#i could go on and on abt how cool as shit this is

[thefishdeath]

Just. finished fallout. normal.

#what the fuck #what the fuvck what the fuck what the fuck #im so normal about this guys very so normal #(shaking and gripping the edge of the sink hunched over like im playing silent hill) #so normal so normal #what do i even do with my life now #how am i just supposed to go about my day #FUCK that last scene fucking insane though #oh my god the ghoul is so cool #like holy SHIT #the relization that the ghoul could of killed maximus in that first meeting but just like. chose not to? insane. #fallout is ruining my life i have to play every game now #fallout #i need a season 2 NOW #8 hours is not enough #i need to see Lucy kill her father #its like 5am where i am #im going to impulsively dye my fuckass mullet about this #fallout show #fallout series #just fishdeath-ing #fallout tv series #if anyone wants to talk abt fallout with me i dont know how to start a conversation but im clawing at my walls & willing to try please plea

[sketchingstars03]

Ya know, it’s funny. Ink is probably the “sans that doesn’t need to be a sans” that actually makes the MOST sense to be a sans anyway IMO.

But not in an in-narrative way,

It makes sense on a META LEVEL.

Think about it

The UTMV fandom’s main creative outlet has always been through Sans. So it only makes sense for its protector, the embodiment of creativity in this fandom, to be one regardless.

And the best part?

It works so well for him to make sense as a sans on a meta level..

Because Ink is a meta character.

#undertale au #utmv #ink sans #utmv meta #textpost #shaymin rambles #I had to get this out there #My brain has connected the dots #THIS SHIT HAS LAYERS #never gonna listen to anyone who thinks undertale AUs are just shallow OP Sanses that do nothing but make the original guy OOC #BECAUSE WE’VE GOT STUFF LIKE THIS #Could go on and on abt how I love the whole meta fiction in relation to its creators lore thing we’ve got going on here #it’s just cool ok #I like this fandom I think it’s cool #This was DEFINITELY unintentional on Comyet’s part but it works out anyway #a stroke of accidental genius

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog #didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move #across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s #so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help #with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the #location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright #colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird #like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the #southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December #it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but #i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and #jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen #im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and #the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier #for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy #but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked #up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents #r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes #better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book #like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭 #so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-] #unrelated

[crimeronan]

honestly half the reason i'm so defensive of darius is because he reminds me so much of my mom. the other half is because he's just the perfect character in every way shape and form.

#i've got a soft spot for parents who have been dealing with belos's shit for so long theyve forgotten how not to be pissy cats #who you in adolescence learn are actually cool as shit and can teach you SO MUCH about getting away with stuff under belos's nose #and unquestioningly cover for you abt shit that could get you killed. and make up for the past by just deciding to stop being a shithead #i love my mom so much she saved my fuckin' ASS when i was growing up with a dad who is famously belos toh. #also obviously i am obsessed with how darius's forms of Clearly Not Coping made situations worse than they are #but i think i've written enough fic about that to be non-nuanced in tumblr text posts. go binge my ao3 if u want really #in depth darius exploration #toh #darius deamonne

[constantvariations]

So damn funny to me how the dc comics' Taurudonna is completely inversed to the show

Show!Adam: my darling, I only ever wanted you by my side as we watch the world burn together

Show!Blake: we live here, you idiot

Meanwhile...

Comic!Blake: I'm not afraid of you (romantic)

Comic!Adam: cool. Didn't ask

#rwde #i drafted this way back when i first started reading the 2019 comics #dont remember why i didn't post it. think smth really big and serious was going on and i didnt want to drop a joke during it #but anyway these two can apparently never sync lmao #always gotta be cartoonishly one sided #probs bc no one can really imagine these two in a relationship. what even would their day to day look like? #i doubt theres flowers and chocolates #does adam even know how to read? if he doesnt would blake read out loud to him? #ngl the Adam in my head is basically a hybrid of vergil from devil may cry and fenris from dragon age 2 #ex slaves w cool exteriors righteous anger body tattoos and great hair #also amazing voices. i could listen to v and fenris all damn day #making adam a poet at heart or smth is basically the only way i can make taurudonna make sense #otherwise theyre gonna talk abt nothing but training and missions and shit bc thats all that every medium has to show

[dullahandyke]

i look at some of u guys talking abt a new show u watched or a new thing u read and im like. holy shit thats a thing u can do. im in awe of u. i spend my time slowly ping-ponging between several interests whose base componants i can never experience because i get scard

#right now its danganronpa again grin. did u know ive been into it on and off for lets say 7 years at this point #and ive never once played it myself. i have it installed on this laptop ready to go and i just! never open it! #because if Im the one playing it then i have to pay attention and i get scared #but if im watching a lets player i just naturally pay attention without the pressure #ive talked before how i always feel i need to have the smart cool takes on shit #n this deep plays into that #idk boti was good for me bcos nobody fucking knew what it was so nobody could judge me for pardoning anotsu's crimes bcos he was hot #so i probs need to do that again #yknow a thing where i disconnect from anything that anyone knows about and get really really into some dipshit manga from 2008 #but also like. i get a lot of my media recs from people talking abt what they like #which then means i defacto have someone who is gonna know if my takes are shit #and like even now. im watching mop cycle w dri and im having fun w it #but i feel bad bcos i see so many ppl like This Is The Best Anime Ever and i just like. dont get it #like i can actively feel the messages and shit whooshing over my head #its a fine anime! i'm having fun watching it! but i don't get all the commentary abt pacifism or whatever #idk. something something my need to be The Smart Kid The Bookworm Kid that went unchecked too long without peers to challenge me #so now im here like Uh Oh #and like this wouldnt be the end of the world (save for its impact on my mood n stuff) #but also like. i am an english student. i should know this shit. but i stragiht up do not feel smart enough to sometimes #i keep coasting by on the assumption that im a smart kid and i'll automatically be better than my peers #and im being disproven #i got an english exam back tonight and i got like 63% #and i like college! i just dont like. college. #anywho its approaching 3am and i have a 9am tomorrow morning which means bedtime

[anaalnathrakhs]

it's rlly fun how my parents just straight up. do not care. about the disordered eating. we had all this talk back when i went through a big suicidal crisis a couple months ago, i explained what was really difficult for me, eating socially, restaurants, not choosing my food, etc, and now it's like. okay it didn't exist actually.

mother i am not going to order you around, either you accept that i'm gonna have difficulty dealing with "normal people behavior" or whatnot and you stop looking at me like :/ anytime i am anything but ecstatic at the idea of eating anything anytime anyhow, or you adapt your behavior to avoid the results you don't like to see. i'm only doing my best to handle things from my side, and i am certainly not going to try measuring for you how important family social eating occurences are to you.

#''we should talk abt it uwu'' WE TALKED ABOUT IT. STOP COMPLAINING THAT DOING STUFF THAT I CAN'T EASILY HANDLE MAKES ME WEIRD. #EITHER YOU ASSUME IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME WEIRD BECAUSE YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW AND WHY #OR YOU STOP DOING IT IF IT'S SO UWU HEARTBREAKING UWU FOR YOU TO WATCH #i'm not happy about how guilty i am too of that specific brand of ''oh this is so sad *continues doing nothing*'' form of ''compassion'' #they just want me to perform anorexia recovery for them #so they can feel okay we're doing a good job at raising a normal child #they don't give a shit as long as the compusive eating is my mom's meal at the dinner table #just like they didnt care when i had roughly the same problems but not as bad before i had a restrictive phase #i cannot compromise because then WHAT im just hurting my parents for a situation that doesnt make me any happier either? #i do not want to live with them. i do not want to go place or do activities with them. #i dont want to talk to them most of the time and im perfectly willing to handle the times it could be cool to. #but it's really hard to start developping a life of your own when you first of all need like two weeks of total life-reset #quiet at home #and ''at home'' there's your parents who will simply not stop trying to pull you into going random bullshit places #and i can't say no. because the places ARE interesting and time-limited. and it makes them happy. and what am i gonna do anyway? #keep doing nothing on the computer and wait for them to come back to keep doing only the shittiest parts of this unsatisfactory routine? #try to do some work in the house or go out. for them to see that something happened? #i dont know how to live like a normal person #literally not once in my life have i been able to think ''oh i need to do X'' and then just. do X. prepare what's necessary for doing X. #go out and do X. i have to keep stuck at this computer or in this room or with this book. #because there is a million different obstacles to every single thing i'm trying to achieve and half of them are parents-shaped. #everything hurts holy shit #broadcasting my misery #vent #ed tw

[gibbearish]

yknow what bugs me is when ppls criticism of YA media boils down to them just not knowing how teenage crushes work

#'bella being depressed because edward wasnt at school is unhealthy obsession' no that's called having a crush #'him asking her out by them hearing a rumor saying theyre dating and bella going 'what should i say' +him responding 'well i guess you could #tell them yes. yknow just because its easier' is lame and boring' are you kidding me i ate that shit up at that age #when two shy awkward people flirt thats how you end up in a relationship is you both kind of just sidle your way up to it #and i dont even feel like that one contributes to like 'things abt him that arent necessarily red flags on their own but as a whole point to #bad things' like. from what i gathered feom the movie bella did not seem like the type to like some big first move #like. shes an emo bruh girl. if it wasnt some sort of edgy teenage heartthrob performance then shed just brush him off like #every other Conventionally Attractive Dude™ falling all over her #ppl keep acting like her not going for every other dude who wants her is a character flaw or bad writing but. like #literally just have you ever met a depressed teenage girl. #shes Not Like Other Girls™ and finds regular guys who express emotions in regular ways boring #her wanting him over every other bland boring safe guy she could have in an instant isnt a plot hole‚ its characterization #also i disagree with the vibe that she's just a blank slate like. as someone who was a depressed teenage girl #she didn't come across as blank to me #she came across as. depressed and emo and trying so very hard to look cool and mysterious at all times and had #spent her life up to that point praying to find out magic was real and could whisk her away into a life of adventure and romance and drama #you look me in the eyes and tell me that girl didn't spend middle school chewing through every book she could get her hands on #as fast as possible. #idk #origibberish

[volfoss]

It's really funny comparing the sims 4 retail experience to the sims 2 retail experience because the sims 2 has it beat easily

#twist rambles #like ok..ive been getting notifs for the thrift tea store in 4. was super excited about the concept of thrift shopping and maybe they had #like unique clothes there that u cannot find anywhere else. would have been super cool. first off i have to look up where the fucking store #is because it came w high school stories and i havent played w that pack for a while. then i get to the lot. i am immediately lost on what #to do. stores in ts2 had a VERY clear register area that u could buy stuff. so i try and find the owner since thats how ts4 businesses work #she does not want to sell me anything she just wants to talk about fashion trends. i click on the racks. i see you can make an outfit with #“kawaii” aesthetic. which my god ok sure sims team. then i see cottagecore and dark academia. like this is gonna age like SHIT. #its just like not a clear or fun experience to go clothes shopping in 4 because in 2 u had to shop to makeover ur sims but u dont have to i #4 so like. why would i ever go. also ofc well 2 is FAR less buggy for ur own businesses lmao. im never not petty abt how bad businesses are #in ts4 because its legit unplayable.

[verycoolsnails]

YAYYY MISHA THEME!!!

MISHA 💖💓🩷❤️💕💖💓🩷💖❤️💖💓💓💖🩷💓

#i loevev them so much did you know that #currently saving up for him and it is HELL after spending it all on sparkel .so many quests and not enough timw ......... #and . ouhhh havent had the chance to talk abt . shit what is it called . lemme go see real quick . #A CHILDS DREAM . yknow that one map with the text on the walls and the melted clocks and stuff . #that was done . SO incredibly well it makes me INSANE........... #so like . im 100.1% sure the speaker (who talks abt mikhail a lot) in that room is misha. #like that IS her voice right . im not going insane #its just . auuh... the dreams (or at least golden hour) in peacony are so childlike .... like . some of the puzzles are jigsaw puzzle ; #turn into a small cartoon character ; and help the cartoon character find his cartoon gears . #and then you get to clockie . who can only be seen by someone w a childs innoence (or smth around those lines) #and that misha can see clockie . which like . cool right ? yeab. UNTIL YOU GET TO A CHILDS DREAM .. #where theres something just ... sososo off . #and its ... its just gotta be misha . its gotta be . idk if theres anything outside of main story im missing (there probably is) #BUT . augh . auf even . #childs dream still has these childlike qualities to it (the paper birds; walking on walls) but just ... more warped #(the general atmosphere of the place; the monsters even .) #the music having a music box to make the tone of the song more distressing ... how its so much more smaller than golden hour .. #aughhhhhh ... its just such a good parallel..... i could talk abt it all day really . #anyways . i WAS going to tell u abt my misha theory (which may or may not be confirmed) bu t i got DISTRACTED. #uhh anyways . my theory is that misha is somehow trapped in peacony . #when misha goes onto the parlor car they mention that theyve never been outside of peacony before and that she can t stay for long . #which i imagine is very normal! BUT its this combined w her lock motif (pupils; most of the doors in childs dream) thag make me suspicious #i mentioned before that golden hour has a very childish quality to it. and that misha has that childish quality. #okay well . what if mishas being kept there so that golden hour can keep on being a dream for other people? #and so that would make golden hour mishas dream. (or part of his dream? could be more people the familys keeping) #and that would imply that childs dream is . well . mishas nightmare . #uhm . i think thats it ..? if i come up w anything else ill . ramble abt it somewhere . definitely not the most eloquent but #i hope i got the point across <33 #i think its an understatement to say i love misha . i LOVE MISHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[pneumonic-screamers]

why is presenting and passing as masc so hard. I hate this stupid world can we like remove gender please and thank you

#jinx's hijinks #like this fucking gender dysphoria man its kicking my ass rn #like being some form of genderfluid/genderqueer is a struggle for me at least and like it hurts so bad #because i want to be a biy and act like one andd dress like one abd be faggy and masc but nooo #i love being trans like so much but my god it should be easier but this shit show of a society has these stupid fucking made up rules #and no matter how much i know its all just a concept and i dont have to abide by it i just wsnt to go one day without being misgendered #i wish i could just tell the people around me what its like and them all to understand for once #theres like one other trans guy i know irl and we arent that close to really talk abt that stuff #like hes really cool and weve talked a little bit abt gender and shit bc he clocked me as trans from the secondbhe saw me #but like god i wish this was easier #anyways #sorry abt that #rant in tags #tw rant

[arolesbianism]

I have officially updated my Wendy skilltree concept 👍

#rat rambles #starve posting #I didn't change it too drastically but I did change the lunar and shadow aligned skills a bit and replaced certain skills #for the alignment stuff I decided that if burnie gets to be a planar entity so does abby cause fuck you #also because I think thats not too game breaking for her either due to her much lower health #I also gave the twins some soul link shit so now when wendy is below half health abby will take 50% of damage given to wendy for him #I think its fair game given that willow gets spells lol #I also decided to go fuck it and slap a abby gets to have 3 elixir effects at once skill on the elixir branch #I also decided that fuck it the previous skill is double length of effect now instead of 50% longer #the sisturn branch remains fairly untouched but the alignment based sisturn skills have actual concepts now 👍 #I also decided itd be fun to add some actual wendy skills but specifically for sanity aura related stuff #its his token 'not rly worth it most of the time but it's an option you could take advantage of' skills lol #basically I have 4 skills abt different types of sanity auras with the simplest just being stopping night sanity drain #the other 3 are creature auras landmark auras and equiptable auras #notice how I say sanity aura and not sanity drain. this is where I tap into kind of risky territory but also kind of cool territory #basically my thought is that these would be situational admittedly but also rly powerful sanity control tools #basically making it so youre theoretically in near complete control of wendy's sanity levels at any given time #I say theoretically and near because theres still a lot of sanity effecting things that arent auras or nighttime #I also think it's the best compromise Im willing to make with making a wendy skilltree that has actual wendy centric skills on it lol

[waloeders]

clive abt to sic torgal on me (i stole one of his pins) /lh

#jupiter.speaks #👤.kosmos #👥.clive #> ive decided hes my weird brother. hes both older and younger than me (usually older) in behaviour i mean #> i steal his shit n then hes like ill set the dog on u. well i will simply cuddle the dog. what then huh! #> i havent played the game in over 3 days im gettin. agrgrhrhrgehrh. sorry anyway :3 #> its. hmngn frustrating i havent been this hyper fixated in ever n also whenever im not thinkin/talkin abt/playin it im like. i should be!! #> bites my hand. and also his. in a familial way i feel like i have to clarify. ignore my carrd its out of date #> dion tho? that mf stayin on the crush list hes too sweet not to be. i think kos can have a crush on him as a treat. nothin happens but. #> but its like. thats how itd be in real life. id have a crush n go wow hes pretty... i mean uh pretty cool. yeah cool #> well...does it have to be? kos n the extended polycule where half of them hate the other half? could u imagine??? #> PLEASE ignore this im. no. dont perceive im. arhffhgbjf

[tamaharu]

im just really fucking tired of feeling like im always scrambling against the edge of shit, and not knowing whether its because of brain issues or what fucking ever or behavior i can fix if i just commit to fixing it. god. fuck. i really fucking need adderall.

#my consult for a consult basically said that if i went through the schools service i might not get an appointment til march #so im gonna talk it over with my parents next week and see if we can do it offcampus. i really dont know how to do the logistics of it all. #but i legitimately cant keep living like this. #im stressed and constantly miserable and embarrassed and i should probably talk to someone abt thoughts of self-loathing lol. #probably not helped by the fact that im extremely isolated. so you know. if i could fix just one thing about my life thatd be pretty cool. #sorry im tired and angry at myself i know nobodys going to get made for me venting on my own blog (except me) but still #fuck meeeee and i still have so much shit to do im so stressed and in a hell of my own making

[prodkeiji]

and i thought neo was gna be a good person 😂😂 and then she gets consumed by that FUCKING cat 😂😂😂 is she and [redacted] dead now 😂😂😂😂

#im fine im completely fine how can i not be fine #i wish neo has her like. redemption arc #then againnn she IS a good villain but idk #itd be nice if she joins them lmaooo and cinder + salem wld be the main villains again #god im still trying to process everything that went on in ep 8 #no but im thinking of the cool shit they could pull if neo fights w team rwby #im also thinking how they (qrow + renora + oscar etc etc) would react if they tell them what happened in the ever after #boy i just KNOW theyd be traumatized #wait if they leave is jaune gonna be /that/ old #i hope not but then again i think nora would laugh her ass off idk 😭 i miss them #OTHER THAN THAT WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK IS EP 8 WHY WERE THEY ALL JUST STANDING?? #YANG CMON ??? THAT WAS UR SISTER SHE WAS ABT TO K WORD HERSELF ????? #JAUNE YOU TOO YOU SAW THE FUCKING LEAF FROM THE CUP WHY WERE U JUST . THERE !!!! #this ep was so FRUSTRATINGLY short. i need more please i wish i never watched it #oh yea it was nice to hear pyrrha's voice again after years LOL she did such a good job despite the less than 5 mins screeentime HAHAHAHAHA #im going insane. rooster teeth look what u did to me #u have 2 fucking eps left to fix this shit u caused before u leave us hanging for another long ass year you better get it right

[mars-ipan]

think i might do a cotton candy color scheme next time i dye my hair…

#marzi speaks #it’s almost time !! i need to either find a cheap barber or learn to cut my own hair #i can figure out how to bleach/dye it on my own i’m not worried abt that #mostly just like. want the cut #though i could switch that up too. maybe get smth a bit more punk #i love my hairstyle but if i ever get the patience for styling gel i could get some cool spiky shit going on #idk. thinkin abt it #one day i’ll do all the trix yogurt color combos. red/green already down