#i can't even deny anything

[aelivz]

What my my cousin remembers about the jjk characters based on what I told her

#spoilers ig #why is it kinda accurate tho #i can't even deny anything #pls don't come for me #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #choso kamo #toji fushiguro #gojo satoru #nanami kento

[captain-astors]

Creature. (The rendered ones are referenced from manga panels)

#mediocre art #tokyo ghoul #On some level I think I should like Kaneki more than I do but there's this weird sense of detachment #I have not only from him but being able to perceive him as a character? #I don't even dislike him it's just that I can't feel any which way about him at all. He's a catalyst for events #feels more like the conch from Lord of the Flies or something rather than a fictional person. #He doesn't suffer and learn from the consequences #he just suffers and does what got him there again. It's arguable that the lack of punishment denies him the satisfaction #but if that's the case why does he end the story with everything working out perfectly for him? #Why do his friends oblige his flaws and accept his lack of change? #Is the problem my lack of understanding or his lack of good writing? #Is he well written? #Why do I like a certain character from a different anime who's a very similar person with very similar dynamics #but with a goal and acceptance by himself and those around him that his actions really are reprehensible and cannot truly be atoned for #not only more but to the point that he's actually one of my favorites? #Am I just sitting upon a throne of entitlement #because his thought process and experiences are not catered to be applicable to and understood by myself? #GOD IF I KNOW ANYMORE #I'm not pressuring myself to like him or anything I just don't understand anything about kaneki these days and I don't know why

[reachexceedinggrasp]

Danny 'I don't do weird' Pink frustrates me as a character, because I'm honestly not sure whether he was supposed to have an arc or not.

His primary role is as a foil for Clara's arc and, in aid of that, as a mirror to the Doctor. A solider with survivor's guilt and a man of action who can't stand by when people need help etc., in some ways he and the Doctor have a lot in common, but he's also a very grounded and circumspect personality versus the Doctor's being fantastical and adventurous. Danny isn't curious and doesn't want to pursue new things or experiences, instead he wants to be fully present with and grateful for what he already has. The Doctor is incorrigibly curious and always interested in new things.

Danny is someone who desires nothing more than an ordinary life, and looks for beauty and satisfaction in the normal things and people around him. He wants his world to be small and quiet, he values the mundane things others might take for granted. He's normal, patient, dependable, simple, honest, etc. His reaction to trauma hasn't been to disavow the things which lead him to that event, or to seek out stimulation to avoid thinking about it, it's to be thoughtful and cautious and somewhat rigid so he can always apply the mindset and skills he retained from before he was traumatised.

He's very firm and unbending in his worldview and in his self-image. He doesn't seem to ever reassess people once he's decided what he thinks of them. He's not unreasonable or unwilling to compromise, he is in fact maybe too reasonable, but he is implastic. He's extremely even-tempered except for around his identity as a soldier, which he's prickly about, but still pretty quick to let it go as long as he's not being deliberately antagonised.

So anyway Danny represents this other path, and this opposite response to the horror of war and making a catastrophic mistake, but he never learns, he never grows and he and Clara are never much on the same wavelength about anything. He's supposed to be stability, the things she 'should' want, the 'person she's supposed to like', the safe choice, the presentable life which Clara feels like she has to have. He's orderly and ordinary and that's what she wants from him. She has to control her image, her future, and her options.

And their simple relationship, once it exists, functions well as the contrast to her complicated and tumultuous relationship with the Doctor while the companion power dynamic is being dismantled and rebuilt so they can be emotional equals. But like, the set up is confusingly executed.

Listen- they have zero chemistry, they have nothing to talk about and have to resort to talking about work, every conversation goes instantly off the rails, they rub each other the wrong way, there is never any reason for them to keep reconciling and trying again to connect. Like. You are not hitting it off! and keep offending each other bc you're not compatible! Quit!!

Clara is forcing it, that makes complete sense with what she's going through, she's trying to take control of her life and her emotions, trying to prove to herself she's not pining for the Doctor and at the mercy of his whims for her life to be full and complete. She doesn't want to need him or to be dependant on him. She doesn't want to be the heartbroken sadsack whom he abandoned at Christmas or who will take whatever scraps he'll throw her. She wants to control his position in her life and control how she feels about him. Hence her assigning him a specific day and confining their adventures on her own terms. She's trying to keep the Doctor compartmentalised. Having an Appropriate Human Relationship means she's successfully put the Doctor in his box (lol) and neutralised the chaotic power of her feelings for him. I mean, obviously not, but that's what she tells herself.

But what is Danny doing? Why does he keep pursuing this when it's so clearly not a good match?

Again in Listen, and much more so The Caretaker, Danny illustrates that he does not know who Clara is, he's wildly wrong about her and what she's like, and he's very high handed about it as well. He's convinced that the Doctor is taking advantage of her, that the Doctor is domineering in their relationship, that she is not a person who wants to be put into challenging or dangerous positions, that the Doctor is pushing her to takes risks and become a leader where that's not her nature. None of this is true. Clara was always a decisive, assertive, strongly driven person who seeks out new experiences and naturally assumes a leadership role any time that's necessary; she relishes being challenged and facing the unknown. Her blow up with the Doctor wasn't about him 'pushing her too far', it was about him failing to support her when she needed him and condescending to her as a human rather than treating her with the intimacy and equity their bond and history together demands. It's personal and it's about their emotional relationship. It's not about making hard choices, it's about having to make hard choices without her partner being honest with and emotionally available to her.

Clara was always an adventurous person, willing to be spontaneous as long as it's on her terms, and excited by the prospect of authority and responsibility. The danger and challenge isn't an unfortunate side effect or a risk she has to take to see amazing sights, it's part of the appeal. She lied to Danny by omission when she said she went off in the box to 'see wonders', not just because the real reason is that she's in love with Doctor, but also because she doesn't just want to be a tourist. She wants to get involved and save people, she wants things to sometimes go pear shaped. She enjoys and craves that part of it too.

Danny is also wildly wrong about the Doctor, but this is understandable and would be fine except that he's never corrected? He never learns better? What's the point?

In Death in Heaven Danny goes out still wrong about the Doctor, still condemning him cruelly and unfairly while knowing nothing about him. He had a point with his original rant, there was actual insight there, but it's buried in assumptions and bitterness and then Danny keeps tripling down on the assumption. The one which doesn't understand that the very thing he's shitting on the Doctor for (being willing to lead and make hard choices which must be made in order to save people) is something the Doctor has in common with Clara. And always has. The Doctor didn't change her or push her into that, that's who she's always been.

What is the point of Danny calling him a blood-soaked general and mocking him, calling him an officer as a pejorative again, and again because the Doctor is trying to save the planet. Like, memory check, that's what Danny is mad about. The Doctor doing everything in his power to save literal billions of lives. Doing it for no reason, out of altruism. Doing it while always trying very hard not to fight or kill anyone.

I don't understand how we're meant to find Danny sympathetic in that moment, because he comes off like a complete dickhead. And it's all the more frustrating because in the intervening episodes Danny has been eminently reasonable. As I've discussed before, we're exhaustively shown that Danny is 100% okay with what Clara claims is going on, that he doesn't want to get in the way of her friendship with the Doctor, that if it really were only the relationship she's pretending it is, there would be no conflict. He's the one who encourages her to make up with him after Kill the Moon! He tells her to go on travelling and it's fine!

Even when he discovers she's been lying to him and cavorting with the Doctor behind his back (again despite him telling her it was fine!), he's calm and repeats for the millionth time that all he wants from her is honesty. The truth. Which is the one thing she can't give him because Clara knows their relationship is built on the lie. The truth is, as Moffatt said, that Danny never stood a chance. There is a conflict between the two relationships and she's always going to choose the Doctor.

And that does come out, she gives the whole speech to Danny, not knowing it's him, finally being honest. And he seems unsurprised by it, which makes sense because on some level he definitely always knew ('do you love him?' 'no' 'really sick of the lies'), but then nothing comes of it. Clara just soldiers on and he allows her to pretend. He goes off on the Doctor, but not in a way he actually deserves at all, and just sweeps her confession under the carpet. Letting her get away with it again. True to form, I guess! he always did. But shouldn't we make progress?

And it's like... I hate that he dies on that note. It feels like he dies in denial. I guess you could argue it contributes to his decision to not come back, but that feels like a disservice to the character. Saving the kid is important to Danny, it allows him to atone but he didn't need to change or grow to accomplish that and it doesn't provide closure to his actual role in the narrative, which was as Clara's foil. Clara is off the hook, free to go on lying to herself about their relationship. It's not addressed in Last Christmas, either, it's only hinted at.

#clara oswald #whouffaldi #dw #twelfth doctor #dw meta #I feel a constant need to remind people that the first thing Danny asks after Clara explains who the Doctor is #is 'do you love him?' #it's that transparent #and he asks already knowing the answer and immediately calling bullshit when she denies it #and apparently accepts this as not a threat to him on the basis of the Doctor being an untouchable alien incapable of loving her back #like as if she had a crush on a dragon or the Great Wall of China #I can't tell if that speaks to his lack of self worth or if it's just really patronising #I appreciate In the Forests of the Night so much for the scene where he finally realises he should be jealous #but then he's just Extremely Reasonable about it again #he has total faith in his idea of who Clara is- utter conviction #and it's completely misplaced #I feel owed the psychological fallout from this is all I'm saying #calling this meta is being very generous bc did I even say anything #but whatever it's a bunch of words I'll put it in the box with the other words #I've realised 95% of my whouffaldi meta is in tags on gifsets so

[robinsteve]

i had a lot of issues with s4 but i genuinely believe that max’s arc in s4 was one of the best things they have ever done in this show and i don’t think the graveyard scene nor her death scene will ever leave me. the way that so many people have connected to her and her story is incredibly moving. you don’t need to have experienced 1980s indiana or battles with lovecraftian horrors to  wrap yourself in max’s pain, her quiet distance, her panic when she finally realizes she wants more time just as her clock is running out. i just. i don’t know. the duffers got that really, truly right.

#the inherent heartbreak of having an epiphany just a moment too late; of finally knowing that there's more for you only when you're #teetering on the edge of a cliff; of Wanting something so ordinary so badly after months or years of not feeling anything at all and being #denied. #and it's all driven home by the fact that she's a child. that this should only be the beginning but this is the ending because sometimes we #can't see something even when it's standing right in front of us and now she and lucas and el and everyone else are learning the bitterest #lesson that is. #it's so so horrible but in such a tender way. anyway if you want to bawl your eyes out #at 11pm like me i highly recommend watching fans react to max's death. it's given me a lot more respect for youtubers and also makes me want #to disappear off the face of the earth a little bit<3 #max mayfield #st 4 #stranger things #** #millie talks

[vonlipvig]

MAN posting art anywhere other than here is such an experience, cause why did this guy tell me my art was beautiful and all but that i draw women too masculine and that if i cut her hair and took off her makeup she'd look like a man. like what am i supposed to say to that other than i think you need to look at more women in real life 😭

#????????? lol? lmao even? #it's the out of nowhere criticism like MAN here they just keysmash and i call it a success #but yeah. what. can't agree or deny cause i can't see my art from an outside perspective. but yeah i'm not changing anything. #and i'm pretty sure if you cut most women's hair and took off their makeup they'd look masculine. that's how humans work. #like i'm sorry she's not an anime girlie idk what to say dkjfhdkjfhjf #according to jules

[creative-hanyou-girl]

PJO SPOILERS!!!

Am I the only one who thinks some people are being a little harsh on Grover for "snitching" on Percy in Episode 1? I see some people saying Grover's character has been "ruined" by having him "betray" Percy and I'm just over here thinking that gaslighting your best friend for literal MONTHS on end is just as much, if not a worse betrayal then snitching on said friend in order to get them out of the danger zone immediately. Either way you look at it, Grover betrayed Percy in both versions, and honestly I think Grover's snitching was the kinder route to take; at least Percy wasn't questioning his own sanity for months, but a few hours.

And another thing too is that I'm kind of glad their friendship seems a little tense right now in the show, since I felt like in the book, Percy just sort of brushes off being literally lied to and gaslit by Grover for months. Don't get me wrong, I adore their friendship so much but it always kind of bothered me that they never really TALKED about the gaslighting period and how alone that made Percy feel to have even his best friend say everything that happened was all in his head. I don't know, I always just wanted there to be a scene where they actually talked about it and reconcile. So I'm hoping that since the show seems to be putting tension between Percy and Grover right now, that we'll hopefully get a moment of closure and reconciliation between them.

#I'm a TV Grover defender all the way #I love Grover #but you also can't deny that in both the book and show Grover 'betrayed' Percy #so please stop acting like him snitching on Percy is a betrayal when I'd say gaslighting him for months is even worse. #really it was the kinder thing to have Grover snitch on him #and its not like he did for any malicious reason. he was literally trying to just protect Percy be getting him away from the danger zone #if anything they should've tried getting Percy away from Yancy Academy as soon the Mrs. Dodds incident happened- #-rather than keep him there for several more months where more monsters could've easily of tracked him down like Alecto did. #So I'd argue the show actually did the smart thing by getting Percy away from Yancy as soon as possible rather than wait #I rest my case #thanks for coming to my Ted Talk #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackson #percy jackson tv show #percy jackson series #percy jackson books #books vs show #percy jackson spoilers #grover underwood #my goat son #percy and grover

[lastoneout]

Tbh I have a lot of complicated feelings about the whole OceanGate thing and I'm not really a fan of how this is being treated as The Evergiven 2, but as it becomes more and more likely that the sub suffered a critical failure and imploded days ago my main thought is that visiting the Titanic's wreck should be in the same category as climbing Mt. Everest; a pointless, unfathomably dangerous, disrespectful excursion that should not be allowed, or at least regulated and reserved for experts who know what they're doing to conduct research and/or matinance.

I mean like at this point I don't even think the average person should know where Titanic is. What is the benefit? All it leads to is death and the disruption and/or potential destruction of a mass gravesite that also doubles as a unbelievably valuable historic artifact that will not be around forever. Why the hell are people just allowed to go down there?? We don't let people go rub their hands all over the Mona Lisa, and that wouldn't even kill anyone, why can billionaires just go tromping around in far more deadly and fragile locations, especially ones where hundreds of people have already died?

But yeah idk there's no real point in adding my input to the discussion and I kinda don't want to comment on it beyond this anyway, but the whole situation sucks and def makes it clear there are simply some things people should not be allowed to do no matter how much goddamn money they have.

#I just do not understand rich people's obsession with going to space and climbing everest and shit like that #you have so much money and the only thing you can think to do with it is get yourself killed for what?? #bragging rights??? #and we should jusy let you do this even if it's hella disrespectful or destroying things that should be preserved???? #I s2g Glass Onion was a fucking prophecy #also don't take this as me saying these people deserve to die I don't have a say in who lives and who dies #and I don't believe in the death penalty #I just am baffled at the lengths rich people will go to for bragging rights #it's like they really do believe the world should bend to their will #and they should be allowed to do whatever they want bcs they have money #and yeah they did have reason to believe this was safe I will not deny that at all #I don't think this is as much of a fuck around and find out thing as people say it is #even poor people put our lives at risk doing dumb shit sometimes #I just think it's like....idk there's a difference between going on a shoddy carnival ride #and thinking you have a right to go see the wreck of the titanic #idk anyway I'm rambling more than anything this is just infuriating and tragic and stupid and I hate it #but we can learn from it at least #and what we should learn is 'you can't just do whatever you want bcs you have money' #people shouldnt be allowed to just put themselves in these sorts of situations #oceangate #titanic #current events

[faelapis]

so um. tears of the kingdom slaps in so many ways. i'll post some thoughts for real eventually (including some hot takes), but right now, i'm just kind of basking in it. there's a long discussion to be had about its story, but right now, i'm just happy it HAS a story. like, a real one with an evolving narrative and twists. it made me feel things.

#not su / #totk #tears of the kingdom #zelda #very much feels like a sincere attempt to create a 'complete' zelda which relies both on the idea of the grand epic of past 3d #zeldas with the open-world exploration of botw But Better and Even Freer. and the result is pretty good #in fact its so good that i really want the next zelda to be Very different (especially in storytelling since - while well-executed - totk #relies on a lot of old zelda tropes with very little incentive to come up with anything new) but hey i would rather that be done WELL #than hardly trying at all #i could talk about logic and tropes and things like that but i can't deny that holy shit it made me cry at one point #which is sincerely impressive in a freakin nintendo game

[invinciblerodent]

if bloodsoaked killer, avatar of wretched villainy, fetid and rotten, a vile creature to the very core.... why kicked puppy??? why cute round eyes??? why sweet scared girl who just wants to be nice and help everyone????

(in other words it's durge time; monk styles)

(my plan is a Karlach romance, but man, if you deliberately RP as someone who is both very confused and deeply scared, there is something extra reassuring about Gale's confidence. Like I'm trying to lean into Karlach's warmth -both literal and metaphorical- being a source of comfort, and the reason for this character to be drawn to her, but the dynamic of a strong woman who knows nothing and the physically frail man with chronic pain who knows everything IS intriguing...)

(then again, that could just be me being not even just thirsty, but parched for the wizard.)

#squirrel plays bg3 #oc: mara #watching my partner play his dark urge made me want to get mine out of tutorial limbo (first tactician run; wish me luck) #she has Astarion-syndrome; looks either like a fucked up gremlin or the most vulnerable creature in existence #.... ironically enough she is very much NOT drawn to Astarion #he's... kind of scaring her I think #played all of like an hour and she seems to have the best rapport with Gale so far #very “i don't understand the thing 🥺” “very well; allow me to explain you the thing in excruciating detail! 😀” #... it does feel good though that even though i can't deny that Astarion is my favorite; it's no issue for me to not romance him #both because i'm so attached to his dynamic with Iona; and because he just Doesn't Work with my other characters #Petyr was very... “i'll fuck anything with a pulse but that's kind of a hard limit for me pal; no offense” #and Mara is “our first two conversations both involved you implying that you'd kill me with a knife. i'm sorry but i'm a lil scared of u” #“please don't take this in a mean way but you are mildly terrifying”

[kitkat-of-doom]

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#lmao this is the worst #i just got denied my appointment for a formal autism diagnosis #after finally managing to send all the correct documents #their reason???? “oh your case isn't complex enough for us you should go see somewhere else” #like bitch i already have another fucking diagnosis that isn't even receivable #because no one fucking told me that you're actually supposed to go see a psychiatrist instead of a fucking therapist #and now you're telling me that i have to pay 400€ more to a psychiatrist just so they can tell me the same thing as last time #“oh we cant conclude anything cos adhd and autism are so close you're gonna have to go to the actual hospital to figure that one out” #just so i can come back in 2 years #like come on your creteria for taking people in was that they had to have had a diagnosis already #i fucking have one !!!! #im so tired of this #like i feel im never actually gonna see the end #why can't it just be easy for once #crying in class because of that shit was not on my bingo list for today

[artekai]

Look who's stealing whose evil master plan because he's never had a single idea of his own

#funny story about this one i was working on it during new years 2023 and then again new years 2024 #not because i took an entire year to draw this or anything. but because i got lazy. and i put it away. then then i forgor 💀 #by the time i remembered a year had passed lol. but can you blame me. look at the details. #if i ever have to draw another zenith uniform again i will scream. why do i do that to myself. i don't even like them #and i was supposed to make a companion piece for it too. cries #whatever. maybe it was worth it. i do like how tildaloy ended up looking. even if i still can't draw tilda right after all this time #i don't think i remember seeing any art of tilda carrying aloy which is weird bc that's a significant thing that happened #i would've guessed the tildaloy artists would've latched onto it. i think it's cute #then again i'm pretty sure people are into tildaloy because it's fucked up and not because it's cute or anything lol. lmao #deni's art #deni's stuff #oc art #oc tag #oc: fross #oc: artekai #frosskai #horizon oc #horizon au #image #undescribed #i don't feel like adding a description now so hopefully i'll remember later

[gayspock]

i wish I wasn't so pathetic and awkward 😒always ruins my night bro 😭

#egg.txt #Sorry I went to see a gig and I had soo much fun and Ive been happy bc um #I managed well despite the ISSUES and I went alone but then 😭 #So lame... I was queuing for the merch table and I kept getting pushed out and bc of that #Someone then started slow talking to me that there's a queue you know 🙃 #Like I know 😭 I was behind you... #But I couldn't even get anything out I just kind of repeated back at her GOSDDD BRO #Almost rhe exact same thing happened at the mechs.... I feel like such a loser all the time bro #This 8s why i have no friends and no one to go to this type of thing with embarrassinggg cringeeeee #And it's like also like bro it's NOTHING #IDK why I'm getting so worked up I think it's just the talking to me like I'm fucking stupid #But I can't even deny it when I can't even string a sentence together right can I!!!!!!! #Anyway sad wish I had someone to share stuff like tonight with whatever at least it was fun

[fromtheseventhhell]

are there any sapphic arya ships that you like? i headcanon her as bisexual 🫶🏻

First of all, the big three (Dany, Arya, Jon) are all bisexual to ME. As for sapphic ships, Daenarya is just my favorite ASOIAF ship in general. The show (I know) showed me the vision for Dany/Asha + I think Dany/Brienne would be cute. Aside from that I don't really think that much about ships? I have an endless list of female characters I would love to see interacting but a majority of it isn't on a shipping level. Ex. I like the idea of Arya/Myrcella and Arya/Shireen interacting, but that's more on a friendship level and Arya getting to be around other girls her age.

#ask #anon #daenarya #the ship that was promised #hiding this in the notes but Catelyn/Cersei has a certain flavor I that I can't deny listen- #shipping in asoiaf is weird cause outside of daenarya I don't really ship anything or think about romance much #but even for them my interest is in both of their characters and getting to seem them interacting you get me? #I like Gendrya and Jonerys for the same reasons but outside of that it's like....ehhhh #just less about romance and more about wanting to see specific characters interacting for me

[tyrannuspitch]

the government should pay me a living wage to write niche fanfiction very very very slowly. i am providing a vital cultural service

#[head in hands] #all i wanna do is write and i can barely even do that while unemployed. #what is the point of Earning A Living if i literally can't do anything but survive #and tbh i'm not even convinced that i CAN earn enough to survive 😜 #but what then. get an autism diagnosis so i can be officially discriminated against for the rest of my life and then denied benefits? #people are constantly Posting about how full time work makes life unliveable for the most abled of abled ppl #but even half the solutions sound completely unachievable to me #you want me to work 6 hours days and a four day week??? and that's BETTER than i can ever realistically hope for??? #god someone just shoot me it basically comes to the same

[razzek]

I waaaaant but even with a grant I'd still have to make about $2k appear out of nowhere. ;_;

#just blind things #I have the bare bones 20 cell version that you can only read on from the state talking book library #and I like it but 20 cells is kind of torturous #and I can't write on it or do anything else with it #braille #love how this kind of thing that's life changing for many of us #is completely out of reach when most of us are denied work #and these are priced with government and employment agencies only in mind instead of consumers #it's so bad people in other countries can't even get access they're just too expensive full stop #ironically people who read braille and have access to things like this have a much higher employment rate #it's a really shit catch 22 #I just miss writing dirty fanfic in the dark what can I say XD

[navree]

"cleopatra movie starring zendaya as cleopatra and timothee chalamet as octavian" i was having a good day and now i have an anger headache

#personal #i like zendaya and chalamet as actors and they have good chemistry #and i'm honestly fine with anything that focuses on the relationship cleopatra and octavian had with each other specifically #i think it's underdiscussed and a great source of drama and narrative storytelling #but not like this #for one i will say it until i'm blue in the face: cleopatra was white as bread. palest woman to have ever lived in egypt. #you know what with the THREE CENTURIES OF ONE GREEK FAMILY INBREEDING OVER AND OVER THAT LED TO HER CONCEPTION #for two: why are octavian and cleopatra gonna be the same age she was a decade older than him #that's important! #she was an adult in a relationship with his great-uncle when they first met in rome and HE was a teenager barely a year into adulthood #(by roman standards) #like she can't be his age and have a relationship with caesar #and even more importantly him being younger is probably a key part in why she might have underestimated him #along with listening to antony but that man was just stupid #it's a recurring theme in octavian's early career: the people around him were older and because he was young he wasn't taken seriously #until he was at their doorstep burning down their house and killing everyone they knew and by then it was too late #i cannot believe hollywood is apparently finding it hard to cast a white woman who can play midtwenties to early forties!!! #denis i know you like these two but pls just executive produce and give the project over to me and let me overhaul it #(where i then scrap the cleopatra focus and make it either a three way show focusing on cleopatra octavian and herod) #(or i just get to make the octavian biopic show i've had in my head for like two years)