#idk yeah im going to happy hour tonight i can start adding more after

[tennessoui]

*whispered*

Have you thought of updating the ‘Kit’s Aus’ page?

😳

*whispers* oh shit the kit's aus page

#asks #fuck i guess the pirates au had enough asks to warrant the adition #stacy's mom au too #uhhhhh #kit's silly lil aus needs its own tag because thats where i put my silly lil aus #i feel like im missing a ton #oh the bodyguard au should go up probaably #idk yeah im going to happy hour tonight i can start adding more after #you know html makes me need a drink #if you want to see any aus that aren't on that page lemme know and i'll absolutely add it #outsourcing <3 to make the most people happy <3

[horansqueen]

You & Me : chapter 36

A Niall Horan fanfiction ; rated MA

Sequel to AM CONVERSATIONS

CHAPTER 1 || CHAPTER 2 || CHAPTER 3 || CHAPTER 4 || CHAPTER 5 || CHAPTER 6 || CHAPTER 7 || CHAPTER 8 || CHAPTER 9 || CHAPTER 10 || CHAPTER 11 || CHAPTER 12 || CHAPTER 13 || CHAPTER 14 || CHAPTER 15 || CHAPTER 16 || CHAPTER 17 || CHAPTER 18 || CHAPTER 19 || CHAPTER 20 || CHAPTER 21 || CHAPTER 22 || CHAPTER 23 || CHAPTER 24 || CHAPTER 25 || CHAPTER 26 || CHAPTER 27 || CHAPTER 28 || CHAPTER 29 || CHAPTER 30 || CHAPTER 31 || CHAPTER 32 || CHAPTER 33 || CHAPTER 34|| CHAPTER 35

NOTES:

-one chapter is her pov, the next is his -4.2k -im sorry, i never proofread, i hate it. -there WILL be smut. but not only smut. -this is a romance, comedy, smut story. -for the summary, check my MASTERLIST.

- notes: idk what to write here anyway no one reads it lol! but yea im posting this for Isa because she’s probably the only one who still cares about this story lmao ILYSM!

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requests! : some requests i didnt add because i didnt want to spoil this. theyll be added in the next chapter and probably at the END of the chapter lol

TAKE A LOOK AT THE CHARACTERS HERE

Chapter 36 : Her chapter

OLIVIA

April 7th, 2018

I fell asleep on the bed as soon as we got done with diner. I finally had a day off and an other one the next day but I had been working non-stop for 6 days until late at night (or early in the morning) and I was exhausted.  I shivered and woke up slowly, feelings my lips curl at Niall's touch. His fingertips were brushing up and down my arm, making goosebumps appeared on my skin, and I let out a low whimper.

"I missed you. How long have I been sleeping?" I asked in a mumble, forcing myself to open my eyes.

"You've been asleep for two hours." he pointed out before chuckling.

"I don't care." I let out with a childish voice. "I missed you anyway."

I squirmed a bit and ended up with my head on his lap. My lips curled into a smile when I felt his fingers slip in my hair and I breathed in, inhaling his scent and his expensive perfume.

I knew I was already fucked. I knew it was over for me and that if Niall and I broke up again at some point, it would kill me. At this point, being official or not didn't change anything anymore. I remembered back then, before I dated him, I always tried to suppress my feelings for him, I always managed to put a wall in front of them to hide them from everyone and especially myself. Right after One Direction's last tour, the walls collapsed and crashed, exposing my feelings to practically everyone, and at that time, it shocked me how much I loved him, how deep, real and intense my feelings were. They grew even more when we dated and remained stronger than ever for so long after he broke up with me. I was there with him now, my walls completely wrecked, and it made me realize that I had put my walls back in front of my feelings when I started dating Dylan but that wall was not that strong and Niall easily tore it apart without even knowing it. I was tired. I was exhausted to keep that wall there. Perhaps I had even helped him taking each brick off, one by one. Yeah, the more I thought about it, the more I was sure it was a team work.

"I was thinking we could go out tonight."

I groaned and wiggled a bit to press my face on his stomach, making him chuckle. "I'm tired."

"I know, but Louis says he misses you." he pointed out, making me groan again. "Come on, I'll buy you a few drinks."

I remained silent for a few seconds, wondering if I should go or not. I was pretty sure it would be fun but at the same time, spending time in bed, cuddling with the man I loved seemed even better. I moved a bit to lay on my back and look up at him. He was the only person in the world who looked good from this angle.

"Are you gonna stay with me the whole time?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.

"Yes."

"You'll hold my hand under the table?" I added, staring at him and making him smile.

"I will."

"You're gonna dance with me whenever I ask you to?"

"Baby, we're not going in a club." he pointed out. It made my eyebrows raise up more and my lips part. "Fine, yes, I'll dance with you whenever you ask me."

My facial expression turned into a happy and satisfied one and I quickly got up, reaching for his closet.

"We have a deal, then!" I just said, trying to find something decent to wear before deciding on a pair of jeans and a band shirt (not a One Direction one, this time). It took me about 20 minutes to put make up on and when I joined Niall in the living room, I tilted my head as he got up.

"You look so good." I pointed out, moving closing and putting both my hands on his chest, my palms pressed on his blue dress shirt. "You're so classy and here i am, wearing jeans and a shirt."

He laughed a bit, moving his chin up slightly. "You want me to get changed?"

"No, I want you to get naked."

He laughed. "That's not happening. Louis is waiting and you know damn well he can show up just to annoy us." he explained with a smirk as I chuckled. "Tube?"

"Cab?" I argued, raising my nose up.

I didn't want our pictures taken, I didn't want to meet people, or get caught by paps. All I wanted was a nice evening with my friends and mostly, with Niall. He moved his arms around my waist, intertwining his fingers on my back and nodded slowly before sighing.

"Anything you want."

I smiled at him and moved closer to kiss his lips. He tasted good and I felt his hands move up on my back before smiling against his lips. If he changed his mind and asked me to stay home, I definitely wouldn't be against it. Unfortunately, we ended up at the bar quite quickly and after a while, I just stared at my glass, lost in my thoughts, before Louis leaned closer to me.

"'Dans la lune'?" I smiled and looked up, meeting his blue eyes. His lips curled too and he raised his eyebrows. "I've been practicing. How's my accent?"

"Almost as bad as Niall's." I just said, laughing when I saw him frown as his lips parted in shock.

"Hey, wait!" I heard, turning to Niall who was frowning too, clearly insulted. "I'm very good at that!"

"Honestly, no you're not." I admitted, raising my nose up and shrugging. "I'm sorry but you both suck at it."

"Well, you know what I'm good at?" Louis asked, getting up. "Paying beer for everyone."

He left and I turned to Niall, frowning a bit when he was looking away. I followed his eyes and my heart skipped a beat when I realized he was looking at a girl, sitting afar at a table. I took the time to look at her and bit my bottom lip before sighing. I couldn't be jealous, not now, and I couldn't pretend the girl was not beautiful. Still, it did hurt me and at the same time, it was ridiculous to expect him to never find an other girl pretty in his whole life.

"What are you looking at?" I asked low, getting his attention back.

His eyes roamed on my face and he blinked a few times. "Oh, no one."

"I didn't ask 'who', I asked 'what'..." I pointed out, licking my lips. "You were looking at that girl? She's pretty."

It was a lie. She was more than that, but it was too hard to admit.

"Yea, not bad." he replied, making me roll my eyes.

"Look, I know you think she's sexy, don't lie to me."

He sighed and reached for my hand under the table, making the left corner of my lips raise up. It was hard to be mad, or feel sad, when Niall was looking at me like that and I just tilted my head, staring right back at him. It didn't matter if he found other girls pretty, all that mattered was that he loved me, and that he wouldn't go back to his old habits.

"Okay, she's hot. But you're sexier." he bent closer to kiss me and I held my breath before he moved back slowly, remembering we weren't supposed to tell anyone that we were sort of seeing each other. He looked away, but not in the direction of the girl, and I just licked my lips as I watched him grab his beer and take a sip of it.

"Have you ever thought about having a threesome?"

He choked slightly and swallowed hard before wiping his mouth with the sleeve of his shirt. The sight was endearing and I chuckled.

"What?"

"I don't know, I was just saying." I proposed, shrugging a shoulder and making his eyes open slightly more.

"Would you be willing?"

I let my eyes move on his face and started questioning myself. I had no idea if I was and somehow, I felt like our relationship, whatever it was, was still very fragile at that point. Not our love, of course, that was strong, but the trust I had for him was still shaky and it scared me.

"I had a threesome before and it ruined the relationship I had with one of the girls. I think it's the main reason why me and her broke up."

He nodded and pressed his lips together. "Yea me too. Although I was pretty hammered I can definitely say it didn't help our couple, or whatever it was that we had." he paused and looked down before looking up in my eyes. "But we could make rules."

"Rules? Like what?"

He shrugged. "You tell me."

I stared at him again and I suddenly wished I never proposed that. I glanced at the girl on the other side of the room and felt something stir inside me. Yes, I was more confident about my body, but at the same time, I knew the bodies Niall was normally attracted to had nothing in common with mine.

"You.. can't kiss her. Or get your dick inside her." I pointed out, licking my lips nervously. "I don't want her to touch you, or-"

"Okay!" he laughed, shaking his head. "It'll be faster if you tell me what I'm allowed to do instead."

I groaned low and grimaced but I felt a bit better when he squeezed my hand again. I felt ridiculous for that feeling and I was wondering if it was my self-confidence that was getting low again, or simply the fact that it would hurt me to see the man I love making out naked with an other girl. I had seen Niall with other girls often in my life, and it has hurt me enough in the past, didn't it?

"We don't have to do it if you don't want to." he shrugged with a fond smile. "It's just a discussion for now. I mean, you know it's you I love, right?"

"Put yourself in my shoes, Niall." I tried to explain. "I mean we could have a threesome with a man."

"I'm not.. so sure." he replied with a frown.

"See?" I pointed out a bit louder, leaning against my chair and making him roll his eyes, amused.

"It's different, I'm not into men, but you're into women."

"But that's not what it's about." I explained a bit lower, tilting my head. "It's about us, and the feelings we have for each other. I've shared you so often before. I even lost you a few times. What if it happens again this time?" I sighed and shook my head. "I'll think about it."

"Hey, hey." he whispered, moving closer to me and leaning his elbows on his knees. "Don't stress over something so futile okay? I'd be totally fine watching you have sex with an other girl while I just sit close on a chair and jerk off f like a fuckin’ loser."

This time, I laughed and I just had time to see his lips curl into a smile before I tapped on the front of his cap, making it move down over his eyes. He placed it back and I noticed his eyes were shining. I tilted my head and my lips parted but just as I was about to say something, he kept talking.

"And yes, it would piss me off to see you get fucked by an other man." His gaze dropped to my shirt and moved up to my eyes again. "I'd probably throw him out."

I laughed again, feeling the sudden urge to kiss him. He smelled so good, he look beautiful and he was so close... All I could think about was grab his shirt with both hands and pull him close to feel his lips crash against mine. With all the strength in me, I got up and nibbled on my bottom lip for a few seconds.

"I'll be right back."

Quickly, I walked to the lady's room and leaned both hands against the counter, letting my head fall down slightly and closing my eyes. It was so tough to stay away from him all the time and it was starting to drive me insane. Of course, I didn't want our relationship out in the open but if our friends knew, it would make things a lot easier. I was so sure it was the right thing to do a few weeks ago but now, my certainty was faltering. It was harder and harder as the days went by and even if it was just to protect me at first, I knew it was useless now. I loved Niall. I always would. And being official or not wouldn't stop me from hurting if he decided to leave again.

Without thinking, I grabbed my phone in my pocket, moved my shirt up and bougfht my phone up too, to snap a picture. I quickly sent it to him before unclasping my bra and moving it up, taking an other picture. I sent it too just as I was getting a message from him.

'Fuck petal show me more'

My lips curled at his words and It only took a few seconds to get a second one.

'I want to suck on your tits so bad pet'

I swallowed hard and felt my whole body throb as I typed an answer. 'Do it now, then.'

I leaned against the counter and waited but when the door opened, I felt my heart jump in my chest, hoping it was not someone else. I sighed when I saw it was him and his eyes roamed on me for a few seconds. He turned around and locked the door, making me chuckle and I held myself back on the counter with my two hands.

"I hope we don't get caught."

"I don't care." he replied, making me smile more.

He took a few steps closer and even If I should have expected it, I held my breath when he bent down quickly. His lips wrapped around one of my nipples and I felt my legs tense as a short whimper got out of my throat. I felt his tongue flick on it before he sucked on it gently and when he moved to my other one, I glanced down only to see how hard the first one was. I remained motionless, my eyes half-closed, as his mouth, lips and tongue focused on my tits and after a while, my lips parted, my eyes closed completely and I let my head fall back on my shoulders slightly.

He stopped and I felt his hands on my hips, helping me up on the counter and when he moved between my legs, I felt my heart jump in my chest. His lips found mine and his hands reached my breasts as he kissed me deeply. He had moved his cap around and I just reached it to take it off, leaving it on the wet counter and slipping my fingers in his hair.

"Why didn't you wear a skirt, lover, it would have been easier to fuck you."

The sweet nickname made me smile against his mouth. I loved how impatient he was and I could feel his hard cock press on one of my thighs. He rubbed himself gently against me and I moaned again in his mouth before pulling away and licking my lips. I pushed on his chest gently and got off the counter before taking a step back as I unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans quickly. He stared at me, his gaze moving from my hands to my face and back to my hands as I pushed my pants and panties down to my knees and raised my eyebrows.

"I can bend down for you."

He walked up to me, turned me around and pushed me against the wall. I held my breath as his hand moved between my thighs to reach my pussy and he groaned, grabbing my waist and pulling it closer to him before spanking me one time but hard. I pressed my palms on the wall and closed my eyes when I felt the tip of his cock press on my walls and let out a curse word when it slipped inside me. My fingers curled and my short nails scratched against the wall as he started fucking me hard and fast. His hands found my breasts again and he grabbed them hard as a balance to fuck me deeper.

I was happy both of us hadn't drank too much and when he leaned against my back, I felt his lips brushing near my shoulder as he grunted.

"No one turns me on like you." he let out, making me hold my breath again. "No one makes me cum like you."

He pulled me away from the wall and pushed down on my back, holding me there with a hand on one of my shoulders as he spanked me again a few times. I could feel myself throb around his cock as he remained still and when his other hand reached for my other shoulder. I bent down more, making sure I was far enough from the wall, knowing he was about to go harder.

"Fuck, you're gonna make me cum."

He started fucking me so hard I had to put my own hand over my mouth to make sure I wouldn't moan too loud and I felt myself reach an orgasm as he fucked me deep. I shook against him for a few seconds and he groaned, waiting until I relaxed a bit to pull out and jerk off quickly. It took only a few seconds before I heard him groan louder, the tip of his cock rubbing against my ass, and my eyes fluttered close when I felt him push himself back inside me, fucking me for half a minute before his thrusts faltered.

"Fuck. I'm so sorry." he apologized as I moved up. He wrapped his arms around me and I could feel his cock brush against my ass. "I came all over you. And then inside you."

The thought made me shiver and he ran his hands on my breasts before pulling on my shirt to cover them. He took a step back and I saw him tuck his dick back in his pants as I turned around. I moved my panties and pants up and then worked on my bra when we heard someone push on the door. I held my breath and my eyes got bigger but Niall just chuckled.

"Liv? It's El!"

Without hesitation, Niall unlocked the door and opened it, leaving Eleanor speechless. I had to admit it was worth it and I laughed a bit.

"Uhm when you two are... well, done, I guess? There's shots waiting for you..." she grimaced and shook her head. "Okay. Bye. Gross."

I laughed and walked up to Niall, getting on my tiptoe to kiss him. "Now she knows." I whispered.

"It's okay, I'm sure she won't tell." Niall tried to reassure me as I chuckled.

"Yea, like she'll keep that from Louis!"

We both laughed and shook our heads and I finally went back to grab his cap on the counter before we walked back to the table. It was useless to pretend we weren't together or anything. At that point, I knew we were fucked and that everyone probably knew about us.

"Finally!" Louis said when he saw us before pushing shots closer to us. He waited until everyone had one and he moved it up over his head to make a toast. "To Neil and Olivia, who literally can't keep their pants on when they're around each other!"

Everyone laughed and I kicked him under the table. It only resulted in him laughing and smirking at me but we all drank and I turned to Niall who was smiling fondly at me. Fuck it, why should I care if my friends knew?

                                                     ---

"I want to write a song about that." Niall said as we walked in his house.

I let my purse fall on the floor and walked slowly to the bathroom to take off my make up. "Write a song about what?"

He walked up to me and leaned against the door frame, just looking at me as I washed my face and it reminded me of that time I was too sick to do it myself and he had done it for me. It made something stir in my stomach and I sent him a fond smile in the mirror.

"A song about sex with you." he explained, pushing his hands in his pockets as I chuckled.

"Make it more general, maybe? And don't use my name!"

He chuckled and rolled his eyes. "Do you know me at all?"

I grabbed my phone to check the time and it's only when I saw the date that I frowned. Today was april 7th (now 8th), and I was sure I had something planned on the 6th. When I remembered, I felt my heart jump in my throat and held myself against the counter.

"Liv, hey, are you okay?"

Niall was close to me, I could feel the heath of his body against mine and his hand on my back and I swallowed hard before moving my body back up and turning to him, blinking a few times as he frowned. Could I really tell him that? Would I have the guts to say it out loud?

"Niall, I'm late."

He frowned for a second and then he understood. His lips parted and an expression appeared on his face. It looked like fear.

"It's... it's stress, right? You're on birth control?" he seemed panicked and I swallowed hard, feeling suddenly extremely guilty.

"Yea but those pills aren't a hundred percent safe." I pointed out, shaking my head before my traits softened. "No it's probably just stress, I've been working a lot and not sleeping much..."

He nodded and searched for his phone in his pocket before dialing a number quickly. I frowned and walked closer to him, wanting to ask him who he was calling but I didn't dare. He turned to me and showed me his forefinger, telling me to give him a minute and he left. I leaned against the counter again, head down between my shoulders, and felt myself tear up. I had been through so many things recently and I was exhausted. Adding a pregnancy to my life was not a good thing at the moment and I was also scared it would break something between Niall and I, and I was not ready to lose him.

He came back and wrapped his arms around me, leaning his chin on my shoulder. I looked at his reflection in the mirror and he sent me a loving smile that I sent back.

"I called the drug store. They're sending us a few tests. We'll be fixed tonight."

I felt relieved but also nervous and when the doorbell rang, we argued on who was going to answer. He won and I waited for him to come back, sitting on the couch and shaking my leg. He sat next to me and took a box out, handling it to me. I just stared at it for a few seconds until he pushed the side of his upper body gently against mine.

"Petal, it's okay. If you're pregnant, we'll adjust."

"It's gonna ruin what we have." I let out in a whisper.

In half a second, he was kneeling in front of me, searching for my eyes and when our gazes met, he raised his eyebrows.

"Nothing will ruin what we have anymore. Nothing. I won't let anything bring us apart. I want to be with you, Olivia. Okay, kids weren't planned before a few years but if you're pregnant, like I said, we'll make the best of it." he paused and sighed, noticing I was still nervous and he licked his lips. "Do you love me?"

"More than anything in the world. More than anyone I ever loved, or will ever love. You know it." I admitted, feeling my voice break slightly.

"I love you too. I'm in love with you." he stopped talking and handed me the box. "You can do this."

I was shaking when I got out of the bathroom and quickly put the stick in his hands. I was near tears, and I had been for about an hour, but I was not really sure why. His words should have made me feel better and they did, but somehow, I still felt extremely vulnerable and fragile and I was not sure why.

"Please, look at it for me, I can't do this."

I turned around, my back now facing him, and let a few tears fall before wiping them quickly. It felt like an other hour had passed and I finally turned around and sighed.

"So? Niall? Is it positive?"

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[roman-reigns-princess]

Cat & Mouse (Roman Reigns): Chapter 3

Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 4 Chapter 5 Read it on Wattpad Writing Masterlist

Warnings: idk, none really? Asshole!Roman(i guess?), p much smut free im sorry ): there’s one bit that gets a lil gay w/ Lyra and Naomi, that’s all I can think of tbh. I swear tho, next chapter we will get Roman/Lyra smut. RN they’s just gettin ready to go clubbing

Word Count: 1960

A/N: We finally get the Bloodline together, bless, but also i feel like i royally fucked their characters up so like please dont judge me too hard (but if you got any pointers or like corrections feel free to let me know).

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As she lay in her bed, she scrolled through her phone one last time to check what had interrupted them, only to find that it was a spam email. Muttering to herself in annoyance, she silenced her phone and set it down on the nightstand before pulling the covers up around her. If there was such a thing as angry sleep, that’s what she was going to be doing that night.

It was well past noon when Lyra finally stirred from her slumber; Roman had let her sleep in. Yawning, and stretching, she slowly got out of bed and made her way to the bathroom to brush her teeth and wash up.

She groaned to herself when she saw the little bruises that trailed across her neck, courtesy of Roman. Good thing the weather’s kinda chilly today, she thought to herself, there’s no way I can cover that up with makeup, I’ll have to use a scarf.

She took her time getting ready, pulling on a pair of black jeans and a white shirt that had a quote from Game of Thrones on it; that show was one of the many things Lyra and Roman bonded over, and the shirt was a Christmas gift from him.

She sent Naomi a text, asking her if she wanted to get lunch before heading over to the venue. While waiting for a reply, Lyra put on a little green eyeshadow, eyeliner, and some dark pink lipstick. She was wrapping a dark green scarf around her throat when Naomi finally replied.

Naomi: I’m down for some pizza, the boys will be coming along though. You mad enough to skip out on pizza or nah?

Lyra: I’ll be damned if I let HIM stop me from getting pizza 🙄

Naomi: That’s the spirit 😂 I’ll meet you in the lobby in 15? Bring your bags, might as well check out now

Lyra: 😂 Yeah sounds good, I’ll see you downstairs

Slipping her phone into her back pocket, she packed away all the things she’d used. Roman had already taken his stuff down, she assumed, earlier in the day. She pulled on her boots and did one last sweep of the room to make sure that neither her nor Roman left anything behind.

Lugging her bags along, she made her way down to the lobby to check out. She’d just finished up with the receptionist when Naomi and Jimmy walked in through the entrance. Lyra walked over, giving them both a hug before they started walking to the parking lot.

“G'morning, sleeping beauty,” Jimmy teased, earning a dirty look from her, and a jab in his ribs from Naomi. “Ow, baby, what was that for?”

“Leave my girl alone, you didn’t even get up today until I started-,” Lyra was chuckling as Jimmy stopped Naomi with a hand over her mouth. Naomi knocked his hand away, glaring up her mate.

“Baaabe, c'mon, don’t do me like that,” he grumbled as they arrived at the car.

“You’ll be lucky if I do you at all, tonight,” she joked, getting into the backseat; Lyra tried not to laugh when Jimmy gave his mate a slightly panicked look. Lyra shoved her bags into the back then joined her friend in the backseat as Jimmy started the car.

“Aren’t we waiting for Jey and Roman?” She questioned.

“Nah they’re already there, probably eating half the pizzas,” Jimmy replied as drove them out of the lot. ————————- They walked into the restaurant ten minutes later to find Roman and Jey sitting at a table, digging into a pizza each.

“Told ya they’d be gettin a head start on the pizzas,” Jimmy grumbled as he sat next to Roman, swiping a slice from his pizza, making the older Alpha growl. Jimmy simply rolled his eyes in response, and told his cousin to shove it.

Lyra decided to pretend that nothing happened the night before as she sat next to Jey, Naomi squeezing a chair in next to her. Roman eyed her for a moment, she could’ve sworn a slight smirk flashed across his face when his gaze landed on the scarf around her neck.

It took every ounce of her will power to not glare at him, she was still a little pissy about being sent to bed like a child.

“Chill out, we got more coming,” Jey informed them as he picked up another slice. He turned to Lyra with a little frown as she scooted closer to him to give Naomi more space; she gave him a weird look when he leaned in and took a deep breath.

“Can I help you, Jey?” She asked as he straightened up, his eyes flitting back and forth between her and Roman before a smug smile stretched across his face.

“So, y'all finally fucked, huh?” He stated, Roman promptly choked on his drink while Lyra felt her blood rush to her face as she gave Jey’s arm a punch. “C'mon, his scent’s all over you.”

“That’s not, w-we didn’t,” she scrambled to try and come up with something as Naomi and Jimmy stared at her with raised eyebrows. Roman was still coughing and wheezing in his corner.

“Then how’d you explain them hickies,”  Jey shot back, pulling her scarf down to reveal the bite shaped bruises that trailed down into her shirt. Lyra smacked his hand away and hurriedly readjusted her scarf while Naomi gave her an indignant look as if to say why the fuck didn’t you tell me.

“I-we-yknow what, Roman, why don’t you explain, you did this after all,” Lyra huffed, turning the attention across the table to the large Samoan still trying to catch his breath.

“Um, we was just fuckin around last night, nothing happened, it was nothing,” he replied, Lyra fixed him with a piercing glare, but he refused to look at her.

“Damn, is it just me or did it get colder in here,” Jey mumbled as everyone turned back to the food.

Lyra knew she shouldn’t care, it’s not like they were dating or anything, but she couldn’t help clenching her fist under the table as Naomi gave her knee a comforting pat. ———————- Days later, Lyra was still salty. She had successfully managed to ignore him for the past few days despite traveling with him and his family. Occasionally she’d catch him staring at her with a weird look on his face, but she pretended not to notice.

It irked her even more that he never actually tried to talk to her, and she certainly wasn’t going to confront him about him basically saying that their connection, relationship, whatever it was between them, meant nothing to him.

She figured that if he had cared enough he would’ve either apologized or at least tried to make up some bullshit excuse for what he’d said. Instead he seemed mostly content with being ignored, and ignoring her.

She knew she had to move on, why should she sacrifice her happiness and wait around for some idiot who wouldn’t even give her a chance. Besides, she had the perfect opportunity coming up.

They’d arrived in Pittsburgh earlier that day, the Royal Rumble was taking place the next day. Naturally, that meant that everyone would be going out that night.

Lyra knew it’d be the best time to find someone to keep her occupied or at least numb herself with alcohol; either way, she was determined to forget about Roman for a few hours and have a good time.

That, however, was easier said than done. Not only would Roman be accompanying her, Naomi, and the Usos for drinks, but when Lyra stepped out of the shower she began to feel feverish, her senses heightened even more than usual, to the point where she was hyper aware of anything touching her.

She grumbled to herself about it as she pulled on some black panties and a matching bra. Digging through her bag she chose to wear a pair of black jean shorts, and a tank top that had a pentagram design on it.

After she was dressed she downed two Advils, then walked over to join Naomi in front of the mirror to do her makeup. She decided to do brown smokey eyes, winged eyeliner, and finished it off with a bright red lipstick.

“Damn girl, you look real good,” Naomi said, running her eyes over her friend’s reflection as she applied some mascara.

“You look pretty irresistible yourself; planning on getting laid tonight?” Lyra replied with a suggestive smirk; Naomi was dressed in a tight red dress that showed off her gorgeous body, there was no way Jimmy was resisting that.

“You know it babe, not that I don’t love rooming with you, but it’s been two days since Jimmy and I did anything  and it’s got us all wound up,” she laughed. “But, damn, the way you look and smell tonight, I’m willing to bet you ain’t going to bed alone. What perfume are you using?”

“I’m not using any perfume, not yet anyways,” she replied, looking a little puzzled. “I’m feeling a little feverish, it could be that?”

“No, no, I’ve never smelled anything like it before, you smell really good,” Naomi mumbled, stepping closer to bury her face in Lyra’s hair and take a big sniff; Lyra blushed and shivered a little as that simple movement made her squeeze her thighs together. “I-oh no, oh girl, um you might not wanna go out tonight.”

“W-what, why?” She nearly whimpered as Naomi pulled away; what the hell is going on with me, she thought to herself.

“Um, I, uh, I think you’re going through your heat, or it’s just starting, I don’t know,” replied Naomi, Lydia’s blush deepened as her eyes grew wide. “But like it probably ain’t a good idea to be around a bunch of hotheaded Alphas and Betas.”

“B-but I thought heats were an omega thing, I’m not even a werewolf,” she protested, wrapping her arms around herself defensively, of course something like this would happen to her.

“I mean I’ve heard of shifters getting their heats too, I think it’s the only time they, you, can give off a mating scent or something; it usually starts in your teens or not at all though, didn’t your parents tell you about this stuff?” Naomi questioned, frowning at the younger girl who looked beyond flustered.

“No, my dad’s human, and my mum doesn’t really talk that kinda stuff with me, hell, she probably thought I wouldn’t even get my heat because I’m only half-shifter,” Lyra said, groaning internally as her friend gave her a sympathetic look; she knew she should stay in, but she also really wanted to get drunk off her ass at that moment. “Yknow what, fuck it, Ima still go, all this does is makes me wanna get even more drunk.”

“Bitch, NO, I can’t let you do that,” Naomi insisted, crossing her arms when Lyra pouted and tried giving her puppy dog eyes. “Don’t do that, I can’t, with a clear conscience, let you go.”

“Buuuuuuut I’ll be with you guys, besides what’s stopping me from going out on my own? I’ll be much safer with you there to keep an eye on me,” Lyra begged. Naomi groaned and rolled her eyes.

“Fine, fine, I guess that’s some good points,” she sighed exasperatedly as Lyra gave her a big smile. “But you’re going to wear one of my jackets, hopefully that’ll mask you scent a little.”

“Yes, mom,” Lyra replied, walking over to Naomi’s bags as the older girl rolled her eyes, and turned back to the mirror to finish up her makeup. Lyra went through her stuff until she found a black leather jacket that she had been meaning to borrow.

Once they were done, they grabbed their phones, and hid their credit cards, IDs, and keycards in their bras before pulling on some shoes. Naomi wore a pair of tall, black pumps that made her ass look even better than Lyra thought possible, and Lyra wore a pair of black high heeled, thigh high boots.

Finally around 9pm, they headed out of the hotel to meet the men in a club a couple blocks away.

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[survivorhephaestus]

EPISODE 02: Hmm, Okay, Sounds Weird But Okay

For the castaways’ second immunity challenge, a glitch in the system took down their Deep Space Survival Procedures and Protocol Manual, also known as the Rules page. Their task was to reconstruct it as best they could, which shouldn’t have been hard since they all definitely read those rules thoroughly before beginning the game, right? 

Hmm, perhaps not. They both did a decent job reconstructing, though. Within the first two hours of the challenge, Lovelace found a loophole and used the Rules from one of Ari’s other games as a template to work from. Even with that, Minkowski was a fierce contender - maybe they actually did read the rules - and the teams tied. Ultimately it was Lovelace’s early submission time that secured them a second win.

At Minkowski’s second Space Council, Jay was voted out 6 - 1 and went to join Karen inside the star. The DSSPPM was restored, and the anarchy of this round was laid to rest.

RICHIE

i got my way and karen just left :) noah fence karen you just were the only person on the team i wasnt aligned with bc i needed someone to vote out if we lost im sure youre great!!!!!! i'm not aligned with everyone left which isn't good bc if we lose then i'm fucked lmao... the person i'm least aligned with is probably Pat??? which is interesting bc stevie and jay didn't vote with me.... i really wanted to vote with them but they wanted to vote for jakey and he's one of my closest allies at this point.... i should have just straight up told stevie and jay that i had the votes to get out karen that way there would be more team unity and if we lose again jakey wouldnt be so for voting one of them out and i could point the finger to Pat for the least amount of blood on my hands but I know stevie and karen are friends and i didn't want to be so obvious about the fact that i know the votes were there for karen bc im the one who got them all lmao we really need to win this and then hopefully a team swap happens bc if we go back to space council with this group i'm fucked i have too many allies this is wild

JAKEY

hello!! so basically today was SPACE COUNCIL DAY!!!! so we have some content ladies, saddle up! 

so coming into council i've only spoken with richie and pat one on one lol which is clearly NOT GREAT so i had to get to #werk. richie informs me at 7:10 that miss karen wanted either me or richie to leave. 

now clearly since i'm me and richie is one of the two people that have built a relationship with me im like hell no!!!! so at this point it's clear karen is the person i was gonna target since she came for me yknow 

so RENEE messages me today and we get to talking a little bit and we immediately have a GREAT bond. i get good vibes from her and i was so happy to find someone i could potentially work with closely in this game! 

so she rly wants to keep me and she hasn't talked to karen, so i knew i could get her vote from there. so then it was mostly talking to pat and what i've gathered from pat is he's very secretive and sketchy... like this vote he wasn't saying much which i know he was busy and everything but he was telling richie like he wont be around so he might not be able to vote or something and it was ????? also he's apparently close with JOSH because i havent spoken once to josh and pat was like "ok josh will vote with us" and i was like hmmm okay sounds weird but okay. 

so yeah it ended up being me/richie/renee/pat/josh for karena n karen/stevie/jay  voting for me. im all fine for this outcome especially since i got to have my sandra-esque "AND THE QUEEN STAYS QUEEN" moment... i was LIVING... but im so worried pat/josh will turn on me in the next vote!!! i don't trust them at all and maybe it's time to start trying to built relationships with stevie and jay since maybe they feel on the outs after this vote. 

at this point i know im going to be an ONGOING target on this team so the quicker we swap, the BETTER (i also want to reunite w some cuties on the other team) 

LOGAN

i just realized there were confessionals but honestly i've been sleeping this whole game and don't really talk to anyone lol #socialgame

PATRICK

Welp, that was a shit show.

A bit of context: I hated both options that came up. I tried subtly dropping Renee once or twice, but it was clear that wasn't gaining traction. My next preference would have been Jay, probably. That wasn't happening, either. People seemed locked on Jakey and Karen, which irked me and still kinda does. But since I was out I didn't really have much ability to make anything happen.

So, why take out Karen over Jakey? It gets complex. At the core of it, in a vacuum, I feel Karen would have been more loyal to me than Jakey likely will be down the road. But the issue comes in who I would have been throwing my hat in with if I'd gone with Karen. Those three votes were Jay, Stevie and Karen herself. I'd have made it four, and I presume Josh and I were always voting in lockstep. Either that, or rocks on the first vote which yikes.

Plain and simple, I don't like that group as a means to reach the end. I think me/Josh/Jakey/Renee/Richie will be a much more effective group. I wish Karen had talked to more people, because adding her to this group would've been great.

Also, Josh stated a preference to voting out Karen over Jakey. I really want to keep Josh feeling like he can trust me 100%. I always do better in these games when I have an unquestioned #1 ally. So I let him feel – rightfully – that if his preference was Karen, we'd do Karen. It helped that I was leaning that way, myself, for the reasons above.

Also, Jakey's pretty fun. A bit abrasive sometimes for my taste, but I'm not mad at all about working with him. He'll be a good ally, I think.

Ah well, onward and upward. RIP, Moose Alliance.

RICHIE

so we lost and now i'm fucked bc no matter who i vote for tonight i'm going to be backstabbing someone since i'm a dumbass lmao

me stevie and jay aren't an official alliance but we have talked about working together jakey has told me i'm his #1 and we have gotten close josh and renee are 2 of my favorite people who i just won't vote out rn

and pat and i really connected at the beginning of the game but i've kinda stopped the breaks on that relationship bc i needed someone with no connection with in case we went to council but it looks like it's impossible for me to put the vote on pat tonight which sucks for my game bc im going to be pissing off someone just who's it going to be??? idk bc we're less than 2 hours from council and no one is around!!!!!!

i love jay and i wanted to work with him but the last vote really fractured the team and choosing to go with the minority with a possible team swap coming just isn't the best idea???? i'm trying to do damage control with stevie 15 minutes before the vote so that if this all goes down as planned then i still have room to work with him hopefully

KARTER

I can't trust anyone? Or can I? I can't tell! I just want us all to be friends.

#survivorhephaestus

[platinumjeon]

Babygirl - Seokjin Smut (Rated M)

Anonymous said: Hello! Can I get a Jin smut, where you get kinda lonely as he always spends time with your 2 year old daughter, and he talks about her all the time. You don't say anything, bc you don't want to sound rude. You start to get insecure, bc you and Jin haven't been intimate since her birth. One day, Jin comes home early from practice (the daughter is at play group idk XD) and sees you crying. You open up about your insecurities adn he reminds you who his babygirl is heheheheeee... Thank you!

oh shit. i don’t know how this is gonna turn out. im nervous. oh god. this is gonna be under a read more because its long oops

warning: smut. smut. lil fluff. smut.

“Gah, isn’t she adorable?” 

Jin was sitting on the floor across from your two year old, handing her different toys that she would pick up and either chew on, throw, or hand them back to her daddy. Her little hands would grasp onto Jin’s fingers and she would try to pull Seokjin towards the princess barbie castle you had bought her for Christmas.

“Jinhee - hey, no, don’t put that in your mouth.” Jin said, gently taking the small plastic puzzle piece from his daughters hands. “You’re such a handful, but also such a cutie!” He’d say, hoisting the child up and tickling her so she giggled with happiness. 

You stood in the doorway, just observing your husband play with your daughter and her barbies. It was heart warming - and sweet, and adorable and everything in between. Although you didn’t want to admit it, though, its as if things between you and Jin had completely fizzled out. 

After having Jinhee - who was undoubtedly the light of your life - you felt unattractive, bored, and stressed. Life as a mom was everything you thought it would be: lots of happiness, laughter and admittedly, stress. But you never thought it would put a dent in yours and Jin’s intimacy. But instead of a dent, it’s as if it’s crashed completely and is unfix-able.

The next few days were the same. Jin got the baby up, dressed her for her play group, and packed a small bag to take with her for when her grandma picked her up later that day. You just sat in bed the entire time, playing with your phone. Seokjin was a good husband. He got your little girl up and ready for her group, and offered to do everything he possibly could when he was able. You almost felt like Jin would rather spend time with Jinhee than you.

The thought upset you so much that, when Jin came in carrying Jinhee to come say goodbye, you kissed your baby girl and hugged her tightly, but when Jin leaned forward to kiss you goodbye, you turned your head so his lips hit your cheek. He pulled back with a hurt look on his face, as if you had just betrayed him. Seokjin didn’t say anything though, and just picked Jinhee back up and walked out the door.

Hours passed by, and in a way you wished the day wouldn’t end so you didn’t have to deal with Jin cooing over your daughter again that night. You missed your husband. He was amazing and sweet but everything changed, and the fact that you and Jin hadn’t been intimate since Jinhee’s birth said a lot. 

With that thought, you crawled back into bed and let a tear slip, and then another. It’s not that you wished you never had Jinhee - oh, no. You just wished Jin knew how you felt. Lonely.

“Yeah. Thanks mom, I really appreciate it. Give Jinhee a kiss for me.” You heard Jin’s voice say as the sound of his shoes being kicked off echoed through the house. You stopped in your tracks, and pulled your sleeves over your hands to wipe away the tears that continued to roll down your cheeks. You heard him coming up the stairs and turned your back to the door so he wouldn’t see your puffy eyes.

“Hey, Y/N, I wanted to talk to you about - are you okay?” Jin asked as he opened the bedroom door and saw you just sitting there, trying not to look like you were just crying. Seokjin walked over to where you were sitting and staring out the window. He sat down next to you trying to peek at your face, but you continued to stare out the window and not look him in his eyes. 

“Y/N.” He said, pulling you by your shoulder to try and turn you towards him. Finally, you gave up and turned to your husband, who immediately saw your tear-stained cheeks and red eyes. “What’s going on, baby?” 

You scoffed at his choice of words before looking down at your hands. “I’m okay,” you said, trying to turn yourself towards the window again, but Jin wouldn’t have it. He grabbed your wrist and forced you to look straight at him, your back now facing the window you once looked out of.

“You’re not fine because you were crying. Can you tell me what’s wrong?” He said, softening his tone and now holding your hands in his and gently rubbing circles on your hand near your thumb. 

“I’m just - you’re so invested in Jinhee now. I love our little baby. So much, but ever since she was born we’ve done nothing. I feel unattractive and feel like my body is ruined, and I feel like now that Jinhee is here you’d just rather be a dad then a husband. Not that that’s a bad thing, because - well, Jin, she adores you. I just miss you.”

Jin looks surprised as he takes one of his hands from yours and wipes at your eyes. He turns his head and presses a kiss to your lips before gently pushing you down to lay on the bed, where his body hovers over yours. “I’m sorry you feel that way. I know I’m with Jinhee a lot, I just didn’t want to pressure you into anything if you weren’t up to it. I was going to talk to you about this, anyway.” Jin said, pressing another longer, more heated kiss to your lips. 

Without a response, you begin to kiss him back with even more passion. Maybe, finally, you could do this with Jin without thinking about -

“Seokjin -” you mumbled, pulling back from him. He wouldn’t let up and continued to kiss you as you tried to talk. “Where’s Jinhee? I need to go pick her -”

“She’s at my mom’s for the night,” he said, “tonight’s all for us.” His voice was raspy, but quiet as he began to kiss your neck. One hand was traveling up and down your body, squeezing one breast before moving onto your hips, and then to your thighs. You moaned into his mouth, slightly arching your back to give him better access to your neck and chest.

“Take this off,” he mumbled, tugging at your flower-patterned shirt. He grabbed the hem of his own shirt and swiftly pulled it over his head, where it landed next to your own shirt and bra on the floor. You admired his toned body - you’d seen him shirtless within the past few years but never in this light, and never in this tone of thought. 

He stopped for a moment to admire your own naked body, searching every inch of it before his eyes became dark and he leaned down to whisper, “This body, is not ruined.”

Seokjin’s mouth was warm as he began kissing from your neck to bottom of your stomach, his hands beginning to work at the button on your jeans before looking up at you with hooded eyes. With a grunt, he began to tug your jeans down your legs as you moved your feet to kick them off where they landed with a soft thud on the ground at the foot of the bed. Jin came back up to your face to kiss you again, this time his tongue swiping at your bottom lip to ask you to open your mouth, where you granted him the access he wanted. 

Breaking the kiss, without any warning Jin hooked a finger around the top of your underwear, and you internally cringed at yourself for not wearing a better pair. Pulling your underwear down your legs and discarding it where the jeans lay, immediately he pressed his lips to your clit and swirled his tongue around your most sensitive spot. You arched your back in surprise and pleasure as you threw your head back, moaning as he continued his quiet assault.

Jin flattened his tongue against your slit and licked a stripe to your clit, where he blew on the pink flesh before placing his finger against your slit and gently pushing in. “This okay?” Jin said as he watched your face as you arched your back again and opened your legs wider to accommodate his arm moving back and forth. Smirking, he puts his lips back on your clit before pumping his finger in and out of you before adding another digit, making you emit a loud moan. 

You could feel the heat rising in the pit of your stomach as if your insides were turning into knots. Breathing hitched, you reach down and grab a handful of Seokjin’s hair to gently push him to suck harder. He hums and the vibrations send shockwaves up your spine, making that knot in your stomach grow tighter as Jin continues to pump his fingers in and out of you, curling them and making your walls tighten around him.

Your legs began to shake as the orgasm was building up, and Jin knew to keep going. Right as you were about to tell him to go faster, he says, “Come for me, baby girl.” His raspy voice sent you over the edge, his tongue continuing his attack as you rode out your high.

Breath heavy, he removed his fingers and climbed back up to your face. You began to sit up for his turn, but his hand was pressed to your shoulder and pushing you back down before you could say anything. “Remember that tonight is about you.” He said, kissing you again so you couldn’t protest. Your hands worked at his belt before pushing his pants down his toned legs. Without thought, your fingers pulled his underwear down to reveal his dick and you bite your lip as it springs out against his lower stomach.

Immediately, you switch positions so he’s pressed flat against the bed, while you snake down and press your lips to his abs. You hear him make small moaning noises as you take your sweet time kissing every inch of his sinful body, while your hand gripped his dripping hard on, swiping away the precum that had collected at the slit with your thumb. He shifts his weight when you touch him, and he hisses when you finally put your mouth around his throbbing member.

His body twists and his hips gently thrust into your mouth as he lets out moan after moan, your warm mouth guiding him towards his own high. Your tongue swirls around the head of his dick before licking a strip down the shaft and going back up again to tongue the slit. Jin continues his thrusting, slowly pushing himself farther down your throat until you’re about to gag. The sounds he makes turns both of you on, almost a strangled moan, and you can tell by the pleasured look on his face that he was close. “I’m not gonna last-” he begins, and with one more hard suck you take his cock out of your mouth with a pop.

Seokjin peers down at you with an unrecognizable look on his face before grabbing your wrist and throwing you down on the bed, hovering over you as he leans down again to press a long, rough kiss to your lips before leaning up and gently aligning himself with your entrance. With a glance to your face, he could tell that you were anticipating feeling him - finally - and without anymore hesitation, he presses into you slowly to make sure you’re comfortable. He sighs with pleasure as you let out a loud moan, and he leans down to messily kiss you again.

Sweaty locks of hair tickle the side of your cheek as he begins to move and thrust inside of you, and you lock your legs around his lower waist as Jin decides to go faster. The only sound in the room is both of your ragged breathing, and Seokjin was barely be able to get out an, “Okay?” as his skin slaps against yours.

The knot in your stomach had grown to an unbelievable size and you were kissing Jin just as he hit the spot inside of you that made your toes curl up in ecstasy. “Fuck!” You yell into his mouth, and you notice through half-closed eyes that he was smirking as his hips slammed into your own harder and faster until you were shouting at the top of your lungs. Just as you were about to hit your high, Jin left out a breathy “fuck, Y/N,” before you felt his cock twitch and spill into you. 

The sight of his face twisted in utter pleasure sent you over the edge once again, white hot shock waves racing through you as you began to see spots in your vision. As you came down from your orgasm, the bed dipped slightly beside you as Jin lay next to you, arms behind his head. The two of you just lay there for a good five minutes until both of your orgasms have run their course and your breathing became regular.

Seokjin turned to you and put his arm around your waist, pulling your back against his chest. “You’ll always be my baby girl, you know that, right?” He said, a smirk playing on his lips and his chin in the crook of your neck. You smile, before turning over to kiss his lips once again. 

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so that was fun um anyway can i go back to fluff now i think i just wrote the worst smut known to man goodnight

#bts #bts reactions #bts scenarios #bts smut #kim seokjin #seokjin #jin #rap monster #kim namjoon #jungkook #taehyung #hoseok #sugaspiano #jimin

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IM GONNA RANTTTTTTTT (spoilers)

(this match was literally like 6 hours ago so???? I don't remember everything but I'll do my best to recall it. I was bummed the ENTIRETY (apart from Carmella and Eva Marie) of the Women's division could've even have made it onto the actual show but, the fact they were hyping Naomi up and let her pin the women's champ is👍👍👍👍 but I'm hoping they let Nikki and Becky win so Nattie and Mickie can win the singles matches they have (hopefully at Elimination Chamber). SHEAMUS AND CESARO LOST AND IM SHOOK and I'm really confused about what they're going to do with the two of them now and I hope they use them correctly, they're both incredibly talented and deserve to be used correctly. The Club deserved to be given something since they've lost literally everything since coming to WWE but they don't stand out to me idk, they don't catch my eye. I do like Karl's diving neckbreaker though. Nia Jax vs Sasha Banks was honestly one of the matches I was really looking forward to see since I love love love Nia and she looked so great in her new gear tonight, I'm so proud. I wish the match lasted longer and Nia just ragdolled Sasha for a bit after that Samoan drop, would've added a lot more heel heat made her look better in my opinion. The only Women's match on the actual show and, it let me down. I guess they're trying to build up that "Bayley's got heart!" and "she'll never quit!" but the match was pretty short, coming for a 40 minute long women's match at roadblock, and Bayley got pinned cleanly and idk, it did nothing for me. I wasn't really looking forward to Roman Reigns vs Kevin Owens since I don't like how they've worked up their feud idk, did Roman deserve another shot after roadblock? is he going to get another shot now? Why is Roman always looking strong over Kevin??? but I'll be honest, this match won me over mid way through because there were great spots throughout the match. The ending though, Will Kevin ever win a title defense without an interference? I like that their trying to add Strowman to the main event picture, somewhat, but I don't understand where they're going with it, Roman had a showdown with Taker in the Rumble match, which will most likely lead to something for Wrestlemania but where does that leave Roman and Strowman's thing they have now? ugh I'm salty salty saltyyyyyy because this match was the match I was looking forward to the most and my family kept distracting me!!!🙃 so I literally don't have any recollection of the moves. I love heel Neville, but it's bittersweet that he won it at the Rumble, the Rumble is a huge show but I would've loved for the King to be crowned with his championship at the "grandest stage of them all" considering he couldn't even compete in what would have been in his first Wrestlemania. Swann and Neville would've killed it at Wrestlemania. In my opinion, I would've loved to see Rich steal a victory from Neville at the Rumble so he could have a longer reign and so Neville could run through and just obliterate the rest of the cruiserweights division on the road to Wrestlemania. Wow, AJ and John gave another show-stopping performance with each other, it was a PHENOMENAL match and that's all I can say about it, but I don't understand why John got an opportunity in the first place and why he won, Styles' had a great run as WWE champion and I would've loved to see him hold it longer. Cena's already had his time and I honestly couldn't care less about his 16th reign because he doesn't deserve it, he gave a good match and AJ still looks strong because it took 4 Attitude adjustments AND ONE FROM THE TOP ROPE TO GET HIM PINNED, but he shouldn't have been pinned, in my opinion. Now onto the Royal Rumble match, I'm going to nitpick a lot because me and also I can. (it's gonna be blank if I don't have anything to say about the competitor) 1. I've said it before and I'll say it again, I don't like Enzo and Cass at all, but I understand why they'd want to start off the Rumble with two very """"likeable"""" wrestlers. 2. BREAK THE WALLS DOWNNNNNN, CHRIS JERICHO HAS BEEN IN THE RUMBLE FOR MORE TIME THAN ANY OTHER COMPETITOR, I loved that he came back in to the ring to eliminate people but he kept going back out, and as the match progressed I really wanted him to come out on top more and more and I was crushed when he got eliminated. 3. 4. (Breezango👀) 5. YOOO JACK IS CROSSING DIFFERENT WORLDS, HES OUT OF THE CRUISERWEIGHT DIVISION AND HE'S IN THE RUMBLE. His exchange between Chris was hilarious tbh and yeah he didn't get much done but you know, expected. 6.Great pop for Mark in his home state, well deserved, he's a legend. Really interesting to see him and Braun though, eliminated too quickly. 7. Braun was extremely dominant throughout the entire match and that's good considering they're building him up to be a new monster to the likes of Mark Henry and Big Show. I really like Braun, not really his character, but he's so quick for a big guy it's incredible, in my opinion the best big guy the WWE has had in a long time. Many people were predicting he win the thing but I think it's best he just eliminate a butt ton of people for now. 8. omg I literally forgot Dean literally told us Sami was going to be #8 and I was legitimately wondering who the next person was going to be smh. He lasted long which I like, but there wasn't really a memorable moment of him for me. 9. Boy if I wasn't singing Big Show's theme for 20 seconds before he came out, props to him for somewhat patching the torch to Braun and letting him throw him out, but I really want him to face Braun rather than Snoop Dogg at Wrestlemania. 10. MICHEAL COLE MISSED A HUGE OPPORTUNITY OF SAYING "who's going to enter at number..." and then Tye's music interrupts him with "Ten.." I WOULD'VE GONE CRAZY. Really hate how he was just in the background for most of his time in the Rumble and then he was jobbed out. 11. Pointless. 12. They really let their Intercontinental champion get thrown out by Brock Lesnar. That pisses me so much, Dean didn't really have any momentum coming into the match but he didn't deserve to get eliminated by a part timer so easily. 13. Really love how they let Smackdown's monster eliminate Raw's monster, since Braun got all the eliminations, it's only right Baron, at least gets to have a strong elimination to keep his momentum going. I loved him and The Undertaker going at it and I wish they were allowed to be at the forefront for a bit and given more time since Baron's supposed to basically be The next Undertaker/tall guy type of person. 14. His elimination/not elimination wasn't special this year and I'm crying. 15. I was going over who I wanted to win 15 seconds before The Miz got eliminated so I'm thinking, The Miz lost the intercontinental champion and deserves to be in the world title picture so he deserves to win this!!!! then he gets thrown out by a single clothesline by The Undertaker, so, you know. I kinda wanted Maryse to become the 4th woman to enter the Rumble and have the It couple just tear everyone to shreds but that wouldn't have ever happened. 16. 17. omg this entire time I swear I thought Xavier Woods always did the New Day intro and I'm shook. Liked him spanking The Miz tbh. 18. Woah I didn't know he had a broken nose, he's really tough to still compete in the match 6 days after breaking it. I don't like how they've wasted him in this Enzo & Cass feud thing, he should be doing better things and giving Goldberg, Brock and Undertaker a fight because he's that good. 19. I remember Cesaro entering at #19 and I was like "omg this thing is almost over." 20. I love Xavier with everything, he's great on the mic, he's great in the ring, HE'S THE BEST AND CUTEST PERSON OUT OF THE RING, but he didn't do anything spectacular, unfortunately. 21. He should've won. When it was him, Roman, Randy, he was the only the one who really really really needed the win, Bray has a great character and he's so good in the ring. (THAT LITTLE CHOKE SLAM TYPE OF THING IDK WHAT ITS CALLED HE DOES LOOKS SO GREAT ALL THE TIME) I hope Bray wins the title from Cena at the Elimination Chamber and beats Randy at Wrestlemania. He deserves good things. Give him good things @wwe. 22. Incredible in the ring, but he needs a character to make him stand out from the bunch! I'd love Apollo so much more if he wasn't just the "if you mess with him, you're messing with me" little thing he has. 23. Doesn't deserve to have won it again. If he's only putting over Bray, it's kind of a waste of a Rumble, but that's the only way I'll be happy with him winning it. Should've let Luke hit Bray with a sister Abigail. 24. why why why @wwe do you sell out your hard working talent who work 24/7 for a part timer and make them look so weak for someone so undeserving. Dolph can't even turn heel and get taken seriously by WWE and its terrible. 25. I love Luke and even though he's so going under in this feud with Randy and Bray I hope he gets another run at the intercontinental title soon. Give him good things also! 26. No. 27. No. 28. FUCKING love how they're making Brock job to Goldberg in such little time, it's hilarious and deserving to me, but that being said I'm glad Goldberg didn't win and neither Goldberg and Brock Lesnar didn't take much spotlight from the current talent. 29. I so called Undertaker entering 29 and Finn Balor entering 30 AND RETURNING. When the dong hit, I was so certain I was right. I'm a lot more lenient when it comes to Taker, he's been here his entire career and hasn't left, he deserves to eliminate a couple people because he's a legend and even though he's a part timer, it's only because his career has slowed down. 30. Like I said, I was looking forward to Finn returning and Romans music hit and I hate the people who boo him for no reason but I wanted Finn so I'll justify it, only now. IDK how I feel about him vs Taker though. Overall, the match started out really strong but dwindled down over time. I liked how there weren't any returns, people are pissed, but I'm happy WWE is putting effort to somewhat put their current talent on the forefront of one of the biggest Pay Per Views they have. It does them no favors having a retired talent eliminate a current superstar, in my opinion. Dude, I've been typing this for 2 hours djfnfnfn what am I doing omg, I really like writing out my thoughts yo and this is really long but if you like my thoughts yoooooo. I'm sleep now it's 1 am.

#royal rumble #wwe #my thoughts #rant #rant as hell omg #a lot of words

[skiasurveys]

boyfriendddd

Where did you meet?- on a dating app haha, then a couple days later we had our first date When did you meet?- on the app was late september i cant remember exact date but irl it was oct 3 Was it love at first sight?- no i dont believe it that stuff but i did fall quick how old were you both? at the time i was 18 and he was 25 When did you have your first kiss? On our first date, after we went to noodle house, i was at his place for a bit and we kissed then Where was your first date? we went to the college to play super smash bros and then to the noodle house, and to his place to chill an dwatch youtube videos How long until you met the parents? like 3 weeks in When was it 'official'? okay so this is where it gets confusing. so our first date was oct 3, but we dated for a week and then broke up, and didnt really talk for 5 months, we got back into touch in april 2016, and then we officalized it on May 10th 2016, so thats our offical day. <3

Whats your happiest memory of him? one of them was when  i was having a bad panic attack and he held me all night, and we watched netflix too lol

Whats the sweetist thing he has ever done for you? if i were to be honest..it would be him sleeping behind  a couch for 7 months because he didnt want to move away from me, and i couldnt move out yet, and he didnt have a place so he stayed at his friends 

Does he buy you lots of gifts? no but i dont like gifts. but he does get me some good stuff

Whats your favorite thing to do together? Theres a lot. I like to just stay up all night talking with him When did you know you were falling in love? about 4 months in, but it wasnt til a little while where i knew i was in love with him, when he was watching his tv shows and he was laughing and i knew thats all i wanted for him, and then when he told me i was his best friend i just fell so hard then. Who said 'I love you' first? me haha Is it true love? yeah  How do you know this?  how can i not Whats his worst habit? slow texting What annoys you about him?  he sometimes leaves me on read, or he takes 500 hours to text backand when he does its just “lol” or “ok” and its like bitch rly haha but he is always correcting my driving and it pisses me off Has he ever hurt you badly? Im overly sensitive so sometimes i get hurt over stupid shit Would he ever cheat? no Has he to your knowlege ever cheated? No, he told me he was cheated on once so he wouldnt ever cheat and that if i ever cheated on him he would just leave haha, but i know he wouldnt cus he doesnt do games. Do you trust him? i do Best facial feature? his entire fucking face <3 Favorite part of his body? his arms  Hair colour? brown What does he smell of? idk how to describe it, just a mans musk. Whats he wearing when you picture him in your head? usualy his captain america shirt, or his mountain dew shirt, and his jeans, idk i dont really thnk about that hahah How do you feel when he holds you?  safe How do you feel when you fall asleep and wake up in his arms? happy and protected.  How does it feel when he touches you?  well it depends on how hes touching me lol Does his touch give you goose bumps? it can for sure Does he kiss your neck? omg yes <3  Your tummy? yes Your forehead? yes Could you be without him? no i would kill myself  Do you think about him constantly when your apart?  i do but i can go through my day without being obsessive with thinking abut him How long have you been together? a year and 2 months Can you see a future together? i can Would you like to get married? yes Have children? i dnt want kids Where can you see your relationship in a years time? I hope its much stronger and that im not so clingy. i do hope were in a better place like physically, and both have good jobs etc 5 years time? I honestly see us at Prince George cus his dad wants him to work with him there, and i can see us just bein ghappy, and  i hope that we are. Do you know there is definatly no-one better out there for you? yeah, i dont know, he just fits me so well, and he handles me good, and he says i know how to handle him, and hes just so different from what i wanted and im glad i found him <3 How do you know this? ^ Are you scared he might find someone better? i am because im a piece of shit. Is he your best friend as well as your lover? yes Does he come first over everyone else in your life?  yeah, but i also love to put my friends first too, its like half/half, i dont ditch him for ppl, nor do i ditch my friends for him Would you die for him? yes Whats the funniest thing you have ever done together? Theres lots. one that comes to mind is when he trolled some dude on twitch, it was funny Say something that only you two understand eso god Do you have nick names for each other?  ehhh. no Does he make you laugh? always Do you wrestle? yes  Is he tickelish? yeah but i am more Are you? yes

His Favorites... Food? sloppy joe Drink? water Sport? he doesnt like sports Past time? video games Animal? cats Aftershave? what is this asking  Clothing style? just average  Band? Queen Music? basically like classix rock ad weeb shit, he likes all kinds

Your 'things'.... Song?  i cant help falling in love DVD? we dot really watch dvds Place to hang out? depends  Meal to cook together? meats

Lasts... Time you saw him? last night Kissed him? ^ Spoke to him? couple hours ago The last text he sent you? “Lel”

When will you... See him again? hopefully tuesday Speak to him again? tonight or tomorrow  Tell him you love him again? next week  Have you ever? yes we just dont say it freely, we say it when we mean it Spent the night together? yes  Been on holiday? no :( Met his parents? yes just havent met his biologcal dad or his siblings cus they dont live here, but i met his Mom and step dad Had naughty time? lol always Made him cry? when we were first starting to hang out w were having issues and this other dude liked me and i didnt know what the fuck to do so i ditched connor ( i am not proud of this i was such a bitch) and i made him cry he said lol aww poor babe i am not proud of this, i was sucha  bitch i finally got rid of people Done anything spontaneous together? yes Lastly.... Is this love? duh

#relationship survey #boyfriend survey #connor

[survivor-iceland]

Ep. 4 - “I’m feeling comfortable which is scary. Because comfortable people go home.” - Joseph

Raffy

I am glad that I survived tribal. Now I just have to win this challenge for the tribe! I don't want any of my allies to go home!

Raffy

My strategy for this challenge is not to be the guesser since that only puts a target on my back if we lose. So, Joseph volunteering himself is good for my game overall. Honestly, though, I really want to win this challenge so that the stakes are even when we get down to merge. No side has more people than the other. Also, taking the path of the bear lets me know that Cormac only made that alliance for that idol path. So there is no real bond in the alliance with Joseph, Ellie, Sierra, and him. Though, I do plan on using it against him later on if we happen to be on opposite sides.

Sierra

I lost my vote for the next tribal... so I’m a bit nervous about losing. But I almost want to lose this next immunity challenge so that I’ll still have the numbers on my side. If I don’t vote at a tribal and we still have the majority, I’m less likely to go home. Later in the game, my vote will mean more. I also don’t want to throw a challenge, though, so we’ll just have to see how it goes!

Joseph Collins

I think I established some trust between the still-alive Dylan and I. Me and Justin are starting to clock. Me and Elle have a strong alliance. I’m feeling comfortable which is scary. Because comfortable people go home. 

Raffy

You ever just want to organize a challenge so that your tribe can succeed, but none of them want to put in the work? I'm screaming and very frustrated.

John

so the trio is coming together, being me, cormac and zoe. we want sierra and stephen gone. stephen first, sierra second. they both have the potential to be devastating to our games come the merge. i last talked about this with them like 14 hours ago, but i’m assuming everything is the same. blindsides are becoming a necessity. and wowowowowow they are fun.

Raffy

I think we did really well on this challenge! I think we can win unless they have some sort of god taboo player on their side

Keith John

Its been a dull few days. Since we won immunity and the next challenge had ample time to be completed.

Another challenge that I couldnt compete in thanks to the time difference. Abit annoyed. As things can go in so many directions. 

1. Tribe might not be happy about my challenge contribution. 

2. The rapport built during challenges between other players will make things harder for me.

Although since im travelling soon. Il be on est soon. But I am not sure if I should let people know. As I dont know what could trigger them. Example. They might think. Il be able to play more socially and can easily be ready for future challenges like individual immunity. Hence I think for now. I should keep this info to myself and let my tribe underestimate me. Knowing that the time difference will hurt me enough to make me a so called GOAT that at the final tribal I might not have a case as I have not done enough. For now I have no choice. Hopefully i can make a few moves later.

Timmy

I’m trying to remember when the last time I confessed was so I apologize if this is a repeat. But I got what I wanted last tribal. At first people wanted Justin out rather than Dylan R and that wouldn’t have been good for me. It wasn’t difficult to get people to switch since all that had to be done was Justin say like 2 words to people to prove he’s more active than Dylan R so that was good. I hope we win the challenge, our score was good, but there’s could be better you never know until results. My fear is that Justin will go if we end up back at tribal and I’m not here for that. 

Ellie

Because of debate I wasn’t on for the challenge and I feel like shit!! I hope we won or else I’ll provably be the vote out

Sierra

Well, we lost immunity again... and this time, I don't have a vote. That means that I have to work super hard to make sure that we're all on the same page and that votes go on one person. I tried my best during the challenge, and it was super close... so even though I was in the 'hero' position, I feel like I wasn't the reason that we lost the challenge. A few of the people giving clues during the Taboo game used 'illegal words' and cost us a few points. I think we would've been tied if that didn't happen. Still, anyone could go home at this point, and all I can do is hope and pray that it isn't me. Especially since I don't have a vote!

Zoe

okay well fuck, we lost the challenge.

I was pretty confident we were going to win but I was wrong. I'm not too worried, if only because I'm pretty sure Cormac wanted us to throw the challenge anyway, and this way we can get rid of someone we don't trust, whether it be Stephen or Sierra. This way is probably better anyway, because we can say we did our best and nobody will be upset about it.

John, Cormac, and I are aligned now in a group called "The Blindsiders" and we're trying to decide whether or not we want to convince Sierra that Stephen is after them, stirring up some drama and making them seem paranoid so that everyone will vote them out. I'm not sure if we'll go through with it, but we'll see. Cormac hasn't been super active lately, but I'm hoping he comes through soon. He is my partner in crime, after all.

Maynor

Damn. That immunity was so close. 36-32. Adding the ones me stephen n zoe got subtracted. Adds like 3 so like was 36-35 which like really sucks. But hopefully ill be okay for tribal.

Raffy

I am so glad that Joseph was able to pull through with this challenge. This means I get a day where I can just socialize and chat without having to strategize. However, some of these people are hard to hold conversations with like Timmy. I feel like I am bothering him all the time too, so I have to be mindful of that. My social game does need a bit of work, but I know I can make it better. Other than that, if merge does happen now, we are going in with an even split of members from both tribes. So, it should be fine all things considered. I'm certain that someone has found the idol by now, but I do not care much about the idol hunt to worry about it. Hopefully, the person who does is on my side in the end.

Dylan C

https://youtu.be/fKN_ePEVYKc

Joseph Collins

Comfy week off of tribal 😎 I made a small decision that I think made a big impact. I chose to take clues via chat instead of call. It cut down on people trying to speak over each other. And I think that helped us win. 

Stephen

So the games going eh. We’re going to tribal, which sucks, but on the other hand i feel like ive made some genuine connections. I made an alliance chat with zoe sierra maynor and john. I could take or leave john, he is nice but idk how much i trust him. The rest im putting all my game hopes on so, yeah, fingers crossed.

John

it’s not a secret, i’m going through a lot right now. i lost a coworker and my cat literally within days of each other, and i’m currently spinning thinking about the game because of everything going on personally. i already wanted stephen out, but to see that i’m number 5 in his eyes, that means he gotta go now. i ain’t coming here to be the fifth place throwaway. i do like chatting with him though, he is a nice guy. but i’m not fully in his plans moving forward. Keith JohnWell its tribal today. I had a feeling my name could come up due to being on a different timezone and having less interactions with people. I felt the same reason would be valid to target to stephen. And now I guess, Stephen himself felt that it could be used against him. So he is targeting me. I have no idea if he has any other reason

Now regarding, keep my ass safe for this tribal, I hav to keep faith with the people I made an alliance. Zoe has got my back. she also confirmed that Its I had an alliance with her n Cormac day one. I always planned to take it to final three and now I pray that they know Im honest in that promise Cormac has been busy and it looks unlikely il get to talk to him before tribal. John and sierra have said that they would do Stephen. Not Sure if Sierra is completely on board. Maynor has replied to me. 

Im gona vote Stephen and pray no one gets an itch to make a move and vote my ass off.  

Zoe

John and I have been getting closer just in general in Cormac's absence. Miss him, but I like John. Keith now trusts me implicitly, which is great. Three people on my side is better than one.

John and I have orchestrated the Stephen vote by making Sierra think it was her idea all along. Stephen came to me, Sierra, and Maynor yesterday asking to make an alliance (four votes into the game? come on) and in "oh, worm?" Sierra suggested we add John, which Stephen agreed to. He believes now that we are all voting for Keith, but everyone, even Maynor I think, will be voting for Stephen as far as I'm aware. After this, I'm pretty sure there will be a swap. I'm preparing now to talk to my new teammates, reignite old conversations, and maintain old relationships. Let's go.

John

i’m gonna flat out just say it. i 👏🏼 do 👏🏼 not 👏🏼 trust 👏🏼 sierra 👏🏼. i think they’re open to literally any idea of an alliance, and if it wasn’t for me and zoe reigning her in, they’d be voting keith off tonight. they have to go after this vote. nice person, helpful in challenges, but they’d be a quick flipper.

Sierra

Stephen approached Zoe and I to talk about building an alliance with Maynor. Of course I agreed -- you're always supposed to say yes to an alliance, even if you don't plan on going through with it. I asked if Stephen would be comfortable adding John. He said that he was, so we added John to the alliance and conversations, too. The danger of Stephen wanting to form an alliance so late in the game is that the rest of us already have an alliance. Actually, most of us already have MULTIPLE alliances. Stephen hadn't approached us until recently. That makes me worry that he wasn't thinking about alliances or building bonds until later in the game, or that he doesn't actually want bonds with us and that he's waiting for a swap so that he can jump ship. My alliance is planning to vote Stephen out for those reasons... and honestly... I can't say I disagree.

Justin

This round I just tried to lay low and build my connections up cuz of my name being brought up last tribal. Luckily, my tribe won immunity so I don’t need to worry about being voted out. Now that I know I was being talked about, I think I’m gonna have to readjust my game-plan. I’m think I should align myself with Joseph, Timmy, and Dylan because Joseph and Timmy told me my name was being brought up and Dylan and I trust Dylan more than Ellie and Raffy. I think I it’s in my best interest if Raffy goes before she does because I’m pretty sure he’s talking to the most people. His possible connections scares me and I need to get him out soon because that’s the position I want in the game. On another note, Keith is stressed that he’s probably gonna be the one voted out this round. It would suck if he does cuz I really feel like I could work with him in the future, but it might not happen. That’s why, I’m talking to more people on the other side. Cormac hasn’t responded to me since yesterday so I don’t know what’s up with him cuz I really want to work with him too. John is just having a rough time. First he talks about his coworker dying and then his cat died too and that’s just terrible to hear. I’m assuming a swap is coming after this round and I just hope I get good numbers with the people I mentioned I would like to work with.

Maynor

Im in another alliance. Omg. Its me sierra stephen and zoe. The people who worked on the challenge and also john. This was made by Stephen and its cute. That leaves out Keith and Cormac. Zoe helped kept the target off Cormac and onto Keith which is good because Cormac is part of our other alliance that doesnt include Stephen or Keith. It is good and ultimately i will be siding with Zoe because I feel like i can trust her. Still no movement with idol search and honestly its just been my back for not doing it.

Stephen

I feel like I’m going home, people are super quiet and apparently my names already been brought up :/ Ah well, been a while since my last early boot, still. Who knows wattle happen. Just a little australian humour.

Joseph Collins

I’m wondering who’s on the outs of Melrakki. I think Keith or maynor go home tonight. 

Maynor

Well looks like zoe sierra and john want Stephen out. Which i also feel like he is a threat in the game. It should be 5 on Stephen now with votes on keith and maybe a self vote for cormac. Im just hoping its true and not a plan to have me throw my vote and blindside me. If it is then i give them props because i didnt see it coming. Lets hope for Stephen going. But im so sad to do this tho.

Ellie

Life sucks, I’m glad that I have these people to connect with. I haven’t really been talking strategy much

[survivetashirojima]

Episode #1- “This cast...this cast...this cast.“ -Timmy

who’s ready to get atomic up in this bitch?

okay so, first impressions(Aka First night vibes) Brien- you seem cool JG - KALOKAIRI BUDS Dylan - I have played 2 games with you, what up bud! Stephen - the third of the many Kalokairi Kevin - haven't played with you before, but im excited to Andrew- Heyo, you hosted me, im super excited to your playing style. Jacob- I've been in VL's with you but never played. Timmy- yet another Kalokairi buddy Jay? - you seem really cool. Joanna- I can't wait to play with you Julia- Montenegro gal! please don't vote me out first this time. Madison- i feel like we are going to confused for eachother alot. Pat- I want to get to know you better Tom- I have feelings about you, but I can't tell if they are good or bad yet Veni- BRO you don't know how happy i am to see you Ricky- I have a good feeling about you dude. Kenny- i can't wait to play with you! and to vibe check myself? STRESSED. this twist gave me a panic attack. we are good now. i am already freaking out about keeping my grade up (since i'm already failing a class) and challege is tonight and i have no time to do it. FUCK.

Day 2: still alone lost in the vast wilderness. No civilization in sight... the gods have forsaken me.... someone please send help... wait what is that I see? A camp? PEOPLE???? ITS BEEN SO LONG!!! Jkjk the hosts added the wrong person so I got added in like 2 hours after the actual start which isnt terrible Bc now i can just pretend I’m a pitiful little soul. Also like 1/3of the cast is people I’ve played with before but I haven’t even touched skype in like a year and a half so I have no idea any of them anymore!!! I hope we can all be friends again since from what I can remember, we were all on pretty good terms. My reaction to the “twist” is, it’s amazing. It fits my play style much more. Who needs idols? I rarely ever went to search for one and I was fine? Maybe... oof... also the whole everyone is in one tribe thing is really cool. More the merrier. It’s just really annoying Bc Skype is a pos. Anyways so far so good and I’m loving the people that are in the cast so far. Amazing cast and even more amazing hosts. I love all of them

okay so. first game back since surgery. olivia and lukas, love those bitches, but i was like i'm a working woman now so do you think that my work will interfere too much? and they were like nah, and i was like okay, so naturally, the first (live) challenge starts right in the middle of my shift. and this one tribe thing, wacky. this is gonna be one comeback game (if i get voted out first i am going to get surgery again and then never come back ever) (jk) (...kinda)

I wanna win immunity 😭😭😭

This cast...this cast...this cast. So i know like 90% of these people. I'm currently hosting 4 of them...was hosting 5. It's a very strong cast which is great, but it also means that anyone can go at any time. I'm just gonna talk about them in order of the cast reveal. Brien: I've never spoken to him and have still yet to. He's one of the people in ihos but he's quiet there. Andrew: another ihos person who I haven't spoken to. I've seen him around for years but we've never played a game together. Or at least have never been on the same tribe. Madison: big titty queen. I love her with all my heart and I have no idea what is going to happen with her. She messy but amazing so who knows. She did meet JG and Jacob in person a few weeks ago so they are all close, so i do need to keep an eye out for all of them, even though I am close with them. Ricky: another ihos, and he is friends with Andrew. I doubt he's going to work with me so that is concerning. But it's early so who knows. I'm already getting bored of typing things about everyone. Kevin: no idea, but he seems nice. Madeleine: A true queen and a sweetheart. Julia: no comment. Pat: i've seen him win 2 games that i have played with him. He is quiet but dangerous and I need to watch out for him in time, but for now he will be a good ally. Stephen: king, but does tend to go early. Idk where he will stand this game but we're already in an alliance together. Vi: haven't seen her in over a year, kind person. Dylan: cracked Kenny: no idea Joanna: scary legend who will go hard, but has been very quiet thus far. I wonder who quit right before the start of the game. Jacob: we never talk, but as of now he is who i have been talking to the most and I really do trust him. I am hoping this game is different for us and that we will actually work together. I'm excited to see what happens. Thomas: can't wait for him to strike out JG: King, who also is close with a few people, but i do trust him, but he can be a snake. Jay: It's been a minute since he's played. Not sure how to feel.

I GOT A POINT WOOOHOOOOOOOOO ONLY MISSED THE FIRST HALF OF THIS CHALLENGE

So. Uh. I got -3 points. I’m so talented.  It’s okay though. I pretty sure I’ll be voted out first so it doesn’t matter how low of a score I get. I’m just trying to bribe everyone else with cute animal pictures DX even if people hate me, maybe they’ll keep me just for more cute animals.

Update: I lost another 5 points. Let me die already... at this point I don’t even need to piss off everyone else to lose. I’ll probably get like -500 points and automatically get kicked out of the game for being bad

-22 baby. I petition for the hosts to change the chat name from Tashirojima Challenge chat to Challenge chat. What the fuck. I keep reading it as the main chat Bc tashirojima seems like a tribe name. AT THIS RATE MY JEST OF -50 POINTS IS ACTUALLY GONNA COME TRUE!!!! AHHHHHH WHAT ALLIANCES I CANT EVEN FOLLOWRULES LET ALONE FIGURE OUT HOW TO WIN PEOPLE OVER TO MY SIDE ahhhhhHhhhhHhHHHHHH

Night 2 Vibe Check! (Featuring a quite drunk Maddie!) Andrew- haven’t talked to you much, but I want talk to you more! Ricky- you seem cool, we haven’t Talked yet today Tom- smooth Dylan, damn you and your fast phone Kevin- you are a freaking challenge beast! JG- I missed talking with you, I’m glad we are again Stephen- I hope you feel better soon! Jacob- you are good at challenge (This is where I stopped and started the next morning when I was sober) Jay- you’re cool! I like you Julia- imma take you to the end sister. Love you! You make me feel safe In this game Pat- I can’t quite get a read on you yet Vi- I can’t believe they added the wrong person! You are really cool! Love ya! Brien- you are really nice! Timmy- I am super excited that we are playing together again! Joanna- I’m sorry I keep forgetting your here! Kenny- you seem really cool but I need to get to know you better Madison- I don’t think we’ve talked yet, but I want to. And how I’m feeling, well I just lost immunity, so I don’t feel safe, I’m interested to see how this goes, this season is definitely interesting!

Hey out there! Long time no see! To be honest, I don't really have the first idea at what I'm doing. I kinda missed the first day and a half because I was working and then immediately went out with friends, but I think I'm making up for it! I'm starting to chat one-on-one with people, no strategy talk yet though. Which could be real dangerous since I don't have immunity, but there are people that just...haven't talked at all, as far as I can tell at least. Luckily I have a few prior connections in Madison, Joanna, and Andrew. I know Pat and Ricky too but I'm iffy on how they feel about me. I'm pretty sure I ghosted Pat's game earlier this year, SORRY PAT! I got busy and then I felt too embarrassed to show back up D: and I've just never been too sure about if Ricky likes me or not. But other than that I've talked a bit to Madeleine and Vi and I love them both, messy challenge chat icons. I totally missed some messages from Brien, Jacob, and Kevin though, but I've messaged them all back now so hopefully they don't hold that against me. Tribal isn't until tomorrow, so I assume that's when the real scrambling will begin. I just don't know when to jump into alliance talks, I don't want to play too hard too fast. But then I again, I want the chance to play at all.

Idk why Vi was so hard pressed on me not getting immunity. First it seemed like a joke, then they..... were really into it.

Interesting notes from within the first few days: Me/Jacob/JG recently met irl so that's cute Ricky/Andrew I think met a few months ago or something Brien and Pat are both from Philly hmmmm Everyone and their mother works retail in this game so we all suffer together or not at all Day 2 i got an alliance with Jacob and Timmy so that's cute but I'll probably be out first because let's face it I'm a threatening human and i ain't afraid to pull a machete on these kiddos.

Night 3 tea spill!* *has been cancelled due to emotions

So far I’m loling brien, and Vi. Madeline is kind of annoying if I’m honest. BUT we’re all in an alliance. I have a few familiar faces, Jay, Madison, Joanna, so I’m excited to see what happens this season

https://youtu.be/-_5c-vMFG9E

Quick Cast Assessment Time: Brien: we're in ihos spain together and we talk on and off but apparently ricky was like omg look at this ihos crew and brien was like whos andrew so i think thats where we're at rn. might work with him might not who knows Dylan: biiiig dylan fan personally and i know he can be sketch in games so i wanna be on his good side so he doesnt fuck me over right away Jacob: cool dude but ticking time bomb and idk if i can work with him but maybe i can work with him by proxy of ricky.......if he shows even one sign of being a bad ally he's literally out of this game Jay: furry back back back again and him and i usually work well together so im hoping something can come from that JG: i like him personally but hes just one of those people that exudes almost constant sketchiness which idk if thats necessarily his fault lmao and yeah idk i have to keep an eye on him Joanna: nice girl! wanna get to know her better for sure. i neglected to message her up until today when she actually messaged me first so whoops Julia: absolute crackhead who doesnt like me for funsies bc shes a troll but i think more and more people are hopefully seeing her mentally unhinged troll thing as tired lately and i really dont want her to last very long Kenny: i havent talked to him yet but hes a cool dude that i played literally one game with like two years ago so idk maybe we can reconnect Kevin: so i think he probably literally talks to everyone in the exact same fake nice gay man way so i have to be mindful that its prob just not me that hes overly nice to bc i know he can be intense and i know he can be good at these games so hes one im gonna try to keep close but also be willing to cut at any time Maddie: literal love of my fucking life who i want to work with closely in this game bc i know shes loyal and i know she can have my back if she trusts me enough Madison: nnnnnnn i mean i called her stupid in a diary room from bb gilmore over the summer which i think prompted her to leave our reunion chat so not the best start there. also i think her and jacob are up each others asses ever since they met irl so love that for me Pat: i just know hes mildly attractive Ricky: absolute number one ally who i trust with my entire coochie and the goal is to hopefully subtly run this entire game together Stephen: a nice man! we havent played together in a while and we worked together in that one game so maybe we can reconnect maybe idk Timmy: havent had the best personal experiences with him attacking my friends in vls.........idk i just find him annoying lmao is that mean Tom: hopefully going home tonight! Vi: i literally dont know if this is even a real person like i know she got goated in her first main series game for being the actual worst and then we brought her back for seychelles where she was one of the worst players ive ever seen so maybe she'll just disappear one day so i dont have to deal with her

I’m only voting tom cause that’s the only vote I’ve been told. It’s probably wrong but we’ll see

First off: https://drive.google.com/file/d/10IWN3bqYXYdJ232wG5fUhPmnDee8SP2i/view?usp=drivesdk damn thing finally loaded Second: God Vi gets on my nerves. Intentionally. I need to remember to just not talk to her or she’ll manipulate the view point to make me seem bad. She can’t play survivor to save her life but she’s god can she fuck up someone elses game. I look forward to voting her out.  

CASUALTIES:

EPISODE 1 CAST ASSESSMENT:

PART 1:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jztyauZhcBY&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=5&t=0s

PART 2:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DjoFbmrLSTc&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=5

#Purrvivor

[portmack]

oh wow not again

1: is there a boy/girl in your life?- no

2: think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them?- no

3: what do you think of when you hear the word “meow?”- cat

4: what’s something you really want right now?- to figure out what im doing with my life

5: are you afraid of falling in love?- no

6: do you like the beach?- sure 

7: have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?- no

8: what’s the background on your cell?- something from a game

9: name the last four beds you were sat on?- what does that mean

10: do you like your phone?- i upgraded a few months ago after like 3 or 4 years

11: honestly, are things going the way you planned?- no

12: who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts?- one of my bosses last summer lmao 

13: would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?- ive had 2 poodle mixes and they dont shed so probably poodle

14: which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?- i guess physical because im used to the latter at this point

15: would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?- a zoo if its a good zoo like animal protection wise etc

16: are you tired?- yeah

17: how long have you known your 1st phone contact?- if that means alphabetically ive known kany since augustish of 2011

18: are they a relative?- no

19: would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes?- i dont have exes

20: when did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with?- no

21: if you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today?- sure 

22: would you kiss the last person you kissed again?- no

23: how many bracelets do you have on your wrists right now?- one

24: is there a certain quote you live by?- no

25: what’s on your mind?- ggggggggggg

26: do you have any tattoos?- no

27: what is your favorite color?- blue

28: next time you will kiss someone on the lips?- what kind of question is that

29: who are you texting?- no one

30: think to the last person you kissed, have you ever kissed them on a couch?- no

31: have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right?- sure

32: do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?- i guess

33: do you think anyone has feelings for you?- not currently 

34: has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?- yes

35: say the last person you kissed was kissing someone right in front of you?- thats not a question

36: were you single on valentines day?- sure

37: are you friends with the last person you kissed?- this thing is so obsessed with kissing

38: what do your friends call you?- nic

39: has anyone upset you in the last week?- yes someone said they were getting me coffee and then didnt

40: have you ever cried over a text?- yes

41: where’s your last bruise located?- idk im not a bruiser 

42: what is it from?- idk

43: last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad?- my last roommate

44: who was the last person you were on the phone with?- my mom probably

45: do you have a favourite pair of shoes?- no

46: do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day?- only in the winter

47: would you ever go bald if it was the style?- no

48: do you make supper for your family?- i can make pasta

49: does your bedroom have a door?- yes

50: top 3 web-pages?- idk anymore 

51: do you know anyone who hates shopping?- probably

52: does anything on your body hurt?- my back 

53: are goodbyes hard for you?- not when its happening but later sometimes

54: what was the last beverage you spilled on yourself?- water

55: how is your hair?- its the longest its been in like 6-7 years

56: what do you usually do first in the morning?- chekc my phone

57: do you think two people can last forever?- sure

58: think back to january 2007, were you single?- i was 11

59: green or purple grapes?- i dont eat grapes because the skin freaks me out

60: when’s the next time you will give someone a big hug?- im not a hugger

61: do you wish you were somewhere else right now?- sure

62: when will be the next time you text someone?- whenever kany texts me because shes literally the only person i text because shes the only person who will put up with me

63: where will you be 5 hours from now?- asleep

64: what were you doing at 8 this morning.- sleeping

65: this time last year, can you remember who you liked?- yes it was terrible

66: is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?- no

67: did you kiss or hug anyone today?- no

68: what was your last thought before you went to bed last night?- fuck its 7am

69: have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?- all the time

70: how many windows are open on your computer?- 3 internet windows and you dont want to know how many tabs

71: how many fingers do you have?-...10?

72: what is your ringtone?- whatever the default iphone one is idk i never have the sound on

73: how old will you be in 5 months?- 22

74: where is your mum right now?- asleep

75: why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love?- idk but the first person i ever liked is a trump supporter now so idc

76: have you held hands with somebody in the past three days?- no

77: are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago?- no

78: do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7?- didnt have crushes until 11th grade

79: is there anyone you know with the name mike?- many

80: have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?- no

81: how many people have you liked in the past three months?- 0

82: has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days?- no

83: will you talk to the person you like tonight?- no

84: you’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with?- i would never a. be drunk and in public and b. do that

85: if your bf/gf was into drugs would you care?- ya

86: what was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie?- last movie i saw in theaters was with kany 

87: who was your last received call from?- my mother probably

88: if someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you?- nah

89: what is something you wish you had more of?-$

90: have you ever trusted someone too much?- yes and never again

91: do you sleep with your window open?- if its hot inside and cold outside

92: do you get along with girls?- sure

93: are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?- sure

94: does sex mean love?- nah

95: you’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem?- no

96: have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring?- no

97: did you sleep alone this week?- ya

98: everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you?- no

99: do you believe in love at first sight?- no

100: who was the last person that you pinky promise?- no idea

1: If you didn't have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?- pls dont do that to me

2. What is your favorite piece of clothing you own / owned?- im not too sentimental about clothes

3. What hobby would you pick up if time & money weren't an issue?- streaming maybe

4. What does your perfect room look like?- i dont care that much i just want to be comfortable

5. How often do you play sports?- not much anymore but i wish i did

6. What fictional place would you like to visit?- hoenn

7. What job would you be terrible at?- economist

8. When was the last time you climbed a tree?- probably in middle school

9. If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would you have a good chance of winning a medal for?- g

10. What is the most annoying habit that you or other people have?- being late

11. What job do you think you'd be really good at?- something sciency

12. What skill would you like to master?- color

13. What would be the most amazing adventure to go on?- im not too interested in adventures at this current time

14. If you had unlimited funds to build a house to live on for the rest of your life, what would the finished house look like?- i dont need much as long as the wifi is good

15. What's your favorite drink?- iced coffee or grape propel

16. What state or country do you never want to go back to?- not a huge fan of ny 

17. What songs do you have completely memorized?- i could list a couple thousand probably

18. What game or movie universe would you like to live in?- pokemon i guess

19. What do you consider to be your best find?- wtf does that mean

20. Are you usually early or late?- im all over the place

21. What pets did you have when you were growing up?- dog cat dog 5 fish dog dog ratdog

22. When people come to you for help, what do they usually need help with?- a lot of things

23. What takes up too much of your time?- being depressed

24. What do you wish you knew more about?- animals

25. What would be your first question after waking up from being frozen for 100 years?- wtf

26. What are some small things that make your day better?- 

27. Who's your go-to band or artist when you don't know who or what to listen to?- saintseneca

28. What's the best way to start the day?- pancakes

29. What TV shows do you like?- havent watched a tv show in a while

30. What TV channel doesn't exist but really should?- idk what channels there anymore are i dont watch much tv

31. Who has impressed you most with what they've accomplished?- some of my classmates from my department

32. What age do you wish you could stay at permanently?- idc

33. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch?- most of them

34. What's your ideal way to spend a weekend?- relaxing

35. What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don't think you could live without?- i guess my computer

36. What is your claim to fame?- dont have one

37. What is something you enjoy doing the old-fashioned way?- i dont use icloud

38. What's your favorite book or movie genre?- dont have a specific one

39. How often do you people-watch?- not much because i get paranoid

40. What have you only recently formed an opinion about?- nothing

41. What's the best day of the year?- idk

42. What subject interests you that not many people have heard of?- idk

43. How do you relax after a long day of work?- sweatpants

44. What's the best book series or TV series you've ever read or watched?- gintama

45. Where is the farthest you've ever been from home- zurich airport

46. What's the most heartwarming thing you've ever seen?- idk

47. What is the most annoying question people ask you?- about my eating disorder

48. What could you give a 40-minute presentation on with no preparation?- overwatch

49. If you were the dictator on a small island nation, what crazy dictator stuff would you do?- i wouldn’t

50. What is something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?- whatever

51. Would you rather go hand gliding or whitewater rafting?- not really interested in either

52. What's your dream car?- i cant drive

53. What's worth spending more on to get the best?- technology

54. What is something a ton of people are obsessed with, but you just don't get?- superhero movies

55. What are you most looking forward to in the next 10 years?- anything

56. Where is the most interesting place you've been?- spain i guess

57. What's something you've been meaning to try but haven't gotten around to it?- nothing really

58. What is the best thing that happened to you last week?- not much

59. What piece of entertainment do you wish you could erase from your mind, only to experience it for the first time again?- gintama

60. If all jobs had the same pay rate and hours, what job would you want to have?- wish i knew

61. What amazing thing have you done that no one was around to see?- my 37 second rubiks cube record obviously

62. How different was your life 1 year ago?- not really sure its a blur

63. What quirks do you have?- lmao

64. What would you rate 10/10?- thats so vague

65. What fad or trend do you think should come back?- 

66. What is the most interesting piece of art you've seen?-im too tired idk

67. What kind of art do you enjoy most?- idk cool fanart of things i like i guess

68. What do you hope never changes? - idk

69. What city would you most like to live in?- wish i knew

70. What movie title best describes your life?- no idea dont you just love my answer sz z

71. Why did you decide to do the work you are doing now?- i need a job

72. What's the best way a person can spend their time?- doing what they want

73. If you suddenly became a master at woodworking, what would you make?- i got woodshop student of the month in middle school bitch dont fucc with me

74. Where is the most relaxing place you've ever been?- idk

75. What's the luckiest thing that has ever happened to you?- a few things i didnt deserve 

76. Where would you rather be from?- idc but saying youre from nj is embarassing

77. What are some things you've had to unlearn?- idk

78. What do you look forward to in the next 6 months?- hopefully getting my life together

79. What website do you visit most often?- idk

80. What one thing do you really want but can't afford?- a lot of things

81. Where do you usually go when you have free time?-my room

82. Where would you spend all your time if you could?- asleep

83. What's special about the place you grew up?- it feels like an entirely different world here

84. What age do you want to live to?- idc

85. What are you most likely to become famous for?- idk

86. What are you absolutely determined to do?- idk anymore because i have a degree now in something i dont live anymore

87. What is the most impressive thing you know how to do?- idk i more or less know how to do brain surgery on a rat i guess thats impressive 

88. What do you wish you knew more about?- everything

89. What question would you most like to know the answer to?- why

90. What question can you ask to find out the most about a person?- why

91. When was the last time you changed your opinion or belief about something major?- i feel like ive been pretty fixed for a while

92. What's the best compliment you've ever received?- idk

93. As the only human left on earth, what would you do?- die

94. Who inspires you to be better?- my answer would be stupid

95. What do you want your epitaph to be?- dont want one

96. What haven't you grown out of?- idk

97. In what situation or place would you feel most out of place in?- im not good in a lot of situations

101. How do you hope you'll change as a person in the future?- hopefully not be depressed

102. What keeps you up at night?- a lot of things

103. What's the most surprising self-realization you've had?- ...

104. What is the most illegal thing you've ever done?- underage drinking im a madman

105. How do you get in the way of your own success?- i lose the ambition and give up on everything ive ever done

106. What are you afraid people see when they look at you?- a lot

107. What is your biggest regret?- i fucked up my life long term a lot when i was 13

108. What do you look down on people for?- ignorance about science

109. What bridges do you not regret burning?- idk im not usually the burner

110. What lie do you tell most often?- lmao

112. What is the best & worst thing about getting older?- im losing control

118. What are you famous for among your friends & family?- im the most promising of my cousins but little do they know i have no ambition and cant get out of bed  

120. What one responsibility do you wish you didn't have?- im not explaining the answer to this question but i am in a bad situation

121. What are 3 things you want to accomplish before you die?- idc

122. What do you want to tell your 10-year-old self?- dont do it

124. What's the best thing about you?- you tell me

125. What blows your mind?- science

126. Have you ever saved someone's life?- yeah

127. What are you really good at but embarrassed to be good at?- nothing really

128. What would a mirror opposite of you look like?- backwards

129. What are 3 interesting facts about you?- i cant think of any im one dimensional

130. Which of your scars has the best story behind it?- most are burn scars but above one of my eyes theres a scar because my dog popped a chicken pock when i was a baby

131. What's the title of the current chapter in your life?- wtf are you doing

132. What were some of the biggest turning points in your life?- age 7 age 13 age 18 age 19

133. What's the hardest lesson you've learned?- life sux

134. What do people think is weird about you?- a lot apparently

135. What mistake do you keep making?- everything

136. What have you created that you're most proud of?- idk

137. What do you doubt?- idk

138. What are some of your morals?- idk its not that hard to be a good person

139. What do you want to be remembered for?- nothing

140. What do you regret not doing in your childhood years?- i didnt really have much of a childhood grew up to fast

141. What is your favorite fragrance?- my nose doesnt work

142. What do you think your last words will be?- idk

143. Who or what do you take for granted?- idk

144. Why would you be annoying as a roommate?- idk i dont talk much 145. What is something you're insecure about?- a few thigns

146. What's the best & worst piece of advice you've received?- idk i feel like most of the advice ive received has been bad which has led me here

147. What irrational fears do you have?- bees

148. What makes a good life?- idk

149. What's the last adventure you went on?- college

150. What is the most memorable gift you've received?- not sure

[survivorazores]

Ep. 7 - “A connoisseur of keyboard smashes“ - Abbey

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163772166338/tribal-immunity-7

Whew! An easy tribal ty to my tribe for not being crackd this proves who the ones that need to go are!!  Now to win and make jury since I'm already a huge target 

Ricky being voted off is good because I never talked to him when we had the One World Beach. I'm just glad to see Bryce safe :-)! Things have been very calm on Salao. How I like it. Now a new challenge has been posted and god - I think the hosts know how much I suck at puzzles and are rigging it against me. Anyway, I guess I have to work on that tonight after the show. I'm excited! I'll probably call Amanda and work on the puzzle with her. I'm hoping something interesting happens soon but I am also enjoying the peace.

i got swapped away from amanda and its a bad time. im with will and emily and we have plans to make a majority alliance that should work. we won immunity though so thats good

The thing is I love Emily so I just don't know what to should I spill the tea? Also these two new people I don't get at ALL they barley talk something sounds fishy to me I'm thinking of splitting the votes also I love me some Gwen! I love her, abbey is a wild card I just wanna make merge

This puzzle is going to be the death of me. It's so difficult and I don't understand how someone can do it in under 20 minutes. Lord, help me.

OMG IM SOOOO HAPPY RICKY IS OUT!!!! I literally have only been to 1 tribal i loves it!!!! and now we have a 6th person out I'm GAGGGING SIGNOSINIOSNGSIONSOINIOSNF i can't wait till merge bc thats when shit really does get real af!!!! but anyways congrats on amanda n michael for surviving that tribal bc it was 4v4 i wonder who flipped???????? but whatever still  going to keep doing what I'm doing:)))))

I'm really nervous about tribal if we lose like no one talks game to me like I thought I was in a AmaZing position for the first half of the game we just need to win immunity otherwise I think I'm in a precarious position but it might be all paranoia

I have done this puzzle about twenty times. My time started at forty-seven minutes and now I'm at eighteen. I just want to beat fifteen!!! I can't do that though.

In regards to my social game, I've been keeping in touch with Ali and Amanda G of course, but I've also been talking a lot to Gwen, who is SUCH  sweetheart. She's just so sweet. We talked for a while about astrology and a little about theatre and like she just seems so genuinely interested and can actually keep a conversation. I love her??? So sweet. I feel really bad that I want to align with Gwen while trying to take out one of her closest allies, Nayeli, but it's because Nayeli has the idol and I can't fuck with that!!! I'm scared!!! Amanda G also has an idol but no one knows she does. It's pretty much universally known Nayeli has an idol. And we need her to either play the idol so we can get it out of the way, or she doesn't play it and gets voted off with the idol in her pocket.

Of course I'm hoping we can avoid tribal for another round, but I suck at puzzles. I see that Francie has scored a sixteen minute score and Nayeli twenty-seven minutes. That's a lot of a difference between scores and I'm worried!!! We have less than three hours!!! I just don't want tribal :-( I don't know who I would target and I'm scared I might be a target for some reason??? I just never feel safe and I don't know why. The only reason I would want to go to tribal is to get rid of Nayeli's idol (and also to make a pretty parchment. I've only made one.)

So I feel like I'm in a good position here I hope I don't get blindsided I have allies and I have abbey so I hope we can split the votes Nayeli kinda made me mad tho she said she didn't wanna talk to me because she said she was good with me, I kinda wanna get will out he's a threat and I don't what that at merge

Ricky getting voted out is both good and bad for my game, bad in that my best friend and number two is gone RIP, we would've been an F2 lock while keeping it lowkey - which brings me to why this is good for my game. We wouldn't have been able to keep an alliance quiet for long and we would've been picked off, so it's good that (if one of us did have to go) it happened pre-merge. Someone made a voting confessional saying he was a dangerous player for having survived the chopping block three times... little do they know I was a part of that as well. Oops! I know Amanda G will try to turn on me at some point for lying to her about the Zoe and Rafael votes, but for now we have to work together. It makes no sense to get rid of her until at least two of the other original Salaos on our tribe are gone. Me and Abbey can keep playing the middle, and if we have to go to tribal we could easily push people against someone else. My core four right now are me, Abbey, Emily, and Amanda - and I know we can take out the others if it comes to it. Nayeli is a good person to keep as well - we could take Ali out unanimously now, then turn the numbers on Nayeli and Gwen if we needed to. I'm not playing to make friends and share fun stories anymore, I'm playing to win this.

I've never been more nervous for results. I did terrible in the challenge and I'm hoping others don't target me for that

My former tribe ties should keep me safe in this game, but I can't trust other people's influences on one another. I'm out for myself in this tribe.

i hope i get voted out. yeah i literally dont really talk to anyone bc im literally tired't of survivor its ugly BUT im just hoping someone else is liked less

I love the concept of other people taking the lead, because I'll never be the one to take the fall. If a rumor or an alliance or a name originates from someone else it makes it that much easier to hide when shit goes down and let the other person take the heat for it and I'm? Entirely okay with that?

The Espirito tribe finally wins immunity

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163810008853/immunity-results-7

This is my fourth tribal and I hate this. I just want a break from tribals, especially live ones. I hate them because the struggle is real to come up with a good answer live and the struggle is real to keep your poker face in tact. I'm really nervous for tomorrow but hopefully, we'll get rid of Nayeli.

I'm so glad we won this challenge because we don't have to worry about this coming tribal council. What does worry me is that I had the second shortest time, after Amanda, (though Bryce's time was only 30 seconds more than mine) because even though it helped us win it's likely to put a target on my back come merge if people come to view me as a threat for doing a good job in challenges. I'm not gonna lie, I'm glad I had the second shortest time because the primary target at merge would be Amanda before myself. I want to keep Amanda in this game because I trust her more than the other players but it's kind of a comfort knowing that even if I wind up with a target on my back shortly after merge, someone else has a larger target. If she leaves before I do then I'll really have to worry.

IM SO HAPPY, THIS IS WON-DERFUL

I won a challenge??? Only the 2nd challenge I've won so far excluding the left/right thing. It feels good to not be in trouble for a  day! Also I looked at some wiki seasons and I think the merge will be approaching soon. I really hope Amanda, Emily, and Will... are safe! I miss our calls :(

We did that!!!! Whew thank you team!!! https://vignette3.wikia.nocookie.net/glee/images/9/9a/MarryYouBrittana.gif/revision/latest?cb=20120810110301

WE WON SOMETHING WOOHOO! winning has never felt so good I'm glad I'm safe for one more week and it'll be interesting to see what happens with the other tribe.  I just hope that Will will be okay. I doubt it will be nayeli because I think she's really well liked by everyone.

SO we lost the challenge which is fine tbh. Will and I have a plan so it should work out fine. An alliance came together of Will, Emily, Amanda and myself. Thats 4 on a tribe of 7 so we have majority. I want gwen gone, but Gwen is close with Nayeli apparently and Nayeli has the idol. SO I came up with the idea to try to flush the idol. Idk if its gonna work yet but we shall see

Not only did we win but we won with puzzle challenge which I am horrible at!!! I was not last!!!! https://68.media.tumblr.com/f430e94315accfedf94476de6bc56178/tumblr_inline_oietjpkxfl1tu9u6o_500.gif

I just realized that I made a typo in my confessional from a few hours ago as I was looking at the immunity challenge results again. The difference in my time and Bryce's was 20 seconds not 30

ODHHHHHHHHHH my god. My page refreshed before I could send my long ass, well thought out confessional. This thing was like ten paragraphs, I kid you not.I guess I'm starting over.

I'm bummed about losing the competition because I feel like I'm really stuck. The person I want to go after is Nayeli because she hasn't made any connections with me and she has an idol. Her idol makes me very uneasy. I want to get rid of it before merge.

My plan for doing so is to get Abbey, Ali, Amanda G, and Will to vote for Nayeli. I know that Gwen is very close to Nayeli, and if Nayeli's name is brought up to her, Gwen will inform Nayeli of the fact, and Nayeli's idol will definitely be played. Whoever Gwen and Nayeli vote for will then be voted off, and that is very risky considering I'm aligned with literally everyone else on the tribe.

I just ended a call with Ali about the coming tribal, and he seems very on board with voting out Nayeli. He told me he was added to an alliance called "The Girls Next Door" with Gwen and Nayeli once our new tribes were settled. He didn't tell me about his five person alliance he had previously with Amanda Lynn, Michael, Gwen, and Nayeli, but I remember it. I still trust Ali nonetheless. We both established that we can tell each other anything - though I'm not exactly doing that. I reassured him that no one was bringing up names to me, and that he wasn't just being left in the dark - though that is what is sort of happening. We made a plan though. He is going to talk game with Nayeli and Gwen and lean them towards voting out Will. Ali will tell them that I will vote with them and thus have the majority. In their mind, it will be Ali, Gwen, Nayeli, and myself voting Will and then Will, Abbey, Amanda G voting elsewhere. But, if everything goes how I want it to, the votes will fall like Gwen and Nayeli voting for Will and Ali, Amanda G, Abbey, Will, and myself voting Nayeli. Nayeli doesn't play her idol, and she goes home. If Nayeli does happen to play her idol, Will goes home. Will isn't as close to me as the others. The problem with being aligned with everyone in the game is not wanting to see anyone go because you gain something from each connection :-(. I don't want Will to go, but I also would rather him go than Amanda G or Ali.

If Gwen and Nayeli vote Abbey, though, I wouldn't be very upset either. I have thought about who I would want to go the most if Nayeli plays her idol, and I have decided it's either Will or Abbey. I feel like Abbey trusts me because of the Gal Pals alliance that Amanda Lynn created. I know that Abbey and Amanda Lynn are very close, and that is dangerous, especially considering how good Amanda Lynn is at comps. If I want to take Amanda Lynn out eventually - and I do - then I need to weaken her connections. Abbey would be the first boot because they are so close. And I don't have to go through Amanda Lynn for "permission" because we're on separate tribes. She wouldn't be able to confront to me about it until merge. I'm enjoying the One World Beach being taken away for that reason only.

I have also been planting seeds that Amanda G is a good person to have around because she's pretty alone and has few connections, which isn't exactly very true. Ali briefly brought up her name during our call, and I told him I think it'd be smarter to keep someone with no allies around and use them as a number in our favor. He agreed. I'm praying that when Ali talks to Gwen and Nayeli about the vote, Amanda G is not the one they plan on targeting. I want them to vote out either Abbey or Will. I could even tell them that Amanda G would be a number on their side. She would vote how we want her to vote. I just need to protect that girl. I can't have her leaving pre-merge. She and Ali are the ones I'm closest with on this tribe.

Ugh, but another negative to voting out Nayeli is that I just reconnected with Gwen and I'm going to have to keep her in the dark about this vote if I want this plan work. I feel bad because I really like her and I trust her and I want to work with her! But I also know she will guarantee Nayeli stays another round. And I can't have that. I need Nayeli and her idol gone before merge! I'm hoping I can do some damage control with Gwen after tribal and explain to her why I didn't tell her what was happening.

I'm going to talk to the newly formed alliance of myself, Amanda G, Abbey, and Will about this plan tomorrow and tell them Ali will vote with us and get the scoop on how Gwen and Nayeli will be voting. But now that I'm thinking about this, they will be very uneasy with Nayeli and Gwen's votes going towards one of them especially if Nayeli can play an idol, almost guaranteeing one of our own goes home. I just need to explain to them that Nayeli won't play her idol and we will be fine! We just need to stick together and stick to the plan. I don't think we can afford to split the votes. WAIT! If three of us vote for Nayeli, two for Gwen, and two (Nayeli and Gwen) vote for whoever, then that brings us to a tie if Nayeli plays her idol. A tie would then result in a revote between Gwen and the whoever, and we could vote out Gwen there. I like Gwen and I don't want her to go home, but if the dragons get worried, I'll need to tell them that plan to guarantee we don't go home this week.

I'm just hoping that no one is catching on to my many alliances. Once they do that, I'm fucked. Everyone will turn on me and I'll be gone. I also feel that I will be given responsibility for whatever results from this tribal, but I don't mind. I was talking to Ali about this and he was saying he doesn't want any blood on his hands from this tribal. While I admire that, I recognize that you have to get a little dirty if you want to win this game. I am more than willing to take responsibility for this tribal. I am not going to go to final tribal without a resume. This will be one of the things I can put on it. It's time for me to start making moves. I suppose getting a player with an idol out is my first real one. Wish me luck!

I'm so frustrated!!! I really like Gwen and I hate that I'm keeping her in the dark about this Nayeli plan but I know I have to!!! I have to draw the "Emily is everyone's friend" line somewhere. I need to accept the fact that I'll have to backstab some people. I don't want to!!! I feel bad!!! And damn I thought I would be playing like a hero. I feel like a real villain. I have barely done anything bad but I feel so shitty!!! I just hope that Gwen understands this move and doesn't hate me. I want to work with her but I think this move puts a barrier between us. I feel bad. But also this will be such a blindside and I'm really excited to have my name on it??? But HOLY FUCK!!!! I JUST FEEL LIKE A MESS!!!!!!!! I took advantage of that four tribal gap. I need to start playing!!! But I'm scared!!! Oh god I hate my life.

Emily told me that she was thinking of getting Nayeli out because she has the idol and I'm all up for it. I really want to work with Gwen because she seems sweet, but at the same time I need to get that idol out. No one suspects that I gave Toph the idol and no one suspects that I have one now. I feel confident because no one has even thought that I could have it. I feel like my social game is really saving me right now and I'm proud of it. I really hope this doesn't backfire on me.

I'm just writing one of these today because Ali rhymed confessional with bombfessional.  Also I'm just really glad that I'm not having to go to tribal council tonight WHEW.

Bombfessional

My (can I even call it mine?) plan is working out very well. I am excited. We have decided it best to split the votes 2 Gwen, 2 Abbey, 3 Nayeli to ensure that one of us doesn't go home. I'm just praying Nayeli doesn't use her idol. I feel so incredibly shitty lying to Gwen like this but I know I have to. Why do I have to like everyone in this game??? Not fair. I think the thing I'm scared about most is Will flipping on us and sending one of us home. But I have some sort of faith he won't do that. Ugh. I guess we'll see tonight. :')

me and nayeli are going to fight it out at tribal i guess??? I'm hopefully going to be voting with emily amanda g and ali and were all voting out abbey (i would like to do will but nayeli likes him so i guess ill stay with it) and anyways nayeli might vote with will UGH but let the battle begin!!!!! i hope I'm right bc she said emily is shady but idkkkkkkk I've been so good with her n amanda g soooooo and ali is kinda just following me it seems. IM SCARED IM GETTING PLAYED but I'm sure that I'm actually going to get abbey out! hahahaha i did THAT! gwen starting her resume for the FTC

There's a very real chance I'm gonna get blindsided tonight, and there's not really anything I can do about it - if they were smart they'd take me or Abbey out right now. Actually if I was smart I'd take Abbey out since her and Amanda Lynn are basically locked in as an F2 alliance, but I'm just gonna play what I was dealt and in this round it looks like I'm going against Nayeli and Gwen - sorry y'all. The best part is that I can just blame this all on Ali no matter who goes home, unless if I go home then the girls clearly have something going on and... that's understandable lol who doesn't love an all girls alliance. If this really all is a big ruse and they're gonna blindside me, then props to them, but I also don't think that's coming just yet. I'm a loyal number and that's what people need right now, at least until the loyal number turns out to be the one calling the shots the whole time

Whew, this was a fast round!! There isn't too much to say... We won immunity bc my tribe is amazing at puzzles. I was worried we were gonna lose, since Michael could only do it on mobile and his time was almost an hour. YIKES! But he was able to knock of 30 minutes, so whew! I'm hoping that will cause people to overlook that I got the lowest score overall. I'm mot making myself look like a non-threat..... gotta work on that. Hoping I only need to survive one more tribal before merge!

I am so paranoid!!!!! Help me I swear to god if I leave tho I'll be shocked and I will bed for my return but please I hope I stay shwhwhwh

B o m b f e s s i o n a l

From what I've heard, we're splitting the votes between Nayeli and Gwen incase Nayeli uses the idol. If she does, all of our votes go to Gwen and she's gona. I hope it sticks to this because we need that idol out before merge.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I just want things to work out tonight. I don't want Nayeli to play her idol. And I have a feeling that even if she doesn't, my ties with Gwen will be cut forever considering she was our plan B should Nayeli play her idol. Ugh. At least I have Ali, Amanada G, Abbey, and Will on my side. I want merge. I feel shitty. Ugh. But I'm low key excited for tribal to be live because I look cute right now. Everyone should see me. I'm cute.

Eeek tribal coming up and I'm not in it, but I still don't feel quite comfortable in my current state of the game. Hoping a merge/twist happens soon or at least we can go on immunity runs. Really hoping our alliance doesn't go out 1 by 1 JFDKDSKF

https://survivorazores.tumblr.com/post/163847885008/tribal-7-nayeli-voted-out-3-2-2-abbey-and-gwen

Last Words:  i should have probably seen it coming since toph exposed me for having the idol. I almost abandoned the plan to go with abbey and vote out someone else when Will suggested it. maybe if i had done that i'd still be in the game but who knows.

Nayeli becomes the seventh person voted out of Survivor Athena: Azores

#episodes #imthegreatergood

[survivorbahamas]

EPISODE FIVE: “THINGS ARE GETTING SKINKY” - DANA

Alright. We have MERGED. I'm very excited to traverse this merge. I feel like I'm in the perfect spot in the perfect alliance. Kai, Brian, Dana, Lily, Willa, Nicholas, and myself are all going to work together. At least that's what I've heard so far. If we can make it to final 7, I will have so many different paths forward to final 3, which might lead to final one. Buckle your fucking seat belts.

I MADE THE MERGE? OH MY FUCKING WORD! WORK IT ADRIAN! WORK IT! This is like a monumental thing for me cause this is like my third overall Survivor game, and this... this is my first merge! I'm excited! And I really can't help but to be extremely giddy and like celebrate! Pop the champagne and pull those champagne flutes out cause we're gonna get litty tonight bitches!

So my mood is immediately killed when I see that Jenna is not with the tribe that is walking up to this merge. I'm extremely bummed because she was one of the people I had a GOOD previous connection with, and that I see Zach and Nicholas being the rats that they are here. Well, if anything I'm gonna do right by Jenna and eliminate them for you. Mark my words. You're gonna regret voting her out idiots.

Another thing Im really really super duper excited about is Dana! She was one of my closest allies on Ysabela 1.0 and that she's here with the Final 12... its exhilarating. If Jaiden didn't vote off Chips with his chaos idol back on Day 8, we would have been 6 strong and swamping through this final stretch of the game. Just literally destroying everything. Everyone On Day 1: NO FUCKING WAY THAT THEY WON THAT, THEY'LL GO TO TRIBAL NEXT!!!!! Ysabela 5: Its Day 19 and we've only lost one person. When are yall gonna put your money where your mouth is??????

Nicholas just sent a fake confessional form to the tribe. I'm voting him out next. 

i sometimes pick my nose on calls because no one can see me

Ahh my first ever game and i made merge, this is the best thing thats ever happened!!

Ok so there's this 7 person alliance coming together, and then out of NOWHERE Kai suggests we make another alliance. This is a BAD idea. But I am very happy that he came to me with it. It's a moronic plan that would get us out back to back at 10th and 9th. But him sharing it with me shows that he trusts me. That's important. I've told him that his idea sucks in as nice of a way as I can, and I've steered him away from it. We still have our 7, and people are CLOSE to me. I have such a beautifully clear path to the end. It can't be this easy.

I'm very pumped about this next tribal it's gonna be a fun one

I owe this game a good confessional, but that'd not what you're gettin. Ya girl has A LOT to say, but i'm exhausted and have to go to work in a few hours where I will probably die, i'll write something better later. All I have to say for right now is: 1) Skink better be the merge tribe name. I don't really want whatever reward is, though I do want whoever gets it to tell me what it is. Also I graduated from college and couldn't figure out that Skink didn't spell Kinks backwards but  whatever Lizards are the one true King and I love them, so does spelling really matter? 2) Jaiden and I are having a WILD conversation about the blind vote Eleuthera had when Chris was voted out. AND I AM SHOOK. I don't really think I trust Jaiden in this game, though I just told him I would look out for him, but after he told me this, maybe I need to look into him as an ally a little more closely. [6/5/17, 2:57:53 PM] jaiden: Ysabela was such a mess [6/5/17, 2:58:02 PM] jaiden: We all targeted each other on the new tribe lol [6/5/17, 2:58:12 PM] Dana Barry: did you really?! what happened?! [6/5/17, 2:58:24 PM] jaiden: well Chris was coming after me [6/5/17, 2:58:25 PM] Dana Barry: i’m glad i was alone if that was the case haha [6/5/17, 2:58:38 PM] jaiden: so I got an advantage in immunity and threw it and took him out [6/5/17, 2:58:50 PM] jaiden: I tricked ppl into splitting the votes [6/5/17, 2:59:03 PM] jaiden: Since no one wanted chris out [6/5/17, 2:59:12 PM] jaiden: he was also like trying to backstab bodhi I guess? [6/5/17, 3:01:42 PM] Dana Barry: oh fuk ok. so chris tried to target you and then you created a split. Who was the split between? [6/5/17, 3:02:02 PM] jaiden: okay so since it was a blind round I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT STUCK [6/5/17, 3:02:11 PM] jaiden: I think it was between bodhi and kai? [6/5/17, 3:02:16 PM] jaiden: but it could've also been Julia and kai [6/5/17, 3:02:54 PM] jaiden: I knew that kai was self voting bc he was asleep when tribal was about to happen [6/5/17, 3:03:03 PM] jaiden: then I believe Chris voted either myself or Julia [6/5/17, 3:03:07 PM] jaiden: Bodhi voted for Julia [6/5/17, 3:03:09 PM] jaiden: I voted for Brian [6/5/17, 3:03:28 PM] Dana Barry: fuck well that is a mess huh [6/5/17, 3:03:30 PM] jaiden: I played anotheradvantage I got from the challenge on rob which made them cast a self vote so he had votes [6/5/17, 3:03:47 PM] jaiden: Then I played the chaos idol so only Adrian, myself, and Chris had to draw rocks [6/5/17, 3:04:20 PM] Dana Barry: what the fuck. how many advantages did you have damn. what did the chaos idol do? [6/5/17, 3:04:51 PM] jaiden: everyone who receives votes is immune and then everyone else must draw rocks! which was the benefit of having a super split vote [6/5/17, 3:05:08 PM] Dana Barry: oh i see. so chris was actually rocked out [6/5/17, 3:05:13 PM] jaiden: yep [6/5/17, 3:05:26 PM] jaiden: #novotes [6/5/17, 3:05:29 PM] Dana Barry: fuck. well i hadnt heard any of that [6/5/17, 3:05:29 PM] jaiden: it was crazy [6/5/17, 3:05:36 PM] jaiden: because I haven't told anyone lol [6/5/17, 3:05:40 PM] Dana Barry: that is truly a mess [6/5/17, 3:05:42 PM] jaiden: I only told rob what really went down [6/5/17, 3:06:09 PM] jaiden: thankfully we never had to go to tribal again lol [6/5/17, 3:07:08 PM] Dana Barry: yeah wow that is convenient it sounds like everything was really disorganized Assuming any of this is true, which I'm honestly quite unsure about, WHY DOES THIS KID HAVE SO MANY ADVANTAGES. Like pls help a girl out, I got a disadvantage (Jaiden also says he has a disad that factors in "later in the game") and my golden hidden immunity idol princess that i'm really grateful I didn't waste in this last round by being a paranoid mess. But anyway WOW. Jaiden kind of always seemed like he could be a messy player, but not like this, I guess there was a reason tho if he felt targeted. I just want Jaiden to trust me so that when he inevitably joins up with Zach/ Julia (who he told me he trusts) I'll know if my name is gettin called out. I don't know either of them well, so I think it could be to my advantage to have someone who will presumably be working with them close to me. I'll write again later about current alliance stuff/ the tragic loss of queen Jenna/ any other drama that happens between now and then.

Ok so Zachary just added me to an alliance chat without asking. It's got Zach, Julia, Jaiden, and Nicholas. Nicholas and I are already in the majority alliance. Thanks, but no thanks!! I like being safe. I hate that I'm gonna have to flip on that new alliance tho. I don't want to make people feel betrayed.

Yes! All of the sheep on my tribe agreed to name the tribe Skink, and let me tell you THINGS ARE GETTING SKINKY. I want to focus this confessional on alliances starting right before merge with the Jenna vote and then moving into what is happening now with this godforsaken Chain Reaction challenge and an upcoming vote on the horizon. On swap Ysabela, the core alliance was me, Nicholas, Willa, and Lily. Even though I was INCREDIBLY skeptical about sneaky Nicholas, he was loyal to our alliance. I worked so hard to get him to be friends with me the day before the vote so he would vote with me, then basically pledged my undying loyalty to him after it was a 3-3 vote for Jenna vs. Willa. ALSO LET ME POINT OUT THAT I WAS RIGHT! I KNEW NICHOLAS AND JENNA WERE FRIENDS. Instincts are great huh? The fact that he stuck with Lily and I in the revote instead of swapping to save someone he's actually friends with definitely solidified a lot of trust (and ok fine, i'm sure the threat of rocks factored in there for him somewhere too). Also in the end, I actually liked Jenna and felt a lil bad voting her out because she was super nice and actually fun to talk to. My judgmental ass is retrospectively sorry. Now coming off of that messy tribal, I still trust the people in this alliance. They have connections that I don't have on the merge tribe, namely Kai. Bodhi told me that Kai said he was close with Lily and Willa from their original tribe and Bodhi and Kai are close now. This isn't a bad thing, but I have made it clear as fuck that I want to keep working with our core four over other people, including anyone from my original tribe or anyone from theirs, including Kai. Hopefully they can stick with that for a little, but i'm making sure to give myself other options. I am having a hard time building a connection with Kai. I'm going to give it a shot tomorrow, because if Bodhi is close with him, I definitely need to work on it. Idk what we're going to talk about, but i'll figure that out later because I'm casual and ~fun~ Bodhi has floated an alliance of us+ Willa, Kai, Nicholas, and Lily out there. That sounds good to me, and puts me in a good spot because I have close connections with a bunch of the people in that group. This chat hasn't been created because you couldn't pay me or Bodhi to put ourselves out there like that. Moving onto other relevant people: Gage: I will literally put him on a leash so he can't get taken by that manipulative bitch the Bermuda triangle again. I don't think he has a ton of relationships, including basically any on swap Ysabela because he never had to vote with us. he is giving me info he has from his exile idol search, so I wake up when he comes back and he sent me more clue information that he had got after being exiled a 2nd time. On 6/3/17, at 10:38 PM, Gage :) wrote: > missing just like you, > look to the flight with more than 2 > knowing where this treasure lays > may just be the cay I'm assuming he's telling me this as a way to build trust since he hasn't been able to prove it through a unified vote with me. Idk if he knows this info is useless to me unless I get exiled, but it's a nice gesture, also gives me time to think about where that idol might be. Then Gage says this: On 6/3/17, at 11:58 PM, Gage :) wrote: > Listen if you guys are willing I would love to work with y'all during the merge Meaning me, Lily, Willa, and Nicholas. And ya, i'm down for that because I'm closer to him than he is with at least Willa and Nicholas. To solidify him as a number, I probably need to get him included in a chat with us all, but idk how to do that yet. I want Gage to be my side ho that nobody else is looking too closely at, but also i'm NOT underestimating him, he won a main after all. Also RIP he brought up that Bodhi and I played in Great Lakes together, so I pretended I basically forgot that ever happened and that Bodhi and I never speak, which was probably the only real lie i'd told until I really started leaning into my lying bitch persona this afternoon (we'll get there). Zach: was pretty clearly isolated by the last vote on swap Ysabela, and tbh I haven't put effort into talking to him since he merge. I'll probably do that tomorrow, because I kno that boy has connections that I might need to exploit in this game. I want him to think i'm non-threatening and that I only voted Jenna because I was told I had to. I want him to think i'm a literal idiot goat. Brian: Boring? Absent? Uninterested? Idk we haven't talked enough, but he and Bodhi had a "close two" according to Bodhi, so I need to talk to him. Julia: Talked to me for the first time tonight! I like her more than on OG Ysabela, I know she is close with Zach, so not a bad person to be talkin to causally. Jaiden: Confuse me more pls. Even though Bodhi would kill to get rid of him, I kind of like the idea of keeping Jaiden close for a while because I think he is a loud personality that will cover for my own. Basically, the whole conversation I had with Jaiden was premised on this HUGE lie that I think he and I can go far in the game together if we keep an eye out for each other. [6/5/17, 2:50:53 PM] Dana Barry: i think if we look out for each other though we can do better [6/5/17, 2:51:13 PM] jaiden: I'll keep my eye out for you ;) [6/5/17, 2:53:11 PM] Dana Barry: I will too! I feel like it’ll be helpful since we were on opposite tribes and know some different people [6/5/17, 2:53:28 PM] jaiden: Okay hmm [6/5/17, 2:53:33 PM] jaiden: Well I trust Julia [6/5/17, 2:53:38 PM] jaiden: She's quiet but loyal [6/5/17, 2:56:10 PM] Dana Barry: that’s good. That’s honestly all you need in an ally. I didnt talk to her a ton on Ysabela, but also i talked to nobody soooo Look at miss me, proposing I watch out for someone whose safety isn't my concern, aren't I too kind? Jaiden is not likely to be one of my close allies at any point in the game, but that certainly doesn't mean I don't want to work with him. Especially because he seems to be loose with passing out information on advantages and votes, which I need access to. Now I know he and Julia are definitely close, confirming what I already expected that he could be working in a trio of sorts with Zach and Julia. anyway, I also did talk to people on Original Ysabela so.. ooops! FINALLY, Bodhi: We're friends, tru, but I haven't quite figured out what this means in the game yet and i'm bad at navigating it for sure. I've been pretty willing to share information with him so far, and I really do plan on being loyal to him. But also Bodhi is smart and tries to play with a new strategy every game he's in, which makes him a unpredictable. I keep accidentally almost telling him I have an idol, and then I always remember that even though I do trust him, I need to keep that to myself just in case. Whew I just love telling people secrets tho... especially at my own expense because im tragic. I told Bodhi a lie today, and I feel bad. Like really bad. Really Really bad. I don't even think I could physically tell another one because i've felt v guilty about it since. Basically Bodhi and I were talking about winning the reward (like way before I won), I can't find the receipts, but basically I was like ya i want someone to win who will tell me what the reward is if I don't win it myself, and Bodhi was like same. sooo..... Once I won it would have seemed h y p o c r i t i c a l not to tell Bodhi what it was. Initially I told Bodhi I wanted to tell the whole tribe what the reward was if I won to avoid creating suspicion around myself, but once it was a reward that narrowed down the idol board search, I decided I really couldn't have people knowing about that, including Bodhi. But I also have to tell him, so I lie because Bodhi and I confirmed have the same idol board so this s certainly a relevant clue for him. Logan tells me that my idol board number has a 5 in it as the clue. So... I tell the truth and also immediately lie. [6/5/17, 11:49:10 PM] Bo dhi: what was the clue? [6/5/17, 11:50:24 PM] Dana Barry: it has a 3 or 5 in it [6/5/17, 11:50:31 PM] Bo dhi: damn [6/5/17, 11:50:33 PM] Bo dhi: that's great [6/5/17, 11:50:41 PM] Dana Barry: so like that limits it a lot [6/5/17, 11:51:06 PM] Dana Barry: what #’s did u look at already. im lookin for  my list [6/5/17, 11:51:33 PM] Bo dhi: I don't think ive looked for any with a 3 or 5 [6/5/17, 11:51:46 PM] Bo dhi: I avoided 5s because they make the most sense to guess [6/5/17, 11:51:56 PM] Dana Barry: yeah that’s what i figured as well So essentially, I give myself a 1/16 shot at finding the idol (because I already searched 54 and know it isn't there) and I give Bodhi 1/31 shot. SO I STILL HELP HIM. I feel SO BAD lying to him, but I needed better odds and that was the best way to get them. Also there was some conversation (early in the game) about Bodhi not wanting an idol or considering sharing? Idk he seems like someone who would maybe think about giving me an idol if I were persuasive and the circumstances we correct, so Bodhi having a decent shot at finding the idol is still ok for my game. I know Kai has this idol board too from Bodhi, and if Bodhi is feeding him any help with it, i'll lose it, so hopefully that isn't happenin. OK BLESS, I'M FINISHED! ALL THE TEA IS OUT THERE!

i think im going home. im just paranoid. thank god lily isnt voting though because she's someone im kind of against. I have some people i like tho ^_^ i like juia rae, nicholas, jaiden, bodhi hehe. lets hope for the best

im so happy i won immunity!!! im ready to slither through this tribal and then see what happens after! i really want to make sure that dana/julia/zach/jaiden/adrian/lily all make it through! they are like my people in this game but i am also close with others so i think i have put myself in a great position moving forward yeehaw!!!

Damn I know I'm safe but it would've been nice to win immunity

I wish I kept Julia and got rid of Zach now, the four headed monster of Zach, Julia, Jaiden and Nicholas is gonna run this game... hopefully not but if that's final 4 I won't be surprised at all

Dana and I just solidified our alliance a lot. We both care enough about each other that we're not gonna be voting each other out, even if we need to in order to win. I'm going to the end with Dana even if she can beat me. We've revealed a lot of information, and DANA HAS AN IDOL? ok wow. She also told me about a 3 person alliance of her, Jaiden, and Nicholas. This is exciting. I know more than before, and I know who to protect/bring in for future votes.

I think Julia is going home? Idk I'm too tired for this honestly.

BRIAN JUST CAME OUT ABOUT NOT BEING HEIDIK TO THE TRIBE CHAT Adrian isn't here right now, but it's so fucking funny that this happened. Brian said "It's worth noting that I didn't start this rumor," which is true. I was the one who threw this out, but I don't want Adrian to know that, because then he'll be mad at me instead of Heidik. I was freaking out, like, is he gonna throw me under the bus??? But then Kai said "I don't know who did tbh" so I seized the opportunity to say "it was more of a group thing." Crisis averted. Now Adrian won't hate me. Hopefully by the time I'm at FTC and he's on the jury, he can realize how funny it is that he believed Brian Heidik played ORGS. For now, I just have to wait, and play it by ear. But I'm bringing this up at FTC, that's hilarious.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W6DaplcXlSU&feature=youtu.be

In summary, I am scared. I planted the seed in Nicholas's head that the biggest threat in this game is Brian. Honestly I just wanted it to sprout next round and grow a beautiful flower but instead, nope, it popped today and I got Nicholas to turn on Brian instead of one of my closest allies, Gage. I also got Nicholas to go against Dana and go for Brian which is ??? literally unheard of. I thought Nicholas loved Dana but he's leaving her out of ARGUABLY the biggest vote of the game right now. So now it just lies in the hands of Julia Rae. I'm PRAYING that she comes online and votes him out so that our six (me, Zach, Julia, Nicholas, Adrian, and Gage) can get to the top five (bc Zach is hella scary and I want him out at like final nine) isn't like I want. If that's the case, I'm literally set to make it to the final three and all that stands in my way is this fricking tribal council!!! FUCK. I'm impressed at how good I'm playing this round because usually I'd be running and screaming at everyone, ripping my damn hair out and bawling my eyes out at everything going to shit. I really hope everyone stays true to their word and I don't get blindsided because I did NOT just come this far, having been able to pull THIS off, to get sent to the jury. We just have about an hour and a half left to sit through patiently before something big happens... I hope it's really Brian.

LOL I LOVE LOVE LOVE DANA BUT THAT WAS I C O N I Q U E I'd love to see Jaiden win this game so it's a shame he needs to go home ASAP. I'm sure Dana would love to see him at ponderosa! Ugh this season is too much for my little heart to handle

Well, there goes any semblance of a chance I had at actually winning this season. I'm gonna start picking up the pieces of my game. Maybe I'll just pretend to have been the victim in all of this, truly, so they don't vote my ass out next.

Dana is the merge boot. Again. POOR FUCKING DANA :( <3333 I'm going to miss working with her. She's one of my favorite people, and not having her around is going to suck. At least she gave me a TON of information on the state of the game before leaving. I know how to find the idol in the bermuda triangle. That is significant. I also know how I am percieved. ALSO significant. I love Dana and I miss her already. That being said, I need to move on. Brian, Kai, and Lily are going to need to become stronger allies of mine. I can win this, I just need to get to the end

My name is Julia Rae and I have something to say... Sorry I've just always wanted to start off with that I think Jaiden is a fat cunt and he needs to go home next. He ruined my entire alliance's chances at winning this game and he's so smug about it. It was a bad move to take out Dana and he knows it. His ass is grass next eviction.

Making my final confessional after I just got voted out. Try not miss your favorite queen too much, ok? A disclaimer (written after I wrote this confessional and realized how harsh it sounded): I just finished writing this, and I’m already not mad anymore because this is a game and thus anger is v temporary. Also, everyone in the game will certainly know where the anger came from at the time without much justification needed. So buckle up and get ready to read the meanest thing you've read by a genuinely nice girl @me. So here's the thing about me: It's pretty hard to make me mad. In a game, it's nearly impossible because this is a game, it's whatever. I am rarely reactionary. You can wrong me, and as long as there is solid logic behind it, I am understanding--even when it means I get voted out. THIS TIME I AM MAD AND I WILL NOT APOLOGIZE FOR IT. Maybe it's that I was better positioned both socially and strategically then I ever have been before (though that would have certainly caught up to me quickly), or maybe it is the fact that someone who I don’t view as a competent player was the one who did it to me.   Listen, it didn't take me getting voted out by Jaiden's single sorry ass vote for people to know he is the messiest lose cannon this game has seen. At least I can take solace in the fact that I don't even need to worry if Jaiden will get voted out soon, because it is inevitable. I mean, dude, thank god the advantage fairy blessed you, because otherwise you would have had no shot at acting the way you are in this game and even being around long enough to see yourself play this badly. Relying on advantages to make illogical decisions as "power moves" is not admirable. Playing advantages at a strategic moot point in the game just makes you look like a jack ass. And oh, it did just that tonight, Jaiden. I think the best way I can really lean into Jaiden's absentminded game is first by going into all the terrible bullshit he put out into this game today. He starts out today by telling me the names he's heard (most of which he self-generated, I presume): Gage, Bodhi, Zach, Julia, and Adrian. Ok fair enough, that brings us to 5/10 eligible people. THEN he proceeds to ask me how I feel about voting for Brian or Kai. Now we're at 7/10, 2 of the remaining 3 are us. Then for some unknown ridiculous reason he tells me that even though there is a solid majority to get rid of Adrian, the two of us should throw votes at Julia, just the two of us, to break up a mystery "plan" that Zach clearly never had. JAIDEN THAT IS MESSY AS FUCK. a) Why would I EVER single myself out with you, when for the entire day Nicholas, Bodhi, and Gage (amongst others i'm sure) were all similarly being misled by your wildly unnecessary and e x t r a plans. b) THERE IS A SOLID MAJORITY- WHAT ARE YOU DOING. Now i'm going to go to the most disingenuous and poorly crafted excuse of an apology that Jaiden sends me after I'm eliminated by his single vote. We're going to deconstruct it, because that's the easiest way to see how logically fallacious his "strategy" is. I don't even need to have access to the "so much more" information Jaiden claims went into this decision to know that he is certainly going to regret it. On 6/7/17, at 9:54 PM, jaiden wrote: > okay I will only tell you a brief summary of why I did it, because I don't want to like seem like I'm pandering for your vote or something already. but literally...everyone said you were their best friend. they would ignore what I was saying because you had a significantly better connection with them, and I'm playing with people I know outside of this game, yet they still trusted you so much more than they did me. There is so much more that I'll explain to you when I get voted out, but it wasn't out of pettiness or to look like the top dog, but things went down where I had to make the move or lose so many other peoples' respect for not voting with them. I am so, so sorry, but I think it was just the right time for my game 😞 a) Pandering for my vote? Absolutely laughable. I would be shocked to see Jaiden close to FTC. Also you think there is any chance you could ever persuade me to give you a jury vote? I would probably quit jury sooner. b) Everyone said they were my best friend? HMM. WEIRD. First of all, that's not true. Ask me if I ever said more then 20 words to Brian, Zach, Julia, or Kai. But then let's assume that Jaiden is miraculously right and i'm tight with everyone... If people like me and not you Jaiden and the two of us are very clearly working together... HOW DO YOU BENEFIT FROM ELIMINATING ME!? c)"Wasn't out of pettiness or to look like the top dog"? Pls you power hungry queen. d)"I had to make the move or lose so many other peoples' respect for not voting with them"? Oh boy, I have a lot of critiques of this part. Subpoint 1: You could have just voted for a fucking rando. Can't pick between Brian or Adrian without betraying people? How about you just cast a random ass vote for me then or literally anyone else. Then I don't go home and you can just let everyone know you didn't know who the vote was for, you got confused, or that you didn't know that a random vote would be the deciding factor in who stayed vs. who went. Very explainable and forgivable actions. Subpoint 2: You, ironically, claim that you care about respect in the game. Yet, for some reason you think you didn't lose respect by making a poorly thought out "power move" completely by yourself and discounting everyone else’s votes for who they actually wanted to go home? Hysterical! Combine this with the fact that you think people like me, and you've lost a lot of people's respect making this move. Subpoint 3: WHY THE IDOL AND WHAT A BAD TIME TO USE IT. Save it for a time when it can really change things up in the game (that's why I, mistakenly, didn't play my idol tonight). There are 12 people left in the game, unless you're going home, why are you playing an idol. Sure, maybe you buy yourself 1 more night of not having to make a decision about who to side with. But Jaiden didn't save himself with the idol, he wasn’t at risk, and he didn't give himself any leverage in making a decision about who to align with. What. A. Poor. Choice. You may be thinking, what else do I have to laugh about after Jaiden's tragic misstep? I was honestly planning on moving forward with him in the game. I was being VERY honest with him and not many other people were or they saw clear limits to how long they could work with Jaiden. SO GL WITHOUT MY LOYALTY PAL. The best part? Let's say someone else had been clocked instead of me. I'm still objective enough to think that this was a BAD PLAY for Jaiden and that will certainly keep me laughing long after this vote. Finally, to conclude my last Confessional, I want to thank the hosts and Bodhi. You guys were some of my favorite hosts yet, so thank you so much for everything! Bodhi, you are easily the best ally I've ever had. I think we successfully tricked everyone in the game into thinking that we weren't close from Great Lakes and that we weren’t talking to each other all day, huh? I've never felt so good about an alliance that I literally revealed all of my cards, and that's because you're more than an ally, but you're an amazing friend. I know that, given the opportunity, we would have gone to FTC together like we promised and and WITHOUT QUESTION I will fight the rest of the jury to the death for you to win this game if you are at FTC. Wishing you the best of luck inside and outside of this game! 

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM HIGHTAILING IT OUT OF TRIBAL COUNCIL AND I'M SEEING DAY 20 and 21. 6-4-1 YIKESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSs

But really though, literally I don’t see how I am viewed as a threat? I haven't won anything or there is nothing in my pockets that I would use. That is literally the second time Jaiden has to use something on me to like save me, and I'm still shaking at how many of these people really want me gone. Well, sorry to say I guess, I'm still here and I'm still breathing this game. Like so I'm not gonna go to people- if they feel like complete assholes after voting for me, they should expect another thing coming because its one thing to be safe after a special idol is played, but another alien feeling when you have to confront 5 of them back at camp, and like have to socialize with them again.... Im ready to make a fantastic firework show appear. Sit back and relax cause its gonna be explosive the next few days. 

So, I'm talking to Jaiden and two emotions are like bubbling inside of me: happiness and anger. I'm really elated that he like used another item to like save me, but really angered at the fact that this is the 2nd time he's kept me in the dark about a vote AND eliminated 2 former Ysabela. Like dude? If you're gonna target a Ysabela, at least tell Julia and I that you're gonna do it!?!? I appreciate the grand gesture, really I do, but I would love to be correct in the vote for once. That's 0/2 in correct votes for Tribal Councils, and I'm not here for it. Not at all.

I'm planning on doing a very careful job at this challenge. Touchy subjects is easily the most important immunity challenge in any game. It is SO CRUCIAL not to win, but it's also crucial to make it seem like you tried. This game is going to reveal our guesses for each one, so I've gotta try as hard as I can not to offend anyone too deeply. I was planning on just doing the exact wrong answer on everything that isn't extraordinarily base line, but that is no longer an option. QUESTION ONE: “Who do you want to still be friends with once the game is over?” Ok, so this question is incredibly important to guess someone that isn't the majority, but needs to hear this confirmation. Zachary and I mess around so much, and I'm acting like I hate the guy. Throwing this answer in here might give him confidence that I genuinely like him outside of our comedic endeavors. Do I genuinely like him? I like him enough to want his jury vote, and to have some fun bantering around, but there is no emotional connection. That's alright. QUESTION TWO: “Who should’ve been voted out premerge?” This question is important to not offend anyone with. I'm going to be writing down Jaiden because the conversations that I've had with him make it clear that I don't care for his game one bit. This is a safe bet for me because we've discussed this, and he thinks that I have a small amount of respect for his game. This is a falsehood, but whatever answer gets me further, ya know? QUESTION THREE: “Who should’ve been the first juror?” This one is easy. Adrian had the majority of the votes until the idol was played, so by saying Adrian, I'm merely saying that I wish the idol hadn't been played. QUESTION FOUR: “Who are you surprised to see make it this far?” This fits in perfectly with how I've treated Jaiden to his face. QUESTION FIVE: “Who would you trust with your life?” This is an awful question. There is no good answer. I would trust Lily the most, but that might show how close we are. I'm putting down Julia because it makes a little bit of sense, and she's barely active, so I don't think people will care. I've had conversations with Julia about real life stuff that have made me feel very supported, and hopefully Julia will appreciate me putting her down. QUESTION SIX: “Who is the fakest?” This is a cute little answer because Zachary and I joke around about being fake with eachother. QUESTION SEVEN: “Who do you sometimes forget is playing?” Julia is my answer, because our conversations usually revolve around completely things unrelated to Bahamas. She wont be offended, sometimes she forgets she's playing too. QUESTION EIGHT: “Who is the most inactive?” For this one, I'm gonna throw out Julia as well. In reality, the answer is going to be Gage, but Gage and I talk a bunch, and Julia won't be offended. QUESTION NINE: “Who’s playing for second?” Gonna call Jaiden out for having shitty jury management. QUESTION TEN: “Who would you most like to see win the season?” This morning I told Kai that if I don't win I hope he does. I'm trying to convince him to go to the end with me because I want him to win so much. I'm gonna offer to help him at FTC, which is total BS, but if I can do it subtly enough it might just work. QUESTION ELEVEN: “Who is going to be the most bitter juror?” I want everyone to think that I'm going to be such a bitter juror that they don't want to be the one to take me out. QUESTION TWELVE: “Who think they’re running the game?” Who THINKS* they're running the game. I want to fuck over Jaiden a little bit here, just to gain some more trust. QUESTION THIRTEEN: “Who actually is running the game?” OOF. This is a hard question to answer. I can't say myself because that puts a target on me. I think I'm going to say Jaiden, because there's a certain amount of truth to it. QUESTION FOURTEEN: “Who is going to be voted out next?” I'll say Jaiden again, just because that's what the majority wants. QUESTION FIFTEEN: “Who is the nicest?” This is another loaded question. Lily told me that she'd talked to and made connections with everyone but Adrian and one other person who I've forgotten, so I'll say her just to put a bit of a target on her back. QUESTION SIXTEEN: “Who do you want to “go missing” next round?” I'm gonna say Julia because I've been complaining about her spamming the group chat with photos. QUESTION SEVENTEEN: “Who is most likely to be a catfish?” This one is hard. I'm going to go with Zachary because he reminds me of Eric. QUESTION EIGHTEEN: “Who is most likely to be blindsided?” I think I HAVE to say my self on this one. I want to seem less confident than I am. Although I wouldn't be that surprised if I were blindsided kinda soon. QUESTION NINETEEN: “Who is too nice for their own good?” This one is also hard. It implies that I'm gonna be voting this person out for being a threat. Also, it's dumb to have this AND “who is the nicest.” They're the same answer except for the social politicking. I'll go with Adrian here because he's so damn gullible. QUESTION TWENTY: “Out of the prejurors, Madison, Kylie, Chips, Mitch, Rob, and Jenna, who most deserves to still be here?” This answer is easy. Attack Jaiden's worst move by saying Chips. QUESTION TWENTY-ONE: “Who often gets credit for things they don’t deserve?” Brian is getting credit for the Brian Heidik thing, but that is MINE. Although I'll say that it's because it was a group effort, because I don't want Adrian blaming me. QUESTION TWENTY-TWO: “Who has the most friends?” Nicholas has pregame friends and is friends with everyone else. EASY answer

[3:41 PM] zachary rae: On 2017-06-08, at 3:38 PM, Bo dhi wrote: > and what kind of freak spells Zack with an h? “bodhi"

I'm not fucking delusional. THAT BEING SAID, Jaiden has offered a final 3 deal of Julia myself and him. That is IDEAL for me. Those are literally the two biggest goats in the game, I'd win in a landslide. The question is, how do I get to the end with them? Because I don't think they'd be willing to take me in all honesty. I'd love to be able to trust Jaiden, but that's the stupidest thing anyone can do.

NICHOLAS JUST OFFERED TO QUIT THE GAME IF I'M EVER IN TROUBLE <3

Ok I'm explaining my Adrian vote to him. I think I've convinced him we're still good. He thinks he's convinced me that he saved me at the premerge vote, which isn't entirely wrong, but he keeps bringing it up. He believes he's got me directly in his palm, and that's what I want. I want him to think I rely on him, and that I only voted him because I'm weak and went to the majority. He says I'm one of the only people he likes in this game. I dont know how true that is, but I do know that most people in this game like me. I think I'm in a great enough position that I don't have to make any real substantial moves and I'll win at the end against nearly anyone. Let's hope for the best!

I enjoy lying to Adrian. He's gullible enough that it just makes talking to him so much fun.

Not getting picked for any of the touchy subjects sucks ass bc it proves that I'm irrel, but it is also good bc there ain't no target type thing on my back that this challenge exposes. All Jaiden, Adrian and Brian as expected. And Lily who I forgot was in the game despite her being a close ally bc she went missing for a day. I'm a mess. I coulda won if I remembered she existed lmao.

i didnt win anything and it saddens me. I love the results though! i'm probably going but i love everyone and ill make more later

touchy subjects went perfectly. I'm very proud. People dont think of me as a threat as much as I had expected. Everyone is in a position where they want to work with me right now, so while I'm gone this round, hopefully some alliances can form with me in the middle. Ideally Lily will be going home this round. She's so incredibly likable, and I'd like to not be the one to vote her out. I'll be fine with anyone leaving though, I just know it wont be me.

[2017-06-09, 2:00:29 PM] zachary rae: also im voting out gage [2017-06-09, 2:04:51 PM] zachary rae: jaiden: its coward if you dont come back!! [2017-06-09, 2:04:55 PM] zachary rae: if i wouldve got this chance [2017-06-09, 2:04:58 PM] zachary rae: my bitch ass aint coming back [2017-06-09, 2:46:59 PM] zachary rae: These votes have been like silent,,,, but deadly [2017-06-09, 2:47:44 PM] zachary rae: ive been hearing jaiden, and our group is gage. If it goes to 5-5, and a revote is required, i’ll see if one of them are flipping. If I get the vibe that like… they aren’t… my bitch ass might flip because altho being rocked out woud be funny, its like [2017-06-09, 2:47:51 PM] zachary rae: but then again id still be in the minority

I miss Bodhi 😭 I trust him most within this game and it's so hard with out him :( WHENEVER WILL YOU RETURN BODHI

Conversations are weird right now. I think I'm going to get some votes today. I don't know if I'll go home or not, but we'll see!! I'm trying to get rid of Gage because he's just such a threat right now and I don't see the purpose in keeping him if he's able to get by so stealthily under the radar. I hope on a revote I can flip Kai and like, send Gage home so we don't have to draw rocks, but we'll see. I definitely need to form like a counter-resistance to the Nicholas/Julia/Zach trio and I hope Adrian is the one person I can trust to help pull that off. I feel like, socially, I'm in a decent position with everyone, but strategically no one is going to want to keep me around. I hope Bodhi doesn't come back because then it means we have no chance at rocks and every chance at me going home. At least with a tie vote, there is a minute possibility that someone flips and sends out Gage, which wouldn't happen without there being ten votes. I'm lying, cheating, stealing, backstabbing, blindsiding, screaming, crying, kicking right now. All of those things to make sure I don't get fucking voted out already!!! Fuck my entire life. I'll be content with drawing the rock that sends me out so long as it means I don't get voted out and blindsided.. plus I don't think I've gotten any votes thus far which is pretty cool.

idk whats happening but i hope i get rocked out lol

Okay,,,, so basically Gage is trying to convince me that flipping back and forth between alliances is the best idea for our game. And like it's so easy to just SAY "yeah that is the best idea, let's do it" to him because then you'd think he has no suspicion that I'm against him. Here's my dilemma. I need ammunition against him if the vote ties tonight. I don't want to go into a possible tie without any way to defend me, and I think he might use my agreement to flip on Kai as a way to get things against me. Gage and I might be friends, but I'm not convinced that this is a friendship that goes above gameplay. He's going to play me and that's something I'm going to have to do to him, too. Sorry Gage if you were being genuine and I'm just being paranoid, but I'm here TO PLAY AND SLAY. With that being said, I'm changing up the conversation. Offering reasons why doing the flipper game is bad for the long-term. I'm actually trying to convince him that I'm invested in our duo making it to the end and I'm offering ways to suggest how we could make it last with aligning ourselves with Brian/Kai/Lily/Willa/Bodhi. I think there are more significant cracks with them than with Julia/Zach/Nicholas/Adrian where we have a better chance at slipping in. None of what I say is something I completely agree with, but its the best move if Gage and I wanna stick around. I don't even feel bad about getting Gage to believe I'm invested in our alliance. If this blows up in my face and we go to rocks and someone on my true side (J/Z/N if you've lost track) goes to the jury, then at least I made as good of a play as I could. The next step is to make Kai flip over so rocks don't even happen and Gage goes home on that revote. Sorry buddy if you're reading this!!! I hate being a snake but I'm surrounded by rats and you're just the tastiest one.

So much is going on. My alliance is now with gage and bodhi as well as Brian kai and Willa from my old tribe. But since bodhi has decided to not show up for this vote who knows what's gonna happen. I'm thinking adrian is going but I actually really don't think it should be Adrian this vote. Sorry Zach I love you, but really need to be going. Zach julia and Nicholas could easily work together and get something going with others. I feel like it's going to be okay but I wouldn't be surprised if this vote was the vote that changed the game for me and some others as well.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOtYpDmUk9o&feature=youtu.be

As a past survivor: timezones casualty, I feel awful for sleepy Kai.

The most iconic battle of all... a tie between the game's two biggest forces... only one of them can survive... unless everyone draws rocks like an idiot... but who are these two legendary players??? ...Gage and Adrian! (yea rich coming from me but w/e) For real if we go to rocks for these two we deserve to go home. Unless it's me then I was robbed. Nicholas, please flip... :{

Ok holy shit. I just got everyone to tie up the vote. I'm just hoping for a rock draw. I'm going to be good no matter what when I come back, but at FTC I'll be able to say that I was the reason that vote was so chaotic, and that I did it without any danger of going home. BRIAN APPARENTLY PLAYED AN IDOL OF SOME SORT?????? AND I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS YET. It better be good for me

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Episode 2 “#NewQueenInTown” - Lily

hey hoes so ill do my first impressions or w/e chrissa- kween! i was hoping she'd stay awhile but u know when someone wants to be elimed then u gotta! dana- idk ha!hevjkbev i dont remember a dana in any of these so! idk how she plays so yikes but i wouldnt be surprised if shes close w the other newer people lexo- im love her! im hoping we can do #that for callie tru matt- i played a game with him once and he voted me out so :/ but i think we can work well together tbh mitchell- hes malaysia and thats all i know, im not sure how he played in malaysia and lowkey the only times i ever interacted with him he kinda annoyed me gtg monty- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh i love monty, i know he will be one of my closest allies for sure! i cant wait to slay w him linus- hes from winnipeg and he seems sneaky to me and hes a newer school player so he could be close w the others ryan tiddie palmer - i love my dadt sdhvbdfv but also im a little wary of him bc i have a feeling he would love to vote me out but as of rn i need him so, we'll see zak- i voted him out in palau and thats all i got kjehfvbjr i didnt even kno they played a game before anyway hes also part of the potential new school alliance

also heres the vote tea, basically mine and lexis names were being thrown around and i was like??? we aint even do anything so then we started throwing zaks and linus name around. anyway me and mont were freaking out bc we needed 2 more people to get majority and vote zak and save me and lex, so we recruit chrissa and we make an alliance chat w ha. we call and talk about who we can pull in and such. so come the next mornin i start talkin to matt who said he was down for voting zak. honestly i trust matt he seems more trustworthy than other people plus i dont think he knows a lot of the tribe members tru so if i keep him close then my alliance should be good tru. anyway i talk to lexi to figure stuff out, and i talk to zakriah and basically tell him that im willing to vote lexi next round or w/e, mind u this is after chrissa anounces that she wants to be voted out, and well hopefully by telling him this i can gain his trust a little and get some tea from ha. also zak knows that me mont and lexi were targetting him??? honestly idk who couldve told him unless it was chrissa??? no one else shouldve known tru, anyway so i get the tea from that mitchell is the one who told him that he heard my name being thrown around and kjefbv like i dont wanna confrontational or anything but i went to mitchell and asked him about it and he was "like honestly it was like a grapevine thing tbh like nobody was like "...how bout karen" it was more of "i've heard Karen"" LIKE??????????????????????????????? REALLY BITCH THAT DONT ANSWER MY QUESTION. grapevine my ass, like thats what zak told me too, like !!!!!!!!! just tell me bc if u dont then im gonna assume that ur ass is the one started the whole "i heard" thing nnnnn anyway!!!! im just relieved that chrissa is asking to be voted out bc this couldve been way more stressful aaaaaahhhhh  honslee i was scared this was all a ploy to throw votes but i genuinely believe ha and i love chrissa too much to ever disrespect her wishes so :/ bye bye chrissa we hardly knew ye!

Not much has happened so far. We won the first challenge, which is awesome, and kinda gives me this fire to keep winning just so that we can keep beating the vets. It's kind of fun to be the underdogs (considering we all have much less experience than the vets) and to win. As long as we don't get a flash challenge, I'm not too worried about how well we do. Or at least, how well I do. I just don't want to be the person with the lowest score. Anyways, on day 2 or something Lily messages me and says we should be in an alliance, since we knew each other from a chat. So I said sure, and she gives me an idol clue she found! Holy shit! Lucky for her, I don't have any other alliances, otherwise I could so easily just play her. I don't have any plans to though - she seems very trusting and kind and I respect that. I just have to be careful it doesn't get me in trouble as long as we're aligned. So I go to search for the idol, with the clue she gave me in mind, and somehow end up finding the exact same clue she did. Hopefully we don't make the same mistake again next round.

https://youtu.be/hCcal7QtHWY

OMG okay so first off... Daisy comes to me saying she likes Jacob. Okay. Perfect. He's my ride or die anyways, so now we have a mutual ally we can lean on, and she says she wants to be in an alliance. Cool. Even better. Let's officialize this shit.

So Daisy makes the chat, and she says "alright Johnny and Jacob, let's add Willow and Luca" and I'm internally freaking out with Jacob on the side here, and Jacob and I are losing it in PMs and we're like "I think that wouldn't be the BEST idea, just because adding people late can make them think that they're going to be 4th and 5th" So Daisy is going to stick with us three being a f3.

Little does Daisy know that Willow wanted a four person alliance with me and Jacob already, and it didn't include Daisy, so it'll be easy for Willow to think she's on the in, and same for Daisy, which can be GREAT for later.

All I know is I'm going to have to do a little educating to Daisy on how to play this game, and making an alliance with three people and then adding two people LATE is no beuno sweetheart... Thank God Jacob and I prevented that one. At least we know we're in a core for now, and we can start picking off the weaker rookies............... or maybe we go after someone who looks like they can be smarter, and an independent player. Maybe Aro for example? Let's see what happens after immunity (giggle)

So after Chrissa announced she wanted to be voted out, Karen and I were able to talk to each other for the first time this game. I pushed that I didn't want to target her if it wasnt out of hate, and targeting each other based on lack of communication could be easily fixed - after all, what's better than an unlikely duo? I'm in two right now if I'm not being played: as far as I know Linus wants to work with me to get out Karen, and Mitchell also thinks that's what I want. However, I want me an ally in Karen, and Lexi or Mo's gotta go next.

Something terrible happened to me irl yesterday and Im in a bad headspace right now. I really dont feel like talking to anyone besides Luca and Johnny(whos actually pretty cool) so I cant wait to get to the swap. I tried connecting with Kaya a bit but she doesn't seem to like me very much. I have a terrible migraine and everything kinda sucks right now but I'll fight through it. I can't wait for the time when I eventually look back on this confessional and cringe at the angst lmao

I low-key hope I get taken out of this challenge early so I don’t have to sit around all night doing it, but the only way that’d be able to happen is everyone just went after me to start the challenge, and no one knows I’m good at live challenges except Chrissa, and she’s bye bye

Aw Dana assigned me to shoot my fuckbuddy aromal in the first round of the IC :( like the opposite of the hunger games up in here :(

This paintball challenge is so fucking FUN! Like, it's so cool to keep on my toes and constantly be dodging/shooting paintballs. It's like my own sort of little endurance challenge. I just have to be sure I don't miss any dodges... That's why I changed the conversation notification settings to notify me every time my name is said. :P But it's fun, anyway. And if I lose, I can blame my team and use the machete I got. >:3c

So... let's play catch up!

Chrissa got voted out unanimously like she ASKED TO. It sucked bc I liked Chrissa but she was a lil strategically problematic so... whatevs. BUT then Karen starts being like "oh would you have voted for me? where'd my name come from?" and being kind of aggressive about it so... that turned me off. Honestly yeah I would've voted your ass out, you ignored me and continue to do so lol, but after that? I'm set. I think my allegiance with Dana is solidified by my complaining to her about Karen, and honestly? I see her as my #2 in this game.

Matt, the other option for my #2, also tells me he's ready to make a move  against the Karen/Monty/Lexi coalition when we next go to Tribal Council. We're slaying this challenge so that won't be tonight, but when it does, Karen's ass is grass if I've got anything to say about it!!

Karen and Lexi still make minimal effort to talk with me. Pretty much nobody has been 1-on-1 talking with me throughout this whole 3-hour-long-so-far challenge which is also kind of ridiculous but??? What are you gonna do. I'm still sick so hopefully when I recover I'll start schmoozing like I usually do and stop oozing like I don't wanna do.

also fuk u mangrove swamp

RETWEET IF YOU ARE ON TEAM LA NEEDS TO GO THE FUCK TO SLEEP.

This challenge is murdering me. 4.5 hrs left SO.

So, I quit during the paintball challenge. I was the last person left on my tribe and I just couldn't see myself pulling off a win, not against five people - I did manage to get one out on my own but it seemed very doubtful I could have gotten them all. I'm not sure how I feel about throwing it like that, I probably could have faked it and just posted a shoot at the 6 mark which might have been better for my game, cause I'm not sure how that will effect how the vets see me from this point on, or if my tribe finds out and gets mad at me for it, but Y'ALL SHOULD BE HAPPY I DIDN'T MAKE US SUFFER THROUGH ANOTHER FOUR HOURS OF THAT @ VETS. I hate giving up/losing but at the same time, this is only the second challenge of the game. If this has been an individual immunity challenge, damn right I would have stuck it out but it's still early on and I think this vote will be pretty straight forward. IF I manage to get voted out I'll feel so stupid for throwing it but as of right now I trust my alliance and feel safe. (famous last words)

So now Star wants to talk to me...... Tooo little too late bud. You've been talking to the least amount of people this whole game, you didn't even help with the immunity challenge, and now you're coming to me all worried about the vote? Sorry you're in this situation, but you made your own bed, and now you have to lay in it. 

On a different note, I was talking to Jacob, and we were thinking that two of us should throw our votes onto someone else, just in case of an idol play, but honestly, I don't wanna be that paranoid freak always worrying about an idol, but I also don't wanna a repeat of the last tumblr survivor I played in, where I got idol'd out of the game, so I'm trying to be careful. I might talk to Daisy about it, but I don't want to come off as paranoid, so it'll be an interesting talk if I choose to have it...

(Slightly later)

OMG LILY JUST TOLD ME SHE HAS THE IDOL I'M SCREAMING!! Now I don't have to worry about a fucking idol play. Not only that, but she tells me that I'm the only person in the game that knows about the idol, which is huge for me because it means that she trusts me the most, and this can be a relationship outside of Jacob, Daisy, Willow and Luca, so this is really good. I am going to focus on forming a broship with Aro too, just to have that connection, but I think that I'm starting to become very trusted in the tribe, which is good. 

I know my struggle is going to be when we switch tribes, and just hoping that the luck of the draw doesn't put me onto a tribe with bad numbers, but even if I do, I think I'll be able to charm my way out of it. The fact that I want to vote out most of these people, and they still continue to prove to me that they trust me the most is CRAZY, but Lily is definitely going to be a tool I'm going to utilize in the game for a long long time, and I hope she and her idol make it deep enough in the game to benefit me.

Sorry... rambling. My struggle now is whether or not to tell Jacob. I don't want to lose his trust later in the game by him finding out about this idol, and him knowing that I knew about it. I think I'm going to tell him about it later tonight, and I hope that he'll be thrilled, but he isn't even going to be back for day change... At least now I know that I don't have to worry about the idol, especially because I doubt there are more than one idols out there, from my specific tribe, so definitively, it's bye bye Star time :(

Jesus.... Karen and I survived that round.. In what world is that actually realistic? But we did and thankfully with little issues like messy thrown votes or Chrissa playing an idol on herself after misting us all. I was really nervous that it was all an actual trap because I have seen it happen before and boy is it terrifying but bless her heart for being true to us all.

The challenge was one that I have won before so I was not too nervous about the whole workings of the challenge but I was nervous about how long the challenge would go. I was so tired yesterday for some reason and I do not know if I could have lasted until 2 am with very little break. I would have tried my best of course so I could make sure Karen and I were safe but there is only so much a single person can do which L.A. ended up proving. The Veterans won the challenge THANK GOD and so we do not have to worry about one of us being voted out bless. Right now I would def consider Karen my final 2 because we do share the common homie of Callie and I do my best to trust Callie's judgement most of the time (the other times... I just can not defer from what god wants). My only issue is that Karen has a lot of friends on this tribe that I fear she might pick over me such as Monty and that makes me a bit scared of her but right now we sort of need each other in terms that we are both the most threatening ones on our tribe at the moment so if she gets rid of me, she does not have many people to hide behind and I have been known to be a very good meat shield for those that take advantage of it so here is to praying she is actually my final 2.

Okay I love my tribe now. Seriously though I was only disliking them because I was too mentally checked out to socialize. They're all really sweet people and omg it was all i could do to stop them from pronouncing Zaks name wrong lmao during the challenge. Even though I outta be pissed that more than half of us got eliminated for breaking simple rules, I loved that they were cheery about it.

For the vote ahead, it should be a smooth 9-1 against Star. He hasn't been too active thus far and everybody seems to be on board.

https://youtu.be/RpyYL7gVQEE

LAST ROUND VOTING: A SUMMARY We get back to camp after being beaten in the immunity challenge and things devolve into chaos. Mitchell starts whispering "Lexi" and then shouting "WHO SAID THAT! I HEARD YOU! lexi.... WHO WAS THAT!!!!" Lexi and RTP climbed into the shelter and started singing songs together, waiting for other people to join. Matt sat himself on a rock and just kinda sat there...waiting.... Zak was running around, talking to each and every person saying he heard something different to everyone, calling every guy Miss and every girl Qween. Karen was sitting trying to have sensible discussions, and Mitchell and Zak saw this and started freaking out. Mitchell kept his calm and kept whispering lexi... but Zak thought he said Karen and started freaking out. Meanwhile, I'm running around screaming at people that Zak is dead weight and Linus is a rat, but nobody is really listening to me. Meanwhile, Linus disappeared into the woods to maybe go try on some wigs or some shit, and Dana is off talking to anything that moves, with various degrees of success. In the middle of camp is Chrissa, just sitting. Me, Karen, Zak, and Mitchell are all screaming about who should go, and she silently raises her hand and says four words. "I. I will go." Everyone stopped and just kinda looked at her, and then started screaming. Not words, just incoherent noises, and that never stopped until Chrissa's torch was snuffed by Isaac

real confessional for this round: So, this has been a pretty chill round. As a tribe, our number one priority was winning immunity. I staying longer than a few people, until I had to go swim. I still need to talk to Dana, Lexi, and RTP this round to keep those connections alive, but other than that, my social game is less shitty than in the past! So, overall, this is not looking terrible for me!

IS DAISY FUCKING KIDDING ME?!? Daisy, girl, we spoke about this. Adding people to alliance chats can only cause problems. Making a brand new chat is the way that it has to be. I can't be closely tied with someone who is actually that oblivious to how this game goes. It's like telling someone that there's a three person alliance, and we just want them to be fourth on the ladder. THAT'S NOT HOW THIS WORKS. Luckily for me, it's someone as ditzy as Lily is, and it's someone who doesn't really talk to a lot of people, and she's someone who has an idol, and now Daisy and I were both told by Lily, which is why Daisy added her.

One thing that Lily and Daisy aren't aware of is that Jacob knows about the idol too, and that's because I told him, so with Jacob in the loop, and me being the one who told me, is PRIME. I need to be the barrier of communication between all of them, and right now I think I'm doing a steady job. One thing I need to work on is my relationship with Allie and LA, because they're two SMART girls, who I haven't been spending much time talking to, so I might work on that later today, even though I've spoken briefly about the vote to both of them, I need MORE!

Well after the mess with Chrissa we were lucky enough to win, and I think the challenge was a good bonding experience for the tribe. Now I'm kind of in the middle right now I like my alliance a lot but I think I could work with Karen and Lex in the future so I'm nervous about alienating them and I'm like back and forth back and forth like a metronome or some dumb swingy shit. So lemme just cross my fingers we don't have to go to tribal, and that somebody I know will get this damn idol ay dios bio

We lost the immunity challenge earlier. I'm super disappointed but I doubt I'm in any trouble at tribal council. I kinda messed up by posting early, lost my head and this probably was a factor in our tribe losing. On their tribe, only three people messed up.

But challenge aside, I feel I'm pretty safe for the time being here. I like Jacob, Willow, LA, Johnny and Allie and I think I'm getting along with Aromal too. Really the only people who I haven't really been talking with are Star (who's getting evicted today), Daisy and Lily.

I should probably talk more with the other two. All that said, this game is phenomenal. You can never know if you're really safe.

HOLY SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!! I FOUND THE FUCKING IDOL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA But like... wow. I find the idol clue on my very first search, and then on my second search, I find the idol itself. When will your fave... #newqueenintown

We won! Updates game wise so I'm just utr1 instead of inv. 

1. Zak is still a self righteous prick, but he's also smart enough to just flat out target me rn, so idk. 

2. Matt is easy to talk game with, he's seeming a bit paranoid though. 

3. Dana and Ryan, still love em both. 

4. Mitchell is everyone's best friend, hillarious dude. That also sadly means he is the biggest threat in the game. Of course, right now I want to work with threats, but eventually he will be scary. 

5. Karen is still my target. 

6. Gotta try and make Lexi and Monty not flip at a swap. 

7. Linus is the best, he's probably the front runner to win right now.

Okay so I keep forgetting about confessionals oops. But I'm going to my first tribal council ever tonight and I'm a little nervous. I feel like this vote tonight should be pretty simple because everyone in the tribe wants to vote out Star, but I'm worried that he might have an idol or something since 9/10 people in our tribe looked for the idol yesterday. Also I'm still a little bit irritated at myself from the challenge yesterday because it said 7:05 on my computer when I pressed send but it was still 7:04 on the skype clock or whatever Idk

#thequeenstaysqueen

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EPISODE TWELVE - “I CAN’T COMPENSATE FOR STUPID PEOPLE“ - JAKE

Okay, oh my god. Oh my god. I cannot believe I just survived that vote I'm so glad omfg. I flipped someone who flipped on me I'm SCREAMIng. Idk what you call that but I call it ICONIC. I pulled out ALLLL the receipts to Sam trying to show her why she couldn't trust Isaac and Andrew and why I was the best person to keep. Truthfully, I don't know who would've been her best option to keep, but I needed her to think it was me. So yeah, that was successful, tru. I couldn't flip Isaac like I wanted to, but idk I mean it's probably better that way because it gives me a reason to vote for him and for him to vote for me if I make it to the end. So like I think I have a plan to make it to at least f4. I'm playing my idol this week. Sorry but the blind week is just not working for me, sorry not sorry! I'm gonna use my vote negator on Isaac, and have Sam use her extra vote on Isaac, and have Sam and I vote Isaac. Then have Zack and Sam B vote jakey. That way the vote will be split 3-2-1. If Isaac plays an idol then Jakey goes. If he doesn't have an idol boom he's gone. And I'd tell Isaac I'm voting jakey and Jakey I'm voting Isaac that way at the end of the vote, either way it falls I could tell them I told the truth lmao. I'm playing my idol because in the long run I can't really trust anyone completely like I did that round, I mean Sam flipped when I never expected her to. So like if Isaac plays an idol on himself or wins immunity and Sam and I vote him and like Sam B flips on us and votes with like jakey to take out me the vote would be 2-1 and I'd go home! And a bad, disgusting, but possible even if unlikely scenario would be if Isaac/Jakey won immunity and the other played an idol on themselves. Or who knows they could have stuff from the cornucopia???? Okay so then, at f5 it'd hopefully be Zack, the Sam's, Jakey and myself. I truly do not think Jakey has an idol, I'd be shook if he did when like he was barely online. So like my plan would be for all of us to simply just vote Jakey. That brings me to f4, where I could at least hopefully go to firemaking, but I believe everyone in this f6 is better than me at comps, except maybe Isaac? But I think Isaac needs to go next for sure. Ugh. But yeah I mean that always leaves a possibility for people to vote me out at f5, and there's always the possibility of an idol... I'm gonna try to think about the likelihood of people voting me during this blind round, with all the risks involved. But I think it's a huge risk in itself to not just be safe and play the idol on myself, especially after the heart attack I got from this last tribal. SPEAKING OF THE FUCKING HEART ATTACK ZACKS FUCKING ASSHOLE SELF GAVE ME A PANIC ATTACK!!! He messages me right when tribal council is starting and is like "I'm so sorry" BITCH?? I was like omg what did you vote me and he's like yes I'm sorry but Andrew gave me a better offer you're more of a threat I'm so sorry I didn't wanna tell you on call (Sam B and I had added him to our call after I convinced her to reflip). And I freaked tf out! I was like wtf omg I couldn't even type my hands were S H A K I N G and I couldn't breathe and my heart beat so fast yo it was so bad like omg how fuckin lame is that how gross! And like I couldn't even curse him out in the main chat properly LMAO. Like I'm dyin Zack is so annoying omg lmfaooo oooh he had me fucked up! I think the best person to sit next to come f2 (I'm basically just certain it's gonna be a f2 now which is so ugly bc it decreases my chances so much) would be Sam B just because of how she flip flopped on this vote. Like she was a way bigger threat before the vote but now idk. I feel like Andrew and Isaac would be scorned jurors but eh who knows ugh. I hope the upcoming immunity challenges will be luckier for me despite zacks wild ass comp abilities omg. Ugh I just hope all their threatening competition winning asses take me to the end ugh. But I am glad that I'm at this point in the game with a cast that I love..and zack. JK ZACK ILY HNG. But yeah

Okay I'm pretty sure tribal is in an hour and nobody has talked to me at all. Guess I'm leaving tonight. That's what I get for being a flop ass bitch and flipping and then flipping again on the revote. It's been fun panem.

welp... i guess isaac is stupid as fuck? lksjdgdlfkjh srsly WHO are my ALLIES... HELP!!!! these ppl suck god even worse than i do. so my plan for this round is get sam b and isaac BACK TOGETHER god... and then flip zack to vote out sam g... which i kinda set up last round when i told zack that i'd vote with isaac to get his trust. im still playing zack and i dont wanna go to the end with him but i dont wanna go to the end with sam g or jc either so like... an ideal f3 would be me sam b and isaac. lmao. everyone sucks idk why sam b voted andrew out like god these people are stupid. idk i dont think ill win immunity since its like luck. but christine goddess got me an immunity advantage so thats nicee. im not telling anyone about that shit! it's a blind round which is fun!!!

Okay so I have a little idea brewing in my witch pot brain....what if I go around this week "confiding" in people that I have the idol. Like, I'll start with Sam G and then move to Zack and maybe tell Sam B and maybe even Isaac. I want to tell them because I'm going to be playing my idol this round almost without question...but since it's a blind week none of them will know that I'm playing it! Then come f5 hopefully the remaining people are Zack, the Sam's and Jakey, and all of them would still think I have an idol that I'd most likely be playing on myself, which means none of them would flip on me. As for jakey, I wouldn't tell him I have the idol but hopefully Isaac would've told him after I told Isaac which would make things even more believable if it's coming from another source, so jakey might not even vote me. Idk I think that no matter what people are going to vote me anyway, so there's no harm in adding a possible larger target on my back with this idol if it also has the possibility of protecting me. Not only that but if I confide in people, who knows they might have an idol and confide in me too! Also, I'm going to tell Isaac his best chances of survival would be to vote Jakey. Because if I negate his or jakeys vote and we split it 3-2 that means if Isaac has a vote, he could vote jakey and tie it 3-3. Or, he could be dumb and throw his vote away to someone else. And who knows, on the revote we might keep Isaac, if he stayed loyal maybe it'd be smart to keep him especially because he's not as good at competitions unlike jakey, and it relieves the threat of such a goat (baa) like Jakey. But at the same time he's very good with his words and shit so at f5 he might be able to conjure up some magic to cause drama and flip a vote idk. But I could always keep on persisting saying if Isaac does make it to FTC he deserves to win because we let him make it there when we had majority. This is gonna be an INTERESTING week, know that!

Later...

Okay so I've been strategizing and thinking, and like that whole idea of revealing I had the idol and whatnot and like I don't think it's worth it seeing as it gets revealed that an idol gets played...but idk maybe it's worth it? I don't knowwww. I could always tell them I'm playing the idol tonight, discourage them from flipping on me, but then they'd be like tf why you playing an idol? I might just be a crazy bitch and risk not playing my idol again LMFAO. That'd be so wild. But I think if someone else plays an idol I most definitely would. Yo I wish I had a map of the arena for every bitch left in the arena because after last round I learned you can't trust no bitch! Ugh but like I feel like things will be so much easier if I can just wait til next week to play my idol, what are the chances bitches are gonna flip on me again /right/ after flipping on me last week. Like you'd think they'd have the courtesy to at least wait til the next round, right?? Right????? Probably not. This is allstars after all. Ugh. I need to think of who I want to play my map of the arena on, like who would be the smartest person??? These are the pressing questions.

Later...

Sam G has a map of the arena? INTERESTING. Immediate reaction I'm so happy because this is going to clear up soooo much paranoia. But I am a bit confused because I thought that only one map could be purchased per round, so it wouldn't make sense that she got a map this round because I have the map this round!!! Omfg now Sam B approached me about voting out Sam G, I'm SCREECHING. Like the level of shook I am rn is 10/10. I think it'd probably be smart to take out Sam G since I might be seen as her sidekick or something, but I don't think it'd be smart to do it this round. And not only that but if I did make it to f2 with Sam I feel like I could showcase how I wasn't just second in command but made moves and decisions that she didn't necessarily want like the a Brian and Liana votes. And I got the idol from her clue. Yeah I do think this round it's smartest to vote out jakey, then next round could be either of the Sam's or Isaac. If I can keep my idol until next round like its seeming possible to, then I don't even necessarily have to worry about who comes into f4. Except I do have to worry in that I don't want my ass heading into a firemaking challenge!! I've said it before and I'll say it again, everyone else left in the game is a bigger challenge threat than I am so like?? Fuck. But I think if Sam G comes in to f4 with me they'd be more likely to vote her out over me which is better for me hng. Let's say jakey does leave this round (fingers crossed bih), then  who would I want with me in the f4? I feel like my best case scenario would be the Sam's and Zack, because the Sam's may vote each other and Zack may vote with me hopefully. If Sam G goes home this week, that'd leave an opening for either Sam or Zack to flip with Isaac and jakey, and even though I'd have my idol to protect myself for f5 and take one of them out, I'd still have to worry about f4 and fighting another in a fire making challenge. Idk this is all totally assuming Zack wins like every single immunity too like I'm expecting him to. LIKE ZACK IS AN IMMUNITY QUEEN, GODDDD. But nah damn my girl Sam B is trying real hard to put a move on her jury resume. She's really worried about getting second place again, and I feel her, I don't wanna be last juror again, and I especially don't want to lose this season after everything, so I get her dilemma. But I have to do what's the very best for my game, and I think that's voting out jakey. THATS JUST MY OPINIONNNN (insert that's just my opinion gif). But yeah I gotta keep my eye on Sam B 👀

Whew I almost forgot to do a confessional because I had the sappiest dumb confessional ever but I decided not to send it and thought I did. So anyways here's my confessional... I can't believe it tied because Isaac couldn't make up his mind. I feel really bad about Andrew but the more I think about it the more I shouldn't care. He never really talked to me at all about this game until his ass was on the line and then when I tried to help him he still threw his vote to me when it could have gone to someone else in case Jaiden played an idol. So this vote is the last vote to play anything I'm pretty sure so IF THERE IS AN IDOL it'll probably be played tonight. I'm playing my extra vote and my second map of the arena (I love my sponsors honestly <3) and Jaiden is playing his vote negator. If the two of us vote together the worst thing that'll happen is that we tie and have to vote again. Hopefully everyone's telling the truth but I don't know this whole merge has just felt too easy. I know there have been a few snags but I don't know something about getting here has felt too easy and I'm too calm so I feel like I'm about to get blindsided tonight. I really wanna make it past tonight though because then I'll beat my Atlantis placement!!

I am soooo torn. Once again. Okay so I am in a 4 person alliance with Jc, Zack, and Sam G. On the other side, I have a final 2 with both Jakey and Isaac. I want Sam G out. But nobody on her side wants to go after her. And there are no numbers without them. That alliance wants to split the vote tonight with 2 on Jakey and 2 on Isaac. What they don't know is that Jakey is playing his idol so his votes will be cancelled. Isaac and Jakey are voting out Sam G, but Jc is using his vote negator on Isaac so it'll just be 1 vote for her. So left we have 3 votes: mine, jakey's and jc's (because jc is voting isaac and zack and sam g are voting jakey which will be cancelled with his idol). Confusing, I know. So Jc and I are supposed to vote out Isaac, and Jakey is voting for Sam G. However I have the opportunity to flip (again) and vote out Sam G. This is what I want. But I am sooo worried about Jc and Zack finding out. Idk how the blind tribal will go, if they will announce that Jc is cancelling a vote or if Jakey is playing an idol. I feel a lot more stress than I did the last blind tribal, that allowed my target to leave and let me keep playing the middle. But this one is definitely going to hurt that. My dream scenario would be Sam G leaving and nobody knowing I flipped and then I have the option to choose between Jc and Zack or Isaac and Jakey. I am praying for this next immunity. If I don't leave tonight (you never know in games like this). I wish I had an idol, or even better a super idol. But I'm just trying to really rely on my social game and my gut at this point. I hope it all works out. And I'm also worried about a vote sneak of my vote just because I did flip last week so I seem untrustworthy, which is why I am going to wait until 3 minutes before votes are due to submit, just so nobody has time to switch their votes to me, if they haven't already done so. Yikes I am nervous whew.

stupid #1 - isaac do i even have to explain like Why did he vote for sam b when she was literally flipping to us ?? i'm like... i can't even process this bc how can i play a game with people like him like it's impossible i can't compensate for stupid people stupid #2 - sam b oh god this girl is a mess. i cant believe she voted out andrew just bc she was mad at isaac or whatever. like yeah he's fucking stupid but u just ruined your own game?? she can't beat jc sam or zack so idk what the fuck her goal is. she's also fucking stupid and if i wasn't drunk i might have knocked some sense into her stupid #3 - zack taking immunity from me even tho he didn't need it and painting a huge target on his back for no reason and fucking over a tight alliance he had with me... it's like do these people even know what survivor is??? how did u pick this "all stars" cast honestly kass voice id like to see that data stupid #4 - sam b honestly who is this bc she never talks to me and i try so hard to start a convo with her and she's just so boring god. apparently her own alliance wants to vote her out so what's her deal??? stupid #5 - Jc he's the least stupid bc honestly i think he's playing the best game out of everyone so i hope he wins if i can't at this point. but i'm not giving him too much credit bc he's only here bc certain individuals are literally STUPID and that is all

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i think im going this round! bc zack is an idiot lmaoooo but whatever cant wait to vote for JC to win!!! lol this game is so boring and literally they all suck. im playing on idol paranoia and the fact that i have finals all of this week and have no time to play immunity but yeah it doesnt look good. Yikes.

UGH IM SO #PARANOID WHY DO I KEEP HAVING THE IDEA OF NOT PLAYING MY IDOL WHATS WRONG WITH ME I SHOULD JUST PLAY IT BEFORE MY ASS GETS CHOPPED FUCK

My favorite thing is how Jc and Sam G have convinced Zack that he has a chance of winning. He hasn't done anything this whole game besides been Jc's lapdog and win immunities like bye.  So this round the other side is splitting it's votes against me and Jakey and expect us to vote against each other so the expect the vote should be like 3-3 but Jc is negating my vote apparently so it's 3-2 but me and Jakey are voting Sam G so it's more 2-2-1 and Sam B isn't voting me and is voting Sam G so it should be 2-2-1 but Jakey also has the idol? So it should be 2-1 with Sam G going home hopefully. I don't want to give up playing this game I've worked too hard for too long to give up. This confessional is really choppy and is bouncing from one topic to another, sorry. I don't understand why Jc wants to keep Sam G when she's literally going to win if she gets to the end. The bitch had a successful idol play. Like?

I'm so sick and just want to go to bed but these fucking bitches had to pick tonight of all nights to try to blindside me. Now I gotta do work

hieeeee! SO. its revote time and i know what i'm doing! but anyways.. i still have my idol and if i use it on me next round im guaranteed 5th place (i think?) so hi WIG! let me go revote now.. this has been a long ass round.

If I'm gunna go I'm going out swinging! I've always tried to stay nice and polite while people are voting me out just in case I can flip but obviously these people are fucking dumbasses and I hope my favorite player ever JC slits all their throats and gets to the end

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ifvdjskd so apparently Isaac and Sam B locked in their votes for me and Zack already said he'd go to rocks so like if JC doesn't go to rocks for me I'm gunna be so mad because I would go for them! If Zack is willing to go to rocks for me and JC isn't Zack 100% has my vote in the finals if he's there even if he's against JC omg JC BETTER DO THIS FOR ME

#touchofrebellion