#i wanna fall into a void

[doshi-sukiru]

At this point I've lost all hope for myself

anyways Angel lucifer!

because i can't fuckin think to save myself anymore-

#lucifer #lucifer morningstar #hazbin hotel lucifer #hazbin lucifer #angel lucifer #michael hazbin hotel #can i just- #disappear #like #i wanna fall into a void #and just stay there #until i feel ready to come back out #because honestly i'm exhausted #i want a break #fuck uni #i want to relax my brain #and give myself time #before i lock my head in into doing this shit all over again

[deer-with-a-stick]

The more time I spend explaining Tolkien lore to my brother the more I realize that Tolkien was just batshit insane

#yes the world is flat and a globe at the same time #and yes if you go off the edge you fall into the void with Satan 1.0 (assuming the Straight Road doesn't just railroad you) #he calls Valinor “The place under some trees where everyone smokes weed” and honestly I wish they would do that instead #bilbo and frodo bring weed to valinor quick #i tried to explain the miriel-finwe situation and he's so confused #“so they died and they were all sad even though they didn't have to stay dead?? but she couldn't come back because he remarried??” #“but then he dies and says 'yo ill stay dead instead' and she's find now??” #does the big God just keep making elf and human souls or do they just. appear #i told him about Gil-Galad Son of Plothole #he is quickly realizing that yes #the valar are a bit incompetent #its fine #elrond's dad is a star his mom is a bird and his great great grandma is an angel #my sister gave up two seconds in despite sparking this by asking me about elf lore #apparently she actually just wants to know about legolas but not legolas' father because of the hobbit movies #let me rant about feanorian politics it'll be interesting i promise #shut up about your elf backflips you wanna hear about nirnaeth arnoediad and the kinslayings #tolkien #lotr #lord of the rings #silmarillion #the silm #is this a shitpost? idk #he's batshit insane but the world is great i love it #we still don't know where hobbits come from #they appeared one day #like potatoes #i had one tidbit of legolas lore and that was #the guy showed up several years late in a homemade boat with a dwarf #incomprehensible screaming

[nellandvoid]

help the fixation is too strong i can’t stop!!

anyhoo trying to draw more stuff in my style since it’s been a while since i’ve drawn in it and of course i had to draw my silly little guy first as a warm up

hair still escapes me, and i haven’t done much expression practice, so it’ll be fun to try it out!!

#nell's void #gravity falls #illustration #stan pines #young stan pines #grunkle stan #artists on tumblr #my style is great for portraits #but i wanna try more like. expressive and stylized (?) stuff #but first i gotta get back to basics!!

[tytangfei]

thinking about them (the ill-omen mortal girl who never received a single kindness other than from her twin sister & the heavenly crown prince propped to be a weapon to save the world rather than allowed to be a person with feelings)

thinking about them (she who since childhood fought against those who tried to kill her and hurt her and refuse to bow down to her fate & he who knew he was destined to die since his youth and carried that burden to the very end)

thinking about them (the impurity twin flower who saves the world & the empyrean who saves the world)

#the more i think about them the more i wanna scream into a void #chewing glass as i write this #the starry love #shaodian youqin #liguang yetan #love when the stars fall #jina watches cdramas

[sucrose-soymilk]

hadn’t really regressed in a While and i didn’t realize how much i missed/dareisay needed it until i had the free time and ability to do so over the last few days and i have to say. i’m feeling a bit better

#imagine that! the coping mechanism… helps!!! wow #Seven’s Small Thoughts #not tagging this as anything else bc this blog is really just a not-so-secret public diary #and im not really trying to gain any sort of following or participate in the community very much #i just wanna talk to the void abt regression every once in a blue moon y’know #i also feel like i don’t really belong in the community much/am not a Good Example of sfw agere since i’m very n/ s/ f/ w everywhere else #which is a double standard that i don’t hold others to but i feel like others will hold it against me??? and i’m just shy anyways #and not looking to interact. just wanna keep all this stuff tucked away in a side-blog #i also feel like a lot of the community likes to blog while actively regressed and i don’t wanna step in there as someone who isn’t #nothing wrong with it! at all! i just don’t have the capacity to since i go nonverbal when i regress. no thoughts head blissfully empty #anyways this wasn’t supposed to be a vent post let’s change the topic! #anywhooo what else did i come on here to say. oh yeah #i lowkey forgot how much regressing has helped me in the past until i was able to really indulge myself in it again recently #it’s so nice to just be small and hand someone else the reins and forget abt everything other than doing something you enjoy #maybe one day i’ll be at a point in my life where i can fully regress more freely and more often but for now i’ll take what i can get #i’m also excited because i’ve been thinking abt ordering a paci from this one specific seller #and yesterday saw that they’re dropping a new batch of fall/halloween themed ones today!!! #so now i’ve gotta make myself stay awake until 6pm so i can jump on it when they’re available #which is a small struggle considering my nocturnal sleep schedule but i will do it nonetheless #that crescent moon patterned one Will Be Mine #trying to decide between buttercup yellow and schoolbus yellow for the clip #i think i’m more drawn to the vibrancy of the schoolbus yellow honestly #eeeeeee i’m excited i’ve been wanting to treat myself to ordering from this shop for a g e s and im finally gonna do it

[pain-is-my-game]

I think that the only reason why I'm such a romantic is because I've reasoned that if I can't get the familial love that at the various least I can fill that void with romance.

#i will never care if you reblog #vent #tw vent #cw vent #hopeless romantic #sad thoughts #depression #touch starved #childhood emotional neglect #emotional neglect #eldest daughter syndrome #lack of love #love starved #i wanna be loved #i want to fall in love #thoughts to throw into the void

[plutotheforgotten]

Having my life somewhat together is so fucking boring

#I wanna listen to songs about life falling apart at the seams and scream along at 4 in the morning when I know damn well I work at 8 #screaming into the void

[foxgloveprincess]

the problem with having a hobby is sometimes it comes with surplus. i’m not talking about supplies. i’m talking about finished products. and at some point, you’ve given everyone you care about one and you just have the rest hanging around.

#i use falling apart books to make blackout poetry art #but i gave some as gifts #to my friends and immediate family #still have like 6 done in frames #what am i supposed to do with them #i have no idea #they’re sitting on a shelf #mocking me #cause i wanna make more #but what do i DO with them? #talking to the void

[guitar-anon]

i'll draw the rest of the requested sonas with allison tomorrow (or at least some :D)

#original post screaming into the void #i got caught up on some school papers that i needed to get done! so i feel a lot better about taking time to draw now :D #i have really really cute ideas for interactions with the other sonas #that child is just experiencing everything possible in whatever plane of existence theyre on and i love it #sentient mask? immediately puts it on face #eight and a half foot tall goatlike creature? figure out how to sign to him that you wanna experience being tall #fuck up your arm and end up with a robot one connected to your brain? cool shit new party trick make it fall off randomly #i wanna draw the other pictures so bad augh

[warmspice]

babygirl my conflict avoidance does not allow me to make flirty eye contact on public transportation

#(fboi emoji ;;;)) #Void talks #Who doesn't wanna fall in love w a stranger for an hour??? #But also life is difficult and scary all the time #Currently realizing threads in my life that I suppose maybe I know what to do with and also maybe not because #They require a bit of vulnerability I'm not sure I can spare right now.. #Hmmm

[sunnnfish]

Hey guys watch this. *shifts into sasamiya mode* so . Sasaki and miyano. My best friends sasaki and miyano. Genuinely on the verge of tears thinking too much about them. They’re too wholesome. Is it okay to think that what i feel is the same kind of love you feel for me…… they invented romance actually. Like. God. The way they look at each other. The way its so. Like. Normal. About boys liking boys. Sasaki gets a crush on a boy and has a small crisis about it but gets over it bc he comes to love him so much…. He finds him cute at first yes but comes to love his enthusiasm and the way he smiles and the way he can get absorbed in things he cares about and how considerate he is towards his friends and the way he hates being feminine and the way he dislikes sweets and and and and. Love is such a fascinating feeling because there really is no purpose. It just. Is. It just happens. All kinds of love. For the same reasons we find things annoying or cute or laughable or any kind of feeling. And for some reason traits you find lovable in one person will be annoying in another. It’s all so weird. And so nebulous. It just is. But sasaki loves miyano. And miyano loves sasaki. For all the little things that make them who they are. And its so beautiful. I think i got derailed. I just. I love love. And sasaki to miyano is so full of love and joy. It makes me want to cry

#in the middle of writing this i started thinking about this post i saw #that was like rating manga they read recently #and sasaki to miyano got a 2/5 bc they thought Sasaki’s crush seemed shallow. in just volume 1 #and I got a little miffed about it i think. hence the rant about love #augh. I’ve gotta go to sleep… #this WAS going to be a short joke posting about shifting into sasamiya mode. but then i started writing more #as i do. #very emotional about them tonight #i should go to sleep #gnawing at the wood i want to fall in love. i want someone to fall in love with me #ahh but that all requires the mortifying ordeal of being known. #sniffling. anyone wanna admit they have a crush on me. #anyways #to the void #sunnfish.ssmy

[skyllion-uwu]

I need to figure out how to do game jams

#sky screams into the void #i wanna make games but also if i dont get it perfect the first time ill fall apart which keeps me from coding at all

[domesticated-pirate]

pyramid of needs but it just reads 'being held and enveloped.'

#I keep twitching awake just as I fall asleep as my brain jump scares itself by being half way to sleeping #I think this could be solved if someone held me tight enough against the twitching #moth mumbles #Whispers to the void #I just wanna sleep - I need energy to go to drs about always being exhausted... the irony is not lost on me

[probsnothawkeye]

Its 12:22AM

The people across the street were having a part today and are still playing music

It is loud enough that I can hear it over my white noise machine

I'm going to bite someone

#i get it its the weekend but also have some level of respect for your neighbors??? #you dont know who does shift work or who has trouble sleeping or who just doesnt wanna hear your music #especially not after midnight #i will fight someone #i just want to have quiet cozy time before falling asleep but i canf because they wont shut up #at least turn it down now that its past midnight #pine throws thoughts into the void of tumblr

[technologyvoid]

Anybody wanna knock me out

#I'm so tired. it's almost 3am #yes I've slept for 11hours #yes i only woke up at midnight #i've also pulled 2 allnighters in the past 3days #please someone come KO me i don't wanna be awake #void chatter #tw vent #ugh. everything feels weird #i could try to ko myself but that's potentially dangerous #I'll see if i can sleep normally first. I'll update the tags if not #...... update. falling asleep normally didn't work #m don't really wanna do the dangerous thing. but if it gets me to sleep ig that's what I'm doing

[sindumpster]

*wheeeze*

So anyways hi I’m still alive. Somehow :v

#granted all the wildfires and smoke in the air really wanna make it otherwise #but wow yeah I did not mean to just #fall into the static void and say nothing #i just got buried by college assignments #you wouldn’t know it but I’ve been productive as hell just not…kinky #and god do I miss being being a kinky fuck #…also been neglecting asks for weeks I am so sorry OTL #at some point I will return I promise :v