#idk man. i'm angry

[thetreeturnedoff]

so uh, i'm like one sick day away from losing my job, so that's nice

#apparently calling in sick is counted the same as not saying anything and just not showing up so that's nice #like what's the fucking point of me calling in ahead of time to let you know i need to be replaced if you're gonna punish me as if i didn't #like. all this means is that i don't need to put the effort into warning you that i'll be out. i can just not show up and let you deal with #not knowing i wouldn't be there. like ???? #and doctor's notes don't affect this. so me being able to prove that i was out cause i literally couldn't work doesn't mean anything #i'm so angry #i've put so much effort into this job and it all means jack shit #it's not my fault i got sick. i got it from my dad. like am i just supposed to lock myself in my room when i'm at home? #i've been so weak and unable to breathe that i actually would have passed out at work had i gone in #i've had trouble walking up and down the stairs in my home #i work as a stocker in a grocery store so it's a lot of fast moving and carrying/pushing heavy things #and if i went in there's a chance i could have gotten my coworkers sick. which means they'd be out too #like what the fuck was i supposed to do here #my friend lost his job working here the same way. like you literally just have to miss 3 days in a 6 month period and you get fired #and most of the past week hasn't been counted against me. but two of the days were. which also makes no sense #idk man. i'm angry #so so fucking angry #but i'm also like super non-confrontational and i cry when i'm upset so ik i'm gonna look pathetic tomorrow when my manager questions me #and i probably won't be able to defend myself cause i dissociate when i'm stressed #especially in a situation like this with an authority figure #even if he's super gentle tomorrow i can already tell i'm gonna be crying in front of him and my coworkers and maybe even the customers too #which'll just make it worse #>:( #:'(

[minotaurmutual]

I'm so used to being surrounded by kind and thoughtful neurodivergent people at this point that I've forgotten that sometimes neurodivergency can make us assholes in very specific ways and even though yes there's nothing wrong with us for being "different" and we shouldn't feel ashamed of who we are etc etc it's still kind of also our job to try and not actively hurt other people and then just excuse it with "well I'm autistic/have bpd/xyz so you can't be mad" or "if you don't like me treating you bad you're making me feel like I can't be my true self around you" or something like. I feel like it's very obvious to me because I have The Disorder That Makes Everyone Think You're Shitty so I'm always very aware of trying not to be, but others. not so much I think

#tldr one of my irl friends (who is autistic )consistently treats me like shit when she's 'low energy ' as she calls it #and those are situations where i offer her to leave her alone and make it very clear that we do not need to spend time together right now #ans then when i tell her that she's being really hurtful towards me she tells me that makes me feel like she can't unmask around me #and I'm like. ok #i literally have bpd I'm so angry it physically hurts all the time #am i supposed to just expect the people in my life to let me take my anger out on them and blame them for being ableist when they don't #like it or...? #idk man. #weird worldview

[birgittesilverbae]

strategist!beatrice admitting she's at a loss for how to proceed

#warrior nun #sister beatrice #beatrice over and over again pointing out information that they don't know and need to learn #lining up contingency plans a-z and beyond #trying to hang onto some modicum of control by her fingertips only for ava to do something she hadn't anticipated #(and isn't that always the way with ava - that she didn't see her coming - that if she'd had any inkling of what was to become of their #relationship she'd have bolstered her walls even further - that even then ava still would have phased right through them) #ava goes rogue in a way beatrice can't ever have anticipated and all her plans go out the window and she has to admit she's at a loss #never expected ava to jeopardize their cover to save her life #never expected ava to go to the man who all but lit the fuse that killed shannon #never expects just how deeply ava feels or how much capacity she has for forgiveness #and beatrice is unmoored by it #angry with ava in ep2 for jeopardizing the mission to save her #angry with herself in ep7 for jeopardizing the mission to save ava #packed full of rage and fear and only the faintest shred of hope #idk this might be incoherent i'm just rotating her always #mywn #myedit

[syn0vial]

kinda surreal to see people on tumblr like, "the people on that submersible should have known the risks and were just too rich and stupid to think they could die" and then reading the account by the 19-year-old's aunt saying he was "terrified" to get in the sub and only did so to please his dad on father's day weekend...

makes me think about how we comfort ourselves through horror movies by latching onto some little mistake a character makes and going, "oh, that's so stupid! i would never do that!" and thus insulating ourselves from the horror that terrible things can happen to us, too.

and, i know, i know, the true thing protecting all of us from this exact fate is that none of us have $250,000 in recreational savings to burn on submersible trips down to the titanic anyway, but. there are plenty of other situations where we might overlook our own instincts that say to get the hell out of dodge just to please a friend or loved one, or because it's their "special day" and we don't want to rain on their parade, and where we might indeed end up paying for it with life or limb. i can think of several such incidents from my own life that could've ended with me just as dead, and that's just off the top of my head!

so yeah. it's a sad thing to hear about and i wonder how much of our collective scorn for the dead is in fact a self-soothing behavior to ward off our own fears of mortality...

#oceangate #titan submersible #yes yes the submersible was ludicrously unsafe and they should've known it was a bad idea etc etc #but haven't you ever done something that was a bad idea to please someone you love? #i'm thinking of a time i visited a beach with my best friend and there were signs everywhere saying not to swim in the ocean there #and who knows maybe there was a riptide or some other danger that necessitated these warnings #but my friend was determined that we were going swimming and got angry when i suggested otherwise #and looking back it was a stupid thing to do and i should've at least stuck on land myself even if it upset her #but! my conflict-avoidant ass got in the water and swam around anyway! #idk reading about this young man's story really hit a nerve with me bc i can easily see myself doing the same thing #doing something i know in my bones to be unsafe just to avoid hurting someone else's feelings...

[heartsgettingwiser62]

The show expresses El's and Will's main arc and desires through their art in s4.

On the one hand, we have Will, who creates a painting for Mike that portrays them and the party together again, as their dnd characters. Of course, it displays Will's desire of belonging again in that friend group, of having what was taken away from him last summer. But, after all, the main focus of the painting is Mike. Because 1, the painting is for Mike after all, and 2, Will himself is telling where his priorities are, by painting a heart on top of him. Mike's the heart, his heart.

On the other hand, with her art (the figures she makes), El portrays Hopper and his cabin, the first place she actually considered a home. This creation is, in a way, for Hopper. Since she obviously can't give it to him directly, it's a tribute to his sacrifice, therefore, it's made for him. That's where her priorities lie: family.

Will's arc, his biggest hopes and desires, are primarily about love, just how he expresses in his art. El's arc, her biggest hopes and desires, are primarily about family, just how she expresses in her art.

So, narratively, who would make more sense to end up in a relationship? The one whose focus is love and belonging (being who he loves one of the reasons he feels as if he doesn't belong) or the one whose focus is family and finding herself?

#sorry if this has grammar mistakes i'm not native and for some reason i forgot how to speak english today 😭😭 #idk i'm tired man #anyways 'will's arc is about accepting mike doesn't love him back ' HE ALREADY KNOWS (more like thinks) THAT #his arc is about learning that he can be loved the way he wants to bc there's nothing wrong with him or the way he wants to be loved #and el's arc is definitely not about romantic love is about finding a family and finding herself #and guess what THE ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP SHE'S IN DOESN'T LET HER FIND HERSELF #literally stablished in s3 #'there's more to life than stupid boys' max mayfield the wisest woman on earth #like IT'S SO OBVIOUS SKDNSKD #idk i'm feeling a bit angry today at how ppl can't read tv shows and plotlines #byler #will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things #mike wheeler i know what you are #anti milkvan #anti mileven #el hopper #byler proof #byler is requited #byler is canon #byler endgame #byler theory #willel #gay mike wheeler #milkvan is bones

[green-mountain-goose]

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#I'm genuinely just so fucking angry at the abuse i went through and still am #Idk tbh if you described it as anything else you'd be lying #It's fucking 3.38am and I'm just so fucking pissed off #Idk man it's not that fucking hard to be decent normal parents and not tell them to at worst sometimes tell them to kill themselves #Tw vent #Vent #I just idk #I'm so fucking angry #I have no idea how i survived but like #I need to talk to a fucking therapist at some point #Idk man this shit was never okay #I'm so tired of having to basically fight for my life and future #And waiting fucking decades for freedom and a normal life #Just a normal fucking life #That's all I wanted how fucking hard could it be????

[moe-broey]

HEARTBREAKING

Worst Dad You Know Has an Extremely Endearing (Now) Reoccurring Character Trait

For further context: this whole FB involved Sharena and Henriette seeking out lockpickers in the Order of Heroes to open this VERY SECURELY locked box from Gustav's room that took Tina's special staff to finally crack open (or rather -- "steal" the contents out of. No one could actually break the lock!)

And the first instance of this!

It makes me wonder if he saved anything related to Sharena..........

#fire emblem #feh #man. henriette's sad portrait w 'yes. he must have' carries so much bittersweet grief. augh #when it comes to sharena idk if i would be more angry if he did save something or if he didn't. i'm almost leaning towards the first though #like. idk if i can even word it but it fucking sucks when you have family that 'loves' you and they do actually genuinely love you #but they just. do it wrong. and fail you severely in the process. you think to yourself it would have been easier actually #if they had simply never loved you at all. or if they were upfront and told you they don't love you anymore. #at least then you can be as vindictive as you want and hold a grudge forever and be completely justified #but extremely begrudgingly this DOES make gustav a compelling character. in so many ways #you can see where it all went wrong. you can see henriette sees something in him that no one else can. and she's not crazy for it #she was probably there. she probably saw it all happen. she knows him w a level of intimacy no one else does. #and now you see these little humanizing traits. he loved his son. he loved his partner and wife. #juries still out on his daughter. #but you get what i'm saying right? it's terribly tragic. it's painful. #man. #i'm still gustav's number one hater though. just so we're clear. #AUGH IT'S JUST. THE PLAYFULNESS OF IT. IS ACTUALLY SO PAINFUL. LOOKING AT EVERYTHING WE KNOW #they had a rock competition........ to find the roundest rock.......... and she won....... and he saved the rock she found...... #THAT'S. AAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #you cannot fucking IMAGINE gustav doing that. and yet. in another time. he did. and that's who henriette fell in love with #and that's who herniette still sees. and she's not fucking wrong for it. not entirely. he still has that fucking rock. #dude i'm gonna be sick. #fe gustav #fe henriette #sharena #fe tina #fe alfonse #he's. mentioned. might as well tag him LMFAO

[vodid]

incredibly frustrated with my inability to FUNCTION that just never seems to get better. so sorry to ppl who buy from my store and have to wait weeks to get their orders. i'm trying my best

this is honestly the best career option for me given everything but what does it say about me that i can barely even fulfill it?

#oops! its a vent #i'm so tired all the time and the guilt and stress just make it worse #how do i expect to be able to do anything in life at this point loll #idk i'm just going thru it man #ill try making improvements on my store eventually but i dont have the financial means atm #but ill be opening it back up once i get my current orders shipped out o7 try to keep a schedule #i cant stop now and i dont plan to. i'm just having a hard time mentally and i can only hope ppl understand & dont get angry about the wait

[greencarnation]

dean winchester is the blue print of trans masculinity

#listen #he is me #i am him #in my bones i am him and i understand him #he's a shit person and he's selfish and angry and irredeemable #and i don't even like him but by god will i never be normal about him #i am his anger i'm his shame his grief his barbed sarcasm and bitter smiles #fuck #i know the feeling of thin shoulders under a big jacket and i know the desperation to fill it #idk man #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #destiel #trans dean winchester #mine

[t00thpasteface]

whew. sorry. look i promise i'm Normal. you can trust me to NOT randomly fly into a mouth-foaming hysteria. i WON'T grab people's shoulders and jostle them violently while i yell about the erosion of identity and agency that comes with being Known as an artist. did you hear about this elvis guy? i'm NORMAL

#shebbz shoutz #i will probably disable reblogs on that post as i do with most of my Opinion Posting bc it just gets annoying to see in my activity #even when it goes over well it's like man ok i said my piece i'd like to move on now #and not be reminded of That Thing That Made Me Angry every time i check my activity and see it got another note #does that makes sense? idk. i'm gonna go eat food

[hwiyoungies]

i do find it hilarious when whoever is adapting a thing says that they're not gonna do it play by play but rather a reinterpretation of the story in a way, and then people get mad because it's not a play by play but a reintepretation of the story

#like idk man if you knew before hand that changes were gonna be made because they wanted to find a new way to tell the story #and you get mad because they're not telling the story the way you think they should #i think that's on you LMAO #i think about it from the pov of someone who has never engaged with the thing #and how good is the story telling from that pov rather than someone that knows the original like the back of their hand #i do agree tho that people need to stop doing remakes or adaptations or anything of the sort #because we do need new stories #but i know that's partially because companies don't wanna risk it not being successful from the get go lmfao #haven't finished the n.atla show yet but so far? i do like it and all the changes make sense within the story they're telling #and honestly i prefer the changes because i know nothing would actually measure with the original #if they wanted to do a fully like play by play of it #like idk man i'm personally watching it as if it was a whole ass new story rather than constantly comparing it to the og #but that also might be because i wanna like it LMAO like i don't wanna be angry and complaining all the time while watching it #of course i'm still gonna be critical of things but like idk i never expected it to even be similar to the cartoon so like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #b.txt

[monstermoviedean]

dean doesn't want to be angry dean is trying every minute of his life to not be angry. anger was one of the few emotional states that those around him would recognize as valid and therefore became one of the only emotions he felt safe to express. but he doesn't want to be angry. and he tries not to be. it scares the hell out of him.

#might come back to this after my nap but it's just #angry man this angry man that everyone is so afraid of him and his toxic evil vengeful horrible anger #idk if i was raised to believe angry was the only thing i could be and then taught myself out of it #i'd be pretty pissed off if people only identified and focused on the times i'd failed #and at the same time #dean can't let himself get angry because if he did he'd never stop being angry #I don't think those are contradictory? #he can have a lot of feelings that he unintentionally or unwillingly expresses as anger without being actually angry #now i'm just rambling. okay nap time bye bye this will not make sense to me in a few hours i precut #spn

[frasermints]

saw a stupid fucking post about how auston doesn't deserve the attention he gets and he doesn't deserve consideration for the C because of how little time he spends with the rest of the team during the off season

would love to remind people white leafs fans how important family is to latinos and how little time he got to spend with his family in the year leading up to the 2016 draft and him moving to toronto

would love to remind y'all to shut the fuck up maybe and think before you speak about a healthy work-life balance and consider that maybe family is actually important to some people people and while his coworkers are definitely his found family, his blood family is important too and some of us actually have healthy and loving and beautiful relationships with the people we're related to

#anyway i'm angry #i fucking hate you people #nhl #auston matthews #leafs #my post #i'm going to delete this in the morning #i've been up for 18 hours #doing a deep dive into this man has me parasocial #what fanfiction writinfdoes to a motherfucker #it's me i'm motherfuckers #idk i just really fucking get it man. being mixed brown and watching your parents (see: mom) hustle to survive #it does shit to you #you feel this impossible weight to pay everything back #and now that he has the ability to do that y'all are really like ''he doesn't do enough for other people'' maybe die actually #if anything he doesn't deserve consid for the c for the indecent exposure charge but whatever #y'all will do anything

[shanedoesdoodles]

filled with angry but attempting to stay silly

#Just got ghosted by a friend who I was supposed to pick up today so we could hang out #We had to leave because he didn't answer his door and my family had to prepare for other shit happening today #I have no doubt he was just asleep (he's s very deep sleeper) but like #come on man #We've been discussing this for like four days #Set a alarm or something #Anyway I'm not actually that angry but I am feeling uncharacteristically numb so I'm gonna try to raise my spirits a bit #Not sure how though #Tbh I might just be hungry but it's a bit early for lunch so idk

[hurglewurm]

rather unfulfilling therapy session about how bad i am at speaking the same language as others and seeing and being seen. not without its worth. feels awful though. i'm not happy

#thank you also for the asks being nice to me #i do appreciate them #nothing is really super Real though #that's a bit insensitive but like. i'm just an insane little man #trying not to bother my friends while they're all having a good time and celebrating themselves #like i've been trying SO SO HARD not to do anything harmful to myself (physically) for like. three weeks #maybe two weeks. but two long fucking weeks #god i just hate #i got ANGRY today. #my therapist was all you're angry at me. talk about it #and i'm just. i would rather not. #fuck all this idk the rules of anything and i'm mad and i just want to stay where i know i can be #i'm ANGRY. i am not often angry. i don't know what to do with this #i don't even know what i'm angry ABOUT

[beanghostprincess]

I see where the people who see Sanji as an ESTJ are coming from, but I still think he's an ENFJ. I might not be the very best when it comes to MBTI, but I pretty much believe he's an ENFJ and I agree with the database. He might use logic and strategy a lot and like to have everything under control, but I think he focuses way more on others' well-being than his own and his whole personality is basically about his need to please others and take care of them. He follows the needs of others and his way of showing affection is pretty much self-sacrificing without thinking twice about it. He sticks to schedules but adapts to the environment and sees the whole picture even if he ends up following his feelings. Which is basically his whole thing. When it comes to making decisions he focuses way more on his own morality and feelings than on what's planned. The way in which Sanji is described during WCI by the Vinsmokes is basically the definition of an ENFJ, just a little bit bossier, perhaps? He does things like Mr.Prince and it can be easy to mistake him for an ESTJ but idk, I feel like he was literally just vibing there. And every time he does shit like this it just makes me see his Ni a lot more.

#idk man i just saw somebody complaining about him being an enfj and something in me got angry bc i'm a very violent enfj!sanji believer #one piece #black leg sanji