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azrielsdove · 4 months

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Ive really been loving all that you post. I've had this idea rattling in my head. It's a Azriel x best friend Reader. Where their friendship has mostly been platonic. Azriel and Elain were an item before she eventually left him for lucien, causing Azriel to spiral outta control. Azriels getting blackout drunk like every night, crying his eyes out saying how much he loved Elain, getting into fights hes just a mess and although readers there helping him shes fucking hurt that her friends suffering. I picture reader coming to help Azriel again one night dressed really nice and drop dead gorgeous, shes getting him into bed or whatever and hes just staring at her, like really looking at her. The bond snaps for him that instant and hes taking her in and asks her why are u wearing a gown? And she tells him she was on a date with Eris but ended it early to come help him. Breaks his fucking heart that shes dating someone (Especially Eris) but he then realizes shes always been there by his side. I imagine her not knowing about the bond or ignoring it cuz she just can't be Azriels 2nd choice ( but also cant hurt him) when shes been there the whole time and she feels she deserves someone who actually loves her not just cuz the mother said they should be together. Angst with maybe open ending? Or sad ending idk. Lol. Happy ending? I cant chooose. Lol.

Dearest Friend: Azriel x Reader

Warnings: Angst, Alcohol, Brief Mentions of Violence

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You sighed deeply, knowing it was going to be another long night with your dearest friend. You hated that Azriel was hurting, but you were growing tired of the constant drinking and fighting. You dragged the large male out of the alley you found him in, calling out to Rhys to send someone to check on whoever he had been pummeling to a pulp when you found him.

“M’fine,” Azriel grumbled, pushing himself off of you to stumble down the road.

“I know you are. I am just helping,” you explained, used to the difficult task of getting him home. You brought him to the townhouse, as he was in no state to fly the two of you up to the House if Wind. He got angry when he was here, remembering the early stages of his feelings for Elain.

“I want to go home,” he protested, stopping in the doorway. You grabbed his hands and pulled him gently inside, shutting the door behind him.

“We can go home tomorrow, Az. Tonight we are going to stay here, closer to the ground.” He mumbled under his breath something about hating you and this place, but you just rolled your eyes and continued pulling him up to the room he typically stayed in.

You felt an air of sadness wash over you, looking to see Azriel staring at a door near the end of the hall. You knew that was Elain’s old room, before she moved to the River House with Rhys and Feyre. You reached up and placed a hand on his face, prompting him to look at you. “She’s not here,” you soothed, heart breaking at the anguish in his eyes. He nodded, head leaning into the touch of your hand. “Come on.”

You brought him into his room, sliding off his dirty clothes. He didn’t fight you as you slid warm, clean sleepwear onto him, the anger exhausted for the night. You pulled the blankets over him and tucked him in, pressing a light kiss to his forehead. “Get some sleep, Az.”

His hand on your arm stopped you, the pleading look in his eyes already telling you what he wanted. “Stay,” he whispered, pulling you down next to him. You took in a deep breath before sliding under the blankets with him, allowing him to hold you close. You had been sleeping like this a lot lately, your back pressed tight to his chest while he held you like you were his lifeline.

You wish he knew how true that was.

You had learned the shove the pull of the mating bond down long ago, realizing that Azriel would likely never feel it. The two of you had been friends for a few hundred years, and he had never made any inclination that he knew in all that time.

He pushed closer to you, burying his face in your hair. “Why wasn’t I enough for her?” Your heart broke just a little more, understanding the feeling all too well. You ran your fingers over his hands, shushing him.

“Enough of that, Az. She has a mate, that wasn’t a bond you could fight with. It has nothing to do with you.” You felt like you had said the same things over and over, constantly reassuring your friend that he did nothing wrong. Elain had tried to fight the bond with Lucien, making her own choice to go after Azriel. Unfortunately, the Mother creates bonds for a reason and even Azriel wasn’t enough to keep her from her mate.

Your countless failed relationships proved that as well.

“I wish she had been my mate,” he mumbled, sleep beginning to take over. You ignored the pain in your chest at his words, knowing he had no idea his mate was here in his arms. His mate he had no interest in.

“Go to sleep, Az.”

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You smiled at the male across from you, raising your glass to your lips. With the now-accepted mating bond between Lucien and Elain, along with a growing alliance with the Autumn Court, Eris had taken to visiting Velaris often. You had arrived at the River House to ask about the male Azriel had attacked a few nights prior, not knowing he was there. You couldn’t deny the slight uptick of your heart whenever you saw him.

He had asked you to accompany him out to dinner that night, an invitation you gladly accepted. For the first time the attention of another male overrode the underlying pull of the mating bond. You had rushed off to get ready, forgetting the reason you even went over there.

Perhaps it was foolish, agreeing to a date with the Autumn Prince. You were tired of being alone, tired of waiting for the bond that will never snap for your mate. Eris was handsome, charming, and kept your attention full on him. You’d never met anyone quite like that.

“You look,” he spoke, surveying you over his whiskey glass, “divine.” You couldn’t hide the slight blush at his words, heat coursing through you. No other male had ever been able to affect you with such few words.

“I’m sure no different than the ladies you court in Autumn,” you responded, a teasing lilt to your voice. Eris chuckled, sipping his drink.

“Truth be told, I cant say i’ve ever had the interest in courting any of them.” You swore your heart stopped, mind going temporarily blank. “No one has ever caught my attention quite like you did.” He was looking at your curiously, as if trying to find some invisible string that tied you to him.

“I could say the same about you,” you got out, taking a mildly too large drink. Eris smiled back,

opening his mouth to say more when Cassian burst into the restaurant. He caught sight of you immediately, striding over to the table.

“He’s bad. He won’t accept any of us, he’s requesting you.” He looked apologetic, awkwardly glancing between you and Eris. You sighed, unable to hide the slow anger rising in you.

“Fine. Where is he?” You asked, standing from the table. You looked over to Eris, halfway ready to tell Azriel to screw himself so you could stay here. “Im so sorry. Our friend is…not well,” you explained, knowing he already knew the situation.

“Of course,” he said, waving you to go. “I just expect you to take me on an extravagant make-up date when he’s better.” The wink he gave you had color racing up your neck, a small smile on your lips.

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Cass brought you to the townhouse, a sure sign that Azriel was wasted again. “I didn’t want to interrupt your date,” he began, “but he’s losing it in there. Crying and screaming about Elain, destroying everything he can get his hands on. Rhys can’t even get into his mind to calm him down.” You knew how dire this situation must be if Rhys was willing to infiltrate his friends mind without consent. You prepared yourself as the door opened, peering in to the damage he had caused.

It was bad. Very, very bad.

“Az?” You called out, stepping into the ruined home. “Are you in here?” You heard a low sob from the living room, turning to Cassian behind you. “You should stay out here, for now. I’ll yell if I need you.” He agreed, willing to do anything you thought may help his brother.

You made your way into the living room, finishing Azriel tucked into the farthest corner. His shadows were going wild, racing around the room in a chaotic show. You carefully walked over to him, being sure to not trip on any of the debris. You knelt down in front of him, running your hands up and down his arms.

“Hey, Az. I’m here now. What do you need?” Your words were quiet, soothing. He slowly lifted his head off his knees, eyes bloodshot. You clicked your tongue at the deep circles under them, the sunken skin of his cheeks. He was destroying himself.

“Let me help you up to bed, okay? I’ll bring you water, do you want me to send Cassian to pick up some food?” He shook his head as you pulled him up, looking almost small. You gently lead him upstairs, an area he had thankfully stayed out of during his rampage. You once again changed his clothes and tucked him into bed, heading downstairs to get him a glass of water.

You opened the front door to see Cassian sitting on the steps, waiting for you. “He’s in bed,” you said as he stood, “you are good to go. I’ll stay with him.” Cassian nodded, shifting on his feet.

“I’m sorry again. We may have had disagreements in the past, but Eris is proving to be a decent guy. I think he’d be good for you.” Your heart fluttered at his words, that small smile coming back onto your face.

“Yes, well, I suppose we will see.” He bid you goodnight and you closed the door, locking it behind you. You retrieved the glass for Az, bringing it up to him.

“Drink,” you commanded, pushing the water in his hands. He did so greedily, needing the cool liquid after his actions that night. You took the empty

glass from him, setting it on the nightstand. “Anything else?” You asked, voice missing the normal warmth it had when he was in this state.

Azriel looked at you closely, eyes slowly taking in your appearance. “You look…nice.” You rolled your eyes and crossed your arms over your chest.

“Yes, thanks for noticing. Are you good?” You were growing impatient.

“Why are you wearing that?” His question held a small tone of accusation, clearly unhappy that you were out while he was struggling.

“Honestly Azriel, do you take me as your mother? I was on a date, a very lovely night until you had to ruin it.” You couldn’t help the anger pushing out of you, years of being there for him piling up inside you.

“A date? With who?” He sneered, focused on the elegant but tight dress you had on.

“If you must know, I was with Eris. Now, do you need anything else?” You stared him down, focusing every emotion into that gaze. He began to shake his head, body suddenly stilling.

“Azriel?” Your anger began to be replaced by concern, the unblinking look on his face scaring you.

“You’re my mate.”

Oh. That. You couldn’t help the laugh that bubbled out of you at the injustice of it all. Centuries you longed after him, dreaming of this very moment. The very night your heart begins to long for another, the bond snaps.

Snaps while he’s drunk due to thoughts of another lover.

He states you down, unsure as to your laughter. “Azriel,” you sighed, “I know. I’ve known.”

He stood off the bed, the sudden realization sobering him. “This is great! You are my mate! This whole time, you’ve been right in front of me.” He raised a hand to your face, brushing your hair back lovingly. “My dearest friend, my mate.”

It was too much. You pushed back from him, shaking your head. “No, Azriel.”

“No?”

“I won’t be your second choice. Not when I have finally found someone I could be happy with, without the thought of you ruining it.” Your eyes filled with tears when you looked up at him. “You don’t want me, Az. You want her. You said it yourself, you wished she was your mate.”

His eyebrows furrowed, shadows becoming agitated again. “No that’s not what I meant, I-“

You cut him off. “Stop, Azriel. In the hundreds of years we’ve been friends, you’ve never once treated me as more than. You don’t want me, not like that. You never have.” Your heart squeezed tight at the devestaed look on his face.

“You can’t reject me,” he said, voice quiet.

You ran your hands over your face, a frustrated groan falling from you. “I’m not. I just don’t think this is truly what you want.” You looked up at him, standing tall. “I need you to want me for me, not because the bond has told you to.”

His shadows were swirling around, staying far away from you. The anger and hurt in his face broke you, but you stood strong. You would not be with a male you loved so deeply if he could not love you the same.

“Goodnight, Az,” you said, leaving his room and the destroyed townhouse before you broke any further.

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I hope you like this!! I left the ending open, I feel like I always do HEAs so I wanted to try not not resolve the issue yet 🫣. Let me know what you think and thank you so much for liking my writing enough to request something ❤️

#azriel x reader #acotar x reader #azriel x y/n #azriel x you #acotar x you #acotar x y/n #requests #dearest friend

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trinity-trouble · 1 month

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very biphobic of Larian that i can't have both Astarion AND Karlach how i am supposed to chooose?

#bg3 #astarion #karlach

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on-noon · 9 months

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Make Me Write Tag!

thanks for the tag @saltysupercomputer

Rules: Make a 24hr poll listing the titles of every WIP you want to work on. (It’s fine if you only have one, still make a poll for the vote count) Whichever WIP title gets the most votes, write 1 sentence for every vote received.

i'll put an open tag on this, if you've been meaning to write but need a little motivation, consider yourself tagged!

info about each below cut:

life friends & friendship ends

my main story right now. almost 5k words. about a king & his friends & i absolutely put them through it. right now the plot is a little flux. (i want Larath to live, but I can't figure it out. i want Zadaf to reunite with his son, but don't know if i could make it fit)

Jacen & Tristan

a fanfic for Star Wars Rebels. i enjoy writing it, it's three chapters in & i've got plans for later (i do need to find out what happens directly next)

Countdown To Magic

the project I've put the most words into outside of nanowrimo. Magic School, where the main character is basically allergic to magic due to her family being intertwined with the Countdown Spell

ChemistMan

the story of Kalro, an anti-politcal son of a senator who gets expelled and has to start at a new school, and he makes a friend (also this has the most sibling dynamics)

soemthing about Edur

Edur's a character from life friends & friendship ends she refuses to use magic at her magic school. I feel like there's more to her story than the side character amount she'll get in the main story

one of the many prompt-based stories in my draft

some of them are almost done, just need to figure out how to end, some have only a beginning. i don't know which one I'd chooose, but it would be nice to finish something.

start something new. open document start typing.

who knows what this will be? i don't really need a new idea, but it would be a nice change of pace.

start a flatland fanfic

i've a few ideas, some more based on the book others more based upon the film. it migth be fun to play around in that world

the Seventh Prince

who knows if this would this be starting over or continuing? not me. it's a pretty fun sci-fi ish story that is about the cousin of the eponymous Seventh Prince while the country is in absolute turmoil. i like playing around with the funky government, as while as the cousins' friendship

superpowers story

a little bit of an odd story. (although i've now gotten it to work without being marvel fanfic!) it's about a society with a bunch of superpowered people (not the majority in the world, but majority in the story because of how the society is stratified). the main character is the son of influential supers, but doesn't have any powers himself. he makes friends with this girl who's parents were from two different super groups & she gets kidnapped back & forth. inspired by sky high. i've only written the first scene, but i like the characters. also there's too much lore to the world

#tag game

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schrodingers-catgirl · 5 months

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Random questions hour!

Whose ya favourite characters from SxF and Yttd!

What’s your favourite puzzle room in Zero Escape! (Unless you don’t have one maybe that’s just me, lol)

!! Ooh!!!!

My favourite characters from sxf are definitely yor (most gorgeous funniest girl in the world I love her) and Damian (cringest 6 yr old ever I wanna adopt him. Also if you've read the manga you Know. I am Soo in vested in his family situation tf is going on there ?!)

Yttd!!! Uhhh I love so many characters,,,, Sara and Joe and gin and kanna and nao and reko and ranmaru and hinako and anzu and . You can't make me chooose

Favourite room!!!! Hmm . I really like both of the door 4 rooms in 999 . In terms of interactions mostly (we get junepei, funyarinpa, akane infodumping in the freezer, "the lady doth protest too much, methinks") just a great collection of stuff. 10/10

Thanks so much for dropping by, this was so fun!!!!!

#asks<3

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iceway · 1 month

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Hnnnnngg someone suggest me some digimon to draw, I've been sucked into the world of Cyber Sleuth again by playing Hacker's Memory and I wanna draw but can't chooose!🫠

#Iceway talks

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here2bbtstrash · 1 year

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✨ valentine's build-a-fic: finish with some flavor! 💘

what a crazy week it's been 😩 to recap our build-a-fic thus far: y'all chose a throuple, enemies to lovers, reader dating jihope when they hate each other 🙈, and ...oh yeah! you want it maximum spicy!!! 🌶

i love it 😈😈😈 now i basically have everything i need to take this fic and run with it, BUT - i did think of one more choice y'all can help me with!! and this very last poll is gonna work a liiiiittle bit differently, because this time: literally every vote counts 👀👀👀

essentially, this poll is a list of smutty ~flavors~ that i custom-selected to pair with these prompts. rather than only using the most popular answer, i'll take a look at how every choice fares, and use that data to determine exactly what kinda nasty smut y'all will get - cause it'll certainly be more than just one of these!! 🥵 so i know it's hard, but please vote for the one "flavor" you MOST want to see!! (and if you really want to pick more than one, you can leave a comment after you vote 🤭)

i hope this makes sense 🙈 since y'all went FULL NASTY WITH IT i couldn't exactly limit us to only one of these options!!!! so i'll give you as many as you want 😈 i've had so much fun running these polls for y'all and seeing all the excitement - THANK YOU to everyone who has participated in some way!!! i hope you've enjoyed it too!!!

once this poll wraps, i'll be working on this fic as much as i can while still doing my usual jihope month (and various other wip!) things. i can't promise a firm deadline, bc i want to take my time to make this good! i'll DEFINITELY keep y'all posted on the progress and let you know when she's about to drop tho 😘 but first - i'm excited to see what flavors you chooose 💋 signal boost reblogs are appreciated as always!!! 💘

#mposting #jihope month 🌹#valentines buildafic 💘

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astromechs · 10 days

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1 3 9 16 24 please, whatever Fandoms you feel like talking about

1. the character everyone gets wrong

matt murdock is my choice for this today 💀 i love matt, he is my blorbo, i hate the fandom take on matt. get the words "catholic guilt" out of your mouths, shut up, he's not some defenseless woobie baby that isn't accountable for his own actions, he's a grownass man who's responsible for sabotaging his own life and relationships on the regular, stop blaming elektra and being weird about her when he does ALL this shit himself. i trust very few people to have actual correct takes on matt LMAOOOOO

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

shoutout to the classic "tony stark is female-coded" that i no longer have a screenshot of but we all remember. what the fuck were you talking about.

9. worst part of canon

ok i already dunked on rise of skywalker last time i did this, so i'm gonna get really controversial: the mcu is the worst thing that ever happened to the gotg and because a lot of bad comics takes came down as a direct response to the mcu? that's the worst part of their canon.

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

literally why do y'all want to woobiefy your blorbos. why. this takes all the teeth out of a character and what makes them interesting. i do not understand and i will never understand!!

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

what doesn't bring up rancid discourse in these fandoms, lol. i'm gonna be biased and say whenever people start comparing rogue one and andor because that discourse tends to annoy me personally the most and ends up with me hating all of you on all sides of it. here's some money, go watch a star war.

chooose violence asks!

#asks #thefaceofthneedinc

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yostresswritinggirl · 1 year

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I honestly have no idea if it should be an ask or what, but I saw your post that said more Nikki men, and here are some cards from future and previous events.

Pretty people, pretty people

Another one has blessed me with more Nikki men, yes! And this is the right format, don't worry!

I don't know the names but based on looks omayghad it's amazing that the previous asker didn't have any duplicate men here, so diverse and plenty! They all look so pretty I can't chooose

I'm thankful I'm not playing this game because I definitely won't be able to choose and aim to get/meet them all haaaah

#exile.goblet #shining nikki #show and tell

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simmingonthelow · 3 months

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8, 15 and 21 for the ask game!

Hiiii ༼ つ ◕_◕ ༽つ💖

8. What’s your favorite band/artist?

I actually don't have any. I don't want anyone to get jealous 😔. What I can tell you though is that I'm a lover most music and my go to would be.....damn I can't chooose...so I'll go with I like music that can at least catch my attention with/by the chorus... that's it.

15. What’s your favorite season?

Well I live in a tropical country so the only seasons we get are the wet and dry ones (twice a year) I'd say I fancy the wet season more (minus the possibilities of flooding).

But if I had to choose a season from the 4 I'd choose SPRINGGGGGG!!!!! No, not for the flowers 💀 but because it aligns with my country's 1st wet season and I was born in spring!

21.How was your day today?

Well, I think I did kind of good on my research proposal today (except for the mistakes I can't forget 😭😭😭😭😭) but things were looking up a few hours later! I got a Free book from the Library! and I also got two more to read and now I'm back in vacation mode for a while until uni starts! so my spirits are up and I'm ready to hotgirl for a while. Thank you for asking!

#deen's scene #deen answers #void-imp #thanks for the ask!

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lxdymoon0357 · 11 months

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aurelia choose please ^^

siren, demon, vampire, angel, phoenix

Oh shit! I CAN'T CHOOOSE, I WANT SIREN, VAMPIRE AND DEMON....I'm choosing all three

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77ngiez · 11 months

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3, 9, 11, 16, 23 canonronpa 🤯🤯

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

anything related to cis chihiro or stoner yasuhiro <3

9. worst part of canon

SO HARD TO CHOOOSE probably the racism Tee Bee Eych

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered

9 (mostly ship names)

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

fuyupeko & mahiyoko & celesgiri.. also why do ppl have so many sibling hcs based off of hair/eye color only and not, like, backstories or dynamics or w/e. WHEN PPL HC AKANE AND AOI AS RELATED I HATE IT. ITS JUST BCOZ THEYRE BOTH WOC IT DOESNT EVEN WORK W THEIR BACKSTORIES!!!!

23. ship you’ve unwillingly come around to

irouma 👍

#nana.txt #sorren #ask game

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weaselbeaselpants · 1 year

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Honest to god, not bad feelings to mostannoyingfandom-poll. Having looked up their blog I see they're doing some elimination process thing where they're going to pit the most of the most annoying fadoms together to see which one's the worst, and also I'm fairly certain they're just having fun.

I get it. It's fun.

The reason I'm peeved isn't because they actually are looking for trouble or being definitive in this fun little poll-collective, it's that sadly, I know other fandom-critical people are. Believe me I want to be having fun...I'm just concerned that these situations will quickly turn into what happened with "Your Fav is Problematic"; dumb basic jabbing turns into legit vitriol.

I dislike Harry Potter and want it boycotted and I'm fine with Steven Universe being hated because it is problematic and it's fandom toxic. Whatever. My issue is these voting systems are unfair and based on popularity and appealing to certain fractions of fandoms. Star Trek is a multigenerational subculture with multiple incarnations to it's name and plenty of spin offs that has seen rise and falls in many different fandom controversies to it's name if you poke around and ask people who aren't on tumblr....but unsurprisingly people on tumblr who know and hate steven universe more are gonna be more mad at Steven Universe, where Star Trek they're gonna go ahead and write off as "harmless" because they're either not in that fandom like me or just don't know the extent to which the kinds of toxicity spread out. Idk, I feel like comparing Steven Universe to Owl House's fandom or She Ra's fandom would have made for the better, fairer poll.

And again, comparing a fandom who's only vocal 'everything's fine' supporters are TERF altlight apologists to It's Always Sunny is just uneven. I don't know shit about It's Always Sunny- but again there's other more toxic examples you could have pit it against.

And I see this a lot because there's a lot of pitting one property against another when they really don't have the same base worth comparing and especially not when I know of one thing involved because it's iconic and the most popular vs the other niche thing that I'm sure has it's own toxicity but...I've never fucking heard of it before. I'm just saying, can't we keep this to fandoms that are reliably in full swing somehow all the time +roughly have the same people in either so they'd have a harder time voting +really big, insanely popular shit everyone on this platform knows? Everyone knows Harry Potter and Steven Universe on tumblr...maybe compare them to something that also relevant on tumblr. I just think it'd make for a tougher poll.

Sorry I just don't want to invade on other ppl's silly rebloogs anymore is all.

tl;dr: which one do I chooose? The fandom I'm in and know for certain is awful then, or the one I barely know about?

#critical fandom #fandom critical #fandom wank #danny phantom #harry potter critical #harry potter #hazbin hotel critical #I know I know I'm sorry for being a party pooper

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