense that writing divergent interpretations of canon characters is, in itself, harmless. Whether it is done out of creative expression or for personal reasons, the point is that those people are still able to make the distinction between the canon portrayal, and their portrayal. 

However, with a character like Kai, the trouble is that, because her canon portrayal is the way it is, when people project on her due to this idea of her “potential” and what she could have been (but wasn’t), she becomes out of character very quickly. At this point, it’s expected that she act like she had on screen. 

When I read a fanfiction, and the author chooses to have her be mean to Ben in inappropriate situations, it’s in character.

Change that, and insist that she is an angel, and now you’re just straight up lying to yourself.

It’s the same thing as insisting that Ben is a “sexist sociopath.” We all (most of us, anyway) know that is a lie. Even the writers would find that ridiculous. It wasn’t their intention in the slightest to consistently give us that impression, but it was their intention to consistently give us the impression that Kai is mean to Ben for whatever reason. That’s undeniable. 

As for Ben and Skurd’s dynamic, while they did end off on a good note, I feel like their dynamic had their own issues. I was always pretty indifferent to Skurd, but @karkalicious769 had brought up a very interesting perspective a little while ago in this post which I have to say that I agree with.

#hope u don't mind the shoutout lol #anyway I have a similar point regarding projecting in an essay in my drafts so...more on this later #ben 10 #ben 10 omniverse #kai green #benkai #ask #essay files

[stargirlfics]

Hi malia!! Quick question (and i don't mean to sound rude, i seriously don't 🥺) but why do some girls want to be dumb? Like, i saw your dumbslut # and i was like "hm what's that about? Lemme investigate and learn". Isn't being dumb something negative? I'm pretty sure you're hella smart 🤓 and you are actually. I mean, look at u go! You're doing extraordinarily in your classes. Don't feel dumb sis 🥺 you're awesome

It’s just part of the degradation kink I have, don’t worry, I know I’m not dumb! Which oddly enough for me is the same side of the coin with my insane need to be praised and told I’m doing a good job shdjsjs

The whole “dumb slut, dumb puppy, dumb little girl” kind of thing at least for me is usually reserved for when I just kinda want to turn my brain off, I overthink a lot and my mind is always racing with a variety of thoughts, lots of anxious thoughts at that and I’m always so hyper aware of what I’m doing and how others may perceive me and honestly it’s exhausting a lot of times so for example with my partner I’m ok with being called those things gently as a way of saying like ok I can just not be so in my head if that makes sense I can be his dumb little plaything or little girl and be taken care of and follow directions, I don’t want to think, I don’t want to make any decisions for the time being, that’s all!

Your last sentence made me laugh a little cause I often have people in my life tell me that I’m smart and stuff like that and I guess thinking about it I’m always like really? Cause I’m so much of a perfectionist that I don’t often view myself as smart like, I know I’m smart in a sense but I have really unrealistic standards for myself (shoutout to my therapist for making me see that lol) so the fact that I’m not immediately good at things makes me think I’m not as smart as everyone perceives me to be bc when it comes to myself if I’m not effortlessly smart then it’s not good enough lmfao, unrealistic af right!

So I’m sure that subconsciously plays into why I gravitate towards the whole dumbification/degradation kink which I try not to think about too hard bc I start panicking I’m like a terrible person for it (see there she go overthinking) and of course I try to be mindful of how often I engage in that cause I already have a pretty negative self image I’m working to improve! ♥️

I hope that all made sense lol and I appreciate your concern also lovely! 🥺

#asks #dumbification tw #degradation tw

[1kook]

content creator

→ year in review ♡

hey chicas, i got tagged by multiple people to share my year in review ( @ttttaehyungie​ @dreamystuffers​ @floralseokjin​ @moononthejoon​ @yeoldontknow​ thank you all soooo much 🤩 mwah mwah hope u all have a good 2021!! ), so here’s me reflecting back on all i did in 2020!! also i threw a header on this bad boy bc thats how my life has felt since march </3 

→ first creation and most recent creation of 2020: first creation of this year was actually skirt chasers - drabble i on april 23rd (yes april, she was a late bloomer -_-) after not writing for 6 months so it was very special to me ! the most recent creation was commercial break ; EIGHT on dec 29 where i rlly got to flex my ability to make up stories as i go 🤩

→ one of your favorite creations from 2020: of course i have to say netflix & chill that's my baby!!! i had a real fun time writing the original, and i don't think i could have imagined how popular it would become 🥺 also the series has allowed me to try writing so much freaks shit that EYE aint even know i was into good grief.....

→ a creation you’re really proud of: some way some how !! i wrote that entire fic in less than two days, shit was coming straight off the domeeeeee and also i feel like my storytelling in that fic was one of the best i’ve ever done !!

→ a new style you tried this year and a gifset/fic that uses it: since all of my fics revolve around pretty silly plot lines, i tried to do a more serious story with BORN SINNER; it has a couple deeper topics that i’ve never tried before, so i’m excited to see how that turns out!!

→ a creation that took you forever: explorer -_- that shit took me two whole months to write !!! i was so unsatisfied with the story and kept rewriting it until the very end of september. in the end, i can say I'm really happy with how the story turned out and the world building i somehow managed to do... also i love me some alien kook <3 

→ your creation from 2020 that received the most notes: again, netflix & chill for the win lol. this baby has amassed 2.4k notes since it was posted in june, am i proud yes, am i shocked, also yes 

→ a new fandom you joined and a creation you made for it: errrr i didn't join any new fandoms that i could've made content for 🥴 

→ a creation you made that breaks your heart: honestly, the scene in disney+ & bust that’s part of my n&c series :// to this day i still read it n im like wtf am i okay?? girl???

→ a ‘simple’ creation that you really love: the zoom call series i’ve only just started 😳 the concept is so simple and plain, and too... “normal” compared to my usual fics, but for some reason i really adore it and i’m excited to see how it turns out in the future !!!

→ a creation that was inspired by another one: mmm, i started a series in july that i promptly put on hiatus bc its hard called acatalepsy that is based off/follows a similar theme to the movie bird box !! 

→ a favorite creation by someone else: i really really enjoyed angels & airwaves by miss @yeojaa​ the story just makes my heart flutter 💓💗 i don’t mind by @bratkook​ bc imo it is the best rockstar jk au out there!!! i will die on that hill don't test me. and the weeb koo series by miss @himbojk​ nominated for best emotional rollercoaster of the year !!! i adore these 3 stories and these 3 writers 😡🖤

→ some of your fave content creators from the year: of course the three i mentioned above, @yeojaa​ @bratkook​ and @himbojk​ and also some other authors i got into this year - @hansolmates​ @jjkfire​ @dewykth​ @1oserjk​ @rmnamjoons​ @gimmeyoon​ @readyplayerhobi​ @gukslut​ @jimlingss​ @ubemango​ @angelguk​ <333333 u guys r all so hot n amazing !!!

→ and for good measure, another couple more creations of yours that you love: not any released creations, but i have to shoutout all the accidental jk ideas I've put out into the universe n now have at least 3 people begging me to write everyday, love u ‘jk likes girls with boyfriends’ ‘diff jk’ ‘concert jk’ ‘model jk’ and ‘slater jk’ ur efforts have not been in vain brothers 

→ tagging: anyone who’s already been tagged anywhere in this post, unless you don't want to which is totally cool, happy new years loves <3333 stay sexy in 2021 <33333

#tagged #tag games #damn i rlly went from writing once every 6 months #to writing every two mins #fuck u rona!!!!! all my homies hate rona !!!!!!!!! #tag game

[droidmom]

The Order for the asks?

thank u!

questions from here 

Top 5 favourite characters: vera, rene, rene's unnamed twin sister, lilith, alyssa (listennn she had potentiallll and i forcibly sympathize with her s2 struggles) 

Other characters you like: i found kepler v entertaining even though she was annoying as hell, and i liked salvador even though that could've all been done better. zecchia was kinda fun... i see the appeal in randall, and i love hamish. nicole also deserves the world and i'm definitely not on a list of characters rn bc i've forgotten half of them,,,,,,,,, OH MADDOX i wanted more with maddox 

Least favourite characters: foley was so annoying oh my god. gabrielle took some time to warm up to but idk. weirdly i didn't rly hate edward but i also didn't like him as much as i could've. FUCKING PETE I FORGOT ABOUT PETE HE SUCKS MORE THAN EDWARD SOMEHOW 

Otps: vera/hamish! honestly don't think i care about much else with shipping here, but i like alyssa/lilith and lilith/nicole from afar, and i also like poly-pack headcanons a lot 

Notps: honestly i just don't care about 99% of the ships but i don't think anything elicits a visceral reaction from me 

Favourite friendships: vera and jack!!! i wanted so much more with them. they probs go under family more than anything because the POTENTIAL but for now they will go here. 

Favourite family: i count the wolves as a family so they're going here!! i also wanted more of jack n maddox bonding as brothers pwease? 

Favourite episodes: THE ONE WHERE VERA DRANK THE EMOTIONAL AMPLIFIER THING FUCK ME UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Favourite season/book/movie: i think i liked s2 more because more vera ja;klskdjf

Favourite quotes: "NOW EVERY MOMENT OF PAIN IN MY LIFE IS SCREAMING INTO YOUR MIND" AND THAT WHOLE THING but also like, all of her insults... god tier 

Best musical moment: tbh that duet alyssa and gabrielle did... A++ 

Moment that made you fangirl/boy the hardest: hamish catching vera when she fell ;u; and alSO HAMISH BEING LIKE "IT'S ALRIGHT TO LET PEOPLE CARE ABOUT YOU" TO VERA anD ALSOOOOOOOOOOOOOO THE ENDINGGGGGG WHEN SHE REACHES FOR HIMMMMMMMMM literally i hadn't cared a ton abt vermish until the final like 10 seconds when that happened then i was like whoops im retroactively in hell!!! 

When it really disappointed you: the presumption that i ever had faith in this show when the trailer literally had alyssa talking about fake news... lol. OH WAIT LMAO ACTUALLY. the netflix thumbnail when season 1 came out showed alyssa with BLACK EYES and that NEVER FUCKING HAPPENED IN THE FUCKING SHOW 

Saddest moment: vera yeeting her trauma at the hivemind cult or when she revealed she'd performed the fors factorummmmmm

Most well done character death: all i can think about is rene's because she was like "oh fuck-" but can i shoutout pete exploding like a ketchup packet because that was fucking hilarious 

Favourite guest star: JEWEL STAITE 

Favourite cast member: katie isabelle 

Character you wish was still alive: rene!!!!! also kepler kinda, she was annoying but fun 

One thing you hope really happens: lol it got cancelled :''') but i would've loved more about lilith's whole thing regaining her normalcy, vera regaining her powers, and more exploration of vera's daughter, wHY SHE PERFORMED THE FORS FACTORUM. kinda glad it got cancelled tho bc every other idea or theory i saw regarding her daughter made me wanna break a window ngl 

Most shocking twist: BRUH THE SEASON 1 FINALE HOLY SHIT ;A; THAT REKT ME 

When did you start watching/reading?: started thissssss when it was first released, idk when that was tho 2019? 

Best animal/creature: i never rly retained much abt the wolves n how they differ but i love them.i also now realize man we could've had so many cool monster of the week kinds of things and never did..... :( 

Favourite location: the temple!! also loved vera's house, wish we'd gotten more bc fun personal details 

Trope you wish they would stop using: just... having to pair jack and alyssa... w/e the hell that is... i don't hate it but like, give us other things

One thing this show/book/film does better than others: being so bad it's good Funniest moments: KILLING YOUR ETHICS PROFESSOR IS ONE THING, HARASSING YOUR ENGLISH PROFESSOR IS AN ENTIRELY DIFFERENT ISSUE 

Couple you would like to see: i would like,, ,,  little more vera/hamish, ,,  pweas,e, 

Actor/Actress you want to join the cast: i mean it's over now but there's probs someone in the vein of canadian spec fiction actors from like, fuckin idk stargate or smth who could've reasonably shown up. i mean look at jewel staite

Favourite outfit: [gestures to vera's entire wardrobe but specifically the ones with low necklines] 

Favourite item: the fors factorum!!! the art on it was so fucking cool

Do you own anything related to this show/book/film?: nope. i just like, save any prop pics that come up on ebay 

What house/team/group/friendship group/family/race etc would you be in?: tbh i don't think i'd do well with any of them jskl;dlkjsdf. the wolves are frat bros and i dont drink, the order seems high standard but like... hngg vera... there's like, the new world order fuckers and that hivemind commune but idk if i'm THAT susceptible to cults... nah nvm i could see myself falling into the hivemind commune... we'll say the order itself though for now,, 

Most boring plotline: cant say i rly cared a ton abt the stuff with foley 

Most laughably bad moment: ALYSSA TALKING ABOUT FAKE NEWS Best flashback/flashfoward if any: we were deprived of vera flashbacks and i demand SOMETHING 

Most layered character: VERAAAA

Most one dimensional character: hmmmm i will say gabrielle comes off that way but i don't think she rly is

Scariest moment: maybe when the hide chose jack or when midnight came in and just fuckin killed alyssa out of nowhere jaklskdjf or maybe something from when alyssa was doing vade maecum dreamplane shit with edward 

Grossest moment: there's a lot of gore and i think i blocked most of it out 

Best looking male: ehhhh hamish? 

Best looking female: vera is most my type but everyone is v pretty

Who you’re crushing on (if any): vera

Favourite cast moment: there were some good things in the blooper reels n i love that everyone seems to see katie as the cast mom 

Favourite transportation: there were a lot of portals 

Most beautiful scene (scenery/shot wise): not rly beautiful but i loved all the stuff with the ritual they did with rene... fucked up in an aesthetic way. the commune stuff had some pretty things tho i think 

Unanswered question/continuity issue/plot error that bugs you: god there's so much,,, i just ignore them for the most part ngl but there's def a lot that doens't make sense 

Best promo: THE FACT THEY DREW ME IN WITH BLACK EYED ALYSSA EVEN THOUGH THEY DDINT DELIVER

At what point did you fall in love with this show/book: when i saw vera and was like oh my god ginger from ginger snaps is a milf now

#the order tag #wildandwhirlingwords

[gabagaba05]

OK HERE ARE MORE SLIDES HSHSGA

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/109uK-q-OktPBmv8JF-uDD9HJkq0fnmn6w3yRN8PnGVY/edit

kindly ignore the "people we know" section, i made this for a presentation party

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/16Lg7vWr0cCqq9xNzDlGtt1BV5dINGs0Wj8oFjeqL8qQ/edit

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/12ywRhPHnf4SqGfKkZfE6dDNQz5fDiC3KMXq_Dtjt8r4/edit

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1-ty_5cSKcJTQmzyX19y-BOBlkG369XVTQCgogQD3WZk/edit

onto your questions!

- i indeed to band!! i play clarinet, but we have a marching season coming up so i was at percussion rehearsal. i’m one of the new drum majors for my band (so i conduct the show/im 2nd in line to the director). i’m my free time i fuck around with the ukulele and guitar. im not great but it calms me down.

are you in band?? it's so much fun dbsbsbs!! when the event ends we have to keep in touch (even if it's just to share shitty pics of me in a uniform)

1) i read svt as seventeen! it's really funny though because i don't read skz as "stray kids", i read it as "skizz" fbsbsbshja

2) i'd rather never meet them and b able to consume their content!! i've made it this far already :))

what are your answers to those two??

some sleepover questions!!

1) do you have any movie or tv show recs?? i've been watching buzzfeed unsolved and criminal minds on repeat and it's getting to me 🙄🙄 i plan on watching vip, the one about the north korean officials son, and the wind rises

2) do you have any funny school trip/ band (if your in it) stories? i have quite a few band related ones if you wanna hear them

3) where do you live (this is not supposed to be creepy). i’m from new jersey!! (we might have talked about this but i have a brain the size of a pea

4) what grade are you going into/ are you currently in. i’m gonna b a junior and i am NOT ready for it 😩😩 it's so scary

girl i have no good sleepover questions 🙄🙄 all i do at sleepovers is reenact fanfiction, watch movies, and gossip 😩

if you want gossip from new jersey -> i got drum major over a guy who's harassed me, my sister, and at least 3 of my friends and i’m so happy!! it felt so good to finally have a win 🤤🤤

ooo i’ll check out the slides later!! (i’m babysitting rn lol)

omg i don’t do band and can’t play any instruments, but i’m so jealous of ppl who do!😫 like,, u can just make music! that’s so cool!! and yes we *absolutely* have to keep in touch after the event!! (i would love to see pictures of u in ur uniform alsnksjsks)

ok so i read “ess vee tee” and ya i’d also choose consume content and never meet them, i mean,,, i’m a fan of the content so it just wouldn’t work for me to not consume it anymore lol

ok so for ur questions:

1) ok first of all i love buzzfeed unsolved!! in honor of them ending the series ive been rewatching all of it too lol (i just got to the iconic goatman episode) but i’d recommend downton abbey (i’m only on season four but i’ve rlly been enjoying it) and i’m currently making my way through disney’s tv adaptation of this book series i rlly loved in like,, late middle school-ish? it’s called the mysterious benedict society and the way they’re making the tv show feels so much like the book i rlly love it

2)uhhh so i don’t have any band stories (obvs lol) but i did dye my hair for the first time (well the first time i permanently dyed it) at midnight in the girls locker room? so i go to a rlly small jewish day school, and on the first night of hanukkah they do this thing where all the girls in the high school get to sleep over and light the candles for the first night and then watch movies and wtv and sleep in the not heated gym (and then wake up to pray and go to classes because hanukkah started the day before winter break that year and so we had to actually go to classes the next day🙄) but i had brought hair dye with me so two friends and i (shoutout to @eb4 for being one of those friends and seeing the chaos firsthand shakhskahs) left during the movie (it was parent trap so i almost stayed lol) and went down to the girls locker room and busted out the hair dye! we had to dye it in the sink cuz the school showers r 🤢 and don’t have curtains and i was already in my pajamas. so then an hour later we washed off the dye in the sink and voila! it was box black hair dye and my natural hair is rlly dark brown so it wasn’t like i was dying my hair some crazy color like the blue i have now) i for sure have other stories if u wanna hear them and i’d love to hear some band stories!☺️

3)omg it’s not creepy dw 😂 and i live in massachusetts! also i didn’t know that u live in jersey!! (ok so these two kids who joined my grade this past year r from jersey and they’re so chaotic and i get very similar vibes from u and now i’m wondering if it’s just a jersey thing sksnsjs)

4)girl i’m gonna b a junior too!! and OMG TELL ME ABT IT IM ALREADY AT SCHOOL FOR NINE HOURS A DAY AND HAVE SO MUCH HW AND THIS YEAR IM TAKING AN AP AND SELF STUDYING FOR ANOTHER IM NOT BUILT FOR THIS SKANSNAJ😭😭

omg re-enacting fanfic sounds like such a fun thing to do at a sleepover!! i only have one friend who reads fanfic and we were in seperate fandoms before covid so no fanfic re-enactments for me😔 i’ll def b putting that in my back pocket for when sleepovers r finally a thing again sjhshaha

aaaa that’s so awesome for u!!! i’m not quite sure what that means but u won and that’s always an awesome feeling!!❤️

ok now for my questions:

1) do *u* have any band/school stories???

2) do u do any extracurriculars other than band?

3) ok i know u told me u have a sister but is she younger or older? (lemme predict real quick….💭💭ur the younger one!)

4) what’ve u been doing so far over the summer?

5) shaniac or boogara?? (or shitfish lol)

i hope u have a good night and am sending u tons and tons of love!!❤️❤️

#im sorry for the questions being so mediocre it’s currently 9:50 and im babysitting and exhausted ajbasjhaj #asked and answered #🐯 anon

[hearteyes-for-killmonger]

House Rules

Thanks @elle-luring for pushing this chapter. She was like I'm sick of waiting lol. Y'all been waiting on it and sticking with me through this. Sorry for taking so long. Shout out to Black Panther Wives as well. Group chat stay lit. Y'all so creative and help me more than y'all realize. Shoutout to @someareblindtoitsbeauty for the young influenza comment. That was dope.

Part 8: Innocence

After the longest and most eventful Saturday you've had, this year probably, Erik was gone and you were left to your own devices with the lingering memory of having eaten dinner naked in a towel with a man who refers to himself as 'Daddy'.. AFTER he left you high and dry to teach you some sort of ridiculous lesson two different ways within the same day. Wait, three, he'd also spanked you in the IHOP parking lot. This was only day one of his dominance.

The first thing you did in his absence was masturbate to spite him.. your mind flooded with images of his face, his heated and hungry narrow eyes, his strong hands, his bumpy ass chest, his glistening full pouty and perfect mouth on your... Oh God, you felt yourself flush as you came and covered your eyes as though you were being watched. Pulling your hands to your sides, you chastise yourself for being so weird. Calm down, Y/N, you're being ridiculous, you reasoned calming yourself. It worked, you were calm. However, your fingers were super wet. You had to use them like some savage since he'd stolen your toys.. like the Grinch he is deep in his dark, semi-putrid hole of a soul. The second thing you did was wallow on your stomach in shame. Shame at your own actions and your inactions. You let that sex demon from the final ring of hell do this to you for the sake of curiosity. All of this! He was sucking you in and.. and..

"What the hell is wrong with me," you sigh into your pillow, punching the bed as if it played a part in your decision making. Ugh! This isn't right. It's not. He has way too much power in this situationship. I don't know if I can do this... The dynamics need to shift. Fast. With a frustrated grunt, you reach out to grab your phone off the nightstand and pull up the text thread that made you smile before Erik came over.

Flu: Good meeting you, beautiful. Hope to go out again.

Flu was great to talk to, a total sweetheart when you'd met him and most likely exactly what you needed to clear your head, at least for an hour or two. You hesitate to text him so late though and not wanting to give him the wrong idea, you decide you'll text him tomorrow when the sun's up.

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Erik was on cloud nine on the way home, having made up with Y/N. They still hadn't had sex like he wanted, but they'd get there much faster after today's events. His head was clear of the Shay situation and he was finally at peace.. At least until his phone rang reminding him that he'd forgotten to respond to the text he'd gotten in the car with Y/N. He was too distracted by his own frustration before. Answering the call on bluetooth, a light voice rang out like the twinkling of Christmas bells.

"Excuse me, master. Are you busy? If not, come fuck me.. pleeease." The need in her voice was evident and though he wanted nothing more than to go the fuck to sleep, he couldn't leave her hanging.. again.

"You at work. What exactly should I do to you, Jaliyah?"

"Fucking ruin me, sir."

He scoffed but his dick jumped. She ain't meant that shit but she got off on talking reckless.

"Oh, so you want me to use you like the set of holes you are, huh. Answer me, bitch. Is that what you need from me?"

"Mmmm, yes sir. I need you to destroy me," she mewled quietly. He knew she was touching herself by the way her breath hitched when she purred through the phone and it was way past time for him to get his dick wet.

"Put your pussy on the phone. I'll only come through if she tell me to." Seconds later he heard faint smacking confirming her wetness. She was ready and the way she was talking, she needed dick therapy immediately. Hanging up, he turned off on an exit making the detour to her part of town. Pulling up to the Wal-Mart where she worked, he went straight to the clothing section spotting her near the fitting rooms folding shirts in her navy short sleeve and khaki pants. She had these curly blonde swirly waves on her head like Josephine Baker. It reminded him of when he had waves way back when. His dick was hard already. He grabbed her curvy hips from behind and she flinched in shock, relaxing when she recognized his voice telling her to 'shh'. He quickly twiddled open the button on her pants and yanked them down. Pulling his stiffness from his navy shorts, he pushed her chest into the pile of shirts and dove into her wet canal, his hand palming the back of her head like a basketball. He allowed his eyes to close as he sighed in bliss. He was finally getting some pussy. He was bout to reck her shit.

'Do you ever stop fucking,' babygirl had asked him. He smirked at the thought. If she only knew. There was a woman staring in his peripheral and when he turned to face her, she looked away. White bitch. Her face was flushed pink, like she'd been watching a while. Jaliyah clenched around him in orgasm number one and he gave her a few deep, long strokes, slowing it down. This was how she liked it, she purred into the stack of shirts, her makeup smearing off on one. He clapped back into her quickly giving her harder thrusts, the sound of the smacks carrying across the space. Another woman with a child came around and the mama snatched the kid back fast going to toward the food section.

"Oh shit, we should move," Jaliyah gasped. Honestly, that kid should've been home sleep anyway so it was the mama fault, but Erik moved into the fitting room cueing Jaliyah to follow.

"Uh!," she moaned and Erik let her make as much noise as she was bold enough to make as he slammed into her repeatedly against the wall. Her legs were wrapped over his forearms and she was moaning every vowel. He had to laugh at that shit.

"What's.. s-so funny," she swallowed. He shook his head, it wasn't worth stating. Her eyes narrowed in confusion.

"You.. uh shit, you d-different." She was climbing close to her second orgasm, her long nails clawing into the base of his neck.

"You different... it's like you... you sweeter... uh SHIT," she screeched.

"There it go, don't hold back. Come all over my shit." She trembled contracting around his dick as he kept stroking and he watched her face change, her glossy eyes glazing over before refocusing on his focused ones.

"I like this... new you," she swallowed with a deep breath trying to calm herself and come down. That wasn't bout to happen.

"Fuck you talkin bout." He picked up speed again watching his dick slip in and out, her cream pushing down his shaft as she came apart. She started squeezing around him again tryna make him nut fast. That wasn't bout to happen either.

"S-something's different," she breathed shakily, "Y-you more.. patient."

Sweet. Patient. What the hell? Shit... Okay. He understood what was going on. His approach with Y/N was slowly bleeding into the way he treated his other subs and he ain't know how to feel about it. Jaliyah looked like she was fuckin falling in love with every stroke and every word. He dropped her instantly and she fell to her butt with a shriek before scrambling to her knees.

"Open ya mouth, BITCH." He palmed the back of her head to pull her mouth onto his thick, cream coated shaft. She sucked him sloppily with a passion reserved for lovers. She made love to the dick with her mouth swirling around the head while her hands wrung around the base. He pulled out his phone recording her as he let her enjoy herself before pushing further until he touched the back of her throat. Then he went further, as far as he could without damaging her. Her throat tightened and her eyes began to run, mascara darkening her cheeks as her mouth pooled with saliva. She gagged deeply around him, swatting his thigh in warning.

"I'm still sweet?.. You better breath through ya nose or they gone find you in here naked and not breathing." He pulled back a few inches just to thrust back in. When he pulled back again that was it. He triggered that gag reflex and she threw up on the floor. Erik's face scrunched in disgust as he stopped the recording.

"Did you just throw up on my dick? You sick bitch.. This dick worth more than your life.. I oughta choke the shit out you." Kissing his teeth, he dragged her across the floor naked into the next fitting room earning a strong stare from an older black woman with gray and black hair pulled back. Disapproval was written across her features.

"What? You wanna be next? Buy your shit and mind ya damn business."

He didn't bother to close the door, keeping direct eye contact instead with the woman as he pushed himself into Jaliyah's tight asshole. Jaliyah's mascara-blackened, tear-stained and reddened face was enough for the woman to think it was sexual assault. Erik saw the wheels in her head turning and he reached forward to grab Jaliyah's chin angling her head up to look at the older woman.

"She like getting fucked in the ass like a damn animal. See? Tell her Jaliyah."

Jaliyah's hiss and screwed expression from Erik's rough treatment wasn't making his point. She dropped her head and what Erik knew to be bliss, the older woman was misconstruing. She pulled her phone from her bag as if preparing to call someone to report a crime.

"I will fuckin hunt you down. Walk. The fuck. Away." This old bitch was two seconds from becoming a keloid all cuz she was too damn nosey.

"Don't call anyone, Mae," Jaliyah grunted, "Dis my... Dis my man I told you about." Mae's eyes flashed to Erik's and back to Jaliyah's.

"Oh, that 'special relationship' you spoke of..." Mae's expression was different now and Erik knew she understood. Jaliyah must've told her what they do. He kept fuckin Jaliyah in her ass. He was close.

"Erik, this is Mae.. She works here, but not today she just shoppin."

Mae's eyes rolled over Erik hungrily. He recognized that look and part of him said that's nasty, but another part said he'd knock the dust off that old pussy.

"You lookin like you tryna fuck or sum, what you want," he said willing himself to last. The older woman looked back to Jaliyah and took a look around before joining them in the room and closing the door. Erik pulled out of Jaliyah's ass and stood pushing Mae to her knees.

"Suck."

Hesitantly, she sniffed his dick before deciding it was okay to put her mouth on. She sucked him eagerly, even better than Jaliyah. Old bitch had experience. She had tricks, that lil old tongue was working his sack while she massaged his balls with her hand. Jaliyah joined in and tried sucking his balls from under Mae.

"Nah, bitch, eat my ass that's yo job."

She went straight to it and Erik's eyes widened briefly before he regained control of himself. It wasn't his first time, but she was quick and it caught him off guard. He pulled his dick out of Mae's expert mouth quickly, not wanting to cum yet. Customers were near. He heard voices, but ignored them. Pinning Mae's chest against the wall, he pulled her flowy pattered skirt along with her granny panties to the ground. Y/N had panties like these in her drawer. He gave her each thick inch until she was clawing at the wall. She had a good mouth but when she moaned she even sounded old as fuck.

"Ah.. ah... aw.. ooh.. ooh yeah," she moaned and he knew he had to speed that shit up. Bending her over, he had a better angle and he stroked her hard and deep.

"Rub her pussy," he commanded Jaliyah and she obeyed. Within minutes Mae was coming hard. He pulled out and pushed them both down on their knees, shooting his release all across both of their faces. It was enough to paint them both.

"Now lick it off," he said and they looked at him and each other before cleaning each other's faces off with their tongues. Tucking his dick back in his shorts, Erik left the fitting room and went over to the food aisle. Protein powder, toilet paper, and Greek yogurt. Might as well grab those before heading out. He needed a hot shower after the shit he just did and some sleep.

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Trader Joe's Red Refresh was just the ticket on this beautifully calm and bright Sunday Morning. A light omelette and some toast had your gut satisfied and a few good stretches made you feel like your were actually doing something fitness wise. If anyone were to ask you on this day about your fitness, you'd say that you BREATHE health. You ARE health. And not only do you feel good, but you look amazing. You got your mane under control and pulled it into a cute high bun with the added hair you keep around a black band. Adjusting your royal blue dress and your silver chain necklace, you're pleased that you look fairly conservative. Perfect for church! It's been a while since you've been to good ol' New Bethel Outreach, but it feels like as good a day as any to go. Church to worship and get a word.. Walmart to grab a few groceries to last through the week.. and then hopefully a coffee and good conversation with Flu.. if he's available. You cross your fingers and grab your keys.

It's another super hot day, but the church's A/C is pumping. It feels so good. You pull the bible from the shelf built into the pew in front of you and follow along with the reading. Habukkuk is what the preacher is preaching on. From fear to faith.. turning anxiety into praise. It's like he's in your head. Everything he's saying about anxiety is dead on. You're tempted to raise your hand like a church mother and yell "preach preacher" but you keep your hand down on your lap and remain glued to your seat.

The trip to Wal-Mart is fairly quick since you know exactly what you need. Settling back in your car, you decide it's a good time to text Flu. The last thing you sent was a message talking about how good it was to meet someone cool.

You: Hey, are you down to meet again today? Same place?

Setting the phone on your lap you drive off on your way home. The second you unlock your apartment door with all of your bags, it rings.

"Hey, Y/N! I'm glad you messaged me I was hoping you'd wanna hang out again soon. I didn't want to be pushy. How's 3? Is that okay?"

"Yeah, that's great! I'll see you then!"

Hanging up, a wide smile stretches across your face. Looks like you really just made a new friend. Erik would be proud. He'd approve of Flu, you know it. You just have to introduce the two of them in a neutral environment and let them know what they're walking into before they get there, especially Flu, he's so pure. You'll probably need to protect him a bit before they start getting along. You can see it now.. two feisty kittens, one a tiger. The thought makes you snicker through your nose and your chest shakes. You need to get out more.

There's an hour before you have to leave to meet flu which gives you time to put your groceries away and make a quick chicken alfredo, eating a bit and putting the rest away in the fridge. That will be lunch tomorrow. After a quick change of clothes, you're comfortable in a pair of denim overall shorts with a yellow shirt underneath and some slip-on sneakers. Grabbing your keys, you flit to your car and head to the Coffee Bean. Flu is already there at the same table as last time. Immediately you grin. You guys have an official table now.

"Young Influenza! Hope you weren't waiting long." He's even more attractive today in a periwinkle graphic tee that says 'Limited Edition' and grey camo shorts. Lance Gross eat your heart out.

"I actually just got here. You look adorable, young lady. Having a good day?"

"You don't look too shabby yourself, young man. You're a regular Dapper Dan!"

His smile was humble, but wide. It felt good to make someone smile like that. It gave you a warm feeling.

"By the way, it's my turn to choose a drink for us to try. You ready? Doesn't matter, I choose Matcha Horchata iced latte."

"I've never had horchata, I'm nervous," you chuckle and he strides to the barista ordering two cups. When he comes back with the green drinks he looks just as excited as you are.

"Okay, wait, on three," you say looking him in the eye and you both grab your cups as you count down.

"Three!" After a taste, you look off to analyze the flavors, testing it on your tastebuds and you hear Flu snicker. He's watching you.

"I taste cinnamon, it's different but in a good way," you tell him and he agrees.

"Vanilla, rice, and cinnamon. That's the horchata you taste. The Matcha pretty much just makes it green. Overall I'd say.. for what it is, 8 out of 10."

"I'll agree with that rating, good selection."

"So what do you do for fun when you're not drinking coffee on a hot day?" He keeps a straight face and you can't help but smile. He's goofy.

"Mostly, I spend a lot of time at home watching movies. I'm a huge movie buff.. huge. I have the firestick so I'm always watching something. "

"Really? Can I come over and check it out? I've been thinking of getting one. Besides, I'm nosey and it would be nice to see how you nest."

"NEST? Am I a bird?" This boy is absolutely nuts. It's perfect. "Yeah, come over, we can watch something. It'll be fun."

It is fun. Lot's of fun. Two movies in, he has so much to say and you can't help but think, damn.. why didn't we meet ages ago? You turn to him during the Paris car chase scene in Bourne Identity and his eyes are on your thighs. Turning back to the TV, this whole solution is beginning to feel very familiar. You risk another glance at Flu and this time his eyes are on yours.

"You're beautiful you know that right? Like, really beautiful. I'm sure a lot of guys are attracted to you. How many would you say?"

"What," you chuckle. That's random. "I don't know, but thank you."

You decide to keep your attention on the movie going forward. At least until his hand lands on your thigh, squeezing it. This was definitely familiar and it was beginning to make you uncomfortable. Moving his hand off your thigh, you shift away from him on the couch. His fingers reach to trail down your arm instead giving you bad vibes and you get up to go into the kitchen with the excuse of making popcorn. You're two minutes from asking him to leave. You know he gets the memo to stop touching you because he's a smart guy. He understands signals and he understands you, so why is he acting so strangely?

The microwave beeps and you pour the popcorn into a bowl and head back to the couch, plopping down. Things are okay for a while, he seems content with the offering of popcorn, but then he gets grabby again.

"Stop," you tell him when he slides closer, his hand finding its way to your thigh again.

"You have nice skin. You must drink a lot of water. You smell good too, what's that?" He comes in closer, his face near your neck and you crane away a bit. He doesn't back up. When his lips touch your neck, you react and shove him hard so his body rocks back.

"I said stop, Flu. Chill and watch the movie."

Eyes trained on you, he picks up the remote and turns the screen off. A chill goes through you and when you look at him, he's calculating. He's plotting something and suddenly you don't care to figure out what.

"Okay, you need to leave. You're freaking me out."

Standing, you firmly point to the door and he heads to it with you following a distance behind to close the door behind him. When he reaches the door, his hand is hesitant on the knob. He's acting very strangely and you watch him carefully. Something loud in your brain tells you to run and before you think anything else, you take off into your bedroom and he's right behind you as you struggle with all your might and body weight to close the door, closing it on his hand and forcing him to withdraw it. You lock yourself in and immediately find your phone on the charger calling the one person in this world you trust to come and make things better. Your heart thuds in your chest as you consider the possibility of him not answering. He answers on the third ring and before he can say anything you cut him off talking a mile per minute..

"I'm in danger. Get here fast, please! PLEASE! There's a guy in my house tryna.. I'm locked in my room I'm scared. I thought he was my friend. Please come." The knob rattles violently, scaring the shit out of you and you pray he can't pick a lock.

"Woah, woah. Who's in there? Forget it, stay where you are. I'm coming right now stay on the phone. I want you to move your nightstand and reach under it. There's a loaded pistol I put there. Aim it at door and if he gets in I need you to pull that trigger. Keep shooting until he's down. Do it now."

You push back your nightstand and sure enough there's a small handgun. When did he put it there? At this point it doesn't matter, you're just glad he did. You aim it at the door and wait. It's silent after a couple of minutes and you're tempted to open the door to see if he's left, but you don't.

"You okay?" Erik asks and you tell him that you think the guy is gone but you're not sure. Of course he warns you not to open the door and you have to tell him you're not that stupid.

"Whatever, just keep the gun on the door and don't hesitate. I'm fifteen minutes away."

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Erik was close to not answering the phone, busy on the bar with his pull ups, but something told him it could be Y/N and when he saw that he was right, he answered before it could go to voicemail.

"Angelc-" Her panic stopped his heart for a beat. The more she spoke, the faster he ran. By the time he told her he was on the way, he was already in the car. He drove faster than he'd ever driven, aggressively swerving cars and running lights hoping he wouldn't be too late getting to her. When he reached her building, he Tokyo drifted into a spot and raced up the stairs, his own gun compete with silencer in hand. Her door was unlocked and he pushed it open, clearing every room and corner. Whoever was there, wasn't anymore.

"Y/N," he called out knocking on her bedroom door, "It's me. He's gone."

Slowly the door opened and she leaped into his chest, wrapping her little chubby arms around him. Her heart was beating fast and he could feel how scared she was even with her gun in hand. He hated whoever did this to her. Her grasp on him tightened and he squeezed her in return comforting her, rubbing her back soothingly. He was comforting himself as well in all this. He didn't want to think of the worst that could've happened.

"Shh shh. It's okay, you're safe now. Won't nothing happen to you on my watch. I promise you that."

The longer he held her in his arms, the more his mind began to work. The intruder was in here alone far too long to trust leaving her here alone. The apartment had to be checked for cameras and signs of tampering and that meant she couldn't stay there. He kissed her on the forehead, unwillingly pulling away.

"Pack a bag, you're staying with me. At least until I determine this apartment is safe enough for you to come back to."

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[kaleran]

I put down a project I was writing a while back, and I wanna pick it back up but I don't feel that I'm as immersed in the world as I was and I don't know where to restart. Do you have any tips?

Shit due to mobile’s updated layout I had no idea I had asks and only just now figured out how to find themUhh idk? The way I work is…not very proactive unless I get really fixated on a project. I’ll reread my WIPs (many. God there’s so many) and sometimes I’ll get the urge to work on it more (or, completely rewrite it because I like the idea and the plot but /hate the writing and the dialogue and everything else/ *looks directly at a certain wip* and other times other times it doesn’t spark me but will later. I am a big fan of letting shit incubate in the back of my mind, even if that means almost every little thing that happens irl around me reminds me of bits I want to include or give me random inspiration for where I want it to go. (Of course I do this for several fics at once, some of them not even mine I just fixate on shit I read, because I cannot pull my head entirely out of fiction. Shoutout to fanfic as a coping mechanism, tbh)Also I write…….most fic on my phone. When I say most I mean basically all of it, save my nuzlocke and this one other thing that I need to rewrite half of it anyway. I just use the Pages app and autocorrect is a blessing and a curse and apparently I’m really, oddly fast at typing on a phone, and I mostly write while in bed. So. Before sleep (I’ve literally dreamed things further ahead in my fic than I’ve actually planned, it was weird but super helpful thanks brain), when I wake up but don’t wanna leave my bed bc That Depression, etc. Big fan of staying in bed. If I wasn’t so preoccupied with this one thing that people are cheerleading me to actually finish, then I would force myself to think about my Pokémon red storylocke and /finally/ get going on that. I have like the first chapter completely outlined in my brain and going much further than that, detail wise, is too much before I actually get shit typed out. Also, at least for my nuzlocke, not nearly as much for any other stories, I find it helps to incubate ideas to just draw your characters. Scenes you have in mind, especially ones that you have planned but don’t know how to get to yet because it forces you to think about “well damn how did he get up this mountain?” “If she fought that other thing just a bit ago, then should she really be fighting here?” “How is my character feeling during this scene?” It really helped me figure out my character’s motives and feelings for the bit in my nuzlocke where my first mon dies and my protag kind of falls apart a lot and makes bad decisions. Then again, I’m that kind of person who just immerses themselves in their creative works, be it writing or drawing. Like shoutout to that one time I said “I’ll just do a sketch” and then seven straight hours later realized the sun has set and it is decidedly no longer a sketch lol. Or fake dating fic. Four days on my phone while massively disassociating= 25k of fic, somehow. It really can’t be healthy to do that too much but whatever it’s like a daydream but you control it (mostly). Tldr; I say reread what you have, send it to a friend so they can cheerlead you/help bounce ideas around which helps so much with keeping that momentum, force yourself to think about it while doing other things. What first interested you enough to write it? What are you exploring? Sometimes I’ll see people in public that remind me of my characters/the characters I’m stealing for fic purposes and just watch them and imagine what that character would be thinking in that situation, what they’re feeling where they’re going etc. …it’s probably kind of creepy to peoplewatch that way, now that I think about it >.>(;Idk if I, Terra “finished to wip ration of about 1:15 and about ten AUs at any given time” of Kaleran, am the best person to ask, but I hope I helped anyway? Falling back in love with an idea is hard and I feel you and also motivation is a fickle thing and sometimes you really gotta fight it if you’re determined to get something done (unlike me with my Spanish homework…). U can do it! Do the write!

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