#i cant fail these exams

[adharastarlight]

studying in the therapy waiting room is another level of dedicated to the burnout

#im so tired #but like i dont have a choice #i cant fail these exams #burnt out #studying #a levels #idk what to tag but this is very remus and regulus of me js #remus lupin #regulus black #gifted kid burnout

[cyancees]

i have neither a good imagination nor aphantasia, but a secret third thing

#adhd #doodles #show this to your therapist instead of failing to explain it like i did #me: its like i cant control my thoughts like i was trying to think of something earlier today but #all i could think of was this giraffe eating leaves and no matter how hard i tried to focus the thought would just. replay #my therapist: what happens if you try to let the thought just play out #me: ........ i dont know but i dont want it to be there at all when im trying to do simple addition in a maths exam #10k #100k

[spaciebabie]

me at any inconvenience: my penis HURTS!!!!!!!!

#spacie spoinks #me after i took my adv calc test yesterday #my penis hurts #it works b/c while i am feeling absolute dread abt an exam that i 100% failed (again) #i say that and the sentence is so fucking stupid it makes me laugh #me with tears streaming down my face: my penis hurts #cant help but crack a smile #its likee . jingling keys in my own face #hahaaa hey spacie!! hey spacie!! oooh my penis hurts!! ahahhaa!! my penis hurts!! #i m making myself laugh rn by typing this #the horrors will still come after me but my penis stay hurting

[ariiii33]

I rlly rlly want to impress my teachers but i have no motavation so i just sit in my room rotting in my bed thinking about what their reactions would be instead of actually studying

#then i start to think of failing all my exams and cry #i rlly need to study #school life #i hate it here #i hate school #PLSSS GIVE ME ONE MORCLE OF PRAISE #i cannot spell anything how has my A* streak in English not ended #i just want to be good at something #low key dont know what i’m doing in life i think i might just work the same minimum wage job in the same town until i kms #any sugar daddies hmu #give me money #and little treats #why cant i just be in a studio ghibli film #kikis delivery service #i want to be that woman in the bakery #I YEARN FOR THE BAKERY #bread #baked goods #life #i cannot #maybe i should end it all #the tags are more text than my actual post at this point #i yearn for smiley faces and nice notes on my work #by teachers lmao im not out there wanting random ppl to GRAFFITI my book #exams #exam stress #i have no hope

[saeshiraw]

tired girl hours i���m just ranting bcos i don’t have enough time to cry

#tw rant #studying med is no joke. ik it was gonna be a commitment n that it wasnt gonna be easy n i thought i was prepared but im not #its my passion. i love what im studying and ive dedicated myself to this path but i just. its so hard n i just want to cry. everyday feels #so tiring. morning to night classes. when i get home i have to read 4 chapters MINIMUM n the books are so thick + exams almost everyday #i feel worse knowing there’s this 1 girl in my friend group that cant decide whether she likes me or not. one moment shes complimenting me #n asking where i get my outfits or my nails done or my earrings or whatever then praising me that i probably study the least out of everyone #yet still reach high student rankings but its not that im lazy im just so exhausted n its hard to have motivation... lowkey envy how my #friends study minimum 4 hours a day. we’re all tired n sleep deprived. even taking 30mins to eat makes me feel guilty. cant even watch 1 ep #of an anime bcos ill be thinking about the amount of work to do. and i have sm plans. i wanna be more active and have a healthier lifestyle #but i cant find it in me to wake up every 5am to go to the gym when i just wanna get as much sleep when im lucky to finish my studies today #i also dont see my bestest friends everyday anymore. some of us move to diff unis or some in diff majors. i just miss them so bad it hurts #and i miss the girl i used to be when i still had time and energy to indulge in my hobbies. i miss playing genshin and writing fics #just when i got back to writing and enjoyed it LOVED IT i had to go back to uni. i feel terribly lonely even when im always with people #im afraid ill completely lose grasp of the little things that make me happy bcos the weight of my responsibilities are heavier #im afraid ill be too focused on success again like i was when i was 17 and forget that its okay to relax too but idk #and i wanna meet more people make more friends have new experiences. i wanna feel alive again. and theres sm i wanna talk to or get to know #but im so afraid of people hurting me or disappointing me or people getting to know me only for the friendships to fail or we’ll dislike eac #h other. i wanna date and fall in love again and experience the romance my peers have. i wanna have someone to call my own person but the fe #ar of having someone only to lose them someday scares the hell outta me. im not ready for another heartbreak so i isolate myself and watch #people from afar. uni gives me sm freedom to do everything else and form my own identity but i dont wanna be Perceived. I wanna be heard and #seen n connect with people. but w my curreny state idt i can handle being vulnerable with others. it feels so lonely that the things i want #are out of my rrach but idt i can manage my time to meet new people and make new memories. i console myself by shopping a lot and going to #spas to relax yet i still find it hard to sleep. im afraid im wasting my time. im not as brave as i used to be. im not as efficient as i was #i get older and more tired and while i never questioned if studying med was the path i want i do question what will happen next #“is this all im ever going to be?” im good at what i do but day by day i lose sight of tje girl who knew how to laugh n smile. ik what makes #me happy but i rarely smile genuinely anymore. im so tired and want to sleep for a long time but i dont wanna fail. i dont wanna be NOT good #but it makes me cry when i know i can do many great things but i dont feel loved. people compliment me but dont approach me bcos they say im #intimidating or that im too quiet in class. i wish i could tell them i wanna join their parties too or i wanna meet their friends n hangout #but what if it doesnt work out? what if i wasted my time getting to know someone id eventually regret? what if im the disappointing one? #the days are getting shorter but it always feels like a long day. im ashamed to admit i want someone to hold me yet refuse to have anyone

[bruciemilf]

let me give you biiiig hug you look like you need it 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

Tyyy

#just one of those days yk #i cant study i cant draw i cant watch YouTube i cant watch movies. no song is satisfying and just tires me out #everything tastes gross and i don't want to eat but ik i have to or ill be more irritable #its too hot its too cold i want to cry i cant cry #i want to sleep i wanna talk to ppl i dont want to talk to anyone bc im so mentally maxxed out #idk i think its seasonal burnout. sucks that it happened a week right before my exam but oh whale #only the 4th time i fail #i will tell you i dont have the nerve to off myself. but if i could hire someone to swiftly shoot me in the head #i would do it TODAY. fuck. like life is worth living but im just so grossed out #not dc #vent #depressive episodes fucking suck

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

thank god for hyperfocus

#atheist but yk #I WOULD HAVE FAILED ALL MY EXAMS AND ASSIGNMENTS IF IT WERENT FOR HYPERFOCUS #like i cant keep a consistent effort #but on the last day i can sit #music #+ stress #thats all i need to finish it in a lil bit of time

[mooon-chaser]

exam tomorrow. can't sit my fucking ass to study. guess is on god now.

#he better not fail me #i cant do this anymore #i need sleep #exam season #girlhood #girblogger #angel core #coqette #gaslight gatekeep girlblog #hell is a teenage girl #ultraviolence #lana unreleased #lana del rey

[mr-n0b0d7]

Hey bbg,

So proud of you, actually paying attention in maths. Brings a tear to my eye.

You're still gonna fail though

Sincerely, babymuncher89

Paying attention is strong wording. I seem to recall being held at gunpoint as you state,

"do your work"

Becoming exceedingly more threatening by the second.

I'm still bound to fail

Yours, Mr. Nobody

#failing miserably #i cant math #no thoughts head empty #i will fail all my exams #babymuncher89 is my only hope

[legiterallylunar]

trying to revise for my exams !!! that are in a month !!! but i can't !!! because i can't think !!! about anything !!! except falsettos!!

#ARGHHH #i'm going insane #i actually might fail my exams because of this stupid musical #i cant revise at all #send help #falsettos musical #falsettos #leo talks!

[hella1975]

tbf i really deserved to lose that poll im stupid af

#i need to come off the pill it’s not funny anymore 😂🙏🏼 #like it was already hard getting myself motivated for a degree i hate and then there’s the adhd shit on top of that #which is literally the productivity killer but now the pill on top of all that has just taken any fear factor i might have had #like i don’t feel anything I’m not nervous there’s no concept of repurcussions in my mind #and it’s meant I’ve basically hardly fucking studied and it’s entirely my fault and im GOING to fail #like you cannot walk into a uni exam with the barebones knowledge i have and still pass you just can’t #like i spent all of yesterday trying to study and i didn’t get anything fucking done until 11pm #when I did like. a solid hour. that’s it #and it’s so frustrating bc it’s like well why didn’t you just study #and im like i CANT it’s like an actual physical block stopping me #and ik thats the adhd but I could handle it before I knew if I left it last minute the panic would set in and I’d be suddenly productive #but now? nothing #i just don’t feel anything ever and haven’t since literally march #and even that the only reason i remember it as march so vividly is bc i had a fucking depressive episode #physically the pill has done bits but it’s shredded the little mental stability i had and now we’re here and I’m failing my stupid degree #even now it’s like. why am I on tumblr. the exam is in 1.5 hours. i have so much to do bc i did nothing yesterday #and instead of me feeling panic or guilty or ANYTHING? #nothing. just absolutely nothing it’s like im not even here #hella goes to uni

[lannisterdaddyissues]

today is not a good day

#i am so done with this semester you have no idea #i dont even know why i am still in college i feel like i should just drop out #no matter how hard i study for an exam i cant get so much as a fucking C on any of them #i worked my ass off for this exam and i thought for sure i could get a high B but i didnt even come close #i dont understand i did well enough on my last two exams but i fucked this one up so bad and it doesnt make any sense #theres just no use in me even trying anymore ill never get better than a D on any of my exams #its like these classes are setting me up to fail #im so lost i dont know what is going wrong in my head but it just isnt working #and i hate this #sorry to vent on main but i am so done i am so tired of being stupid i want to go back to when i wasnt failing everything #im so genuinely lost because i thought i knew this material so well so what the fuck happened #to delete later

[kennysdeadbody]

fic writers you are a gift from god

#im trying to learn how to write again #bc i failed my writing exam twice lmao #and i have thoughts in my brain that i cant draw out and i am going insane #how tf do yall do it #ur all magic #stfu sal

[jeonghoneyss]

it is so dire guys maybe i DID peak at 16. don't know how to be a proper person anymore and i'm failing all the time at everything. at this rate i'll fail my a levels and not get into uni again and then what will i do? no one will marry me no one will hire me and another year will have passed and i will have nothing to show for it again and i mean there's nothing left to do i won't have a future

#im so tired im so tired of fucking failing i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me #BC in my a levels so far. maths retake in the summer and i dont fucking think i'll even #GOD. i dont fucking know any bloody maths it's been four fucking years and i dont understand it #i know people who did the full ial maths course in one year!!!!!!!!! and got an A!!!! #ive had 3.5 fucking years and all ive got is a fucking E to show for it #and if i get an E again?????????? #i was supposed to get AAA!!!! retook CS 3 fucking times and i never got a fucking A it is not that fucking hard why cant i do it #BC... my lowest uni offer is fucking ABB #ive already failed and exam season hasnt even started

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#my dads back in ohio again so im back on my own. i still feel terrible but at least i have a plan #i have 2 weeks of this semester left. so i have to not fail my genomics exam and work on a group project plus grade a bunch #shouldnt be too hard but everything makes me so tired rn and i just feel this barrier between myself and everything else #even when my dad was here. i just dont kno how to feel happy. just varied levels of stress #but after the semester is over ill have to find a job for the summer. which super stresses me out bc i havent really had a real job outside #academia and im worried about how stressful ill find it bc im sure its gonna suck but at least i wont have to work on my project #i just think if i had a normal job that doesnt dominate every aspect of my life id feel a little less terrible. or at least i wouldnt send #myself spiralling so much. if i stay here i might not survive it #but what if ill just make myself miserable wherever i am? i dunno. but im gonna try to find a non academic job this summer with the epa or #maybe the usgs. i mean ive gota a bachelor's and a masters in environmental topics. that's gotta count for something #just get a government job. pray for a not terrible set of coworkers. and build something from there #it just sucks bc i feel like everythings falling apart and like i kno if i gave it my all i could pull thru and get my phd but im just so #tired of struggling against something everyone else can do. i just cant read at a level appropriate for what im doing #ugh. i dont wanna study for genomics. i just wanna sleep. i just wish i wasn't in this position #and now i a baby about it. i mean my sisters r in similar positions bc the youngest is currently looking for a teaching job. and my middle #sister is looking to move to new york city in the next 6 months and she'd be quitting her job for that. so we're all sorta in flux #i just wanna not be flailing. not watch my hopes and dreams collapse. be excited about anything. im just sad bc i have to make hard choices #even if i know theyre the right ones to make if i want to continue to exist. sometimes u cant have the things u wany. #and that sucks and i hate it. theme of the year: sometimes life sucks and theres nothing u can do abt it #unrelated