#i don't want pity points

[fala-alfredo-pasta]

💗Komanami Week💗 Day 1: Confess

Just an average day in the komanami household

#danganronpa #komanami #komanami week #komanamiweek #komaeda nagito #nanami chiaki #nagito komaeda #chiaki nanami #my art #a e i o queue #what did ya think I was gonna make something cute and wholesome?? #i was until i got this idea and immediately knew which one I was gonna draw instead lololol #i want establish domesticity shenanigans your honor #look at them attempting to be a normal married couple. The apartment complex #say /The Komaedas/ with both disdain and pity because they actually like Chiaki #and don't understand why she's with that guy but Chiaki is so use to this being #peoples reaction that at this point if she sees/hears someone being mean to her husband #(for no good reason) she WILL call you out in the middle of the store and if she's feeling merciful #she'll give you some of the most backhanded compliments and passive aggressive jabs #the pointed judgmental and disappointed look she gives has emotionally traumatized so many #people know never to be disrespectful to her husband when she's around or lord have MERCY #meanwhile Nagito is oblivious to all this and is like: ''aren't our neighbors so nice :D'' lol

[mangofanarts]

(Excluding the original eggs out of this conversation) Out of the three new eggs, Empanada gives me oldest vibes, pepito gives off middle child vibes and Sunny is the youngest

#qsmp #qsmp empanada #qsmp pepito #qsmp sunny #you can't tell me that sunny doesn't give off such youngest kid vibes #she wants everything - she sees something and she points at it and immediately goes to her dad going DAD!!! I want that TOO!!! #she hands out diamonds to people even if it's out of pity #it's to help them out and she is sweet!! She handed a crown to the guy who her dad said #was her bodyguard and she wants to be a STAR!!! But at the same time she only sticks to her dad when he comes online #she wants to be liked just as any other kid does and doesn't understand why another kid can't like her and gets upset about it #Sunny is suchhhhhhhhhh a lil baby to me #Empanada seems like she would listen to her parents to whatever they will tell her to do and she will do her best so that she can get #validation from them and praise and she will get it!! While pepito - I don't feel like I need to explain with him #do you see my vision

[godbirdart]

in 2023 i need to go back to doing my independent thing. being primarily on twitter between 2020 and 2022 has absolutely curdled my brain in unspeakable ways. i still don’t engage in callouts and petty drama threads but i have noticed myself gettin more hostile/reactionary both online and offline because i was wading through the twitter cesspool every damn day and it’s!!! not great!!

i also accidentally picked up some self-deprecating mindsets from that hellsite over the last few years and man,, my confidence has absolutely Tanked bc of it to the point that my bf needs to step in and say “no! that’s not okay!” sometimes. like i’m grateful he’s here to keep my dumb ass in check, and i feel such tremendous guilt that he has to be the person to nudge me back into line but oh my god twitter has ruined me

#twitter is the only website that can convince you that you are inherently The Devil and you have to sit with that #not because of anything You Yourself did #and no you're not allowed to contest it because then that makes you even More bad #i don't want to get into it because i am not looking for pity points this is something I gotta deal with #but oh my god my brain has been curdled in unspeakable ways and it's been really damaging to me as a person

[ignorantsanonymous]

#i did find some people calling this Twitter account a misogynist #idk how true that is‚they only seemed to point to some tweets of him ranting that abortion is still accessible for rich white women #i don't think that counts as misogyny #but I'm not a woman‚ i don't think my opinion matters all that much there #oh and also i read some complaints that one of those tweets up there demonizes sex work #it doesn't. it demonizes tech bros who complain feminism is a problem and when you really listen #they're upset they can't‚ in general‚ use women for sex and then ghost the chick until they want sex again...without paying for it #a middle school level reading comprehension makes that pretty clear I think— #anyway‚tags: #techbros #dapperdomo #Twitter #feminism #pitiful #pathetic #men #conspiracy theories #theory #cointelpro #usa

[raspberry-gloaming]

I keep seeing videos online being like "back in my day we wanted toys and things that were popular and people around us also wanted for Christmas but now my kid wants trendy things and an Iphone 15"

and ive seen it phrased so many times that their idk 8 year old is like "I need the iPhone 15 for Christmas and I'm you bought me the iPhone 14 for my birthday but now that's old and crusty" and acting like wow my kid is so spoilt and bratty kids these days suck like - YOU ARE TJE ONE WHO BOUGHT A KID THE IPHONE 14 FOR THEIR BIRTHDAY?! THEY'RE 8. YOURE DOING THIS!

They act like it's the kids fault when really they're growing up with access to things they really oughtened to, and some of the other things are just "my friend thinks it's cool and the rich kids at school have it so I want it" like you millenia parent didn't do the exact same thing just with other things. I hate that they're making fun of the kids due to their parenting choices.

#their Christmas list in entirety adds up to so much money! #how am I gonna afford all this? #I've also seen parents claiming their kids are so spoilt and bratty because #but like... aren't Christmas lists normally a “here's a bunch of things I'd love and then you pick some stuff off it so I get a surprise!” #dudes and girlypops #both as gender neutral terms #your doing this to yourself #creating a negative attitude towards your own children #girl I never expected my Christmas list and in still a teen so not too long ago I was that age #I asked for at least one type of animal every year (degus - chinchillas - rabbits - snakes - leopard geckos - dogs - cats - chickens - #bearded dragons - the lot) #knowing for well I'd never get them #and my parents wouldn't because no you don't get everything you want this is a wishlist not an everything shopping list #but holding out a teeny hope that Santa would take pity #but my point is that those among other things I knew I wasn't likely to get #millenials #parenting #gen alpha #Christmas

[yohankang]

shit went down at work today and there's a chance they'll fire me 🙃

#my boss will talk to the ceo tomorrow and it's entirely up to him....... #multiple people at work saw me crying and i was so ashamed i wanted to cry even more lol #i'm just so bad at this job and i hate it but it's so hard to find a job when you dropped out of uni twice #and they pay well and i truly love some of the people there #like my boss expects me to do better (if i won't get fired) and she wants me to propose some improvements #but like. the problem is me. the workload is too much for me and there's no magic way to solve it #and the worst part is i'm so emotionally unstable i can't even talk about it without crying #i'm crying even now lol #and i know if i start crying tomorrow it will only annoy him #and i'm not doing it to seem pitiful i just can't control it at all #godd i'm so tired #i wish i could just cry it out today and then have a serious conversation tomorrow but it doesn't work like that #i had plans today but i start crying every 10 minutes so i just came back home and opened a beer #maybe it will put me to sleep idk #at this point i'm also annoyed with myself #i will let you know how it goes tomorrow 🙃 #k.txt #dl #btw please don't try to comfort me because it only makes me cry harder lol i'm just writing to let it all out

[britneyshakespeare]

He won't leave my fucking friends alone.

#tales from diana #sorry this is about that bad friend i have to break up w that ive posted abt on and off the past couple weeks/months maybe #i still have to send him that final 'i dont wanna speak to you ever again' #ive been fucking busy ok. my summer has been full of family events and obligations #i have one brother getting married and the other having a baby!!! i have a LIFE and SHIT TO DO and PPL TO BE THERE FOR other than YOU!!! #i havent spoken to him in over 2 months too and he knows it's bc i don't want to #he's so difficult bc you can't fucking tell him the truth. you can't!!! he can't handle it!!! do you know how hard it is to handle??? #the things i have to do to cut him off. because he doesn't respect normal fucking boundaries. make ME feel like im in the wrong #like im the shady person and the liar. #i can't drift from him bc hell pull me back #i can't communicate w him bc he won't hear anything i have to say he'll just turn it around & make it abt himself. #he literally does not understand ppl having motivations to do things that don't relate to him #and he has no sympathy for what he does to other ppl. nothing but self-pity for how they don't like him anymore. #if he dealt w someone who put him through half of what he put ME through. no he couldn't actually. #i only allowed him to manipulate me for so long because i cared abt him. who i thought he was. #and he just point blank period doesn't care about other ppl. so he could never go through what ive gone through w him. #i feel like all this friend breakup has proven to me is that im actually a good person and it can be used against me by ppl who arent #some fucking lesson i needed to learn huh? #i hate feeling as negatively towards anyone as i do towards him. it's so hard for me not to have at least #a little spark of hope deep down for everyone. even ppl ive removed from my life before. i dont HATE them #theyve disappointed me or insulted me or mistreated me but at least their motivations seemed simple and clear #and MOST of them seemed to understand SOMEWHAT that they were in the wrong #even if they don't admit it to me or still find an excuse to hate me. whatever #i can see them as ppl who might feel remorse someday and grow from it #i do not see it in this guy. bc if you have a problem w him he'll only make it 20 times worse. #he's so selfish it genuinely baffles me to think about it. and he's one of the least honest ppl ive ever known. #he'll never see the error of his ways. i do not believe he has that capacity. #and will i say none of this to him? no #im just going to say thanks for leaving me alone these past couple months. it's been good for me. #i don't think i can continue our friendship anymore for my own sake.

[bionicbore]

Y’know I kinda wanna elaborate on the HC I mentioned, where I said that if Donald hadn’t found out what Douglas was doing and intervened, Douglas would’ve eventually cracked and fessed up

Mostly I wanna elaborate that he wouldn’t have fessed up because of ethical guilt (though I do think he may have something somewhere inside him that would give a damn about ethics. He did seem pretty excited to do good things after all) but more because he’s got the emotional strength of a wet tissue and would feel personal guilt after getting so attached

I’m gonna put most of it under a cut ‘cause it turned into a full on Douglas study I guess

Like... obviously I’m prefacing this with it being my own interpretation of the guy, but Douglas was a pretty emotional dude in the show. His entire redemption was rooted in his emotional attachment to his family. His morals never 100% improved, and the growth we did see was almost entirely motivated by “My family won’t like me if I’m a bad guy :(”

And while he’s not a particularly GOOD dad, he is a dad. Literally every kid Douglas gets more than 2 minutes of screen time with, he goes into some kind of Dad Mode

So, the way I see it, I don’t think Douglas would’ve lasted if he got to keep the Rats for longer than he did. It’s never actually said how old the kids were when Donald found out, but they couldn’t have been older than like... 3? Tops? Possibly even younger, technically. If Douglas actually got to watch those kids grow up in whatever messed up environment he had them in to keep them hidden (Which, I’ll be honest- based on comparing the brothers’ lab quality, was probably a worse environment than Donald’s lab) I don’t think he would’ve been able to commit. Not with the original trio, anyway

ALSO. I wanna bring up Donald, ‘cause he’s also a factor in of himself

Yeah, the brothers fight a lot, and did fight a lot. But I think it’s worth remembering that despite that, these two founded a company together. They invented things together. They work together seamlessly when they get in the zone. Douglas, despite all the animosity, was ecstatic at the prospect of getting to work alongside his brother again, and was genuinely sad when Donald didn’t feel the same, but chose not to fight Donald’s decision

Douglas cares what Donald thinks of him, and I bet he cared a lot more before Donald discovered what was happening and made his own judgement call. The two of them had to have been incredibly close, and that probably would’ve weighed on Douglas, too

But Donald found out on his own, and he didn’t waste time. He saw the children, he saw the conditions, the plans, the schematics. There was absolutely no way to rationalize what was happening here, Donald had to get these kids out and away. His little brother was using their assets to make deals with terrorists regarding the creation of bioweapons in the form of children

And Douglas was left ghosted by the most consistent presence in his life for the past 20+ years, locked out of the company he helped build from nothing, and separated from these kids who have also been a consistent presence in his life for entirely different reasons

And Douglas is notorious for deflecting and pushing back when someone else decides that he’s in the wrong. All that potential turmoil means the time between Donald finding out and Douglas “dying” was probably like. Intense. To put it mildly

All this to say: Douglas is still a DICK lmao and the point of this post is NOT to be like “Douglas deserved better” or even “Donald is to blame.” It’s more about how Douglas is a notably emotion-driven character and how it affects his dynamics and actions, both positive and negative

It’s also my favorite kind of angst- where technically, things could have turned out okay, or at least better than they did, if everyone involved hadn’t been such a mess

#Lab Rats #Douglas Davenport #I'm only tagging Douglas 'cause he's the focal point but Donald does get a fair bit here #Anyway Douglas fascinates me 'cause like. I definitely don't want him or his actions to be underplayed #Like it really doesn't matter if he wouldn't have gone through with it. Especially not at the time everything happened #The fact that he got as far as he did is damning enough #But also he is SO pitiful and his emotional reliance on others is interesting #Especially in contrast to how nonchalant he tends to act #He's perfect for exploring how consequences effect someone #Which is why I draw him with such tired eyes and like to write him being Fucking Miserable #And I'll say it. Dude was a SOFTIE in the actual show #Seriously- in no particular order: #He made Chase some good soup. He went above and beyond to save Leo's arm. He gave every Rat a new ability for various reasons #He stood up for various kids on numerous occasions. He cried when Leo became an instructor #He saved a stray dog. He put a kid up for adoption to keep him safe. #He encouraged his robot son's passion for drama club. He actively helped Donald with the indestructible car #Look me in the eye. Make direct eye contact with me and tell me #That this man could raise 3 flesh and blood children from infancy #And simply pawn them off as disposable weaponry #You cannot convince me. Douglas Davenport is too pathetic to commit to that bit #He's willing to kill a kid but that goes out the fucking window if he spends more than 1 non-hostile hour with said kid #He acts like he hates his brother's guts but will literally drop it the minute Donald's nice to him in any capacity #... See now I went and wrote TWO essays #Kill me

[hazmatmaid]

I've said this elsewhere, but I think it deserves its own post.

I think Lancer is kind of underrated in the sense that he's not as helpless as I've seen some make him out to be. Can we talk about how he:

Takes you on 2:1 in his introduction

Frees himself from his father's grip

Organized a revolution within the span of a few minutes

Releases not just Kris from a locked room in Queen's Mansion, but every other Lightner that was trapped in one

Not to mention, he seems aware that his own subjects don't really like him, and only listen to him because they have to, but when Susie criticizes his "bad guy" act, not only does he thank her for her feedback, they become friends!

He's kind of a badass in his own right, and I feel like that doesn't really get acknowledged.

#deltarune #lancer #deltarune lancer #lancer deltarune #deltarune analysis #haz says a thing #this is sort of an addendum to the last thing i actually posted #where people seemed to misinterpret it #it was more of a statement on how he's portrayed in fanon #how babified he is to the point of not knowing how to read or write #when he's the one that wrote all the signs in the first part of chapter 1 #i don't think he deserves to be pitied just because of his dad #if chapter 2 is anything to go off of he wants the best for him while he's locked up #so he can't be ALL bad #just PRETTY bad #please don't make me regret posting this :)

[meowmeowmessi]

this is the same club that started churning out rumors abt pep having homosexual tendencies as well as AIDS in an attempt to defame him and drive him out of the club when he was a player bc he was beginning to gain way too much influence btw. not all is sunny in sunny catalunya

#cruyff pep and messi all became bigger than the club at one point and suffered for it. it's a pattern #pep did leave obv and under circumstances very similar to messi's but he also came back as coach #and here i will once again point to the stockholm syndrome remark #nevertheless when pep speaks ill of spanish journalists and says he wants to be 'left alone'? there's history in those words #barça has a lot of history. a lot of beauty. but there's some pretty murky waters to be traversed too #i think it's a pity many fans don't read up on the history bc imho it paints a bigger picture #and helps put things into perspective. but i supposed most ppl just want to let loose and watch a game of football which is understandable

[isekai-ed]

didn't think I'd end up liking roman lol

#shocking revelation honestly #maybe bc he knows he's a bitch and doesn't hide it? #like kendall and shiv think they're better than they actually are for different reasons #yeah roman has the spine of a lalang when it comes to logan but out of the 4. he became a bit more competent than he was before #he was unbearable in s1. doubt my opinion will change if i rewatched s1 #succession #it's not out of pity for the abuse he experienced. honestly don't care about who had it worse at this point. i just want the juiciest drama

[icharchivist]

i mean i get why it sucks but i've been having an existential crisis that keeps me up at night for most of my life too and i'm not producing people expressly to abuse them and use them as tools about it. Astrals are just on something else i guess

i'd say it's a question of scale in general, as in an existential crisis coming so deeply from a whole different life in your head would fuck someone up much more. but anyway i keep saying Lucilius' way to treat other is bad, in those same posts in fact, just that his issues with depersonalization/derealization are also extremely compelling and actually make me feel bad for him. Those two feelings can coexist, and i don't mean that you have to be nicer to him or anything. i'm just saying he's still an interesting character.

#like idk as someone who suffered from both scenario ie: abuse from family and lover #and this feeling of twisting yourself to try to overcompensate on the neglect you've been through #AND as someone who genuinely feels like i'm walking my life as dissociated from reality #and have to constantly remind myself to remain close to earth while being scared when the apathy knocks in #especially after too-realistic dreams that can really make it seem like something is deeply wrong with me and i shouldn't be here #i have actually deep feelings for both situation #yeah Lucilius's way to treat others is wrong. i've never denied it or implied that because he was a sad meow meow it was forgiveable #all i've been saying is that damn actually this feeling of complete disconnect resonate with me to the point of shattering my glass house #and while compassion and empathy are stuff i deeply deeply prioritize in my life #i have those episodes of pure apathy especially after a disconnection like that #that genuinely scare me and that i have to work twice harder to feel myself back into controlling my thoughts #and therefore am deeply scared of the flipside of not managing to fight it #which actually make me much more empathic to characters who can't. actually. #like i have this thing where i see characters who struggles with similar issues than me and make all the wrong choices #because i pity them like i'd pity myself in the mirror on a bad day #like i'm sorry i don't want to be tmi or justify myself in such a way but i've tried just being more general #and if we're going to put personal experience into all of this i have all day #i have a trauma for all of the stuff i have lighthearted but strong opinions about #i insult Lucilius every other day i feel like it's a bit sad that the day i say i do actually like how interesting his drama is #that i have to argue for the reasons why those issues - while not erasing his flaws - are worth being emotional about #and i'm not asking you to feel this way and you should stick to how you feel bc your personal experience is what should shape your feelings #but you also need to accept that i have my own as well #ichareply #anonymous #ichafantalks gbf

[bitbrumal]

kicks down the door  i WANT dainsleif & kaeya conflict that’s so complex they’re grasping at each other knowing they’ll tear like wet fucking tissue paper. kaeya the would-have-been prince of a kingdom long lost, a loss accepted by dain - & yet, kaeya as a symbol of some far-fetched rebirth. even though it will never be real--an acceptance so fully come to terms with, made peace with, that it makes of an idea some gentle soothe.                     never real because kaeya will absolutely                         never tolerate being used for that purpose. dainsleif, perhaps expecting the delusional puppet of the alberich clan — & kaeya, expecting as always to be doomed by any connection to his home country. any recognition by it. the biting, snarling conflict clad in a composure so controlled it will ache at the seams as they see in each other all the things they fear most, at least where related to khaenri’ah.

kaeya who wants nothing & yet everything; greedy for the light that flickers so rarely in dainsleif’s eyes - their weight upon him a thing not so difficult to dissect when the foundation of his response is well known. there’s no better way to get to know a man than to know him where he breaks.         kaeya, terrified. dainsleif, horrified.

& each the only place where that can be wholly understood.

#have i mentioned i love tenderness in the dark. only 23908349 times? oh good. #wishlist #hc ✦ kaeya #this is ur permit to come attack me with dainsleif things. no i don't care whether we're mutuals #GIB #perhaps dainsleif could pity the loss of self that might lay in store for kae OR kae has smth going on that protects him from it like dain #which makes a lotta sense?? like if dain does then uh. BUT. even if kae is protected then dain could offer that knowledge- #centuries of agony yes - but not a loss of s e l f. which is smth kaeya fears more than anything. #he's not been himself his whole life he just wants to someday get to that point #instead of even- hellishly -worse. #anyway there's just sm these fuckers could talk abt & they're such stubborn assholes there could be much enjoyable conflict. #GIVE ME DAINS OR GIVE ME DEATH #edit: what i'm also saying is kaeya getting decency from anything overtly khaen would be. kinda life altering ngl #dains does NOT at all come across manipulative #i don't mean he wouldn't ever i just mean... not for no real reason. & i don't think he'd go for tryina make kaeya be king etc etc that's #obvious right lol. so kaeya could just... be from his home country AND be his own person. that's wild lol that'd be a first

[caracello]

one of the reasons i don't particularly want to use dg's semi-canon real name is it also kind of ties nicely into his story w fragment. both of them have a name and a 'normal' life they left in the past because of the hellwave. we don't know and we never will know if flynn and. whoever fragment was would have gotten along but because they met when they did and as who they are it worked.

#one of the things i find personally important when writing fragments story is to highlight that #his delusion isnt... particularly a bad thing. i don't view my psychosis as a bad thing and while #the delusions i get can be upsetting and/or incredibly embarrassing i've found myself to be #somewhat proud of my psychosis? less in a... i'm happy to have it way but in an... this is a part of me way. #and i enjoy who i am. so there's no reason to truly hate this part of me. #a bit of a sidebar there but in short i want this character to be actively delusional and not #at any point try to 'fix' him or show even pity towards the state he's in. it is who he is. #and part of that for me is having him remain like that. for the events of canon at least. #hmmm... hopefully that makes a level of sense. i promise it relates to the actual post somehow. #gush:{🐇}

[menkhu]

h.

#nothing to make you feel more pathetic than emailing your town's library #to say pretty please i'm an unincorporated resident and i know we can get cards for a cost determined by taxes #but i have no job and no property and pay no rent and i have no documents proving this absence #but can i just get a card anyway pretty please #can you pretty please pity me enough to give me what i want #(i checked my state's department of labor website; i can't just get documents confirming i'm unemployed) #well. maybe when i get a message back they'll have some other ideas of how to proceed #don't count chickens etc #fingers crossed they don't just point to the address on my driver's license and say pay taxes for THAT property #and i do have a library card for the local community college but their selection is uhhhh #dear diary

[bibiana112]

I love being in a catch-22 about emotional vulnerability

#if you don't Talk about your Feelings™ it's gonna weigh on your work it's gonna weigh on your relationships on your peace of mind #but if you do Talk about your Feelings™ the second you do you're gonna crack and actually cry and need external comfort and reassurance #which would be fine if it didn't feel like at that point you're manipulating people to pity you. which you abhorror to begin with #because you're not some lost puppy you're sooo independent that you're on your own forever and always #and anything else feels like it's the wrong place to be like no matter how much you try to fit into the picture you're not part of it #''oh but of course you're not being manipulative if you don't want to be'' no you don't get it the internalized gaslighting count me in. #some part of myself is just. convinced I'm fucking manipulating myself into feeling horrible just out of wanting to be interesting #I can tell it's bullshit but it. still #I can't even cry all by myself. not even I choose okay this is ridiculous just go have a cry rn. doesn't work