#im dyin scoob

[alchemania]

“Don't you hate her?”

Furina turned, eyebrows raised in confusion. “Huh?”

“Your creator. Don't you hate her?”

The girl pondered a moment, looking unsure. “I..don't know.”

“You should,” he asserted. “All this time you had to suffer alone, for what?? People who didn't even care about the real you?? People who were ungrateful and selfish and only cared about themselves, at the end of the day??”

“Not everyone is like that,” Furina protested, shaking her head slowly. “I ..did suffer, but it all worked out in the end. Besides, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for her-”

“The same could be said for my mother,” Wanderer interrupted, eyes flashing. “I came into being because of her, but that doesn't make her a good person, or a good parent. She hurt me. These two facts can coexist. Focalors created you, yes, but she also subjected you to 500 years of suffering where you couldn't confide in ANYONE or risk losing everything. Wasn't that awful?? Wasn't it a horrible time? You were all alone living on a hope and a prayer, and if it went wrong, it would have been all for nothing. You were a means to an end, and what do you have to show for it? Sure, everybody was saved and all was well, but now you're just - a person, and people hate you for what you did, people hate you for what you DIDN'T do. Was it worth it?? Are you satisfied?”

“I am,” she nodded, after a beat. “Because, this is what I was created to do. And, I'm free now. I don't know what I'm going to do, but at least my life is mine. I can do whatever I want. I can live.” Wanderer's jaw clenched, and Furina frowned, nervously. “..why are you so angry?”

“Because SOMEONE has to be!” he shouted, voice cracking. “I mean- I heard about the trial, they were gonna kill you- they lured you there because you wouldn't talk, right? And then after everything, did anyone apologize to you or- praise you, for all the hell you went through? Anything??”

“.. Neuvillette is taking care of me.”

The pain on Wanderer's face was almost palpable, at that.

“..anything else?”

“.. it's fine," she tried to appease. "It's not like I serve any purpose anymore. Like I said, I did what I was created to, so I'm not of any use and-”

“Stop.”

“..what?”

“STOP- talking like that,” Wanderer snapped, eyes suspiciously glossy. She sounded so much like him, who he used to be, and it hurt so badly.

A blank sheet of paper has infinite potential, but it is nothing as long as it is empty, he'd said, a good while ago. He'd been wrong about himself, and Furina was wrong now.

“You're not just - what you were made for. You don't - what happened to you is wrong. You're not DISPOSABLE now that everything is over.”

“It- it was for everyone's sake, compared to my suffering, it's obvious what's more important! I had to save them! It’s what I was born for! It doesn't matter -”

“It DOES,” he yelled, eyes glowing an almost neon icy blue, and she startled. “Stop acting like your suffering was something that was necessary. Stop acting like it was just for the greater good. That doesn't matter! The fact of the matter is that you suffered, and you were hurt, and you're STILL hurting! And- barely anybody is there for you..your creator, she should have been there for you, she should have protected you, but she didn't. She didn't. And you - you have every right to be angry with her, for not being there for you. For you being unable to live, until now. It was wrong, even if it was, as she claimed, for the greater good. Don't defend her.”

"She loved me-"

"And she left you, so not enough."

Just like my mother ..

“...Wanderer,” Furina ventured, worry all over her face.

“What?”

“You're crying…”

..oh. He hadn't even noticed, but his cheeks WERE wet, and he put a hand to one with a start, quickly scrubbing at his face. “Ah-” and he pulled his hat over his face, to hide it.

“..it was a lot. I often wondered when everything would end. I wanted, to tell someone so badly what was going on,” Furina admitted, and Wanderer looked up, eyes red from weeping. “There were a lot of times I didn't think I was going to make it, but. But I did, and, and everything was okay.”

“But are you?”

There was a long pause, and the two of them stared at each other until Furina slowly shook her head no, hot tears streaming down her cheeks.

“See? You're - we're both so messed up, from everything, and no one was there,” Wanderer almost whispered, looking out the window. "No one was there to help. ..You're strong as hell, I'll give you that. If I was in your shoes, I don't know if I would have made it. It seems people are stronger than I've given them credit for..”

It was something that surprised him, again and again.

“I just don't understand why you care..”

“.. I don't know why I do,” he shrugged. “Maybe because you remind me of myself, and. It hurts, looking at you and feeling like I'm looking in the mirror. But someone has to be in your corner and -”

“And you want to do that?”

A pause.

“..Well, if you don't stand up for you, no telling who will.”

“You don't have to cry over me. I'm -”

“If you say you're not worth it, I am going to bodyslam you,” Wanderer growled, eyes flashing, and Furina put up her hands.

“I wasn't going to! I was going to say that I will be okay. Not now, but. Eventually. I'm healing. I promise. There's people who care, like you.”

Wanderer fell silent then, looking away, and she reached out and squeezed his hand. “Thank you. I'm still wrestling with - with what I want to do and where I'll go but. It's nice to know that I'm valued just for existing.”

“That's all you need to be valued,” he muttered, looking to the floor. “You don't have to prove the worth of your existence. It's fine to just be.”

“..are you talking to yourself, or me?”

He looked to her then, expression unreadable, and she smiled sadly, in understanding. “Both is good. It's okay to just be. We're here, and we'll be okay.”

“Yeah,” Wanderer whispered, giving a shaky breath. “..we will."

#screaming crying #i will probably go back and clean this up later but i just wanted to get it out there and start yelling #i think wanderer would be so so angry about what happened to furina and it just. weighs heavy on his heart and he's like god. GOD!!! #his heart is way squishier than he would like to admit he's ready to square up so quickly and had it not been for focalors being dead #oh BABY he'd have Some Words For Her #genshin impact #wanderer #furina #4.2 spoilers #AUGH I ALMOST FORGOT TO TAG SPOILERS SORRY SORRY #please god i am going to explode i am thinking so hard im in pain #ue ue ue ue ue #loved but left behind..... #a means to an end..you feel me... #im dyin scoob

[cup1dkz]

Just remembered fem castiel

#im dyin scoob #spn #supernatural #castiel novak #castiel

[neonimebrownami]

Bro i just thinksjwoonsjsowaakskss jdsjiwkamskalalslzkd pls dont untumblr me please aksosowoqoqoqooqaks im peosiajqoamMall gahahah

#spongebob fanart #meme art #fanart #spongebob #bob sponge #black artist #sorry lmao #self care #idk wtf is going on #im dyin scoob

[supergameboytwo]

too hot to sleep

#have the ac running at 68 degrees but everybody just keeps leaving the doors open bc theyre too lazy to close them #im dyin scoob

[screechwhisper]

Those memes about wearing a binder in the summer... They were right

#personal #im dyin scoob #trans guy stuff #fuckin hate this weather

[xxx-calibur]

call that global warming - @cantoruinada

She's not Gaia but she's heating up for sure. Needs her soil tilled and seeded.

#nature's bounty | carata ruler #im dyin scoob

[throne-of-ashleygraves]

FUCK IM ACTUALLY STUPID I DID DRAW ASHLEY WITH A SMARTPHONE LMFAK

#see this is what i MEAN #im dyin scoob #the one where she was typing on the tv doesnt count thats just a shitpost #xanpost

[gxlden-angels]

hey. don't cry. 20 million blasphemy, ok?

#im dyin scoob #ex christian #religious trauma

[swanbelly]

ohh my god. I was gonna make risingstar's leader ceremony the prologue but it's so long. Im at page 7 and theres still half the cats to go. Prologues arent supposed to be THIS LONG

Cant decide if i should cut it out (even though because of circumstance i want to highlight each cat, the life they lived and the life theyre living) or leave it and have a long ass prologue and just try to keep up the length for the chapters

#clangen #locustclan #im dyin scoob #i love what i have so far #but its So Much

[ground-zer0s]

Cheese curds and a chili cheese dog is a bad combo for someone with lactose intolerance but here we are

#im dyin scoob #mistakes were made

[nakadoo]

local trash person loves local trash man

#wordydoodles #my art #sketchy #im dyin scoob #izaya orihara

[the-stray-liger]

Im quitting coffee

#i was driking some coffee on call with a friend and suddnely I had to run to the bathroom to barf #im dyin scoob

[rowdyrhapsody]

Imagine if i actually finished an art piece. this is like months of buildup btw and these are the most coherent ones

#every day is wip wednesday for me #im dyin scoob #hmu when you guys find the secret to art motivation

[iilelio]

My body is so confused by the weather. My period has been skipping every other month but I'm getting every symptom cranked up to 11. Y'know when I was a kid and we found out about the endometriosis my dad joked that I'd be in pain 75% of my life. I'm thinking now that's around 85 and above.

#ruespeak #and no one ive ever met irl has these problems this severely #im dyin scoob #i dont want to faint at the grocery store

[ghcstpyre]

sorry I've not been active the last week, work has been killing me :')

#m: ash speaks. #im dyin scoob #first full week back and we are SO BUSY

[marekh01]

Waba daba your mother

#your mother #this is a thirst post #sexy titts #i'm suffering #pls help #something something #crazy? i was crazy once #it's the funny #i'm crazy #bababooey #what #maybe idk #this is a cry for help #im dyin scoob #its true #transgender #what the fuck #deez nuts #none of these tags are remotely related to the post #relatable #whaaaaat #im gonna throw up #snails #are evil