#i havent been active in ages

[clegfly]

doodle

#omori #doodle #i havent been active in ages #I love tumblr I just haven’t logged on in ages #Yeah I hope I’m way more active :) #Love this silly site

[basketobread]

it's right behind me, isn't it? 😂 (tomorrow is my birthday and idk how to feel about it)

#I MEAN I LIKE MY BIRTHDAY SO ITS EXCITING BUT ITS STILL WEIRD YKNOW? #i dont fear aging tho... i wanna be a cool elder its my lifelong dream #also hi i promise im still here and getting thru this burn out #COMICS WILL BE ON THEIR WAY SOON I PROMISE YALL I PROMISEEE #social media is not my strong suit!!! HAHAHA #but i still love and appreciate each and every one of you sm thank u all for being here <333333333 #just thought i would voice my thoughts here for a bit since i havent been too active recently HAHA #much love <3333333 #bob talks

[donnyclaws]

I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.

#i do feel kind of worn down by it. i wish patreon and commissions didn't feel so taxing even with accommodations ive made for myself #maybe it'll feel better in the future when less is going on but rn it #places this barrier of management in front of art that makes it less relieving to do #cause there's always a part of my brain reminding me it needs to serve a purpose and needs to pay off in some way #which isn’t a new feeling for artists obviously. maybe doing it all since hs js also why it's tiring. and patreon changjng the way it does #working part time now too. idk if maybe id like to step back from it #it's abnormal that i worked taht hard and it did help me get out from my parents and stay out. but im also tired ect #idw let people down by not being able to keep up with a self imposed expectation or #be irresponsible and remove sources of income for myself. redbubble inprnt and patreon all suck in ways that bother me hugely #i only really enjoy itch.io at the minute #not to say anything bad abt patrons or commission clients you've all been excessively kind and patient and understanding always #i wish i could make them better i feel like there's no way how it is at the minute is of value compared to my output as an older teen #but yknow. self imposed worry. im just worn out and id like to just make things without the management and the fretting and the #i havent made a comic post for patreon in ages or this or this i havent made a speedpaint or a song or #yadda yadda lmao #sorry for the impromptu ramble #this isnt to say id never do commissions or a store or anything again or i want to not make money off art #god knows i will need to be grinding out comms once im well again but ex #i feel like im getting less and less able to manage it and then putting out less and less #and hoping ill somehow get very healthy and active again one day and make it worth the wait yknow. #it's not a feeling i want my art to carry in me. #part of me and the parent in my brain is saying it'd be selfish to give up income but the rest is like #that's cruel. i want to feel good and healthy

[darabeatha]

the rules are simple! post characters you’d like to roleplay as, have roleplayed as, and might bring back. then tag ten people to do the same ( if you can’t think of ten, just write down however many you can and tag that number of people ). please repost, don’t reblog!

Current Muse:

Constantine XI (fgo)

Ashwatthama (fgo)

Vlad III (fgo)

Jason (fgo)

Camazotz (fgo)

Arjuna (fgo)

karna (fgo)

Odysseus (fgo)

Edmond Dantes (fgo)

Robin Hood (fgo)

Billy the kid (fgo)

Sherlock Holmes (fgo)

Daybit (fgo)

Tezcatlipoca (fgo)

Charlemagne (fgo)

Moctezuma II (fgo)

Duryodhana (fgo)

Ritsuka Fujimaru (fgo)

kukulkan (fgo)

tlaloc (fgo)

Saito Hajime (fgo)

Nitocris (fgo)

Moriarty ruler & archer (fgo)

Nero Claudius (fgo)

Castor (fgo)

Asclepius (fgo)

Antonio Salieri (fgo)

Morgan (fgo)

Baobhan Sith (fgo)

Barghest (fgo)

Oberon (fgo)

Arash (fgo)

Gilgamesh caster & archer (fgo)

Arthur Pendragon & alter (fgo)

Henry Jekyll and Hyde (fgo)

L.ucifer (fgo)

Want to write:

TO BE HONEST; right now I'm pretty chill but I definitely want to write an angel! Gabriel or Uriel or Michael

Have written (in Tumblr & other platforms):

(I'm not going to list all my f.ate muses bc that would make the list super long so I'll mainly focus on characters from different fandoms, if they are all on the same line its bc they were inside a multiuse)

Norton Campbell ( Identity v )

Aesop Carl ( Identity v )

Espresso cookie ( Cookie run )

Zhongli, Xiao, Kazuha, Diluc, Albedo, Kaeya + more ( Genshin Impact )

Giyuu ( kny )

Tsurumaru Kuninaga ( Touken Ranbu )

Heshikiri, Ishikirimaru, Kasen, Nagasone, Ookurikara, Shokudaikiri, Mikazuki ( Touken Ranbu )

Doppo Kannonzaka, Gentaro (as guest muse) ( Hypnosis mic )

Samatoki ( Hypnosis mic )

Akutagawa, Chuuya , Ranpo, Fyodor, Dazai, etc ( bungou stray dogs )

Cain, Shylock, Mithra, Lennox, Nero, Oz, Bradley, Chloe, Faust ( Mahoyaku )

Would write again:

Norton Campbell ( identity v )

Aesop Carl ( identity v )

Tsurumaru ( or any of my other touken ranbu muses )

tagging: Y O U

#;ooc #ooc #UMMMMM SO- #well my mutuals from ages ago know i have 37895673863 muses its kind of a meme at this point #i would put would write again e.spresso but does he count??? i mean im not really turbo active but its not like i dropped him to say #once in 80 years i drop in then yeet #i guess he goes in (?) in the sense of -would like to be more active on him- #ALSO I.DENTITY V MY BELOVEDDDDDDDDDDD AUARGHGRHGRGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHH #PHYSICAL DMG X500000000 #i wrote n.orton for ages and a.esop was somehow close by; i love them ough #well being 100% honest; i dont write aaaall the muses listed on current #some used to have their single blogs but now since i can be on one place and have them all gathered; i havent been writing those in particu #which is funny bc;; holmes; robin dantes and nero were like; MY OG #nero is lit where it all started #g.il a.rash and a.rthur have been there for a long while too #im not logging much on eitherof a.rthur or a.rash's single blogs but they vibe here #i used to be a lot on my s.aito too much later on; now he's vibing here as well

[whoviandoodler]

I know I literally just woke up but the thing that hit me is like... Chuuya MUST know about what happened with Odasaku, right? He's an executive (or at least was made one after Dazai left), he must have been told at least a version of the story- now the question is, what exactly did Mori tell him?

Because we know that he wasn't really involved with the Mimic incident (or at least not with Dazai's aspect of it), and we know he previously expressed thinking that Dazai unforgivably fucks with friend and foe, aka that he doesn't really care about anything, so is it really out of the question that based on a probably manipulative account Mori gave him he thought that Dazai used Odasaku's death as merely an excuse to leave?

And then I'm like okay, but Chuuya knows Mori is a liar and a manipulator, so he would at least question it a bit- but them I'm like, would he??? Or would he be so hurt and angry that Dazai left that he would just go along with what Mori said and what fit best into his anger???

Because later, after he's forbidden from killing Dazai by Dazai's deus ex machina plan, and after the mafia and the ADA make a truce, Chuuya acts like Dazai is a part of his "herd" (people to be protected, even if hated) again, but we do see in several of their interactions that he's still struggling with balancing the mafia instinct of killing a traitor (especially a personal one) and the german shepherd instinct of protecting one of his own (because even though four years have passed, it's not like he could properly prepare himself for interacting with Dazai again).

And then I'm like, but he must know the truth on some level right??? One of Chuuya's most annoying (to him, I imagine) qualities is his temperament and his intellect not fitting with each other- that is, his intellect getting in the way of fully letting his temperament out (like we saw with the whole Ango thing in dead apple- his temperament had him destroying Ango's office and roughing Ango up a bit, but his intellect wouldn't let him kill Ango for something he knows Ango didn't do).

His temperament (and his experience with Dazai's destructive apathy) tell him that Dazai's nothing but a traitor and should be killed for it because that's what you do with traitors and he's an enemy now, but once that temperament has to be reined in because Dazai can't be killed, he has to deal with his intellect holding the reigns.

But then that's just another route of complex emotions, isn't it? Not just facing the possibility that Dazai is capable of placing human emotion and friendship above 'logical gain' (and what it means for all the times he wouldn't/couldn't do it before that), but that possibility being fact meaning that Dazai was right in leaving the mafia. That he was led by Chuuya's own morals ('herd' trumps all else/destroy anyone who hurts the herd), and that thus Chuuya killing him for it would be hypocritical.

I mean, I definitely don't think that it's on the conscious level yet (considering the many, many times that he's hurt Dazai so far, as understandable as it was (to a degree) under the circumstances); in fact, I'd say that it being subconscious is what irks his temperament even more. But then again, it could be that him being aware of it is what's making him angrier? Who knows...

#bsd #bsd analysis #bsd chuuya #havent read all the light novels yet so this is just anime + dark era novel knowledge dont shoot #also its possible someones talked abt this before and idk abt it bcs i havent gone into the fandom analysis circles yet #cant actively look into a fandom when im actively creating for it. dont ask me why i have no idea #this is just a lil 'just woke up' ramble ignore any mistakes or thought circles or whatevs #been thinking for ages abt chuuya's whole deal and clearly havent decided on any one answer yet #but this was an interest thing to think abt #dan talks

[dyslectic-npc]

somebody please spill the info on whats going on with the Mlp gen 4 and this infeckted au? Cus like all my media is slowly beeing infeltrated and its spreading. spreading fast. Never seen this much Mlp bodyhorror befor

#mlp g4 #mlp #mlp infected au #mlp infection au #whats going on? #not gona lie tho I am loveing this #I havent been active in mlp spaces for ages so I have no ide whats causing this infection to spread

[selenealwayscries]

im actually posting skins again yayyyyyy <- exhausted

ive been missing him for the entire day so i spent like 6 hours in front of my laptop making this

the link to it will be in the reblogs as usual o7

#mcyt #dont really wanna tag this but . #dsmp #and #dsmpblr #mcytblr #technoblade #technoblade fanart #mc skin #if my tags look messier than usual its because i havent posted dsmp adjacent content in ages ive forgotten how i used to tag them o(-( #i miss him so much #i know its been almost half a year since hes gone but it still doesnt feel real #sometimes i still get his old videos recommended to me on youtube and its just as if he never left at all #im genuinely so thankful for technodad for bringing us so much comfort and keeping his memories alive on reddit #i dont actively use reddit for shit but whenever i see him talk id still open it just to check out what he has to say #something something what died didnt stay dead youre alive so alive <- t*yl*r sw*ft fan #sorry the swiftie kicked in for a sec anyways #the urge to go back and binge his content is real but the fear of fucking up my university grades is even stronger #i should probably go actually grind out my proposal . or my website . or my essay on ethub- *GIANT ROCK FALLS ON MY HEAD* #catgirl supreme #moondrop.exe

[somethingsomethingcomic]

red / blue

#nirvana #fall out boy #punk #grunge #hi hello sorry i haven't been active uh. live has been. bad! #i have another piece to upload that will probably explain it but i gotta see if i wamna tweak it first. #ANYWAY ive been getting way into nirvana and other 90s grunge music #i think all apologies is hands down my favorite song by them but i also like most of nevermind #pearl jam is also ok but i dont like eddie vedder's voice as much. but jeremy is a very good song #and also daughter which. looks at that other piece again. heh. #but yeah may still be a bit before i put out a new comic #partially because! when i designed this eli character it was meant to be uhhh. me #but my hair doesnt look like that anymore! ive been growing it out and havent dyed it in ages #so idk what to do about that. idk why im hung up on it but i am! #its not like junes character looks a ton like them. like they dont have pink hair at all. and BOTH of us wear glasses. #idk! i was also still battling art block most of last year #hoping things turn around soon. gripping the wheel gritting my teeth desperately. things will turn around soon. #anyway how are yall doin #smth art

[sheriffofmagic]

sorry for being annoying on here today i just have a lot of love in my heart <3

#teehee #i havent been consistently active on this account in ages rip to anyone who followed ages ago whos getting spammed w shit today ily

[hildegardladyofbones]

Kind of annoying how when I mention death at all adults (however other people my age do it too) are always like "here comes another teen obsessed with death" and like. If every teen have the same thoughts I have, then they would be talked about more. So far I've never seen anyone else claim to be as dead (in a non suicidal way) as I am.

#exhumed takes #not saying i invented that worldview but i came to that conclusion on my own #open to meeting people with the same worldview but i just havent yet #and im not just fascinated with death- that fascination has been here since the middle ages- i am actively dead. yet all people hear when i #talk is “hee hee hoo hoo decay” #people fr think im a “quirky girl” when i say i have a skeleton in my closet. maybe i am a quirky girl but pls realise that i am a corpse

[astrxealis]

hiii :333 i think i am alive !! ( small update in da tags )

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #WOOOAGHHHHH HAVENT BEEN HERE IN AGES. WOW> #sorry guys im a straight a student in their senior year of hs... i have been enjoying real life ^_^ i miss it here tho. :( #will be active soon bcs school is gna end. fucking sobbing but we don't talk abt that #i am here instead of working on the uh. 2 group presentations i need to work on. and the 1 Solo presentation............. #which is crazy btw bcs it's a whole research event thing bcs im in stem ^_^ closing remarks heehaw. Just Me. #so i'm proud of myself & for better understanding myself lately but there is still sm i want to do!!! like On here <3 #in a much better headspace and life and etc. its good yay. #anyway hashtag wanna be an astrophysicist (a+ physics? ez. but also ive always loved math & astronomy) astronomer musician #author video game dev (future compsci student! or physics. still deciding.) uhhh psychologist philosopher blablabla phd one day #yay ^__________^ I MISS WRITING ON HERE THO and interacting w moots :P altho idrk how to get back into that shit #anywhere really but it's ok we find ways. man. i miss it here. before i get active again tho i should rlly makes lists to do and Fix stuff. #bye for now yay just a lil update from me !!! ^_^ it's been at least... 4 months? bcs i rmbr not properly saying happy new year on here HEL #raaaaaaaaaaaaa apollo is so back babaey the world is so beautiful & so am I. anyway. u all take care mwamwamwa

[newdestination]

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#the other side of the coin ||��ooc #Mun mutterings #Like many things i tell myself ill come back and fix that later. And speaking of fixing things later #God. I kind of want to tear through the pages on this blog and fix them theyre a nightmare right now. They have been for a while. I dont #know what age i even have written but it sure as hell isnt 21 because i know i havent touched it in a long time. #mmmnbmnnmaybe. #Its hard to not think about the ingo blog when i'm actively writing a fic about the guy. only 5k in and already cracked my head open like a #egg about it. #considering bad life choices. bad life blog revival choices.

[okamiwolven]

oh man you have anons on now! Haven't seen you in a while, glad to know youre doing good + congrats on the hrt! what have you been doing all this time?

thank you!!! and im a professional animator now lol. worked on charlie brown stuff a year back and have been working on a bunch of non-studio projects this past year. im on a couple right now but im goin thru some bad art block / confidence shit im hoping will ease up soon. im doing pretty damn good tho, and im really shocked at how much ive done these past few years <3

#im here sometimes on tumblr but never for long #and i havent posted art in. like. ages here.... lol... #mostly ive been active on twittor....

[stag-bi]

i just hit 5100 followers but i only follow 98 ppl on here 💀

#i NEED to follow more ppl #lmao i typed 'i NEED to' and it offered me the full sentence bc ive apparently posted this same thing before 💀💀💀 #its just that whenever i follow someone new i end up going Nevermind bc theyre annoying to me suddenly #im like. 9/10 NOT GOOD ENOUGH. die #and then i regularly go and check out my the list of ppl i follow to unfollow those who havent been active in years #so the amount is constantly dwindling. i was at like 220-200 for ages and now its less than 100 #MY DASH IS DEADDDDD i need to do smth about this. maybe ill just add the ppl that my beloved mutuals are reblogging from

[cybrpnkd]

just gonna toss this out here but if anyone has any gif requests feel free to send them my way 🙏 currently replaying cp2077 just to make gifs of default male v because im down bad for new content

#n8.txt #i also havent been actively making gifs for ages so this helps me get back into the groove lmao

[hello-n-goodbye]

@neppu tagged me to post my fanfic trope tier list, thanks love 🖤

I feel like a boomer for having to google most of these, but I dont read that many fics 🥲 I used to read a lot of them as a teenager tho

tagging @tomorrowcomesadaytoosoon @letsabandonthisworld @stillqueerstillhere @first-kanaphan @jimins-crooked-tooth @neo-neos @ieroween1031 @flyingspicystrawberry

#tag game #i havent done these in ages since i havent been active here for a while #but this was fun #personal