#i'm just really tired i need sleep

[isaacz]

Martlet sprite by: @dvdexe on twitter!

#my art #undertale #undertale yellow #undertale yellow fanart #undertale fanart #that first drawing btw i took such a long time on that it's insane #i'm just really tired i need sleep #the third painted one is a screenshot redraw from the undertale yellow trailer btw

[writinggremlin]

How's about a whumpee who desires pain?

A whumpee who wants to be stressed and panicked and hurt. Everything's been too good for too long, and maybe that frustrates them a little bit.

Why do they feel this way? They don't know. All they do know, is that that risky and/or hurtful scenario is looking quite tempting.

If nobody's going to make them worse, they'll do it themself.

#whump #angst #whumpblr #whumpee #caretaker #whump prompt #whump prompts #whump ideas #whump idea #kinda going through it rn ngl. dont really get why. probably just need to sleep. i did stay up super late last night ngl lol #I think i just kinda wanna feel alive y'know? i yearn for the pain of my heart squeezing in my chest. I want a problem. i want pressure. #eh. doesn't matter. like I said- I'm probably just tired. if somebody's seeing this for some reason- I hope you're having a lovely day/night #imma go to sleep now lol. night!

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[oathkeeper-of-tarth]

Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

#honestly? honestly? #last week i told the two (2) godawful egomaniac lab head Man In Academia bosses i quit and that we need to formalise it asap and i just #felt like a little feather about to float away on a breeze #maybe now i can do normal people things like eat and sleep and have a routine of some sort idk #i have been slowly losing it for at least 3-4 years now #i took a screenshot and last year i had no fewer than 14 fucking travel orders fulfilled #most of which consisted of like 12+ hour days on ships and docks #i'm just so tired man #not for reblogging obviously #i don't really wanna vent anymore or ponder them and the entire godforsaken institution but like #good riddance tbh #which is really really sad when you think about it! but here we are #it was just... no trace of future anywhere to be seen! entirely a Void!! #gonna post a beefy lesbian paladin real quick to push this post down lmao #but i felt like sharing because i know there's good and concerned people who follow me here and i both appreciate and miss you all #and lord knows some of you have been listening to me vent and whine for ages #am i going to miss some great people and the research community of my field? of course but also it was all just completely unsustainable

[mattodore]

height differences between the cast of echthroi

tagged by @void-imp! trying to pick out avatars was hard but i had fun so ty olly <3! tagging @wldestluv-rs @raiiny-bay @veone @omgkayplays @rottengurlz @levinbolts @pralinesims um… has anyone else with ocs not done this… if not consider yourself tagged too <3

#I FELL ASLEEP………….. well 🫶 here’s this one #river dipping #oc extras #echthroi #theodore doe #matthias evanoff #...............i'm not tagging all of them rn dfghdfgh #did i mention that i’ve changed mattodore’s heights? not sure but it’s only an extra 3cm so i have an easier time pose making #also theo's silhouette is literally the exact outfit he had on in those edits of him at thirty.......... like even the cropped slacks 😭 #anyway matthias’s people are on the left and theo’s are on the right #i really need to make everett (name will change probably) and jackson in ts4… zzzzzz tho #also need to update all of the other echthroi characters’ sims… but again zzzzz tho #i’d say more but i’m tired 🧍 #i woke up just bc i had to give my cat his medicine 😭 i’m getting my ass back to sleep ‼️

[dont-offend-the-bees]

Not to continue my recent trend of oversharing on tumblr dot com, but I am very much struggling not to feel like I'm doing everything in my entire life wrong at present

#normal things to think after your doctor tells you you need to get a blood test re-taken bc you mistimed your dose #I'm just. I'm tired man. #I've been putting off a phone call for two months #i spend every day lately torn between do I need to go to hospital or am I just unfit and anxious #I rot and decay when left alone but also people are Too Much #I want to Create but I can't get started and when I do I'm just so disappointed with whatever I make #I'm exhausted but I'm awake at 4am bc if i go to sleep tomorrow will start and I'll have to do this all again #and I need so fucking badly for someone to just crush me so hard in a really long hug until my bones realign #and i need to find past me shake her by the shoulders and yell “you're fine! you'll be fine! cut your hair! eat your greens! #take up swimming and also some new pronouns! no one else will respect em but they're for YOU and so is the health stuff #please for the love of fucking god just look after yourself better than i did!“ #there's toooooo many fuckin holes in this sinking ship #I need a full body MOT and then to be cradled against the chest of a large gentle man for 12-36 hours #mr. bees speaks

[arashi-no-saxlphone]

Axl Low is so fucking important to me like yes it's frustrating seeing the discrepancy between his damage and ability to convert compared to other characters but like even if he did actually suck (which to be clear he does not no matter how much I complain lol) I could not let him go. This is the guy of all time to me. Can you imagine how great the world would be if everyone was a little more like Axl Low? This guy has had so much fucked up unfair shit happen to him and all he has ever done was The Right Thing. He never got rewarded for being the world's nicest man and he just didn't care. Never became bitter never decided "Fuck this and all of you I have time powers so I'm gonna do whatever I want." This man spent so much of the series trying to get back to his girlfriend and his own timeline after being forcibly removed from it by events out of his control and the second he finds a way he makes the fucking impossible choice of "Cant do it cause it'd erase this timeline" I am SICK!! That is INSANE! He just kept doing shit he felt was right and he had a smile on for the vast majority of it. I cannot get over how strong he is. To suffer so much and just not let it change who you are at your core that is so fucking - I can't even think of a word to describe that. I wish I had half the strength and positivity of Axl Low I will just have to settle for my hands on a controller breathing life into the funny British man on my screen. Not even the only Gear character that does shit like this. Many such cases. I'm smelling the fucking game.

#sairambles #guilty gear #axl low #long post #sorry I'm losing it I just cant stop thinking about this shit #I'm vibrating and I cannot play more Strive today it'd be unhealthy and I need sleep #Axl Low is so everything I can't believe how far he's brought me #and yet the people around me are so tired of me talking about him or Gear #like suck my DICK I'm sorry you are BLIND and dont wanna feel that's a SKILL ISSUE #ggst #anyway please don't think this is cause for concern I just really like Axl Low LOL #I realise bits of this make me sound insane I just kind of went off

[wildflowercryptid]

if florian did manage to beat kieran in the bb champion match, ( i'm still debating if i wanna keep that in mjverse's canon or not, ) i feel like he'd definitely refuse to accept the champion title.

he didn't take on the bb league to become champion, he took it on so he could face kieran again. he never would've challenged the league if kieran wasn't apart of it, let alone attended bb academy as an exchange student if he wasn't there, so taking up the position doesn't feel right to him.

that and it's not exactly something he's passionate about, he'd much rather be exploring the terarium at his leisure and filling his pokédex. kid's a pokémon fanatic first and foremost, after all.

#everything flori does at bb academy is for kieran & literally screams ''i'm desperately in love w/ you'' #and it still doesn't occur to kieran that he has feelings for her it just flies over her head #flori and crispin in perpetual fail hell bc their crushes are oblivious rip #i've been grinding bp and unlocking the special coaches for most of the day #i managed to unlock everyone up to geeta so now i'm working on unlocking the last 3 ( which i'm pretty sure is the paldean mystery crew ) #i wish you could invite the team star kids too that would've been fun #i want ortega and lacey to interact... giacomo and ryme too #but i need a break from playing grinding for bp is getting really tedious #i'm probably gonna try sleeping actually i'm tired #hc : (pkmn) mjverse #chara : florian russel cavallari #mj.txt #sv dlc spoilers #indigo disk spoilers

[msnihilist]

I'm not super involved in the Nicktoons Unite fandom, but I have been combing through fics and I'm already tried of Danny being portrayed as the big brother/second smartest one instead of what he actually is: a fucking idiot.

#nicktoons unite #danny phantom #danny fenton #i mean this as affectionately as possible btw #if anything JIMMY should be the tired older brother who subsists off of coffee and no sleep #danny and timmy have adhd and probably three brain cells between the two of them #I'm not saying Danny is a dunce #he's passionate about flight and space travel! #but let's be honest — he's 14 in canon. those are passing interests #they're not. like. something he could tell you every single last detail about #source: i am also into aeronautics #second source: i grew up with dp and I'm tired of the dumbass erasure #danny has no thoughts and only has teenage angst when a ghost is manipulating him lol #i know we all want our favs to be cool #but danny is literally just the biggest dork in the world #he's not a gritty 20 year old with 5 o'clock shadow who needs to smoke just to feel something #everyone's entitled to their interpretations obvi but #i think dp fandom has become so far removed from canon at this point that they created a whole new character who just is not danny fenton #and i don't really enjoy it because I always liked danny for the character he HAS not the one i think he should have had instead #this became kind of a tangent and this is probably an unpopular opinion but yeah i just wanted to say my piece #i can't really interact with the dp fandom anymore because they're basically all fans of a made-up show at this point

[adhdvane]

very happy about the dlc i'm glad i had the forethought to take this pic for my trainer id while i could

#pokemon scarlet and violet #sammy liveblogs about violet #pokemon teal mask #i downloaded as soon as it went live and... kept playing until i beat the main line... #then got very tired and had to go to sleep and did the photographer quest in the morning lol #nearly done with the dex just need version exclusive stuff :/ #but the reward for all 200 is trash so i'm not really in a rush #lol you get more tera shards? why would i need that?? #until the shards get another use getting more shards from raids is such a lame ass reward for the dex completion #they're so easy to farm already

[miodiodavinci]

the burnout is real lads . . . . .

#which is to say that i came home and just stared at the wall for roughly 2 hours instead of completing my documents #it was at least validating to get to talk to one of my coworkers today #and hear that they're just as burnt out as i am #and usually have to sit in the parking lot for 4 to 5 minutes before they come in because they just don't want to be here that badly #and it feels hard to admit because this is typically thought of as a passion driven profession #and it's like #neither of us have lost the passion for it??? #it's not that we hate our jobs #it's just that we both feel like. we're putting in increasingly more effort week by week but we're just. #no longer getting results. #i mentioned how i feel like my faith in my ability to do this kind of work has just plummeted to zero #not at all helped by my mentor constantly pushing me to go faster and faster but then getting mad when my presentations go poorly #because i went faster or reduced the amount of material or cut the Q and A section down 10 minutes #i just feel . . . . . tired . . . . . . . . . . . #i still need to write three planning documents for tonight #one of which needs to be Really Good because my direct supervisor will be looking at it #but my god #i just want to sleep for three days straight and then stare at a wall for another three #i'm so close to the end though . . . . . #just another 15 of these documents (including the three from tonight) and that about covers my internship #of course then there's also the seminar work and the group project and all the fancy official employment documents #and. the portfolio project (a man screams in agony) #but god . . . . . . . . #so close . . . . . . . . #so close . . . . . . #once i'm free from the portfolio it's back to zola work and THEN . . . . . . . . . . #i can finally have a substantial mental health break for the first time since last may ;;; _____ ;;;

[softceleste]

The fact I honestly thought I'd pull off playing College Craze and being normal about it, and then less than a week later I've already played it multiple times, made a duel MC au, a Pinterest board, and recreated some of the PopMe pages, is genuinely not lost on me.

#college craze #katie talks ifs and vns #i made psds for new contacts and calls too but didn't really have a use for them in this #also i just bs'd vidtok if it pops up I'll redo those but >.> i think you can tell who my favorite RO is so far okay (it's Pierce) #and then jay shaun ruby and trish also have me by the throat like if Trish has 0 fans I'm dead okay #I've known those characters literally like 4 days and I'd go to bat for all five of them already ok - my beloveds #anyway madeline mostly follows canon (the divergence is Ches exists and Ches is canonly the one fake!dating Shaun for Mad's tuition) #otherwise what the vn throws at Madeline she gets ok and then Ches breaks canon... so much it'd be probably too long for the tags #but this is what i get for being like 'this oc I've been writing for a decade+ would be down so bad for Pierce and Shaun lemme do a #playthrough with her and see what happens' - this happens apparently 😂 listen the vn helped me get through the entire time my mom was #in the hospital (she's home now) so tbh it was a really appreciated distraction <3 #extremely long post #long post #edits:mine #college craze: ches #college craze: madeline #college craze: madeline x jay #college craze: ches x pierce #i had fun with these though like Madeline messaging Ches to ensure she isn’t going to come in and find Jay in the dorm #and Ches being like ‘yeah my vidtok is 100% Pierce’s fault’ yikes I need to sleep I’m excitedly tired rambling #sorry if this post is annoying (and for the lines under the categories breaking future me will fix that in further edits if I post more #those may be relegated to the shit post blog though we’ll see posting oc stuff makes me so anxious ngl) #im just hitting post I’ve been staring at this stressing it like two hours now jfc

[quarklynx]

I read 500 pages today. Five hundred.

What is wrong with me, why do I do this. Why can't I just enjoy books at a normal pace?

#lynx thinks #it is nearly 3 am and i am so tired #which is a good thing i guess considering how lwst night went for me #hopefully I'll actually be able to get to sleep and stay asleep #but for real... I've read half the book already and i just got it from the library today #why can't mr sanderson speed up the pace on these things i mean do they really need to be 1000+ pages each? #i would say that i havent done this kind of thing since i was in high school but that would be a lie #when i found SVSSS and MXTX's other works i went just as rabid reading them #I'm pretty sure i read all of TGCF in like a week bc it was in an online format and i had no way to know how much i was fucking reading #that work is multiple times the size of the bible and has very few words in common with it #absolutely unhinged behavior on my part tbh

[v-tired-queer]

So much to do, so little motivation to do any of it

#okay it isn’t really a whole lot to do but omgggggg i'm tired and just wanna sleep #todays agenda is clean room; wash bedding; take ac out of window #that's literally it #and yet here i lay in bed with no bedding being cold and unmotivated #i'm not cleaning out my closet today and no one can make me fuck that it's an issue for future me #i'll do it this week but today is not the day #personal #cleaning #motivation #lack of motivation #no motivation #motivation? don't know her #i am very tired #tired #sleepy #sleep deprived #i need sleep #and bedding omg

[studentbyday]

mood

#literally so behind on school #i did finish some urgent things today #but only tmr will i *really* start working on the big things that are worrying me bc tho they're big they're also due a couple days away #but like... #they feel really big #so idk how much time i actually have to do all the big things that are currently really important but not 🚨URGENT🚨 urgent #studyblr #stu(dying) #istg i gotta fix this school mess (i.e. get ahead) #and physical/digital mess (backburner stressor 😵‍💫😭) #AND figure out how to do this lab thing over reading week #oooohhhh idk if this is just me being delusional about how much i can do in a single week out of school #i need to sleep #100dop #too tired to tag #good night #i did wake up at 7:45 today which i'm considering a win since it's been quite hard to get myself to do that XD #i don't think i've ever gotten up this early of my own will before #so that's nice #rant #chaotic academia #chaotic academic aesthetic

[daz4i]

help me i can't fall asleep 💔💔💔

#i'm trying really hard and i took my sleeping pill n all but i just. haven't been up for long enough to be tired enough 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i need to be up in like 6 hours c'mon @my body you know we can't have caffeine get your shit together ;-;