#idk what im trying to say but im sad and frustrated and i dont wanna keep having this fucking conversation again and again.

[munsons-maiden]

hi, i really need to vent rn and you are literally a safe space for anything eddie/joseph related and i just feel like i have to talk about it.

my heart is broken and ive cried my eyes out for a while now because joe wont be at the german comic con due to issues with his passport. ive spent so much money on tickets and the whole trip to see him. like, all i wanted was one of those hugs he gives everyone and i wrote him a letter and now its all for nothing.

i am so sad and frustrated now because i wont get my money back and i had to fight the entire week to get tickets for him. i almost got scammed two times and now this. no hug, no smile, no nothing :(

im still going and i at least got a ticket for grace, so as long as she wont cancel too, its at least something. but its still so disappointing and i feel so devastated. knowing that id meet him gave me so much motivation to do something and now its all gone again.

im still thinking if its a dck move to ask grace if she will take my letter and maybe gets it to joe somehow. the letter really means so much to me and idk if ill ever get the chance to give it to him now. but im scared that grace might think im only using her, if she even agrees. and if she did agree, maybe the letter would get lost somewhere and any chance of getting it to him is gone...

i really dont know what to do now and im trying to see the positive aspects but its so hard, considering everything i invested and all the hopes i had :(

sorry to dump this on you, i just needed to tell someone

same anon with the german comic con topic here... again i just feel like my last whining session sounded like im mostly frustrated that i spent so much money. and while that is true, i spent it gladly to meet joseph. just wanted to clarify.

the money issue isnt my biggest problem, its just the only thing i can actually be mad about rn, bcs joe has a valid reason to cancel. even if the passport thing is not the whole truth and maybe he ditched because the london cc wasnt going too great (some ppl speculate that he didn't wanna do another comic con so soon after) its his right to do so and i cant be mad at him.

its just so disappointing because i wanted to talk to him and see him interact with fans and ask him stuff. and now the opportunity is gone and it was pure luck that i even had this one chance. its just... i miss him, without ever meeting him? does that make sense?

i feel like his presence must be so nice to be around and i was so ecstatic when i finally got the tickets. and now i think i ruined it for myself because every time i overthink something, i make up 567 scenarios in my head, what could happen, what i could say and so on... and whenever i do this, i jinx it. and the little ppl controling my life, reading my thoughts, built me a path i didnt calculate.

its the same thing that happened this time, its the same thing that happens all the time with whatever situation i am confronted with.

to end this second rant on a note that is actually related to you and not just a random anon escalating in your asks... i could really use some new eddie content right now and i am over the moon, that worlds apart chapter 7 will be out soon and i can drown myself in my sorrow and the new chap ):)

Hi sweetheart! First of all, no worries, my inbox is always open🖤

I'm very sorry this happened, and I totally understand the sadness and frustration about the situation, it's absolutely valid. There's sadly not much of a positive aspect to this except for the fact that they're already talking to Joe about coming to another Comic Con in Germany in October - maybe it's worth a shot to try and get tickets for this one?

As for the letter; it depends entirely on what feels safe/comfortable for you. If you plan to get tickets for the October Con, you could keep the letter to give it to him yourself, since it seems very personal? In the end, you're the only person who can make a decision about that; you could take the letter with you and decide while you're there?

I hope you'll feel better soon, and should you decide to try for tickets for October, my fingers are crossed! 🖤

(And I hope Worlds Apart can contribute a little to comfort you🖤)

#kiki answers

[intergalactic-chameleon]

rambling train of thought

oddly vulnerable for me 2 admit but i admire transmasc ppl a lot and think they r cool and wanna be their friend. transfemmes too. just trans ppl in general i fucking guess lmfao. but transmascs in particular bc i really admire the particular way that they practice / express masculinity

on a related note, this is why i know im somewhere on the trans spectrum bc i admire trans ppl too much to not be one myself, yknow. still frustrating tho bc i feel like everyone sees me as a cis girl and i just wanna be like Hey Um ACTUALLY I Have A Rich Inner Life… I’ll Have You Know… just bc im a girl doesnt mean that’s all i am, i dont relate to a lot things typically prescribed to women, im super duper queer, etc etc

also lots weird back and forth in my head between identifying as a woman purposefully but also on a variation of technicalities. and also wanting to look like a boy, but a very Specific vision of one that i have in my head, and also lacking the want or need to “pass.” very confusing to say the least.

i got a binder recently and i remember thinking to myself “am i getting anything out of this.” part of that definitely has to do with the style of binder i got, which doesnt do that much when u got big tits like i do (i need to get a tank binder sometime). but ive been trying to understand how i feel about my chest, and my body at large. basically, i dont hate my body. i dont. i dont even rly experience gender dysphoria atp. often, i even love my body. it’s attractive. but my body makes me feel frustrated because i feel like i only have so much control over what it looks like. esp bc i dont rly want breast reduction/removal or hormones. i see an attractive man/masc and experience a mixture of reactions. attraction. lust. jealousy. a tinge of sadness. agitation.

again, i really dont hate my body. i just wish i could do more with its silhouette and shape it to my liking with ease. im rly short (4’10”), have big boobs, small frame, curvy figure, long hair… all these things i enjoy or at least am okay with, but put em all together and that’s all anyone can ever see: a woman. and being a woman is cool, and i identify with it. but no matter what it never feels like enough for me. i break out of that box as much as i can because i cant stand being so limited. like if i can so easily be a woman, why cant i so easily be a man (so to speak)? i most aspire to be a fag, tbqh. in my own way that is.

idk if any of this made sense lol

#personal #gender #thinking thoughts #rambles

[gentlesounds]

yee haw

#i used to be um how they say emotionally slutty #and like need to talk about my feelings a lot to get over them im #nowadays i just wanna repress the hell out of it and pretend like my problems dont exist #it’s really not that deep but it is when I’m struggling to even pray and it being meaningful #maybe it is to god but doesn’t feel that way for me idk #I don’t want to hang out with anyone I just want to go to class and come home #I’m trying to think what could possibly ‘be wrong’ but also what if it’s nothing #it’s not uncommon to just be sad there doesn’t need to be an explanation for it to be real #but something feels different lately and I can handle it but I forgot this weird emptiness and idk what to fill it with #I always think it’s me something’s wrong with me bc everyone else is fine #and then I get frustrated because I can’t know that and know everything #and I wanna talk about it but I don’t see the point in it anymore doesn’t feel like anyone can hear me anyways do I want them to hear me #am I forcing them to hear me if I ask for help #am I being a burden #I also know I can’t pretend like I’m perfect because I’m not #part of that forces you to be honest but does it need to be known #and if it is known why is it embarrassing like it’s a MESS #and then I realise I’m wasting too much time caring if I do share #and it seems so insignificant #I feel like m kourtney telling Kim #there are people dying #LMFAOOSOSOSNDNJSJSNSNSJSN #this is so edgy god #anyways cool bye

[shadowtearling]

you guys get me more than ppl in my life :’(’: 

#like it's nice but sad????? #lol i dunno i talk abt what i go thru w friends and family but they dont Get it and im frequently frustrated #like they keep trying to Push me into thinking depression has a reason #when sometimes my brain is just being a lil shit #and they dont get that! they're always like 'but why' #i don't know why! #i've asked that for a literal decade and i've never figured it out!!! #if i knew why i wouldn't be in this stupid shitty hole #i would have had it fixed already #im telling u bc i wanna be open #but ur shitty way of 'accepting' it doesn't make me want to be open #me saying something and u going 'oh that's not a big deal' well to me it fucking is #thanks for diminishing me! #thanks for dismissing me! #thanks. #'why are u depressed' #'why are u like that' #idk why are you a bitch about it

[blxetsi]

HIIIII!! can i get a pieck finger dating headcanons if that’s alright with you of course? your stuff makes me soft, stay safe!

yuh ‼️ tysm for your request

pieck finger dating headcanons (modern au)

pieck finger x gn!reader

warnings: literal fluff, no angst or anything i love pieck

- bc pieck is assumed to be like 23-26 this wont be a uni au or anything

- idk i rlly think you guys wouldve met in a mundane way

- like you bump into her on the sidewalk and try to the really awkward "oh im so sorry i didnt see you there- no really it was my fault- are you sure youre okay ?- okay great- no im not hurt- yeah- okay have a good day and again im so sorry !!" thing with her

- and then maybe you guys see each other again at a coffee place, youre there with your friends and shes there with hers, and you dont wanna talk to her obv bc that would be awkward

- then ur friend makes u go and order another coffee for them, and while youre waiting for your order pieck comes and stands beside you

- and shes very observant yknow ?? if she sees a face its very hard for her to forget it

- so she immediately recognizes you and blurts out "its you !"

- and you have to be like "oh yeah ! it is me ! its you too"

- she finds it quite cute and giggles about it

- a very laidback person but also a very blunt person

- she doesnt find any harm in asking "can i get your instagram @" look she doesnt wanna be a creep and ask for ur number right at the start

- and it gives her a chance to find out what kind of person you are

- it would absolutely suck for her if such a cute face was posting fishing pictures and alt right propaganda yknow ??

- so you two do and then both of your orders come so you two give awkward goodbyes before going back to your groups

- her instagram is very pretty, nice themes

- she posted a couple of hours ago, with her and her friends in a park, taking a couple of posed photos while some looking like they were natural

- shes adorable and you cant help but feel your cheeks go warm as you basically stalk her page

- she dms you and says "are you too busy looking at my feed that you havent followed me yet ?" and you see this mf staring at you across the room like 👁️👁️

- okay nosy lets calm down now 🙄🤚

- you try to defend urself but ur typing so quick you keep making errors in your writing, she ends up saying something else

"you know, i was doing the exact same thing. youre beautiful you know"

- thank you pieck 🥰

- over the next couple of weeks thats how you two communicate. she'll send you instagram memes and edits of her favourite shows, movies, games etc. and you find yourself having a lot in common w her

- you check her story so frequently it becomes one of the first accounts on the top of your homepage

- and FINALLY, when she feels she can see you as a friend and not just some pretty stranger she met on the street she asks you out

- it was a simple thing, just to the movies, and she even let you pick which one !! (imagine its pre covid idfk)

- you two go and its an awkward hug before you both head inside

- you pay for your tickets and she gets an extra large popcorn and a drink

- you assume shes just v hungry but before you can order yourself something shes like "what are you doing i got this for us !!"

- rlly cute bitch omfg

- during the movies, after she eats literally most of the fucking popcorn, she pulls your hand out of your lap and holds it with her buttery one 🥰🤚

- this bitch had crumbs and didnt even think to wipe them off

- you still held her hand tho anyways

- after that night you parted ways in front of the theater after making sure you two would be getting home safe

- and that became routine for a couple of weeks, not going to the movies obviously bc thats expensive but watching movies together !! youd go over to her apartment or she would come over to yours

- one thing about pieck is that shes very touchy

- one way or another she will end up cuddled with you on the couch

- it doesnt matter if its you being forcefully pulled on top of her body or her draping herself over you like shes a blanket, you two WILL be cuddling and you WILL enjoy it

- but finally, as if the gods gave you mercy, she finally kissed you

- it felt so nice, her lips were soft and sticky from her lip gloss and she tasted like the swedish berries you had gotten for her to munch on

- and the rest of the movie you two just sat there, kissing each other and giggling like teens

- she ended up staying the night, and complimented your bedsheets

- your relationship moved pretty fast after that

- she had already told all of her friends about you, they werent very surprised

- when you got officially introduced her friends zeke and porco tried to do that whole "if you hurt her.." speech before she slapped them and had marcel pull you away to safety

- other than that the night was very fun, you got to talking about your career, why you moved to the city, and other mundane topics

- pieck is actually a graphic designer, and everytime she comes to sleep over she just HAS to bring her laptop with her

- its basically just her laying in between your legs while she types away, youll pet her hair and lay soft kisses on her neck, and occasionally ask what shes doing

- she likes to tell you, has no problem in answering the questions you have, even if you think theyre stupid ones, shes very soft with you

- also a bit of a trickster

- for your first april fools together she slept over, you didnt have anything planned for her bc youre a good person and wont hurt the ones you love

- she stuffed your breakfast muffin with mustard 😁👍

- you gave her the cold shoulder for the rest of the day until she apologized by getting you a new muffin

- now she always dropped the l bomb to you, but she never needed you to say it

- thats why, when you were helping her cook dinner at her place you softly said "see ? and thats why i love you" she kind of,,, stopped what she was doing

- you realized why she wasnt washing the knife she used to cut your vegetables and tried to backtrack, but it was too late, she was already tackling you into a hug and taking you down onto the floor

- she just gave you kisses while repeating "i love you i love you i love you" over and over again

- bc of her you burnt ur fucking chicken smh

- you spent that night eating junk food and watching movies

- piecks a very observant person, so she always knows when youre sad too

- when you give that little huff when you come home to your (new !) shared apartment she knows something is up

- she'll slowly trail behind you as you walk to your bedroom, stripping to your underwear and changing into your pajamas

- you crawl into bed just wanting a nap to forget about the day, and she'll crawl in with you and hold you

- you never like to cry but youre so frustrated and upset at your coworkers, at that rude customer, at those deadlines, that you just breakdown

- and she lets you, she lets you almost suffocate yourself in her chest with how much your pushing your head into it, she strokes your hair while you choke on your own cries and hands you tissues when you need to blow your nose

- "what do you need my love ?" "i just need you" "okay baby"

- communication is a big thing in the relationship, and because shes been so open and honest from the beginning, talking about how you feel has never been easier

- in fact, you like talking about how you feel about your relationship, or how you didnt like what pieck said to your friends the other day, this and that, you feel comfortable and safe with pieck no matter what, which makes talking about even the most hardest things seem so simple and natural

- all in all, even when she wakes you up with spontaneous ice cream dates or asks that you put raisins in the popcorn during movie night, even with the fights and the crying and the exhaustion the next day, life would be much duller without her, and you only have to thank your clumsy self

uhh i feel like this is very short but yeah ❤️ requests are open so go crazy mfs ‼️

#attack on titan #attack on titan fanfiction #attack on titan x reader #hange zoe #pieck finger headcanons #pieck finger x reader #pieck finger #pieck x reader #pieck headcanons #pieck aot #marcel galliard #porco galliard #porco galliard x reader #zeke jaeger x reader #zeke yeager x reader

[punmster]

Show vs Tell

By an amateur who dont know jack shiet

aka a note to me, for me, from me (experiences)

Basically, it's just actions vs adjectives

(But its really just associations)

Details below the line! It's a lot so don't say I didn't warn ya!

What does that mean exactly though? After all, some actions feel like they are "telling" as well (eg. He was chased by the horse--pretty plainly there, right?). I don't blame ya.

What I really mean is to write about the actions (aka effects) that result from the adjectives.

So instead of saying "They were sad", think about what you do *when* you are sad. That could be crying, total silence, shaking, curling up into a ball b/c you just took the SATs and wanna die, etc.

Note that characters may have different responses to emotions, so try to set up the association between the action and adjective first so that later, you can just use the action while implying the emotions/reasons. It adds a little complexity.

Also note that it doesn't just have to be physical actions--it can also be words.

For example, I've written a character to call someone else an 'old man' normally and an 'old geezer' when they are annoyed with them. At first by associating it with irritating scenes, then using it in passing thoughts to imply how they felt about certain things.

Other examples include nicknames (and the trope of finally calling them their actual name in a crisis), accents that come out with intense emotions, in/formal language, stutters (fuckin stutters, man), and even a lack of words can tell something

But wait!

What was that about some actions not feeling like they are quite "showing" earlier?

That's usually because they are in an action sequence, aka they aren't based in a particular adjective/emotion (idk what im talkin bout here)

For instance, the horse example from earlier. There is no emotion in particular associated with a horse chasing a person (though I'd say the primary emotion is fear).

So we have to make some.

Adding more actions will clarify what specific feelings are being portrayed in the scene.

It goes both ways: actions from adjectives (emotions) and adjectives (emotions) from actions

Lemme explain:

Certain actions can be associated with more than one emotion.

For instance, furrowed brows can be both from anger and from deep thought, crying can be from joy or sadness, and sighing can be a result of tiredness or frustration.

If we want to make it a tired sigh, we can have them yawn after, close their eyes, or stretch a bit.

If we want to make it a frustrated sigh, we can add a pinched nose, a glare, or even dialogue saying, "Seriously?"

You can also add implications of emotions to action scenes by putting in the effects of the actions (aka, more action!).

For example, our guy being chased by a horse might be panting (implying he is out of shape or this horse is fast or he is really trying to get away), he might be skipping (implying happiness and playful chasing), and he might be screaming (fear, obviously).

This is why "showing" tends to use up a lot more words. Clarification and context may be needed to properly convey exactly what you have in mind.

In the end, show vs tell is really just about how deep you want to go into how something affects the characters and plot.

After all, a story is literally just a big ole chain of cause and effect. Actions result in more actions, which leads to new emotions, which leads to more actions, etc. etc.

If you feel that there isn't enough immersion in your story, then you need to consider cause and effect. This is seriously one of the things that you should also consider when looking at history (thanks, WHAP).

It adds complexity by showing you know how different factors interact and also helps avoid deus ex machina (aka unexplained, unestablished plot devices to help in a very specific, sudden problem).

With that, let's go into when you should use show or tell (in my experience).

Typically, because showing uses more words, the reader will pay more attention to it. So, use it for plot-relevant or character-development-relevant parts. Like, the BIG stuff.

I don't wanna tell other people what to do (my motto is, no such thing as a bad idea, just a poorly executed one), but imo, adding more detail should be reserved for stuff you want the reader to remember.

This applies to several things

1. Plot devices - Minor ones can be sprinkled in (should be brought up at least twice to be remembered) but some need more in depth explanation or cannot be brought up so often.

This is when you can "show" and add in responses to the device, like a thought a character has about it, or surround it with "showing" to make it memorable for later

2. Closing and Opening arcs/Character/relationship development - I am extremely guilty of this one. I wrote a 7 chapter arc with a major conflict bewteen characters and literally just wrote "She apologized and everything was okay" at the end (alright maybe not literally, but pretty dang close). I feared the wrath of my readers so I added more action and dialogue to really try to sell it that she was sorry lolol (like bowing, breaking into tears, stuttering, etc.)

This is my major gripe w/ some of the "this thing reveals your emotions/desire" devices.

Eg. Amortentia in Harry Potter and this spell in an obscure manga I read today (receptionist in a magic world) that is only breachable by a trusted person

(Listen, if you're gonna try to sell it to me that they trust each other, maybe try and put them in an actual situation where that trust is necessary and not just saying it is there??)

Slight tangent, but that's also the point of mirrored situations--to show a character has grown, show them responding to a similar situation in a different way

3. Pure fuckin drama - 'Nuff said. When you want to show the extent of something's effect on someone, you need to, well, show it.

We use many adjectives in our daily lives that they have become associated with mundanity.

Due to that, authors should be wary of the associations certain words have.

Eg. Tired vs Sleepy vs Exhausted vs Dying to get in bed and crash for 48 hours

Each of these has a different vibe, probably a different context, and most definitely a different impression on the reader

That last one especially makes ya realize that this tiredness is not your typical sleepyhead situation. It adds exaggeration, interest, extremeness, what have you (fuck i should go to sleep soon actually)

Although, probably wouldn't use "lassitudes" to describe a lack of energy here, even if it isn't an adjective--remember folks, while good vocab is nice, not having to find a dictionary while reading is nicer (yeah, bcuz using nice twice is great vocabulary, idiot)

Basically, just ask yourself, do I wanna emphasize this? If the answer is yes, go ahead and show off all your verbs and nouns and whatnot.

Literally, just do it if you feel like it.

Bonus tips:

You probably want to also make sure to know what part of the sentence you are emphasizing

In our horse example, "He was chased by the horse", the fact that this guy in particular is being chased is quite prominent, being at the start of the sentence.

What if we only wanna emphasize the fact he is being, y'know, chased by a fuckin horse?

There are actually several ways we can do this.

1. Remove the guy entirely/place the part about being chased and the horse front and center

Eg. The sounds of hooves hitting the ground approached [him].

We once again take something that is associated with what we want to emphasize and replace the boring bits.

In this case, we use hooves instead of horse, and approached instead of chased (still implying that they are getting close, but not exactly that they are after him)

Ie. Make things vague as fuck, then add more to clarify (can also create suspense and shiz by drawing things out)

2. Let's do the reverse and un-lengthen it next!

How about the horse attacks the guy with a metal bat?

"The horse's bat hit the man's head"

We wanna focus on the hitting part, so let's find words associated/describing a result of a man's skull getting cracked open by a horse.

An onomatopoeia! (which happened to be my password to a math game as a kid...)

CLANG! THUD! BANG!

Ooh la la! Action! Quick! No time to react! What just happened? IDEK! Theres a fuckin horse with a metal bat, bro!

Onomatopoeias are really good at breaking sentence flow and causing the sense of suddenness that the characters are experiencing in the readers!

Pretty limited usage though...mostly just loud, dramatic action scenes, but those are the ones that need em the most

3. Mix up your punctuation!

Punctuation is not just to make your writing readable! Trust me, I use, like, fifty em dashes per chapter and twenty parantheses and it makes things super unreadable

You can use them to add in thoughts/clauses in between, implying cause and effect/adding complexity

Eg. He hated doing laundry--it reminded him of his actually hygienic ex--so he didn't do it. (ew, gross man)

Eg. He was being chased by--out of all things--a horse.

Eg. We need something to unite us: a horse!

(Vs. "The horse united us" > more emphasis on "horse" bcuz it is separated and at the end)

Eg. He ran, ran, and ran; he needed to get away from that horse.

Eg. The horse loved using its metal bat--wacking people was always a great stress reliever.

Eg. He screamed. The horse had reached him.

I think a part of the problem w/ show vs tell is all that "because" shiet (which includes using so, since, therefore, thus, hence, due to, etc.)

Just putting one action after the other implies some connectivity, like with the last two examples.

Punctuation like an em dash and a semicolon also explicitly means there is a connection

Also, using "was" and "been/being" can be a problem (which many other more knowledgeable advice givers will tell you), mostly because the focus is supposed to be on what is doing the being to the thieng (sorry...) like in the example earlier w/ the hooves.

The person (pronoun) is the object being affected, but it is implied they are if we are in their pov

(As another note, use showing w/ characters you don't know the pov of--you can show that what the MC thinks they are feeling, like, in their explicit dialogue/thoughts, is different from what the reader inteprets through the other character's actions

Example:

MC: She is mad at me!

Her: furrowed brows, glaring, but also restlessness, pacing, cold sweat that shows worry)

Anyways, again, exceptions can be made--do whatever the fuck you want (like in the 2nd example here, which uses "was being")

If you wanna emphasize the guy being hit by the horse, go ahead and write some variation of "he was being hit over the head by the horse". It could be really good for all I know. Maybe throw in some stuff about the guy's feelings about it.

Anyways...

Telling is supposed to be giving the reason/claim, showing is giving the evidence to support the claim

That's basically it.

(I say, after having written practically an essay)

#writing advice #long post #LONG LONG FUCKIN POST #writing #writing tips #show vs tell #i think that should be a tag #yknow how many times ive seen advice being made on that? #ive made one before admittedly #but this is my most thought out take on it #i could be entirely wrong honestly #idk i tried at least #btw i added lots of bolds italics and colors and diff formats bcuz i heard it was helpful #for the adhd n autistic folks #tbh id have trouble retaining attention for all that too #my glob #i can write a bunch but cant read it lol #this was supposed to be SHORT #a SHORT #TUTORIAL

[boomboombakugou]

big 3 reacting to reader wanting to break up when they thought they were doing great?

Big 3’s Reaction to You Wanting to Breakup

~Izuku Midoriya~

Izuku was so excited to see all you all the time. He tried to make as much time for you as possible between all his training. Though your hangouts would be cut short sometimes, he’d always try to make up for it.

Y/N: hey can you come to my room rq

Y/N: if you aren’t busy

He only saw the text about an hour later because he was training.

He replied immediately and apologized for answering so late the second he got to your room.

You looked sad.. or worried. He couldn’t make out the expression. “What’s wrong?” He asked. The sound of his voice made this even harder for you.

You held your face in your palms. Just rip off the bandaid, you thought. You stared him straight in his eyes, “I.. I don’t think we should be together anymore. I think we should break up.”

There was a silence. He started at you. You stared at him. “Why..” He started, but couldn’t finish. You started to explain but he cut you off with his rambling, “I thought- I thought everything was going good! I’m so sorry. I can- I can.. What did I do? Y/N I swear whatever it was, it wasn’t intentional. What can I do better?”

This was so much harder than you thought. You could see tears welling up in his eyes. Yours had already started falling. “Oh no! No why are you crying?” He asked. That made you cry even harder. This wasn’t the first time you guys had cried together. He was always so caring and it made you reflect on all your good times together.

“Izuku I love you, I do. It’s just... so hard. It’s so hard being in a relationship where you’re never there. I hate- I hate having to spend days alone. I hate that we can’t go on dates. We can’t even hang out for more than 10 minutes. I just want a full day with you, but you’re so like-” You stop yourself before you say something you don’t mean.

Another silence. He’s still just staring at you. You can’t tell if he’s looking for what to say or for you to say more, so you just continue, “It’s not even just that. You aren’t the problem. I don’t want you to think that. I feel like I’m just holding you back. There’s so much that I wanna do with you, but it would stop you from becoming the hero you want to be. And I’m not strong enough to train with you either so I’m really just a burden. I don’t want you to feel obligated to do anything, but I also can’t just put my needs aside.” And with that, a huge weight is lifted off your shoulder.

He hasn’t blinked. He doesn’t want you to see him cry. “You aren’t. You aren’t holding me back.. I just-” He stops himself. He can’t even think of anything to say because you’re completely right. He isnt fit for a relationship and he can admit that you do sometimes “hold him back.”

He sighed and held his arms out. You looked at him and then threw yourself into his arms. You guys could stay friends, but it would never be the same. These hugs would never feel the same.

~Katsuki Bakugou~

As expected, a relationship with Katsuki isn’t the easiest. You guys were constantly getting into arguments, but they usually ended up fine. He liked how you argued back because he could never be with someone who lets him walk all over them. You guys also teased eachother and made- what would otherwise be described as mean- jokes together.

You and the rest of Bakusquad were all just hanging out in Kirishima’s room. You looked up at one of his punching bags and asked if you could borrow one because you wanted to do some more personal training. “Doesn’t matter how much you train Y/N, you’ll always be at a maximum of #2.” Katsuki said, jokingly.

You didn’t smile. You looked annoyed. Why does he always do that? The joke isn’t even funny. It’s just rude. He looked at you confused and asked what’s up.

“Let’s break up.” You said abruptly. Everyone in the room gasped and tried to quickly excuse themselves. “Wait what? Wait Y/N are you serious?” He was still kinda smirking because he thought you were messing with him.

You sighed, “Katsuki I can’t - I can’t do this anymore. You’re so obsessed with being number one and it’s annoying. I’m not just gonna be your trophy wife or something.” He still looked confused.

“I was just kidding, what? I always make jokes like that. I never thought of you as a ‘trophy wife.’ I thought we were fine.. You never brought up being annoyed with that. I’m set on my goals, yeah. But you never once mentioned that it upset you.” You could tell he was trying to sound sweet, but his voice is just naturally aggressive.

You stare at him in disbelief, you can’t believe he hasn’t noticed. “I- I feel like I don’t really have to outright tell you that’s it’s a little frustrating when you constantly trying to one up me. I don’t even want to be number one as much you do, so I don’t know why you always make it a competition?”

He face dropped, “Well I- I’m sorry. I thought you knew that this was a dream of mine since like ever. I’ll try to tone it down a bit, I guess.” You squeeze your eyes shut.

“Katsuki. I don’t want you to tone it down though. I just- I don’t think you’re fit to be in a relationship, you know? I just need you to care about me more than you care about beating Deku or whoever. But I also know I can’t ask you to do that.” You looked at him.

He would get mad. He knows your right, but you can’t stand being wrong. “Okay. Okay then go.” He’s trying so hard to sound angry. He can’t believe that he wasn’t his best for you at all times and you never told him.

You’d leave and he would probably like cry after idk.

~Shoto Todoroki~

Why would you ever break up with Shoto🤨 Anyways

You guys were both sitting in his room. You were physically together, but just not really talking. You were on your phone, while he studied.

Whenever you tried to make conversation with him, it was always kinda cut short. “How was your day?” You asked. You were basically together all day so you know, but you didn’t know how else to make convo. He turned around, “It was okay. Good.”

You sighed. It’s like everything you said, he responded with a conversation ended. “Shoto,” You started. He nodded his head to let you know he was listening, but didn’t turn around. “I think.. I think we should maybe like,,, take a break?” You finished.

He still didn’t turn around. “Okay.” He responded. You couldn’t tell if he was upset. His voice always sounded so monotone. You didn’t leave just not. It’s mot like you wanted him to be sad, you just wanted to know if he felt anything at all.

You got up and sat in the chair next to him. He still didn’t look at you. You kept staring at him. “I thought.. I thought that things were good.” He said. His voice was softer. You smiled. It’s nice to hear emotions from him.

“I just feel like we aren’t ready for a relationship. I just want you to figure everything out. Then,,I’ll come back.” You told him. This time he looked at you. He didn’t say anything for a while. He just looked. “Okay.” He said in the same monotone voice as the first.

- (A/N): OK IM SORRY BC IDK HOW TO WRITE FOR SHOTO. I LOVE HIM BUT. ALSO I DONT REALLY LIKE THIS ONE BC I FEEL LIKE IT DIDNT REALLY GO W THE REQUEST BUT. MIGHT REDO IT

#bakugou scenarios #bakugou x reader #midoriya x reader #shoto x reader #todorki x reader #todoroki headcanons #deku x reader #izuku x reader #shoto headcanons #deku hcs #deku headcanons #izuku headcanons #mha x reader #bnha x reader #bnha imagines

[nott-emotionally-stable]

ive been thinking a lot about c2 ending since matt announced it's happening soon, and i just wanna have a place to put my thoughts. ( i might repeat things that other people have said)

this did not come out of nowhere. i actually have a feeling they decided a while ago that this would be the last arc; the way that they all said goodbye to their families even when on a time crunch, the way that veth and caduceus both said this was the end of the road for them, the way that fjorester and beauyasha both started to become officially romantic around the same time. and this isn't to say that this wasn't organic, just that realization that the end is coming probably gave the cast both the freedom and urgency to do whatever felt right to give their character a meaningful close.

i also think that this being the end feels right. even though there's still ikythong to deal with and they never met vandran, and some other loose ends still aren't tied up, it feels right that this is the end. they all feel complete, almost. all of their characters have grown so much, and have completed pretty much every big thing that's been on our minds since the beginning of the campaign. even travelercon, which was perpetually "a few months away" was seen through. if they were to go too much longer, they would still have things to do, but it would almost feel dragged out to me- like the actors were looking for any reason to keep going.

and thematically, it fits perfectly. they ended on nine eyes, on fighting a deformed version of an old friend who died for them, on a storyline that they're all connected to and one that truly feels like it started very early on in the campaign. this showdown feels fated. for some insane fucking reason, it all seems to somehow fit together perfectly- and if that isn't the story of the mighty nein, i don't know what is.

im super sad about not being able to see these characters every week. individually, they are my favorite characters ever, and their dynamics and relationships are my version of therapy. idk what im gonna do without jesters accent and her message spells and pranks and distaste for actually healing. without fjords absolute dumbass self trying so hard to put good into the world and charming everyone. without caleb doing everything he can to help his friends and his unexpected moments of silliness that knock me out. without veths absolute chaos (imo unmatched by even jester or scanlan) and her believing so much in her friends. without yashas amazing awkwardness and the driest sense of humor imaginable. without caduceus's incredible advice and comforting energy and devasting insults. without beaus endearing stubborness and her insane theories that turn out to be right and her pop pops and her stunning strikes that frustrate matt so much.

im gonna miss the brjeaus, the chaos crew, the sibling energy between nott and fjord, widowveths unbreakable bond, the caleb and beau loving bickering, beau and jester, the romantic relationships, cad and fjord, cad and yasha, every one of them. im gonna miss matt's reactions to each of them. im gonna miss essek. im gonna miss artagan. im gonna miss sprinkle, for fucks sake.

the mighty nein have been there for me through a lot. the past two years have been kinda rough for me, but they were a constant in my life. and i love vox machina to bits, but i've never connected with them the same way. and i hate change, im terrified of it.

but this seems like the right course of action. again, i dont know how to explain it, but it feels right. i can't wait to see what the cast has in store for us next. who knows what the fuck is gonna happen with campaign 3, all i know is that im pumped (once i stop crying).

#long post #critical role #campaign 2 #my post

[toyycunt]

Sorry to hear that some people ruined your mood. I know it's not my business, and I don't really know what happened. I haven't messaged you since you probably get so many messages. But I hope you don't let things drag you down. Hang in there! :)

sorry i kinda go off a but here this is not at u dont worry

i think ive jus been frustrated from some stuff all day so im easier to annoy but GOD i said im good n this dude just goes :((((( like ??? i do not want something dont feel so fucking entitled that u wanna guilt trip me w sadness ????? because i literally do not care. n then after i tell u not 2 fucking :(( me dont do iT AGAIN N THEN SAY U WANNA MANHANDLE ME babe that ship has sailed ive gone from soft tiny bunni to angry

like idk if i said smthn out of the blue to someone ive never talked to n they said ‘im good thanks’ i wouldnt try to make them feel bad id just be like oh im sorry !! might say have a good day too idk not use my super obvious im ur new dom power to make them feel bad

#anon #sorry this really turned into a rant lol #not aimed at u anon just kinda rly frustrated

[ramuoto]

TOP 10 MANHWAs

if anything good came out of 2020, it’s my discovery of manhwas. 

well, it’s not like i’ve never read a single manhwa in the past 15+ years but tbh, the ratio of manhwa:manga i consume on a weekly basis has jumped exponentially this year. previously it was like 1:99 and now it’s like 90:10 LMAO. 

so, just to remind myself that the world is still full of good things, i had to make this list. which i will probably edit in the future, if i can be bothered to. :) 

anyhow, this list was not made in any particular order, just whichever came into mind. it’s loooong so be prepared! (I’ve read way more titles than mentioned but just included the ones worth checking out)

for whoever stumbles across this list, i hope some of these resonate with you and i hope they make you as happy as they made me. 

pic credits: https://geekculture.co/geeks-guide-to-transmigration-novels-avoid-death-at-all-costs/

1. Ebony

https://mangadex.org/title/41838/ebony

Bahahah omg he looks evil there! But our dearest archduke is hardly that aww. Soz, I just ripped off the covers of the manhwa cos I can’t find a panel I liked more than another. I mean, this manhwa is a GEM. I can’t even begin to describe this because everything about it blew me away. This is not something you read when you are craving for fluff, or just wanna have something brainless after a hard day at work or if you just wanna have some eye candy lol. This is something you pick up on a weekend, when you have time, because you need those hours to digest, appreciate, clutch your chest, tear a little because you find yourself falling in love with these characters. It doesn’t have any of that cliche isekai, romance, revenge themes going on. It has a solid plot, backed by incredible characters, beautifully woven by the authors and artist with incredible pacing that keeps you on your toes and keeps you looking forward to the next chapter. Maybe I would have been happier if I found it after it was completed lol. HAVE I CONVINCED YOU ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU WANNA READ IT?! like, idk, just go. JUST GO READ IT GDI. 

p.s. it says there romance but naaaaaaah, dont go in with that expectation. :) this story is so much more than that. 

2. Bring the love

https://mangadex.org/title/44472/bring-the-love

This...this!!! THIS MANHWA NEEDS MORE LOVE. If you need a lot of fluff, a little, ok maybe quite a bit of sadness and tragedy, sweet sweet romance, cutie pies, please, look no further!!! Again, pacing, character development are so important to me and this manhwa aces it. I love the 2 MCs very much. And the side characters too. :)

3.  A Stepmother's Märchen

https://mangadex.org/title/39474/a-stepmother-s-m-rchen

When I first read this, i fucking cried. like please don’t ask me why. it’s not like its an absolute tragedy but I was just rooting for the MC so much and I really want for everything to go her way. That’s how much I adore this MC!!! I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER MORE THAN YOU DO NORA! HAHAHHA. okay soz. I need to keep this spoiler-free.

Anyhoo, there is nothing typical about this time travel plot. Sure, she goes back to try to undo the stuff that went wrong but phew, she certainly changed things so much everything that comes her way have made it so her previous experiences can hardly help aaaaaaand that’s what makes it fun! I sometimes wish the pacing could be a little more consistent, and there could be more characters I could love a little more wholeheartedly (so i wont have to be in so much despair when i read this sometimes lol) but omg the art, isn’t it pretty?! I’ve re-read this soooooo many times but the art blows me away all the time. And have I already mentioned how much I love her?! I LOVE YOU SHULI! AND I WANT YOU TO BE HAPPY!

4.  Lady Baby

https://mangadex.org/title/34691/lady-baby

I literally LOL-ed when I saw this cover. WHO THE HELL ARE THEY. WHAT LADY BABY?! ehehehe. okay anyway, uhm, this is already incredibly popular. im not sure if i need to elaborate but yes, it’s adorbs!!! i dont think i like the MC as much as i love her family lol. and everyone else who adores her. im looking forward to when they get older. :) actually not really. please stay cute for as long as yall can! but yeah, i do wish the plot can move a lil faster. i want to see more character development in the other kids too COME ON! 

5.  Death Is the Only Ending for the Villainess

https://mangadex.org/title/47754/death-is-the-only-ending-for-the-villainess

am i allowed to reveal how shallow i am rn? like the previous choices were all like ‘wow-deep-plot’, ‘wow-character-development’ and this one i just included cos of AESTHETICS ALONE?! the novel covers are breathtaking!!! the manhwa art is amazing as well. and the harem is great! LOL. as for plot... uhm... it’s alright. it’s pretty engaging and i quite like the MC, she’s smart and independent and i love how she views them all antagonistically at all times HAHAHHA. her past is kinda... weird though and i do wish they’d stop referencing it. cos... girl why do you wanna go back to reality!!! stay here! it’s way more exciting! 

i love the whole isekai/reincarnate/transmigration theme and this is honestly one of the better, not-so-cliche or cheesy ones HA.

6.  Beware of the Villainess!

https://mangadex.org/title/47286/beware-of-the-villainess

do you already see the whole villainess theme?! am i suppose to start feeling embarrassed about my choices?! NO! cos this one is AWESOME!

again, another wildly popular title. for good reasons. it’s hilarious, our MC is as real and candid as it gets and LOOK AT THAT BLUE HAIRED BEAUTY. DO YOU SEE HIM?! IMPLANT HIM INTO YOUR MEMORY NOW!

it’s highly entertaining and breaks all isekai-reincarnation-villainess plot stereotypes. definitely one of the titles i look forward to every week.

7.  Who Made Me a Princess

https://mangadex.org/title/32506/who-made-me-a-princess

what? why did i choose this?

BECAUSE OF CLAUDE OF COURSE. ahahaha. okay aside from the amaaaaaaazing art and the beautiful people, the plot is not too bad. a little extreme at times but it’s interesting enough to keep me going. it’s currently on hiatus though and i was highly annoyed by how the first season ended. (YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT HAPPENED? NOTHING.)

i hope the plot can move faster in the next season! and that our dearest MC athanasia can you know, finally be a little more useful... like omg just tell lucas already!!! and tbh girl, no matter which guy you choose, i approve. :D 

8.  The Flower That Was Bloomed by a Cloud

https://mangadex.org/title/37648/the-flower-that-was-bloomed-by-a-cloud

i featured this before, mostly out of frustration HAHAHA. do you see why i chose this cover?! yeah, i support this (unpopular) pairing okay! the other one is doomed!!! no matter what the author is trying to do now!! I DONT SUPPORT IT!!! lol.

anyway, i had to feature this cos the art is unique! and the story is great. :) and i looooooove listening to the ost while i read it. it starts out kinda slow but as the pace picks up, you won’t be able to stop. and you find yourself conflicted at various points. it did win an award for a reason. 

no matter what, i still think dowun is best for her okay. it’s dowun or nothing. he’s devoted to her, we all know that! he just needs to ditch that annoying female guard!!! ok yknw what, maybe nothing is better. :/ *cries*

9.  Solo Leveling

https://mangadex.org/title/31477/solo-leveling

why do i even bother? this manhwa is popular enough. 

the art is great. the MC is great. i use him and his gang as my wallpaper. 

im just not sure i like how this season’s plot is progressing. :/ but i guess it brings us nearer to solving the mystery in the first leg of the manhwa. i just enjoyed the whole part of him leveling up and now that he isn’t really leveling up anymore... idk. am i hoping for more plot shit like bleach (oh wow now u quincy?)... idk man. anywho, no regrets starting on this series and marathon-ing it to death. 

cross fingers the plot picks up and doesnt get too complicated for its own good.

10.  The Reason Why Raeliana Ended Up at the Duke's Mansion

https://mangadex.org/title/31606/the-reason-why-raeliana-ended-up-at-the-duke-s-mansion

okay, tbh, by the time i reached 10, i still have like 15 other series i was considering LMAO. i even considered lengthening this top 10 to top 15. but that would just be more of me and my nonsense. so... why did i choose this?

COS I LOVE THE 2 MCs!!! they’re adorable. the plot is again, kinda far-fetched at times (i literally laugh my head off at some parts) but it’s isekai-reincarnation okay! anything is possible in whatever magical crap country you end up in! lol. and i like how straightforward it is... in the sense there’s no 2nd lead. like okay i mean they are there but we all know they have no chance. oops. sorry!

and cos i can’t give up on the other titles i have, imma just list them down, without pictures... cos im tired. HA. 

11. Doctor Elise 

https://mangadex.org/title/29474/doctor-elise 

Kudos to the huge improvement in art style lmao. The good... lovable MCs, engaging plot. The bad... sometimes lengthy, incredulous medical moments (i work in the medical field so i... idk. sometimes this borders on iryu LMAO and i need to remind myself this is romance) otherwise, this is a highly highly entertaining read.

12.  Seduce the Villain's Father

https://mangadex.org/title/46775/seduce-the-villain-s-father

This is another of my ‘father-love’ whims. MC is adorable and ML is handsome. enough said.

13.  The Villainess Lives Twice

https://mangadex.org/title/49644/the-villainess-lives-twice

This is like a lesser version of Ebony and Bring the Love combined HAHAHA. The plot and premise is great and it’s awesome to marathon! I don’t find myself loving the MC as much as I should but the ML is a darling! I just find her a little toooooooo gloomy. Like come on girl, be more spunky! 

14.  The Stereotypical Life of a Reincarnated Lady

https://mangadex.org/title/46790/the-stereotypical-life-of-a-reincarnated-lady

I dont know why I like this so much HAHAHAHA. It hardly has a plot. I just find the MC and ML amusing i guess lol. 

15.  I'm Stanning the Prince

https://mangadex.org/title/45586/i-m-stanning-the-prince

Sometimes I wonder if I should be ranking this higher but I kinda feel this manhwa is trying to achieve too much with an underpowered MC. I love her... but I just don’t like how she’s just a pawn of everyone else and I dont know how she can change this situation of hers. It’s cute though. the MC and ML.  and the ML reminds me so much of american/jap Mackenyu. 

16.  The Villainess Reverses the Hourglass

I HAD TO. the art is so pretty! but girl, dont use the hour glass so much! you look a little too old! i would appreciate it if MC stops basing too much of her moves on the “past” tho like idk you are gonna sound unoriginal soooooon like develop your own thoughts soon okay? <3

17. Inso's Law

ANOTHER ONE. omg. im a lil on the fence regarding this but i like MC too much. and her harem LOL. i dont see where the plot is going either but i just hope for a happy end... ):

18.  Why Are You Doing This, Duke?

HAHAHA. this is sooooo sooooooo cute, i would have ranked it top 15 if it wasnt licensed by tapas tho cos they are a joke. WHY NOT TAPPY GDI. 

19.  Miss Not-So Sidekick

Uh-oh. Is this a top-20 list now? anyway, the MC for this series is GOLD. im not liking where it’s currently heading tho thus the lower ranking.

20.  IRIS - Lady with a Smartphone

omg IVE NEGLECTED THIS FOR TOO LONG. lemme go buy more chapters hahahaha. it’s a tad too lengthy... otherwise i like the MC and yummy ML!

still not enough?

Special Mentions - Okay, these will be unranked cos I don’t think these are that good but probably still worth a read.

I've Become the Villainous Empress of a Novel - this is new, im looking forward to how it progresses wheeeee.

Lady to Queen - It’s a ruthless manhwa. There was a point i started reading all sorts of sadistic content (i was running out of content i swear) and this was one of the better ones. I appreciate the MC very much. the plot now is a little weird and im a bit wary of the MC’s sister... hopefully the ML can be more useful. he’s pitiful though. but dude come on, dont rely on the wrong gal.

Goodbye, In-law - I’m not sure if i like the current progress buuuuuuut MC and ML are cute so who cares.

The Duchess' 50 Tea Recipes - plot is still engaging. MC and ML are cute. i dont know where the plot is heading towards though. 

A Falling Cohabitation - this is interesting and fun but a lil lengthy.

Light and Shadow - the sequel is out!!! i highly enjoyed this entire series!!! i would have probably ranked it a lil higher if i did this post earlier but too many series have overtaken this in my heart lol.

This Girl Is a Little Wild - is the hiatus ending yet? i would add it back to top 20 if it came back LOL. it’s highly entertaining tho. ML is adorable.

The Duchess With an Empty Soul  - pretty nice. MC and ML are a little boring. i think it can end soon. LMAO.

A Capable Maid - it’s amusing how she gets her powers for all sorts of situations lol. the prince is creepy tbh. and im secretly rooting for the other king hehe.

Beware of the Brothers! - it’s cute and heart-wrenching at the same time! not too sure im digging the latest plot development but okay... i’ll take it. they’re all cuties.

Living as the Tyrant's Older Sister - hehehe. it’s cute. duke is kinda silly but the latest chapter made me squeal!!!

The Evil Lady's Hero  - idk where the plot is going but MC and ML are adorable!!!

The Dragon Next Door - HAHAHA. it’s hilarious.

The Youngest Princess - she’s growing uppppp noooooooooooo

Virtues of the Villainess - ginger is hilarious. i dont see where the plot is going tho... and cant say i like the ML yet. i dont even get to see him much, hello?!

The Justice of Villainous Woman - pretty wholesome... i like the MC! (the ML is fine. no one else to contend with so...) can u end already?! lol.

Amina of the Lamp - hey, what happened to this? it’s pretty inconsistent but i do like the MC and ML... and the art...

The Villain's Savior - this is some sadistic shit. i reserve it for when i feel sadistic. i pretty much wanna see MC happy but idk if she’s making the right choices. :/

I Don't Want to Be Empress! - HAHAHAHA uhm it’s getting interesting. i just want ML to step up more... 

La dolce vita di Adelaide - I FINISHED THIS! and it’s wholesome, feel-good and cute. some parts felt a lil extra but ah whatever.

The Black Haired Princess - plot. move. faster!!! otherwise the MC and ML are pretty cute.

The Abandoned Empress - im a lil on the fence but i know how popular this series is. it started out HORRIBLE. i hated the ML so much. and then i found the green hair boy creepy. like MC, you need better taste in boys. it’s certainly getting more interesting now though. so please, continue to make my money’s worth!!!

Lucia - i. am. not. guilty. of. anything. *smut warning* anyway go read the novel. it’s better. hehehe.

What's Wrong with Secretary Kim - i do not need to elaborate any further. 

Past loves 

I created this section just to remind myself, that what i could like one day, i could hate the next LOL.

The Monster Duchess and Contract Princess - I know this is wildly popular. but i lost interest in it once she grew up. i dont think she’s particularly lovable. soz.

Survive as the Hero's Wife - another popular choice. I find the plot kinda boring now. MC and ML are cute though. 

Sincerely: I Became a Duke's Maid - another popular one. again, boring plot. like cant it end yet? oh you mean we need to wait for the real female lead to show up? dont need luh.

I Am a Child of This House - wow. the plot is shit now. and i do not support the MC and her guard. soz. she’s OVERPOWERED tbh. 

This Is an Obvious Fraudulent Marriage - idk what happened but my enthusiasm for this died.

Charlotte and Her 5 Disciples - i don’t get it. i dont get their obsession for her. 

#manhwa #fav manhwa #ebony #bring the love #a stepmother's marchen #lady baby #death is the only ending for the villainess #beware of the villainess #who made me a princess #the flower that was bloomed by a cloud #solo leveling #the reason why raeliana ended up at the duke's mansion