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kai-anderson-whore · 8 months

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Hi! Could you write an angst where Kit takes the punishment for reader in the asylum similar to that scene with grace inside Sister Jude's office?

Please and thank you <3

Yes of course so I decided to go off from the scene and write from there hope you enjoy <3

I’d take the brunt of it (kit walker x reader)

Summary: you planned to escape the asylum with Lana but she didn’t want kit to tag along so she snitched on you both.

Warnings: angst, punishment, caned, asylum, mentions of divorce, escaping the asylum, shouting. Let me know if I have missed anything

Word count: 1,1k

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You spent almost every moment of your day sat on an old chair in the common room watching everyone studying them, but all you could see was how different they were to you. They were insane or have severe mental health issues that means they can be within the public. You weren't supposed to be in here only because your now ex husband placed you in here before he had divorced you.

You hated it here. You felt like you were beginning to go insane with everything staring at the same faces the same rooms, same mistreatment and that song on repeat for four years. You were sick and tired until he came along. Kit Walker everyone knew him as bloody face the horrendous man that killed those women including his own wife.

But to you he was just Kit, the sweet caring person that never showed any killer signs. You knew from the moment you laid eyes on him he was innocent. That's how you became friends. You taught him everything he needed to know to survive this god forsaken hellhole. Another thing you taught him was that you couldn't escape.

But kit was determined to escape this place if it even means he goes out here dead. You knew there was no way out everyone knew until you both met Lana winters. You became friendly with her she promised a way out for you both but you didn't want to leave without kit.

"No he's not coming with us for Christ sake he's a god damn murder" Lana seethed through her teeth in a hushed yet harsh tone. "I'm not leaving without him Lana he's innocent I know he is" you sighed sticking up for kit. "How do you know what are you both together or something because he wouldn't be in here if he wasn't" Lana snapped at you rolling the dough with the rolling pin.

"So what if we are, plus your in here through blackmail I'm in here because my ex husband put me in here so I don't get his money from the divorce guess we are all in here for the wrong reasons" you proved a point your hands aching from needing the dough. "I said no and that's final" Lana stated ending this conversation.

But you waited till the time had come to escape the asylum. Something was happening within the asylum everyone's attention was somewhere else you grabbed kit's hand running for the doors "what are you doing bringing him y/n" the anger in lana's voice didn't bother you, your target only being getting through those doors into freedom.

"He's coming lana if you like it or not" you said dragging kit rushing to those doors. "HELP HE'S ESCAPING, THE KILLER IS ESCAPING HELP ME" Lana screamed. You and kit turned back trying to get Lana to stop but before you knew it two guards pinned you both to the ground. You felt the defeated you were so close yet so far from the freedom you deserved.

Everything was a blur to you. You couldn't remember what happened after that all you remember was being dragged to sister Jude's office by the guards kit behind you. "Well, well, well look who it is the escape artists" sister Jude tutted with a wicked smirk on her face. You hung your head low fearful for the punishment you both would receive.

You heard the door open you turned your head to see Lana there with a guilty look on her face. "You snitch you know we both don't deserve to be here why Lana" you yelled in anger. Your blood boiled even looking at her as she just stared at her feet in guilt. Kit just watched you kicking off till sister Jude stopped you. "Stop this y/n" she warned.

You and kit's bodies leaned against the cold wood, scrunching your eyes shut awaiting for the horrifying punishment you will receive. Your hospital gown exposing you from the back you heard sister Jude thanking Lana for her honesty. "Now as a reward I want you to pick what cane to use" you heard footsteps from behind. Turning your head to see sister Jude opening the cabinet revealing the selection of canes one more taunting than the other.

Lana picked out a thin cane holding it up to sister Jude for somewhat of an approval which she only sniggers at. "Your too kind Lana banana" she says picking a much thicker one making her way to you. "Twenty each that seem fair enough" sister Jude calls out you felt the cold wood against the back of your thighs just as she pulled the cane away, your eyes scrunched shut holding your breath waiting on the punishment.

"Wait sister Jude y/n had nothing to do with it she didn't want to leave I dragged her I should be the one getting punished not her" kit spoke up standing straight your eyes shot wide open. "Very well then that means 40 for you mr walker but miss y/l/n you watch as a reminder if you ever step out of line" sister Jude stated waving the cane around.

You slowly got up making your way to stand by Lana the fear still filled within your eyes. Sister Jude raised her cane to kit smacking the wood on the backs of his knees. You saw the pain in his eyes but he never cried out in pain, but his face didn’t fail to show how much pain he was in. The tears falling down your cheeks you wished it was you receiving the punishment instead of him.

With each smack you flinched, the sound of the cane smacking off his skin seemed to get louder and louder till all 40 hits were completed. His skin red raw almost bleeding “take them to the common room” sister Jude dismissed all of you getting took back to the common room. The same song still played you stayed close to kit helping him to sit down.

“AHHH” kit practically screamed as he sat on the chair. “Slowly kit” you said helping him out the tears still falling down your face, kit saw you crying not even caring if he’s in pain. “Hey are you okay” he asked wiping your tears with the pads of his thumb. You shook your head sniffling “no I’m so sorry kit you shouldn’t have taken the blame for me it was all me yet you got the brunt of it all, I feel so guilty” you sobbed lightly.

“I wouldn’t want you getting caned I’d gladly do it again if it means you won’t get hurt” kit smiled trying to make you feel better. “We were so close” you whispered resting your head on his shoulder. “We’ll get out here one day I promise” kit whispered back taking your hand in his. “I hope so”.

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casualartifice · 6 months

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My mom has been working to try and rescue some horses for over a year now and it's ended up putting us in some serious financial issues. On top of that, many of the horses have not even been able to find good homes, instead being resold for profit and mistreated. We're trying to do the best we can with what we have left, but money is drying up fast, making bills and mortgages an issue on top of everything required to maintain horses.

If you can help at all, or even just boost this message, it would be greatly appreciated.

#gofundme #donation #help #assistance #charity #horse #farm #signal boost #sorry for tag spam i just need to get the message out

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magicbonesjones · 2 years

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Like genuinely I'm sorry if seeing my help posts upset or annoy you but my family is going through hell right now. My partner is going through a cancer scare, our 2 youngest kids are being mistreated, neglected, and abused by their bio father on the weekends and there's nothing we can do until we get SOLID proof (working on it), my partner and I are in danger leaving the house every day in this town because where we live is extremely against "same sex" relationships and everyone here knows we're queer, my daughter has been freaking out about having to start middle school because she hasn't had her name legally changed yet and she doesn't want her classmates to know she's trans and it's like $350 for a name change here, she's also sick and underweight because her severe anxiety and also her autism makes it hard for her to eat and her bio dad starves her on the weekends (we're keeping track of her weight and if she drops weight over the time she's there her feeding therapist is getting CPS involved because CPS said WE can't prove anything so they did nothing when we called) we're trying to save money to get out of this town but right now we can barely even afford rent and food has been difficult to get for us lately as well because they fucking raised our rent. We also have a family friend coming in at the end of the month who I'm pretty sure despises me and I'm stressed tf out about that and like ??????? Y'all I'm losing my fucking mind. We don't get paid enough for anything and we've been pushing the shop and tarot readings trying to get more income but everything is going to shit and failing. I'm drowning.

#personal #vent

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casspurrjoybell-29 · 5 months

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Enduring Ties - Chapter 3 - Part 1

*Warning Adult Content*

Liam had always avoided his father, kept both himself and Cailan away from his critical gaze.

He was an obedient son but never out of loyalty.

He feared his father.

Although Liam occasionally alluded to why, mentioned past mistreatment, Cailan had never seen things get aggressive between them in the six months he had been living with them.

Cailan didn't hear the initial discussion but as things became heated the gist of it reached Cailan's room.

Liam had announced that he wouldn't be marrying the girl his father had arranged for him.

He had told his father that he would not be marrying any girl because he had no interest in girls.

Cailan wanted to clamp his hands over his ears to block out the yelling but he needed to know what was going on.

"Don't you dare touch me."

Cailan heard Liam yell.

"I'm a man now. You don't get to hit me anymore."

"You think you're a man?" Liam's father yelled back.

"You're still a stupid child. If you're going to live under my roof, you will follow my rules. If you don't like that, you can marry Louise and start your own household."

"Or I can make my own way."

"How do you propose to do that? Sell that slave of yours? He's the only thing in your name worth any money."

Cailan's gut clenched painfully. He knew Liam would never do it, he'd promised many times that he would keep Cailan forever but it still sent fear coursing through him to hear his sale suggested.

Liam's voice was too quiet for Cailan to hear what he said next but his father's reaction made it clear enough.

"You're joining the military? Don't expect to use my name to get a good position. You'll be digging latrines and working in the mud."

"As if I want any association with your name," Liam shouted back.

"I don't want anything from you."

"Then get out."

Cailan heard the boom of the front door slamming shut behind Liam, felt it in his chest.

Liam would come back for him, wouldn't he?

He'd be back in the morning.

He was just angry and his father was angry and in the morning they'd make everything okay again.

In the morning, everything was not okay.

Liam was still gone and even Aubree didn't bother to stick her head in to see if he wanted breakfast.

In everything that had happened, had everyone just forgotten Cailan existed?

Maybe that was better for now.

Liam had always protected Cailan from his father and Cailan definitely didn't want to go drawing his attention when he was still angry about his son absconding.

He carefully timed his trips to the bathroom for when nobody was around and kept to his room the rest of the time.

Liam had always made sure Cailan's need for affection was seen to, even when it meant having Cailan sit on the floor while he sat at his desk and weaved a hand through Cailan's hair while he studied.

He'd never once denied him touch as a punishment.

Cailan knew his behaviour wasn't flawless but Liam had never seen the need to doll out anything but the occasional stern word to keep him under control.

Not being at all used to having touch withheld from him, Cailan was beginning to feel the effects by the end of the first day.

Or perhaps it was simply his growing anxiety making him feel too tight inside, twisting his gut into knots.

Aubree did come by on the second morning, looked at Cailan with lips pressed into a firm line and left a bowl of plain porridge for him without comment.

She'd never quite thawed to him but as she'd realised how innocent his relationship with Liam truly was she'd started treating him less icily.

All that progress was gone now.

Once again, Cailan was left alone.

He ate a mouthful of porridge and then pushed the bowl away.

He wasn't hungry.

The bite of food just made him feel sick.

By the third day, his fingertips had begun to tremble.

Was Liam ever coming back for him?

What would happen if he didn't?

Would he be sold?

Disposed of?

Would he be expected to serve Liam's father instead?

He couldn't imagine how that would work.

Liam's father was only interested in women and though Cailan was decent at cleaning he could only use his magic if someone was providing him with regular physical contact.

Cailan was curled up in his bed, hugging himself, the next time Aubree brought him food.

She placed the tray on his bedside table and then turned to leave but paused in the doorway.

"He really has joined the military."

Cailan inhaled shakily.

"Is he coming back for me?"

"That's all I know," Aubree said before leaving the room.

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chronicallyrambling · 2 years

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Trauma

TW: Mentions of CP! Please avoid if this topic is triggering to you! Living with trauma is hard. Really hard. It's something that I have to face when I least realize that I have to. Days, weeks, even months can go by where I feel okay, only for it to come crumbling back down. You're left wondering why; why you? Why this? What did you do that caused all of this hurt? In early 2020, even before the world came crashing down, my half-brother was arrested. He had hundreds of explicit images of children, that he had accumulated in the span of less than a year. It was crushing, and devastating. And yet, over time, the more I realize that I was victimized by him. The more I learn and have to heal from, due to a man that ruined 20 years of my life. It's sickening, to realize how intensely you were mistreated, and how little was done about it. Despite going to my mother, despite visibly being uncomfortable and unhappy with the situation- nothing was ever done. No one ever stopped him or made sure I was safe or okay. Even to this day, there is some level of protection my family has over him. My mother still talks to him and had sent him hundreds of dollars in books things for him to have while he was in the local jail. My grandmother still sends him money and things. You end up feeling invisible to the ones that should care about you most. I try not to think too heavily on all of this, as at the moment I cannot be in therapy to properly delve into all these things- but you get reminders, things that break you and leave you in a rut. I watched It Chapter 1 for the first time tonight, and while it was a good movie, all it did was bring back floods of memories. His love of Stephen King, and specifically remembering hearing him asking for those books while he was in jail, knowing what was in books like It- it makes you sick to your stomach. When these things pop up, it's crippling. An intense reminder that you were so deeply wronged and hurt, and that the world just keeps moving despite it. It makes you hurt so much, and everything stops for you, but not for anyone else. You feel stuck- and when family tends to favor the one that caused this hurt and pain, you feel helpless. It's rough. It's rough existing right now, it's rough being here. You end up stuck in your own mind, and any attempts you make to pull yourself out never work because it's all still there. Unwavering. Gnawing at you for what feels like forever. I am hoping as much as I can to discuss this once I can get back in therapy. It eats at me whenever I'm alone.

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professional-idiocy · 3 years

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Princeling No More -

Guess who finally edited this thing. So yes! Whump for the whump gods! Got a bit excited with these two so uh yeah we have 1,3k words for the first one. Also, I have no concept of a healthy sleep schedule. It's 11pm here when I'm writing this ^^ Tbh who needs a healthy sleep schedule when you have whump.

Big thanks to @whumpwillow for the prompt that inspired this

CW: Slavery, death threat, and a gory death threat with a bit of dehumanization

Anette walked along the streets of the neighboring kingdom. They were in one of the biggest cities there. It was uncomfortable to see so many slaves scurrying about, they weren’t protected by anyone, much less by any laws. Well, the destruction of property was still a crime, but nothing protected from mistreatment.

She shuddered, thinking back to that arrogant prince of the former rulers who abused his power. Luckily they had lost their throne. Good riddance to those corrupt pieces of shit. Sadly there still were many others willing to abuse their power. She hated it, absolutely loathed it.

Now they had a much nicer ruler and since their family wasn’t corrupt and helped the new rulers stabilize the kingdom by lending money. They were doing better than ever.

Still, she couldn’t bear to imagine what someone like him would do to helpless people like them. The prince had tried to get her executed for refusing to bow as a child, which was ridiculous. Luckily, her parents smoothed everything over. She still despised that brat and hoped he was dying in some hellhole.

“You useless piece of shit!” Someone bellowed from behind a store, she rushed to see what was happening despite the advice of her bodyguard. The angry shouts continued from the back, only growing louder as she got closer.

“Can’t even do one job right. Shit like you isn’t worth the money I spent on you. I should just gut a sick mongrel like you and be done with it” A man shouted beating up a shivering mess who was weakly begging to be given another chance.

That was unfair. No one should go through that, much less when they were visibly sick and so frail. She hated what she was about to do but it was the only way to save that man.

“How much?” Anette asked, making the burly man turn around and glare at her. The slave looked fearful before coughing weakly and collapsing, curling up trying to protect himself.

“What?” the burly man asked confused as Anette rolled her eyes.

“How much for the slave? Or are you too stupid to understand speech?” she said, so disinterested that it even spooked her. The burly man turned all polite, rubbing his hands before speaking up.

“Five gold, miss” Anette nodded scowling taking out five gold coins, throwing them at the burly man as he rushed to catch them rummaging on the ground. She huffed, walking over to the beaten man who looked at her, fearing for his life.

She removed her cloak, draping it over his shoulders as she knelt in front of him. The man looked scared and confused as she silently looked over the injuries, before placing a hand on the man's forehead who trembled, eyes glassy and unfocused.

He was burning up and it was miraculous that he even was alive. He needed treatment and rest, not a beating for failing to carry a heavy-looking sack while sick.

“Look at me” the man did as ordered, fear adorning his whole being, he did look somewhat familiar, but Anette really couldn’t place it.

“You’re coming with me now. You can follow me, right?” the man nodded scurrying to his feet as soon as she got up, trying to follow her weakly. They left the burly man behind who was still digging through the dirt like a pig.

She was happy the carriage was close because she knew the man couldn’t last much longer. Her bodyguard opened the carriage door and she stepped in taking the man by the wrist and pulling him inside. Anette sat down as the man knelt on the floor of the carriage not daring to look up.

Her bodyguard closed the door leaving them alone, but still flashing her a worried look before turning to the sick man on the floor. She sighed, of course, he was worried about her health, but the man just had a cold while his weakened state made it worse.

Anette wiped the man’s face with a napkin before freezing. No wonder he’d looked familiar. She should’ve recognized him sooner. This man was Alan, that asshole prince. So, this was what happened to that asshole after defeat. He’d gotten what he deserved. Anette chuckled darkly as Alan flinched back, in fear of her. This wasn’t the same arrogant kid. He was someone who needed help no matter the past. Anette sighed, she’d always promised to be better. To not let power corrupt her and she wasn’t about to start now.

“Why did you buy me?” Alan whispered confused. Anette frowned, there was no arrogance, no sneer. Just fear and acceptance.

“Because I felt like it. Now, what is your name?”

“I- it doesn’t matter. I don’t even re-remember it, but I’m often called stupid” He explained slightly confused and unsure. It broke her heart. She couldn’t stay mad at him, he was a kid back then and now a traumatized adult. She cupped his face, stroking his cheek softly as the man began to cry before nuzzling into her hand.

This was his first time being treated kindly in ages. If his reaction was anything to go by.

“Then, how about Al? And you can call me Miss” Anette stated smiling. He wasn’t as threatening as she remembered, he wasn’t even a threat to anyone in that state.

“I- thank you miss. Thank you for the name” He said respectfully even if his voice tried to betray him. He bowed, not just lowering his head like before, he pressed his face to the floor staying there. It was odd since she’d dreamed of the day, he got what he deserved. It made her feel horrible, instead of the pleasure she had felt in her imagination.

Anette sighed. This was going to be weird, but she couldn’t leave him to die. She’d help him, even if he’d been the source of her nightmares for years after that day.

She grabbed one of the pastries she had bought. It was one of the salty ones filled with cheese, hopefully, it wouldn’t be too hard to eat. She smiled turning to Alan.

“Hey, Al. I have something for you. I’m sure you’ll like it” she said holding out to pastry. Alan looked visibly brighter before looking at her suspiciously.

“Wha- what do you want me to do for it? I- I know I’m useless but according to a previous master, I looked pretty when I was bleeding and terrified” Al rambled trying to figure out a way to earn a simple pastry while looking like a walking corpse. It wasn’t fair, she just wanted to hug him, tell him everything was fine, and he wouldn’t be hurt ever.

It would be too much since he already was a nervous wreck, but it was ironic how he’d helped her realize the world wasn’t fair and how she even learned that she could use her influence to protect the weaker, and now, she was using it to protect him.

“Alright, you wanted to earn the pastry so here goes” she stated as Alan readied himself. Anette smiled holding out her hand.

“Hand” She stated and Al carefully placed his hand on her hand, hoping he didn’t do anything wrong.

“Good job. Here, you’ve earned this” she said handing him the pastry as his eyes widened and he carefully took it, treasuring it like it was something precious. He backed into the corner of the carriage before he began munching on it, afraid someone was going to steal it.

She hated what they’d done to him and how they’d reduced him to this. She wasn’t going to hurt someone weaker than her. Even if he used to be an ass. Anette smiled as Al curled up in her cloak trying hard to not fall asleep before visibly loosening up and falling asleep. She would protect him from now on and maybe it would even help her get over what happened that day.

It would be good for them both.

#whump #royal whump #original whump #slavery tw #fantasy whump #dehumanisation tw #whump fic #whump writing #whumpblr #you're stuck in here with me pal #dead dove do not eat #death threat tw

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thisdreamplace · 2 years

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I got this new job and I decided to put in my 2 weeks notice at my old one. I hate my old one, I feel depressed working there and my anxiety doesn't help. So when I got a call from the new one to start a training shift, I put in my two weeks notice at my old job. New job hasn't called me back for another shift and my mom is mad at me for being too eager to quit my old one before I settled at the new one. She knows how I was mistreated at my old job but she continuously lectures me about how I shouldn't quit it yet. I'm getting really pissed and stressed because she keeps pushing me to do something that I'm not happy with. I don't give two craps that I'm jobless for one week. I'd rather that then suffer panic attacks from my old one but she doesn't seem to realize how I feel. Majority of the money I earned from my old job too was given to her to pay off the monthly bill AND I gave her extra because she asked. I'm sick and tired of everything and I feel alone. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I want to give up. I've been trying to shift realities for nearly 4 months and I can't keep pretending like I see any change or believe that things are going my way soon. If soon means a year or 30, then I don't see what the point is.

i’d recommend you take a step back and read everything you vented to me. when we are feeling highly emotional and a lot of undesirable feelings are coming up, we often get a glimpse into the true story we believe about ourselves and our lives. this opens the door to us being able to make a change. so take a moment to breathe, realize it’s totally okay to feel this way. but also recognize you will have to take responsibility for yourself and your own experiences.

the truth is, you say you haven’t seen any change in your life. but… you haven’t changed!

there is no one to change but self.

you talked so much about your mom as if she’s a big problem, but the only problem is you. she’s just reflecting you. you talked really negatively about your old job as if it was the problem, but once again, it’s just you. you can get any job in this world, but you won’t escape yourself. because this world is only a mirror.

you can spend years “trying” to shift realities, but the truth is you will only go where you have been in consciousness. where your mind has been, is what leads the next steps of your feet. and your mind, your feeling of being, certainly isn’t dwelling in the new reality. you’re anchored to the undesirable one, telling yourself life will get better when life decides to change. heres the thing though, you’ve got to be the one to change. life won’t change till you do. and this doesn’t mean repeating affirmations or doing other techniques. it means truly, changing your feelings. changing your beliefs. changing your state of being. that’s how you shift realities.

you dont need to keep pretending or keep trying to force an outer change. you just need to change yourself. hopefully this helps ! 💖

#career #eiypo

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tomathomatommy · 2 years

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Tw if you've been through poverty/homelessness for a while (esp. While young)

It's kinda disheartening, you know, this will be I think the third year now where I cannot afford to buy my friends gifts from myself this year. Though I would really prefer to. I really hate joint gifts. I don't feel like I have nice enough clothes to wear for holidays. Everything has become daily wear. I deeply appreciate anything new I am able to get due to my clothes being between 2-vintage years old. I need a winter coat. A hat, gloves. A scarf. Things that fit so I'm not freezing or layering so much I can't take anything off.

I can't describe how badly I have wanted fast food. It's been a few weeks now since I got groceries and I have basically just been filling my body with sugar. I want to take the bus, or have it delivered, or walk. But I'm maybe a 10 minute drive from a 7-11 but I'm not in the city so there's no sidewalks or anything to block snow, along with busses not coming out here. I can't have it delivered because of food stamp rules.

The mistreatment from my roommate is getting too much. My food is being eaten (I am on food stamps, they are not), Everything is consistently dirty (I wish I could say I had part in it), I am expected to take care of animals and do a lot of these household chores, doesn't matter what I'm dealing with during that day. [Edit: the mess has to do with her bathroom sanitation issues, food waste, food trash, normal trash, etc. These are all things I should not have to clean up as they are around 10 years older than me. It was never specified to me when I moved in that I would be getting asked to watch her dogs for free. I also offered at the beginning to clean her house for her regularly, but was told that wasn't necessary. I am deeply grateful that I have been able to live here this long, but this treatment on any human being isn't okay in my opinion.]

I have now applied to every job I am qualified and able to work at in walking distance throughout November. The only place that had promise will not deny my application though they intended to hire me if i changed my hours on the application. Everywhere else has denied me or ghosted me.

I really really try my best to push through every day and see the good parts of it, and to always work toward the betterment of my quality of life. I'm now in a state where I feel like it's out of my control. Even if I did get a minimum wage job right now, it would be spring or summer before I have the money to leave. And she's hoping I'm gone around January.

Now my roommate has attempted at support or helping me, and when I respond with initiative to work on this together I am left on my own. I have made many efforts to communicate. Even yesterday I sat down and was clear and frank about my job searching, and if there is anything I can do or she would like me to do, since it looks like I won't have the money by the end of the month to even put anything on a lease.

I'm not asking for money, I'm not asking you to care or support. I just really don't have a place where I can talk about this and I have more objective eyes reading.

Yes, there is a roof over my head and blankets. But think of how much use you can get from that when you are never wanted from there. I got here in July and it has felt nothing short of humiliating and patronizing I have to depend on others for most things and it makes me feel sick every time because I know how capable I am. [Edit: yes, if I would have gotten a job when it was warmer this would be easier. I am not saying I'm not at fault at all. But due to location, transportation, being uneducated and unmedicated, I feel I understandably made mistakes. But I don't believe that is any reason for anyone to be treated like this.]

#negative post #i keep trying to tell myself every day that its not all that bad #cause if i think about it too much its going to break me #tw poverty #thom vents

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just-a-poor-boy-queen · 3 years

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"I watched all Freddie's interviews and he always emphasised his love for Mary Austin, especially when he said 'all my lovers asked me why no-one can replace Mary, I told them it's simply impossible.' My feeling is Jim was more sexual side and while Mary was everything else. Don't forget they met very young, they grew up together, she was with him when he didn't have money, she worked to support them both. Because of that Freddie trusted her completely, hence leaving HER everything, and trusting only her with his ashes and not Jim. He was proven right as Jim couldn't wait to publish his book as if money Freddie left him wasn't enough to keep his loyalty."

"Freddie said, "A true friend for me has to be very strong to put up with me. Friends come and go but Mary has been there for just about everything and can adapt to me and she has the depth and quality so she can talk to me about very serious things." For Jim to accuse Mary of so many hateful things, he must have been very jealous of Freddie's friendship, love and admiration for her and was too much of a coward to say so when Freddie was still alive. Jim made Mary's life hell with the vicious stories he told about her alleged mistreatment of him after Freddie's death. Jim would have been just another of Freddie's army of lovers if not for the fact that he was there when Freddie got sick. Freddie said of his relationship, "I don't have to try so hard anymore. It's the tranquil after the storm." Jim sounds more like a cozy pair of slippers rather than the love of Freddie's life and I don't see what Freddie ever saw in the guy in the first place."

Some of the many disgusting comments made by Mary simps on Youtube. They're so ignorant and homophobic, it's unbelievable. If they did a shred of research, they'd know just how despicable their "idol" Mary is. But of course they won't, or they'll just make excuse after excuse for her behaviour. I'm sick of people shitting on Jim, saying Freddie just used him for sex, that he only criticised Mary out of "jealousy," etc. "Jim made Mary's life hell." What a joke! Mary stans have such a massive victim complex, just like Miss Thing.

Cozy pair of slippers, jfc. They’re delusional, really. YT comments are the worst, tbh, because you find so many arseholes shitting under these videos. They’re homophobic (and they hate that word. Well guess what, Linda. That’s exactly what you are. A homophobic pos), and it’s honestly infuriating and saddening to see the love between two men being denied and disregarded like that.

#ask response #mary stans are the weirdest creatures on this planet

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RP Meme Lines from "AHS: Coven" Episode 12: "Go To Hell"

Your highest honor comes at the greatest price.

Death is not uncommon. And danger inescapable.

I don't even need to read your mind to know what you're doing.

Poor, sweet, dumb, paranoid girl.

The awful truth is I am tired.

I want to know what happened.

She's probably off in some unholy nether realm.

He's a deity. Show some respect.

Respect is something that is definitely lacking around here.

You will show me respect!

You look like shit.

I can't believe you did that to yourself.

Whoa! That was cool!

I did transmutation.

I didn't even have to think about it. It just happened.

Our powers always spike in times of crisis. This is one of those times.

You into girls now?

What are you afraid I might see?

Nothing stays a secret for very long in this house

It will come to light whether you want it to or not.

I don't have any secrets.

I'm the queen-- I will rise again!

My people gonna come for you. Rip you apart.

Give me the box of chicken. Today, please.

I'm going on break, okay?

This was the worst time of your life. Waiting on people who treated you like the piece of trash you thought you were. No power. No respect. And no future that you could see.

Your hell's on Earth.

Don't make me put you in the fryer.

Everybody got to pay in the end.

Wait! I'm not done with you!

Unless you want to stay here forever, you better hurry and get back.

Time moves differently in here.

I'm talking to you, bitch!

You made it back. I'm impressed.

Now that I've proven my power, you're gonna give me some answers.

You remember how you told me you were gonna cut me up in little pieces and plant me all over the place? I thought that was a honey of an idea.

There's got to be a way to kill her.

More marshmallows.

Well, she's not gonna be doing anything while she's chopped into 50 pieces and those pieces are scattered all over the city.

You are one crafty witch.

When do we get to see the attic torture chamber?

These wild tales of barbarity you've heard are nothing more than lies invented by her many enemies.

What a total rip-off.

How did you find me?

A dog returns to its vomit.

I see you finally got that makeover.

I'm here to set the record straight.

She even looks like a monster.

Many times while there were extravagant parties going on just below, the sounds of music and revelry drowning out the cries of torment.

You don't believe it?

It beggars all belief.

The information you've been feeding these people? It's inaccurate.

I want my money back.

Do not touch the display items!

You will never be able to pay for your crimes.

It's your only chance for redemption.

Agree to be publicly humiliated-- all is forgiven.

All anybody has to do nowadays is shed some tears, say some words

It's called repentance.

Oh, repentance my ass.

You think a man jack among them was well and truly sorry? Not a one. Sorry they got caught is all.

Y'all nothing but a pack of sniveling hypocrites, as far as I can see.

I won't profess to be sorry, 'cause I'm not.

I was getting to you before. I know it.

You made me weep.

I wept for the state of this world.

A world of lies. A world that makes promise it cannot keep.

I don't want to die.

I want my portrait hung just there.

What are you doing back there?

Do you need a break?

I probably have two weeks left on Earth.

Maybe we could be kind to one another for a change, huh?

Did you really think self-mutilation would restore your power?

You cannot lose your power. You never will. It's inside of you.

As much as I'd like to, I cannot take credit for that. It's all you.

You're saying good-bye?

A man shouldn't be disturbed when he's playing with his instrument.

You don't have your mother's features.

Oh, you know who I am?

We spent quite an evening together.

She can't love anyone but herself.

I saw everything. Everything.

Unzip me.

Whatever fantasy you have about who she is and what you are to her, it's all bullshit.

She used you. All she does is use people.

I don't suspect you have a passport ready.

You feel that? That empty heartbroken feeling?

When the rest of the world sees a wall, we see a window.

Is she alive?

She's not breathing.

That's deadly nightshade you're about to ingest through your nostrils. I wouldn't sniff around unless you're looking for a bout of delirium.

Where is everybody?

Who would have been cruel enough to commit such an atrocity?

I heard people die after three days without water.

Please tell me this is a hallucination driven by my bouquet of Atropa belladonna.

You were supposed to spend your days in romantic splendor with your true love.

You're just like Halston when he sold his brand to J.C. Penney. You've forsaken your destiny.

You bit it off.

Hey, you're in my spot!

I want to sleep!

We're leaving.

You, don't talk to me!

Is that why you came back, because you can't handle him?

You bitch.

You thought I was some dumb swamp rat you could leave behind to die?

Stop these vulgar fisticuffs at once.

It's beneath us.

I don't want to waste my magic on you.

You hit like a girl!

This is awesome!

You! You must pay for what you've done!

Wow, did you walk into the wrong house.

Who the hell is this guy?

I thought you banished his soul to the appropriate nether realms?

I'll kill all of you!

Is that blood?

How could you do this to me?

I don't remember the last time I was here when there wasn't music playing.

You pack your wader boots?

I don't like catfish. I loathe all bottom-feeders.

She's pretty, but she doesn't have your cheekbones.

I imagine she wanted me to do her dirty work for her.

We had a deal. It wasn't on paper, it wasn't stamped by a notary, but we had a deal!

You have been the most delightful distraction. A life preserver. But I'm gonna be on dry land soon.

Can't you at least pretend? Just, just humor me for a while?

I guess I loved you.

Although I really don't know anything about love, if I'm gonna be honest. But you were the sweetest of lovers. The best I've ever had. And I'll miss that.

Let go of me!

I know you love me!

Christ, I was sick!

I just needed to feel something.

I made you die those little deaths for the first time in your sorry life. I made you sing when you had no tunes left in you.

What you're doing is a crime against humanity.

Well, I've never been one for love, true or otherwise.

Does anyone feel any different?

Where's the body?

Somebody's got to kill this creep.

Is that really necessary?

I'll kill him.

We really don't need a man to protect us.

I know I mistreated you in the past but there's no greater pain than being this close and not, not being able to reach you. And to comfort you.

Oh, I'm consumed with regret.

Why are they doing this to us?

Please, I'm so thirsty.

Please have mercy.

Are you hungry, too?

I'll slice off one of your mama's fingers and feed it to you!

Yes, I have sinned.

I gave no quarter.

Have mercy on my soul!

I don't want to do this!

You will do as you are tasked.

Who is this man?

What is this place?

You have been granted your sweet release from the world of the mortal.

Welcome to hell.

I can't die!

We have a contract!

No one gets away with sin.

Everybody suffers.

#rp meme #rp memes #rp starters #roleplay memes #roleplay meme #roleplay starters #ahs #ahs coven

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mayeeeee · 3 years

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CASK OF AMONTILLADO

SUMMARY

One night, Montresor asked Fortunato if he wanted to drink the best wine that ever existed in the world – the Amontillado. Unbeknownst to the latter, Montresor was actually plotting to kill him. Montresor planned this for quite some time after deciding that he has had enough of Fortunato’s insults.

Knowing that Fortunato has a weak spot for wine, he introduced to him the best wine in the world in order to lure him into their family’s wine cellar. Making the Amontillado sound like the best wine one could ever taste, Fortunato agreed to be taken to the wine cellar in order to taste the Amontillado. Excited and curious, he went and drank with Montresor on the way. It was cold and dark but they still went deeper and deeper ignoring the skulls around them.

Fortunato didn’t feel any amount of fear nor hesitance in going deeper in the unfamiliar tunnel as Montresor made him drink wine as they walked. When they stopped upon a hole, Fortunato was already very drunk and didn’t have the energy to stop Montresor when he chained him up. Montresor then used bricks and piled it up to block Fortunato and trap him there.

A century later after the incident, Montresor mentions that nobody has ever touched the bricks where he trapped Fortunato.

ANALYSIS

Montresor’s intentions

People may describe him to be irrational for murdering Fortunato (he actually is) but at the same time, I would like to think of this as him protecting his family. It may seem as if Fortunato did nothing but hurt Montresor’s pride but in another perspective, he may have been afraid of humiliation as he is not the only person carrying that name. As a clan, Montresors may have a reputation to protect and Fortunato taunted that.

Weaknesses of both characters

I’m sure it added more spice to Fortunato’s characterization but I found his obsession towards alcohol was too unrealistic. But since this is a fictional story, I guess it’s fine. But I can’t help judging Fortunato for how gullible he is when he agreed to go to the wine cellar without sensing an inch of suspicion towards Montresor. I have personally met a lot of people who would definitely go loco for alcohol but not to the point of deciding on something stupid before even getting drunk. I must take note of the fact that Fortunato didn’t die mainly because of his weakness towards alcohol – it was his pride and ego that led him to his death.

This leads me to Montresor’s weakness as well. Both of them have big egos and aside from Montresor murdering Fortunato because he hurt his pride – he also did the same thing by challenging and tempting Fortunato with Amontillado. Pride definitely brought both characters down more than the alcohol did.

Moral of the story

Speaking from experience and how I related to the story, I can say that I have learned how to respect people’s emotions. We all have a different level of sensitivity and there are times when people tend to forget that people can be offended by things that don’t seem offensive to them. Montresor showed great value over his name and if Fortunato respected that, then he could’ve avoided getting on Montresor’s nerves in the first place. Another thing is that, communication is the key to every argument. I doubt that Montresor made Fortunato well aware of what he felt and thought hence the latter pushed even further.

REFERENCES

http://stephanietrinidad.blogspot.com/2013/12/montresors-downfall.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6TF_sMg5pKI

THE GOD STEALER

SUMMARY

Philip and Sam are on a trip to the mountains in order to find an authentic god. Philip is an Ifugao who fled to Manila in order to live a new life as a Catholic and with him is Sam, an American who wanted to bring home with him a god as a souvenir. Philip wanted to help Sam to thank him for giving him a raise at work.

When they got to their destination, Philip’s grandfather greeted them warmly by throwing a party in Philip’s honor. But during the party, they find out that nobody wanted to sell their gods. Not wanting their trip to go to waste, Philip suggested that he steal his grandfather’s god instead. But then his grandfather died after Philip stole the god.

After the incident, Philip decided that he won’t return to Manila because he felt responsible for this grandfather’s death – the person who loved him the most. When he informs Sam, he is already dressed in a traditional Ifugao clothing while he carves a new god to replace the one which he stole. The two bid their farewells and Sam takes the old one to America as a souvenir.

ANALYSIS

Colonial Mentality

According to research, people with a colonial mentality believe that they are inferior ethnically or culturally as a result of colonization. For a person like Philip, this means an instant and unthinking rejection of all things Filipino, as well as an instinctive and unquestioning support for all things American or white. Philip experienced this and thought of his own ethnicity as something of lesser value than those who live in the city. Modernization was brought to Manila by colonizers and because colonizers look down on the locals – Philip may have desired the need to be “equal” to them by being one of them.

Ifugaos and importance of gods

People value their religion but there are some people who value their religion a lot more than others typically do. Ifugaos are known to be very religious people and rely on their deities on everything that they do. Some of these gods are responsible for their harvests and has great influence on medicine and their system of politics, which I think is colorful and just as meaningful as other religions. But of course, some people may find it odd that they worship idols and trees or animals – but I think it’s alright to find it odd when you don’t understand it but that doesn’t give you the license to disrespect what they believe in. Ifugaos have a lot of practices that aren’t all that familiar to the majority but thanks to F. Sionil, readers are given a glimpse of how important it actually is to them.

REFERENCES

https://wearekubo.com/the-effects-of-colonial-mentality-on-filipino-american-mental-health/#:~:text=People%20who%20possess%20colonial%20mentality,for%20anything%20American%20or%20white.

https://www.pinterest.ph/pin/249316529341515065/

https://www.slideshare.net/tinelachica04/eng-7-the-god-stealer

SIX FEET OF THE COUNTRY

SUMMARY

Set outside of Johannesburg, this story follows a man and a wife, two “sort of” farmers, and their reaction to the knowledge that a refuge from Rhodesia has fled to their land and died from overexposure. “Six Feet of the Country” is told from the perspective of the husband, Bass. He regards himself and his wife as pseudo-farmers because he makes most of his money from a “luxury-travel agency” and bought the farm—ten miles outside of Johannesburg—as an idyllic distraction for his wife, Lerice, who is an aging former actress.

One night, Bass is alerted that something terrible has happened in the barracks where the young servant boys--all black--sleep. Reluctantly, the man travels to the dorms. There, he’s informed that another young boy whom he has never seen before has died, likely from a combination of pneumonia and heat exhaustion. He learns that the mysterious boy was the brother of Petrus, one of his trusted employees. Petrus, distraught over the death of his brother, tells his employer that the boy traveled from the extremely poor area of Rhodesia to the big city, looking for work.

Petrus’s family wants to give the boy a decent burial and pay dearly for the expense. But the day of the funeral, they learn that the body in the coffin isn’t that of the young boy. They demand a refund for the funeral home’s mistake, and to have the body of their loved one back. But the funeral home, run by white Afrikaners, refuses, saying that they (technically) already did their job; that they buried the wrong body is not their concern. Petrus and his family exhort their white employers to intercede on their behalf. Bass and Lerice attempt this, but they are neither rich nor influential enough to overcome South Africa's racist bureaucracy. Petrus’s family then must live with the knowledge that their loved one wasn’t properly buried six feet underground, i.e. he was not afforded even “six feet of country.”

ANALYSIS

It is with a heavy heart to say that black people were mistreated a lot back then, it's like they aren't humans at all. They were forced to work at jobs that needs a lot of physical strength and it leads to slavery. I remember, I read somewhere that black people had their own time to go out unlike the white people who can go out freely and wander endlessly. I also read somewhere that in public transportations, there's specific spaces for blacks and whites. Justice was also for white people back then. I'm not surprised because that was during the Apertheid System where they separate white and black people. Just like this story, Petrus and the other farm workers were not treated nicely. Petrus only wanted a proper burial for his brother but they had to pay for his brother's body only learning that the body they gave him was not his brother. It's so cruel of a human to do that. His boss couldn't also help him because they have no money to overcome the racist mindset of South Africa. So then, Petrus and his family had to accept the fact that they couldn't even bury his brother's body. They can't even give justice to his brother. Apertheid system was not necessary and so is racism. It is sad to say that this still exists today and is evident in different countries. It is just too inhumane to kill a black people just because of their skin color. I don't get why they hate people that are not of the same skin color as them. It's not like they wanted to be born like that. It's so sick to hate, mistreat, and kill black people.

REFERENCES:

https://www.supersummary.com/six-feet-of-the-country/summary/

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/96335.Six_Feet_of_the_Country

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twistedesire · 4 years

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Here i lay dangling in the dark Demons have me by the soul I dug a hole inside my heart To learn to self control But in my mind im trapped Screaming like its sonar How could i find the words to ask? I need someone to care where ever you are But i could be here forever Stuck in mid air in the dark Staring at my reflection On the verge of tearing myself apart Silent and desperate for proper affection But my soul is trapped My mouth is clasped shut If you just simply asked I could not tell anyone Im asking for things I now know don't exist Like empathy and caring Even the joy of a first kiss And as i await to close my eyes I say goodbye and farewell Because the biggest lie Was that im going to hell Im in it right now My very existence Is still here somehow And i no one misses this Like im narcissistic when i ask for some sympathy But all i ask is for all the love i gave to be simply returned to me I may not have been the best person Heck, im worse now Everyone making it like i hurt someone And STILL no one knows somehow Here, let me spell it out for you Carve it in my skin Tell the motherfucking truth Show you the 8th sin The one with it all Packed in my soul Ingrained for a darker fall But you made it out i had no control No I channeled the demons well I pushed away for reasons Your excuses swell As i lay rotting for seasons Too long have i been trapped Too long have i lay hidden Bent over blind rat Acting like i killed him Im the monster YES im the sick succubus But you will never get closer To know what broke between us I'm a sociopath Narcissistic Throw your pity bath And cry about who really did this But the truth will kill And it boils in my veins Poison in my will To those who could not care ever again I guess we're all human now Broken human beings You all act like its me who must bow And beg for forgiveness till the end of my days But the truth lies in my page The ones that go on always and forever And i will remain here where i lay Embracing the thoughts with no others Im a freak because im alone Im a loser because i keep away Im a psycho because i like my home But this is where i remain to stay I dont want you anymore Maybe invisible rejection Tearing at what's already torn With your manipulative affection I don't see you I tested the waters well I cut all the ties through and through And now the fires erupt in this hell Masochism in my self destruction I finally get the taste The pill of ultimate deductions Hell aint a bad price to pay I sold my soul to a demon Asking for love and affection And he took everything from me And laid me deep in self correction Pointing out the window At all the beautiful stars Saying their all fake glows Nobody knows who you are Nobody cares enough to come to you Reach out in a moment of darkness Some even know the dark truth Maybe their awaiting that proclaimed death's kiss He doesnt speak in spite For that would be pure lies His eyes looked at me despite Even HE is a lie He spoke in sympathy And empathy for my pain Nobody does love me Because im the only one that changed I changed me and not the others I tried to communicate Only the shadow of night will cover All the inner hate It boils in my blood And storms inside my being Sick like i swallowed mud And i keep the veil from seeing The light is too bright now And im just a little lost If i changed more somehow What would be the cost Money Health My very reputation as a human being Being looked down as a lesser with "oh honey" All my wealth Everything you are seeing Let me stop eating Stop the pills you call me crazy for I'll just stop speaking And lay like a rug on the floor You mistreated and asked for forgiveness But showed no ability to change And now its my fault for all this But nobody even thought to help rearrange Ask a question Please make it sincere Is this a lesson That love is this sheer A fragile essence that could just blow in the wind Like ashes from a fire I am now the 8th sin A twisted desire There is the lust for love But then the heartbreak I will no longer seek connection because The toll is not worth what it takes Empty in my soul I lay barren and impure And as i snip that control What more could a girl ask for Freedom from a world of people who didn't know Words were not enough I guess im good at hiding the pain from being shown But when known now im just tough Bare on me Put it on my back Break me to points unseen Picking up as much slack i dont want to see your face Im done confronting this bullshit I was made to feel a disgrace When the truth would have compensated with it So im done friends If i ever had family Where do i begin? That the only thing you wanted from me Was what i could give to you Not my time Not my laughter Nor my empathy or caring ways I'd fight all your crimes I'd deal with your banter Nothing could ever truly sway Still waiting i guess Still waiting Time is now a test And im constantly debating But ill tell you in the dark That in this cold dead silence You only know my heart Because the world is in a state of violence I've been here a while I know this place like the back of my hand Trying to revive an dead inner child But failing every plan Holding on so long Wear and tear at my soul If i dont make it i was trying to be strong In a world full of so much wrong

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nemesis-nexus · 6 years

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Full Harvest Moon

Hail ENKI unrelenting defender of all, hear us! This is the night of the Full Harvest Moon when are gathered, the Great Wheel turns yet again as Autumn comes strolling along in no great rush to get here understanding that everything happens in its own time. Such is the wisdom of Nature itself, that it does not hurry itself along to appease anyone no matter how much they complain! We wish the same could be said for those that we work with because sometimes humans can be incredibly unreasonable regarding how long things take to happen!

During this time many things begin to change, the Earth begins to prepare itself for its Golden Season when all the leaves on the trees will begin to change color and the air will get cooler and the ground will begin to harden signaling the time of the Great Harvest when the remaining crops will be gathered and the Earth will be put to bed so when the Death Season comes along those who work farms or have gardens of their own will have fresh soil to work with at the start of the Rebirthing Season. This is not unlike what we humans do all the time when it comes to our own situations regarding the people and organizations we deal with.

There are times when we are employed at places doing what we love and then after a while someone comes along and makes working there unbearable for one reason or another. When this happens we have the choice to simply quit (going from Summer to Winter, completely skipping over Autumn) and thus cause a collapse in the Seasons that make up our lives or like the Earth who takes its time to prepare for the harshness of winter by sending all wildlife that can't sustain to other areas or into hibernation and vegetation into a sort of suspended animation, we can seek alternate employment either at another location or with another company altogether.

If the Earth skipped Autumn and went straight to Winter, the entire ecosystem would collapse because there would be no food or shelter available to those who were not able to survive on what was available because sooner or later those resources will run out and starvation as well as freezing to death from having no shelter would be a constant threat.

ENKI, we all know that when you defied the Grand Council that you did so because your faith in us compelled you to insist that the humans you saved would take care of the island known as Earth and although there are many who think they can own the Earth because they have enough human currency to throw around, we also know that they can NEVER own Nature which is what truly governs it! The problem with the human condition is that over the years it has become VERY arrogant, oftentimes placing itself over the rest of the ecosystem and yet it is that very ecosystem that it relies on to keep it going! We have those who claim that if we truly cared for nature we would not eat animals but I contend that the ONLY reason that certain animals are here is BECAUSE they were meant to be a food source!

Just as the Lion eats the Zebra, just like the Spider eats the Fly, just like the Cat eats the Mouse, so do we humans eat Cows, Chickens, Pigs, Goats, Deer, Bison, Buffalo, Fish, Snails, Grasshoppers, Crickets etc, not because we are ABOVE them but because it's all part of the food chain and we humans are NOT above that either, in fact if a human were to get too close to an alligator or wander into the rainforest and run into a jaguar or even if were to get to close to an anaconda NONE of these creatures would think twice (or even ONCE for that matter) before making US dinner, nor would they feel any regret with having eaten meat instead of a nice salad! If people are to truly respect nature then they can start with not denying their own!

Hail NINHURSAG - Loving and Gracious wife of our Blessed NINGIZHEDA! You who are loyal to NINGIZHEDA and keeps his strength up (in more ways than one) we learn from you that faithfulness and fortitude are constant imperatives if anything is to survive the harshness of the Season! Sometimes it is not the Earth that turns cold but our own hearts and when this happens we must analyze the reason WHY it happened and if we conclude that the death of the relationship - be it personal or professional - is NOT our doing but that of the other party, then we need to decide if it is worth trying to save or if it is time to move on! Thankfully this has not occurred between the two of you and as such you are an inspiration to all to always stand by and fight with and for the one you love no matter who the aggressor might be!

Hail URURU - Eternal and Grand Creatrix of All Things - we pay our deepest respects to you! Without you the Multiverse would not have undergone the many transformations it has since it became aware of itself! Without you we would have no Hero named Gilgamesh! It was you who blessed him with the companionship of Enkidu after hearing the lamentations of the people as you knew that he was NOT heartless, he just did not understand what compassion was because he was raised to believe he was entitled to certain things in life and as such even HE had lessons to learn. So rather than give up on him, you provided the lesson through a new and dear friend who was for all intents and purposes the mirror image of himself!

Hail the Grand Council who brought down the flood! Am I praising the death and destruction generally speaking? Not at all. I AM however saying I can understand WHY it needed to happen. It occurred because ALL the living things of the time forgot themselves and became so corrupt that what happened THEN is really what is happening NOW - humans slaughtering animals for pleasure rather than food, destroying the Earth in the name of the Almighty Dollar because they felt entitled to do as they pleased with it rather than honor it as the home it was created to be and starting wars to kill off each other in senseless tirades that threatened existence itself yet again!

Do I feel it was a bit extreme to annihilate everything? Yes and No. I do because not everyone was guilty at the same time the punishment should fit the crime and with the extent of the damage the humans caused they left little room for ANY form of reparations to take place and what do you do when something you created ceases to perpetuate the creation as it was supposed to? You scrap the plan and you start over. If we are not careful this may happen again only this time it will NOT be at the hands of the Grand Council, it will be ENTIRELY at the hands of the humans who will bring it upon themselves and EVERYTHIHG ELSE! The point of the flood was to wipe the slate clean and give humans a fresh start in the hopes that they will get it right this time and yet once again we find ourselves in a similar cycle of senseless death and destruction! WE MUST WAKE UP BEFORE IT IS TOO LATE FOR US TO REVERSE THE CURRENT SITUATION!

We see how the severe LACK of communication or acceptance of another person's lifestyle has caused MANY lives to be ruined if not all together TAKEN! This is NOT acceptable behavior especially not from a race who likes to think that it is on the top of the food chain! The human race is currently the LEAST enlightened of all species on the planet! I have no qualms saying this because even if a dog bites its owner, it USUALLY only does so if it has been mistreated, it does not care AT ALL what their owner believes or who they are dating or who they plan to vote for, all the dog cares about is giving and receiving love and being treated with the same respect the human would want for itself, otherwise why should it defend its human if its human doesn't give a damn about it as well?

Humans need to learn that it isn't always about them all the time, in fact our main job was and still is conserving and preserving the planet and the ecosystem for ALL future generation across the board just as our Father stuck his neck out to protect US when he could have just let the deluge annihilate everything as it was supposed to! This is the lesson we REALLY need to glean from what ENKI did, he put his own well being on the back burner and his life in danger to do what had to be done at the time! We see our military personnel do the very same whenever they are deployed no matter where they are stationed! We 'civilians' may not have military training HOWEVER we DO have the skills needed to take care of things at home which is what makes how our Veterans are treated when they return all the more despicable because the government limits what actions can be taken to assist our Vets and how do they determine this? MONEY!!! Apparently the government has no problem sending them to war zones, spending BILLIONS on the war because the WAR is worth it, but when it comes to taking care of those who actually fought in those wars, there simply isn't any money to spare! Imagine where we would be had ENKI taken that same stance!!

This is what I mean when I say we have to wake up before it's too late - right now our governments and even 99% of Clergy are as corrupt as those humans back then were and we will be the engineers of our own downfall! I am SICK AND TIRED of hearing people say ignorant bullshit like "I don't care, I'm not going to be around in x amount of years" WELL GUESS WHAT - if you have CHILDREN and GRANDCHILDREN - they WILL be here in x amount of years! So when you say you don't care just because of that, what you are REALLY saying to all of THEM is that you don't give a rats ass about them OR their future and that even as small children they are on their own! Think about that the next time you decide to announce your position on the planet and ITS future!

Now more than anything we need to eradicate that which is the underlying cause of the problem - we need to get more people to stand up against terrorist factions no matter WHAT religion they represent; this includes Islam as well as Christianity, Judaism and even some groups who call themselves Satanists but in NO WAY represent Satan, Satanism or even HUMANITY! Those who use their religion as a weapon of oppression, repression, misogyny, slavery, rape and murder need to be destroyed because they are so full of their own self-righteousness they don't care WHO they attack as they will even attack their own if those who may share the faith generally speaking do not adhere to the extremes that these psychopaths demand they do! World leaders who also terrorize their people into submission to the point where they are not allowed to even acknowledge the world beyond their borders must also be done away with! They are creating an environment where they deem EVERYTHING to be an act of aggression or war and putting their own people in harm's way and if the people DON'T pretend they agree with the so called leader then THEY will be arrested for TREASON! This is NOT why ENKI saved us, he saved us because he believed that we were better than what we had become and now we are reverting back to the very actions that made the Flood necessary!

There are a lot of things that need fixing in this world, but we need to take the time to work on ourselves as well because there is always room for improvement on our own parts as well! Personal evolution and growth are absolutely necessary in order to adequately provide not only for ourselves but our Families both Blood and Spiritual as well as those on the other side of the Great Divide and the planet itself! Our ever-loving Father ENKI is always willing to give his unwavering support to those who do what needs to be done in order to help Life carry on and maintain its course while they are doing what they need to do to advance their own living situations! They say that the only way to multiply happiness is to divide it and I agree!

This does not mean to glue rose colored glasses to your face and pretend everything is peachy when it isn't, it DOES mean that we should help one another out when we can by donating food to local shelters and food banks, those who own businesses can employ the homeless who are looking to improve THEIR situations and help them regain their self respect by becoming productive members of society! There are many smaller things that can be done to change the bigger picture and we all need to throw our hats into the ring to make it happen! No one person can do it all and its time we stopped acting like it’s everyone else's responsibility except ours!

This is not to say that everyone we try to help will be grateful or that it will even work out giving someone a job, there are people out there who only want to take advantage of someone else's good deed, this should NOT prevent anyone else from being afforded an opportunity to excel! The IMPORTANT thing is to put forth the effort so that at least the one who DOES want to go the extra mile has a fighting chance to do so! Unfortunately it has gotten to the point where the manipulators and lost causes have overshadowed those who just fell on hard times and are looking to do whatever they have to to get back on their feet again! We should help build one another up rather than tearing our communities down over paranoia that resulted from having been burned! Things happen but the ONLY people to blame are the ones who are holding the matches, not the one trying to put out the fire! If we work together we CAN change the human environment and maybe even IMPROVE on a thing or two while we're at it!

“We are Voyagers

Summoned by the mighty gods

Of this mighty ocean to come

We take up the good challenge to get ready

We know the ways of the sea

We look to the stars and other signs

To find our way to discover new lands

To make our home

Oh! Oh!

There is land up ahead

A bird in flight to take us there

Oh! Oh!

This beautiful land

The place we were looking for

We will make our home!

We read the wind and the sky when the sun is high

We sail the length of the seas on the ocean breeze!

At night, we name every star

We know where we are!

We know who we are, who we are!

Aue, aue!

We set a course to find

A brand new island everywhere we roam!

Aue, aue!

We keep our island in our mind

And when it's time to find home

We know the way!

Aue, aue!

We are explorers reading every sign

We tell the stories of our elders in a never-ending

chain!

Aue, aue!

Te fenua, te mālie

Nā heko hakilia!

Etiamsi MULTA Et Nos UNUM Sumus Nos Sto Validus Ut Nos Sto Una!

We know the way!

-Lin-Emanual Miranda (“Moana - We Know The Way”)”

AVE URURU! AVE ENKI/EA!

AVE NINGIZHEDA! AVE NINHURSAG!

AVE ININNI! AVE DIMUZI!

AVE IGIGGI! AVE ANUNNA!

AVE DRACONIS! HAIL THE GREAT SERPENT!

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