#idk i just dont feel like having that posted publicly

[prnkill]

𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄 𝐈'𝐃 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐆𝐄𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐊𝐍𝐎𝐖 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑!

tagged by: @maimedaffair && @hoteliisms tyty !

tagging:  steal it >:)

alias / name:  pear  

zodiac sign:   libra

height:   5'9"

hobbies:   drawing , writing , video games.

favorite color: pink !

favorite book: abarat by clive barker

last song:  " tell that mick he just made my list of things to do today " by fall out boy

last film / show:  some australian horror film called "talk to me"

inspiration:   idunno that i have any specific inspirations for val- mostly just ? 70s aesthetic in general , especially disco. i'm inspired a lot by music , so my playlist for him (which you can find here!) helps a lot. i also draw from my history of being abused / experiences w/ my abuser in order to portray val's abusive tendencies.

story behind url: i picked it to match apple's vox way back in the day - it's just what he's overlord of "porn" (but censored in case tumblr GETS me) && then kill bc. idk. it's too late to change it , it's my brand.

fun fact about me: uhhh i'm a pretty heavily tattooed guy.

#i didnt include my birthday on this #just bc like #idk i just dont feel like having that posted publicly #❥ ❝ heart eyes mother fucker! / ooc.

[skunkes]

need to find a way to let people know that I usually accept comms outside of what I usually offer, without it sounding like an invitation to ignore my pre established openings or without sounding like I Do Take Those Comms Now All The Time

#like it varies of course but idk. like I do take fur design comms #i cant offer em with the rest of the comms bc im not good enough yet and i get scared but i do take em if somebody asks #which is rare! which is what i mean #i dont publicly offer couple half or full body commissions but I have taken them when people have asked #but there's a difference between like ''i am okay with the occasional request to do a comm outside of what i offer'' #and me posting about it which makes it public and now ppl feel they can all just get one Whenever #DOES THIS MAKE ANY SENSE AT ALLLLL #like i already have a queue for May's commissions (chibi) #if a week from now someone wanted a full colored full body (for example) id probably be up for it depending on workload #but that's because I get to assess if i can do it #because even though i havent done one of those in a while its just One commission #that's different than saying ill take one slot of it per month or something bc what if i dont feel like i can do it that month #idk. this is incoherent i hope u get what i mean #talkys #MY POINT IS: u can always ask

[inf1nyxw0rlds]

i love complexity. except of course if it's about me . hope that helps

#transmission #what i mean is i love acknowleging nuance and intricacies but i hate when i cant neatly compartmentalise myself #i want to know WHY im xyz! a distinct reason! and etc #i was thinking deeply the past few days on why i suddenly got so mad bc i do Not usually talk that way publicly #bc i dont want to be hypocritical in that. i purposefully usually speak in a way where i make myself overly clear and #try to avoid making people feel ashamed in any way. because i KNOW how it feels right #but digging further i think its like. its a rage inducing cycle of mockery in the infinite fandom. the normies make fun of the weirdos #and the weirdos make fun of the normies because hey fuck you too. and ppl who enjoy infinite casually arent inherently wrong #but when they fill the tags with complsints and criticisms on a source material they havent delved into much #it irritates a lot of the people who HAVE because while an opinion is fine critiquing something seriously does mean understanding it #on a bit deeper of a level i think? #and thats what always got me personally #but we just have this system of you suck youre wrong and i think its also because infinite has taken so much shit that #we are VERY protective and defensive. like yeah if people spend years ripping into the thing that you like that happens #idk in just pondering. the ponderer... #i like to analyse not just fiction but how ppls brains work in general and irl stuff #mostly personal dissection bc im obsessive about myself. not in a fun way but more an endless interrogation and rumination way #the disorder fr #not wanting to hurt ppl and make them feel judged bc you know what its like vs carthasis of dunking on ppl who dunk on you #thats what i think it is for me #one of the reasons i wasnt posting for a long time was caring too much abt other people so if im getting the itch again #im gonna keep an eye on it #anyway

[discranola]

au where for one reason or another, danny wasn't there to save jonathan from drowning when he was five. george obviously gets as many people as possible to search for as long as they can but they never find the body. seven years later dio gets taken in by george like canon. one night he sneaks out just to sit by the river behind the joestar mansion when he notices something in the river staring at him (hint: its jonathan)

#jjba #child death mention #idk jic #sorry like every au idea i have is fucked up and weird in some way! i dont know whats wrong with me #anyway im a really big fan of the “came back wrong”/“became something else” trope can you tell #is he malicious and jealous of dio? is he lonely and just wants someone to talk to? i dont know but hes Weird #i like this idea i might do more with it. also other people feel free to as well idc i enjoy sharing ideas n stuff #if i didnt want people adding onto my ideas i wouldnt post them publicly you know. anyway

[gemharvest]

Asking for commission updates sucks now I'm too anxious to open Toyhouse.

#ramblings #ig for a bit of context this is abt a custom i ordered over a month ago that has not been worked on #and it looks like the artist might just refund me but idk for sure since their language was kinda vague :( #ig im gonna wait for a response before getting into it but i rlly liked their style but this is kinda souring my mood abt it #but thats all ill say i dont wanna be like. an ass and complain publicly #but im feeling bad so ill let myself have this one post to vague-vent about it

[enamouredfae]

little astro observations i've made based on my little chart collection and experience 🎀

honestly i've observed this only in myself but you have a natural pull to people who's sun is the same sign as your 5th house, mine is in pisces and my bf, my best friend and my cat are all pisces, not to mention that 90% of my crushes have been pisces as well.

there is something about pisces and bunnies, they will either love bunnies (have tattoos of them, make art about them, be their favourite animal), own or have owned a bunny or they look like one, (my bf is all of the above).

in synastry a north node over a person's mars may indicate the north node person taking the mars person's virginity.

in synastry a person's moon in your 9th house may indicate they understand/feel/empathize with emotions in a different way from you due to where they come from and how they were culturally socialized, i have this with my bf and he comes from a north american individualist country where your emotions are your responsibility and other's are theirs and i come from a post communist country where you are responsible for everyone's emotions, and ppl live for other people.

in vedic astrology i am a hasta moon, claire nakti made a video on hasta nakshatra and describes hasta natives as "fairy pretty" and i have a pair of dragonfly fairy wings tattooed on my back, plus ive been told (before my tattoo) that i give off fairy vibes.

saturn ruled 3rd house makes you have to spend a lot of time in public transportation, for example you might live far from where you need to go, for me it used to take me 1 hour at least to get to some places, sometimes i'd have to wait an hour just to then spend on hour on the bus. just overall imposes patience for transportation

a lot of astro observation posts say that an aquarius 4th house makes you feel like u dont belong in your family or that you're the black sheep of the family, but i dont find that accurate at all, i feel like it makes the native the one to challenge family values, they may be the one to make their family change for humanitarian reasons

idk if this is a real technique already used by astrologers but i have a wholesign MC theory. in wholesign the midheaven can fall in the 9th/10th or 11th house. my theory is that wherever it falls is the way you get ahead in life, the way through which u become publicly known or get your career. If it falls in the 9th your career is owed to ur studies/travel, 10th your hard work/experience/reputation, 11th your connections/social media/friends.

i think i have the most literal astrological placements being passed down from your parents example. obviously placements dont always get passed down, my sister has none of their placements, but perhaps being the first child may have contributed to this since the first child is when parents still have their personality not yet influenced by parenthood. so my moon and my sun, which we know symbolize the parents amongst other things, are at the same degree and they sextile eachother exactly, which I think is an indicator that my parents are very harmonious together; they are still together and in love even now. furthermore, my moon and sun are the same signs of my parents' stelliums, i have a libra moon and my mom has a libra stellium, and my sun is in leo and my dad has a leo stellium.

sibling's ceres in your first is feeling like a parent to them, i constantly tell my sister she's my daughter, we even have an inside joke that i gave birth to her at 5, and my ceres is in her fourth, the house of motherhood so she definitely sees me as a parental figure.

me and my bf have eachother's jupiter in our 7th houses, besides being in a serious committed relationship, we want to start a business together. so i feel this is a great indicator for great partnership in both regards.

i feel like this is also a technique but i haven't really heard much about it, generational planets affect us through societal conditions/problems whereas personal planets affect us through personal problems. for example: let's go with two malefics, i have pluto in the first house which i feel would be very different from having let's say mars in the first house. the first house is amongst many things our appearance which i am insecure about. i have never in my life been told i am ugly, i am actually constantly told i am beautiful, and yet it does not click. it isn't through personal experiences that i have problems with my appearance but through consumption of society ideals. this is of course an oversimplification but you get what i mean.

chiron retrograde in natal changes our perception on trauma. me and my bf have the same chiron, his is retrograde while mine is not. he constantly says he is not traumatized, whereas i can tell i am. he 100% has traumas, the thing is that it's like he's left them behind? he just says it happened a long time ago so it's done. my observation is that retrogrades in your natal may make u leave things in the past or have a "it happened a long time ago it doesn't matter" attitude towards trauma. the thing is he acts like a non-traumatized person which is crazy to me.

i have a skin condition called dermatographia, also overall very dry itchy acne prone skin, i also have scars. here are a few placements that i have that i feel may be an indicator for skin conditions: mars ruled first house (traditional rulership) mars is inflamation and scarring, saturn in seventh saturn is dry and some people consider that libra(7th house) rules the skin, saturn opposite ascendant, saturn square venus i see venus as clear skin due to its aesthetical perfection.

saturn in 1st, especially conjunct ascendant indicates identity issues. borrowing elements of identity from people you admire, not feeling like you identify with the gender assigned at birth, not identifying with your birth name, etc.

having a libra 12th house can indicate traumatic female friendship. the 12th house is the house of hidden enemies, so you perceive these people as your friends, sometimes even best friends, so when they betray you it is very jarring and traumatic. having female friends that are jealous of you, female friends that pretend to like you, female friends that talk shit about you and even sometimes lie about u, friends that purposefully hide information from you, that want what you have, sometimes sabotaging what you have or trying to make u lose the thing they want, etc. this is a very difficult placement, because you love these people so much that you would've given up things, changed things or shared things with them if only they were honest with you. in the best of cases the friendship is real and full of love but you grow apart, and this is also painful because you can't control it.

venus square ascendant is people telling you they love you and you not believing them. just overall hardships around love and seeing yourself as loveable. double points when it also squares saturn making u think that if u are loved it's hard work or that people had to convince themselves to, that you're hard to love.

people with venus conjunct mars in first are stunning and have an androgynous vibe to them. sometimes this is visual, strong muscular body with graceful posture, but it can reflect in their personality, just strength imbued with vulnerability, people that surprise you, that are balanced.

taurus 6th house can indicate finding romantic partners in the workplace.

having a stellium in the 4th and no planets in the 10th, can indicate a strong connection to your mom and a disconnect from your dad, especially when the sun is in the opposite sign of your tenth house(in your 4th) feeling like your dad is not the way he should be.

🎀

please let me know what you think, im very curious how they hold up in other people's charts, critiques are welcome and invited.

#astrology observations #astrology #enamoured fae #astro tumblr #astro #astro notes #astro community #horoscope #birth chart

[thepersonnamedsam]

thighs don’t lie - mv1

pairing: max verstappen x goddess!reader

summary: thirsting over each others thighs on main is your hobby

face claim: no one particular

warnings: max thirsting

note: i saw this tiktok about max‘ thighs and i couldn’t get this idea out of my head… i love thighs, psst

masterlist / taglist

yninsta

Bali, Indonesia

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yninsta day 1 of 🌊🏝️🐚

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maxverstappen1 oh my, oh my, i-, idk what to say

username2 god, i wish to look this good

username3 thank u, y/n for posting ur body without shame, bc it is NOT and making people feel okay with their body type, ly

username4 yes, ty indeed <3

maxverstappen1 where’s your room? number? anything?

username5 not max thirsting on main

yninsta no. 33, you know where to find me, lion

username6 girl, no way they got room 33

username7 no, that’s probs just for main

mvfanacc

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mvfanacc just an appreciation post for max‘ thighs

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username9 currently thirsting

username10 did u see, y/n liked the post

username11 how can she not? i mean, look at him

yninsta thank you

username12 girl, not y/n thirsting on main

username13 ugh, i love this man

maxverstappen1

Bali, Indonesia

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maxverstappen1 day 2, saw someone posting my thighs, thought i had to appreciate my love’s thighs too

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username14 I TELL U I SCREAMED

username15 ME TOO

username14 let’s be in this mess together

username15 u n me forever

yninsta aww maxi taxi, ty my love, i LOVE your thighs

maxverstappen1 if you call me maxi taxi again, i won’t thirst anymore

username16 gurl, NO, don’t let that happen!!!!

username17 pls, y/n, we need our man to publicly thirst

username18 it’s the only way people will like him

maxverstappen1 i love her thighs. here, it’s done, i said it

yninsta and i love you

maxverstappen1 does any one need a pt. 2, bc i’ve got a whole folder

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yninsta

Bali, Indonesia

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yinsta day 3 of BALI with my one and only

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username19 what a dream relationship

username20 istg, i want what they have

username21 if mines not like that i do t want it

maxverstappen1 I LOVE YOU

danielricciardo we get it mate…

maxverstappen1 sorry that i love my gf

maxverstappen1 how am i so lucky

yninsta i am the lucky one

username22 MORE THIGHS

username23 YES MORE THIGHS

username24 WE NEED MORE PICS IF YOUR THIGHS

username25 THIGHS DONT LIE

yninsta and maxverstappen1

Bali, Indonesia

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yninsta day 4, to the best thighs on the grid 🥂

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username26 LIKED BY PIERRE GASLY

username27 how has max‘ pr manager not said anything about those two posting soft porn on main?!?

username28 bc wE ALL APPRECIATE IT

username29 YES

username27 okAY

danielricciardo max, you know i have better thighs than you

yninsta that is NOT true, mr. ricciardo

danielricciardo you are NOT TRUE

maxverstappen1 but we can all agree that y/n has the best thighs, right? 🔪

danielricciardo yes max

username30 sigh, when will i ever get that?

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[moonshynecybin]

I have a question for you as one of tumblr’s great Marc/Vale scholars. What do you think it was about Argentina 2018 that made Vale lose his mind so badly? It seems like up to then he was thawing a bit (like Catalunya press conference comes to mind when he says “yes” enthusiastically about their relationship healing) etc. Argentina was just the last straw?

hmmm i dont actually know how much thawing happened on vale's end. its more like. i am now coworkers with my ex and he's still looking at me with big moon eyes so i dont want to be a dick to him publicly bc that would be weird and incongrous with my hot funny girl image. like the famously chill and cool valentino rossi does not start petty catfights (except when he absolutely does).... like their public "reconciliation" was after the tragic death of another racer. it simply wouldnt have been appropriate for vale (or marc) to center his weird feud with marc that weekend like at that point who cares about him losing a title last year! (and well. time passed yknow like everyone was moving on, which doesnt necessarily mean they dont remember) but argentina 2018. oh my god man. like its already been discussed by @f1vegas and @its-always-silly-season in this post and this one so idk how much more i have to add but. marc was wildin' the entire race and he crashed vale out, which DEFINITELY pissed him off and probably brought up all those old fun feelings of resentment and reinforced allllll those narratives... but i think from a story standpoint its most notable from MARC'S perspective bc i think that's where he begins to conceptualize that oh. hes never going to forgive me.

#to be clear: marc was committing crimes at mach fucking speed like he shouldve been tried at the hague for argentina 2018 ghjhgkj #callie speaks #motogp #asks #rosquez

[trans-girl-nausicaa]

i feel kind of out of the loop. i dont get why i have seen doing so much tumblr posting recently about how all callout posts are 100% bad 100% of the time. Most of it is vagueblogging so IDK what specific posts people are even talking about, but, like, it feels like as a side effect we have done a 180° turn from the #MeToo movement, in microcosm.

Of course I’ve seen abusers counter-accuse in response to public accusations (DARVO). Sure there have also been plenty of false accusations. But at the end of the day I don’t want to follow or be friends with a rapist. Don’t give me that talk about how “social isolation is harmful.” I refuse to put MYSELF in danger by being in close proximity to a rapist and I refuse to tacitly cosign a rapist’s behavior by continuing to be friends with them. I’m a regular person, not a therapist or a social worker. I do not have any tools with which to change someone’s behavior. One of the only REASONABLE things I can do if someone close to me is outed as a rapist is limit my contact with them as much as possible.

I’ve seen the fallout of people in close proximity to me both online & offline being outed as rapists or abusers. I don’t regret publicizing that information & I don’t regret cutting those people out of my life. If you’ve never been put in that type of situation, cool, I’m happy for you. I legitimately wish that I could say the same.

One incident involved the police showing up at my door with a warrant & searching my residence bc they were searching for a then-friend of mine who was wanted for domestic violence. This was obviously very scary and disorienting for me.

I was put in that situation because I trusted and remained friends with someone who I thought had changed their ways & it turned out that they hadn’t. After that I cut them out of my life completely and I don’t regret it.

If we can’t talk publicly about abusers, then I guess we must participate in whisper network “you didn’t hear this from me” type shenanigans. Or maybe victims should just stay silent forever? That doesn’t seem cool to me.

#whatever

[yonpote]

under cut cuz i talk too much lol

i am not blaming dan or anything (and obviously this has been a joke in lgbt spaces for forever) but i do think he unintentionally enabled the like "homophobia is a good thing actually" type jokes and like i definitely make them too, and im always seeing jokes on here like "god why are they Like This" etc. but i think some people just dont know the line or view them so much as friends that they don't think about how it could read differently from someone who is essentially a stranger. ive said smth similar before of like, dnp (ESP DAN...) used to be not great at drawing boundaries esp since youtube and social media culture were so different back then, but now even when they draw hard lines ppl either continue to step right over them, or dont understand exactly where the line goes. they dont care if u write smut or dead dove fics, they dont care if u make shippy fanart, but like maybe dont tag them in buttsecks? (or maybe do, idk theyre being so unhinged lately maybe we gotta start @'ing them in catboy porn (JOKING))

i was talking w a friend a little bit ago about the exact differences between the generally speaking philosophies between older fans and younger fans. it seems that older fans embrace creating transformative works and having their own interpretations on who dnp are, whereas younger fans want to know dnp on a personal level and want dnp to know Them and recognize them not just as fans but as people. and OFC there are older phannies who want the parasocial interaction and younger phannies who write fic and people who do neither, and people who do both! (hi :3) but then some people have a difficult time being able to marry the two ideas maybe?

heres the truth. dan and phil are real human beings who have made a career largely off their shared dynamic together, BOTH because they genuinely enjoy creating and being together AND because a lot of people really get invested in it and it makes them more money. they don't mind fic or art, you probably SHOULDNT tag them in the saucy stuff, but they know it's out there and generally have been respectful of fan spaces and knowing where OUR boundaries lie (altho maybe the line was toed w the roblox video but thats debatable.) they really do care about their audience both in order to please us and keep us coming back, AND because they see how much theyve affected us as people and have a deep *Sarapocial Relationship with us.

there are both parasocial AND tranformative ways to break boundaries, and oftentimes they can be one and the same. they aren't our friends they arent our dads and they arent objects with no feelings. they don't stalk our accounts but they are still able to see whatever we post publicly. theyve seen so many horrible things and have had many horrible things happen to them, and while no one can be certain something like that won't happen again, now that they have been able to be more honest with us about a lot of things they are able to trust us a little bit more.

anyway ramble over back to me talking abt how dan should embrace their transness

#*sarapocial relationship (term coined by john and hank green): #the relationship that creators have with their audience and viewing the audience more like family or friends than just viewers #myrambles #mytext

[lggy]

is bugging sebastian a thing actually currently? or is it just preemptive, not that i wouldn’t believe fandoms going after VA’s 💀

someone made a post with the accidental wording that implied he was intoxicated while filming lines but that's not the case and now everyone thinks that's what happened and is being kinda weird about it

I dont have tiktok but I saw the comments on 1 video and itheure all like "omg this is what happened to Laurance now" and it feels kinda invasive. especially since he is for an 18+ audience and there are kids searching him up. I did find this out months ago and things much further but i never post publicly about it besides a couple inside jokes w friends because what he does is not my business really. it's ok to be curious cuz I was too but theres some boundaries and intentions I think ppl should pay more attention to.

idk the way he worded his tweet addressing it made me very empathetic because it's true that we only care/know about him because he was Laurance. hes happier now which is good good for him

#ask #sorry its 1am and im going thru a hazy mental episode thing i should not be posting

[newwavesylviaplath]

camryn!! im sowwy for the tag game lol, i hesitated tagging u & sharon cuz u guys have super aesthetic (but long ass) urls.. but i also don’t wanna make u feel left out, so yeah-

deepest apologies for the inconvenience.

💐🧸

- j

jackie i'm posting this one publicly instead of privately so u understand how serious i'm being. DONT APOLOGIZE I ACTUALLY HAD SO MUCH FUN I WOULDNT DO IT IF I DIDNT I LOVE WHEN ALL MY MUTUALS TAG ME INNTHINGS !!!! ESP U BABE UR ONE OF MY FAVE USERS ON THIS APP ILYSM if u ever came to canada u would have to stay far away from me cuz i will shrink you down and put you in a mason jar and keep you on my shelf and feed u like tiny graham cracker crumbs I LOBE U TAG ME IN ALL THE THINGS IDC!!!!! 😋😋

also idk why all my compliments start with shrinking a person down i just feel it would make thinks easier

[zapsoda]

i am utterly haunted by this r/amitheasshole post i saw a while back where this parent told a tale of their son refusing to shower whenever reminded, instead electing to play video games. eventually they just totally gave up, quit reminding him, quit anything, and the child went several days without showering until he came home one day furious that no one had told him he smelled until it came down to a girl he had a crush on telling him.

and all of the comments were like NTA YEAHH fuck that kid, thats just how life is!!! he needs to learn a lesson!!!!

and. i dont know if redditors understand this. but. children. are people. like. human beings. and that fucking haunted me. am i the asshole for not PARENTING my child. am i the asshole for taking a backseat and refusing to teach my child, instead electing to wait until he is publicly humiliated. is that an adequate punishment.

like. i know im a dumb clinically insane teenager with no children to speak of but i feel like it does not take a chef to tell when food has started to rot. thats shitty parenting! idk man! children are human beings you have to raise and care for you cant just fucking quit when it gets too difficult.

like. fuck dude. if reminding him wasnt working *do something else.* take away the damn xbox, get him tested for adhd, warn him of the consequences, ANYTHING. christ!

[agp]

idk about you but i think its hot when women are so aroused they say "oh fuck" in a way that is said not to be 'becoming' of a woman, specifically because it is an intimate becoming-woman that is denied by society at large, restricted to the intimate by these relations. and i cant believe i have to say this like this but this includes cis women.

as a lesbian i am generally not interested in force-masculinizing a boy out of the people i am attracted to, and thats not to say there arent other lesbians or people attracted to women out there doing just that, or that its necessarily a problem, thats just not how i chose to define my attraction to women.

i think its hot for the same reasons when cis and trans women break (down and through) form, but the way some people talk about this phenomenon with trans women specifically makes me think were not talking about or attracted to the same thing at all. while the deterritorialization may be similar, the reterritorialization differs significantly.

i think my problem lies in transmisogyny insisting on essential differences between the becomings of cis and trans women. 'how loveless do you have to be to boy her truest feelings?' was the most relatable statement to me on that mess of a post. everything else felt like it needed to defend a particular way of expressing our fetishization: that its hot bc its a boy thing, and our transness provides this boyhood a unique authenticity that cis women and people coercively assigned female at birth more generally ontologically lack, and suggest that trans women shouldnt be criticized for participating in and publicly encouraging our transmisogynistic fetishization as boys.

but idk maybe i find it annoying when ppl who obviously dont see us as women and find us attractive specifically because they do not consider us real women keep getting encouraged to keep chasing us like this. and im sorry girls but even some of us dont really see each other as girls and dont seem to particularly care about how to talk positively about mis/gendering play in public spaces.

and idk at the end of the day im just some other blogger vaguing about it because i dont care enough to be more directly confrontational, but idk...

i think we could put a little more care into it

#not to be that person but its all aftercare #in breakdowns and breakthroughs

[kissitbttr]

TJANK FUCKING GOD YOURE TALKING ABOUT THE R@PE SHIT IN THIS FANDOM. I'm actually in disbelief of how often it's being written. And I get the whole 'dont like, then scroll' and whatever, but when I open up my dash/tags and the first FIVE FUCKING FICS are r@pe fics???? And there's more every day, by the same, but also newer writers??? Wanna know what that is? Normalization. There's one blog on here that's so so so bad for it. And honestly, I get darker content, and I get the interest in rape from a psychological and conditional aspect, but that is when it's being taken seriously. These writers on here? Yeah, they're not fucking taking it seriously. If I see one more '💕🌷🎀' on a r@pe fic, I'm going to fucking lose it.

I can't imagine showing a survivor of SA one of these fics and telling them there is more like it. Like... How embarrassing. But the excuse is that the writers were SA'd and that this is the way they can work through their trauma. Personally, that literally does not add up to me. But! I'm not a psychologist so I can't dictate how someone works through their trauma. But, I can have an opinion on what they put on a public domain. And that's where the whole COD fandom issue lies. There is literally no healthy discourse. If you ask someone why they write about r@pe, they either block you, publicly slander you like you're the idiot for asking about a r@pe fic (???), or tell you to fuck off or something. Like... Why can't we just have a healthy discussion about it?? ESPECIALLY in a fandom with a pretty large female following. We SHOULD be talking about this not being hostile to each other, writers and readers alike.

Idk, sorry for the word dump. I spent four hours talking to a friend about this (who doesn't have Tumblr) and the general consensus was the same. I wish people could just think a little more critically. Just because you have a kink, or think somethings hot, doesn't always mean it's okay. And when you're consistently writing about it as a way to work through it, and posting it online, that just might be a sign that you should talk to a professional, cause there's nothing wrong with getting a second opinion.

took the fucking words outta my mouth babe. you are so RIGHT

tbh i never seen someone actively open about their trauma and say that they write the r*** fics as a way for them to cope. that’s definitely new to me. i mean, i’m no expert too and i can’t exactly say and tell them how to feel but yea that’s a little… bizarre. whether or not they’re using that as an excuse so they can write it i have nothing to say abt that. but if it’s a lie then they can go fuck themselves.

it’s not only this fandom i believe, right? there’s gotta be more and that’s the most fucked up thing about it. like i do not need to know you’re some mentally fucked individual who enjoys writing and reading about r*** content, u keep that shit to yourself. do not bring that bullshit here.

it’s pretty saddening to know that telling ppl to fuck off is their only response. which makes me realized that they are only good for one thing. how could you not have any ounce of decency in you to actually be aware of those things and realize that r*** is not okay and will never be okay?? I don’t care what’s the excuse or whatever reasons u want to bring to the table. if u don’t wanna talk about how r*** takes the joy out of a SA victim and leave a permanent scar in which they have to live with everyday, then there is no point in writing them at all.

and also, you know what saddens me more? the blogs that normally write them comes from women. because, man… you should’ve known better… you should’ve known that no woman on earth could ever live in peace knowing that one exact fear is the reason why we are so terrified of going out alone. why we are so terrified of men. why would you ever go out your way and change these beautiful characters to be some sort of evil spawn ?? weird ass bitches.

don’t be sorry for the word dump!! because i’m glad that some of you came into my inbox and expressed your thoughts about this particular bullshit.

they do need to get some help. and i mean this in the most nicest and disrespectful way possible tbh.

#anon #answered #also… which blog u talking abt cause i need to block em

[fragile-gods]

idk i want to post my writing but i dont feel like anybody is interested in anything but visual art and the limited interaction with writing in semi private spaces + the fact i get basically zero interaction in the slightest when i DO post writing publicly proves to me that people. don’t really care about anything but visual art? or small artists in general? there’s a lot of times when i’m barely able to type, and especially barely able to draw, either due to my state of mind or my on-and-off chronic pain and.idk. It just feels like people don’t appreciate the work i put into doing stuff even if the target is supposed to be me

it’s genuinely demotivating to get a few likes and essentially zero reblogs all because nobody fucking knows i exist since it’s winter so i’m currently very rarely capable of mustering up the strength to make something and it’s especially difficult to get myself to post it here. most of what i draw is concept sketches anyways and there’s no way in hell even one person out of only 30 will want to see every single case of me trying to figure out how to design or redesign something

and on the earlier topic of writing i just never finish writing

because i’m not motivated enough to do so

since it always performs so poorly even on fucking discord where people always see my stuff

idk none of this is really important just have this shitpost i guess

#vent #kinda #posting it on here because it’s related to writing/art