#i will take her tags out of context

[ljsarts]

"If I was so dead, where was my funeral?! Where’s my headstone?"

I'm haunted by both these quotes and the idea of what would have happened had Timothy Goose found Ylfa after she'd well ...

Quote is by Kristin Chang

now available as a print

#ylfa snorgelsson #neverafter #d20 fanart #d20 neverafter #dimension 20 #d20 spoilers #ahhhhhh glad people are liking this!! everyone leaving lovely tags thankyouuu #and everyone tagging her as jsut a baby i agree i wanna just hug her and tell her everything will be okay #also shoutout to the goodhood girlhood quote for messing me uo when i first heard it #its now available as a print because this artist is gettin very little work right now #also if you like neverafter i made some ocs! who are equally just baby #also i didnt originally know the full poem only this quote so dont take the full poem as context for this piece its on a very difficult top #topic so check triggers first thankyou to the person who pointed this out in their tags

[gncrezan]

some old @chrysanthemumgames hermes-seph sketches!!! some of it is established-relationship daydreaming but also a peek at my dark and twisted mind (sprawling intricate spidey au)

#colored that top left one for my sidebar. lol. #a/tsv release made me so sick about spider-man you had to be there. im still on my bullshit but its a little more maintained #mostly bc a/tsv actually came out and i was attacked by every terrible take ever. some of u should not consume media #i know its rich coming from the IF player who enjoys romance but not everything is about romance or self insertion or ocs #miguel tag was UNUSABLE. IM TRYING TO BLOG ABOUT HIS HYPOCRISY AND SEE FANART. NOT SEE FANFICTION!!!!!! #also coming out as the biggest raimispidey2 mj speech enjoyer. im sorry. raimi trilogy is a bit messy to me BUT #if u take the mj speech at the end of 2 then it is. SO SO SO CUTE TO ME. (ignore the context its in pls) #also how her first comic appearance was IN HIS DOORWAY TOO!!!! #of course it was quite easy to project that onto sephmes from my brain so. here we are #talking mostly about raimipetermj rn. but hermes is simply not a Nerd like maguire's pete. so some insp from 616 #but comics p/etermj is its own can of worms. i am taking bits and pieces of spideymedia i like and making my own sandcastle ok #sorry for spidey meta in the foa post i will shut up nyeow #fields of asphodel #foa #hermes #seph #and also i think hermes would make a crazy mj (the association with red and how intensely similar they are with how they present themselves #but the fact is . i really really love drop dead gorgeous seph who is wanted by everyone. its true. im one of them #<- i say this like the s in seph doesn't stand for s/pider-man. i have plenty of spideyseph doodles in the archive

[waveridden]

i fundamentally think that it’s funnier when taylor swift haters are informed about the things she’s doing. like there’s making fun of a popular artist which is a time honored tradition, and plenty of legitimate critiques of her as a public figure and the private jet and all that. but then you get people making up fake lyrics when the real ones are much funnier. i know in my heart of hearts that if the right person got a hold of the song evermore which has the lyric “motion capture put me in a bad light” which is undoubtedly a reference to her role in cats 2019 the internet would never be the same

#waveridden.txt #swiftie tag #like we all know i am a swiftie. but girl cmon #generally i believe that taking her lyrics out of context is kind of a disservice to her as a musician i think she is good at whole songs #where it’s not about the melody or the words it’s about the finished product #but every now and again she says shit like ‘don’t put me in the basement when i want the penthouse of your heart’ #and it’s like no sorry actually you can’t save that one

[stealingpotatoes]

Honestly Mace would have loved Luke and Leia with his whole heart.

yes!!! honestly he's like a grandparent (in the dynamic way, not age way) bc he was harsh on anakin but you KNOW he's much more caring for the twins, like how a grandparent is strict on their kid but gives their grandkid literally whatever. and anakin's like where was this for me

#i've never drawn anything for it but i think about AUs where anakin's caught or killed n rots is stopped a lot #and then the jedi take the twins and are Too Careful and the twins just Know theres smthn off abt them but dont know what it is #and all the difficulty padme faces bc the jedi fucked anakin up!! she doesnt want them having her kids!!!! the last she has left of Him!! #but whats she supposed to do about her illegal-kids-of-an-evil-jedi against an ancient order backed by the senate and law #and you have obi wan torn between wanting whats best for the galaxy (the twins are carefully trained) #vs wanting whats best for his friend and tbh his brotherwhatever's memory (padme keeps the twins) #very aggressive jedi vs human conflict for him #theres just SO MUCH in those kinda AUs #bit hard to draw to explain tho. like u gotta draw so much for context so ive never rlly tried #but i think abt mace and his relationship w the twins there sm bc you KNOW he wants to treat them coldly and w constant suspicion #but he Just Can't #cause ya know. their dad. went evil. and theyre also INSANELY POWERFUL force users #thanks for the ask! #wow ok went off in the tags abt an au nobody asked for <3 #gotta get it out my head somehow ig

[fluffypotatey]

If wukong told (lied) to macaque that he never cared about him, do you think that would make macaque even more aggresive or like shut down/be the final straw that finally makes macaque let go of wukong

so, just like my answer for whether macky would willingly erase swk from his life, I think this answer also depends on when in the show swk told macky this, and what better way to explain this than by going through each outcome per season :)

UNO

looking at s1, we meet a Macaroni who is very hellbent on killing (or at the very least, heavily damaging) SWK because he feels like the guy never truly gave a shit about him (<- my interpretation). thus, it is safe to assume that if Wukong were to laugh off Marnolo's hurt and anger and tell the guy that he never cared, Mac&cheese will only feel that his current assumptions of SWK are correct and that the guy only cares about himself and his image.

would he feel hurt about it? oh absolutely. maybe punch a wall, destroy the "dojo" he allegedly lives in in an outburst of power and anger. maybe scream and cry but be mad at his own tears (begin to wipe them away but is too hash so he scars himself and then can't stop bc he's very self-destructive)

DOS

technically, Wukong is MIA so this would never happen. BUT! have you considered!!! Wukong telling MK that Macdonalds was just some guy from his past, nobody super important, basically a nobody he wronged in his long list of enemies. which MK might possibly parrot back to Macadoo in 2x07

heavens above Marconi would be pissed.

forget trying to be a dick to MK and "teaching" him that his path of emulating Wukong has already made him forget his friends (untrue, but this is what i assume was Macky's interpretation of MK's actions since the guy didn't actively search for his missing friends, who MK thought left him on purpose).

nah, Macky is hunting SWK down. he is out for blood because "did i serious mean so little to you? were our nights under that tree sharing secrets, dreams, peaches fucking nothing to you?" (and idk....maybe after the air clears out, possibly, macky would realize SWK's true reason for being MIA and....help out???? mayhaps???....yeah, yeah, i know only in my dreams T^T)

TRES

ok, so we could technically say this sort of happened in ep1 when Sun Wukong said, "i thought it was someone important," and, "so what, you're her puppet now? i mean, makes sense. you always did have a sidekick kind of vibe."

and that is basically Wukong implying that he viewed his relationship with Macaque as one where he didn't consider Macky to be important to him, or someone he saw as a close friend. however, this is also a tactic Wukong uses against nearly every villain he interacts with, simply to get a rise out of them. so, pin that down as Wukong being observant enough to know which words to use to hurt.

AND Macky's reaction to it is him jumping out of his cool-ass looking jet and body-slamming the monkey king to the floor. so, uh, it is safe to assume that Macky was pissed off at Wukong's comment.

THUS! with that in mind, we can say that in this context, Macackle will be upset enough to fight him; however, if we were to consider the end of s3 (like Samadhi Fire ritual to the end) i would go with the option of Mackarell shutting down and feeling like that comment is the nail in the coffin for their relationship.

CUATRO

in s4? absolutely not. he would be dragging Wukong by the ear, demanding that he repeat what he said, ordering Wukong to try and convince himself that their past meant nothing while Macky still lives and breathes. and especially after the s4 special.

you could argue that Macky could shut down in the beginning of s4, but i think he'd probably laugh it off because he knows now that Wukong is lying. he's being his old deflective self and probably doesn't know where to place Macanoli in his head now that they're technically on better terms with LBD done with.

but after all the drama of going through SWK's memories? nuh uh, Wukong can't get out of this, nope. you handed iMac a chocolate peach popsicle. it is too late for you turn back and lie about your feelings. you can dig your grave and lie about it, but he's just gonna hit you right back with your own medicine and make you understand that if y'all truly want to reconcile, you cannot continue lying to yourself that you don't care.

not anymore.

so, anyway, i hope this answers your question, anon! i had a lot of fun running this question around in me braincage :3

#lmk #lmk six eared macaque #lmk sun wukong #shadowpeach #bc i cannot help myself but talk about them in the context of shadowpeach #literally could have said 'i think if swk told macky this now compared to previous episodes' he would know it was bullshit (since he & MK #went through swk's memories and got to SEE swk's side of their relationship) and would've called the idiot out on it bc nuh uh are they #going to go through the same motions as before and fuck up their communication like last time you take that fucking back you bitch' #but (of course) i wanted back up for this answer and this show occupies all the nooks and crannies of my mind :) #for the sake of this mini essay (she says typing out her tags before finishing this post) imma capitalize only the names #for the bit #also mispell macky's name #for the bit....as well #no i am not counting macky out for being self-destructive #he has BEEN self-destructive to himself and his health until the end of s3 #nobody can convince me otherwise #this man was on the path of destroying himself to either destroy wukong or free himself from lbd (whom i might add WAS SOMEONE #HE WILLINGLY CONSIDERED IT WA BETTER TO BATHE IN THE FIRES OF SAMADHI TO BE FREE FROM HER CONTRACT! YOU #KNOW....THE VERY SAME FLAMES THAT CAN BURN REALITIES??? THAT FIRE!!!) #*sighs* why must my answers about shadowpeach and almost everything lmk related be long T^T #not mad just confused on that fact that i have been in a writer's traffic jam for weeks but get asked this and SUDDENLY???? #all my energy comes back???? #rude af brain >:( #asks #anonymous

[meimi-haneoka]

as someone who used to blush a lot when she was a kid (and to be honest, when I get praised I still do), I wonder how I would fare if I was a kid in this era and people mistook my blushing for crushing on the person in front of me. Whomever they are.

#eeeeh don't mind me I ventured in the akiho tag and immediately regretted it #but never like how that person is going to regret it when they'll find out Sakura and Akiho are basically like sisters #I get it you're desperate for representation #but jfc media literacy is really dead #if all it takes is a blush after a compliment to insinuate someone is crushing on someone else and already betraying her boyfriend #context context contexttttttt #yeah yeah it's just one of those comments thrown out there for fun #but the problem is that people really do believe them and then lash out when they realize things are pretty different #leading to character hate #been there done that

[thesmokinpossum]

I can't believe y'all almost made me pay to go watch po*r th*ngs in theater without telling me that the whole thing revolves around a hardcore born sexy yesterday trope with a side dish of pseudo necrophilia where a woman with the brain of a litteral foetus who don't have periods or body hair (but do have boobs!) find joy and freedom by having a lot of sex with a bunch of men, shoving a apple up her vagina for some reason and joining a brothel (but it's a cool socialist brothel and all the girls looove being there, don't worry guys), all of that written and directed by two men, I'm never gonna trust you guys after this one lmao

#she also piss on the floor at some point and talks about fucking with the vocabulary of a toddler but i'm supposed to believe it's not sus #lmao ok sure #'there's more to the story than this!' idgaf! 'you're taking it out of context!' idgaf! 'it's actually a feminist story!' no it's not lmao #i cannot let go of the socialist brothel either like wooooow #men are so obsessed with the idea of natural born sex workers it's almost comical #also i cannot comment on the original book since i haven't read it #but apparently a big thing is that at the end it's revealed by the woman character that the male ones where bullshitting... #...about pretty much everything to look smarter and more important than they are #but in this 'feminist' movie they actually do frankenstein the woman and give her a second life fr fr #like aiiiight lmao #btw i truly don't care if you love the movie that's perfectly fine i love plenty of movies with very questionable content #plus i don't think anyone need my approbation to enjoy anything in this world #but boy does it personally gross me out #poor things spoilers #i hope this don't pop in the tag btw #if it does i'm sorry but people who wants to see it *will* complain about being spoil

[ask-artsy-oncie]

I was reminded of the time that tumblr tried to make "monster high but with tumblr sexymen", and one of the characters was (obviously) the daughter of the once-ler.

And the funny thing to me about that is that in the canon of the illumination lorax movie, the once-ler is heavily implied to have an estranged daughter. I don't know all the sexymen off the top of my head but I think he might've been one of the only ones referenced in that trend who actually had a daughter in his own canon.

#Stupid shit #I'm gonna provide context in the tags for those who want it but I also like the idea of just leaving it there #Okay so for anyone who wasn't in the fandom: when people say the movie gave us no one to ship the Once-ler with they were LYING #The movie gave the Once-ler no MALE characters to ship him with - thus Oncest started #However - the second most popular Once-ler ship was between him and Norma #(Who - if you haven't seen the movie in a while - is Ted's grandmother who tells him about the Once-ler and how to find and barter with him #This was mostly just a ship born from theory and logical deduction - why does Norma know so much personal info about the Once-ler? #Were they perhaps friends? Lovers? In the past? Where was she in his life and at what points? When did she leave? #And people started making theories and shipping the two - primarily as past lovers. But there was art of them reconnecting for sure. #HOWEVER - this also meant that there was a theory that Ted's mom was also related to the Once-ler #As in - hmm this daughter of a very short fat woman is oddly tall and thin... hmmm #And so the running theory wasn't just that the Once-ler and Norma were once lovers - but that the Once-ler was also Ted's grandfather #Who was entirely estranged from the family due to self-exile and possibly bad blood between him and Norma at some point during his downfall #(I actually do think that it's funny that the Once-ler's youngest design purposefully draws some comparison between him & the Truffula tree #Only for the character theorized to be his daughter to also evoke some Truffula tree imagery in her design) #ANYWAYS that was a theory for about as long as the movie was out - Normaler (the ship) was a thing for as long (if not longer) than Oncest #And was present enough that there were like actively flame wars between the two groups of shippers #Like literally I directly remember this it's so insane to me that no one ever brings this up when talking about the shipping in this fandom #BUT THEN!!!! The Lorax comes out on DVD. The fandom rejoices and everyone takes pictures of themselves buying or holding the DVD. #If you dig far enough and I haven't deleted it yet you might find mine. I was in full cosplay wig and all. #Anyways - we have the movie in HD now!! No more cam rip footage!!! #And now we can take high-quality screenshots that truly show off the detail of the backgrounds in this movie #(The fandom loved to gush about how detailed and well-designed the movie's backgrounds were - that wasn't just a throwaway transition) #Only - what's this????? #In one of the shots at the end of the movie - we very briefly get to see the inside of the Once-ler's lurkim - like the living room #AND THERE - IN THE BACKGROUND - ONLY VISIBLE IN HD #IS A PHOTOGRAPH OF A WOMAN WHO SUSPICIOUSLY HAS THE EXACT SAME SILHOUETTE AS NORMA #Normaler fans rejoice and 'Grandpa Once-ler' theory is accepted into canon (or - more accurately - 'implied canon') by most fans #So yes - for those keeping track - while the evidence wasn't as concrete as it could have been #The Once-ler is implied to have been the father of Ted's mom in the movie

[spicyicymeloncat]

Okay here’s another controversial “Green family take” tell me if I’m wrong.

“People who hate Harumi and Lloyd family dynamic ignore that Lloyd and Morro also shouldn’t have a family dynamic, when Morro did the exact same thing”

Because besties I agree I honestly think green cousins doesn’t make much sense either since yknow Morro and the whole possession thing, but at the same time if you look at canon, they just aren’t the same thing and yknow I need people to actually stop looking at Harumi as the girl version of Morro and the only reason we hate her is because she’s a girl.

Because she’s not.

Like yes I agree there’s definitely a lot of bias towards Morro, if he was woman he would be demonised to hell and back but since he’s man then he is adored, and vice versa with Harumi and sexism fucking sucks.

But Harumi and Morro are different guys. Harumi is portrayed as worse in canon in Lloyd’s eyes. Yeah Lloyd got possessed by Morro and that’s obviously bad tm but other than what people assume possession entails, Lloyd was never as shaken as he was with Harumi.

In s5, we never saw Lloyd be conflicted about the possession thing. He had no fear of Morro. We have no reason to believe that a ghost possession feels worse than being a sleep and maybe having a vague awareness of what’s going on. He barely mentions Morro after s5. And I will say I think this is a writing flaw, obviously it would’ve been cooler if Morro actually had some kind of impact on the ninja, but regardless this is the canon. Lloyd hates Morro but he’s not traumatised yknow. It’s not to the point that Harumi got to.

I feel like getting possessed should be worse than getting lied to, but Harumi did on top of it, start a cult in his name, Kill actual Characters (the royal family and Hutchins) and then kidnap Lloyd and his mother and his uncle and then resurrect his father removing vital parts of his father’s mind/personality/emotional cognitive abilities etc. on top of that she also nearly killed the ninja and wu (which Lloyd believed she did).

Somehow she was much more dangerous than Morro was, she was a much more successful villain.

Additionally I would say Morro has more of an excuse to be seen as family, even if I I’m less of a green cousins fan. Because Morro and Wu actually have a father son relationship, in which Wu was actually responsible over Morro. They had a normal albeit imperfect dynamic before Morro left. Regardless of Lloyd and Morro’s interactions, that dynamic was still present even in the very end.

It doesn’t mean and Lloyd and Morro have to be buddies, just because there’s a family connection doesn’t mean shit (this is the show of found family have we learned nothing? Blood connections don’t matter, only friendship).

But like in comparison to Harumi and Garmadon’s absolute parody of a relationship, where Harumi turns to the man who doesn’t remember what love is and asks him to be her father (at this point neither of them know what “father” even means), Morro does have a family dynamic and Harumi does not.

So in response to the original quote, Morro has a much more solid claim to any kind of family dynamic bc his relation to Wu is much more family esq, and also he was bad yeah, but the show portrays Harumi as worse especially in Lloyd’s opinion.

I just don’t like the argument that Morro and Harumi have done the same things, when the severity is definitely different imo and they aren’t just copies of each other. Imo it’s an oversimplification to reduce their characters down to each other.

#u heard it here first #spicy is not the biggest fan of green cousins or Garmadon siblings #sorry #if ppl make good content for it then I’ll let it slide but generally not a fan #i feel bad for saying it but I guess I really just don’t like Harumi as much #i feel like whenever people talk about Harumi it’s always ‘oh you hate her cuz ur sexist’ #no I hate her because I don’t like how she’s written or how her character is established #like Ik some people like her backstory but I just don’t #it just feels like the writers went ‘let’s blame the characters for no reason’ #and I’m just so sick of the evil love interest trope I hate it so much and that is what Harumi is on s8 #because it’s happened 3 times now #THREE #PIXAL SKYLOR HARUMI #It’s that mindset of women are evil they’ll seduce you with their crimes against human nature #okay that tag is gonna sound very appealing to the gays on here but like in the context of the show it’s just demonising women #like take out the romance aspect and fix Harumi’s backstory and maybe I’d like her more #i will say Morro is badly written also he does nothing interesting really other than his backstory #i like what he means about wu but like they do not even explore that dynamic much in the show #he’s like an unopened present #his set up is so good but they don’t do shit with it #idk idk #obviously all my opinions #ninjago

[bottleoflemons]

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #vent art #negative space #negative space art #this is meant to be whatever you think it is #but if youre interested in what it means to me feel free to keep reading the tags #the quote is from the destiny 2 legacy oath boots lore tab #where elisabeth’s grandma lusia is reassuring her that she is still worthy of respect #in whatever form her body takes #a while back i did a touch meme i never posted #so for this piece i used that palette #placed the colors in loosely the same spots #and separated out the quote into three different sentiments that when put together #take on the characteristics of the last phrase #the first one is meant to sound dehumanizing without the context of its counterparts #and for this one i used the touch palette meant for people i dont know or who dont respect my personhood #the second one is the middle ground. for friends and acquaintances im not necessarily close to but whose presence i welcome #and the third one #which is accompanied by a more closer and more intimate framing #is for close friends who are welcome in my personal space #infer whatever you like about the colors

[swordofazrael1992]

yknow it’s probably too much of me to expect batfam fans to read comics (/s) but it really really pisses me off when people just erase jean paul and azrael from her life…completely. and not because they’re my girl. because they are one of cass’ MOST IMPORTANT early relationships. they are THE FIRST to completely connect with and understand her. erasing them as a character in her life is getting rid of the first person to really see her. babs knew her first, but she didn’t understand her until batgirl 2000. bruce understood her, but didn’t know or connect with her until way later in bat comics.

#hesitant to post this because i’m worried some people might see this as me trying to center a male character in cass’ narrative and story #which i am NOT trying to do. i’m simply saying that taking jp/az out of her backstory gets rid of a lot of important context for how #she connected with and communicated with people #and how they communicated with and connected with her #at least in her early days #jp/az posting #i’m not going to maintag cass in this too many batfanon onlys are in those tags

[kaidabakugou]

coffee dates with your mom have you spilling all your dirty secrets without a second thought 😭

#kai.rambles #idk what this phenomena is but it’s apparently common lol #im gonna tmi in the tags like it’s a little face time call bc i’m waiting at the airport for my friend #but i had a little coffee date with my mom yesterday bc we both needed a little break since the family is STILL here and hasn’t left #and we just need this whole thanksgiving thing to be over bc we’re going insane with so many relatives in and out of our homes #so we went to a local coffee shop that just opened and it’s so cute btw and ITS PET FRIENDLY so i saw many doggies there #and can’t wait to take woody when this whole doggy virus going around calms down 😔 #but anyway she saw that i was like fidgeting in my chair and ask wtf was wrong and i told her that i had a pimple on my ass cheek lol #and she was like how did it even get there like you take such good care of your skin?? #and i was like idk it just appeared there 😅 #and she was like - 🤨🤨 after your bday? #and i said like yeahhhh? #at this point i already knew she was onto me lol and we both laughed and she asked what did my bf and i do for my bday #so i told her and now she won’t stop laughing at me #for context - here’s the tmi lol - but my bf used whipped cream on me for my bday and we cuddled for a bit #afterwards with the intention of going to shower but we ended up passing out all sticky 😭 #and i quickly took a full exfoliating shower in the morning when i realized but it was already too late and now i have a pimple on my ass 😭 #and it’s like more towards the inside of the cheek so it fkn hurts everytime i sit down #and i was so paranoid after that instead of putting one boric acid capsule into my pussy i put two just in case #bc i was so scared that i was gonna get and infection of something but it’s been 4 days now #and nothing’s happening so i think i’m good but yeah i told her and now she laughs everytime she sees me or remembers it 😭 #i don’t mind bc it’s her and i trust my mom and tell her everything but i never get into detail about my sex life #so the fact that THISSS is the one thing about it that i tell her it’s hilarious #so yeah and now whoever reads this monstrosity of tags knows too #and if you did read this then come here bc i’m giving you BIG WET KISSES and taking you out on a little picnic date 💓💓 #and we can wear matching outfits and feed eachother desserts🥺

[fma03envy]

In which Junko periodically sneaks out of the old school building to meet with Izuru (and then lies to her classmates about it)

#Danganronpa spoilers in the tags #this drawing actually originally had dialogue; took it out bc I wasn't sure of the phrasing but that may also take away context #in the first panel Junkos talking abt how ironic it is for her to be stuck in hope's peak while Izurus outside +complaining abt being bored #and Izuru's going ''yeah ok sure; whose idea was all this again'' which Junko laughs about #then in the second panel Kyoko's saying like #'hey Junko isthere smth going on we should know about?bc the only time ive seen this little of you b4 was when u were having memory issues' #And Junko responds like 'nooo I'm just sad bc of the apocalypse Don't Even Worry About It lol' #my art #Danganronpa #kyoko kirigiri #junko enoshima #izuru kamukura #junkozuru #I think about the timeskip year a lot ok there's not nearly enough content about it #And one HC I'm absolutely certain of is that Junko did not do the voluntary imprisonment thing the WHOLE time #Idc about the metal plates if food could get in she could get out when she needed to/felt like it

[titan-god-helios]

y’all. i fucking cannot. what is wrong with the world. can we just please. stop.

#you can use this for whatever context you want within reason (aka no bigots of any kind fuck you) #but im gonna spill in the tags so #youve been warned #this is a vent #——————————— #so im in autistic “burnout” or AUNS atm and therefore my depression is also stronger than before same with anxiety and #all the mental problems #and my sensory issues are also so bad right now #and i find myself forcing myself to speak and sometimes even having complete verbal shutdown #so at the end of the school day today i was on the very verge of a meltdown and i was already in sensory overload #and just generally feeling horrid and dysphoric #i ran out of class when we were dismissed and powerwalked to a stop away from the one i usually go to #so that i wouldnt have to talk to my friends and actually have a meltdown and feel even worse #and i full on thought out what bus i was gonna take so i could have a quiet ride home and hopefully calm down and feel better a bit #GUESS FUCKING WHAT HAPPENED #my friend #got on the same bus. #and i love her i love her so much shes so fun to talk to shes great and i really love talking with her so much #but today #when i had already spent extra energy trying to spare myself from more masking and interaction #those efforts also were put to waste AND i had to spend even more energy talking for at least 40 minutes straight when i had hoped to talk #for none #and with no music to block out other bus sounds #so when she got off the bus i was so close to crying #and then i had to take another bus as well bc i take two to get home #and now im walking home in the rain and my clothes are damp and sticking to my skin and i think im ready to die now #/nsrs #but icl i kind of wish it was #anyway bye #tw suicide

[thats-a-lot-of-cortisol]

My mom just sent a message to the family group chat suggesting that my siblings download the 'For the Strength of Youth' magazine on their Gospel Library app and talked about how much the youth magazines helped her testimony growing up and like, cool. Fine. Don't know why the 'sending random spiritual thoughts in the gc' thing started out of nowhere when it hadn't been a thing for a decade but this is just another one of those, and you're ofc allowed to talk about things that are significant in your life.

I don't think sending the 'What I Did When Someone Close to Me Challenged My Faith' article right afterwards was strictly necessary though 🙃

#hi bg mutuals 👋 i'm gonna vent about this from time to time. if any mutuals dont want to see it block the 'apostake' tag #trying not to read too much into it b/c I think I did last time something like this happened #and i dont want to make an ass of myself even if neither time would actually be in front of my parents #but like...i know that they know that one of my sisters is clearly PIMO #they went through her phone a couple weeks ago and i have no idea if they read my texts w/ her #but if they did they probably saw the conversation i had with her about some of the really common shelf-breakers #and telling her to take looking into it at her own pace b/c it's scary and overwhelming #(a conversation SHE started btw) #and when i talked to my parents about the larger context of that whole situation i talked about not having space to step back #and their response was that they give plenty of space b/c they dont make her go to seminary??? #that's not the same thing as letting her openly question & potentially leave the church idk what to tell you #like. besties i dont know for sure what caused it (which is NOT making things better. it just feels potentially passive aggressive) #but from my end? it sure looks like it might be a reaction to that. probably not JUST that (friends exist) but. #if you think I'm whispering anti-mormon rhetoric into my siblings' ears just ask me. i'm very much NOT doing that #i'm just. talking? to them? when and if they come to me with questions? #and not making my answer 'well there's a reason our parents raised us in the church! ☺️' #(an actual argument given in the article my mom sent) #hate it. thanks #apostake #jay rambles #ok to interact #im not challenging anyone's faith. my patience though? INCREDIBLY challenged #gotta figure out how to work my way around a 'hey please dont send spiritual thoughts to the gc *I'm in*' talk tactfully #they've been pretty chill about me leaving over-all?? at least to my face #haven't pushed me to go to church w/ them; was fine with me not visiting for easter; didnt try to convince me to not drink coffee; etc #it's just. frustrating that they're not giving my siblings that still live with them that same grace #my sister's 17 ffs #it's very possible im way overreacting to the article. but what is tumblr for if not screaming into the void #religion #mormonism

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thinking about the possibility of the vyrantium crew and the warden crew meeting at some point like 👀

#high likely hood for ignota and verity i imagine #cyril too if he follows his sister to help with the blight #rhydian would be lowkey distrustful of verity at first just from the whole tevinter mage thing #but once he learnt her story he would be like 'you're cool i guess' lol #verity would feel bad for rhydian especially if she learnt his story #he would help her further her realization that elves are treating like absolute shit in this world #and inspire her to take more efforts to help them out when she can #and i can not overstate how much i want verity and cian to meet #i only vaguely know that cian has Issues(tm) with blood magic #i just love the potential Drama #there is the joke that cyril keeps saying that verity is one of the Good Ones #but she does sincerely try to use her magic ethically #she refused to be a part of a ritual sacrifice at the cost of her reputation and potentially her life #also their meeting would most likely be in the context of her helping the wardens with the blight #there are probably more thoughts to be had of verity meeting the others but i cannot pin them down atm #i've rambled in the tags enough bye! #ch: verity laurentum #nancy's d&d adventure #campaign: the vigilant