#i hope this makes sense i wouldve probably talked more if i didnt have a godawful migraine rn

[harukapologist]

a cute detail in haruka's room

This turned into a half-ramble half-headcanon post so I apologize for how messy it is lol

While watching undercover for the first time I noticed that there seems to be a sketchbook in Haruka's room, in which a colorful tree is drawn

Haruka seems to be hyperempathetic, and usually hyperempathetic people are quite artistic in their worldview and their hobbies, so I have a headcanon that Haruka likes to draw and/or paint, as a hobby and coping mechanism, a little escapism (especially since Haruka's no.1 coping mechanism with traumatic/stressful events seems to be denial—I'm going to elaborate on that in a different post because I've thought about that very, VERY often, and it partially explains why he acted the way he did in T2, to me) (I'm projecting a little bit because I kin Haruka and I'm a (hobbyist) artist myself but teehee)

When he was asked about his hobbies in his T1 interrogation, he just said he liked to talk to the other prisoners, but I think that's because he's insecure about his art being bad or unconventional (it looks like he used crayons or simple markers for the tree drawing. And also, the leaves are all different colors... perhaps I'm overanalyzing a simple scene, but it seemed to me that it's kinda symbolizing how he views & interacts with the world differently because of his neurodivergence. Still, the drawing is quite pretty imo, and he used the colors very well, so even though it's a tree with unusual colors, it still looks beautiful; even though he's different, it doesn't mean he's inferior, and there's still beauty despite how much he struggles to fit in. You know?)

Also also the way a lot of frames in weakness have hyper-realistic, vibrant backgrounds, as well as the blood being colorful (though that appears elsewhere too, like in Muu's MV) it really convinced me that Haruka sees the world through the lens of an artist, a passionate person who feels things very intensely.

Since the prisoners can request anything, I like to think Haruka secretly requested a sketchbook and some crayons to continue his hobby (I'm not sure if he can do that since it's unclear how the prisoners request & receive stuff (I'm a relatively new Milgram fan so I might've forgotten/not have seen an explanation if there's any ueueu))

I like to think he keeps his sketchbook to himself at first, but slowly opens up to the other prisoners about his hobby. First Fuuta and Mu, then maybe Mikoto, then the others (and they're all very nice to him & praise his art!!! Especially Mikoto I think. he would be very excited to see all of Haruka's art!!! Supportive big brother figure) :3c

#if its not actually a sketchbook forgive me im blind as shit #if these aren't crayons too pls forgiev me #i hope this makes sense i wouldve probably talked more if i didnt have a godawful migraine rn #i love haruka i definitely think he likes to/wants to practise some form of art #should i tag this im a bit embarrassed eheh #milgram #haruka sakurai #sakurai haruka #headcanons #milgram headcanons #jay rambles bleh idk #okay maybe theres more than just a little bit of projection but shh it makes sense doesn't it #I LOVE HARU #he s literally me #if anyone has pointed this out before pls forgive me again #and show me the post pls id love to find. likeminded people #good night #milgram project

[gartenofbanny]

100% agree w the other anon talking abt the look at this song. but what really pisses me off the most is that they have the incredible alex brightman doing this character and thats the best they can do for the song he gets? like they couldve easily had him improv something halfway decent & it probably wouldve been infinitely funnier/more entertaining than what we actually got. at least then him & blitzo escaping bc of plot convenience wouldve been tolerable

also why did literally every fucking character make an appearance in this episode. striker AND moxies dad idfk what his name is AND stolas didnt need to be here. literally not even a single girl character in this episode except for like that secretary or whatever. but also if the people moxies dad hires are incompetent dumbasses (as weve seen in the 2 episodes theyre in) then why was he like so intent on testing strikers abilities instead of just hiring him cuz hes like tall and has nice eyebrows or whatever. anyways have a nice day or smth

He most likely will have another song in the next episode since it's a musical with Mammon or something, but yeah, that song was not good as a song and how it fits within the story.

Having Alex improv would fit Fizzarolli's character because he's an entertainer, and it would make a bit more sense as to how the villains got distracted because he would be interacting with them instead of just singing to them.

Crimson and Striker collabed because fanservice, that's really the only reason I believe why. It's weird that Striker has heard of Crimson, but Asmodeus hasn't.

And I don't know why Crimson wants to test out Striker's abilities. None of the goons he has are really smart and is pretty sure he looks for brawn instead of brains.

But I'm not sure if enough brains will even help the stupidity of him and his organization.

Hope you have a good one too ❤️

#helluva boss #vivziepop critical #helluva boss critical #helluva boss criticism #vivziepop criticism #vivziepop #helluva boss critique #helluva critical #vivienne medrano

[luckyqueenreign]

Found someone’s predictions about recoupling and they make so much sense

“Alright so my predictions are as follows:

Casa side:

Amelia goes first and switches to Marshall(he clearly caught her eye)

Grace goes next and I think she's gonna overcome her doubts about Ozzy and stick

Bella/Chloe goes after that and based on her "it's better to switch" talk I think it's safe to assume she switches(probably to Francis though Hamish is also possible after all they did have the twerk moment (personally hope this is not the case 🤞))

Finally it's MC's turn and you get the option to either switch to Andy or the other boy Bella/Chloe didn't pick or stick

Villa side:

Elliot goes first, he switches(He has no reason not to since he thinks MC is gone+he has the least amount of attachment to MC)

Ozzy next and I actually think he will switch cause this will then deter grace who put faith in Ozzy despite her having doubts and give Marshall more material to slander Ozzy with

OG LI/Roberto goes next and suprise suprise they stick 😐.

And finally Amelia's partner sticks”

So I dont know if they'll do it like the show where we see everyone come out at the same time...for example if Amelia is first than whoever she's coupled up with would come out and we'd see if they stuck or twisted. If thats the case then Amelia / Roberto - I think Amelia like u said is twisting to Marshall and totally agree Roberto will stick and will be sent packing (if they are doing it like last year where if u dont couple up u are sent home)

I agree with Ozzy / Grace going next but heres whats tripping me up about them. my mc kissed Ozzy on her way out of the villa and I told Amelia that I wouldve picked Ozzy had I had the chance. so it makes me think since he's my #1 LI wouldnt the game want to screw that up and make him bring back someone? bc I hope after we confessed we liked each other and he dumped Grace that, that would be the start of something....idk im still v confused about what the game is going to do with him. def agree that Grace will stick tho.

Bella/Lewie (in my playthrough) so I actually think she is going to stick and the only reason being that FB doesnt usually have more than 2 switches from each side. even in s2 if u didnt switch then it made Chelsea switch. But if you did then she stayed loyal. So I guess the main question is are they going to force us to recouple?? Especially since we're technically single. I think Lewie will recouple...that is IF Ozzy doesnt recouple. so basically is the game going to force us to care about in my case Lewie when ive moved on with Ozzy.

Then boom MC comes in and Shock and Awe everywhere. The boys are going to be beside themselves. There was no mention of this on their postcards!! I think the game is going to make us couple up with one of the casa boys because wouldnt the "host" need to give Elliot the option to couple up with MC too? And that would kind of ruin the surprise. So Elliot will twist and recouple with a casa girl.

We know for sure that Flo is coming back in and we assume Ivy is coming back too because we know she's in future episodes....but I go back and forth on who is coming back with who.

#litg #litg theory #litg double trouble #love island the game #litg ask #love island game #litg s6 #double trouble

[pumpkinsy0]

I NEED Darry and Pony fluff headcancons they are my favorite. (Just a tinie tiny lil angst just a lil, just one)

ur ask is absolutely my command🤞🏽

•once darry caught pony while pony was high (pony was literally in the fridge until darry found him and asked wtf he was doin in there only for pony to say, i shit u not “the jello package said to chill for a few hours”)

•before their parents were *ahem* no longer w the living, god rest their souls🙏🏽, darry would actually help pony b a rebellious lil shit

•man, pony was even helping darry b a rebellious lil rat bastard

•thats y darry knows like half the tricks pony tries to pull, he literally taught it to him (guaranteed believe it or not darry lets him get away w it from time to time just so pony can have that regular ole teenage time of his life)

•and since u want angst, i shall give u angst, darrys actually the one who told pony about their parents dying and when pony was crying darry trued hugging him but like pony was pushing, maybe a lil clawing and punching darry away cause he didnt wanna believe him but darry knew that this lil guy needed a hug so he just still tried and now pony is crying in darrys arms

•ANYWHO they definitely have or at least had the same eating habits, they would make the same gross lil food combos while sodapop watched on disgusted

•darry was definitely that “if i did that to mom/dad they wouldve-“ kid and pony would always roll his eyes its canon now

•pony goes in darrys bed when darrys at work cause its just that comfy and warm

•when darry use to go on dates in hs he would always make sure to bring food home for pony and soda (well he brough food home for soda brought shit like candy and maybe a stuffed animal for pony if he went to a carnival or somethin like that)

•i joke about it a lot but in all honesty darry just wants to protect pony when it comes to curly, like its not even that he wants to protect pony from curly cause he knows curly can and will protect pony but its more of the fact that he wants to protect pony from the consequences that come w being curly, I CANT EXPLAIN IT RIGHT but he wants to protect pony from the consequences of curlys ACTIONS more than he actually wants to protect pony from curly himself, he does like pony and curly as a duo in some ways but yknow i hope that made sense i’ll probably talk about it later idk

#ponyboy curtis #curly shepard #purly #darry curtis #darrel curtis #sodapop curtis #the curtis brothers #the outsiders headcanons #the outsiders hcs

[acaciapines]

Your nanowrimo pieces are soooo goooood they hit so hard fr fr. I’m especially LOVING today’s one with the owl & the collector even tho I don’t rlly know that much abt toh bc I haven’t watched it but I can tell that u LOVE IT & I can’t wait to learn more thru osmosis once the fic is poooosteeeed✨ (i WILL read it i PROMISE i SWEAR)

Anyways give us the thoughts, the tea, tell us how you make the words do that✨ anything u wanna give in regards to today’s bit!! We’re not picky!

Hope y’all are doing okay! Gal says hi :) Remember to eat and drink something, take breaks, and look after yourselves and each other! We love you! This has been a Daily Interaction Ask <3

he he :3 im glad youre enjoying!! its been really fun to pick out my favorite bits even when usually those are the ones w/out context lol. look at my owl and weep boy. firefly <3

YOU WILL LEARN SO MUCH VIA OSMOSIS....literally now that im also doing something for s1 its like. why watch owl house we have owl house at home (the owl house at home is a 1 million word daemon au) (<- 1 mil is not a joke btw idk if it'll hit it but itll at least come very close. no idk why i did this.)

as for today! hmmm...

its truly so fun to write the collector. like im not joking about him being my favorite owl house character despite his maybe twenty total minutes of screentime, so its been such a JOY to expand his role in this series!!

bc like. god. actually i think i wrote a whole like. bit of flash fiction/prose poetry type thing for them a while ago. probably in my files somewhere. but just. youre an immortal eight year old. you are in these years where you need to interact with other people for your own mental stability and health. to figure out the whole Being A Person thing. and you are trapped for like, centuries. trapped away from everyone and everything and DUST, which, in universe, in literally connection personified. you're cut off from all of this.

and you are, let me say again, eight years old.

truly the collector is just. hes had everyone he ever cares about leave him--his siblings the other archivists left him behind not out of any sense of cruelty, really, but because caring about people just isnt really a thing they do. quite frankly they live so long they didnt even notice. theyre far-away stars. not far because they're mean. just because thats what stars do.

and then king's dad (who um. doesnt have a name <3 this is why the collector calls him 'the big bully' its literally bc i never gave him a name--) was an adult the collector actually trusted and looked up to (he meshed REALLY WELL into titan society until the archivists started Doing A Murder since titans are the only beings that match them in power and they have very very different ideas about dust). like ive said before the collector is owlbeastkin but before that they never had a super stable sense of identity--in another world where they stayed w/ the titans they wouldve ended up a titan.

and then king's dad just. trapped him in a tablet forever.

and like, to be fair to king's dad he was reacting out of fear and the best knowledge he had (he assumed the collector led the archivists to the titans, and like, he did, but its not like he knew he was doing that, and, you know, poor guy had seen a huge chuck of his fellow titans killed including babies and eggs of which he had an egg to consider), but it still TRAPPED THEM. and then he died and so did all the rest of the titans so nobody could free the collector even if they wanted to.

and then BELOS, who manipulated and lied to the collector for so long and was also literally his only friend after being alone forever, so like, of course the collector just blindly went along with whatever he said. he was gonna free them!! he listened to them when they talked about stardust which nobody else ever did! he had no idea what the fuck a witch was! he just liked being able to see the stardust sometimes, and belos brought him to places with a lot of stardust. to destroy it, but like--you know. it was THERE.

but all these people were just USING them, and they never really understand that until king comes around. and king's also a scared eight year old!! but like. king's also not wrong. the collector did aid belos in destroying the entire isles. like no joke belos SUCCEEDS here. like not long-term obvi this has a happy ending but at the point we're in at for the future? it doesnt matter that the draining spell failed. all the palistrom trees are dead. witch society Cannot come back from that even if they did end up beating the collector. theyre doomed.

anyways what was i saying. collector. right.

so like, then they meet firefly/grr-click-growl/wings-across-night/the owl beast (king of having so many names i love her <3) and shes like, the first person who cares for them and ISNT using them. even king is using them!! but firefly has seen Some Shit. she sees the collector as a hatchling who was kicked out of his nest and is doing her best to be some sort of stable figure for him, but she doesnt Not see the stuff he's done.

the collector took over the world bc he's scared--all he's ever known is being used and trapped so he doesnt exactly trust most people easily. firefly would Love to not be in this world anymore. shes also got a loyalty to eda and king and luzmari. and, like, cool motive, still trapping an entire society of people.

but like. shes the one who is here right now and nobody else is trying to help this kid.

but the collector just. hes just an eight year old. a very, very old eight year old. but he doesnt understand things like "you can make the wrong choices and still choose to do better later" and "im mad at what you did but that doesnt mean i dont care about you."

he just sees someone upset with him. just sees another person who used him and doesnt care and is going to leave bc everyone leaves him and in a world where EVERY SINGLE PERSON comes in pairs, hes the only one who stands alone.

basically tl;dr: collector my beloved <3

#ask #daily interaction ask #toh #collector my beloved #yes this goes in the blog. hi wyn <3333333333 #me every time someone asks me about my fic: (forgets literally everything ive ever written) #also me: heres too many words about the collector lol #I JUST. LOVE THEM. LOVE TALKING ABOUT THEM #THANK U FOR ENABLING ME <333333 #i will never be free until 2-3 years from now when i post the final chapter of this fic <3 #get ready for the LONG. HAUL. #and a grove of palistrom to you

[redheadbigshoes]

today I was at school and class was almost over and this guy i dont really know had glitter in his hair and one of my friends was joking like asking "oh is it for pride month" and he starts talking like "no f pride month, i hate gay people, i wanna kill all the gays" and like saying ftf and stuff and i was kinda just like "oh" and i started laughing cause idk stress response or something and all my friends were looking at me and he started asking "why's she laughing, is she gay?" and i just joked saying "please dont kill me" and its just idk like what am i supposed to do in that situation? ik i probably shouldnt have joked about it acting like it was okay but i felt like if i didnt everyone wouldve hated me for it. im sorry i cant get the words right i dont even really know what im trying to ask here really i just dont know what to do and it ruined my day

What’s sad is that younger generations should be more tolerant, more open-minded. That kind of hatred is not normal, openly saying you want to kill someone because of their sexual orientation is so sick. How does the existence of gay people impact on his life? Let other people be with whoever they want to be, as long as it’s consensual and legal it shouldn’t matter.

I don’t like this mindset but it also makes a lot of sense people who say this kind of person you mentioned are deep down gay. Spreading your hatred like that because you know you’re one of the people you’re hating is a very common form of internalized homophobia. People either do that as a way to hide their true sexuality or as a way to suppress their feelings.

I don’t know where you’re from, but if you think it’s safe and it could actually make a difference, report that. Someone like him shouldn’t be able to do that without facing the consequences.

I don’t know how I would handle this type of situation. I’d probably be so shocked that I would’ve probably laughed of nervousness. So I totally understand your reaction.

I hope you’re okay and I hope you know a lot of people here face similar things to this and that you’re not alone.

#stephanie answers #anon #long post #lgbt

[everything-i-couldnt-tell-u]

i remember how i fronted a lot around you before and god i was so happy cause i thought someone finally accepts me. til i found out you exposed my messages on that server and im still so humiliated. yk after that, arveil said that if only i didnt front and showed my embarrassing personality, things between you and him wouldnt have been ruined.

so well i moved to ranting on twt instead of doing it in anyones dms after that to avoid it happening again. but every time i fronted to rant on twt i always seemed to receive replies from you bc you noticed something wrong about me and the things i say? i gaslighted myself for so long that maybe i truly am so flawed that's why no one seems to want me to the point that i don't remember anything loveable about me anymore.

and the last time i talked to you seriously and asked what is it that you even liked about me, you told me that you don't know how to answer. even though it was already obvious that you dont like me, i still desperately looked for signs. but well you said that question suffocates you. that it's hard to love me cause i require a reason to be loved. i just really wished to know if i'm being loved for who i am and im not just being used, but i never got to know. you said that im the one who pushes everyone away like a bitch then whines about it when i get lonely. sure that was true but how am i not gonna push everyone away after ive been lied to and abandoned a lot? and to make things worse how would i not be pushing you away out of fear when you kept saying and doing things that make me feel like you dont like me?

but the day you told me i wasn't worth your time was the day it became clear to me that maybe you never loved me. i dont really care if you didnt mean that cause it was the only thing that made sense. sure maybe you didn't feel that way towards arveil but i'm sure you feel like that towards me. it was arveil you loved and not me. you didnt like how i felt like a soulless shell to you whenever arveil wasn't fronting. i always managed to make you lose your patience and lash out cause of how paranoid i am. you'd get sick of how arveil tries to fix his friendship with you after i sabotage it so much. if you get sick of him it's probably my fault again. im the price everyone pays for just so they can be with arveil but soon you'd think that the price isn't worth it right?

i feel like you and arveil must hate me so much so i started resenting both of you. yeah i dont like it when people treat me horribly but i hate it even more when people mistake me for and treat me like im arveil. it makes me feel sick, it feels like im being reminded that it's arveil that everyone wants to talk to and not me. that things wouldve been better if i never existed.

i know that you're genuine with arveil but i know you have no reason to love me. i promised you before that i wouldn't force you to answer that question anymore. unless you have a good reason to tell me why you'd want to have any connection with me, don't force it. after all the things ive seen and heard from you, what reason is there for me not the think that you don't hate me like everyone else? i just don't wanna get my hopes up thinking that you'd want me and i dont wanna feel guilty if in the end i'll just be the reason why your time got wasted.

[myrnadalgleish]

so i finished cheers again

i cant believe one for the road is the highest rated episode on imdb. like i think it's a good finale it does its job right but cmon?? i dont like diane here at all. "the people at the bar" she wouldn't fucking say that those people are sam's family. they just make her so cold... maybe she did change but?? she feels so distant. like i couldnt believe for a second that she'd think it'd 'be the best for sam' to make him leave boston. all the awkwardness i get though, but she would've talked to frasier or woody or someone...!! and in the plane she thinks that sam might make her average or hold her down while he gets the oh i dont know if i truly love her thing. i just want to talk to the writers ok. they just are both very unhappy and cling to the time they weren't and make bad choices. that really helped sam to figure his life out and i hope it helped diane too. i just want her to be happy :(

other than that! i like sam's ending. there's a lot more to say but i like it. rebecca's.... well we barely know don and i count the show where sam shows up mention as canon because it makes sense and i dont want her to leave the bar too (she'll get herself together and she and sam will adopt a kid). i kind of didnt want woody to become a councilman? he's already getting a kid and i dont want him to leave (they say it's a full-time job but later he's working as always? anyway). norm getting a job and cliff getting a promotion is nice and it wont change their lives as much though i kind of hoped norm would've continued painting instead of going back to accounting but he'll probably get fired soon enough so no worries! for frasier this is just his backstory and carla doesnt have any change either which i kind of like? it's the whole thing!! some things dont have to change. even though if you think about it.... rebecca left, woody left (like they Said he wouldn't work there even if that was a plot device for that whole ep), frasier left (not cheers canon but I Know it will happen).... norm and cliff might have to be more at work and woody has that baby too. things did change and in worse case scenario sam will be pretty alone.

but yeah. also wish diane had seen freddy. (and that lilith wouldve been there but bebe was busy i think). i'll start frasier again because i have to fill the emptiness this show left in me again somehow

#where everybody knows your name

[blackvail22]

i need 2 get this off of my chest because i stg its going to eat me alive if u dont

im so fucking exhausted from how my entire schooling expefienc ewas. start to finish to even fucking after, i get talked abt and made fun of ENDLESSLY. why? why cant people leave me the fuck alone. i wonder what all of them wouldve done if i actually killed myself and outted all of them. then what? would you have stopped then? probably not because id ruin their reputation. theyd curse my fucking grave every fucking day because of it. when is it going to stop? i didnt even do anything to any of them!!! thats the best fucking part. i existed. i breathed. im sorry that 7 year old me didnt know the different between eyeliner and mascara. im sorry that i wore headbands every day, and you thought it was ugly. im sorry that i was bigger for my age. im sorry that i wanted to study in a fun way. im sorry that i was emo and you didnt like it. im sorry that im a demigirl with no preferenced and you dont like that. im sorry that all of you are fucking dense and make fun of anything that you cant get off to. im sorry that im soo much smarter than you and skipped a year i didnt fucking need. im sorry that youre all so bothered that a plus-sized, non-binary, queer person that has a dark sense of style wants to exist in peace!!

i genuinely cannot fathom why the fuck im being made fun of for graduating high school a year early. "its pointless because 'she' is going into the workforce" ill be making more money than you at the same age! does that scare you? does it scare you how someone that you bullied and made fun of throughout school is (already) more successful than you? at least i dont have sexual assault allegations against me like you do! who the FUCK are you to make fun of ppl, you fucking criminal.

i hope every single one of you get the future that you fucking deserve.

[autodot]

im seriously so damn mad

and for what??? like seriously why am i so mad

jeez i hate how i am sometimes

i mean yeah i get it it can be frustrating at times but why cant i do anything right

genuinely

calling it now, at some point people will leave me just because of my humor and because i just dont know how to control them

i wish therapy wouldve been helping with that but it aint i guess!! im not going to live with this

and im not going to live with the people i live now pushing religion onto me at all

no i dont follow your religion what are you going to do about it

oh youre mad that that i dont believe what you do and i should just because this thing has been internalized so bad with me that i cant get so damn anxious without it

no hun i dont need it to whatever, i can tell whats right and wrong without it being a religious belief because common sense its a thing actually

i have the choice to believe or not after all i am a singular individual, as you said it yourself and i should do what is better for me

im chosing myself instead of being this, weird ass image you made of me

im no girl either. im no woman either. i am my own person that you cant change, you say its for the better, i say i want to be myself

let me be who i am, with my beliefs, with my privacy, with my body without being shamed of it, with my shit emotions that i never grew out of because i had to stop making myself feel something to make you proud, now look at me

and you make yourself like this? as if im doing everything wrong instead of what you planned for my whole life? im sorry im not a damn coward like you and your mother was. im not you. im not her. im not whatever you see me because im sure its just yourself but not the way you like it

sorry that i love to get your insecurities out easily like that, its not my fault you tell me everything as if i wouldnt be able to use it against you

everything you say just adds up to how much of an hypocrite you are did you know that? hope you do inside your guts because one day youll regret having me ill make sure of that

im done with you and im done being some kind of fun house mirror that you think you have control of

and i know you know it

and you know im close to leave this place and never talk again

i dont and wont care and you know it

im probably just being stupid rn lmao

anyway im starving ← dumbass didnt eat for 2 days or more out of frustration bc exams ough

[demadogs]

Sorry if any of these have already been asked lol, not completely caught up on everything

1. What do you think the probability is that Mike actually does go to California primarily for El? With Will as an afterthought/addition. Kind of like how in the last ep of s3 Mike is talking about visiting and he's like "and Will, too!" I really hope it will be byler oriented but mainstream media makes me think that he will go to cali for the obvious choice, El.

2. Kind of related to the last point, do you think the whole "running away to cali" theory, or something similarly rebellious, is gonna happen? Or is it just gonna be like "sike, Mike's trip was actually planned and approved by parents as normal, and no one else goes with him because everybody else has legit excuses as to why they can't go."

3. Lastly, if there was to be a clear callback/reference to any previous scene, byler or not, what would you want it to be? Mine is personally "crazy together" i just love it so much, classic for a reason

none of these have been asked!

1. i think mike intends to visit to see both of them but he may not realize that hes more excited to reunite with will than el until hes actually there. hes been best friends with him since kindergarten and its the first time in both their lives that theyve been separated, but he and el have already been apart for a while in season 2. mike spent a year without seeing her or any contact with her. i think for that reason alone being away from will will be a lot harder for him and thats not even taking his unresolved feelings into consideration. i think he’ll be excited to see will but once hes there his feelings will get harder to ignore so he’ll intentionally pay more attention to el than him. also in one interview finn says “i’ll just say he’s visiting someone”. i feel like he wouldve just said el or both will and el if it was more mileven centric than byler.

2. i love this theory but im not 100% sure on it. it does make sense tho since he’s the only one to visit? if they all wanted to see them again it would be a lot more practical for the byers to visit hawkins than all of them flying out to california so i dont think it was a matter of them all just not being able to go. it would make more sense if they didnt even know he was going. the one thing holding me back tho is in the california teaser el’s letter to mike clearly shows that he plans on visiting over their spring break. the only thing i can think of is if he leaves sooner or maybe something happens and his parents say he can no longer go and he sneaks out? i hope he does runaway there tho id like that a lot.

3. i would also love them to reference “crazy together” or maybe the shed scene when mike said asking to be his friend was the best thing hes ever done.

#nice #stranger things #byler #eden answers

[chubearr]

jwcc s4 review (finally)

》spoilers ahead

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okay so like ima try to be the most chill and unbiased with this review— i read some others that brought up good points that i didnt see at first, so now thats what ima try to do!

-the biggest fan complaint, kenlynn/cool kids/brookji:

alot of fans are super pissed abt this, and at first it didnt make sense but now i can kindaaa? understand it. my general take is that s1 & s2 the kids were just vibin and surviving, getting to know each other and etc. i think kenji started to have a crush on brook esp in s3, since they were paired up/talked a lot (when brook fought with darius, when sammy got posioned, when darius split up with the group to get ben when leaving the island and brook was worried) so they were kinda getting closer and comfotrable with each other already. and like kenji even confirmed in s4, he realized his feelings for brook when she got taken away, hence his fight with darius (i imagine he was super confused n frustrated abt it.. poor boy). and personally at the end of s3 when kenji got mad, i did find that overprotectiveness weird and was kinda thinking it was bc he liked her! so overall the crush reveal was not a surprise, but i was more surprise that it actually happened! as for brooklyn i think her feelings for kenji were never really developed until they got closer in s4; kenji being a doof and possibly his trueself? and realizing how alike they were made her start to like him a bit? and then he semi-admitted he liked her so she got super confused as well (maybe bc she didnt know if it was platonic or romantic). then yasmina basically opened her eyes, and i think after that brooklyn was thinkin a lot, and spending even more time with kenji she realized she liked him as well...

i admit they couldve done better to show brooklyns development into liking kenji in previous seasons, bc tbh i see both darius and brooklyn being equally super chill with everyone (tho im biased for benrius!).

i think bc the season went by super fast unlike previous seasons, it made kenlynn develop fast as well so it didn't look that well written. tbh even i myself was supperrr shocked that they actually made it bf-gf official! i even wouldve been fine with just confirmed crushes this season, but the ship is probably gonna go through it next season (esp considering the plot twist in the end of the last episode... someone protect kenji pls)

but overall, ship it or not, i still dont think fans should be too angry and crazy at kenlynn shippers or the writers etc. like no one knows where this is gonna go, so we'll just have to wait and see. shouldn't we just enjoy it while it lasts? i think kenji and brooklyn need some type of break from the chaos, and if they wanna be together thats fine by me. same for the other kids! i hope if theyre getting romance arcs that itd be similar screentime as kenlynn and maybe even better developed (i still think yasammy is gonna be the finale ship idk..)

one thing i do wish now is that their charas this season werent too much revolved around each other, but ig thats how it goes! at least we learned more abt them both anyway (theyre both lonely and sheltered kids... also, BROOKLYNN HAS DADS!) and yes im ignoring we still dont have a brooklynn last name reveal smh...

as for the age thing.. idk im not bothered tbh. its like what, a 2 year difference? so thats fine by me, i can see it realistically (if it were any bigger i would def understand the isssue). i dont think the writers are intending anything sus for that or anything— as long as these kids are all kids and just vibin im fine with that. kids have crushes, no biggie.

overall not a surprise to me or a bother! next.

-sammy:

i feel like her character is always the same throughout the seasons so i always found her boring and wanted the crew to work on her. this season was alright! its good they didnt let her issue with her fam die down (tbh i almost forgot thats why she came to the camp), her anger moment, although a lil reckless, made sense esp since we already know her fam obvi means the world to her. i liked her realization with the spinoceratops¿ (angel n rebel) was bc of her and her development from pity to saving them was good! still wish they couldve showed more yasammy, but slow and steady wins the race ig! the deal with mantahcorp (idk if thats how u spell it oops) got even bigger now bc of kenjis dad and im scared for her bestie relationship with kenji 😭 im scared for that whole drama in general but with sammy and her fam as a victim... send help to my kids pls!

-yasmina:

a lot of people send she was so out of character this season (mainly with the kenlynn thing) but tbh? i think this version of her is her real self. even tho she was more colder in previous seasons, we're not new to yasmina being a super supportive friend otherwise. and like she said, sammy is the one who brought out those feelings! i really liked this mischeavous side of her, and ben friendzoning her was the funniest thing!

im superrr pleased with the whole PTSD thing. like most kids shows dont take that trauma seriously and just shove it aside. but not jwcc, and thats prob why im so attached to the show is bc they arent afraid to commit (a kids show where people actually die?? coming after my own heart i see...)!!

i know we prob shouldve had more experiences from the other camp fam, but maybe its good they made this a mainly yasmina thing bc we're so used to seeing her be strong for the team. weak yaz make me weak myself... let her sleep pls.

-ben:

bens whole finding out his identity arc was pretty much perfect. im glad they brought up how panicked he was bc he knew isla nublar so well but now he knew nothing and felt like he was reverting back to scared-ben... but we all know that ben is just ben now! i hope he can get more actual moments with the others bc hes been so independent all these seasons (aromantic king maybe..?)!! a lot of fans like him but tbh /dont kill me/ so far he was always my least fav kid out of the crew.. but i did like him more with his whole s3 thing with darius! so maybe just having him spend time with the others and being himself is the key!! (also more benrius moments pls.. theyre such the mom n dad of the group idc what yall say!!) and his ptsd with the pterodactyl or whatev things? it hurted but im happy he was able to fight back this time!!

-darius:

i didnt get fans complaint with his arc this season at first but after reading some reviews, now i do a bit! now in weirded out as to why darius has like 0 trauma.. maybe its bc he loves dinos so much that overall it doesnt bother him? esp bc dinos are what connects him to his dad the most and etc... and i saw people talk abt him being super leader-y this season but i didnt see much of a difference? he was always the one everyone looked to for answers so i wasnt surprised that he made his own decisions again— everyone still trusts him and knew what he chose was the right thing to do. but they didnt tell him abt their ptsd so obviously darius wouldnt know abt it bc all of their bonds are so strong that i think darius trusted them to tell him anything (but since they didnt he was obv blinded to their true feelings??). and surprisingly a lot of fans seemed to think he was out of character or smth when choosing the phone over the dinos? but i think it was good development bc it showed that even tho he loves dinos to death, he would still do anything for his friends (esp bc they told him they had ptsd). im glad in how he handled it!

one thing i agree on with others is that he definitely deserved some more screentime. mainly with the other kids, and less solo screentime, like the other seasons!... yes i admit, kenlynn and kenji did overshadow him a lot, but at least i believe its to build up the plot twist in the end for kenji and onto the next season (maybe theyre giving each kid arcs? and s1 was mainly darius's? idk tbh!)

i loved how darius handled kash— who i hate and pls let big eatie eat him already...

darius is just so smart and damn im jealous! that kid can think fast and improvise like breathing, no surprise he's the leader (and brooklyn being second in command to the group was very interesting).

》others:

-mae was a fine character! i like how quirky she is, and finally not an evil or dead adult 😭 but it was funny how even so she still got injured and was out of commission the whole time... can someone just save my kids and not die, pls theyre too traumatized!! (ps where are the camp counselors who i 100% forgot their names— are the gonna come back or naw...)

-i agree with others, kash is a weak villain. but tbh i feel like he was that annoying and ridiculous to just blind us with the ep11 plot twist aka the REAL villain¿ (i keep mentioning this but ill talk abt it soon i swear). the robots were boring i do admit as well, maybe it wouldve been better if they were like.. dino robots? to help with the island but also be disguised with the other dinos? idk tbh!

-darius's brother who i forget his name... im rootin for him obv! maybe he'll get the camp counselors to help him out and they'll slowburn their way to help the kids? i hope we get more of the mainland stuff bc like.. is no one worried that 6 kids are still missing from the island??! like maybe they do think theyre dead after all (which angsty thats so rude im cryin) but is there like really nothing they can do? get chris pratt on the case already!!!

-and lastly? i think? EP 11/SEASON ENDING. how dare you. how dare you!!! like ive seen other peoole say that they guessed it, but i legit had 0 clue bc i literally never think abt the adult characters period.. BUT HOW DARE YOU ANYWAY!! so ya.. kenjis dad— i can't even say it. I WAS NOT SEEING THAT. like even rewatching that episode i still gasp like ive never seen it bc its so unreal to me... its so good. it pretty much made up whatever complaints i had before! first "appearance" i literally was like who tf is 'daniel' (bc the subs) and i thought it wouldve been a character they already introduced previously! but ig technically they have (even tho i didnt know his connection to kenji until he literally said dad..).

im super hyped for the next season esp bc of this.. LIKE KENJI IS GONNA GO THROUGH IT! who he'll have to choose, the dino and camp fam or his actual dad... and again sammys reaction? i am not ready. like maybe theyll handle it easy and let mrkon have a change of heart bc of his son, but i also really want them to spice it up and make him a serious villain? (ik whats wrong with me) but like consider the contrast itll be compared to darius's dad... like darius and kenji can have a real test of their bond bc of this... and yes i also feel like this will test kenlynn, bc just kenjis dad being here just changes the whole game in general. like will kenji be reverted back to his selfish n spoiled ways and it'll cause a rift between him and brook/campfam?? theres too many questions and possibilities... WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN?? im so worried..

and i know kenji is a fan favorite, so i wish people were freaking out more over this than ships...

SOMEONE PLS FREAK OUT WITH ME!!

- overall i rate this season 9/10 (originally 10/10 so not much difference but i did put more thought into it...?)

if you guys follow my crackheadness in other posts i probably seem insane but i hope this review levels it out a bit? i hope i got everything..

》 pls feel free to discuss with me in replies! i really do wanna connect with some jwcc fans even tho im alao scared bc all i see are angry fans 😭 we'll see! ima try to be more stable and less angry now this review is out.. if you managed to get through it all, thx! and sorry for typos or if it doesnt make sense, it sounds better in my head i swear..

#jurassic world camp cretaceous #camp cretaceous #jurassic world #jwcc #netflix #camp cretacerous spoilers #jwcc s4 #kenji kon #jwcc brooklynn #yasmina fadoula #darius bowman #sammy gutierrez #ben pincus #jwcc review #jwcc s4 review #stop attacking me abt kenlynn thx

[muslim-flint]

do you have any thoughts on how dune approaches and uses islamic language and concepts? genuinely curious bc i feel like there are lots of layers to the situation

ok so before anything i gotta state a few things so no one on here acts a fool: this is MY opinion as a brown practicing muslim whos like halfway thru the first book and has seen the villeneuve movie like 4 times. so,

as i said i cant rly talk about the book(s) cause i havent finished it/them but ive seen the movie. here is my general feeling about it : it felt good to me. TO ME. yes my standards are awfully and scarily low but im so fucking tired of seeing us portrayed as tyrans, terrorists, Bad Desert Guys, that Dune felt GOOD. im an african melting pot of several countries and ethnicities but im mainly north african and specifically from the edge of the Sahara, i have touareg roots. ive heard some people say the fremen are a bastardized version of us, but i PERSONALLY didnt think so. it was a shame that stilgar was played by javier bardem tho, wouldve been great if they casted an african or middle eastern actor instead.

now all that isnt even an answer to ur question im sorry skfhkd but i just felt like saying that it felt. good. now more specifically about the way some parts of dune were heavily inspired by islam and islamic language.

to me, again, TO ME. it also felt good. i didnt see a problem with it, becausz it wasnt mocked or misused or anything, like. most religions have the concept of messiah. most religions have prophecies. again, dune didnt mock any religious or spiritual concept. there ARE layers to this but to me none of them felt insulting. when we see in the movie fremen pilgrims praying and meditating for a few seconds, i felt so warm bc. its me!!! its what i do!!! and its on screen!!! and its not used as a way to degrade or ridicule the people practicing it!!!!!

i'll finish this by saying that even if i havent finished reading the books....isn't dune supposed to be criticism about white people invading the middle east for oil anyway???? like. the fremen arent the bad guys. theyre PAINTED by the harkonnen as the bad guys. yes YES i know paul atreides is a white savior but tbfh i couldnt care less like this fucking book was written in the 60s lmao

anyway i hope at least some of this makes sense bc im rly tired and also i almost broke my ankle today so im in pain rn lmao but yea thats a general summary of my feelings about all that. it probably doesnt cover everything i have to say but thats all for now

again before anyone opens their throat at me : i have not finished the books, im brown and muslim myself, and most importantly its fiction. i have real problems. i better not see any white or non muslim people clowning on this post trying to explain to me what islamophobia is. thank u <3

#yueh :) #i might rewatch the movie a 5th time in theaters. bring my little brother with me #ask #dune

[blxetsi]

armin arlert, mikasa ackerman, and eren jaeger polyamorous headcanons (modern au)

armin arlert x gn!reader, mikasa ackerman x gn!reader, eren jaeger x gn!reader, mikasa x armin x eren x gn!reader

warnings: uhh fluff, this is very long, reader has a gf b4 getting w ema,

this is like my first post since feb that isnt a request 😍😍😍 how did i pull this out of my ass

- obv eren, mikasa, and armin have been besties since childhood so its no wonder they all got together first 🤩🙏

- and theyre all hot so why wouldnt they wanna date each other

- i think armin and eren wouldve gotten together first, and then invited mikasa into their relationship

- the three of them have been officially going steady for like over a year now, and its going really well

- they didnt really expect you to drop into their lives tho

- youre an old friend of historia's and you two reconnected after you moved to the city, securing yourself a decent paying job working as a writer for the city paper

- you usually get the boring stuff, never able to get a good story to write about, focusing your time on heartwarming stories in the community or the sports column

- its boring but it pays the bills

- you were thankful when historia called you during your lunch and asked if you wanted to get drinks at a bar with her and a couple of other friends

- of course you said yes

- so historia and her girlfriend ymir picked you up after work, having dinner with them after a long week was the best, but you were a bit nervous to meet all of their friends

- thats how you met eren, mikasa and armin

- at first you were sure that mikasa and eren were dating, seeing as mikasa had her head on the taller man's shoulder, while his arm was wrapped around her

- but when armin leaned down to give mikasa a kiss before heading off to the bar you werent so sure

- ymir pulled you away to get more drinks and explained to you what the situation was, while commenting on the way you gawked at the three of them before

- you were embarassed to say the least but they didnt bring it up that night so you hoped the throuple didnt notice (they did)

- you really hit it off with all of them though, especially sasha and jean, and were constantly talked about among the friend group

- because of your demanding job dealing with writers block and deadlines you couldnt really meet up with all of them often, usually just having sleepovers at ymir and historia's apartment, the three of you drinking while you wrote on your laptop

- after a couple months of casual hangouts with historia and ymir and their friends, you kinda became one of them too which was nice

- you were added to the groupchat, you all followed each other on social media, and a certain brunet had taken a liking to you

- eren didnt know why exactly he was so attracted to you but he was, maybe it was your hair, or how pretty your skin looked even when oily or with breakouts, maybe it was your smile or your body or your sense of humor or you kindness or maybe it was all of it

- eren jaeger would always stay faithful to his boyfriend and girlfriend, but maybe they could add another person into the mix, more to love right ?

- he had only known you for a couple of months though, he didnt want to jump the gun and bring this up with his partners so soon, especially if they didnt feel the same way he did

- and it would be a bummer if you turned out to be a bad person or smth

- so summer rolls around with lots of memories being made with your new friends, as well as friends from work, and you get a girlfriend ??

- shes not really your girlfriend you two have only been out on a couple of dates and she kisses you a lot but, you havent talked about labels

- one night you, along with your friends are back at the same bar where you first met them

"so, tell us about the girl youre seeing." ymir says, smirking over her beer.

eren's ears perked up at the mention of you seeing someone. "girl ?"

historia nodded. "mhm ! y/n's been talking to someone recently, they've gone on dates and kissed and stuff."

"and stuff, jesus tori you make it sound like we've had sex." you sighed.

the blonde just laughed, leaning her body onto her freckled companion.

"well ? what about her ?" eren asks. armin slapped him on the arm, already having suspicions about eren's interest in you.

your shoulders sagged. "well, she's great and everything, truly..."

"but ? is there a but in this ?" connie asked. sasha started laughing at connie's use of the word but, while jean slapped the girl on the arm because of her reaction.

you shrugged, swirling what was left of your fruity cocktail in your glass. "well, i'm not sure. she's very lively, and sweet. but i don't know, i just don't see myself being able to be in a steady relationship with her."

"so you're gonna end it ?" eren asked. you thought he seemed a bit too eager about your failure in the love department.

"why do you care so much ? you like the thought of me being lonely ?" you shot back, before downing the rest of your drink.

"no i just-"

"i think what eren means is," mikasa intervened, her smooth voice calming you as she looked at you with a smile on her face. "is that there's no point in staying with her if you can't see yourself with her. don't lead her on."

you nodded. "you're exactly right my friend. which is the plan for tonight because i," you quickly checked the time on your phone. 8:17. "have a date with miss molly at nine, so i will be taking my leave."

the group engaged in a chorus of boos for leaving so early, while you chuckled and took the lighthearted insults thrown at you by sasha and connie with ease. grabbing all of your things you put down two twenties onto the table. "i'll see you guys later, have a goodnight." as you walked off you heard jean yell "have a good time you heartbreaker !" making you shake your head

- the date with molly went less then well. she yelled, and cried, and even tried hitting you at one point. your walk back from the park was spent blocking her on every form of social media you followed her on, and when you got back to your apartment you spent the night in a hot bath before retiring to bed

- meanwhile, armin and mikasa were trying to pry the truth out of eren, who was constantly denying his attraction to you

- finally mikasa took one for the team "eren, you aren't alone with the way you feel, i do too." this made eren more willing to open up to his partners

- armin doesnt say anything about you, only saying how youre kind. he doesnt feel the way that his girlfriend and boyfriend do, but he knows that may change

- soon enough, more time flies and christmas rolls around, with you all deciding to have a secret santa get together.

- historia invites everyone to her home on christmas eve, with ymir begrudgingly allowing it

- bertholdt and annie come too, reiner not being able to make it due to going home for christmas, while everyone else decided to stay in the city

- you picked out your secret santas at the beginning of november so you would all have enough time to find something for each other, you hoped whoever picked your name gave you something good

- after hours of games and karaoke and drinking you all decided it was time to open the presents

- ymir got socks from bertholdt, connie got an ugly beanie from ymir, historia got new pens from mikasa, mikasa got knitting needles from annie, annie got a dumbell from eren, jean got a not so appropriate t shirt from connie, jean gave sasha more comic books, armin gave new stationary paper to bertholdt, sasha gifted you that new biography you've been wanting to read and you gave armin your old copy of frankenstein by mary shelley

- he was surprised but very thankful, "how did you know i needed a new copy ?" "well i remember you said eren spilt water on your old one, and the pages just stuck together so i thought you might as well have mine"

- it warmed armin's heart that you remembered something so insignificant, and opened him up to the thought of being with you

- the rest of the night was spent with hugs and thankfulness, cheering when the clock struck 12 and it became christmas day

- after getting things cleaned up everyone decided it was time to leave, with armin, eren and mikasa offering to give you a ride home

- a ride where armin straight up kissed you in the backseat

- you stopped him of course, thinking that it was weird he would cheat on his partners right in front of them, while they were shocked all on their own for different reasons, armin who didnt have feelings for you KISSED you

- and surprisingly armin took the lead in explaining how he felt, why he kissed you, an apology for doing so, and an offer to start dating all three of them

- your heart was pounding in your ears and your entire face felt hot, it was probably the alcohol, or the way his lips felt so soft when they touched yours, so you said yes.

- its not smooth sailing from there

- youre kind of awkward

- this is your first relationship where you really feel like you could love these guys (you already do) but its also your first relationship with multiple people

- the trio start inviting you over more often, soon for sleepovers, and start inviting themselves over at your own place, mainly eren

- he just comes at random times, sometimes when youre not even there and waits for you, or stays and cleans up a bit before leaving

- armin and you share a deep love of literature, and you often find yourselves in hot debates about whatever youve read (mikasa and eren have to pry you two away before things get physical)

- mikasa likes to cook with you, she shares recipes that her mom taught her, and her and armin love to cook dinner together whereas eren is the breakfast maker of the household

- the first time you slept in the same bed as them you were so nervous your whole body thumped to the tune of your heartbeat, you were convinced armin could even hear it as he was laying beside you, but eren wrapped an arm around your waist, pulling you into his large chest before whispering "youre as stiff as a board, relax honey"

- eren snores, mikasa drools, armin has those dreams where you fall and then violently wake up before you hit the ground

- slowly but surely you stop thinking about your relationship as the trio and you, but as all of you together, and that really helps you come out of your shell a bit

- you may still be in the honeymoon phase, and there may be bumps along the way, but you like being with armin, eren, and mikasa. they make you so happy, it feels like the happiest youve been in a long time

- you like watching eren and armin dance in the living room while you and mikasa cuddle on the couch, before the boys pull you two up as well

- you like when armin reads to you, his soft voice reciting the words of the great gatsby

- you like it when eren can just tell youve had a rough day, and pulls you into a hug like hes protecting you from all the bad things in the world

- you love being with them. you love them. and you think that theyre it for you

i rushed the ending bc im fucking tired but i kinda wanna do a poly!series with like sasha, connie and jean, or annie, bertholdt and reiner, or any other poly ships u guys may request !

so yeah pls give me feedback it rlly helps me figure out whether you want a polyamorous series (or just like what i write in general), and it would be my first series ever which would be super cool anyways

yeah requests open for poly!ships anyways

#attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #attack on titan x reader #eren jaeger x reader #eren yaeger x reader #eren yeager x reader #eren yeager headcanons #mikasa ackerman headcanons #mikasa ackerman x reader #armin arlert headcanons #armin arlert x reader #armin attack on titan #mikasa x reader #attack on titan mikasa #eren x armin #eren x mikasa #mikasa x eren #mikasa x armin #armin x eren #armin x mikasa #eren x mikasa x armin #eren x mikasa x armin x reader #polyamory #polyamourous #polyamorous #poly!aot

[sir-sunny]

[[invitation to ramble about whatever you want]] !!!!!

(thank youuu)

OK I WANNA TALK ABOUT SDR2 CHATP 5,,

where do i even START with this. okay chapter 5 is my favorite for SOOOOOO many reasons. from start to finish, this chapter is WILD. it honestly does a really good job at making the player actually afraid of the antagonist. when i first "played" this game, nagito was more just interesting to me than anything. he was an enigma and i honestly wanted to understand him. he had fucked up morals and he had done terrible things but i thought there was hope for him. he had the potential to be redeemed and saved with everyone else. but those goddamn documents ruined everything. it honestly makes me wonder how things would have played out if he never obtained them. he wouldve never felt the need to do something so drastic. but thats a conversation for another day. ANYWAYS.

after the fucking BOMBING of the lobby, i knew that he was too far gone. not only could he not be redeemed at this point, but he honestly couldnt be saved. it was clear that something within him had snapped and there was no way to get through to him. he was, essentially... hopeless. because of this, it seemed obvious that he wouldn't be making it out of here alive.AND YET. DUDE. LET ME TELL YOU.  THAT BODY DISCOVERY??? HOOO.

ok so. when i had gotten to the warehouse after the fire, i knew what was coming. GOD. when akane had said something along the lines of "hmmm, do you guys smell that?" i KNEW. cuz she said the exact same thing right before we found byakuya's body. that could only mean one thing. and who's the only person who's not currently with us right now?? it was nagito of course. and there was so much fuckign build up just to go to the back of the warehouse. so i KNEW. i KNEW he was dead. but. OHO. i never expected to to find him like that. i honestly have no idea what i was expecting but i most certainly wasnt expecting THAT. i was so shocked. and let me remend u, when i first got this point, i wasnt super head over heels for nagito. i liked him and i thought he was interesting, but he wasnt really my favorite character or anything (yet😔) but seeing him like this was SO UPSETTING. i remember putting down my phone and just staring into space with my jaw dropped.

I LOVED IT. AKSJKJSG HEAR ME OUT. i absolutely LOVE when games can throw me for a loop like that. i love feeling genuine emotions for fictional characters. i had to take a break from playing just cuz i was so shocked. i LOVE that about this chapter. i love that it doesnt pull any punches, its just so relentless. i know that probably sounds weird but that just how i feel aksjshsg.

YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE ABT THIS CHAPTER?? i love that, at no point in the trail does it feel like we're wasting time. i love danganronpa but we all know that some of the tangents we get stuck on are irrelevant and tedious. but in this trial, eveything felt significant. we didnt even spend any time suspecting one another. we get right into the possibility that this was all nagito's doing. and its such an ABSURD notion at first glance. how could he possibly be capable of all of this?? i mean look at him!! are we to assume he not the victim in this case??? but. EVERYTHING adds up. its actually conceivable that nagito would do something so horrific. it MAKES SENSE. it really does and YET...

for some reason, for some reason,,, it doesnt feel right. why does it feel like we're missing something here??? isnt this enough? the fact that the ONLY reason we decided to continue the trial was because of this slight feeling of unease. the fact that we were this close to ending the trial then and there, is so,,,,, auauaughh. anyways.

and so we keep going. we keep digging, not quite sure what were looking for. and we decide to talk about the cause of death. which kinda seems ridiculous. i mean, just one glace at the body, you'd think it'd be obvious..... you'd think. and yet, you realize its not explicitly stated in the monokuma file. why is that?? there has to be a reason. and so we keep digging. was the spear really the cause of death? if not, what else could i possibly be? and so we entertain the idea that his cause of death may be poison. on account of what we found in his cottage. and when we further discuss this topic, we find that its actually possible that poison was the cause of death!

......... so what? that doesnt change anything, does it? if he had prepared poison ahead of time, that would still mean he's the blackened. so what does it matter? well, come to think of it, how exactly did he bring poison to the warehouse and why didnt we find any evidence of it? or rather, why didnt we notice it? lets think about what we did find at the crime scene. we found remains of the fire grenades.......wait. hang on, hang on. we have a peice of evidence that links the fire grenades to this case. one single peice of evidence. we found a tiny little foil in nagito's cottage. why would he have that? unless... he had tampered with one of the fire grenades before hand...?

AND LET ME TELL YOU AAUGHH JUST. the feeling of DREAD in that courtroom when the realization hits. he tampered with ONE fire grenade. he filled ONE fire grenade was with poison. one of the fire grenades that WE threw,,, had fucking POISON. in it. somebody threw the fatal one and WE DONT KNOW WHO IT WAS!!!

i can put myself in this scenario and imagine looking back and forth at my peers, my friends, utterly hopeless. because one of us is guilty and there's no way of knowing who it is........ or is there? lets harken back to what nagito was persisting over and over before this all happened. he wanted to find the traitor. could all of this be a part of that goal??? is it possible that we haven't quite figured out this fucked up plan? IS IT POSSIBLE... that he wanted someone specific to grab the fatal fire grenade? did he... trick the traitor into killing him...?

thats EXACTLY what he did. and at this point, the jig is up for chiaki. now that she knows what the deal is, she comes forward and tries to push eveyone towards the truth. she knows this is the only way she can save everyone and she doesn't hesitate. but she cant just say it. she cant come right out and say she's the traitor. so (god this breaks my heart) she asks hajime to reveal the truth. and hajime is SO distraught. he BEGS her not to make him do this. and its clear how apologetic chiaki is. she's genuinely so sorry for putting this on hajime but its the only way to save everyone so she persists. shes more than happy to do this for them.

and its so crazy to think that up until the very end, we all were believing in nagito's luck. chiaki could have easily not been the blackened, but she was. do u know what that means? it means nagito's planned WORKED. he was satisfied dying without actually knowing who the traitor was and just trusting his luck. THATS WILD. HIS PLAN WORKED. i mean in the sense that he got the traitor to kill him not that the traitor ended up dying BUT STILL.

and can i talk about that EXECUTION?? HOO. chiaki's execution is definitely DEFINITELY my favorite. its so good. from the music to the game references, its just so perfect. and ive seen this execution many times so i know eveything thats gonna happen, but it still breaks my heart everytime i watch it. like,, chiaki desperately running for her life even though she knows she cant escape this. only to be immediately stopped. the look of resignation on he face as the blocks fall around her. she doesnt flinch, she doesnt cry, she accepts her fate. up until her last moments she didnt give in to monokuma's (junko's) despair.

and just like that, this chapter ruthlessly tore nagito and chiaki away from hajime *passes out again*

#AKSKJSH IM SORRY #THIS IS SO MUCH AKSJJSBSBS #AAA #asks #anon #sunny speaks #sdr2 #sdr2 spoilers #long post

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salaam again sis it's me! again, appreciate your beautiful response and i do feel that i can confide in u even if it's on anon rn. honestly, i feel that after the uni guy situation im not so sure if i can trust myself/ my gut or any signs with if someone is the one, anymore. this upsets me as with the uni guy, he brought a strange sense of calmness and familiarity i hadnt felt before so naturally having accounted for that and other strange things i felt he was definitely the one. now that he's obviously married to someone else and things didnt work out even after i ensured to do things halal way from the outset, i cant help but doubt my choices - i had never been like this before but the uni guy situation has made me v wary about believing my gut when it comes to if a man feels like he might be the 'one'. hehe im glad ive found someone similar to me ^-^ i pray Allah also grants u someone who he thinks is best for you iA, u have such a pure soul sis. wrt the ring so i checked this v quickly and i believe he wasnt wearing a ring - actually i first checked this to be sure before letting my interest develop. if i saw a ring i wouldve shut down these thoughts there and then but ive been told that not all muslim married men wear rings so i dont want to become too hopeful just on this basis. i guess i'll see what happens on monday iA and if, like this week, Allah makes me encounter him this week etc too. it's strange bc i started noticing him since last week more even though ive been working at this place now for 2 months or so. i was talking to Allah about it and how i hope he doesnt come by the next day as i felt that i was thinking about him too much, then funnily the morning after he was the first person i saw and spoke to for the first time (just to ask if a room was free but still, i guess he knows i exist now lol), then even the day after i saw him twice. i saw him again before leaving on friday and ngl i did feel a little jealous when i saw him next to this other lady, and when i came by he didnt look up once. im sure he's not interested in me at all. he does seem veryyyy focused on just getting the work done, which is typical in the setting im in but i guess that's what i like about him from what ive observed. unlike a lot of (muslim) men here who talk unnecessarily to opp gender/ too much - he seems quite to the point and sort of goes off doing his own thing quietly. i've also seen him in the prayer room once before but that's all ik about his religious side. again, just to remind u he hasnt done anything specifically towards me to indicate he's eeven interested in me in the slightest. he probably just sees me as a new trainee who's started her first job and thats it, if he even remmebers me at all. anyway, im trying to be open about how things go either way iA but ive always hated being noticed/ talking to get noticed esp about things like these so idk if ill be able to build the courage to do so. i guess i still have a back up which is to ask the mutual colleague when theyre back in january - but from what ik this colleague doesnt know much about him either unfortunately and funnily the guy didnt even remember the mutual colleague even after a few encounters/ months of the colleague having worked there so idk. guess i just want my heart to be content with whatever at this stage. i really just hope to end up with a mature, loyal, calm, God-conscious man someday when Allah thinks best iA. I hope i'll be able to recognise him, and him, me

Wa 'alaykum assalam <3

Tbh sis, sometimes you don’t recognize “the one” from the start. I’ve heard multiple stories where people thought it wouldn’t work out and then they get married. My cousin is one of them, she wasn’t attracted to her now husband (I mean she didn’t think of him ugly, she just wasn’t inclined towards him i guess is a better choice of words) nor find him interesting in the first few talks, but the interest and all developed gradually. So you never know how he’ll come.

Do what you’re comfortable sis, either way if he’s for you, you’ll find him in front of you someday. If you wish to take a chance, go for it. If you don’t wish to and wish to take time to see how you feel/how he is, that’s fine too! See how you feel after istikhara about him and what happens, in sha Allah you'll get clarity.

I totally get your not trusting the intuition part, I feel that for myself also. I pray Allah gives you a kind, respectful, grateful man who only has eyes for you and will hold your hand all the way into janna. Someone who takes his deep seriously and will take great care of you with a heart of love, mercy, and compassion towards you, allahumma ameen.

I appreciate your updates sis, and I love the length of them. I love how you pour all of your thoughts out. I appreciate you talking to me. You’re so sweet 💗