#i just wanted to study holy shit

[sunnybergamota]

Relationships are indeed hard and managing them do take a ugly ass work

#god I wish I could do something better but I know that with everytone hot headed it will just make it worse #it already did #today was supposed to be a fun day studying chemistry with all people that matter to me but nooo #time to face the ugly side of keeping relationships and trusting people #i just wanted everyone to get along but now I know the won’t for a very long time #my friend does not like my bf for her own reasons and he’s trying so hard to get on her good side it just Ames it worse #and I was like no yeah go for it! bcs I wanted them to be friend yk? #is it so bad to want people that I care about to at least be friends? #she hates his guts now #this is not all I’m not gonna umpack it all on a tumblr post but yeah #it pretty shitty out here #i just wanted to study holy shit #now I’m crying when I should be reviewing shit for tomorrows exam #bergi gabble

[junotter]

in-between moments

#tenrose #timepetals #rose tyler #tenth doctor #10th doctor #doctor who #doctor who fanart #dw fanart #my art #shes texting jackie whos currently having a hair EMERGENCY #i just wanted to draw rose in some of my own outfits tbh.... #holy shit hes reading AN EMPTY BOOK(/j) #rn my daily routine is study for 9 hours while watching doctor who and then drawing tenrose fanart for 3 hours after

[libbyrequiresescapism]

*flips table* mizu

#holy shit I drew #bless you mizu #I’ve been obsessing over them #like they’re just so attractive and badass and everything I need #wanted to study their face and get a feel for it #would like to do one for taigen as well #he’s pretty handsome too #blue eye samurai #mizu blue eye samurai #mizu #it ain’t taimizu but its hard work #my art

[lettucesilver]

Repostober 22/31

sweater buddies !!

#leoichi #platonic leoichi #holy shit that previous tag either doesn't exist or doesn't come up when typing it #I really hope it's the latter #ok so this came from me trying to draw leoichi but not wanting to draw anything romantic #as I was in a study hall with a lot of people #and I didn't want people seeing my phone randomly and seeing me draw art of the tortoise and the hare being romantic boyfriends #so I just drew some random lines of not rabbit and not turtle kids for the sketch #then made them rabbit and turtle when I got home #So I came up with a miscellaneous hc #that Leo and Yuichi had these sweaters that were WAY too big for them #but still got them for silly reasons #repostober 2023 #REPOSTOBER #leo rottmnt #leonardo rottmnt #rottmnt #rottmnt fanart #rottmnt leonardo #usagi yuichi #yuichi usagi #there's a part 2 to this art #but that's the next repostober thing #Lettuce Arts

[spearxwind]

parents will literally blame insane shit on you

#im so fucking tired dude. i want to break something so bad rn holy shit #the gall they have to tell me i dont care about my future. just cause i dont think getting into another year of studies literally suddenly #like 'do it today because the time slot ends today and if you dont do it we're making u pack up ur house and move back with us' suddenly #cause if i dont do it i dont care enough abt my future #dude................. ive been working my ass off so hard the past few months???? #thunderclap #im not gonna go on a rant cause ill get even madder but god im fucking pissed. great way to start the day dude just so fucking cool forever #love this love this love this #im not even home im at my bfs house and havcing to deal with this shit and then later today i have more shit

[oreegaanoo]

Once again I am fueled by comments from my thesis supervisor and feel like I can actually do this thing hell YEAAAAHHHH

I CAN WRITE THIS THING!!! I CAN DO IT!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHH

#imagine a drawing of me going all feral that's me rn #I get so hyped every time I meet him even though all his comments are like “this is okay” and “what did you mean by this”-- #then followed up by discussions and improvement suggestions and I get so excited about writing it all suddenly #like!!! what is this!!!! #it's probably because I get to actually talk about my thesis and in detail with someone who understands it? probably? #most likely now that I think about it. I don't have a lot of friends who study the same thing so I can't talk about these things in depth #(but I'm also very happy to have those friends who don't understand but listen to my ramblings about it <3 ) #p #and also also like. I am about 45 pages into this thing. I am so far. I have wanted to just drop it for the past month or so but!! I'm so-- #--far!!! holy shit!!! that's amazing my guy!!! you're doing well!! just need the clean up and some clearer explanations and that's it #it's not going to be two more years of this it's going te 6 months MAX #most likely 4 months of work with 1-2 months after for the grading and checking process when i don't have to do shit #I only have this thesis; one essay that is 75% done; and one spanish course I'm taking end I'm done!!!! I will cry when that happens!!

[killmymind]

i don’t think i’ve ever felt this lost in my life. tbh

#feeling sad? sure. hopeless? been there done that. anxious as hell? at least once a week. but lost? no. not really #and that’s really fucking scary because i’m not familiar with it and i just don’t know how to deal with it #i can’t stop thinking that i’m running out of time because i’m 25 and i don’t think i can afford feeling this way #taking a break from uni sounds good in theory but in reality? again. i’m 25. i need to at least achieve one thing in my life holy shit #it’s SO hard to see the good even when it’s right in front of me or someone points it out. like having a job or studying or getting to #travel or even just having friends ARE achievements but i always want More More and More i am addicted to wanting more cause it feels like #nothing i do is ever enough. and now i’m adding feeling lost because i’m finally acknowledging the fact that i don’t know what i want to do #with what i’m studying or how to get a different job in the future when i almost have no experience and everything is just so frustrating #because i simply don’t fucking know. i just don’t. i can’t afford not knowing!! everything is so messy rn you would think i’d be thriving #after seeing louis and meeting aria and traveling to germany and i am genuinely so happy those things happened but fuck man there is always #the Bigger Thing taking over and it makes me feel like an ungrateful brat i just don’t fucking know man. maybe i am an ungrateful brat #but it’s just so hard to be happy when you’re feeling so lost with everything in your life and yourself #anyway i just. needed to let that out #negative #effie talks to the moon

[lifeonmvrs]

i am a lonely hero, trying to fight my battles

[Image Description: a digital drawing of peter parker. he is wearing his spider-man suit with his mask off. he is resting in a metal handrail, looking down with a pensive expression. the background is of a really big bush that covers most of the canvas. it is different shades of purple. /end ID]

#kind of a study of chris bachalo’s peter/spidey #but it mainly started as me just wanting to draw peter #and also a warm up sketch #that i polished a bit 🛐 #so that’s why anatomy’s a bit off but i still like it :) #peter parker #peter parker fanart #spider man #spiderman #spider man fanart #spider-man #RESPECT THE HYPHEN‼️ /hj #peter b parker #art #digital art #fanart #marvel #marvel fanart #chris bachalo #the hold his drawings have on me holy shit i literally want to eat the art it looks so umm tasty and smooth???? IDK VERY PRETTY! #digital artist #has id #my art

[mwagneto]

getting my driving licence tomorrow.. 😐

#for the record when i say i got it so I'd have it later i mean my licence. i did not want nor get a car -> #i feel really bad for my car coz brother i am never ever gonna drive you sorry. devil's machine #literally living in a city with one of the best public transports in the entire world and my parents expect me to drive... #i got it so I'd have it but like broooo im not gonna drive anywhere i fucking hate driving😭😭😭 #also fun fact getting a licence in hungary is literally harder than getting into heaven as a rich person like holy fucking shit #I've been going through the process for well over two years now. my god #you need 4 different exams and many many many hours of studying and practice #which is good in that i know most ppl who drive trained really hard to do it #but bad because boy they don't act like it<3 also bp traffic is fucking nuts. JUST TAKE THE BUS #or the metro. or the trolley bus. or the tram. or the hév. or the train. or the fucking . boat #no the boats stopped running during covid and they still haven't started again which makes me so sad. bring them back... #barking

[reputationgf]

😕😕😕

#i miss my mom so much #cant stop cryinf holy fuck #idk i will take her beinf mad at me so much and calling me names and then me self hamrinf over beinf away from her i dont fucking care #i dont fucking care about my studies fuck this shit #2 yrs away from her and then college so ill be even more fucking far and then getting fucking job i dont care about this i just want my mom #Spotify

[nomazee]

what ppl don't tell you about writing is that it's half having zero ideas whatsoever and not knowing what to write & half having too many ideas and not knowing which ones to pick

#i literally have been in shambles writing so many things at once #p2 to 'the sun told me so' has been a slow and steady process for this reason exactly #i've rewritten it like four different times #this is the hardest thing i've ever done. and #AND #DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED #on this fucking todoroki painter au thing i'm trying to writ e #because holy shit #i have a bunch of cool lines and blurbs written and NO WAY of connecting them #me when i make another collection of vignettes instead of being a normal person and maybe writing a linear storyline #(i have done neither of these things btw) #help. ME. #also i've been rewatching sk8 and now i want to write a reki x langa fic. my head is going to explode #AND MY EXMAS ARE COMING UP. THERE'S TOO MUCH HAPPENING GET ME OUT #ALSO if anyone wants to beta read the todoroki painter au ... let me know i will literally let ANYONE beta read it #it's not an x reader #it's like just a character study almost #it.s.... a lot.... #it's gonna take like another month for me to finish HELPP #nat says stuff

[avocado-frog]

Finals week is upon us.

#if I go like. completely radio silent it's because math killed me 👍 #this is my first year doing real finals but I've been doing standardized testing since fifth grade and oh boy #I never got the grades back but I'm sure they were fucking spectacular /s #I'm bad at math :( #and at science :( #and apparently at photography because I just got a D on a test which I'm so mad about because I actually studied this time #For like three hours #and then the questions had nothing to do with the notes that the teacher GAVE TO ME #So I got a 6/10 which is ridiculous #help me I keep going between 'I'll do fine' and 'holy shit if I fail I'll literally be a dead man' I'm about to have a crisis #Or I might start crying who knows #I just want. I just want some cotton candy I dont need all this #PLUS gym starts next week :( #I have asthma and I cant even get up a staircase you think I want to RUN on PURPOSE #absolutely not #school

[t4tdykes]

z.ionism in the tags, tbd

#at this point #you have to wonder just how sacred this land really is to you if you're willing to do this much crime directly against g-d on and over it #i am studying quite a lot right now & reading a LOT about the zionist perspective bc it's an integral part of the books we are given tbh #and so much of the phrasing is about this yearning for what sounds like a completely understandable thing but the thing about it is #it's ancient and it's an ideal and the world has changed *so much* since that yearning took root #when it says we are meant to yearn for a return to isr.ael it makes so much more sense to conceptualize that as The People(hood) #it is *understandable* after everything that the people have been put through over history to want a safe returning point! yeah! #How Ever!!!!!!!! #in what FUCKING WORLD does it make sense to create an environment like this out of that place? to exemplify hypocrisy? #in class we literally study and talk so much about all sorts of historical events that are so similar #and about how amazing it rly is that the torah never actually shies away from the wrong that the ancient ppl have done #because it takes accountability in ways no other holy book does and it says ''we cannot ever do this again. we must never do this again.'' #how the fuck are so many people blind to the fact that this is the exact same thing as a Lot of the shit we already understand as wrong #i am just. beside myself constantly at the double standard it puts a sadness in my *bones* it makes me feel ill #the way the perspective is presented is absolutely like... you can see Why a lot of people attach to (and fall for) it. #it's presented in an appealing and touching and personal and *necessary* way. that is how it's phrased. #but it cannot possibly overshadow the reality of what's being done on that soil right now and what is happening to another People. #sorry but i cannot believe this is what my g-d wants. #a.txt #zionism tw #world #antizionism is not antisemitism! js!!!!

[breitzbachbea]

Nice to be back in my academic mode, I have much desire to pick apart and analyze this rock band text and zero to continue writing on my own creative projects.

#beablabbers #I am so sick of my mfers for the time being sorryyyy #I don't even want to work on The Amulet. I just don't. That urge will return but for right now I don't think I could do any of the kids #justice. I am creatively drained. But academically restored! I think my brain needed this honestly. A pause to do something for ME. #I was so stressed and scatterbrained the last months this is a breath of fresh air. I just wanted to live for me and not deadlines. #maybe talking with Ilich about Weber also helped. Like hmmm I like writing the blorbos but I also like analyzing them #WAIT THAT IS WHY I STUDY HOLY SHIT I GOTTA GET BACK TO MY ACADEMIC CAREER

[aegann]

its literally sooooo fuckin funny that I started learning how to draw humans a couple years ago just to draw my blorbos. my fucking blorbos

#the lizard speaks #im still not at where I wanna be yet but im getting better!! because holy shit #the blorbos from my mind do NOT leave #i just wish art studies weren't so DETRIMENTAL to my motivation because they make me feel like shit when I don't get it right on the first #try like. i get that's a shitty way to feel but it doesn't stop me from feeling it #faces are still the worst. for real. proportions are hard too but like #man I want to draw nice faces and it's hard lmao