#im a bit frustrated about it

[perilegs]

i want to delete instagram so bad especially with the new v illegal sounding data stuff but it's like facebook for ppl my age so i need it to know what people who i don't really talk to anymore are up to and stuff. also it's the ideal platform for posting cosplay content and networking with other cosplayers aughh

#im a bit frustrated about it #like. i want to know how my childhood bff we grew apart with is doing and see her posts #and like its so annoying how instagram is the only viable option for cosplay stuff as of now #i have my personal and cosplay accounts separate there so its not like im doing both on one account #thatd b weird i dont need everyone to see my cosplay stuff #also i barely use ig i just check stories and maybe some posts when my friends send me reels #and im active on my cosplay account around cons only gdvdhsb #leevi talks

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[sp00pypumpkins]

Got busy this weekend and couldnt draw much so today I did this silly thing :3

Something sweet about the Prototype qwq I find it endearing those two would get so happy when the prototype is near while other toys would feel intimidated by them XD I will make more silly doodles about why Zero thinks so high of the Prototype in the future :D

Au by @asamary You should check their stuff :D!

Also Zero chirps when they are very happy (The only one who got to hear them is 1006 till now, Zero is a bit embarrased because he cannot control it but with 1006 he lowers his guard but also acts childish around him too HAHA)

#poppy playtime #catnap #sweet home au #poppy playtime sweet home #prototype #poppy playtime 1006 #oc Zero Signal #poppy playtime oc #my art #I wanna put on a comic how zero little by little they managed and healed about their fear of other people and stopped being extremely #dependant of the prototype. like imagine he made chaos is hospitals or any other place cuz he would wake up from nigthmares of being back #and wouldnt be able to differenciate reality from the nightmare and would stop only by shutting himself in a room/closet or the prototype #assured him its okay then while healing the prototype made catnap one of his most loyal followers to met zero since he is very calm and #chill but funnily enough i like to think catnap just went. “im their favorite” and started picking a fight in wich zero got frustrate and #they ended up fighting and making zero come out of his shell a bit (the prototype totally knew it would help probably HAHA) #and catnap being unable to use the gas because kaboom with electricity HAHAH #in the end both got scolded zero should know better cuz oldest of the two and catnap for picking a fight HJAHA #also zero calls him my lord in a non religious way but more in like how a servant would call a duke or nobility kings etc #the prototype collecting kids with trauma like pokemon card

[spontaneousglitterbees]

#genuinely i didnt do this on purpose i was just very tired when i went to draw yesterday and did pose practice instead of new comic #but then i see franz kafka trending this morning and i remembered this hellsite has the most arbitrary holidays i love it #dr draws #danganronpa #dr #ndrv3 #drv3 #kokichi ouma #ouma kokichi #kokichi oma #oma kokichi #glittersart #TAPP AU #if you want it doesnt have to be #but i am working on an ask about how everyone is holding up post-sim #mostly in writing if thats alright bc im not positive yet how to draw out the story i want to tell #and therein is a small headcanon that kokichi kinda. for several reasons has a bit more intense a time than most of his classmates #and sometimes he Needs to sleep at arbitrary times during the school day. if he wont do it voluntarily he'll just kinda faint- #- which is especially frustrating for him because the lack of control and his inherent distrust of most people fuel his paranoia- #- and over time he designates a couple of Probably Secure places around campus that he can sleep if his dorm is too far. #ive started setting it up (itll take a lot of drawing to explain it all) but one of them is the animal shed #i do want to try actively to write about Students Who Aren't Kokichi but this all did start bc im kinda fixated atm #actually i think kokichi has been in all of the comics so far. like at least appeared #which will probably continue to be true as kokichis brand of pranking #('i put a kick-me sign on kaitos back and when saihara sees it theyll have an excuse to talk. all according to plan.')-caliber #is a nice device to crash characters into eachother like bumper cars

[toss-a-coin-to-your-stan-account]

I went to my digital library catalog through my state's public library to find ebooks on palestine and the amount of ebooks/audiobooks you can only get holds of bc all of the copies are checked out is just... usually having to get a hold is frustrating but right now that means that people are using library resources to educate themselves and that honestly makes me really happy

#mine #like. im not frustrated at all. im seeing that resources on this are all taken & checked out because people are *using* them #theyre hearing about this genocide and are trying to *learn* about it #and it gives me a little bit more faith in humanity #palestine #free palestine #libraries #reading

[bonefall]

what’s Bright Storm like? Since she didn’t get fridged like every woman in the original dotc series

She was always curious and dependable. Bright Storm's the kind of gal who would give you the shirt off her back if she wore a shirt to give you!

Long before they set off on the Sun Trail, she would occasionally confide in Clear Sky how much she wanted to see the world. Travelers aren't unheard of; this was before the Tribe split into its 3 separate Wards and welcomed a lot of comers and goers, but it's not that no one had ever left before. It was more that she had friends and family she was committed to.

Clear Sky pressured her into it, reminding her of how much they'd see, how they'd raise their kits somewhere new, and that he'd be sad and alone forever if she didn't come. Every chance he got, he was bringing it up. He was always her weakness, she hated letting him down.

Her dependability was based on how good of a listener she was, even Gray Wing the Wise appreciated it. She was always keeping an eye out for people's wants and needs, making connections between little 'tips' she'd heard from one source or another. After Gray Wing's death, she found herself in demand for this ability.

She couldn't make a plan quite AS good as xem, but she was better at making a plan into a 'group project.' She'd brainstorm and encourage everyone to join in, putting their brains together until it all fell into place. She could be good at delegating authority based on it, too, though Tall Shadow had much more confidence than her.

And really it's her confidence that holds her back, and can you blame her?

She tried to keep Jagged Peak alive for a moon, but barely caught enough for herself, let alone him AND her unborn kittens. But how could she go back to the camp and just pretend he wasn't out here, dying?

When she goes shuffling back with her son in tow, it was humiliating, it was heartbreaking. It became soulcrushing when Clear Sky rejected her again. With just a few words, she doubted everything.

...was she capable of knowing if she was interpreting this sign correctly? ...had she done the right thing, or did she just make everything complicated? ...he's right, it must be her fault the other two died, if she hadn't--

Tall Shadow interrupted this thought spiral, but Clear Sky is like an infection in her mind. She'd tell you, in a moment of shame many years later,

"I wasn't strong enough to beat him. No no honey, I mean it like the truth. Clea-- Skystar now, he's powerful if nothing else, and he makes you believe it too. It's a special sort of person who can say no to that. I said a lot of his words before I even realized I still had his tongue in my mouth."

Bright doesn't realize how smart she is, because she's so smart she realizes how little she knows. And that can make her doubt herself. She's genuine and caring, but susceptible to more self-assured people making her doubt her own judgement.

But there's no one else Thunder Storm would rather have in his corner, that's for sure.

#BB!Bright Storm #Better bones au #BB!DOTC #She's a mix of Storm and Bright Stream #But more Bright Stream than Storm #Storm is... unfortunately a very typical WC fridgewife. A bit sassy and curious #Though I do like her slow realization that she's in a bad relationship #which of course they throw out the window by making her apologize to her shitty ex LITERALLY while she's in her deathbricks. #''ough tell him im sorry for leaving after he got my friend killed in a pointless border dispute'' shut the fuck up erins. #She Would Not Say That #But Bright Stream... she was actually super interesting and no one talks about her OTL #Girl who gets pressured into leaving her family behind when she doesn't want to!! #Friends with Gray and doesn't really know about his crush!!! #Was FRUSTRATED with Clear and how he wouldn't LET her make her own choice!!!!!! #BRIGHT YOU WERE DONE DIRTY IM SO SORRY #I TAKE A HAMMER AND I FEEX THE CANON #So yeah she's a bit more Bright Stream than Storm but still very much a composite #She's taking all of Storm's roles anyway

[batfossil-fr]

I’ve been really thinking of reopening my art shop soon… I’ve been taking some practice doodles (hence all the posting lately) while I shake off my rust and I’m finding things I enjoy working on again. I miss trying my hand at more dragons/OCs and colors. my shop’s so broken rn lmao but that’s a problem for a later date it’s just nice getting back into art

#my mental health is starting to improve a bit #took a couple years but I found some meds that finally work better for me #ofc things aren’t 100% but I was really in a pit for a while #like ‘did not leave my house in months and slept 14 hours a day’ kind of pit #so. any improvement is better lol. but nah I’ve been making real improvement and im doing better. a lil shaky sometimes but that’s expected #diagnosed with chronic fatigue too. which is unfortunate but not unexpected. i am indeed god’s sleepiest soldier #i feel like a raisin slowly rehydrating but considering i was in a desert before any hydration is welcome #just learning how to enjoy things again overall #one thing I just couldn’t get myself to do (and enjoy) was art. doodles here and there but nothing to post #and it’s kind of funny because I feel like that downtime actually gave me a chance to think about what I wanted to work on #even when I wasn’t actively practicing #just paying attention to things I guess. enjoying art styles #i genuinely think my experimenting with stained is helping me learn colors #i spend hours in the scryshop im glad it’s paying off lmao #i want to tackle bigger things but i just gotta ease myself into the hang of things again #for now im having fun and that’s coooool. thank you all for your nice comments #i read all tags while kicking my feet and giggling. thank u all #that’s the update on Me tho. more to come hopefully #starting next month/julyish I will have a significant amount of time to dedicate to drawing which i intend on doing #so who knooowwwsss #rambles #funny enough coloring has become my favorite part of the process now. it used to be lineart. now lineart annoys me LOL #i also feel like i kinda lost my ability to write which has been frustrating but im focusing on art first #anyways that’s a whole different tangent rant over

[lucabyte]

I am literally obsessed with everything you do that involves sifloop you are THE sifloop artist to me

thank you!!! it means a lot to hear that haha

I've been like... near exclusively an OC artist for like 8 years at this point so every time i post fanart and ESPECIALLY ship art i feel like i have to fight every screaming cell in my body to post it because i feel like... RUDE? for projecting my own thoughts onto another creator's characters LMAO... so it's reassuring to know people actually like what i'm contributing!!

as for sifloop as a ship. i really should draw more isiloops because . rotates all three of them in my mind. but yeah. I think the thing I like most about the dynamic really is the like... way Siffrin and Loop canonically aggress each other despite an extremely persistent undercurrent of caring about the other not suffering.

Like. the back and forth between Loop constantly talking past/through Siffrin to really painfully insult the pair of them, and things like the [Forgetting Mirabelle's Name] event being so astoundingly gentle. just as a general example. (RNG event that only triggers after certain actions so you may need to look it up)

THEN adding the element of throwing them in postcanon with neither of them wanting to upset the party and thus having to keep a lid on it... I like the potential dynamics of such a painful and conflicted relationship having to be almost hidden and downplayed so as to try and not worry anyone, and thus becoming softer and introspective while still keeping a bunch of the more insidiously toxic behaviour.

Both of them acting with genuine best intentions in mind but still understanding each other to have way *way* more sadness and anger and guilt than they let on, and thus being able to clock it. Both for good and ill. Neither of them enjoy confrontation, but it's almost unavoidable when they KNOW the other knows what they're probably thinking.

. but yeah i just think they're neat! also a bunch of stuff related to asexuality but . shh

#also since. well. i dont know where else im gonna put this. because its CERTAINLY not going in the body of the text #an early way i worded my reading of Loop's characterisation when talking to my friends was: #'Loop is sexually frustrated in the same way as a poorly kept parrot' #WHICH SOUNDS INSANE but hear me out. if you know things about parrots you know they'll imprint on their owners. and it ruins their brains #parrots like this will see humans as potential mates and get AGGRESSIVE when nothing is happening! because... they aren't human. #the 'sexual' part of my reading is a bit of shock hyperbole but i basically mean they are socially/romantically/etc frustrated in this way #they are asexual obviously (... as am i for the record). but yknow. they and siffrin are both still ravenous for physical touch. #and loop... no longer being human. having that disconnect. BEING human FEELING human. but not being. #as well as literally physically lacking the ability for certain things. (staunch 'loop has no mouth and cannot kiss' truther here) #+ i think this is FASCINATING in context of both Siffrin and Loop's asexuality. its something i like thinking about. #two freaks who want intimacy but not in the 'normal' way. again as an ace myself. i think abt it #lucabytetalks #isat spoilers #sifloop

[gravebeetle]

Ceramic Hornet and knight from Hollow Knight!

This is my actually second time trying to make ceramic HK figures. The first set I made didn't turn out great for a number of reasons (using the wrong glaze, using too little underglaze, legs breaking off when loading the kiln, general dissatisfaction with the shapes and proportions, etc.), but I'm much happier with these two.

And here is a more straightforward picture of the figures, as well as a comparison between the two sets. I am so glad I did three coats of white underglaze this time, it was absolutely necessary. The old ones look even jankier in person.

#hollow knight #ceramics #hornet hk #the knight hk #my art #it was a lot of fun going outside and posing them on things #honestly it was a bit frustrating making the first set since it was going so well until the glazing phase where it all fell apart #i remember taking them out of the kiln and seeing the transparent underglaze and just being disappointed #i was worried about the second set but everything went well #like genuinely im impressed by how cleanly things went. ceramics is a field where things can go wrong for no fault of ones own #especially if you share a studio with other people. that is the reason why v1 hornet has no legs

[jrueships]

https://twitter.com/danfetes/status/1712166167572361344

josh says people saying stuff about stef ticks him off 😭 that's the meanest he'll ever get off the field 😭

that was kinda... 😏😏😏

and i definitely know stef feels the same... 😏

" tired of hearing all this nonsense... lot of guys in this league that have that same fire that don't get talked about, but--"

" frankly that kind of ticks me off when people wanna say stuff about him, but... we'll keep that all internal here 🙂🙃🫥."

this is allen at his boiling point omg 😭😭 held back by pr

#reporter: we talked to josh and we asked him a question about y- #stef smirks in Yeah. I Bet You Did. Bitch.😎 we're a two packaged deal. inseparable 😎 (insufferable) im his right hand man. his silly rab- #the sassy pose and the fond smile. theyre so untouchable dramatic ass top of the foodchain powercouple it's Unreal. #WHERE IS THE RPF!?!??!?!???? #josh and allen sooooo fucked after this #fucked HARRRRD bro fucked HARD #and they were both soo ready for it like you cant tell me they didnt fuck nasty after this HELLO #we cant always bet on them winning but the fuck nasty is surely guranteed #diggs had the bed all set up with romantic candlelight and roses and josh hurdled over all that shit just to hold him in his arms #josh caught on fire a little bit but diggs patted the flames down before he could notice #all the snow piled up around their home in buffalo could not muffle the 'youre my qb.. ure my qb' pants& moans which shake those very walls #josh '🙃🙃' the hell outta this interview #he said YOU may not understand diggs horrors but **I** DO!!@@! **I** UNDERSTAND. I GET THEM. #the frustration of seeing everyone hate on his husband when he knows all of that pales in how much stef hates himself #AND THAT MAKES JOSHS LITTLE STUNNED FACE ALL THE MORE SAD LIKE. HES SO HURT FOR STEF. #AND HE JUST KNOWS. he KNOWS the public is gonna spin this horribly. make stef the diva they always degrade him as #josh has CONSTANTLY with like a bear pacing around the cracked glass enclosure barely disguised rage #defended stef from misinterpretation and disdained the diva drama so vehemently #so everytime josh messes up or stef messes up or they lose all josh is thinking and feeling is 'im fucking this up for him even more #i dont care if theyre gonna be mad at me. diggs is hurting. somehow some way. diggs is gonna get Hurt. #and i cant do anything but talk. and i cant even do that well. #it's all my fault i cant do anything im so stupid im so stupid' #saint bernard song 1 hour #that single wide eyed stare he gives his wr bcs all he can do is stare as stef's pain surges #it's not fear of stef as the media tries to portray for qbwr tension. it's fear For stef. #he knows theres hurt. and he knows theres gonna be even more hurting. and. the nail. he knows he cant do anything to help it from stopping #'why couldnt i throw better. i need to just run it to lessen the chances. i need to do something. i need to be better. i have to be better' #meanwhile diggs could care less abt what everyone else thinks about him. he just cares abt how josh thinks. about josh #stef wants to perform well so josh can actually feel well. be able to express anything he wants without worry or treading #diggs/allen

[crushedsweets]

WHY EVERYONE SUDDENLY STARTED TO HATE NINAKATE?????

I THOUGHT WE ALL LOVED OUR FELLOW LESBIANS, WHY DO YOU FEEL CRINGE NOW?????

I don’t think it’s everyone!! I think the ship just isn’t that popular to begin with, but me my friends and my anons like it! But it is REALLY random. Totally get why people might be thrown off unless they’re in the same bubbles as me LOL

I just love it cuz 1. Fits perfectly in my AU 2. I love butch/femme couples 3. My fave songs work perfectly for Ninakate 4. They fit tropes I like 5. THEYRE ME AND MY GF!!!

I think it’s okay if people don’t ship it and even if people hate it HAHA it’s not everyone’s cup of tea and that’s cool! If people are making you feel uncomfortable over a fictional ship come to my inbox I will do a mspaint Ninakate doodle. Trust. I got u.

#asks #it only makes me uncomfortable when the dislike is clearly about me/my work HAHA just stings bit cuz it feels more personal BUUUT #i always just block/filter stuff! its never that deep #always cater your internet experience to yourself! im really sorry you felt frustrated!

[spacedlexi]

A little while ago you said that you have nuanced feelings on Clem x Louis, and I think that’s how I’d describe my opinion on the ship as well. I was just wondering, what makes you feel that way? Personally, I think they’re romance scenes are cute and sweet, but the whole situation with Marlon makes me unable to see them as anything other than friends. I think they both mean a lot to each other, but the idea that they’d want to date so soon after that whole ordeal’s a bit of a stretch to me.

putting this under a read more so if anyone even Thinks they might get upset about mild louis opinions they can move on and stay happy. seriously people take this stuff too seriously sometimes and i dont want to stir anyone up but also im allowed to have my own opinions OKAY. none of this means i dont like him or them OKAY??

okay

thats pretty much where my opinions are too

the stuff with marlon and the vote is Definitely the biggest thing that influences my opinion about their romance. i always forget just how Cruel he is in EP2 😭 like im on your side dude what aj did was wrong can we just talk about this 😭 but he votes to kick them out. like his reaction about marlon doesnt bother me, its his insistence on kicking them out that does 😔 my clem will always forgive him for it, i believe him when he says he regrets it, but its gonna take some time for trust to build again. for both of them

having only one scene between his apology and the lock in was just not gonna happen for my clem. she was mad at him for it. aj almost died because of it. she might be doing better now but she still has trust issues and her trust was broken just as much as his was. he was fine with never seeing her again, sending her and aj out to their deaths because he struggled to accept his confused feelings about marlon. that pissed my clem off shdfksd she is barely keeping this child alive let alone herself. her face when ajs kicking the wall bro she was like "its so fucking over" 😭 cmon bro look at her shes dead inside have some compassion. and he still hits her with the "i dont know [if i want you to stay]" even after aj gets shot like cmon man...... Cmon.........

and while shes waiting for louis to finally be ready to talk about what happened with marlon (which my clem apologizes for in the dorm, she does genuinely feel bad about it), her and violet are only growing closer, focusing on preparing the school together for the bigger problem. clem knowing vi has her back is a huge source of relief in everything thats going on, and that means a Lot for my clem, who appreciates the idea of having a partner she can rely on. my clem is already sure of her feelings for vi by the time louis apologizes. but she appreciates his apology, and is looking forward to being friends again, because she did genuinely appreciate his friendship at the beginning. but her heart was really truly Broken about everything with marlon and the vote and i think thats gonna take more time to heal. depending on player choice some clems might not even forgive him (some others might say he was right and that clem didnt stop it but... i do not agree with that.. like how could she have... aasim calls mitch a hypocrite for saying the same thing)

the other less important thing is just his general blasé attitude. my clem takes things seriously, but that doesnt mean she doesnt know how to have fun. she Wants to. she just Cant. she has a child to take care of first, and she cares about the survival of the group. its why my clem is looking for someone she knows she can rely on. she never wanted any of this, and she just wants a little support, someone to help take the weight off so she CAN relax. shes so tired 😭. playing with louis while aasim hunts by himself made me feel Dirty 💀 (i literally couldnt do it the first time i felt so bad AASIM WAIT UP). and while i can understand and appreciate his "there might not be a tomorrow so enjoy today" outlook, it cant come at the expense of the group. louis i feel eventually learns this, finding a balance between the two, and Becomes someone clem can rely on. but his change doesnt begin until like.. after the raiders take everyone (because we have to get through the marlon stuff first). and if you save vi, you dont get to see any of it 😔

the thing about these two problems is that, if you were to take them out of this setting and throw them in like, a modern au, suddenly these are not issues anymore. no more life or death. the stakes are a lot lower. so i can see them dating in that scenario and having fun together. they do have cute moments!! but also due to less stakes, theres less to motivate louis to change. and i think they would fundamentally just not click on their worldviews. clem while she can have fun, ultimately takes things seriously, and louis doesnt. that doesnt mean they dont care about each other, and clem definitely appreciates his energy, but its why i see them still ending up as friends instead of romantic partners (esp if vi is around IM SORRY 😭 they just Click too well for me 😔 this is why my messy au exists 💀)

i also understand this is mostly personal preference and some people might like them for these reasons 😭 but the dynamic that they have i prefer as friends personally. theyre supportive of each other and deeply care about each other, just not romantically imo. especially not after the stuff with marlon. and thats ok!!!! i see it a lot like louis' relationship with vi. not romantic. but they Love each other regardless. honestly the reason why i like clem vi and louis as a trio so much is that clem slots between them really well. louis who doesnt take anything seriously, and vi who takes things Too seriously. clem exists between them. knowing having fun is important but also understanding the weight of responsibility. she helps louis become more responsible, and she helps vi chill the fuck out. she brings balance :)

i will say tho louis' "nothing wrong with short and sweet, right?" line was cute he got me there

#louis 🤝 violet: being a huge bitch (lovingly) #violets the bitch of ep1 and louis is the bitch of ep2 (lovingly)(but also seriously)(its important to their Characters lol) #the fact they BOTH mockingly quote their hunting partners to clem is SO FUNNY!!! this is why theyre friends #louis can be Just as mean as vi is and thats important to acknowledge and i feel like its not acknowledged very much? #also i Do just have to say it frustrates me a bit when louis is talking about how he feels bad about leaving marlon on his own to lead #while he is Actively avoiding the task violet Just asked him to do. that she is now doing for him. because he wants to do something else #like.. bro youre talking about how you left marlon with all the responsibility but youre doing the same to vi Right Now 😭 #it just rings a little hollow... i have other little annoyances like this but thats more with the writing than louis himself #like i Get the Intention #i get so scared talking about why i Dont like a romantic pairing people always take it as a personal attack ITS ALL PREFERENCE!! #im begging you.. keep having fun... Live Your Truth... im just a random person on the internet with an opinion #replies with lexi #incognito #twdg

[waterfall-ambience]

nghm okay my take on the neuvillette 'ships' is that they're...all kinda boring? theres a lot of interesting dynamics to explore dont get me wrong but for all of them romance is the least interesting option lol. first is because i dont think he's romantically-inclined by nature (aroace king) but also he intentionally tries to keep people at arms length because of his position as iudex (so even if he has friendly connections i cant see anything 'more' than that actually working out) .

however the most interesting juxtaposition for his character imo is being so filled with love for the world and the people around him and simulataneously not experiencing 'love' in the way a lot of people traditionally understand it. he loves people so deeply no he does not want to pursue any of them romantically. it doesnt even have anything to do with him being a dragon, he's just like that.

#genshinblogging #i dont want to like lean into the idea that aroace people are somehow inhuman but i think the experience would intersect with his dragonhood #but at the same time he'd be pleasantly surprised if he found out that some humans dont experience certain forms of attraction as well #yknow theres a bit of human connection there. like hey man you're not as 'inhuman' as you think you are. youve got something in common with #ordinary human beings #idk i saw a take about his & furina's relationship that kinda ticked me off. their dynamic is weird and complicated by their positions and #traumas and literally everything. they're siblings they're awkward coworkers they're father and daughter they're estranged and #they care about each other. but there is no romance. you can have that level of complexity without romance #and i think adding in the 'neuvillette is romantically interested in furina' aspect to that just flattens it? #romantic shipping is a black hole. once you put the romantic aspect in there it swallows up basically everything else #because it recontextualises everything. in this case unnecessarily so #(im ace and frustrated by amatonormativity again)

[fiovske]

listen. as much as I know (and love) that this doctor who special was v much trans rights save lives in the very blatant way that leaves no room for doubt for any wilful misinterpretation with the erasure of transness from the narrative esp in the terf supreme climate which was very necessary and important, and as much as I understand that dw is abt logical reasoning things making sense in a very (emphasis on very) abstracty hand-wavey way and you'd come up blank if you try to get into specifics ... i have just one question.

why did Donna and Rose Noble tell the doctor "we just let it go. you wouldn't understand as a male-presenting doctor." like.. that bit truly ???? me and I just didn't understand like... what does. male-presenting have to do w anything.. I am genuinely asking. i get the logic of the rest of the things: Donna passed down the metacrisis (sp? it's been years since doctordonna ep so I'm rusty) thingy to rose so they're both able to be share the weight of it without dying.. is it the extra regeneration energy theyre able to let go without any hassle? that's such a skill issue for a male-presenting doctor? ... if that then,, why so? what does being male-presenting have to do w anything is. my question. bc the logic is supposed to be handwavey I know.. but that part just puzzled me like is there some secret caveat I'm not getting?

#im genuinely asking bc my memory of the whole doctordonna thing is very rusty its been YEARS. #and i like the handwavey logic of dw dont get me wrong. this bit just made things confusing for me like there's a caveat or smth #that is a skill issue for a doctor and if so.. why foes it have to do w male-presenting like i don't get it... #like the doctor too is trans all the way w gender funkery and so is rose so like... what is it that #a female-presentkng doctor would get that a male-presenting doctor wouldn't? #if anything i'd even say that fourteen is WAAY more emotionally adjusted than thirteen ever was lmao #she was the king of repression and roiling buried frustration at all times who never dealt with her problems and always let then fester — #you wanna tell me as female-presenting SHE would Get It abt 'Letting Things Go'?? LOL. LMAO EVEN. #but truly what was that line about. bc its the only wrench in the logic that makes me. not get the handwavey logic still. #doctor who #the star beast #edit: gotta fckin LOVE typos in tags that shit isn't confusing at fucking ALL!! 🙄

[queerbaitesque]

one of the most popular interpretations of blame! that ive seen everywhere online is that its a cautionary tale about the dangers of ai. while it isnt a bad interpretation per se, its a little basic and not really representative of the reality of blame! and its setting. too often scifi and especially dystopian/horror scifi is shoved into the 'ai bad' box and it's true that a lot of scifi is just really bad and leans way too much into this trope, so it's sad that thats the direction a lot of people's minds go when interacting with blame!, because thats what they expect from the scifi dystopian horror manga, but the world of blame! isnt that way because of unchecked ai. in a much more realistic way, the world is the way it is because of a combination of factors (corporations deciding which people deserved to live and be considered human and which didn't; a mysterious epidemic that affected all of humanity regardless of said corporations' idea of 'human'; a post-human species thrust into existence against their will and forced to adopt a warrior culture out of survival; plus god knows what else). unchecked ai isn't so much the cause of the chaos as it is its symptom. it's a byproduct. humans made it so that only a certain category of people deserved to live, programming the ai to exterminate everyone else and when the epidemic caused that category to lose its privileged status, then they lost control of the ai. saying that the ultimate message of blame! is 'beware bad ai' is not only shallow but also incredibly reductive, yet it is one of the most universally accepted takes. the issue in the world blame! isn't unchecked ai, it's having to deal with unchecked ai as a consequence of human error (bad programming), classism (net terminal gene ((which find a very obvious parallel to the real life passport privilege/documented citizens vs alien citizens)) + net criminals + post-human cultists) and chance (disease)

#im SORRY i will shut up about blame! eventually (lie) #i just. i know i should read other stuff but its my special little book with my special little pathetic man of a protagonist #blame! #ofc there a lot of really good scifi that isnt just 'ai bad uwu' but theres SO MUCH scifi that is merely that and its a bit frustrating #seeing so many people talk about blame! the same ways dfsdasdssjd

[oflgtfol]

i think the whole discourse around whether or not cishet aro men are queer stems specifically from the idea of allo aros being hypersexual - and so the idea of an allo aro, specifically a straight aro man, draws to mind the idea of like, fuckboys, or sexist men who only view women as sex objects, etc. And that is likely why the idea of cishet aro men leaves such a bad taste in apparently so many peoples mouths

now, i’ve spoken before about how attraction =/= libido. i’ve mostly spoken about this in the context of being ace, where asexuals can still have a libido despite not experiencing sexual attraction. the confusion and conflation between attraction and behavior has been a huge source of frustration for me with regards to the popular idea of asexuality and how it has confused me on my path to figuring out my own sexual identity over the years

BUT. the idea holds true not only for aces who have high libidos - but also for allosexuals who have low libidos. the idea that to be allo aro is to immediately be some hypersexual fuckboy is just, so warped? just because you experience sexual attraction but not romantic attraction does not mean you immediately become some sexist pig who always needs your dick wet. like idk it’s just beyond fucking frustrating to see the way that people sexualize alloaros when they’re just - they’re just people. you would not assume what another person’s sex life or libido is if they were otherwise alloromantic allosexual, because your orientation describes the way you experience attraction, not your behavior and sex life, nor your libido. in the same way, being alloaro has literally nothing to do with what your actual libido is. so why are allo aros the exception? to try to divide the community and exclude them based on your assumption of their sex lives is just so fucked

#brot posts #aro tag #gonna get a bit TMI here. beware #i think im definitely acespec i dont know if im fully ace or not but im definitely acespec #and i dont care to define myself further than thst cuz its just gonna be frustrating for no reason #and the reason why i get so mad about the idea that aces inherently dont have sex #is that like - im acespec and i definitely have a libido of some kind #im still a virgin tho! like im not out here being some fuckboy #i just jerk off about it like jesus christ #like when you have this idea of alloaros in your head of being some hypersexual freaks with no boundaries and disrespectful of their #partners etc insert every fuckboy stereotype #its just - why are you assuming things about their sex lives and then deciding you dislike them based on your assumptions #1. how do you know theyre even having sex? all because theyre allosexual? #not all allosexuals have sex…? and not in a celibate way? #they could just jerk off about it and be perfectly content that way. same as me! #2. and even if they are having sex who give a shit? fwb exist you can easily have respectful consensual sex without romance #to assume otherwise is just…. #well dare i say it. its very sex negative. you have messed up ideas on sex if thats what you think