#i can't move forward

[boy-above]

tfw talking with your therapist feels like homework

#i need to keep talking to her otherwise i can't use the other services at the clinic #but idk. i miss my old therapist #talking to most therapists just feels like i'm being judged for my lack of progress #obviously i need a push to actually stick with things but #i don't know. there's only so many times i can say 'nothings changed; i didn't try anything new' #it's like thanks for checking in im still a piece of shit #i miss my old therapist she like. idk i felt less judged i guess #she pushed me to do things in a way that felt more supportive #i really do wann try to get my life together once spring comes #but i say that every spring and nothing changes #what am i gonna do with my life. what am i gonna do when my parents are gone #my only way of coping right now has been ignoring things #if i start thinking about the big picture i just wanna die #everything's too much #i need to do Something #i need to Be something #i'm still paralyzed and i have been for years #i can't move forward #i've made progress but not enough #it's like i take a step forward and then a step back #i need to do something this spring. i need to try really hard

[muffinlance]

Do you get the impression the live action is treating us like utter morons?? Like I thought that making it aimed at an older audience would open the doors for more subtle story telling, but no, they're just using monologues to tell us eveything! Like in the second episode Katara's like 'oh his power isn't that he's the avatar, it's that he ~connects~ to people'. Girl we're not idiots we can see that!! And the first episode with Aang's goddawful 'I don't want this responsibility' monologue

THIS, YES. The word that keeps coming to mind is definitely "subtlety". The show for literal children? Had it. The remake for adults? Not so much.

#This is literally Storytelling 101: Show Don't Tell #I'm sorry scriptwriters I know you were working before your union won minimal staffing in writers' rooms and decent pay and all that #but You Know What You Did #Also cgi artists plz unionize #A few more hours on Momo would have maybe taken him further out of the nightmare monkey puppet category #I know some people are reporting him as cute #But all I can see is a creature from the Magnus Archives #that thing is the skin of Momo being worn by something that doesn't quite move right underneath #And maybe it is looking for a better fit #Don't let it touch you adorable child actor Aang #avatar the last airbender #atla #natla #Anyone looking to block the live action posts I'll be tagging all of these with that natla tag going forward #But yeah not going to post about it much #I came I saw I deemed it not worth the hours of my life it asked #I can literally write a better Avatar AU than this #Anyway back to Toph beating up Blind Zuko! #*write write write" #(their big budget fanfic can't hurt me it can only introduce more fans to the original)

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

The girls are plottinggggg

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen chao #wang lingjiao #Realizing she was supposed to have an upper lip mole was a cold slap in the face. So sorry ma'am. I won't forget again. #They are evil dumbass 4 evil dumbass and I think we are all missing out on the sheer potential of the comedy between these two. #They have way too much power and are using it for the wrong reasons - which makes them truly great villains. #And when things don't go their way they become piles of whining sludge. #Wang Lingjiao is forever fascinating to me even though we only get crumbs about her. #She's a servant girl who's greatest asset is her beauty and her attractiveness. #Meaning she's had a life being in the gaze of people with significant positions of power over her. #I can't help but read her childishness and petty tantrums as someone who has finally been given the chance to not feel powerless. #If she was a more virtuous type we might 'like' her more but honestly...I don't think she would have survived to this point. #WLJ has only known power hierarchies her whole life. Probably accused of seduction before she even understood what that meant. #I love contrasting her with mianmian because they have similar(ish) backgrounds but different approaches to moving forwards #But WLJ's story is about flying too close to the sun and mianmian's is about going too close to the water. #Like the sea mist dragging her down into complacency - all the sect powerplays are mandatory to 'go along with' if she wants to climb- #-the social ladder. Yet she is the cautionary tale (and a foil to JGY as well) she leaves before sacrificing her own morals. #Mianmian flies away with her wings only slightly plucked while those who sacrificed everything to reach for the top crash and burn.

[front-facing-pokemon]

#alolan raichu #holy shit these alolan forms are kicking the fuck outta my ass #the things i do for you all. my production value on this blog has increased over the years and i don't think i can get away with the same #weird shit i used to be able to when i couldn't find a good model so now i'm having to learn how to use blender and shit?? #downloading weird scripts off the internet just because i can't find the right models. and now alolan raichu has kantonian eyes #they have kantonian eyes. i know. i'm sorry. i don't know how to fix it and this is the best you're going to get because i had to work for #like an hour and a half just to get to this point. and i know the lighting is dark. it's. it's bad. it'll probably be like this for all #the alolan forms at least. and holy shit when we get to gen 9 it's going to be even worse #this is a wreck!! this is a wreck. i had to use the sv model for this one and it's like #i dunno the eyes in sv aren't textures?? they're procedural. they're fucking. shaders. in sv. which is why espeon's pupils #are no longer pupils and are instead reflections (lie‚ falsehood) #and i'm. dissolving. y'all're gonna have to bear with me moving forward bc i've gotten Very used to the “it just works” nature of #the older models that i was using but this is getting way harder on me as we move into newer generations

[confused-stars]

i need to actually remember for my writing that my main hc for why Childe is Like That is that he saw something real and true just once in his life and has been chasing that high ever since despite it being a massively traumatizing experience

kind of like a very weird Lovecraft protagonist

#genshin #childe #there's like a dozen other points of reference i need to get his character even remotely right though #there's also the fact that he seems to have thrown himself into fighting the whale with no hesitation #which. how does he feel about it really. outside of it trying to eat fontaine/the world #how does he personally feel about his connection to the whale. does he love it? is he afraid of it? does he /know/? (probably not) #i also don't think he's that introspective. he's just moving forward and not figuring his shit out #no i can't start writing childe meta again it's past midnight nothing coherent happens at this time

[aurosoulart]

man this thing is crazy. I can’t show off half the things it does because the video/casting software needs some updates, but like....... I spent the morning sitting under a TREE creating 3d models IN THIN AIR.

it was absolutely surreal being surrounded by birdsong, warm sunlight, being able to see every leaf on the trees around me crystal clear....... AND being able to see AND INTERACT WITH virtual objects on top of reality with that same clarity.

just..... literal, real-life holograms. out in nature. words honestly cannot do it justice.

anyways. my new life goal is to get a solar-powered backpack charger and then never go inside again 🌳🌲🌴🍃

#auropost #i legitimately feel like i'm dreaming #like it is SO difficult to describe what it does to your brain to reach out towards an object #that all of your visual perception tells you is REAL #AND THEN IT'S NOT THERE #BUT IT IS THERE?? BECAUSE YOU CAN WALK AROUND IT AND MOVE IT #you just can't TOUCH it #...../yet/ #i can't even think about haptic gloves right now my head will explode #anyways uh #look forward to tonight's stream LOL i cannot guarantee i will be in any less shock

[korrasamibottles]

Yeah Venom of the Red Lotus showed us how crazy powerful Korra is but The Last Stand had Korra transform the destructive power of a massive bomb blast into something regenerative in the culmination of one of the best character arcs I've ever seen. In my OPINION!!

#SORRY ok i'll stop. #lies. i have more to say. she is so brave and so selfless!!! #and mako sacrificing himself to destroy the weapon's energy source was really powerful too #AND of course. the korrasami of it all. #ok one more thing. it seems like the most common interpretation of korra's conversation w/tenzin in the last stand #is 'suffering makes you a better person' and people rightfully get pissed off about that #but i just....fundamentally disagree with that reading. i saw it as korra choosing to find meaning in her pain #and choosing to find wisdom in it. and i think that's really fucking powerful and why korra's arc resonates so deeply with so many people. #like. the suffering happened. she can't go back in time and undo it. and she didn't deserve it!! #but the only way to move forward was to accept that it happened and let it empower her rather than drown her. #i mean there are things i've been through that i wish hadn't happened #but the idea that those things don't necessarily have to mean i've changed for the worse #that i can choose to find A Point to it all and grow from it and use the pain rather than the pain using me #is actually really empowering. #tlok

[starheirxero]

For the record, I think soooo much about a potential AU where Eclipse really commits to the "false hope" plan and grits his teeth through every act because he's like "the more I seem genuine and the more they believe me, then the worse they'll feel when I finally stab them in the back!!" and every act of kindness he commits is under his idea of "oh man they're falling for my act sooo hard rn"

and then when he's eventually been completely integrated as at least a friend to the celestial siblings, he sits back and goes "man. now would be a great time to betray them right?" and then he finally looks at it all and realizes he doesn't truly want that now and he's just like "oh. oh." and is probably wildly conflicted and emotional about it

#xero says things #xero thoughts and rambles #i can only imagine that there's a MASSIVE breakdown over the fact he's in an okay and happy situation now #because now he doesn't know how to move forward. he doesn't know what comes next. #when he was cruel and evil then he knew that he could expect someone to come for revenge. he knew he could expect the same hatred back. #so now the floor has caved underneath him and there's probably a long moment where he tried to go /back/ to those ways just to feel a- #-sense of normalcy again. but now his feelings and hus enviroment have changed and he can't commit to that as wholly #so it's a slow but steady process of the sibling's getting eclipse a ground to stand on methinks. or smth. yk #tsams #eclipse #sun and moon show #sams eclipse

[nottoonedin]

Drunk & Party and Love & Peace lyrics ENG translations!

#these songs djrfjfrkjfjkjfrj #I have so much I wanna say about these songs and Hyuna herself but i'm terrible with words #but a little about these songs: #I think Drunk & Party may be about Hyun-woo #most notably the first 4 lines #and moving forward from the past #whereas Love & Peace seems to be about Luka #and how she can't seem to move on from him #for now at least #it's interesting how the songs seem to contradict each other if you look at them this way #anyways i love alnst mwah mwah <3 #alien stage #alnst hyuna #hyuna alnst #hyuna alien stage #alien stage hyuna #alnst

[toonyballoony]

March 30, 2022

Meet the Robinsons turned 15 this year! I owe a lot of my art journey to this movie.

#digital #clip studio paint #meet the robinsons #mtr #disney #wilbur robinson #bowler hat guy #keep moving forward #fanart #can't believe the movie is older than I was when I first saw it #the future has arrived #tomorrowland

[pickletrip]

My absolute favourites are together and in love and by each other's side. With a promise to face everything together and with the promise to die together, oh, they have captured my heart.

Nooo. I'm going to pretend it's not over and keep rewatching it.

#kiseki: dear to me #kiseki dear to me #kdtm #taiwanese bl #they truly make the best shows out there #who is doing it like Taiwan?!?! #they gave me such beautiful loveable crazy characters #how do they expect me to be normal about this #my love for Chen Yi and Ai Di only kept growing and I can't imagine not seeing them every Tuesday anymore #i love the way Zong Yi established the importance of depending on each other as they moved forward #they've all pushed past their murky past and now they are building their lives with the ones they truly love #of course there were parts where the story lacked but these wonderful actors carried this show through with their brilliant acting #standing ovation #hsu kai #taro lin #nat chen #jiang dian #louis chiang #they will live in my heart forever! #how are they so cute and hot and sexy at the same time #so rude and beautiful

[stealingpotatoes]

In your Luke Raises Rey au, does Leia ever forgive her father? (Also anakin saying he still loves Leia after she says she isn't calling him Dad is incredibly sweet.)

Also does Ben ever actually fully turn to the dark side? I think it would be super interesting to see a lightsaber fight Between him and Rey when he tries to take down Luke's training.

have so many questions haha.

haha u opened a can of worms here bc i LOVE talking abt leia and her super complicated family feelings and grief and whatnot <3 <3 <3

I think forgive's a very strong word to use around anivader loll -- ESPECIALLY with leia. i mean. he literally tried to torture her and was semi-responsible in the genocide of her planet (and genocide of her other ppl, if she started identifying w the jedi!) and countless other crimes like he's done some Heinous shit (and not even in the anakin's fun sexy warcrimes way just the straight up evil warcrimes) and they're not the kinda actions you forgive.

but forgiveness isn't the only path forward! I do think she makes peace w him -- or more what he is and what he is to her. like yes, he was her birth father but no that doesn't change anything about her, she's not evil, she can still be luke's sister without having the same relationship to their heritage. bail organa's still her actual father in every way that matters and she realises nothing about anivader's existence can change that

she can't go full jedi and let go of all the anger in her heart -- she's not luke, she can't make that ultimate peace or find any good in vader -- but I do think she does manage to let go of enough anger that she's not holding that unhealthy burning hate in her chest 24/7. it can't help her now; he's dead. so yeah, its not forgiveness, but it's something

and i think the skywalkers deserve nice things so no, Ben's not going evil or trying to obliterate the academy!! let the poor jedi live!!!!!! he's just a bit of an emo with very questionable taste in men. the knights of ren is just his space discord server or smthn

#sorry idk if this makes any sense but the gist is: no she cant forgive him but she can still move forward without the total anger #tbh idk if luke 'forgives' vader in the strictest sense of the word either #he's just got a very different situation to leia bc he had an aunt and uncle and this ghost of a father his whole life so there was a Gap #and between that and luke's general hope/abiltity to find the good his making peace looks a lot more like forgiving #thanks for the ask! #it's a nice idea that she could and they'd all be a family but while anakin/vader is one of my top faves of all time #i can't woobify him like that and say 'yeah hes fine! leia could forgive him!!' nah nah #he did too much to be forgiven loll even if she can understand that he was semi-manipulated to the dark #he still did all that evil and saving luke doesnt make up for that

[loupy-mongoose]

Happy birthday ^^ I'm in my 30's so, glad to see some older peeps on tumblr.

(even if 29 aint old XD )

Don't worry, I know. I don't truly believe myself to be old, just relatively old. I could be wrong, but I feel like a majority of the people I interact with on Tumblr and Discord are younger than me. Sometimes not by much, and sometimes by a lot. One of my favorite artists is about a decade younger than me! (Which is admittedly wild to think about. XD)

I want to take a moment to be sappy, and hopefully not conceited. I don't want to sound or act like I have a big head; I just want to offer some advice as an older artist.

When I was a teenager, I dreamed of having what I've since gained through this blog. I wanted to tell a story, and have people interact with it and ask questions, primarily in the form of Nuzlocke comics. I only ever tried on DeviantArt and, in more recent years, Twitter (may it RIP), and never really gained any traction. I wonder if things would've been different if I'd tried Tumblr back then, but I kinda doubt it. I was a teenager. I was still a developing artist and storyteller with an underdeveloped sense of self-confidence. Now, that's not to say I don't think teenagers can do great things and tell great stories... But if you're trying and it's not working out, YOU. HAVE. TIME.

At some point I came across what I believe was an advice post from Tumblr, but I can't find it anywhere and don't truly know where it's from. It had some wonderful advice that I wish I could share verbatim!

The biggest thing I gleaned from it is, don't down-talk your own art! If you have trouble liking the art you make, look for the good in it! Find the parts you can be confident in, build on that, and love what you do!

Here, I'll get you started.

You are an artist, which is a wonderful thing! You have the ability to bring your ideas to life, and that will only get better with time! I'm way, WAY better of an artist now than when I was 16, 17, 18 when I first tried telling stories online. Your biggest hindrance will be yourself, so please don't let yourself get in the way. Perfection in art is impossible. Aim for loving what you do, and be patient with yourself.

Anyways, that's my random sappy spiel. Enjoy your art, lovely artists young, old, and in-between!

#hideoutfromreality #ask #but unconventional #A part of me wonders if I just happen to have a story premise people like. #But I'll never be able to know for sure. #Would the result have been different if I'd thought up this story with my teenage art skill? #I don't know. #I CAN'T know. #I'll just have to move forward with what I've got now. #info

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

I love Jiang Cheng and I hope you agree. The most tragic thing about yunmeng siblings is that JC and WWX really love each other the whole time… I like to think they can fix it someday

Someday perhaps....in the meantime, I bet he's loving having dogs run around lotus pier. As a WWX deterrent of course. No therapeutic reasons at all.

#Poorly Drawn MDZS #MDZS #Jiang Cheng #As much as I put him on blast #I do like JC quite a bit. #Man....I'm sad you're on anon cause I'd love to talk more about the yunmeng sibiling tragedy #Part of me so badly wishes that they do reconcile after some time #though a good tragedy comes from the pain of what could have been #JC is definitely in my top 5 mdzs characters and its absolutely due to how messy he is #ngl I can kinda relate to where his hurt comes from and it makes it very interesting to analyze. #Favourism and antagonism of parents messes up sibling dynamics so much #The grief and trauma ended up causing a rift not a shared moment of solidarity #JC is a counter-representation and a foil to how LWJ deals with his grief #as heartbroken as LWJ is he...keeps his life going. The grief settles and he doesn't forget but he *moves forwards* #JC doesn't! He can't! He has so much guilt and regret and the grief stagnates him! Love and grief can become so terribly consuming! #He's so human for it! This is a story where no-one is morally black or white! *People* aren't black and white!

[brocedesbenz]

fuck zack snyder I want more silly batman movies

#i can't explain how much i love batman and robin being silly and fighting against silly crime #i mean that's just who they are <3 #batman comics #batman #the lego batman #ngl the lego batman movie is going to be the standard moving forward

[willowswriting]

Muse⇥ Louis Piquet, 21-28, He/Him, Bisexual, Underground Fighter/Dealer. Connection ⇥ Boyfriend Plot ⇥ Louis shows up at Tanner's door bruised and beaten. He claims they're from the fight he had tonight, which he never attended, but they're actually from some guys that he owes money to. Open To ⇥ @musicallyiinclined.

"Would you stop looking at me like that." Louis spoke as he held the towel wrapped ice pack that the hockey player had given him upon his arrival against the left side of his face "I already told you that I'm fine." he sighed. The sad part about the whole situation was that the fighter was fine. Any normal person might be a little shaken up after getting jumped in an empty parking lot but it was simply another day for him. He knew that it was long over due. He wasn't an idiot he knew how the way that the life he lived worked. He was constantly pushing boundaries and towing the line, admittedly he had always enjoyed the rush of it.

#◟now the book keeps moving forward and i'm always stuck one page behind | ↳ starter / closed◝ #◟misery loves company | ↳ louis piquet / interactions◝ #◟there's a sickness living inside of me you can spare me all your sympathy | ↳ louis piquet ft. tanner haywood 001◝ #◟darling i'm noticing your flaws and they're exactly what i want | ↳ louis piquet & tanner haywood◝ #◟you bled your soul into things you can't control | ↳ louis piquet / mundane verse◝ #◟willow speaks | ↳ ooc / because you can't have lou without a little spice◝