#i wasted my summer

[yumeyumeappleo]

something i doodled while at the dentist

#tmnt 2012 #2012 leo #tmnt 2012 leo #2k12 tmnt #2k12 leo #yyal art #transfem leo #i wasted my summer #i cant believe i took it for granted #and now its the weekend i am very tired #wish i could redo it

[idkaguyorsomething]

buffy season four will give you whiplash any time they cut from one romantic subplot to another. ¿anya and xander? autistic loser4loser in the best way possible. they’re cute as hell. ¿willow and tara? amazing, magnificent, spectacular, literally groundbreaking witches experimenting with magic and being gay 10/10 no notes. ¿buffy and riley? rancid. worst ship ever. what does a queen like her see in such a cardboard cutout of a man who doesn’t even like that she can fight better than him

#i cheered when buffy missed that helicopter and fucking riley finally left the show #what a terrible character #why did they bring him back later #she should’ve dumped his ass as soon as she found out he was in the secret military #buffy the vampire slayer #btvs #buffy summers #buffyverse #xander harris #anya btvs #willow rosenberg #tara maclay #anya jenkins #i’m not gonna tag riley i don’t even remember his last name and i’m not gonna waste my precious time on earth looking it up

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[sleepy-edits]

#natsu e no tunnel sayonara no deguchi #the tunnel to summer the exit of goodbyes #allanimanga #anisource #dailyanime #anzu hanashiro #this is the only scene in the whole movie that made me cry #bc it was about love and longing and waiting #and it just resonated #but yall i aint recommending this movie at all . myanimelist says its a 7.9 rating but OOOF i'm giving it tops 4.9 and im pushing. #i wasted my time watching this

[sunnibits]

hi this is a psa. if mealtimes are hard for you start sharing some food with your pet. it sounds silly but the caveman monkey brain is very easily fooled. you start passing little pieces of chicken or cucumber to your dog and your sappy human heart is like ‘omg…. connection…’🥺🥺 and instantly makes eating more enjoyable. your animal deserves food and so do you. you are having a little picnic together. some for you some for me. it’s so fun. do it.

#^^thing I have been enjoying lately #idk it may not help everyone but I like doing it #it feels very good #I especially like giving my animals the parts of food I don’t like #like I don’t like the bottoms of cucumbers so I give it to summer instead and she is VERY happy to eat it!!! #now the whole cucumber is being enjoyed and not wasted!! #it’s great #genuinely I think a big part of managing arfid for me is guilt reduction #if I don’t feel bad about wasting it rlly helps to relax and enjoy the meal #this part of the chicken has a bad texture and is grossing me out?? my cat can have a few bites!! he’ll love it! #tw ed mention #gem don’t look

[julykings]

july’s end

#every thought I have lately: you’re wasting your life you’re wasting the summer you’re rotting away instead of living #Girl I know . I’m trying my best <3 #mine #poem

[compacflt]

wip wednesday: going thru my corny arc

#OKAY im back #sorry! working overtime pre paris airshow #i think I’m going to focus on this 80k of wips right now—just get them posted by the end of the summer #but u can keep sending in prompts if u want #and maybe someday I’ll actually be brave/creative enough to finish an AU #1. the frankly inevitable sickfic #2. this shit is so fucking corny but i literally can’t resist it anymore i just want them to say it all the time #3. have been slowly realizing lately that I’ve been slacking on how much the uranium mission probably fucked mav up #4. he is afraid of getting old & dying all over again #top gun #top gun maverick #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #top gun fanfiction #there’s so much thematic meat to be unpacked with ice’s cancer & eventual death #and I am sacrificing that thematic meat for my own mental health. #so you’re getting my analysis of mav’s death instead because i simply refuse to engage with an unhealthy ice #i know it’s wasted thematic potential & im sorry but i like 😭😭😭😭😭😭 cannot do it #we all have our little neuroses and ice’s death is mine #sorry I’m still in my ‘italicize dialogue to suggest surreality’ phase #i can literally track the very concrete ways my writing style has changed over the course of writing this series it RULES #progress!!!!!

[ferngle]

Lazy mornings <3

Redraw of the sleepy boys. the last 2 (6?) draws of them had them being upset. So now they get some cozy time.

#connor's hair kinda blends in with nathans shirt #oh well its fine #i love them #theyre so cozy <3 #i was listening to wasted summers by juju while making this #and i kept imaging georgie and connor singing it together #it was very cute #my two babygirls <3 #ccinochai art #oc #doodles #connor #nathan #ferngle art

[kokoasci]

im going to try to start my oneshot this summer would anyone read it 👉👈

it’s pretty much a victorian style steampunk isekai think like the hollow knight aesthetic meets genshin character designs

#i still have to finalize character designs but. i really want to start it 🥺 #i am PRAYING my summer turns out to not be too busy please please despite internships and stuff #also it’d probably be on webtoon or i might code my own website for it i can’t let the compsci major go to waste #random #koko’s ocs

[an-assortment-of-forks]

there are doctors there are hospitals there are specialists there is medicine there are systems in place so people do not have to suffer and be tortured under their own chronic pain daily and yet. they're all fucking inaccessible to the people who need it most!!! to what I would argue is most disabled people!! I'm so fucking done with the medical system.

#today is an absolutely wretched pain day that makes me want to not be here anymore but guess what! #wasted a whole year trying to convince my doctors I was in significant and disableing pain daily and the best they could do #is tell me to go to PT and to wait 6 months and tell them if it gets better #to prescribe some shit like gabapentin or otc pain meds and write me off #tell me they'll get new X-rays to see if it got worse by the summer #disability exists!! specialists exist! good doctors fucking exist!! somewhere!!! I'm sure!! #but here I sit. in excruciating amounts of pain unable to convince any fucking doctors of anything #and that year I spent pushing myself to the limit is wasted bc at the very end of it all only one guy listened to me #and he said no one in their giant ass facility could diagnose me #so I'm back to square one bc I got a new job which means new insurance and new doctors to try and convince again #I just want to be on disability so i can want to be alive again #I'm so frustrated and in pain constantly #what are people like me who have to work 40hrs to afford to live but don't have any family to rely on supposed to do?? #just die? am i supposed to continue to work until im too disabled to move and be profitable unless i get lucky? #bc some fucking doctor finally decides to actually listen??? #ive tried ALL THE DAMN TRICKS TOO. telling them a friend has it and thats how i found out. that my previous doctor was looking into it #etc etc #I'm SO done living like this i am exhausted. #and to know that i COULD BE HELPED. RIGHT NOW. is the worst fucking part #these systems are in place so people like me dont have to fucking suffer. #but i cant even do anything about it bc i have a cat.

[birdantlers]

can people stop fuckin bricking amazon for the tiktok water bottle I'm not a consumerist trendygirl I just live in texas.

#i only want the damn thing bc it's giant and leakproof #and doesn't just have a big hole that sloshes it all over your face when you try to quickly inhale water between customers in the summer #just take the stupid stanleys im fighting for my life here #skit yells #the weather is getting warmer and my seasonal depression is nigh #when the days get longer my mental state hits the fuckin dirt the sun was not meant to set past 7pm #cruel cruel world #fun fact i didnt even know it was a tiktok thing hdjchdjd #i had never even heard of it and i was like ooo new secret goated water bottle? 👁️ bc i saw some tweet comment about it #and then everyone on the planet was trying to buy one ffs #yes i realize this is silly I'm just sitting in the target parking lot mad bc i wasted the gas bdnfhdkjd

[cuppertys]

I can't participate in the "I wasted like half of my summer" trend on tiktok becuase even though I wasted it listening to taylor swift on loop, playing animal crossing and DOOM 2016 religiously, rewatching good omens and doctor who at any given chance and watching the same 2 movies, I actually enjoyed it 😭

#i wasted like half of my summer #tiktok #taylor swift #animal crossing #doom 2016 #Doom #goodomens #drwho #doctor who #Good Omens #innefablehusbands #miss americana #defitley didnt waste like half of my summer doing this

[angrylesbianstereotype]

I’m so frustrated rn I want to bite someone so bad I hated college okay but I spent four years in a town I hated where I had one friend putting my personal life on hold working towards a degree in a major that I hated bc I was pressured and tbh I pressured myself to stick it out then I spent a year, a full year, living w my parents while our family was falling apart trying to get an entry level job and being told essentially (and once, literally) that I was a silly little girl trying to get a job that actually pays me right out of college even though I had already done several internships while in college but apparently four years of experience are required for getting a job that is supposed to give you four years of experience and the four years I spent learning the trade don’t fucking count so now I have a degree in PR with no experience and I have experience in animal care with no education so I can’t move up in either department and the only thing I’ll ever be qualified for is doggy daycare which is fun and all but pays me jackSHIT and I’m going to be scraping by and groveling to my parents for money forever and ever and everyone in my snooty middle class family is like weren’t you going to be a journalist? whenever they see me like having a minimum wage job is as good as having no job at all to them and they act like I didn’t try! I tried so fucking hard and I wasted so much of my life trying when I shouldn’t have been fucking bothered

#i want to work at the zoo there’s a really good zoo near me and the positions listed pay good #but i am in no way qualified so i’m trying to take some extra college courses and maybe apply as a nature camp counselor this summer #but i’m so afraid that it will just be more of me trying and wasting my time only to be rejected #i just want financial security and to maybe get a cat god i hate this fucking country and i hate this fuckass week #sorry for the bpd jumpscare post everyone i just needed to vent