#i'm just sick and tired of it and done with it and him and it's so freeing to know you don't have to deal with that anymore

[avawritesthings]

crash n burn | ln4

✦ word count - 1,358

✦ summary - y/n crashed out of the 2024 shanghai gp, and lando can’t help but worry.

✦ warnings - injuries, angst(?), worried lando, racing/f1 inaccuracies!!

✦ ava’s notes - f1driver!reader for this one, folks. sorry for the inactivity, i haven’t had the writing spark in a while. but here i am, and with a new sport, no less! i'm also trying smth new, no Capitalization...not sure if ya'll are into it. i got into f1 a couple weeks ago, so there might be several inaccuracies, but i tried my best. thank you for the support 🫶🏼 (sorry for the long ass note LMFAO)

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THE FAINT SOUNDS OF VOICES reached your ringing ears. you could feel your head pounding from within the totaled car. suddenly, the simple act of opening your eyes was the hardest task for your shuddering body.

“y/n, are you alright?” the voices of your engineers could be heard through your helmet.

“i’m alright,” you mumble, not sure if the words made it out of your dry mouth. as your hands reach towards your harness and disconnect the latches, you let out a sigh of defeat, a whimper slipping past your lips.

you knew the race was over. the helmet was next to come off, throwing it out of your car before shakily ripping off the balaclava from your sweaty head. the act of taking off your helmet meant you couldn't talk to your team, you knew, but you couldn’t care less. 

you felt like you couldn’t breathe with the restrictive head gear on. 

tears burned behind your eyes, but you willed them back, refusing to show weakness. you felt and heard people around you. medics, probably, you couldn’t tell.

they were whirling around you and the war, or what was left of it. you felt them help you out and you let them, too tired to refuse. as your almost lifeless body left the constricted space, you took a heavy, deep breath, the exhale coming out trembling.

hands grabbed at your waist to keep you upright. waving a hand towards the concerned yet roaring crowd, the medics helped you into the van. before the double doors closed, you opened your eyes as much as you could and stifled a sob at what was left of your car. 

you willed the strength to run your hands down your exhausted face. a blood pressure cuff made its way up your arm and you turned to the man responsible.

the thought of your family filled your head; are they worried? are they watching? your boyf-

lando.

you knew he’d be worried sick. turning your head towards the medic, you asked “c-can i speak to him? lando?”

the man – who you felt knew you were going to ask at some point – wordlessly handed you a headset, and you could already hear his yelling.

“-and none of you bloody fuckers have heard from her? complete bullshit. is. she. okay?!”

“lando?” his name spilled from your lips, relief ever so present in your voice, knowing he was okay — as well as he could be after seeing the love of his life crash, hard.

“babe? is that you? fuck- i hadn’t heard from you and i thought the worst.” he spoke, and you knew that if he wasn’t racing, he’d be running his hands through his hair like a madman.

“i’m okay lando, i promise,” you said, your hands gripping the microphone attached to the headset. “i’ll see you soon, okay?”

“yeah- yes, baby. i’m so glad you’re okay. i love you,’ and that was the last you heard before the doors of the medical van opened and you were being whisked away to the medical center in the paddock.

-

a mild concussion and a bruised rib.

you got off easy, they said. it could’ve been much worse, they said.

you just felt tired. exhausted. however many g’s your body was put through would have probably killed a normal civilian. soon enough, you saw the familiar head of dark curls jogging towards you. daniel wrapped you in a comforting side hug, running a hand up and down your back while he placed a soft kiss on top of your head.

“glad you’re alright, sugar,” he breathed out. “don’t know what i woulda done if you hadn’t ended up okay.”

a small, genuine smile appeared on your chapped lips as you leaned against his warm body. danny had dnf’d a couple laps before your crash, and you were slightly glad. it was nice to have a friend after your unfortunate end to the race. 

“thanks, avocado,” you acknowledged, a hand coming to rest on his upper arm. the nickname stemmed from an interview he did with a kid that butchered his last name, saying avocado instead of ricciardo.

“you talk to lando yet?” danny asked, knowing your boyfriend is probably worried sick.

“yeah, spoke to him on the way here,” you answered. “he was worried sick, yelling at his team until i got on the radio. sorry you crashed out, danny. it wasn’t your fault.”

“ah i see,” he teased, knowing how much the boy loved you and worried over you. “and ‘s alright, couldn’t do anything to stop it. appreciate it though.”

you squeezed his arm before letting go, knowing he’d have to do interviews and such. “you got somewhere to be? interviews ‘n whatnot?”

danny turned his watch towards himself and swore, making you lightly chuckle. the sound of your laugh brought a smile to his face and he squeezed your arm back, his worried eyes scanning over your tired body. “you sure you’re alright? i can probably push the interviews back a few…”

waving him off with a flick of your hand, you affirmed that it was fine for him to go. he left you with another kiss to your temple and hurried off, turning around with another wave and his signature large, beaming smile. you blew him a kiss and he pretended to catch it, and you smiled fondly. your relationship with danny had always been friendly and flirty, lando never felt intimidated. a brother & sister bond is what it felt like with danny, being teammates strengthened your friendship greatly. 

sleep was calling, but the crowd and bustling people kept you up. your eyes met the tv broadcasting the race, seeing the drivers come towards their garages. red flag, you correctly assumed.

fiddling with the zipper of your fireproof suit, you couldn't do much other than stay hydrated and watch the race. a few more people came in and visited you, mostly your team, to make sure you were okay and alive.

on the uncomfortable hospital bed, you tried to catch up on sleep. as soon as your eyes closed, you heard the voice of the commentators. “the race has come to an early end. y/l/n’s crash was brutal. we haven’t heard much about her condition as of yet…” their voices faded out as you heard commotion outside of your hospital bed.

minutes later, lando came barreling in. his fireproof suit was still suited up, and his eyes immediately locked onto your worn out body.

“oh y/n,” he whispered out. lando walked closer to you and carefully wrapped his arms around you, and you could feel his body buzzing from adrenaline. 

“hi, lando,” you spoke softly, wrapping your arms around his slim torso. you could feel him hug you tighter. “they didn’t have to call off the race, y’know…i’m honestly fine.”

lando stood up straight and his eyes raked over you, similar to when daniel checked up on you. “fine my ass. you look like shit, y/n. but i’m so glad you’re okay.” his hands ran up and down yours, seemingly to calm himself and you down. “fuck the race, i had to see if you were okay.”

“just a bruised rib and-”

“and? there’s more?” lando’s concerned yet exasperated voice berated you. 

you rolled your eyes before continuing, “-and a concussion. honey, i swear, i’m fine. they gave me meds for the headache and i’ve just been in here waiting for you.” you turned your head and grabbed his hand, your lips meeting the inside of his wrist. a smile formed on your face, trying to comfort him. 

he sighed out in relief, glad you were okay. he brought you into his arms again. “i just- i don’t know what i would have done if it was worse. i’m so glad you’re okay.” you could feel him press a million kisses to the top of your slightly throbbing head. 

a few seconds passed before you spoke up, teasing clear in your voice, “you’re gonna have to apologize to your team, y’know. your yelling was quite loud, baby.” 

he groaned out dramatically and chuckled, “oh, fuck off.”

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italics they could never make me hate you :/

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[born-to-lose]

Btw I feel so fucking good for cutting my ex out of my life finally

#it was about time i did. i let him lead me on and confuse me and give me anxiety and depression for six months #and now i'm finally free thank fuck i broke off contact for good with him now #he hasn't replied in two days so i think it's fine with him too but i mean what's the use in talking to your ex #who you can't ever have a conversation with without it turning into an argument or bitter discussion #who posts about how much he misses you and regrets leaving you but when you ask him what's up with that he says he doesn't want you back #and gets defensive mad at you for seeing his posts and asking him to make up his mind #i'm just sick and tired of it and done with it and him and it's so freeing to know you don't have to deal with that anymore #no hate on anyone and i'm not gonna elaborate but i'm so happy i can move on with my life in peace now #mel talks

[ihamtmus]

this fandom should be studied because the levels of brainwashing and hypocrisy are something else

#i hate this fandom and this company and YES this is about armys and hybe #not a day goes by without Something happening and i'm tired as soon as jhope leaves i'm leaving too bye #once again this is about twitter and twitter armys #not you guys #they're truly insane over there #and it is also about how that company treated both his first solo album that he poured his heart and soul into #and the collab with his muse and favorite artist that was so important to him #when we see that hybe can be competent when they want to be #i don't want to say more because this is jimin's big day and i love him and i'm glad he's doing well. this has nothing to do with him #this fandom is pathetic though in how they treat both the artist they claim to love AND other people who love him #the ''everyone who doesn't agree with me is a solo'' mentality is so sick #just like thinking that being a solo is something bad like come on do you expect people who saw jhope at lolla to also love dynamite bfr #and that company needs to be burned to the ground i fear #before anyone asks nothing particularly huge happened i'm just done #also don't send me asks about this if you want to argue with me because this is tumblr not twitter and we don't want it here #bts #my post #bts negativity #big hit negativity #negativity

[skrunksthatwunk]

found out that rascal's owner took him again while i was out, and he's probably not gonna be back since the semester's almost over. i don't even know if his owner's coming back next semester, if i'll ever see him again. if he'll ever see me again. why do they wait until im not around to do this? why do they never let me say goodbye to him?

#i didnt really get to process it bc i found out when i was hanging w a friend but. im processing it now #sigh.. i dont know. i dont know. #at the end of the day he is and has always been someone else's cat. i can't control what she does with him #no matter what i think of it. she can always take him away. but every time it happens im just. im tired yknow? #it's worth it to me to have him around. i love him dearly and i want him to be in a home where he's actually cared for (which i have done my #best to provide) but he's just. not mine. and every time it happens i back up and think man. im such a sucker. #i don't think people manipulate me often. not in an ongoing way i mean. i don't think ppl see me as valuable enough to most of the time. #but damn. she really found my weak spots didn't she. free petcare courtesy of one chump who can't live without animals around. sigh #he deserves stability but he deserves love more. this weird shared custody thing is better for him i think. and frankly i also love him. #im not the priority here but my feelings are like. there. him being taken away without even telling me first hurts. i'd like to be able to #say goodbye to him. im not saying he has to stay or this has to go on but couldn't they just.. consider my feelings a bit more? #just bc you're fine with dropping your cat off somewhere for weeks not knowing when you'll see him again and not visiting doesn't mean i am #and i kind of feel like my roommate is part of this. after all it's not like his owner can just break into our room and take him #and if im always out when they do it there's a chance roomie's just shipping him off whenever she gets sick of him. #she's done it before. even after she agreed so vehemently with me about never wanting him to go back to such treatment and stuff early on. #she's been spraying him for little reason lately too. and i mean i get being a little more cautious with some things bc her neck's broken #but she's really fixated on how much he smells and bites and stuff and talks about how if i wasn't around she'd consider eating him #and then other times she's like that's my pookie. i don't get it. like yeah i tell rascal to fuck off sometimes bc he hurts me but it's not #like a hateful thing. i dont resent him for it i'm just annoyed sometimes bc he's maiming me a little. he's my baby. how could i loathe him? #so it makes me think that roomie might be blaming his transfers on his owner bc she doesn't want me to judge her #and like. this is her room too. it's not her fault she's more bothered by the smell than me. if she doesn't want to be bitten and clawed all #the time i can sympathize. i don't wanna force her to house him. but i wish she'd just be honest with me i guess #like. what if his owner decides to give him away without telling me? i'd take him in in a heartbeat. even though i know it's a bad idea. #but i'm worried he'll fall out of my reach completely. and at the very least I'd like to be able to say goodbye first. that's all.

[toasteaa]

Getting a finished commission of an insert/oc and going a little psycho bonkers like

Oh so that's how my faves feel about them -

#toast talks #this is absolutely about Neuv and Eclair because I just got a comm of Eclair and holy shit #I'm gonna upload it to her TH asap because I don't post a lot of commissions I get on tumblr #mainly cause the artists I commission aren't on tumblr and TH is a way better place to organize oc art and profiles #But I WILL add Eclair's TH link onto my pinned post so people can see her whenever they want #I've got another comm of her and Neuv in the works and I'm so excited for that one to be done because rrrrrgh the ref pose is so 💕💕💕 #They make me wanna write and draw and they're so so cute and I keep getting art of them being cute #but they're SO oblivious or are so used to their own joint routine it's like theyre married without being married and just #UGH I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I CAN'T SHUT UPPPPP #I WANNA WRITE THEIR LORE SO BAD BUT I'M SO STUCK ON IT #I probably shouldnt write it though because my brain literally keeps going 'she'd take a bullet for him. she did take a bullet for him' #AND SHE DID AND SHE'S FINE #BUT #actually I'm gonna shut up cause I'm talking too much and I'm tired and getting sick GOODNIGHT 🫡😴

[sarah-yyy]

legal exec: woke up late yesterday so she thought she'd just take a sick day off

partner: has had the last three days off work because he's got a stuffy nose

me: this is fine :) i am fine :)

#at this stage i am 95% sure mr r is just fucking around at home like buddy if you have time to micromanage me while you're 'sick' at home #then you're not fucking sick #literally i am...............so tired of everyone in this office today #yesterday!!!! i got yelled at by some client for work that mr r didn't do for him!!!!! #like wtf!!!!! that's not even my file why are you yelling at me!!!!!! #wait for mr r to come back from his bloody sick leave AND THEN yell at HIM!!!!!! #wtf have i done!!!!!! #i'm doing all of mr r's meetings AND my own AND did all the fucking admin on my own yesterday #because our legal exec is leaving at the end of next month and seriously just gives no fucks about work anymore #which i can understand BUT STILL #jiejie is STRUGGLING!!!!!! can y'all just get your act together for a week so i can breathe 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also i think i'm about to get my period soon and am Very Irritable #i spent like 2 hours last night thinking about how i should've yelled back at mr r's client #work stories #sarah talks about herself

[shakestheclown]

i feel like killing myself does anyone else feel like killing themselves

#i wish i could just live alone lmao #i need to eat regularly but i cant make food for myself after work w/o my little brother asking me to make him something else too #which isnt the worst thing but hes 20 he could use the oven literally anytime but he refuses to even try #and my time before+after work is so limited i dont feel like cooking a bunch of extra food for somebody who couldve done it hours ago #and then when i try to plan meals out for my family either he'd rather go to sleep or my mom (knows im cooking and then) leaves the house #AND they both get mad and offended if i order food just for myself BUT ALSO if i order for me+my brother he refuses to eat anything besides #mcdonalds which i hate like. i cant win and im just so sick of being alive #on the one hand my brother would never eat if i didnt make him food/buy him food but on the other hand at what point does it stop being my #responsibility... i'm tired i just wanna live in a world where i only have to look after myself and not worry abt everyone hating me #regardless nothing is appetizing to me anymore and i never have time to eat anyway not to mention money like im just so sick of being alive #[liza minelli cackle]

[bylertruther]

thinking about how lonnie only ever cared about will when he died and that was just to profit off of his death + will giving a girl he doesn't know his toy truck just because she's crying and he thinks she needs it more even if he knows joyce can't buy him another one + one of the very first things will did upon waking up in the hospital was ask if jonathan was okay + will telling them to close the gate in season two even though he's part of the hivemind and that would've killed him, too + will breaking his own heart by confessing his feelings and giving mike the painting he's spent so long on but saying that all of it came from el thus sacrificing his own wants and self to again help others + how that same selflessness and self-sacrificing nature of his is going to undoubtedly rear its head in season five again because he's at the center of it all and it all goes back to him and vecna is a creature that feeds off of n fans the flames of pain and guilt... feelin very scared n anxious in this chili's tonight over this actually 😳

#he is NOT going to die obviously clearly we know this they're not killing kids #BUT. #i'm just saying.... i don't think it would be crazy for him to feel guilty and like maybe this wouldn't have happened if... #well... u kno.. :( #he would never give up bc that's literally his whole thing that he's a fighter and a survivor #but. he does love his friends and his family. and he has been willing to die if it meant saving them before so like. yanno. #BUT IT WON'T HAPPEN I'M JUST SAYING THE ANGST IS LIKELY GOING TO BE THERE #AND THEN OFC EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY WILLIAM SHUT UP SIT DOWN AND GO TO TIME OUT #and then we'll get some good n scrumptious hurt/comfort ok no one stone me i'm knocking on wood ok i Kno #just imagine will proposing that and everyone immediately says NO and mike especially gets pissed #because he's SICK and TIRED of fucking losing will every single time he thinks he's got him back #and god dammit he's already seen what life is like without will there he's not going to do it again he's NOT #don't go where i can't follow + crazy together + it was the best thing i've ever done + it's hawkins it's not the same without you #versus closegate + el commissioned it + she needs you and she always will #mike who is clutching onto will for dear life unwilling to let him go and will who is all too willing to #walk through the gates of hell if it means saving everyone he's ever loved and putting them out of their misery #but of course there's a better plan and letting will die is like killing a puppy it's like taking a sledgehammer to the foundation of #everything yanno. without heart we'd all fall apart n u can't beat the darkness without the light #anyway. can u tell i'm procrastinating editing my fic rn n thats why im writing epic poems in these tags <3 #mine

[defiant-firefly]

In terms of what I've been up to lately, I'm planning on massively overhauling my bedroom (I still live with my parents and with the way the economy is going, I seriously doubt that's gonna change any time soon) because these meds have made me more aware of just how badly I need a space that suits me. I have big ideas, and hopefully this treatment stuff will help me realise them, even if it takes for fucking ever. Like, the skills I'd need to learn for this would be quite numerous I would say so yeah it's a difficult project, but a big one I can gradually work on over time with other stuff I wanna do so maybe I'll get somewhere with it. Literally, after we moved here years ago, we put wall paper on one wall and I had plans to paint the rest of the room but I did one wall, and an unfinished pegasus onto it and we did nothing else to it. Same with the rest of the house honesly. Only room that got finished was the paint in the kitchen. After all this time, the exact same off-white walls everywhere and the grey carpets have kinda killed it for all of us I think, but now that I have an actual emotional requirement for a room that's comfy, cosy, and very much me, I'm gonna see if I can change that.

Dad also says if I actually go ahead with my little dream project of putting a train track high up on the wall that goes all around the room, and it actually looks good (cause I don't do things by halves okay I will take the idea and run marathons with it), he'll let me put another one in the living room themed on the ocean. It pissed mum off because it's not something you're supposed to have in a living room, and she doesn't want any guests assuming the worst, but she's wrong. An ocean themed model railway around the room would be unique, interesting, fun, and loved by everyone worth the time of day, in my humble, totally unbiased opinion.

Speaking of mum, she's gained an interest in making the garden look nice. We were gonna work on a pond and stuff together but she's kinda just doing her own thing so I'm gonna get a bunch of Diglett and Dugtrio garden ornaments and gradually hide them around the place until she notices. She won't stop me! She's used to my shit! But I'm wondering how much I can get away with before she notices the Diglett takeover lmao

#firefly life #i just felt like making a little post #no one is outside talking to me so I dunno #a little post for anyone actually interest in what I'm up to now #I haven't actually done anything to be clear #this is why I'm on meds I have chronically awful executive dysfunction and have been unable to do basically ANYTHING in YEARS #and that's depressing you know? #but now I'm getting ideas and there's actually HOPE that I'll be able to do them!!! #so I'm feeling much more optimistic about everything now!! #it's not a cure or anything but I'm hoping this just makes it EASIER #I just want a life man and this is pretty much my only chance at that #is that an unhealthy mindset? probably. #but the NHS just send me around in circles diagnosing me with 'curable' depression and anxiety #and then having the audacity to claim they've CURED me when NOTHING has changed!! #sick of it man #you know dad decided to pay for me to go private for this? that's how sick and tired he was??? #literally giving me his life savings so I have a chance at a life of my own #can you believe that? #he's a grumpy old man that's almost retired that blames every technical issue on me switching him to Firefox #and is a master of showing up exactly when you don't need him and for avoiding making decisions to an infuriating level sometimes #but fuck man #there's a lot of people in the world that WOULDN'T do that if even if they could #I'm looking into trying to do something special for his birthday and christmas and stuff cause I just #don't know how to tell him how important him doing this for me is #sure he doesn't get it like at all and has a hard time remembering anything I tell him about it unless it's the thirty fifth time #but he's doing it anyway and that's so amazing of him #I don't want him to regret this #we've already seen improvements for me but if I can have some semblance of a life again #the three of us would be overjoyed #and his hard earned money wouldn't have gone to waste

[starlit-mansion]

i still keep getting recommended posts about the james somerton debacle (unsurprising) and i swear to god, at this point i've spent more time trying to remember what my reaction was to watching his yoi video a while back while half-sleep deprived or smth than i a) spent watching the video and b) spent thinking about any other creator i watched one mid video from and ignored after

#at least i remember specifically deciding that blaire trianglehead was too slow paced and dull to keep listening to after about 3 vids #but also the subjects were really... ghoulish borderline true crime like the leggings scam vid that was 1/3 botched surgery talk #at least in my memory. and her dispassionately talking about it rather than sticking to the subject at hand and having little opinion #put me right off my lunch and i was done #somerton was allll up in my recs just before the bomb dropped and i was half keeping an eye out for a new vid about a subject i cared about #but it was literally all stuff i'm sick to death of. didn't want to hear about evil gays or vampires or if barbie is camp #it was all very... stuff i was already tired of seeing on tumblr and i didn't think i'd get anything new out of #but i was still keeping him in mind because i thought he was a type of person that had little presence in the video essay scene #lol in retrospect #but i do actually try to keep an eye out for creators with different backgrounds. esp black creators. and accept that i might disagree a bi #or find parts of their perspective a little uncomfortable or off-putting. so i probably would have forgiven some of the misogyny tbh #not that it's something that like. idk i should do to punish myself. it's not like there isn't a lot of microaggressions from women #but the fact that it was proven that so many of those were trumped up for show was. honestly a huge betrayal? #people are genuinely cruel to marginalized creators and pretending that it's worse than it is and flopping for sympathy is so galling #it's really easy to be like 'oh i would have never been taken in' just because there was already something keeping me at arms length #but i know that isn't true. i'm a freakin easy mark! you don't even want to know how many podcast/youtube sponsorships i've tried #and also sometimes i find something initially off-putting about a youtuber and later get into them more and find them charming #i genuinely don't think that i have unimpeachable first impressions and sometimes i test them later to see if they still hold

[edd-ska]

So uh I have some bad news.. Me and val and Felix have broken up but me and val are remaining as best friends but... Felix however decided to make a tiktok about me being an Eric cartman fictionkin the thing is he knew this entire time that I was a Eric fictionkin and I knew that the post was about me because I mean who else would be a fictionkin of Eric cartman? After I saw the post I tried my hardest to confront him by saying "I'm nothing like my media." and his response was "that's not how that works." I said whatever and decided to block him because you know I'm done and I'm done with his shit.

Also I still can't get him off my mind and it hurts like shit

#vent #fuck you Felix #i'm done with your shit #I'm tired of explaining it over and over again that fictionkins aren't like their media I'm just sick of explaining it in general #My fucking god Felix why why would you say that if you knew I was a Eric fictionkin #also val I'm sorry for how he's treated you too #i'll be okay I just need some time to heal up because this is probably gonna scar me for life #I'm sorry guys I'll try my best to forget him #it hurts so fucking bad

[clownpassing]

sorry i do so much nickposting i am just not sure where else to put my thoughts and feelings. anyways yeah last post was a little about him like mostly i just wish he stated his intentions more clearly like does he actually want to hang out with me or does he just feel bad for me and did those kisses mean anything would he do it again? could we please do it again?

#txt #op #im yearning its been like 3 weeks and it gets WORSE #i just. i don't know if i can just straight up ask him what his interest in me is. or if i would trust his(or anyone's) answer #my self worth has been not great for the last 2 years #it does not feel good to be flirted with and kissed and then flaked on twice EVEN THOUGH he had valid reasons for both times #just my gay little autism brain i am so used to people taking the easy way out in unfriending me (like ghosting etc) #my rational mature brain KNOWS he's busy and tired and stressed and sick lately but my traumatized little sensitive brain thinks maybe the #problem is me #ughhhhhh sorry ok i'm done now

[roomthirtythree]

sorry to vent post on main but I am losing my mind

My fiancé is across the Atlantic from me. Last year before I left to visit him, my brother was lamenting the fact that we wouldn't see each other before I left. He was on vacation. So I suggested a day we could hang out and he agreed.

He cancels the day of, saying he's sick and going to the doctor. A few days later I ask him how it went and he said he didn't go. Okay.

THIS YEAR I'm leaving on Monday. Again, my brother says he would like to hang out before I leave, and suggested yesterday. Guess who canceled again, claiming he was sick?

But the REAL KICKER is that later on in the evening he texts me: "I'm so lost, I thought you were like... Moving on Monday".

MY (quite literally) BROTHER IN CHRIST. You thought I was MOVING ACROSS THE ATLANTIC and still couldn't be bothered to come say goodbye??

That's worse. You can see how that's worse right???

#Del.txt #I asked him today if it was a joke and he doubled down #I'm just done #Tempted to leave him a letter saying that I'd like to go low contact until he gets his shit together #Because I'm tired of putting efforts in a relationship where he's only draining me #I'm sick of caring for him #There's a lot of sibling trauma lmao I'm not just a bitch #j'ai peut-être demande à ma mère a quoi ils l'avaient terminé parce que clairement on est pas pareil #Je sais que c'est pas gentil mais bon

[wrioluvr]

text messages with your cute sub yandere boyfriend ☆

cw: reader is implied to have a cock, no pronouns used, fingering (yandere receiving), kinda wholesome

[name'swhore]: darling!! i changed my username for you!! do you like it?? (੭˃ᴗ˂)੭♡ [name'swhore]: darling....? (;´Д`) [name'swhore]: please answer me...... (ㅠ﹏ㅠ) [name'swhore]: ...... [name'swhore]: *audio message of him crying* (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ ) [name]: damn bitch i'm at work i'll ttyl [name'swhore]: bitch? can you say that again? (,,o//o,,) [name]: ........bitch? [name'swhore]: i just fingered myself to your message.... please call me your bitch more often. (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧ [name]: ooookaaayyyyyyy.

feeling like teasing him a little, you smirk as you type out the next message. you imagine the expression he makes as he reads it.

[name]: want me to do it for you when i get back? [name'swhore]: do what? (´･ω･`)? [name]: finger you. [name'swhore]: ... [name'swhore]: YES. yes. yes. please. a million times yes. ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡ [name]: be good and i will. and no hole pics. i almost got fired last time because i opened your message in front of my boss. [name'swhore]: right. sorry. please don't be mad. (´ε｀；) [name]: send me another hole pic and i won't fuck you for a month. [name'swhore]: I'M SORRY!!!!!!! (˃̣̣̥△˂̣̣̥)

work was tiring today. you laid on your bed staring at the ceiling of your room, musing over a difficult customer you had to deal with hours prior. your serene expression was contrasted by your boyfriend's flushed face, who was currently curled up into a ball by your side, squirming as his tight hole was being ravaged by your tender fingers. you knew all his sweet spots, being able to ruin him even without fully paying attention. a rather loud moan brought you back from your thoughts, forcing you to be made aware of the mess your boyfriend had made all over your bed. the boyfriend in question was also currently lying face down, breathing heavily, trying to recover his composure. his hole continuously puckered as you pulled your fingers out, causing him to shudder. out of the corner of his eye, he peeked at you, upon seeing your unimpressed expression, trailed his eyes down to look at your crotch.

"you're not even hard...." he observed, not bothering to hide the obvious dismay in his voice. "are you... are you sick of me?" his mind races to find anything he could have done wrong. "i won't send you any more nudes unsolicited! i'll... i'll pick you up from work everyday!! i'll let you abuse my hole-"

"you let me do that already...."

"....i...i don't know!! uh..."

"god, calm down. i'm just not really in the mood today. sorry...." you decide to be nice and pat his head comfortingly as he lies back down, exhausted. "you want to hear about my day at work?"

he nods frantically, perking back up as he listens intently to your rambles. although he was a bit of a pathetic slut, domestic life with him was nice. maybe you'd fuck him properly next time...

#sub yandere #yandere drabble #yandere x reader #male reader #gn reader #dom reader #male yandere #yandere x male reader

[arcadian-vampire]

If y'all need me, I'm busy lamenting my status as a Medical Anomaly. Yeah it'll be all day. Or two. Maybe six.

#pikaposts #medical anomaly blogging #my fingernails keep turning blue now and i'm umm going through it lol (has cried like three times in the past three days bc i'm scared) #but i'm also. too scared to tell my doctor about it. i haven't even told him that my feet turn purple when i stand #bc above everything else i am Terrified that previous doctors and therapists are right and this is all my fault #or that i'm just too sensitive #i'm so tired of tests coming back all good when i'm not all good. i'm so sick of doctors looking down on me #i'm sick of them looking at me at all! because they end up deciding i'm doing this all on purpose so they do look at me! #i wish it was on purpose so i could just stop. i wish i'd fucked up intentionally instead of accidentally #but i'm also terrified that there Is something wrong- something that can be fixed- and i've waited this long #because some shitty doctors decided to give me ptsd when i made a serious effort to get better #i'd be so furious i wouldn't know what to do with myself #but i still don't know which is right! is it me or is it them! who knows! does it matter! #okay i'm done being a silly goofy guy in the tags i'm gonna paint now

[wetpapert0wel]

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#venting bc i have that freedom on my blog lol #/////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////////// #sick at the thought of my failures as a person #3 years later and i'm still stuck wondering if i'm good. if i've atoned for the shit i've done. and i never feel like i have. #i'm doing the best i can but i feel like a loser and a failure; all i do is sit at home and drown my thoughts with the same 10 yt videos #i feel useless. on top of being scum. i don't know which is worse. #like i don't know what else i'm supposed to do!!! i'm just trying to move on. and i thought i was doing a pretty ok job. #man idk if He's reading (you know who you are) but if he is: i'm sorry. but its your turn to leave Me alone #idk if he secretly follows me or whatever. i fucking see him everywhere though and it makes my stomach flip and fill with bile. #i keep seeing people who look even vaguely like him and it kills me. i have to block strangers because they look like my ex #man. i'm so tired. #i don't want to be reminded of how shitty i was anymore. i want to let go of that shit and i really want to move on #i really want a life and a purpose. but i'm stuck. #i want to melt into the ground and fade away #melt me like a popsicle and flush me down the drain #orignaletti