#i do my best to be brave

[redbelles]

SUPERNATURAL 1.02 Wendigo

#dean winchester #supernatural #spnedit #spndaily #spncentral #deanwinchesteredit #tvgifs #chewieblog #userbbelcher #userstream #userpayton #userjenn #userax #userchelsea #userelm #useroli #* #i do my best to be brave #spn #if you see me spn spiraling no you don't

[humandisorderincarnatedean]

on the one hand dean’s Cosmic Purpose seems to be ‘becoming mindless weapon for someone else’. the Ultimate Killer, with all of the competence and none of the agency. this is reinforced when he’s john’s ‘blunt little instrument’, a ‘mindless obedient attack dog’; and when he becomes a student of alastair, another tool used in the tortures that sustain hell; in his role as the Michael Sword, nothing more than an occupied vessel in the apocalypse; when he becomes an extension of the mark and the blade and he gets pointed in whatever direction people need him to go; when god writes two different versions of a story in which he pulls the trigger on someone he loves.

on the other hand dean’s other Cosmic Purpose and designated role in the universe seems to be to Care about other people, to care about humanity, to give a damn because god certainly isn’t bothering to do it. it’s the role of the eternal caretaker, whose job is to provide love and emotional support to others on the smaller scale, and to keep the world from falling into disrepair on the larger scale. to save and to give love, and it’s to cry; the part of the person left behind to mourn and grieve in the wake of loss and devastation. to live their life in grief. your misery is the whole point

#read my mind for further elaboration #dean winchester #i do my best to be brave #analysis #.txt

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi prime defenders spoilers #jrwi pd spoilers #jrwi pd #william wisp #vyncent sol #THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it. #BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece #i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW) #that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that #if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles. #open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho #BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses... #lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH #FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE #i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony #recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day #ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw- #-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM- #-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS #its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not #well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i- #-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!! #i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i

[aturnoftheearth]

convincing myself that unfollowing a mutual i literally never talked to and don’t share any interests with anymore and whose posts are bothering me is okay actually and there’s not some unspoken commitment except when there is and one of my mutuals unfollows me and i’m heartbroken-

#the bothering is the only real reason i’ll unfollow i guess. like i have mutuals i don’t talk to often and our interests have diverged but #i can put up with their posts just like they do mine (hello my non lh mutuals u guys are so brave thank u ily) #it’s just the realization that ohh i’m always going ‘augh’ at their posts and never 'omg hi' maybe i should go ahead and do us both a favor #we need a ‘wish u the best’ button i needed that when i had mutuals unfollow me and i need it now #how am i still talking i’m still not finished with this midterm good god

[dailyserirei]

Ooh what if Serirei just talking with their past selves, it could be chaotic with past Reigen being extremely energetic, but just imagine kid Seri too being so anxious and his future self helping him out. Now past Seri has a friend weee

OUGH!!!!! ageswap au is great actually that i went a little too far made a comic something like this

Serizawa to his 14 years old self (quite long):

Reigen to his 14 years old self:

#anon #ask #crystalv01d #serirei #tried my best make wawa young hair like a little mullet bcus both of them born at the year early 80's btw #yes i calculate that its insane they're so fucking old in the year 2023 #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #age swap au #mp100 ageswap #kind of #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #wawa pov: toichiro understand abt his psychic power and drag him to join his organisation and using his power a battery #good part abt what toichiro did to serizawa is let him go out to be socialize. its getting there but he didnt do shit so #toichiro didnt change wawa that much #when wawa met mob he finally realised how he got manipulated by his president #so basically after he met mob and became friends he tried to becoming brave enough to do something #and thats the first part hes trying to change: as in saving reigen's life #and the thing that serizawa is the only one who decided to join s&s so he can be employee in any work he can do #and also decided to go back to educate more as in going to night school #and THAT BOTH PART IS ACCEPTED BY REIGEN!!!! what the #so basically when he improving himself better reigen let him. like reigen said from ova hes not being used badly like before. #all reigen want when serizawa working there is to just make him exorcism and take care. thats it #sorry for the lame ass long tags about this like meet mob opened his eyes. and reigen did the silly diys changed his life. idk #isHOULD STOP

[lunarharp]

hi

#witch hat tag #orufrey #*crowley the demon voice after dramatically announcing You're On Your Own With This One and leaving the building* I'm back #no but i have struggled very much this past 1 week or so with things largely unrelated to art but some related. I fought really really hard #I'll do my best to be brave and continue so i can make caicore drawings forever. last one is super mega scribbly wip-land...just an idea.. #if i put my halo on your head oru you'll forget me and then only i will have to fall #Good omens-core. Changed forever by good omens sorry. i drew some of that too..might do more so i'll save it for later. #drawing other things is good. healing. i will continue to draw a variety of things and believe there's a point to it all #they will always be so important to me qifrey will always be guiding my drawing hand

[trickstarbrave]

a king enjoying a relaxing bath

i dont have anything else i just wanted to draw my sweet nerevar taking a bath fsr. pls enjoy proof i can in fact do backgrounds if i am forced to (to varying degrees of success)

bonus:

#nerevar #indoril nerevar #morrowind #tesblr #morrowind art #my art #hes just soooooooo cute #i love him #what do you think hes thinkin about #i wanna play with his hair. it looks like fun #also wet hair is just kinda fun to draw esp nerevars #sorry im insane lately and just rly enjoy my blorbo takin a bath and chillin #i dont know how to draw water still okay #i gave up part way #i tried my best alright #maybe one day #kisses him on his little nose #'brave thats a warlord' shut up you dont get it

[logicpng]

I think I can with certainty say I'm past the halfway point with this. there's not that much random dialogue left to make up

I can only hope the switch works as intended on other computers, since a different timing left them mid-transition. it seems like it doesn't interrupt the bubbles switch but it's only if the menu switch/shell reset comes at a specific point before it 🤔

sakurascript is really weird with calling functions, but I Think if you call it as a variable ( %(function) ) it doesn't interrupt the script?? maybe??

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#original #CaelOS #aster #aster ghost wip #I've ran so many times into wanting to do a Thing and it being outside the scope of what you can reliably do with YAYA/SakuraScript #or at least without involving external libs #you can do anything if you write external code and put it into a .dll it seems #but now that's outside the scope of my patience /wheeze #I'm hoping to test some of this with a couple people at least #I'm sure many things would've had answers if I was brave enough to step foot into an ghost dev discord server but. I am Shy #we figure this shit out on our own and die like men /j #and like I could've just stuck with the template and make it much simpler but NOU I need to make it NEEDLESSLY COMPLICATED without actually #providing much function of my own or that good of a story #if any ukagaka devs read this pls be nice to us we're doing our best 8v8 #also I recently realized the terms 'ghost' and 'shell' are meant to be a reference to... Ghost in the Shell. I'm devastated /j #vega (aster)

[kineticallyanywhere]

the amount to which I am furious on Normal's behalf is perhaps too much but also this that this kid is going through with no emotional catharsis or support from the people around him is awful. perhaps there's my "odd one out of the friend group" experience bleeding in here but like. hhhhrrrrrraaaaaaggggggggggggggggGGGGGGGGGGG if he doesn't keep throwing hands or start throwing words at everyone (except probably Scary right now) next ep I might start doing it for him

#I get that all the other characters are also going through a lot and that's why i dont wanna get into specifics of whats driving me nuts #but every other teen is an only child and it SHOWS #if I write even a bit more specific than that it's gonna make it look like I dont love the other teens when I DO #I love them SO MUCH that's why I'm INVESTED in them #i want the best for ALL of them #but when you dont have something nice to say dont say anything at all #BUT my close venting friends are BEHIND and stuff is starting to BOTTLE #might write out a rant to send once my buddies catch up #if i get to meet Will on sunday and im brave i'll be like #pop off king #do it for all of us #youre not henry anymore #get mad #don't apologize #when Normal went feral this ep I wanted to CHEER #dndads #dndads 2 #dndads spoilers #normal oak

[taiturner]

How the fսck did I not wake up?

YELLOWJACKETS ◆ 2x02 “Edible Complex”

#taissa turner #taissaturneredit #jasmin savoy brown #man with no eyes #yellowjackets #yellowjacketsedit #van palmer #yellowjacketsource #96yellowjackets #tvedit #horrorwomensource #horrortvsource #usercoty #* #yellowjackets202 #yellowjackets spoilers #i am being so brave by giffing him - #this scene is so dark and weirdly pixelated i'm simply doing my best

[death-of-the-endless]

“...It’s like uh gender isn’t something you can pick and choose uh far as Gods are concernced.” “Well, that’s something the Gods can take and stuff up their sacred recta. I know what I am.”

Wanda Mann in The Sandman: A Game of You (1993)

#the sandman #wanda mann #dc #the sandman spoilers #dc comics #death of the endless #barbie (the sandman) #opened up tumblr and had the terry pratchett post on my dashboard #(you know the one) #and thought i should do something for one of my absolute favorite minor characters in the sandman #wanda mann has my whole heart #her death truly gives the whole story a sense of tragedy because she's just this brave person trying to do her best and help others #her family thinks she's some kind of demon spawn just because she's trans and she's still so fucking kind to the end #was thinking if i wanted this to be about her death but you know what #i actually love wanda's ending #yes it is tragic and sad af #but the closure of the funeral scene with Barbie and then Death somehow gets more every time #because Wanda looks happy #transgender #queer #mine #terfs do not fucking interact

[humandisorderincarnatedean]

Inexorable

Written for @deangenchallenge June 2022. Theme: ☀️ sunshine ☀️ Wordcount: 900+ 

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It’s a long, confusing period of chaos and pain - no, no no no pain, he gave up the pain there wouldn’t be any more pain - and then he wakes up opens his eyes and he’s breathing. He recognizes it in less than two seconds: that it’s real in a way nothing, not even the worst of hell ever was, and that it’s something he can still remember from a long, long, time ago. It's a very quiet realization: he’s breathing and alive. His breaths come quick and heaving, huge gulps now that he’s getting back used to the feeling of it. 

It’s still dark. 

He fumbles around and finds a lighter - holds it, with his hands - in his pocket - the pocket of his clothes, the ones he’s wearing - and flicks it on. The light makes it even realer, being able to see his very own hands. They look like his. 

He’s in a box. He feels around- feels it, feels the wood of it- realizes this must be his coffin. “Help!”, he calls out a few times and nearly doesn’t recognize his own voice, he sounds so hoarse. Could be from fear or because his oxygen is already running low or because he’s spent the last forty years screaming and that somehow carried over to his real actual vocal cords. 

It’s not that he’s beginning to panic: it’s that he’s been panicking since he opened his real eyes. He knows this is real, knows somehow that this isn’t a trick Hell is pulling on him - and why would it, why would it, it had him - but he’s still stuck here, a living corpse in a box in the earth everyone should have forgotten and stopped caring about decades ago. He slaps his palm against the coffin ceiling; then balls a fist and hits it. Dirt from his own grave rains down on his face. 

He starts pounding the material relentlessly, putting as much force behind his fist as he is capable of in the small space. He breaks through it, slips his lighter back into his pocket and now re-engulfed in darkness widens the hole in the wood. 

The earth above him comes spilling down on him, filling his coffin, and he beats it before it can bury him once more and climbs forward, up out of the box. He forces the earth out of the way, fear and adrenaline fueling him, and it’s like swimming through rock, like he’s hanging suspended in deep space. He keeps his mouth closed as to not swallow the dirt, can’t breathe and reminds himself that he hadn’t taken a breath in forty years, he can do it for a little while longer, as long as it takes him to climb six feet. It’s darker than demon black behind his closed eyelids, a dark that is more than the absence of light, and the ground is pressing at every part of him, pulling at him, but he pushes back against it, fights to make progress, refuses to let himself be obstructed now, this close back to life. To life. 

His hand punches through the earth and he can feel the air on his skin, the sun - it’s daytime- and then he thrusts up his other hand. He grabs onto the ground, claws at it with his nails, and drags himself up, up, up. The gap becomes big enough for light to go through and then his head- and then he’s topside, inhaling desperately, gratefully. He braces his arms and hauls the rest of him out, crawls out of his grave like he's dug himself all the way out of hell. Then he turns so he’s laying in the grass and he breathes it in, truly, deeply breathes in the first real breaths of air he’s had in over a lifetime. 

He can’t dwell on it- everything that happened in the Pit- more than that just yet. He’s holding it off for now, he’ll have to let it hit him later on. 

He lies in the grass that had grown over his grave and breathes, for a few moments: lets himself take these few seconds of rest. The sun is burning high and hot in the sky, and it’s the single most welcome feeling he can imagine in the world. After so long where there was nothing to keep him warm but for the fires of Hell and the knife and the whispered, hissed praises- 

The sensation of the sun shining down on him could make him start to cry. It is both alien and familiar, a reliving of a memory of long ago. The sun beats, inexorable, his heart alongside it. His eyes are tightly shut against its light, but it reassures him its there through the afterimage of yellow on the back of his eyelids. Reassures him if he opens them, he’ll open them to light. He focuses his senses on the genuine warmth of the sunshine on his skin, on his dirt-covered, sweaty face, seeping through the clothes he’s wearing, streaking through his hair, its enveloping embrace like nature herself is welcoming him back to life. 

It won’t be long before the sun becomes too hot to be bearable and he’ll tie his shirt around his waist as he goes in search of civilization; it will be even less long til he stands up and gets presented with the ominous view of a ring of flattened trees with his grave marker at the center. But right now Dean has just done what he never thought was possible, has just come back, has just returned from the dead, has just gotten out; and he’s feeling the sunlight. 

#dean winchester #deangenchallenge #.txt #writing #i do my best to be brave #4.01 lazarus rising

[nyhti]

Them <333

The Brave and the Bold #184

#i love it when there's an emotional aspect to their relationship #too many writers write their relationship as purely transactional #bruce gets information and protection from gordon #and gordon gets criminals off the streets #you can tell they definitely like what they get from each other #but do they actually like each other? #are they actually friends or just coworkers? #i live for moments like these where the writer is brave enough to show that they truly care for one another #where they are shown to trust each other and feel comfortable around each other enough to show emotion and vulnerability #in general i think their relationship was at it's best around this time during late bronze age #nearly every issue during the hamilton hill mayor saga was like: #gordon: i'm no longer commissioner ): #bruce *pulling him close*: YOU'RE THE COMMISSIONER OF MY HEART!!

[pepprs]

mutuals.

#purrs #chicago #i’ll tell you about it later god willing but today has been transcendent. and tonight is going to be transcendent. i am about to have an #experience. i want to talk about it so loud i mean i already have on here but i don’t want to jinx it until im back in the hotel safely #after it’s over. but im HERE. i made it here. i did this. i got myself here. ive been looking forward to this moment for months and almost #let myself get scared out of it but i didn’t and im here. and im going to be shattered into a million pieces but / and it’s goingto be #beautiful. my heart is pounding. im here im here im here #i am brave. i am strong. i am capable and competent. i am powerful. i am kind to myself. i know what’s best for me. i am afraid but i don’t #let the fear control me. i had the strength to do that all along and i just didn’t know it. today is the first day of my life i chose #completely for myself. it’s beyond time. 🥹💖💖💖💖💖

[ladychandraofthemoone]

That one Twitter Meme from Mhyuo but with Stankyle/OrangeChai: What do you meant this isn’t what happened? Kyle was totally Stanley’s very first crush & bi awakening even though he was unaware but he shook enough to drop his cigarette Kyle’s driver gave him-btw.

Flagless/Non Blurry Ver & Longer Explanation Below:

Wdym that you were only a year old after gaining your first crush after being immediately sent overseas and staying in the workshops in Europe for a month and then you met this cool engine while working on the front who’s a couple of months older than you yet already had crow’s feet’s and eyebags but the biggest smile and he had more experience who then takes you underneath his wing and taught you everything he knew and he didn’t get mad at you even you made mistakes that you couldn’t help yourself that you end up being labeled as a jinx and derailed every single day unlike the others including him who was considered to be “lucky” but he gives you advice, defends you and keeps you company and you didn’t even know what exactly love is until it was explained to you but you still had a vague perception on it until you come to this realization when you constantly think of him and his smile and his attempts to cheer you up and makes you laugh you love hearing him laugh and just around him ..

Yeah that couldn’t be me.

#ttte #ttte stanley #rws stanley #rws #the railway series #ttte proteus #proteus #kyle proteus #ttte shipping #my art #my art <3 #my art stuff #Kyle is like a few months older than stan but like he’s secretly tired and jaded but covers it up with bright optimism and cheerfulness cau #Realizes that a majority of the folks here were barely young adults they’re just children even him technically but he’s does his best #does he make mistakes yes but he tries so hard even though he’s genuinely a happy dude and maybe that why Stan fell for him Kyle stood up #cause benson is a jerk though I can see why and Stanley was general avoided like the plague and ignored by a majority (except for a certain #Hatt member but like Stanley overhears what’s it like to love from folks talking and is like “is this what this feels like do I like him or #Gosh I just got so many thoughts on them and how Stan never got to confess on Kyle what he felt about him cause the whole situations there #Was never gotta be a right time but he was gotta tell the moment Kyle came back to understand cause Kyle is smart and confident and brave #he knew everything about any topic but like he didn’t come back his luck just wasn’t enough to save/protect Kyle :( and gosh they make me #want to tear up like Stanley finally gets a safe space to figure his thoughts and emotions out but will never actually tell Kyle how he fel

[harmonictechnicality]

just popping on to say hey hi hello, and that i miss all of you lovely sunflowers v much

#got diagnosed with pmdd ayooo I love having hormones #no no but I’m v grateful to have a diagnosis now cause falling apart once a month was eating me alive #if anyone reading my rambly tags ALSO has this - pls know my heart fully goes out to you #you are a brave soul just doing your best #I’ve never experienced such intense sadness so I’m giving you the biggest hugs #but on a positive note I’m writing again #and cannot WAIT to go gush over all the lovely comments y’all have left on ao3 #seriously this community is full of precious little pebbles and I appreciate all of the kindnes so so much #okay I’m done bein gross i swearrrrr #back to the doods 😎🤙