#idk why exactly I think that but I know im right

[drdemonprince]

My friends all went to steamworks together for their Genderfucked night, but stopped going when they got rid of that event.

I found it really off-putting that the Seattle location changed it to purple party and used an image that seems like a cis guy to advertise. i didn't even know it was supposed to be a night for trans men until i messaged them.

it felt like they wanted to SAY they had a trans night without accidentally having trans people find out about it? 😕

i also don't like that trans women aren't explicitly included. theyre 'welcome' but its a night for trans men. idk im trans masc but i don't like that.

In terms of the branding and marketing, I can see it both ways, tbh. When something is more visibly and clearly broadcasted as "trans night" it's easier for the realllly ignorant chasers to come out of the woodwork. The kinda people who ask you "wait did you used to be a boy or did you used to be a girl?" while you have their prince albert piercing in your hands, or ask to honk your boobs.

If it's more a sly signaling then it feels more like it's for the community, to me.

i looked up the poster to see what you meant, i'm assuming it's this one:

for me, this is sly in exactly the right way. i get what the message is right away. tho i agree with you, it would be a lot better if the guy was hippier or thicker. they need fatter and curvier dudes on these advertisements in general, everything runs super twunky.

i understand why you'd want the messaging to be more explicit and less focused on cis standards of appearance. the Chicago Steamworks brands their night as TM4M, which I think nails it. if you're trans or not a dipshit you know exactly what it means, it centers trans men as the ones being there actively looking FOR men to sleep with rather than presenting them as the prize, and it's terminology we actually use. it's clear enough that now some of the weird chasers of the type i mentioned have started coming sometimes, but that's a consequence of the most ignorant in society starting to learn about what trans men are.

Steamworks chicago also has a TW4M night just as often, which is for trans women, and I think that works out pretty well from what i've heard. Having TM and TW nights *and* a genderqueer night of some kind would be even better. going from having a "gender fucked" night with a broad definition to having something primarily for trans men is definitely a downgrade.

to the best of my knowledge Steamworks operates under a franchise model so every owner does things a little differently. Chicago Steamworks has no gear/rubber nights whereas other cities' do, and I find that disappointing. they're pretty decent on trans things though.

[loupetlapinn]

Can I say this here? I really want like any of the 95 line to slap me around and humiliate me.. idk, I just think they would cause they're mean and really plays into the power imbalance I think they'd like to have.

(This is a confession)

MY THOUGHTS EXACTLY. no fr though. and i just know they’d be so so mean about it. so mean so so so mean, sobs. especially if you’re younger, they’re always using that as some sort of twisted excuse for you to listen to them without question. im actually still trying to work on the second part of savoureux and its basically just this idea (it’s been in the works since i uploaded the first part). but any au in which the 95z tag team your ass— your ass is DONE for.

95z is all about that power imbalance fr. degradation and humiliation all the way. using you for their entertainment. your pleasure wouldn’t be their concern, but they like to make you cum over and over again even if you try your best not to or beg for them to ease up mainly so they can go “see you love this, why else would you make such a fucking mess.” plus for seungcheol it would be that; “you’re gonna tell me no? im in control of you and your body right now, who are you to tell me no?”

#asks #love answers #cheol #josh #han

[schrodingers-hoarding-problem]

been obsessed with highlight's killing voice recently (until now the only song I had fully heard was fiction) and aside from now being in love with beautiful night and slowing being forced to stan them

jeonghan from seventeen totally looks like a mix of yoseob & gikwang but specifically how they look in the killing voice

#idk why exactly I think that but I know im right #just look at the video and tell me im wrong #jae’s thoughts #kpop #seventeen #jeonghan #yoon jeonghan #beast #b2st #highlight #yoseob #gikwang #killing voice #svt

[enhanced-operatives-division]

i would love to hear about the ollie and handler crack ship here’s a silly doodle as well

LOVE THE DOODLE YOU SEE THE VISION!!!

Also this got my ass to design Ollie so:

(Love him - Also redesigned Reggie for this too so thanks!!)

And idk if it's moreso a crackship or a rarepair that only works in an AU (HACKS up Starstruck), but Reggie's line of "...and I hope Ollie made it out too. I hope a lot of things." It's totally me reading into it but like,,,,I want them to talk because Ollie is not dead to me in my heart of hearts.

Maybe the only change is like Reggie taps into the communication on the radio in Hot Water instead of using the earpiece, so Ollie ends up hearing him also? And they end up getting along really well (with Reggie having to jump through a couple hoops to be like "haha what agency..."). There's an Agency base in the South-East coast of Australia and maybe the Agency ends up adopting him after he washes up on the shore with the escape pod (after HEAVY questioning).

Alas take a doodle of my own:

Transcript (it's just canon lines):

Ollie: "She's being controlled, it's not her fault."

Reggie: "Agent, I have 0 experience dealing with giant security squids."

#idk i know realistically JJ and Reggie will probably never interact so like this is the one I can root for right? #<- ollie is probably still at the bottom of the ocean #alas. i think they could be silly together. because like. idk. they have the same vibe to me #i feel like they would have a GREAT TIME at a barbeque actually #i digress #in terms of the art though!!! Ollie!!!!!!!!n #I've never drawn dreads before shdjdkf i had to redraw the hair on that first one genuinely about 6 times #idk it came from like. if he's been underwater for a long time dread would prolly be somewhat convinent in terms of hairstyles #also we don't talk abt how ollie probably knew fabby because it's implied she was working down there???? #tbh she probably hated himshsjekdld he would be clueless #and uhhhh back on my I can't draw reginald crane in a way im happy with ever. an example ahdkdlf #I've liked exactly 1 drawing of him I've ever done i think i need to do a completely different design over just the little tweaks here idk #anyways ty for the ask sorry it took so long to answer you can see why lmao #it was fun though!!! like i say it got my ass to draw ollie finally and i do like his design #ieytd #i expect you to die #[agent moose's art] #reginald crane #ollie ieytd #oh ship name ummmm #hm #earpiece??? uhhhhhhh radio signal???? idk #leavung it for now im so bad at naming things

[oatbugs]

the forest looks like heaven today i woke up feeling the heaviest weight at the top of my heart

#yesterday on the study they said they were dating two others and it was going well and i cant imagine fucking you but #you have great tits. they got upset at me not inviting them to a party. my research partner told me to write a 1000 word essay on why they #should come. they spoke about how much they wanted theiir ex and they wouldnt tell me much about who theyre dating bc #they thought i still had feelings for them which. god. theyre right but the assumption is so arrogant #the streams r rly beautiful im walking to a date and shes gorgeous and some of my friends know her but i look #exactly like ive slept on my friends floor for the past few days so . aaa anyway #god after that whole call i just felt so deflated like i felt over it but now its all . back. like seeing them being happy w smn else #inflicts active misery upon me which means ii think im becoming a worse person bc of them. i called my friend and i just . idk i walked home #i kept wanting to weep but . woah the sun is so pretty #there are petals and dandelion seeds floating in the air #med school students walking to their lectures #she does biochem btw. the person im meeting now #there are two butterflies dancing together. i cant make this shit up the past few days have looked like actual heaven #ive spent them being on survival mode and not even bc of my studies like ok focus on log functions while the person kn the screen #tells u abt how if her ex were to call shed fold immediately and the new girl is a singer and its going well and maybe ill tell you #more abt it in a few months. SO YOU KNOW IT HURTS ! SO WHY WOULD YOU TELL ME YOUD MAKE OUT W ME AT THE CLUB WHY WOULD U FALL ASLEEP NEXT TO #ME WITHOUT CLOTHES ON ! WHY WOULD YOU CARESS YOUR OWN SKIN LOOKING AT ME IN THE MIRROR !!!! #anyway im like . sane. #i just . felt like it was over #i realised i kept seeing ppl who i thought were more attractive etc etc than her bc i needed to prove to myself #that im attractive enough to be liked or that i can be liked at all and a part of me wanted to prove it to them too #its just a horrible mindset to have and yh not only do they not care but they also bring out the worst in me actively like . I DONT KNOW #BUT THEN WHO ELSE KNOWS THAT THE GOLDEN HOURS IN TEHRAN ARE PINK AND LILAC WHO GOES TO TECHNO RAVES AT THE BASE OF DAMAVAND #WHO CAN PIN YOU AGAINST A WALL LIKE THEM !!! #anyway #standing up it just feels so #exhausting #like this the most exhausted ive felt from all this ever

[supermarketcrush]

hearing my parents argue over who had the worst childhood is explaining so much about my brain tbh. my ma wins by a mile btw

#i truly think i inherited the worst parts of their emotional side then there is the third part #logical phoenix who sees reason alone and is the best advice giver to friends #which is also why i could genuinely never seek therapy #bc im so convinced i assess situations correctly and know what next steps to take #and it doesnt help that i am always right when the situation unfolds and goes exactly the way i predict it to #plus im so wary of psychiatrists i can't help but think wowww so your day job is just #manipulating people into letting their guard down so theyll tell u their secrets. 😐 #girl! what the fuck are u on! #idk where im going w this lol #🫀

[tyrantt00]

Google how do make game run good on okay-ish pc

#rant #i can stomach games playing at 20 fps but i wish robocop game would hit at least 30 like #idk i have my settings all on low like i dont know why its chugging so hard. maybe letting it chill overnight will fix it <cope #also re4 remake runs really good on my pc. meanwhile re2 remake and re7 (sometimes) do not so i actually dunno what the problem is #like my specs have to be decent right its a prebuilt idk exactly what i have but if re4 remake can do it well why cant other games? #im also just really bad at first person aiming so im struggling to play robocop for that reason but i think thats a skill issue and my fault

[munamania]

something that makes me feel guilty is the fact that seeing that persons face rn literally makes me angry. they walked into class and i nearly winced. and in all fairness they were quite kind to me. outside of the several kind of odd red flags. girl whatever. to be quite frank i am a horny bastard and vocal proud etc but few people interest me enough to actually want to hang out with and get to know And i have deep seated intimacy issues so it's like. we really dont have a shot unless the circumstances r exactly right on a full moon perfect thursday of a month etc like. well and tbh i probably would have fucked around with this person but i dont... care... about some big relationship w them.. and i know i could be a relationship girl like eventually i have it in me to have a muse that's what im built for i think idc but not rn... rn i need to hang out with my friends and do my film stuff and have people that maybe wanna make out sometimes is that so much to ask for. for a lesbian at a bar to want to make out perhaps. ** for there to be lesbians at the bars to potentially make out with.

#and i am quite lonely yes thank u for asking. yeah someday id love to get to know someone again in the context of falling in love #what about it. so what now. i dont think im meant for our understanding of romantic love but boy do i crave it #why am i having this moment rn. well ok consider im on my period all i could think about this morning was [redacted] and both parties #of my dyke drama were back in class today. and the one gay person that i think has a crush on me but we dont see each other super often #so im just. guessing based on the way awkward lesbians communicate. idk #and i feel really just mean but i quite literally dont have it in me to pretend to be nice to this person anymore #i wasnt like. some villain for realizing we were acting really coupley and being like oh shit because i didnt want to hurt them #. and trying to communicate and put some distance between us when i thought they were probably in too deep. it's unfortch it took me a sec #but jesus christ yk i cant walk around and feel awkward about it forever. and im frustrated by the fact that we're just acting so odd #but again frankly i think it's largely bc they have an unhealthy relationship with dating. THROWING HORIZONTAL PUNCHES HERE. #OK. STONES FROM A GLASS HOUSE. IM AWARE. REAL RECOGNIZES REAL. #and YET. despite my past insanity. ive been kind. i can understand disappointment and a little awkwardness #but jesus would you rather i pretend to be in love with you for months and then really break your heart. #this is where i get mean and make a joke like well hey if we couldve had weird really mediocre sad angry dyke sex abt it #that would have been cool with me. but alas. we're here instead and it's fucking with my friendships too #and like we were kind of ok friends too. what now. its just u me and this brick wall u built between us bitch #now was EYE not answering texts for a minute. we dont need to get into it. #because the thing IS if i dont play things exactly right. and im not good at that without prior planning. i will accidentally say or do #something that i know. again. from being insane myself. would be just enough for them to hold onto hope #and im not trying to do that to them you know. i was trying to help with the detachment. shitty as it may be. i dont fucking know dude #this post is going to make me look kind of. well. whatever u guys have seen me at my worst. mostly. and post #ok one last thing sorry if this makes me sound like i have a giant ego. like wow heres this person who really liked me and im just shitting #all over them. not what im meaning to do but whatever

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag

[scarletcomet]

there's such a stigma around mental illness, especially around psych wards. fuck that. i've been using and will continue to use "i was just released from the psych ward" as an excuse when something feels too overwhelming, even the most simple tasks.

#why do i have to keep my hospitalization a secret when someone with a physical illness can tell ppl without it being weird? #and someone with a physical illness wouldn't be expected to be at their best right after being discharged from the hospital #i still have a long road ahead of me before i can get to a spot where i'm ok enough to go on #i was released from the hospital exactly a week ago now and have done 5 days of php #but i honestly don't feel much different than i did before i went to the hospital #my suicidal thoughts are still pretty constant and detailed and overwhelming. but less actually coming up with plans #and feeling less like suicide is an option. but that's hard especially when it's all that i can think about #but i'm self-harming again. just for the sake of hurting myself. it's not impulsive or a way to cope. i just want to hurt myself #i can feel depression throughout my entire body. it feels so exhausted and heavy #i haven't been eating properly either because im just so fucking depressed #i often just feel nothing. numb. empty. #i don't feel hopeless though. i know that i can get better and i can get my degree next year #it's just that i need to want to feel better and get through this. and i'm idk if i do want to feel better #because that just means that i have to be alive. i dont want to be alive. i don't want to get through this. but i know that i have to.

[homophyte]

okay this has been bugging me for a few days so im outsourcing to tumblr to see if anyone here has talked about it/is talking about it even though the book is a few years old. is there a consensus on morgan from bernardine evaristo’s girl woman other? ive been reading it for a class and it just screamed borderline transphobic character written by a well meaning cis author who has “concerns”. idk is there some 5d chess im missing? am i reading it too literally? whats the deal with it

#myposts #text of kin #girl woman other #doesnt rlly help that like no reviews ive seen really talk about it in depth beyond 'oh yeah and trans rep' #i wanna know whats going on there. #and like dont get me wrong the book is fine--very liberal and kinda annoying for that--but fine #just....i think it generally has the sense its doing things better than it is #the abusive relationship in dominiques chapter...fuckin. everything about yazz?? #i struggle to see some of these stories as groundbreaking when theyre like playing into highly established shit in order to do so yk #the same w morgans chapter imo. really had to go to 'ive always hated pink and dolls!' #rather than. anything else #i guess it stands out the MOST with morgan just bc its so off base and so typical and so typically borderline transphobic that i can #immediately see and roll my eyes at it--same w dominiques chapter ig #just seems like....ticking off boxes on 'the right way' to do certain portrayals and then posing the most boring questions imaginable #about them so when i see such effusive praise for it i go kinda ???? like am I wrong??? maybe im crazy and it is done well #idk i suspect its so highly praised because its so liberal-friendly which is exactly why its so boring to me #i dont hate it. its fine. but like....just fine. i cant muster much enthusiasm #and what the FUCK. with morgan! thats my ultimate question here whats the deal whats the consensus

[snekdood]

i refuse to let insecure fucks from my home town who are so controlled by their fear of being different make me feel bad or weird existing as i am online. yeah, i did find a place i could express myself freely and people didnt reject me, im sorry you weren’t able to shame me into having 0 friends anywhere, hoping that’d make me become the basic blonde bitch you want me to be

#yeah i did embrace being a guy and there wasnt actually anything you couldve done to stop me. its my fate my good bitch #even if i did become that yall would find reasons to reject me #like honestly wtf is so weird. be real. dig deep into that. why are you so uncomfortable with me existing as i am? #what exactly is your damage? #bc right now you're trying to enforce the status quo that also hurts you on to me- which seems to be something a lot of progressive ppl do #actually to ppl they dont like #ok maybe not a lot. but a lot of ppl in my generation and online #like theres people on here who will have a rape kink and then shame you for being otherkin like....................... #okay.......... #maybe we're all just weird and its fruitless to divide our weirdness into a hierarchy #your weirdness is not somehow more pure bc idk. you are more conventional somehow #probably not autistic orsomething bc lord knows yall are ruthless towards neurodivergent ppl #like imma be uncomfortable about you and your rape kink but i dont have to engage with you about it or talk about it #i take my uncomfortable feelings and leave personally #i dont like to dwell in other ppls energy that makes me uncomfortable #maybe if you like to dwell in my energy its bc you think im cool in spite of one thing i do that makes you cringe #🤷 no clue

[theloveinc]

hello i am neurodivergent and i apply it (project??) onto alot of characters but often i dont share these thoughts bc unfortunately as much as we may hope they dont tend to get received well among the wider audience bc ppl dont want their faves being "weird" but i feel like i see myself as someone who is neurodivergent in a lot of these characters so it is interesting to see when allistic/neurotypical ppl make the same observations!!

it's not projection hehe

yeah. i mentioned it a lil in my reblob but......... i truly think people who find it weird just don't understand it, whether that means they don't know anyone nd personally, or have never really bothered to educate themselves.

but (or and?).............. while this is most def a serious topic, it really just makes me want to ask ARE YOU DUMB LOL? because......... i see it, too. and maybe that's just bc i have tons of nd friends and am mentally ill myself (which i only mention bc i never know if nd covers mental illness)... but like. it seems so obvious!!! 

and also... not even like something that should be a big deal, either. your fave can still be your fave even if they're nd. truly, what's so difficult about understanding that? what really changes explain it to me. now.

#not u anon. u dont have to explain anything to me. i mean ppl who consider it weird. like ... why is it weird? verbalize it for it. #but when ur on the other side... like when you SEE #its just so hard to express and so infuriating to think about #like... how do u tell someone about what they refuse to know #how do u explain to people the personhood of another #like the fact that nd is so normal to me #but so alien to them ... #when really all theyd have to do is like. be chill about it and talk to anyone nd #idk #maybe ive just been h*lla mad recently about people who have been isolated in their experiences #and refuse to alter their standpoints based on the thinking that they're correct bc they've never seen anything else #but.... YOLKS!!!!!!!!! #that's so nasty to me and it makes me sad bc of all that i said #anyway anon sorry if i didnt exactly address u in this #i really appreciate ur input! and im glad to know that like. my opinions as someone allistic are backed up by yours #means we're double right #it sucks that its so hard to talk abt #but i see u and i agree with u!!! #<333 hugs #caitie answers #anon

[mihai-florescu]

Oh lmao i reached tag limit

#ok lets recap #grandma with brain surgery that is already past the time the doctors gave her who is not mentally present but whenever she realises #shes losing her mind she starts saying she wants to die and my dad gets angry at her and says this is the fate god gave her #generally depressed other grandma who every time she talks to us brings up the war how much the world sucks and that she wants to die #and my mom tells her she cant blame the americans for everything and then they dont speak for 2 weeks #grandpa who died of cancer bc he didnt tell anyone he was sick and when he collapsed and they took him to the hospital #he died in less than a day (i was 2 years old so idk the details but im pretty sure thats when they found out he kept it from them) #other dead grandpa who was an alcoholic but im not sure exactly if he was sick or why he died #father who burries himself in work cuz it's also his hobby and most if not all his friends are ppl hes met through work so everything #kind of revolves around it #hereditary heart issues for which he's on multiple medications for life #overworked mother who is responsible for 2 countries finances who works 16 hrs a day with almost no breaks every day except weekends #am i missing something #ah yes none of these people admit theres anything wrong with them #and my dad helps and assesses phd candidates in his field and is part of the national academy #all their hopes and expectations are on me and im not allowed to show weakness or disappointment #theyve knows since i was little that theres something not quite right but theyre all too neurotic to really figure it out #they put me in therapy for a bit in 3rd grade for anxiety and stress #5th grade* but it didnt really do anything #which is why im saying i dont think aaany therapy is going to help aaaat all i think we should just die #ah yes brain tumor grandma? self discovered. all doctors told her she just has depression and shes hysterical cuz her husband cheated #but she was so good at her job (biology lab something something) that she proved to them she has a tumor. so yknow. very competent #hm i think this might be why my family just. doesnt really believe in depression and thinks you should just get over it #im tiredddd im sickkk of it all i cant live off of my parents forever cuz theyre overworking and burning out for their own future happiness #i cant live off of them #i dont even think they like me. they just love me as much as they need to (as long as i do everything im supposed to) #i remember after my first year of uni they had a family meeting being angry that i dont have all the credits #i didnt have them because the teachers just took longer to upload them. but otherwise i had passed everything. they didnt believe me #i cant even exist with them just the way i am i have to do hair removal surgery and ideally in their opinion plastic surgery to fit #a standard and make it easier to get a job. because pretty privilege

[nexus-nebulae]

i amb. Dissociating

#low health #<- this tag for mental health too ig #ask to tag #i dont know why i am brain not working #literally do not know what is causing this #havent been able to focus at all yesterday or today #probably longer than that idk #id ont know who i am or whos nearby front #i dont think our brain wants echo anumore but we dont have a replacement what do we do #we almost got two relplacement but they werent fit for being host for various reaosns #i keep just. like. going blank for so amny minutes at a time #jsut staring at nothing midsentenece and never finishing the thoght #sorry for all the misspellnigs too i dont really have the energy to fix them tbh #brain is being not ok but i dont know why its happening or what can fix it #maybe its hust fall idk #fall always fills me with dread for like. many reasons #like soon im not gonna be able to walk as much and im almost never gonna be able to leave the house once winter hits #plus fall seems to be exactly when bad things alwys happen to me so #thank u august 2020 for that oen #but its not even august anymore youd think if it were connected to the august incident itd fuck me up during august #i dont know. i dont know whats wrong or why my brain is upse t #and i dont know how to fix it #i keep thinking 'talking to friend will help' and maybe it is i dont know i cant tell #but im too fucking dumb and anxious to do that half the fucking time anyways #... i think i have trust issues #not in the sense of 'i think everyone around me is hiding something' or shit like that #btu more in the sense of 'i am so scared at every second that i am going to fuck this up' #so i never even try bc it's the only 100% guaranteed way to not fuck up right???? #wrong then i lose all my friends bc i dont talk to anyone ever

[cargoshortsenjoyer]

I work at a fast food place and I just had the best workday of my life!!

It was sooo busy for some reason, but I was bagging the orders and I love bagging, and I did it so well that one of my bosses came to my dad as he was waiting when my shift was over and i wasnt there, but my dad told me that he was shaking his head happily like (in my dads words) 'he didnt really know what to say' and complimenting how i worked. htis is SO much better than my last job where they basically implied i was an idiot once a day minimum.

we dont usually have food leftover because the kitchen is so careful to wind things down as it gets closer to closing, but this time there was SO mmuch food. bags full of messed up orders, (NOT my fault, im so glad for that! seemed to mostly be problems with taking payments..?). also food that they made with the intention of it being ordered, they were making new stuff at like, 20 mins to closing. TEN minutes to closing the line was still going INTO THE STREET! That is insane because the bulidng and parking lot is huge. genuinely insane.

god tho i love this job. every day im excited to go to work. i mean i still kinda feel lazy about it when i only have one more hour at home to do anything i feel like but once i walk in its like i enter 'work mode'

i hate that working fst food is always portrayed as this horrile thing in media. this burden on a kids life. i always loved my summer job. maybe in part cuz i didnt have a ton of freedom outside my home. irredgardless. gotta love having money as a kid too. i love saving money now too. like i spend it but. idk. i mean im trying to live on my own within a few years so thats why, it feels responsible and like ill thank myself later.

#fast food #idk why im tagging it that #i guess os that some 13 year old kid being told that they should 'enjoy school/childhood because after that its just work' knows thats not #necessarily going to be the case for them #if they hate their job it could be managment. or perhaps the job itself isnt exactly right (for instance i think id hate being a secretary)