#i think its just because this was such a “bro” moment that it was so funny

[cursed-40k-thoughts]

MTG or YGO?

Long post? Long post!

Are you asking what I prefer? YGO. Are you asking what I think is better? That is wholly dependent on what a person wants out of a card game.

YGO's biggest barrier to entry is the fact that the cards are written in their own form of legalese. I mean this very literally, too. They use "Problem-solving card text" where it makes use of deliberately placed adverbs in effect descriptions to dictate moment to moment interactions. It is almost like learning a new language, and has been compared to learning how to read through legal documents. It becomes comprehensive once you wrap your head around it, and is the reason you can do some properly crazy/funny shit in the game, but wrapping your head around it and understanding what new cards do is a whole thing. Having someone who's played YGO before teach you how to play the game is basically the most reliable way to learn it. It's genuinely a problem.

MTG is, comparatively, much easier to learn. Very low floor of entry, and sequenced in such a way that you can understand basically how the entire game works in a few hours. MTG's complexity 100% exceeds YGO's at the uppermost levels, but the way game comprehension builds on itself is much cleaner, so it feels less obtuse overall.

MTG is mechanically more casual friendly. The current MTG darling format, Commander, is basically a 2ish hour social game where four people engage in a free for all that hinges partially on social politicking. It's typically chill. You also have a lot of assorted 1v1 formats and such. There is likely a "way to play" that will resonate with you, and the games tend to be slowish.

YGO doesn't really have multiple formats in a meaningful way. You can absolutely do group stuff and set informal rules, but the game ultimately hinges on 1v1s. With the frontal complexity of card text, these can and will feel very lopsided and frustrating until you understand what's going on. Once you do know, it's super cool, but getting to that point can feel like a chore. The games are also typically quite fast (maybe 3-6 long turns) and very dense with card interactions and timings. I enjoy it for the way it makes me strategise (or not), but it's definitely a preference thing.

Cost is something where YGO absolutely curb stomps. I can get a whole deck of picked out cards, plus a suite of "staple" (eternally meta relevant) cards, with lots of cool foiled versions and stuff, for like 50-70 bucks USD. You are NOT doing that with MTG. MTG is a stupidly fucking expensive game, where reprints of important cards are rare to encourage market speculation (I am not kidding) and finance bros have an ACTUAL PLACE in the community. There is a reason that casual MTG encourages proxy use. It's fucked. Also, as an aside, MTG's shiny/foil cards are dogshit. Same-y and super prone to curling. YGO foils are extremely good and pretty.

Cost feeds into another issue; set rotation. You can argue merit in both directions with this one, but for the average person with average money to spend, MTG takes another L here. MTG has set rotation. Basically, in the standard 1v1 format, cards that have been out more than 3 years will no longer be playable in that format, and you have to get the new cards. A lot of the alternate 1v1 formats in MTG actually just boil down to "1v1s but you can use cards as far back as X" because... people want to use their cards they bought. YGO doesn't have this. It instead has a banlist, updated every couple of months, that aims to curb problematic card interactions. Ultimately, though, if you buy a thing and like the thing, you can basically always use the thing. (MTG, as an aside, also has banlists for its formats, but it's in addition to the rotation stuff. The fact so many formats are there to ignore X years of rotations is also kinda telling, imo.)

Art direction and flavour are a personal thing. I like both, though I think that YGO's reputation for archetypal/thematic variation and card art quality are well-earned. That'd be wholly up to your preferences.

So yeah, I have a fondness for both games, but I ultimately prefer YGO because I like doing unhinged bullshit in it, I like the art a whole lot, and I like that all my cards are affordable and retain usability in a typical play environment.

#ask #YGO #Yu-Gi-Oh #MTG #Magic The Gathering

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #persona 4 #p4au #persona 4 arena ultimax #yosuke hanamura #hanamura yosuke #narukami yu #souyo #you know im actually obsessed with this scene like yosuke is teasing yu like hehe big bro but also chie did that very early on in p4g #which yu didnt comment on at all #so its yosuke specifically that yu doesnt like him calling big bro #i mean yosuke quickly gets flustered and says he was just teasing before running away #and like yeah he is teasing but theres something about the teasing that just GETS me #ive written about the concept of amae before on this blog but calling someone onii-san/big brother is also kind of an example of that #like you're playing up your helplessness and acknowledging the other person as being a senior to you #and idk im sure im overthinking this but i think in this moment yosuke was carelessly flirting with yu like he always does #except yu doesnt like yosuke calling him that because for him big bro has a stronger connotation with nanako #and hes ok with chie teasing him and calling him that because he knows chie doesnt actually mean beyond it #but when yosuke calls him that it brings in undertones of flirtations and he doesn't like it because its supposed to be an innocent term #alternatively hes ok as seeing chie as a younger sister figure. but yosuke? no way. because yosuke is already hi #anyway the point im making is i think yosuke was definitely 100% flirting with yu here and they both knew it #he's good with his queue

[deerlisteners]

thinking abt felix being protective of areadbhar and feeling entirely normal about it actually

#deertalking #feposting #few3h #ITS SO. LIKE THE WAY HES DEPICTED IN THIS GAME DRIVES ME CRAZY #like i haven’t thought this through i don’t have a point here exactly #i’m just thinking abt the screencaps here from the king awakens & him giving ingrid glenn’s spur & his support w mercedes & the cat #where mercie points out the cat likes him & he goes ‘well i can’t keep it. It’s practically a kitten what if it has parents that miss it’ #not to even mention wildflowers for the future!!!! #like. ROLLS ON THE GROUND #it’s abt ‘i’m not immune to emotions you know’ it’s about it’s about #it’s abt how he feels like his emotions were disregarded since childhood (esp after duscur) so he pushed away the #sentimentality because he’s seen where it got his friends (revenge quests & death wishes) #but he can’t help but follow his friends down those paths anyway because he loves them so much!!!!!!! #like him acknowledging the spear’s importance to dimitri bc it’s all that’s left of lambert but ALSO #in that moment it’s all FELIX has left of DIMITRI. ykwim #like felix babygirl my beloved y do u think it makes u sick to see areadbhar in the enemy’s possession…….. #he is just so hypocritical i adore him. he might be the character of all time to me #bro is trying so hard to b a lone wolf but was NOT built for that he was built to be loved and cherished by his friends #and so he shall be. thank you #um anyway idk what my point here was. i just like thinking abt how much felix loves everybody #someday i will make a coherent felix post. today is not that day #dmlxposting #dimilix #yknow what yeah.

[tea-cat-arts]

LETS GO- Kevin reference!!!

#honkai impact #honkai star rail #sorry to tag both games but I think its applicable here #mihoyo stop- he's already dead #Implying that Kevin existed in Star Rail's universe and got killed offscreen is so disrespectful its just funny #I can't even be upset #i will still be upset over that stupid Icarus metaphor because it still sucks #no I will never get over hi3 part 1's terrible ending #too bad he's already dead in the star rail verse because now I'm thinking about him as like a failed follower of nihility #kinda like how the annihilation gang is to destruction #cuz he nails the “life has no inherent meaning” aspect while completely missing the “so create your own meaning” part #as shown by him thinking that “birds learned to fly as a survival skill and theres no poetic reason behind it” is some kind of bad thing #like bro- we also eat to survive but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy a good meal #i got off track and dont remember where i was going with this #but ya- happy to be hearing about kevin again even if it was just a brief moment #pee paw Welt is out here giving Kevin more respect than the hi3 writers ever did lmao

[todayisafridaynight]

No because Zhao speculating felt like such a

Looks into the camera

"I bet you're wondering why that happened. ;) heres maybe a reason ebina was deep..."

moment

no literally- like other antags' endgame Deep Moment scenes worked because there was SOME build up throughout the game to key us in on them from a deeper level but it just doesnt work with ebina

#iw spoilers #spoilers #snap chats #a big part To Me really is because hes just an aoki clone like its really not something to look over when its so half-assed #they did have his flashback and backstory but like .. i repeat it just feels like such a lame plot twist ... #a plot twist that could have been really interchangeable ... before i get into the orphan-under-kazama rant again.. #YK1 nishiki got his build up from watching his added backstory scenes and even the scenes with yumi in the beginning #yk where its clear yumi gives more attention to kiryu #ryuji .. ok i mean tbf he was majorly there to fuck around he wasnt trying to be overly deep but even he still has his issues #HE STILL AT LEAST HAD A PRESENCE and even so his moment with kaoru was real sweet .. big bro ryuji my beloved im cryin ... #like a character doesnt have to be OVERLY deep to be fun/enjoyable i love ryuji ... hi king ... im getting off topic .... #MINE-- //is pulled off stage before i get into it// #and aoki is built up from the arakawa's accounts of him coupled with his Dog Eats Dog mentality and esp that NYE flashback #that shot of the No Dumping sign lives in my mind forever .... so good im going to kill myself thinking bout aoki bye ... #im rambling point is Do Better RGG what happened. the stories and characters had been bangers from 0 to 7 to gaiden and then. ???

[pepprs]

ok. giving myself 4 minutes to make this post and then i finish my homework. i just am so deeply miserable. i really think i made a mistake. i should not be in grad school. i only took a year between this and undergrad and i am still so burned out and mentally ill. im working full time. im only taking one class and this program is supposed to be so good and aligned with what i want and all of that. but i just cant stand having homework. i just cant stand it. i think i am not cut out for academia even though i work in academia. i think i will never get better as long as im still living at home but i have to get better before i can no longer be living at home but i cant get better until im not living at home and every day i still live at home saps away at my will to live quite literally. i should not have started doing grad school without regaining my will to live. without restoring my love for reading and writing that i used to have voraciously when i was younger and less deeply miserable. without recovering from the burnout. i think i made a mistake. i need a masters degree so bad so that i can be safe but i need to not have fucking homework when i already struggle to get through my days without school. i feel so stuck in my life and hopeless and helpless. i dont know what to do

#purrs #i cant drop out or anything because. lol and this class isnt even that big of a deal like i TRULY am freaking out over nothing. but my life #situation is so bad rn bro like i cant get my parents to take me out to drive and i cant get myself to get my parents to take me out to #drive and every day i am guilt tripped berated etc etc and i feel like i am never ever ever going to be able to have my own life where i a #stable and safe and happy. it can happen for other people except for me and my siblings. i dont know. im not explaining anything well. #i just cant do this. i need to not have this one more thing on my plate but i have to because if i dont have a masters degree in my field i #am nothing even though everyone is telling me that isnt true and all of them are credible but im just so mentally ill i cant believe anyone #and icant accept any advice or hope or whatever good about me i just. am stuck. this is as good as it gets and its not even good. #delete later #that was 7 minutes not 4 and i didnt even write anything substantial. nutshell. i just have been so fucking depressed lately oh my goddddd #this is maybe too strong of a thing to say but like. i know it isnt technically neglect if i am an adult but... i think i may kind of be #neglected by my family in some ways a little bit and always have been but like. emotionally. like in the ways in which im never a priority #and the things i need are seen as burdens etc etc. and theres nothing anyone can do about it even myself because im an adult but like lol. #24 year old dependent moment <3 #well there is one thing i can do about it as an adult actually. its called move out. but that requires strength i will #never possess unfortunately due to the inherent flaws in my character and constitution so. guess this is it lawl 🥰 #side note (and i swear im done after this lol): i think i was doing a lot better mentally over the summer. funny how when the semester #starts i get depressed and the depression just gets worse and worse until the end of the semester 😻 funny how this is my seventh year like #this. willingly subjecting myself to this. that should be a clue no? but i love my job and if i could just have my job and be stable in it #would be happier but also im lying to mysaelf and i will always be unhappy but its because of my mental illness not my job being bad or #anything its like. i am just sick in the head with impostor syndrome and thats how i got myself into this whole mess. lol #well that and the not moving out thing which is partially my fault but also because i live in hell as described earlier! <3

[strwbrymlkshake]

Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt. #well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

[devil-changmin]

again, in tags, and dec 18 tw

#i know ppl sensationalize 'let me out' way more than 'elevator' because its much more on the nose #even in the title #and like it has 2x as many listens on spotify so i know ppl are just listening to it cuz theyre like oh what is this #but bro #if depression is part of ur life experience and u listen to elevator #its like #shit #and like ive had depression for so long and it was untreated for SO long that i think it rly rly hits in my personal experience #and like jonghyun was so honest with his emotions and he felt everything so strongly #and i think a moment like let me out is much more like #thats when youre angry and fed up with yourself and with everything and you just want to be DONE youre just tired and youre like fucking le #take a break from this #but elevator is so poignant because it feels so much like the bottom of the well #like when you dont really feel anything #youre on your back in a dark whole staring at the pinprick of the sky #to the point that he's even detached from the self #he is seeing his reflection as if it is someone else #and saying how long have you been that tired? how long have you been that sad? #and to look at yourself and say 'i don't know you' but also 'you know you cant go on like this anymore right? #like bro #i wish i could verbalize like how insanely like #i mean hes an artist he encapsulated the thought in a very poignant and concise way #its just so insane to think how many people listened to those words and were still surprised by what happened #idk #anyway #i miss him

[waybrightgender]

google how to get someone to stop reading about crypto and using degenerate

#jesus christ. i tried to move them over to tumblr to get them off reddit but they just go back to the tumblr subreddit every time. #if i tell them to do something they do it but then they put a new and fascinating /neg spin on it #like i told them to follow more ppl on here and they followed about 50 ppl that seemingly never post and i told them to make their cute #little project a sideblog so they can rb stuff but they made it their main and cant rb anything now #i tell them to be vague about the details of homestuck so that their mom doesnt stop trusting me and they decide its a better idea to keep #calling it a cringey bad old webcomic that i really love because i have bad taste #i tell them to stop using degenarate because its a nazi dogwhistle but they decide thats just stupid i guess and keep using it #i think theyre gonna become a crypto bro they have like 5 books about it #they've been on reddit since they were like 10 i dont think i can get them out of there but they should at least go on better subreddits #instead of r/iam14andthisisdeep and r/tumblr and r/whitepeopletwitter and r/nonpoliticaltwitter and who knows what else #its especially the r/tumblr part that i dont get. because they literally have a tumblr account #if theres a specific user that you see making posts you like on the subreddit go follow them! scroll thru tags of things you like and follo #all the blogs! be annoying and put out a post asking for mutuals tagged with fandoms you like! #oh and they rlly like r/nosleep i wish i could get them to go on the creepypasta wiki instead because at least thatll give them some shared #references with the wider internet and ppl their age. their mom has literally no pop culture references whatsoever so im trying to help the #but its honestly really hard when they dont do what i tell them to do. jesus i sound awful dont i #real sasha waybright moment. “you are going to follow 100 more blogs and turn off algorithm stuff now. end of discussion.” #it's not like they have a community and friends on reddit they dont even have an account theyve been lurking for years #they dont even have the app they use the mobile website. ugh im being so bitchy rn ill just shut up #maybw if yall see that this is how i think then youll realize that im not exactly worth interacting with #sorry for spiraling on ya. im pmsing. #and i have a whole disorder about that so

[sege-h]

Its PPRIDE and its the FIRST EVER ARO VISIBILITY DAY, allowing me to unlock my powers to fire godzilla beams from my mouth and evaporate anyone that implies Sonic wouldnt save or try to save Shadow if he wasnt gay for him

WOULD YOU RESERVE LIFE SAVING TO YOUR ROMANTIC PARTNERS ONLY, AND LEAVE "ONLY" A FRIEND TO FALL FROM SPACE? BECAUSE THEYRE "JUST" A FRIEND?

PATHETIC

WEAK

IF I WERE SONIC ID SIMPLY SAVE EVERYONE WITH THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP ALONE--oh wait he already does that

😤

#Personal #Sorry but by your logic Sonic should leave Tails in danger all the time #After all hes 'Just' his best friend/lil bro #He should also not bother to save the world seeing as he isnt dating everyone in it or feeling romantic attraction towards them #This isnt just This fandom this annoys me in every fandom #When people point at a scene of a character saving anothers life or being worried when theyre in danger #And go 'SEE THEY MUST LOVE THEM ROMANTICALLY. ITS PROOF' #Would you not try and save your friends life? Arent you worried for them when things arent okay? #Is concern only reserved for them if you have a crush on them? #What a sad way to live #Sorry i saw someone praise fanart of Sonic saving Shadow at the end of SA2 #And blatantly ignored the canon where Sonic DID try to save Shadow anyway #Just to say 'Sonic tried to save Shadow in this fanart because hes so gay for him' and I went feral #Youre free to your queer headcanons and praise of queer fan works but the moment you do it by throwing #Friendships under the bus i will GET you #I know amatonormativity has rotted all our brains #But im begging yall to think for a minute before you say things like this #I hc Sonic as acearo. Imagine what itd sound like if i said smth like 'well maybe if Sonic actually valued Shadow as a friend he wouldve tr #tried to save him. He didnt try to save him because he ONLY had a crush on him' #Sounds bad innit? #Anyway im done rambling. Happy aro visibility day remember romance and friendship are equal and one is not better than the other

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #you know for all of yosuke's behaviour i think its very clear that he doesnt really see the girls in the IT as prospective dates or gfs #i think its just because this was such a “bro” moment that it was so funny #it also reminds me of that scene where chie complained about him calling her up to tell dirty jokes #it's funny to me because yosuke is simultaneously so conscious of gender roles and lines but also like... not at all #like hes only familiar with them in the abstract but also sometimes just... not at all? #in the magician manga his hometown friend group is mainly other typical teenage guys that also have that similar type of humour #they play pranks on each other they talk about girls and the smut they read - you know that bro type #and i think its the kind of friendship that yosuke is familiar with so he carries it over into this friend group as well #except of course it doesnt really go over as well because 1. the connections here are deeper and not superficial #2. this friend group is not made up of that type of bro dude #rise asks if this is something he really should be talking about in front of girls and i think it speaks to a lack of awareness on his part #the swimsuit incident aside i think yosuke for the most part just seems to forget that half his friends are girls #i think him signing them up for the pageant is precisely the kind of stupid prank that bro dudes play with each other #and of course it was extra funny when chie does exactly that to him #hes so stupid (i love him) #he's good with his queue

[southerngothicaf]

Ohh no.

#ignore #clownery ahead #i may be fucked. this concert and this whole trip has like solidified my feelings for my best friend. #like before they were like there and i knew and it was def growing bc of living together and stuff #but i was getting on top of it and being careful and smart about it. ive done it before and everything #but man this whole thing. the way we've interacted #its a level of comfortability we havent really done before. #idfk why maybe bc of like natural progression of friendship idk #i wrapped my arm around her shoulder more today than i probably have in my whole life #we were so touchy at the concert bc yknow we're having fun dancing and singing and stuff. sitting close to each other #but the way my insides go crazy at every touch. whether its her touching my arm with the back of her hand to get my attention and resting #it there for a moment. or the hug we had after the concert that was so fucking strong bc we were both emotional. #i go wild inside im like a fool. all butterflies and warmth and that shit #thats not good to feel about my best friend and roommate 😐 and i know and i gotta work on it and find some solution. #but bro if we keep being this touchy. like if this is just how our friendship is now. #it will be the best and worst thing to happen. because it feels amazing but it will never progress further and god do i want it to #and i gotta stop being jealous abt every dumb guy. its bc of insecurity and i know it. i instantly compare myself in the most painful way #every time she talks abt her crush it hurts so much and i gotta stop myself from thinking those thoughts or lamenting that she will never #talk that way about me or feel that way about me #fuck this is gonna be a rough one #but i am still choosing to not let that tarnish the amazing time i had seeing taylor swift. she was the first artist i ever wanted to see #in concert bc she was like the first artist i ever became a fan of as a lil 6 year old #and i finally got to see her and it was incredible and i wish it had never ended #(and it wouldnt have been as amazing as it was if she hadnt come with me)

[icewindandboringhorror]

my fellow advertising haters, which commercials do you currently yell ‘shut up shuT UP’ at every time they pop up before a youtube video or etc.?

#i hate facebook and their stupid 'meta' shit so much i can't not seethe #when I see it... go to hell why are you showing me this #also the weird gamer focused doordash ads that have been circulating #OH a few weeks ago I was getting.. idk what even to call them I dont even remember who the sponsor was (something like prager u but #i don't think it was them) but I was literally just getting... ads for transphobia?? not even like 'an ad about something #else but that is transphobic' but literally.. an advertisement to believe in the concept of hating trans people #which would often play strategically as an unskippable ad right before leftist political content or like things by trans creators #so I'm assuming it's directly targeted that way by whoever paid for the ad since I never got them on any other videos #youtube is sick so on and so forth #BUT those are kind of an obvious exmaple of something very hateable lol. here I just mean mostly like... #ads that are harmless but are just annoying because of the company behind them or because of the way they sell #like ANY ad that shows basically a bunch of clips of happy people or family gatherings or something like that and the tagline is basically #'HeY We The Company Are Part Of Your Family Associate Your Heartwarming Moments With Us' or whatever like #fucking explode into a million pieces.. loathing killing and maiming... #i also hated those whatever the hell they were like... man sasquatch bro dude ads or something where it was this agressive seeming dude #trying to be Ha Ha Funny but just coming off as obnoxious like 'hey bro dude why does your deoderant suck its because #youre a fucking dumb p*ssy haha you weak little bitch use this shit that will make you smell like a man hell yeah nutsack bro #punch im shooting a deer testosterone' or whatever like I don't even remember if it was for deoderant or what the actual premise was #it was just like.. some type of hygeine product being marketed Ironically And Sarcastically To Men but comes across as just like #cringy and annoying instead of genuinely tongue in cheek or whatever.. like what if we made toxic masculinity funny but also #we don't know how to write jokes really so it's kind of not funny and just a smug dude with a beard talking down at you for 2 minutes #but i also just hate corporations trying to be funny at all. I hate mint mobile ads and how theyre trying very hard to be casual #and relatable using that dude from movies that people like or whatever (can you tell i do not watch anything ghhj) #celebrity spokesperson marketing is also basically always bad without fail. I'm sure there are one or two situations where it #works in a way that doesnt seem obnoxious but I have never seen one. it could be my favorite actor/musician/etc. (i dont even have #any of those but pretend I do lol) and I would still see it and be like... wow cool advertising tactic you fucking idiot.. skip ad #'are we fwiends?? do we have a pawasocial rewationshiwp..? pwease buy from me?' i am killing you with wizard spells #ANYWAY ghbjhjk ... just... curiouse....

[todayisafridaynight]

just watched Taboo (Gohatto) that anon here was talkin bout and i get legal rights to talk about it on this blog because takeshi kitano (hirose) plays hijikata in the movie

#snap chats #LIKE THE ENTIRE TIME I JUST KEPT THINKING 'wait he looks really familiar' #lo and behold thats so funny #anyway What Did I Think Of The Movie #it was hilarious the shinsengumi are fucking SCRAMBLING because of this pretty boy #hijikata looking at everyone like 'kondo are you in love with him ??? SOJI are YOU in love with him?? INOUE??????' #everyone but himself smh he only got eyes for one man but we been knew #okita was peak with the Top Ten Homophobia moments i cant #bro said 'oh no i hate gay people but i love a good story' #AND THE WAY HE WAS LIKE 'hijikata you're gay for kondo tho arent you like you always get pissed when people talk to him' #ENOUGH the shinsengumi is full of homosexuals #yamazaki was prob my fave bro in this movie idk why. maybe its cause i also thought he was real handsome but dont look at me #oh but the Actual movie i should talk about right #i just felt bad for kano the whole time #like people keep lusting after him and he's just like 'please leave me be' #the whole time hiji suspects him and tashiro to be lovers but like #we don't get to see kano's feelings on the matter aside from him pulling a knife on tashiro after he tries to sleep with him #it feels like kano's feelings are pushed to the side the whole time actually #the only time we actually see him earnestly say he loves someone is about yamazaki #and of course yamazaki doesnt reciprocate- whole movie tbh is just the shinsengumi trying to get kano to Not Be Gay #but like he's not even doing anything it's the men around him that keep trying to make a move on bro #tho the film DOESS say takeda courted him for a bit ?? but the deets on that are vague- tho kano at least laughs about it so #im scratching my head about the ending of the movie too- i cant decide if okita kills kano or what #hijikata cutting down the cherry blossom tree makes me believe that's what happened but idk #ALSO i dont think they want him to be Not Gay because of strict homophobia but because.well it's causing a problem #not STRICTLY cause hes gay but its cause men are killing each other over him- Allegedly it aint confirmed if kano killed yuzawa or not #but SOMEONE tried to kill yamazaki so. #it was an ight movie tho i wasnt mad bout watchin it. if you're gonna watch it warnings for SA/dubious consent and casual homophobia

[mrfoox]

Talking with Fabian and whooooooooo boy that was an conversation and a half...

#miranda talking shit #Uuuh i was kinda rightfully anxious? I told him about how i am a little freak and i basically am down to date 90% of my friends #But i got told by Oliver that it could be i act that way bc i dont want to be abandoned/left so im willing to compromise however they want #Me to... So talked about that with him and yep. We finally got into the whole... 'what are we' business. Or well kinda not directly #He said he didn't want to bring it up but we basically are on the subject so... And how hes worried that i will think too much about him #'i worry the more time we spend together the more your life will revolve around me and you'll value me so much more than i do you' #'it doesnt seem fair to you so ive occasionally not talked with you because i worry about that. You're a great friend but I know how much #You think about people. And im worried if you think about me too much you'll develop feelings or I'll mean more to you than before' i... He #Isnt wrong? Thats kinda how i work. The more people prioritize me the more ill value them and cherish them? But also... Idk if he understod #That i dont actively think about kissing or dating my friends? Its just a thing i know that if anyone asked I'd be down for it. But i dont #Daydream about it or anything. But then again he said some cryptic fabian shit like 'i dont have anyone else to compare with so i assume #What we have is normal. I sometimes want to cross the line to see where i still stand with you after doing it' like bro... Im so sorry i am #I am so far from 'normal' and him having me as his biggest both friend and female/woman in his life is probably such a mess i am crying #Me: ok then cross the line and see how you feel. 'but thats the problem. You dont have a line you're so open and down with everything you #Dont really react badly' I know i... Probably am making things hard for him sometimes but this was an holy shit moment /: hes worried to #Spend too much time with me bc of how i can potentially feel? Meanwhile I'm basically 80%+ of all his social interactions 😭 at one hand i #Appreciate him thinking of me and worry i guess but... Yeah. I told him: listen Fabian. My life does not revolve around you and youre not #The only one i think about. You are safe.' his and mine relationship is my favorite but also i definitely worry bc i know how much what we #Have or talk about or act is his... Only reference for girls basically. I mean outside his mom. He's not had any other girl friends and no #Actual girlfriend. So his reference to whats... Okay and appropriate is basically dictated by me and im seeing that very clear now im kinda #Afraid. Like... Im not normal on any level. If he's basing his view on women on me hes going to have an awful time truly... Idk if i should #Be offended or flattered that he thinks he's the center of my world 😭 like hes not completely wrong. I talk with him multiple times per #Week. But i can also say hes not all i think about at all waking hours lol. I obviously love him and care so much about him but im not #In love with him. Not as far as i know anyway. I dont think of him how i do people i have crushes on for example so yeaah. It bothers me #More that he couldn't just say 'im not into you' bc thats fine. He added the whole element of 'im not sure' like buddy now im going to be #Anxious about that in the future. I guess he have no reference to crushes so he cant tell but like... How do you want me to act so you can #Tell? I want an solid answer putting in an maybe is cruel even to me. This is funny bc tbh i dont even know if i would be able to date him #Even if he said he wanted to. Bc i know his biggest wish is to be a dad and i have nog fully embraced that idea even /: 'i can feel how ego #Centered i am. Assuming im the center of your world like that' at least youre self aware sweetie. Sounded like he was at peace with all we #Said and im here like... Binch there's so much to think about i wish i could read your mind i need more information to understand all this