#i didn't need my heart anyway it's fine

[mypheralside]

Typical cdrama fan lifecycle:

Episode 1: oh what fun, what dynamics, the sweet characters, the gaiety, fralala!

Episode 40: hhhnnnggggggg

#i'm not even there yet with my current shows but I KNOW #I KNOW #for we are cursed in cdrama fandom to be forever wallowing in tragedy #to be perfectly honest i'm all here for it #i didn't need my heart anyway it's fine

[msviolacea]

More spoiler-free FFXIV thoughts - finished Pandaemonium last night and a) this tier is the most fun fights of all three, at least in normal mode, and b) I feel PERFECTLY NORMAL emotions about Themis. Thanks.

Oh yeah, and (P11 spoilers) ...

I've only done P11 once, and was mostly trying not to die, but did they dress him vaguely in the iconic Final Fantasy dragoon/dark knight armor for this one? To go along with his Warrior of Light armor in Seat of Sacrifice? I love the idea of Themis/Elidibus just being Mr. Final Fantasy whenever he fights, he's amazing and I love him.

#jaime plays ffxiv #voicing the final scenes was certainly a Choice #i didn't need my heart anyway it's fine

[smash-chu]

Long distance loneliness

#my art #doodles #smash-chu's art #not having the luxury of being able to just drive and see someone i know and love #having all my human connection come from digital screens when not visiting my family once or twice a year #it makes your heart sink down into a place that is hard to get out of #a place of acceptance that i will just have to live with being lonely #i love my friends #i just wish they weren't so spread out away from me #in a way i was left back here cause i was the only one that didn't move back to their parents #and now i struggle alone being comforted via keeping in touch online #but it can never replace seeing face to face #getting to be right there next to someone #touch starved is a understatement #but for now that is just how it has to be #anyways #my period is frying my brain making every feeling feel more intense so i feel super fucking alone right now #it's fine it'll go back to being numb soon enough #but sometimes you just need to let stuff out

[getvalentined]

I'm watching someone start ToTK and I noticed something.

That's a scrap of Mineru's shawl. Because she's in there, the Steward made her a little bed and wrapped her up in her own clothes so that she'd be comfortable while they both slept and waited for Link.

Fucking OUCH.

#totk spoilers #totk mineru #mineru #zelda #tears of the kingdom #okay that's fine #I didn't need my heart anyway #it's fine it's fine it's FINE

[masterwords]

11x18 - A Beautiful Disaster

#aaron hotchner #derek morgan #hotch #morgan #criminal minds #screencaps #shatter my heart into a million pieces why don't you #it's okay i didn't need it anyway #no it's fine...really.... #i'm fine #i'm very normal about this #VERY NORMAL ABOUT THIS EXCUSE ME...

[malicemismanager]

Madam, why??? 😭😭😭😭😭

#it's fine i didn't need my heart anyway it's cool 🥲 #if anyone needs me i'll be sobbing under my desk for the next three to four business days 👍 #tgcf

[earnmysong]

about a minute and a half from shoving my copy of the once and future witches in the freezer 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

#e reads #current events re: me #the once and future witches #i'm fine it's fine perfectly fine #i didn't need my heart anyway

[running-in-the-dark]

a super fun thing that my brain is really good at is hearing a random fact and remembering it forever. but only if it's bad :)

#the reason I'm thinking about that right now: I wish I had never read that having a crease on your earlobe means you're more likely to have #heart disease. #scared me so much that I read a whole paper about it #but it's been years now so I don't remember the details #just that that's a thing apparently #and guess what my brain does with that information? oh yeah of course I have to obsessively look at the ears of everyone now! does that #do anything helpful? nope! just makes me very very anxious :) #it's just like when I was a kid and I got nightmares about scurvy every time I didn't eat a potato for a week. #like. wow I could be so smart and everything if my brain wasn't constantly focused on random bullshit that is completely irrelevant 😭 #also this thing specifically: I've always been weirdly fascinated by ears and this made that a million times worse and also very scary. #like ooh that's a nice ear :) oh no death exists and this person is going to die and #yeah it sucks. #specifically choosing not to mention any names in this context because my god this shit is on my mind all the time already I really don't #need to say it where anyone can see #it's embarrassing enough #though anyone who has looked at my blog in the past month already knows who I'm talking about. #like. I really shouldn't allow myself to like anyone over the age of like. idk 45. #it's so unbelievably exhausting. #but annnyway I'm totally normal and fine :) #oh yeah I also have creases on my earlobes lol so that definitely added to the scariness (and THEN my mother randomly mentioned recently #that EVERYONE on her side of the family had/has heart disease. bitch WHAT the fuck. anyway so yeah guess we know what's gonna kill me #haha isn't that fun :) ) #ALSO the fact that my memory is very very bad means that I remember absolutely none of the details about shit like this. so it could very #well be completely irrelevant and harmless but i wouldn't remember that part. #and I think even if I found out more it wouldn't help. it's been an obsession for so long. I've never had one go away that I've had for #this long. so. guess I'm just fucked. #personal

[kimjiwoong]

i'm bad at birthday gifsets so there's none from me but i hope everyone knows that ever since i got into kpop and found taemin i've been mesmerized by his talent and just him as a creative person. his vision and his thoughts. so it's always... idk. i talk about a bunch of ppl on here and sometimes i sound crazy and overexcited abt the entire world but not many can share a spot with lee taemin in terms of how strongly i wish them warmth and happiness and relaxation and love and fun and all those nice nice things

#it's been almost 6 years of tae.min love and support can u believe #(should be 6 years of shi.nee love and support but i'm stupid ok?) #anyways i needed a place to write my thoughts cause like ksdjlasf tae.min makes me emotional for some reason sometimes #i worried a lot abt him during his enlistment and i love that i get to see him again #we all get to bask in his art i guess or whatever lmao god im like.. embarrassing but it's FINE #he's just dear to my heart in ways i don't think i rly show #on here at least #has been and will be important #also just him being my gateway drug to shi.nee #as if i didn't already love him before as a soloist #but as w every shi.nee member something feels off if u don't listen to the group too. it's like a missing puzzle piece #ANYWAYS #rose.txt

[ikkaku-of-heart]

Sad Law headcanons written by the likes of @medicus-mortem are like my friend's ghost pepper chili. They are utterly delicious and beautifully balanced and I can't stop eating, but my gods am I in pain.

#Time for Maintenance (OOC) #(honestly all my Laws write some incredible headcanons but Ashi you just know how to go for my throat) #(it's fine. I didn't need my heart anyway) #(ILU)

[airenyah]

so i just set bad buddy on mydramalist from 9.5 to 10 stars and with that bad buddy is now above theory of love

this is relevant because up until now theory of love was the only drama with a 10/10 rating on my completed-list. and i couldn't get myself to put bad buddy at 10/10 since due to the alphabetical order theory of love would have gotten pushed down to no. 2

but now i finally could

i think it's safe to say that i'm finally. truly. well over my very own personal irl-khai

#it took me 2.5 years but here i am!!!! #during christmas break i saw my irl-khai at youth group for a bit #(he was about to leave just as i arrived) #there was a girl with him #i think it was his girlfriend (at least that's what i assumed idk i didn't talk to them) #anyway it didn't hurt!!!! it didn't make me feel like shit!!!! i was okay!!!! #so far i never wanted to see (or even hear about) his girlfriend and then i ran into them completely unprepared for this situation. and i #i was. completely fine???????? #and look at me now. putting bbs above tol #growth indeed. growth indeed. #i don't wanna brag but. i'm fucking proud of myself #airenyah plappert #bbs #tol #no but tol will forever have a very special place in my heart as THE most cathartic things i've ever watched (up until now) #it was like looking into a mirror and it played a big part in how i reflected on my situation and how i dealt with it #i would watch tol over and over again whenever i needed a reminder not to get close to my irl-khai again after i took a step back #as a reminder to myself how unlike superior (fictional) khai my very own irl-khai did NOT go through character development #and i don't mean i ever needed him to realize any hidden romantic feelings for me #i'd be happy enough if he at least realized how he hurt me back then. how his behaviour caused me a lot of pain #i've tried to explain it to him on multiple occasions but he just. doesn't get it. and he's surely never reflected on anything i've said #anyway he's mostly out of my life now and it's better that way #we're back to where we were almost a decade ago: talking only when we happen to be at youth group on the same day #i'm fine i'm fine i'm fine and i am sooo so happy about this and now bbs is above tol on my watch list even can you believe

[xnoel]

#it's fine i didn't need my heart anyway #my only 12 percent #my only 12 pc #this show is way too underrated. they're so lovely and the acting is good too

[leatherbookmark]

whatever you imagine happened during and after this scene is 1000% better than what happened in the actual show

#shrimp thoughts #(nothing. nothing happened) #(i thought fei lian would have a role in defeating him. yknow as the good friend who hates seeing yu huan Evil and Heartless #(what yh tells him here is LITERALLY that he has no heart anymore lol) and would rather kill him than see this great man like this! #but uhhh no literally nothing of that sort happened and yh was Magic Attacked into disintegrating because that's how villains go now ig #anyway as i must have said back then i am imagining the tense drama-filled au in which fl goes something like. what will it take to stop #you? i'll do Everything and there's a flicker of red in yh's eyes because i think that's very cool and also sexy #and this is how fl becomes yh's concubine and they rule with an iron fist etcetc i didn't watch the show #also i didn't watch the show SO i don't know what's up with mr grandpa and yh but i think it would be good FOR ME if yh needed to #get rid of that evil energy once in a while. lbh style #and fl lies awake at night having just been fucked into next thursday. yh is dead asleep next to him and he does his best not to look at his #face because he knows he's going to see his old friend and he's going to be overwhelmed with stupid fondness and the urge to tease him #about his stupid little frown even when he's asleep! loosen up dude or there won't be a mrs yu huan in the future! #and he's going to forget that every day he doesn't slit yh's throat in his bed is another day of suffering for innocent people #every day he spends wondering at what point can he start gently pushing yh towards relaxing that iron fist; towards maybe making things #better for people who don't deseve to live in pain -- is a day those people spend living in pain because of his inactivity #he should kill this man. as soon as possible to avoid sentiment muddling his morality. he should do it before it's too late #(but he knows that it has been too late when he agreed.) #THIS IS WHAT I'M THINKING ABOUT. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENED. IN MY HEART. I AM FINE IF YOU WANT TO KNOW

[llysandra]

when he looks at her he sees her mother's face

#fine i didn't need my heart anyway #kenobi show #kenobi spoilers #princess leia #obi wan kenobi

[niallandtommo]

.

#so how do people get over their crush #the last time i had a crush was in 2015 and he ended up kissing my best friend and it broke my heart so that's how i got over it lmfao #but this time i'm like what do i do?? #i really think he just wants to he friends which is FINE (it's fine 🥲) but i guess my brain didn't get the memo #i hate this. #i can't stop thinking about him and the things he said and it's embarrassing i'm glad no one can see what's going on inside my head fkskgd #but i don't know what to do because i love hanging out with him and i guess being friends is better than nothing #but this sucks gkskf why do we have feelings and why can't we just turn them off like hello this is MY body why are you fighting against me #anyway i should stop i'm tired i didn't get enough sleep and i need to drive my grandma to the train station lmao

[voidwaren]

Grahamscott as Tenrose...

#DIDN'T NEED FEELINGS ANYWAY IT'S FINE #anon I LOVE THE WAY YOU THINK #BUT ALSO #MY *HEART* #asks