#i totally know what I'm doing

[sirianasims]

Chapter 28

All I Know So Far

“Good to see you, Katherine. Please, come in.”

“I’m glad you had time, Eric.”

“Of course. Gracie, say hi to Katherine.”

“Let’s sit in the dining room.”

I show her the way, knowing well how completely unnecessary it is. Not much has changed since we held Freya’s 12th birthday here a couple of months ago. There’s a knot in my stomach. Katherine had only said that we needed to talk. She promised that it wasn’t bad news, but I’m worried. She didn’t want to discuss it over the phone.

“Hi Grace! Oh, she’s gotten so big! Can I hold her?”

I study Katherine as she lavishes attention on my youngest daughter. Her smile, the usual faint glimmer of sadness in her eyes when she looks at Grace.

I clear my throat, eager to get to the point of her visit.

“I was home anyway – my partner Aarav is running the clinic alone for the week while Cecilia is helping her brother move to Henford. After their mother died… even though they were divorced, her father took it hard, so her brother is moving over there.”

“I’m sorry to hear. I spoke to Cecilia’s family briefly at your wedding, they all seemed so nice.”

“Yeah. Cecilia said she’d prefer not to have Grace there with all the chaos and grief, so we decided I should stay home.”

Katherine nods. Then she smiles at me and places her hand on the table. The ring is enormous.

“Eric… Conrad proposed. We’re getting married.”

I put my hand on hers.

“That’s great, Katherine! Congratulations, I’m happy for you both.”

I try to sound cheerful, but she and Conrad have lived together for years. She didn’t come just to tell me that, and I’m still anxious.

“Thanks… but that’s why I needed to talk to you. About Freya.”

Grace picks up on the sudden shift in mood. Katherine’s smile fades a little as she reluctantly lets my squirming daughter down.

“Katherine, is everything OK?”

“Yes, nothing’s wrong – Conrad has been offered a lead role in a television series. It’s a huge opportunity, especially this late in his career… and he wants me to move with him. To Del Sol Valley.”

I feel my breath catch in my chest.

“Oh. What about Freya?”

“Well, I don’t want to take her away from her school and everything she knows, or from you and her sister. So I was wondering… maybe she could live with you for a while?”

The relief washes over me.

“Really? I mean, of course! I would love for her to live here, are you kidding me? But – will you be OK without her?”

Katherine sighs.

“I will miss her like crazy. And I’ll travel back to visit when I can, and she can visit us, of course… but I’m turning 50 soon. And Freya is almost a teenager, and as you well know, she’s a handful. I can’t keep up with her.”

“I… dammit, Eric, I would like to just be in love and enjoy life and lounge by the pool while my sexy husband serves me margaritas before I get too old. Is that too much to ask?”

I can’t help but laugh.

“I’m a horrible mother.”

“No, Katherine. You’re a great mother.”

I pull her up.

“Listen, not only did you give me our daughter, you raised her almost by yourself for years while I was completely useless. It’s only fair that I take over for a while so you can be the irresponsible one for once. And nothing would make me happier than having Freya here full time. I’ll talk to Cecilia first, of course, but I’m sure she’ll agree.”

“Thank you, Eric.”

“No, thank you.”

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#duchellilegacy #duchellichapters #duchelligen3 #eric duchelli #katherine gilscarbo #grace duchelli #we will pretend that the juxtaposition of these two between pictures of loving couples was intentional ok #i totally know what i'm doing

[madameinsomnia]

The Planets of the Mandalorians

(made for my favorite dork @bxvace)

#the mandalorian #star wars #mine #edits #krownest #space #sci fi #concordia #concord dawn #mandalore #I totally know what I'm doing #SPAAAAAAACE

[zsugamialba]

You can either allow me to carry out my last-ditch, hare-brained scheme to save all our lives, or we can sit tight and wait to be blown up. Your choice.

#classic doctor who #funny #third doctor #the master #claws of the axos #the only reason they're in this situation is because the master got himself kidnapped #and yet #such sass #trust me #i totally know what I'm doing #...i think #all i need is a police box and 37 rolls of duct tape

[gone-by-morning]

Mark a Tree so You Know Where You've Been

Aisling uses her pocket knife to carve her initial into a tree so she can know where she's been. Her head hurts, but aside from that, she doesn't seem to be injured anywhere. Having checked to make sure she's at least relatively okay, she skins the woods around her for any hints to where she is, and how she got here. prev - next

(still frames under the cut cause the gif crunched the quality)

#gone by morning #my art #comic update #please ignore the lighting inconsistancies #i totally know what I'm doing #sorry it's been so long since the last update

[knightsofrayx]

Sneak Peak: Organized Lightning

Here's a sneak peak of what the next installment of the Pacific Rim AU is going to focus on.

#warrior nun #warrior nun fanart #save warrior nun #my art #my fic #sister lilith #sister camila #warrior nun pacific rim au #lilith villaumbrosia #being my favorite character is an occupational hazard #sneak peak #camilith #I realize now that I didn't put any medical equipment in there #but this is a world where people share minds to drive giant robots #so the science is that there are little sticker nodes underneath the bandages that are doing the monitoring #sci-fi science #i totally know what i'm doing #my series #ao3: once more (unto the breach) #future fic: Organized Lightning #will edit that when actually posted

[tokyo-daaaamn-ji-gang]

Oh??

Daddy Jojo just dropped

૮(𓁹‿𓁹)ა heheheh

-no.1

You're grounded immediately, go and sit on the naughty step and think about your actions.

#parenting done right #i totally know what I'm doing #jojosquad

[sunflowerandstrawberryspice332]

Lol of course my first post is about Cyra (My oc)

#artists on tumblr #art #scifi #oc tag #my art #I totally know what I'm doing

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[sergle]

When ppl will create a "curvy" girl character and get pretty much the whole body's proportions right, obviously they're putting emphasis on bust/hips but it seems like it's being executed well--- except that they completely, fully, and deliberately, skip the stomach entirely. Just nothin there. Not even a whisper. I'm like. Just sack up, make it make sense and be honest with yourself by making it official and say it's canon that they got a tummy tuck. You cowardly ass, yellow bellied, wet brained, upside-down dog mouthed dirty bitch.

#it'll look so uncanny bc it'll be like oh this more or less looks like it could be a body type I've seen on a real pers--- oh wait #you TOTALLY flattened the stomach for like no goddamn reason and you still want points for making her curvy. pass. #if ppl clown on this post I will not hesitate to turn off rbs and call a bomb threat to your house #sergle.txt #do you know what I mean though. like actually #you want EVERY aspect of a body type that does in fact. exist. very commonly actually. in the proportions you want #you want it all but you are so allergic to ANY substance on the stomach. so what now. #anything but the stomach. literally impossible to draw apparently #I'll be like ah maybe it's obscured with the clothing or pose but I see other art and I'm like oh no nvm it's on purpy. #''why does it have to be a plausible body type'' why put in any effort at all. why draw. why depict women ever. why wake up in the morning #nut up or shut up.

[starryluminary]

♪ In My Head ♪

Anna Nalick

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◃◃ II ▹▹

Here on out I'll try to provide a bit of context so we can follow along a bit better: Noah and Cody aren't really a "thing" yet. They kissed once in the Yukon by accident (as they tend to do) and neither has stopped thinking about it since. No one seems to notice, but Alejandro Cannot Be Fooled

#that took…… a while! #but im glad I took my time cause the Owen panel is really really funny to me and I almost didn’t draw it #this is so much fun! are you guys having fun? #the little story the associated music it's all so fun to me #I don't really have anymore to say I'm just glad I get to make stuff like this #next kiss is fun. do you know what the next kiss is. it's the best one. #Starry makes art #total drama #world tour but noco are the only ones kissing #total drama world tour #tdwt #total drama noah #td noah #total drama cody #td cody #cody anderson #noco #total drama noco #td noco #total drama owen #td owen #technically

[revenantghost]

Oh my god oh my god oh my god

There's a Vash and Wolfwood dog papercraft

#Trigun #I know that op shows a lot of tools at the beginning of the tutorial #But this is a SUPER basic papercraft if you want to give it a go! #I highly recommend cardstock if you can #But you can get away with it if it's all you got #I don't think regular paper will stand up as well #Matte photo paper would probably be the best but that shit's expensive #I'm going to work on a couple modifications for my version #Either double-sided printing or two layers... #I think the former #Anyway #The moment this awful migraine is gone #I KNOW WHAT I'M DOING #(As it may be apparent I'm a papercraft addict and I'm totally willing to give anyone advice if they need it!) #(I'm still working on the Trigun foxes btw just working Vash and Wolfwood yin yang kitties first) #I LOVE that this is glue-free tbh #I'm so fucking messy at gluing

[changanomaly]

that intern who shows up in the background of tdi2023 sometimes

#i made this weeks ago?? i think #i never posted it here because it's not up to par with most of the stuff i've drawn #but you know what idc! i love them look at them #i had a different name headcanon i'm sure of it but rn their name to me is sasha #total drama #total drama island #total drama 2023 #um. the intern doesn't have a name so #total drama intern #total drama. sasha??? what should we collectively call them i can't do this

[egophiliac]

some quick episode 6 doodles while I process...you know. everything.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #twisted wonderland episode 6 spoilers #twisted wonderland book 6 spoilers #y'all scared me with that 'what malleus did' stuff #i was half expecting nrc to be covered in thorn bushes when they got back #nope he just did a nice thing #i mean he's on the verge of doing something real bad but anyway #SO YEAH #i'm fine i'm fine i'm totally fine #look at this darling little robot boy! #his kicky new outfit! his shiny new card! #i have a feeling i'm going to enjoy ortho a lot in episode 7 and i'm looking forward to it #anyway i know that by the nature of the medium they can't make huge permanent visual changes or anything #(which is why college ortho was such a nice surprise) #but can you imagine if they just...left vil like that #everything else is the same but this is vil now #hold on i need to learn how to make extremely specific game mods

[b4kuch1n]

post-drive sketch commissions fulfilled so far! for Cookie Nomie, A. Peake, @azaelyas, viviiyon on twitter, bxby_ashhh on twitter, tsunesama, @trucbiduleschouettes, and Anna.

#commission art #e-sims for gaza #hello! its been a hot minute #I have been. cooking a Lot. such is the nature of lunar new year #but I have. also been racing to finish up some craft stuff due to sudden request from benefactor (mother) #and I was out of hanoi for uhhh two days in total. couldnt open my laptop during those #and also I've finally caught up on sherlock&co.... I. can see something approach in the near future. u must simply excuse me #hope everyones doing well hope theres been good eatin. hope weve been keepin up with helpin out where we can #news are turning in directions that make me hopeful. that have a familiar look I know from our own history #I will keep chippin away at the rest of the queue during the holiday. we gotta do what we can. I'm glad I can help at all #one more day til the year of the dragon. I'll show u guys the stuff I made for lunar new year tomorrow. for now I sleep #have a good night guys! every dragon was once a carp etc

[fluffypotatey]

I find it deeply aesthetically pleasing, character-wise, that Arthur and Merlin are both very much like their mothers, which is especially meaningful in Arthur's case since he's never known his mother beyond a single painfully brief meeting in "Sins of the Father."

Not only does Arthur look like Ygraine (which adds several layers to the clusterfuck of his and Uther's relationship) but it's clear that he takes after her temperament, too. Yes, he sometimes shows his father's temper, and yes, he does stupid things when he's in a temper, but unlike Uther, who literally took his prejudices to his grave and beyond, Arthur never stays mad at people, and he's overall a far more caring and kind person than his father, which is an interesting case of nature vs nurture.

And then on the other hand, we have Hunith, who told a mounted, armed brigand to go fuck himself, later fought another (also armed) brigand with a twig broom, harboured fugitives on multiple occasions, and raised an illegal magic child out of wedlock, and Merlin "Fuck the Police" Ambrosius, who got in a fistfight, got thrown in jail for the fistfight, called the prince a bitch to his face in a public market square, got in a second, armed fight all within his first 48 hours in Camelot, and then committed treason on a daily basis for the next 10+ years, compared to Balinor, who became a weird antisocial hermit that lived in a cave for twenty years.

couldn't have said it better myself bestie

also, there's a reason hunith and ygraine never met in the show. their dynamic duo would outshine everyone, they'd be unstoppable, untouchable, I FEEL ROBBED

#ahem anyway #yes they do take after their mothers and yes this does provide insight in how merlin and arthur complement one another #and like i just have such a soft heart at the thought of arthur wanting to know about his mother and asking the staff what he can #maybe he asks the older knights who treat him like a nephew they never had and one of the most common thing they'll say is #“ygraine was kind and cared for her people” #“ygraine was not one to abandon the needy when times got tough” #“ygraine saw her role as monarch as one of service and not greed for power” #and mini arthur internalized that shit i accept NO criticism #merlin was a total mama's boy as we all saw and she had him drinking that anarchy juice since he was small #hunith was merlin's first hero and fuck i'm crying #bye i'm too soft for this #bbc merlin #headcanons #arthur pendragon #merlin emrys #hunith #ygraine #hunith & ygraine would have totally wreaked some shit if they ever met i assure you it is a CRIME (to me) THAT SUCH A DUO NEVER *gunshots*

[delicatepointofview]

#he’s just like me

#after any social activity in general really dsnkfd #niall horan #niallhoranedit #nhedit #totally stole this tags from someone i saw using it so thank you dsjjfdsjkg i never know what to add for his gifs #gif* #posting where there's literally not a soul online #on a weekend #with a holiday in #because i'm stupid and took a nap when i shouldn't have #now i'm bored and must do smth #so there you go #these*