#this is a vent

[chemiicalbride]

condolences from a delusioned astronaut

#this is a vent #and it’s not about space #ticci toby #toby rogers #art #creepypasta #creepypasta fandom #my art #creepypasta art #it might be bad i only spent like an hour on it be nice!

[whats-a-terrarium]

it’s inside job it’s q force it’s infinity train it’s one day at a time it’s everything sucks it’s first kill it’s everything sucks it’s the owl house it’s every fucking show that the networks throw to the wolves at a whim its every show that’s gets underpromoted that gets cancelled that gets taken down that eventually becomes lost media it’s every piece of art that will never be complete it’s every piece of someone’s heart and soul they have to put in the hands of the corporations if they want any hope of survival who can crush it the second it becomes anything less than a massive cash out for them im so sick of it all im so sick i’m so tired i hope the revolution starts in california I hope they burn the studios to the ground

#saph.txt #this is a vent #im just so fucking tired #inside job #the owl house #q force #everything sucks! #first kill #one day at a time #odaat #infinity train

[nothingbutloveforyou]

i guess all i've ever wanted know.. was how it feels like when someone really wants you. i have no idea what it feels like to be wanted, to be desired. i don't know how people talk to you or treat you, if they go out of their way to do something for you. i wouldn't know, it has never happened. and i sit and wonder, can it even happen? some things never happen and that might be one of them. so i just watch as it happens to other people, wondering if i'll ever be one of them.

#this is part of #crying while typing this #this is a vent #this is rambling #nothingbutloveforyou

[pyjamacryptid]

PSA FOR MAKE-UP AND SKINCARE BRANDS: START LISTING POTENTIAL ALLERGENS AT THE END IN BOLD LIKE FOOD PRODUCTS HAVE TO BECAUSE IT IS WAY OVERDUE AS A MANDATORY REQUIREMENT AND I AM TIRED.

#this is a vent #sorry everyone #but I’m so tired #some brands do! but it’s so uncommon #genuinely baffles me though that it’s not common for skincare brands to do this #since it’s not unusual for those with irritated skin to have all sorts of allergies #and yes you can’t list every allergy under the sun #but I’m talking specifically about nut allergies here since nuts are a SUPER popular ingredient #in all beauty and hygiene products #for their h y d r a t i o n #and I’m allergic to Every Kind 😀👍🏻 #also rip to everyone with plant-based allergies 😖 #anyway #vent #spoon tag #spoonie #make up #makeup #skincare #allergies #allergens #nut allergy #food allergies #chronic condition

[coochiekrab]

Gods strongest soldiers (people who care deeply about pet welfare) and strongest battles (family who just straight up seem genetically inclined to impulse buying animals)

#this is a vent #i think? my sister and her bf are being evicted from their apartment and theyre trying to move in with us and bring all Four of their #impulsively purchased cats here. which i said no to #so now they’re giving me grief about not letting them bring the cats #also my brother really is breeding his Sickly puppy to his mutt. i wish i was lying

[were-candy-gutz]

I say I'm a werewolf -> they take it as a joke -> I say it more often because I realize they think I'm not serious -> they tell me it isn't funny anymore -> I explain that it's not supposed to be funny -> they call me crazy -> I realize they don't believe me so it doesn't matter if i say it anyway because its not like they'll do anything to me -> i make a reference to it once, like a week later -> they threaten to call the cops on me -> i dont know if they believe me now or think im endangering myself so i shut up

#lykos howls #this is a vent #yes im a werewolf #clinical zoanthropy #dont tell me im not a werewolf rn im so tired

[azures-grace]

I want to listen to The Amazing Devil, I really do

Unfortunately, my stupid brain is hyperfixating on Lord Huron RN and I cannot think of any album aside from Vide Noir and Strange Trails

I CAN'T EVEN GO TO LONG LOST??

It is absolutely ridiculous how much I want to listen to something else, but nothing is itching my brain right like those albums.

Someone like... Poke me to listen to something else.

#lord huron #WHYYYYYYYYY????? #I JUST WANT TO LISTEN TO SOMETHING ELSE #BUT NOTHING IS HITTING LIKE ANCIENT NAMES AND YAWNING GRAVE AND WHEN THE NIGHT IS OVER #also #the amazing devil #maybe i should go listen to Ruin to get out of this #it's probably the stupid Morrowind crossover #i wanna play Morrowind too #but i just got Skyrim fixed and my dumb dumb brain is like #“there is nothing else. only Skyrim” #and i want to cry because i feel like I'm not being productive and there's other stuff i want to do but i CAN'T #vent #this is a vent #i think i shall go sleep.

[cynicalundead]

self diagnosed* npders, thinking self diagnosing with npd excuses them from "narc abuse isn't real", after they've been yelled at by other npders for calling their abuser a narcissist as an insult in an npd safe space:

* I am not against self diagnosis, I am against using your self dx as an excuse to be ableist against the same disability you self dxed with

#this is a vent #this just happened to me and im waiting for a mod to step in #theyre acting like im encroaching on their right to self identify their experiences as an ableist stereotype #of a disorder they supposedly have #jesus christ help me how do i handle this without exploding #npd #actually npd #npd safe #narcissistic personality disorder #narcissist #actually narcissistic #narcissism

[plain-sailing-weather]

"Why do people with CDDs believe they are the authority on CDDs" is a bold question to ask if you're both not a professional in psychology and don't have a CDD

#syscourse #sophiecourse #this is a vent #it was a while back but it was wild

[sorivii]

👀👀👀 Nah dude wth are you doing following me for?!??? Giving me a heart attack like this?? @triona-tribblescore!??😭💞

#Becomes mutual with one of the coolest artists in the fandom #nahhh this ain’t real #spiraling into existential crisis #artists on tumblr #art #fanart #artwork #sketch #drawing #rottmnt #SivRambles #THIS IS A VENT #I NEED TO VENT #i am so sorry

[titan-god-helios]

y’all. i fucking cannot. what is wrong with the world. can we just please. stop.

#you can use this for whatever context you want within reason (aka no bigots of any kind fuck you) #but im gonna spill in the tags so #youve been warned #this is a vent #——————————— #so im in autistic “burnout” or AUNS atm and therefore my depression is also stronger than before same with anxiety and #all the mental problems #and my sensory issues are also so bad right now #and i find myself forcing myself to speak and sometimes even having complete verbal shutdown #so at the end of the school day today i was on the very verge of a meltdown and i was already in sensory overload #and just generally feeling horrid and dysphoric #i ran out of class when we were dismissed and powerwalked to a stop away from the one i usually go to #so that i wouldnt have to talk to my friends and actually have a meltdown and feel even worse #and i full on thought out what bus i was gonna take so i could have a quiet ride home and hopefully calm down and feel better a bit #GUESS FUCKING WHAT HAPPENED #my friend #got on the same bus. #and i love her i love her so much shes so fun to talk to shes great and i really love talking with her so much #but today #when i had already spent extra energy trying to spare myself from more masking and interaction #those efforts also were put to waste AND i had to spend even more energy talking for at least 40 minutes straight when i had hoped to talk #for none #and with no music to block out other bus sounds #so when she got off the bus i was so close to crying #and then i had to take another bus as well bc i take two to get home #and now im walking home in the rain and my clothes are damp and sticking to my skin and i think im ready to die now #/nsrs #but icl i kind of wish it was #anyway bye #tw suicide

[ghoulangerlee]

I like, had a good day at work up until 15 minutes before close where my boss was an asshole and embarrassed me in front of a customer.

And honestly I've just been stewing on that since it happened. It's not healthy but bleh. It made me actually cry is what it did and while I know that he is 100% going to apologize to me tomorrow because he knows he fucked up it still sucks that it happened.

Anyway I'm going to go to bed now and hope the icky feelings leave me while I'm sleeping.

#personal.exe #this is a vent

[confessions-of-a-doormat]

i used to be a crew member on a ship. i still miss it. i met amazing people, had lots of fun, and felt a part of something important.

over the past year the ship sailed through a ton of rocky waters, with some vicious sea monsters popping up in the storm. and though i was scared, i knew we could make it through. i trusted my crew, and i trusted my captain.

throughout it all we left the monsters alone, the sharks and the giant squid, and focused on keeping the boat afloat, moving forward on our journey.

one crew member said how we needed to fight the monsters attacking us. he was worried we would be broken by them. the captain stood firm. and so the crew member took some weapons, and left the crew to fight on his own. the passengers watched in shock.

the captain was furious. the fight might anger the monsters more. the crew were all mixed on the idea of fighting the monsters, and tensions became as high as the waters were rocky. we still all tried to stick together.

arguments broke out. the captain has a temper, we know that, we’ve seen it. we understand what stress does to him, and we’ve all had a rocky year. we begged him to take a break from captaining.

instead, he completely disappeared. we searched the ship, all the nooks and crannies but could not find him anywhere. we were worried for his life.

the next day he was there again. we were so relieved he was ok. he said he wanted to be captain again. we thought it wasn’t a good idea. the stress of it was getting to him. he said he was fine now, that the first mate could help him command the boat and passengers and take over when he could not control himself. we still did not think it was a good idea. another crew member jumped ship in response.

nevertheless, i am a hopeful person when it comes to those i love. and so if i saw it, i said i would believe it. the captain, first mate, and another crew member had a meeting about how to fight the sea monsters, and how to address the first crew member leaving.

i listened outside the door. i did not hear everything, but i heard the captain scream, and refuse to listen to the first mate, and then the crew member stormed out. the first mate told them to come back. they said they could not, and jumped ship.

the captain couldn’t control himself, or listen to the first mate. that was clear. he still refused to recognize his own faults - his temper, his response to those who left, the private things he was told that he made public to the crew. i knew he could be better, and maybe return to captain or crew some day, but he definitely needed time away from the stress, perhaps to be just a passenger. and yet, he stayed captain.

i didn’t know what to do. i loved him. i loved all of them. my crew was my family. and yet the ship no longer felt safe. i wrote the captain a letter and jumped ship, into the cold waters. i bid the passengers farewell, but i did not tell them why.

soon after, two other crew members jumped ship. they told me how the letter had angered the captain in a way that made them realize they could not stay either.

there is one other crew member. she does not know what to do, but she stays, for the ship. i still talk to her. the first mate may be upset with the captain’s actions, but is still loyal to him, and so they are leading the ship. i no longer talk to the captain, though i miss him and still love him through all the heartbreak.

he pretends everything is fine now. he does not understand we left not because of the stress, but his reaction to it and refusal to step down. the passengers get to hear his side of the story.

and i do not viciously attack him; i do not want to become a giant sea monster. but i wish the passengers could see us, the ex-crew, all of us, here in our little boat. i wish they would question what happened, and if there is more than one side to the story he weaves.

i love the crew, and i love the passengers. i wish the cracks in our team could be repaired, but i know some never will. i still hold out small hope, that one day the captain will realize his wrongs, do the work to be better, and apologize to all he hurt. but i cannot sit around waiting for a day that may or may not come.

#i know this is long #but it’s a metaphor #a story transformed #which takes longer to make #unsure whether or not to tag this as syscourse #this is a vent #but totally ok to reblog

[celinedeeznuts]

So im not on tik tok but sometimes I watch youtube videos where people react to stupid tiktoks and there was this one where this woman was talking about her straight man friend picking her up from a lesbian bar and a lesbian going up to him all “this is a lesbian bar, LEAVE” etc okay this isn’t a post about the TikTok itself —

I could not pay attention to a goddamn thing she was saying in this “let me talk at you while i do my makeup” format. Goddamn do you understand how stupid you look? You are slathering paint on your face and brushing color on your eyebrows to look completely different. What is wrong with having a FACE?

I swear to god listen even the “No makeup” makeup thing is stupid. Just have a goddamn FACE.

#this is a makeup negativity post #i dont give a shit if you like makeup and it makes u feel pretty or whatever #this is a vent #because makeup is fucking stupid #anti makeup #rad fem #im more rad fem adjacent but uH? #terf safe #terfs do interact

[linka-r9-vysocina]

i wonder where i saw that thing that was like - when you struggle with your mental health, you can't even have a bad day or week in peace because you are immediately thinking is it getting bad again?? am i slipping into a depressive episode again??

idk whether it was a tumblr post or an article or a pastel insta infographic (even though the last one is highly unlikely)

but i found myself thinking about that today when i realized that while yes, maybe you can say that *gestures vaguely* those things have taken a toll on my mental health, - i realized that in am simply once again filled with

SO

MUCH

FUCKING

RAGE

that I don't know what to do with it anymore

it's not just depression and other "normal" stuff, rage and anger are the reason i have been having so many vivid dreams and nightmares and why i feel like shit at least half of the time

I know I should take peace in the things that are good, and I have been lucky to have plenty of those; I know that I could channel the rage and make it a driving force to do good

but i am also exhausted and i am not able to stop feeling like things in general are turning into shit in rapid speed at a massive scale and i know that desperation is not useful at all but desperation is ultimately what my rage always transforms to

i really wish to find a way to just put it aside and find solace in working for a better world, but i feel like it's getting harder and harder with every news article about palestine, with every public figure saying stupid shit like "public transport has bad reputation because it's so cheap so we should deifnitely raise the ticket prices", with every app update sneaking in a line about AI training, with Tumblr and Wordpress deciding to sell our creativity in the exact moment I set up a wordpress blog, with every job listing in which a billion crown company is both bragging about billion crowns sales and offering 27 000 CZK for a full-time position (which is about 22 300CZK after taxes which is about 900 EUR if I am counting correctly or 950 USD and also 27000 is the rent we three roommates pay for an apartment), and I wonder how and if i ever find a way out of this

the fact that one of our cats is sick and I'm taking him to the vet daily does not really help

#this is a vent #sorry #ventilace #the cat will hopefully be fine and also my dad volunteered to pay for the expenses which i am forever grateful for #but still #i can see that he is not well and it breaks my heart

[nessinborderland]

Okay is it just me or is the Alice in Borderland tag getting clogged with roleplay asks/blogs? Gotta scroll a bunch before I find stuff that isn't roleplay related goddamn

#this is a vent #nothing against roleplay blogs obviously #you do you boo #but... you know...