#idk prolly more tags but

[whump-queen]

“You’re better than this.”

[tw angst, depression, self-hatred, sort of a whumper-caretaker combo, implied suicidal ideation if you squint]

They felt their throat close up.

Was this supposed to feel like a pep talk?

They could read between the lines, you know. They weren’t that thick. They could hear the sentences finish in their head.

‘You’re pathetic. You’re lazy—’

“I—I know." Their throat clenched down again, the muscles tightening and squeezing around their words. They nearly grimaced at the sound of their own broken voice.

As if to prove them right.

“Hey. Look at me.”

The edge of frustration in that tone sent their emergency signals on edge. They lifted their gaze from that spot on the floor.

Whumper could see them fully now, and whumpee loathed how they must have looked right then—eyes brimming with tears, trying hard not to blink—god forbid the heavy drops breach their eyelashes and make everything worse.

Whumper grabbed them by the shoulders, their frustration boiling over, and shook them hard. Whumpee's voice cracked.

"Come on, snap out of it!"

“You know you’re better than this. You know you are—fuck, I know you are.“

They felt the tears now, streaking their cheeks and cooling in the chill of the room.

'Look at how far you’ve fallen.'

Whumper's tone grew more frantic now, that frustrated edge in their voice giving way to a full on desperate anger—

“Come ON— where did that FIRE go?”

'What the hell happened to you?'

“you used to be so—“

What— so strong? So self-assured? So confident?

. .

Was I?

Was that why you first fell for me?

It’s been so long. I can barely remember now.

.

Was that why you looked at me so differently that night, all those years ago?

With all the reverence and adoration in the world in your eyes—

as if you'd raze everything to the ground at my feet.

Please—tell me what it was— What did you see in me?

What did you see when you looked at me like that?

What was I like?

Please—please tell me—I—I cant find it anymore—

Whumper released their shoulders, turning away exasperated.

“Nobody’s gonna pull you up but you now.”

Whumpee curled in on themselves, the sobs were impossible to hold back now.

'You've got no one but yourself.'

Too much.

It hurts.

'Nobody but a person you despise.'

They let the tears fall willingly now, grieving something they could barely grasp.

That person they must've once been—they felt no more real than a ghost now.

Long dead.

They couldn’t do it anymore.

It hurt to remember.

It hurt to grieve.

Please.

Let them melt into the walls.

Let somebody find them in a week.

• • •

if you need therapy like me you can read more terrible angsty shit here:

Regrets | Tile | In the blur of the rain

#tf when u just— #*cries* #ammirite guys haha #whump drabble #angst whump #sad shit #angst #whump writing #my writing #tw mental health #depression #self hatred #tw depression #idk prolly more tags but #no energy rn so #lmk if I missed anything #pffft lmfao #when u get whumped by ur own brain pffskskdjfj #the real whumper was our own internal dialogue all along #✨✨✨ #rip that this is the first drabble i’ve posted in ages and it’s this shit #will be back with your regularly scheduled power trip content shortly 😭

[ash-and-starlight]

thank you @mafaldinablabla for the tag!! the game is to share 9 of my favourite books from the last 12 months, or 9 books on my tbr list for this year.

Here is what i’m looking forward to read this year! (my hunt for beautiful covers never ends. in this house books Shall be judged by their cover)

tagging uhh @erisenyo, @chitsangenthusiast, @ranilla-bean, @poikilotherm, @kyoshialone and whoever else wants to do it u.u

#also i really wanted to read the iliad but idk if there is a good prose translation/adaptation of it??? #if any of italian moots has come across one… #blease tell me... blease hmu #ive also been meaning to get more into uhh #social theory books? #if that’s the word? #but idk where to begin #esp bc i read on a short commute and i usually don’t have the brain space to engage with academy level texts #again if someone know a version of this for tired dummies lmk #ALSO cheating a bit bc i already started the seven moons of maali almeida and i’m loving it sooooo much #plus jorjus cover #so rlly the perfect book #realizing i should prolly start a book tag hmm #anyway #send post #oh I'm also looking forward to finish the murderbot diaries it's slow going but I'm halfway through and they're so good

[cringefail-clown]

ill be out of job in april, so i was thinking about opening commissions in march. never done it tbh, i dunno if anyone would even be interested, so i thought i'd make a poll to see how many of yall would potentially want a commission from me

#homestuck #idk how to even tag this #eughh #believe me id love nothing more than to go freelance and do art full time #but idk imma prolly be job hunting for a while

[mafufuu-2-with-cheese]

moots ocgrams (1/??)

left to right, top to bottom: ayame from tsumigram, warden from gemini, s from dollgram, mihane from aruku-gram, shun from mugram, naki form the depths of kufer’s mind

show them some love !!

@74n5n

@sun-god-cometh

@ceo-of-catboys

@archirdarchernar

@amugoffandoms

@kafui-7

the projects (not gonna double @)

@/tsumigram

@/dollgram

@/aruku-gram

@/mugram

#dont mind the stationery it’s just there so the paper lays flat-ish #btw it says 1/?? bcuz i will prolly do this more in the future w/diff charas but idk how many times and i dont wanna set expectations 4 whe #not gonna tag ocgram bcuz none of them belong to me #tsumigram #dollgram #aruku-gram #mugram

[cuz-reasons]

I can't draw but I need to share the image that was just beamed into my head

It's that "very beautiful, very powerful" lumpfish video but it's Emmet with Joltiks

#submas #yea ill put this in the main tag #i think its funny #ive never wished i cpuld draw more #even if it was just a simple doodle of a joltik copy pasted over top of every lumpfish in the video #oh well #maybe ill try later after work or smth idk #prolly not but i can dream

[honkowo]

MORE MEAT CARSSSS (AND HOTROD!!!!!!!!!! <3<3<3<3<3)

from top 2 bottom: some bigass meat car models, HOT ROD<3, & examples/sketches of possible modded meat cars heehee

so the 2 other factory models r the mole, a meat car used for underground travel & excavation for permanent settlements, & the walking city, a meat car built for carrying many angels( about 40-50 on average) and/or their stuff across long distances.moles are one of the only factory models with a base that ISNT of angel origin for once; its a subterranean mole instead :). the mole can also come in a fair few sizes, with the one in the picture being the biggest.

I FINALLY GET TO SHOW U GUYS HOTROD TOO YIPPEE!! hotrod is clink's only custom meat car & is his pride and joy lmao. hes entirely a speed-based custom, being capable of 200mph max & an even faster diving speed, & hes quite agile too :). unlike ur average meat car, hotrod has a more prominent personality; often getting himself into trouble because of how nosy he can be. hes otherwise pretty well behaved.

like usual, gif stills r under the cut :)

#owo whats this #angel tag!!! wahoo #spec bio #xenobiology #alien species #FUCK YES ITS HOT ROD TIME #unless u read my tags on the last meat car post then you would have NO IDEA how excited ive been to show him off #this post took so long cos i couldnt figure out a design for his bodypaint lmao #looks ok enough but i really wanted more blue & yellow markings #ill prolly come up w something else later idk #i gotta say tho meat cars r so much fun to design theres heaps that u can do w angel proportions #anyway #thats all the tags i think

[juicezone]

Hi hello!!! Would you be ok with doing an art of Dave Strider with a pacifier and maybe a Dino stuffie?? If homestuck isn’t ok to request just lemme know!!! -🌻

I honestly don't really know anything about homestuck, but I think this guy likes music! I think he'd go through the KidzBop albums and rate the songs on them

Check my pinned if you’re interested in sending in an agere/related art request ^^!

DNI if nsfw/K!NK/ur blog isnt safe for a kid

#agere art #sfw agere art #fandom agere #homestuck agere #ty for the request! #🌻 anon #idk if im gonna do anon tags lol but hey! why not #ik the tag is prolly more for you than me :P

[luuxxart]

anyway student council au gets to have old men too

#student council au #persona 5 #goro akechi #hitoshi hirayami #akeshi #was just thinking abt the whole council after doing that old man shuake comic #and Hitoshi’s was kind of a no brainer #I gave him the alternate universe (where akechi doesn’t stay in Inaba) haircut from the smtv moment I gave him #jump into Hitoshi’s tag for elaboration on that #akechi gets the izanami hair cut #and of course akechi is dying his hair #I accidentally gave them izanami and velvet room attendant colors hahaha #anyway if stuco wasn’t shuake i firmly believe they would just fight demons in the fog forever in inaba #while akechi is also taking over Naoto’s detective prince thing #and training the next gen for that #they’d prolly have a kid idk #but akechi wouldn’t let him into the detective business #hitoshi would go on to inherit his mother’s fortune in the news and sell it to go be a freelance journalist #we’re not gonna talk about the eye #ALSO UPDATE TOMORROW WOOOOOOO MORE GAY MOMENTS AND OOPS SOME TRAUMA #I expect like. two likes on this but oh well it is very self indulgent

[rebouks]

hi becca! i have recently discovered a lot of new sim stories thanks to your reblogs! i was wondering if you could recommend some of the sim stories you have been following recently. thanks!

Holy great mother of ball sacks.. dis gonna be long...

@bionibots - Uniqa V @budgie2budgie - Rotational Play @castawavy - Early Birds @cinamun - Indya @citylighten - Dear Diary @cyberth0t - Inheritance and a WebToon version!? @dandylion240 - Various Stories @thedevilliers - The Devilliers @digital-deluxe - Public Enemy @dynastiasims - Aine @emotrait - Prequel @enchanting-whim - Bloodthirst @eslanes - A Devil Between Us @eternal-infamy - Volatile @fairefolked - Reverie @galaxsims - Various Stories @gunthermunch - Munch @itsmariejanel - Contagious Chemistry @thegrimalldis - House of Grimalldi @ladybugsimblr - Various Stories @literalite - Don''t Go Where I Can't Follow @madeofcc - Various Stories @marigolde - Legend @mellindi - Impulse @morrigan-sims - RTQ @mosneakers - Various Stories @muchsimlish - Imani & Caleb @natolesims - Various Stories @therichantsim - Let It Burn @robertpancakes - Bro Household?? dude idk what the story is actually called pls don't @ me 🙏

@saevaei - Sasso Legacy @seaslugsims - Virtuous Cycle @shesthespinstersimmer - Various Stories @softpine - Frozen Pines @someone-elsa - Something About Us @stinkrascal - Straud Legacy @tartiish - Circles @toskasimz - Eclipse @treason-and-plot - Five Years Later @vatorelilith - Songs From a High Tower @wannabecatwriter - Various Stories @wa-royal-tea - Windasia Royalty @warmsol - Lune @warwickroyals - Warwick @whyeverr - La Boca Cerrada @wolfavens - Light Trap @xldkx - Papercuts @yawninggraves - The Night We Met @yimiki - Tales of Camelot @zombietrait - The Villareals @zosa95 - Gemma Clarke

#uhh #story recs #? idk what to tag this and i'm sorry for @'ing SO many of you lmaooo #you don't have to reply or anything i just wanted to make it easier for ppl to come and peruse ur wares yknow #some of these are on break and/or hiatus n stuff but still #lots of goodies #and there's prolly a million more i forgot so sorrrryyy.. feel free to recommend more below!

[dumb-doll-lips]

Ya know what like really made feel sure that I like have a patriarchy kink or whatever, was seeing more posts from blogs where they’re like saying they don’t like that being part of the bimbo stuff. And any examples they shared I was like oo that’s hot.

(Tho like tbh I’m not totally sure what patriarchy means. And I always get confused about what counts as a kink or not. But that’s the words I’ve seen some blogs use when they are like dissing these things I’m liking and finding hot.)

#personal #idk feels like it should have more of a tag but idk #the voted on slutting tag doesn’t feel right #but like I def find this kinda funny cause feels like that’s the opposite effect they prolly wanted #oh gonna tag dumb things for not being sure what things mean #dumb things #little thoughts

[the-pigeon]

ship in a bottle

(part of duo gift for @mcytblrholidayexchange​ (here's the fic i wrote) for @firep0wder)

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jesus of suburbia by green day // youtube comment from evan chow on etho's first double life video // a place where someone loves you by neil hilborn // art by @tiredfoxtf​ // the good fight by ada limon // 2econd-2ight-2eer by will wood // etho, doube life episode 2 // silver and steel by innokenty annensky, translated by lubov yakovleva with daniel weissbort // ANOTHER STORM by jordaan mason // tumblr post by dogmotif // the arsonist by thrice // rosencrants and guildenstern are dead, 1966, by tom hoppard // a letter to my daughter by kate forsyth // poem by mossycoat // tumblr post by aroacekal // firebreather by thrice // of hospitals by jordaan mason // humans filled with cotton and puppets filled with blood by neptune holub // amigo by fish in a birdcage // the beatrice letters by lemony snicket // quote from kiki nicole // joel, etho, double life episode 5 // photo credit // joel, double life episode 5 // on earth we’re briefly gorgeous by ocean vuong // an assortment of genders‘, uncredited //  another war by jordaan mason // joel, etho, double life episode 5 // tumblr post by boygirltitties and gay-poseidon // burn the ships by steven curtis chapman // art by @obslorsed​ // arsonist’s lullaby by hozier

#web weave #mcyt #double life smp #dlsmp #etho #smallishbeans #fucking. how do i tag #dl!etho #dl!joel #idk what im doing #boat boys #anyway. first traffic series web weave. prolly more to come because the autism in me really love traffic series rn #double life web weave #double life #i think thats enough tags for now lmaoo

[thelesbianthespianposts]

MY WIFE HAS RETURNED!!!!!

#Rose Tyler you will always be famous #I literally screamed when she appeared #It’s been too long #her and Donna getting along!!!!!! #Donna being like #‘Yeah there was this blonde chick idk’ #And the doctor’s internally like ‘that could be anyone it’s prolly not my ex’ #And the BAD WOLF named drop #Yes girl! Take those letters and scatter them #Hope we see more bad wolf action in the finale #Rose tyler #love of my life tag #J watches drwho #doctor who

[secret-citrus]

Spent this afternoon binging Helluva Boss, and now I'm hooked lmao, so I'll take the brain worms and point out the difference between Blitz' and Stolas's pictures of each other

One of these was taken in the day, when Blitz feels the need to hide his emotions and push people away to keep himself from getting hurt. The other was in the night, when nobody was awake to hurt him. When he could be the loving and caring person he really is.

And I think the part that hurts the most is this isn't a buried piece of Blitz. He has moments like that rather often with everyone besides Stolas, even though he clearly cherishes Stolas above almost everyone else (the picture above, better shown by Stolas's appearance in the Truth Seekers dream sequence). What's buried is the fear of getting hurt. It's shoved so deep down that the only time it's spelled out is when Blitz is tripping balls in Truth Seekers. Even then, he tells the display of his fear to shut up.

Blitz is purposefully hurting Stolas so he'll just leave their relationship at the mutual exchange. And it's working.

#Helluva Boss #blitzø #Blitzo helluva #Stolas #Stolas Helluva #i think i'm hooked bc this is pretty good #i like how they've built the characterization to be consistent and funny and complex all at once #i think Blitzo is my favorite character so far bc of how insanely complex he is #i also think i have a hell of a lot to say about this show #if the brain worms survive me sleeping then i'll prolly come back in the morning to analyze the show more #idk man the fandom seems to be a largely teenaged space n I'm uncomfy interacting with that as an adult #i think teens deserve their own spaces in fandom to grow and learn critical media analysis skills #and also teens don't need to hear how down bad i am for Mollie #she's so fucking precious and hot and i wanna make out with her #spoilers #helluva spoilers #helluva boss spoilers #edit: I FORGOT TO TAG SPOILERS ORIGINALLY LMAO SORRY Y'ALL

[sorikkung]

so if i did nsfw art of hongjoong. hypothetically. would anyone be interested in seeing it,

#i may or may not have dabbled in realism for my besties birthday and drawn her. hongjoong cock <3 #with lynx ears bc hes from one of our dm aus #might as well share it with the masses since i worked so hard on it #it was my first time trying hyperrealism/realism(?) and also my first time drawing cock. so it was definitely. An Experience but it was fun #def wanna try drawing more stuff like this idk if i should put it here or on a sideblog #but tbh considering i post my fics on main along w the 49835 gifsets and memes i like #might as well post my art on main too #no sideblog we die like men #(says man w 493859834 sideblogs) #lmk if any of you wanna follow my non kpop sideblog #non fandom posts i just reblog to main so my non kpop blog is literally just. any other fandom i like that i dont have a sideblog for #no organisation no tags no nothing we die like men #HKJSDFJGSKJDFGJKSDJFKG #might end up making a twt for art in which ill prolly promote my fics on there too see if i can snag any new readers #will prooobably be under the same handle as this but unsure #might make a new one just for funsies #anyway #mischiefing time

[himbopunk]

PLEASE HELP AN INDIGENOUS ARTIST MOVE INTO AN APARTMENT!

I’ve found a place to move into, but I still need some financial help making it happen. I’ve got a bit of funds going to help with some of the fees but I need to reach my goal to reasonably be able to take enough time off of my shop to actually move. 

I’m moving in mid-June, so I hope to have the money by then. Please share if you can so I can reach my goal, anything helps!

https://gofund.me/077a0239

#I was gonna draw a graphic for this but i'm so fckin tired man #idk if i should tag this with anything more it seems like apparently that fucks w ppl tryna reach out like this #prolly shouldntve even had these lol #but. yea

[toytulini]

terfs go climb into a hole and start rotting. animals cannot inherently tell your "biological sex" you are all so fucking stupid. All this post is saying is that animals are not infallible judges of character and some of them make really stupid vibe checks and that people should try not to take it personally. Unless youre a terf in which case they know and they hate you and you should take it personally

re that one post tbh i do want to stress i dont think animals are like magically psychic at knowing your True Gender tbh i think ppl definitely get way too weird about Animal's judgement of ppl.

Sometimes a dog will vibe check a man and the dog will be right and you should listen. but sometimes the dog will vibe check someone for no good reason. sometimes dogs have wack judgement. sometimes dogs have biases influenced by their owners or previous owners. like. there are Racist Dogs. its not the dogs fault, but that doesnt make the bias theyve developed less real, or less potentially hurtful. i dont think we need to like, Cancel Dogs Bc Sometimes Ppl Can Train Them To Be Racist, but we do need to stop perpetuating the idea that a dog's judgement of someone is infallible. theyre not responsible for it and its not their fault its developed, theyre just dogs, they didnt choose it, but that doesnt mean theyre RIGHT lmao. i think its important to stress this for many reasons but in regard to that last post specifically, if youve ever been vibe checked as a gender you arent by a judgy dog its literally not your fault. might not even be the owners fault. not the dogs fault cos like. its a fucking dog. you do kinda have to be the bigger person in that scenario cos the other person is. A Dog.

#toy txt post #this was meant to be a quick post it got a bit longer and more in depth than i planned oops #i just hate when ppl act like All Dogs have Inherently Correct Judgement Of People #like from every angle. its funny to joke about but i know theres ppl out there who might be feeling like #very fragile in their gender or smth and seeing a post like that if they meet a dog that normally hates men but not women but it doesnt #recognize your inherent true gender im sure seeing shit like that post can be a horr #got interrupted by a phone call while typing it and the post is glitching so i cant see where that tag is cut off so uh #dogs are like ppl in that they can develop biases and have bad judgement and they dont always get it right #they are not like ppl in that it is not possible to ask a dog to examine its biases. you cannot make a dog take a class on #critical race theory. you have to work to socialize and desensitize them against those biases or at least make sure those biases theyve #developed dont negatively impact ppl. in this sense i guess im morally obligated to try to learn more spanish to see if it helps my dog #chill. shes nervous around all new ppl but parents have anecdotally noted she extra dislikes men speaking in spanish. she was a stray so we #dont really know her history. she also does Not like fire pokers outside. weirdly even tho its basically the same tool she is unfazed by #the indoor poker for the woodstove? but ig she wouldve had less exposure to indoor woodstoves as a stray in Louisiana? #but i can see like ppl having a little backyard barbecue and threatening the big mastiff looking stray dog with a fire poker and i think #that region of the country prolly has a higher number of spanish speaking ppl than our current residence so the odds of her running into a #spanish speaking guy who isnt very nice are prolly higher just due to a denser population as a whole. and we think shes part mastiff which #i think is a breed already prone to disliking strangers that probably cooked up into a little cocktail in her brain #luckily shes bad enough with All Strangers that i think honestly it would be hard to even notice her bias? but. ig i need to see if i can #desensitize her? idk. sighs but im scared to open duolingo now 😭. but i could maybe do it. when other ppl wear hats she fucking hates it #i wear a fucking face covering mask that looks like a giant eyeball she looks at me a little quizzically but is fine. jester hat? fine #i am like that video of the person desensitizing that horse except thats just like. living w me. minus the cat thing. id never do that to #the cats or dog. everyone would hate that. squirrel already cant tolerate being held while a dog is out cos he THINKS im going to do that. #it would traumatize the dog cos he'd injure me escaping and then prolly her trying to scare her off to get past her and shes just minding #her business. solo i cant hold that long but is less likely to injure anyone. shadow. first of all all 3 are way too heavy to be holding #like that #im getting lost in the tags again sorry im chewing caffeinated gum. i should go try to buy some catnip #ive made my Phone Calls. im gonna try to go get dressed and buy various catnip products. maybe lure him with a toy this time. need my #parents to help me but not be so visibly Ready to help me next time cos i do not want to chase his ass again...