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mothgardens · 3 months

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it is 2am and i am feeling so much sam winchester love rn so here is a list of taylor swift songs i think resonate with him:

1. Anti-Hero

I feel as tho all the lyrics work towards his character.

Mr. Samuel “It’s me, Hi, I’m the problem it’s me… everybody agrees,” Winchester

I should not be left to my own devices -> Dean constantly implies that Sam shouldn’t be left to figure things out on his own. He does this so much that Sam actually confronts him about it, multiple times.

I wake up screaming from dreaming -> Sam used to wake up from his visions freaked the hell out.

The second verse is also very fitting; he always felt like a freak or monster compared to everyone else.

2. Clean

DEMON BLOOD !!!!!!

I think it works really well for his addiction arc because the song is about toxic relationships (aka RUBY).

The drought being the worst -> Being locked in Bobby’s panic room.

The flowers that we grown together died of thirst -> The powers that grew and developed during his addiction and slowly disappeared when he was sobering.

I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing -> Sam was shouting and banging for hours down in the panic room and no one came to check on him until he was quiet.

Ten months older, I wont give in. Now that i’m clean, I’m never gonna risk it -> He never went back

3. Nothing New

Honestly, the whole reason this song is on the list is because of the lyric:

How can a person know everything at 18, but nothing at 22 -> Sam left for Stanford at 18. That was his first taste of freedom; it was his first time deciding something for himself. He was his own person. He had finally escaped. But, then at 22, Dean came and brought him back in. Jess dies. Everything feels lost again.

In general, I think Sam has lost of teenage girl vibes to him tho. This is probably self projection, but I think its true and this is MY analysis so <3.

4. My Tears Ricochet

This song is about Sam and John’s Stanford fight, and general dynamics that they share.

This one is going to get it’s own in depth, dedicated post <3 but some highlights are:

Even on my worst day, did i deserve, all the hell you gave me -> Sam was a child. No matter how arrogant or frustrating he could be, John should have never been so harsh on him. Telling your kid to never come back just because he wants to go to college is INSANE.

And I can go anywhere I want, just not home -> THIS LINE IS SO AHHHHHHH SAMMY.

Cursing my name, wishing i stayed -> John. John. John. Cursing Sam to never return, while simultaneously wishing he had never left.

Cause when I’d fight you used to tell me I was brave -> Parallel, John telling Sam he being brave on a hunt VS John condescendingly saying Sam was being brave for standing up to him.

You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same -> John realizing that Sam might have to die if nothing changes. John giving that responsibility to Dean by giving his life for Dean’s; selfless selfishness.

5. Mirrorball

Mr. Samuel “And when I break, it’s in a million pieces” Winchester

I’m still on that tightrope, I’m still trying everything to get you laughing at me -> Sam continuously tries to do his best under every circumstance. Even though most of the people around him have such little faith in him. He won’t stop trying.

And I’m still a believer, but I don’t know why -> His faith is God and the stereotypical Christian religion in general throughout the series fascinates me. He has very little reason to keep his faith, but he does. Even in later seasons, I think it was s11, when he prays and believes that Lucifer’s visions are actually messages from God.

I’ve never been a natural, all I do is try try try -> Sam doesn’t actually know what he is doing. He uses his training, but that only can get you so far in mental battles with Lucifer or physical battles with God. He does what he thinks is right. He just wants to help.

6. This Is Me Trying

This is also in the works of developing its own post. Highlights include:

I didn’t know if you’d care if i came back, i have a lot of regrets about that -> Sam never got to know if Dean wanted him back. All that time spent at Stanford he had to wonder if his father and brother actually missed him or not.

Could’ve followed my fears all the way down -> This just screams Lucifer trauma to me

THEY TOLD ME ALL MY CAGES WERE MENTAL, SO I GOT WASTED LIKE ALL MY POTENTIAL -> *violently screams and shakes* The visions, Demon blood, Hallucifer, literally anytime Sam is struggling it is brushed off as him being too worked up about it. Dean literally COMPLAINED to Bobby about how much work it was that Sam was mentally ill. LIKE DUDE.

AND MY WORDS SHOOT TO KILL WHEN IM MAD, I HAVE A LOT OF REGRETS ABOUT THAT -> Sam does say shit that is hurtful. He does shit that is bad. It’s usually out of frustration from someone else’s actions towards him. AKA it’s usually towards Dean, when Dean belittles him.

pouring out my heart to a stranger, BUT I DIDNT POUR THE WHISKEY -> Sam vs Dean (this is NOT me belittling Dean’s alcoholism bc i get he has an issue)

That this is me trying, AT LEAST IM TRYING -> Again, Sam is just doing his best.

And it’s hard to be at a party when I when i feel like an open wound -> Sam has to just behave and go through his life normally even when he is struggling with abandonment, addiction, 180 years of every abuse imaginable and unimaginable, guilt, and just so much suffering.

It ’s hard to be anywhere when all i want is you, you’re a flashback -> Sam’s feelings about Jess. I constantly think about that scene in the impala when he tells Dean that he still thinks about her. It had been like twelve or more years. Its so painful.

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please excuse my typos

i am yet but just a girl

<3

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ziggykatzfan · 9 months

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i just think that it's insane we don't talk about sam and bela. like she stole from him & SHOT him and he was still all 😍 😍. that dream was soooooo..... sam loves evil fuckedup hot sexy women and he's so right

#im sure dream root was used somewhat in that lil dream but omg he was loving it #i fucking love lauren cohan so i do not blame him at all #she is so hot #my lord #the chemistry was real #sam winchester #bela talbot #sam posting #sam when he gives bottom vibes #she uses the strap- [GUNSHOTS]#insane no one is talking about this #someone share my insanity please

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notedchampagne · 8 months

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posting this right before i sleep so that i can forget my embarrassments

mortifying nakeder version

#''SAM i think youre overreacting'' im purging the demons that resided in me since catholic school. leave me be #anyway recently ive been getting compositions beamed into my head but not a reason WHY.#so ive been working to try and finish at least one a day but this is actually kind of insane ridiculous now that i think about it #but this doesnt matter because i hate having too many WIPS im finishing them all anyway #a lot of them are half naked. again this is a cry for help #pyrrha dve #paul the sixth #paul tlt #pyrpaul #paulha #the locked tomb #nona the ninth #partial nudity #nudity #dudele

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k9effect · 9 months

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I'm very busy with training for my new job and am exhausted when I get home so, sorry for the minimal art! But here is a Floydsin sketch for your soul <3

[Click for better quality, reblogs appreciated]

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brinkle-brackle · 1 month

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GUYS. GUYS GUESS WHO'S FINALLY GONNA BE SEEING THE ABCK 5O TUE FUTURE MUSICAL IN JANURAYR

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #MY PARENTS AND I ARE GOING TO CELEBRATE MY 21ST #I'M SCREAMINGGG I'VE BEEN VIBRATING EVER SINCE MY MOM SAID YES A FEW HOURS BACK #AND WE'RE GONNA GET ORCHESTRA PIT SEATS TOO??!??!?!?!?!?!#SHJFKJWJSJCJJEIWIDHCBJWUDJWODBJCJEIEJFNG #we're gonna be seeing the touring one and not the broadway one #so we sadly won't get to bear witness to the absolute icon that is roger bart :/#BUT STILL #IT'S GONNA BE SO INSANE #(and maybe someday we'll get to see the broadway performance with roger cause that'd be the DREAM dude)#I'M SERIOUSLY . OVWR THE MOON RIGHT NOW #HAVE BEEN FOR THE PAST FEW HOURS #I'M GETTING THE TICKETS AFTER I FINISH EATING IM SO HYPED #GUYS. I'M FINALLY GONNA SEE IT #AFTER ALL THIS TIME #WOOHOOOOOOKGJFJJF!!!!!!!*&!^!%#RAAAAARRRGHHHGGHGG 💥💥💥💥💥#I'M GOING SO CRAZY RIGHT NOW.#EXPECT ME TO BE VERY NOT NORMAL ABOUT BTTF IN THE COMING DAYS ESPECIALLY #sam says things #back to the future the musical #bttf the musical #back to the future #bttf

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a-wondering-thought · 2 months

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Omfg im finally on the wifi

#yeah hi all #this like the first time in 8-ish hours i've been on the wifi #so yk im not ignoring you #i'll get to all your asks and reblogs in a sec #jesus fucking christ #ndjdjdbshhdj #i was about to kill someone okay the mood swings have been insane today #sam screams into the void

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zalexetz · 3 days

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Sam is a burntout gifted kid. and here I am, thinking I'm a sam kinnie before that episode, feeling extra called out with that information now.

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#sam is my baby.#i have so nany thoughts on the episode but im waay to insane about it all to put something into words #tmagp #kuprum goes brr #samama khalid #hes so autistic (just like me </3)

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flugame-mp3 · 5 days

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what do you fucking mean that's how charlie dies. THAT'S HOW CHARLIE DIES??? i mean i know the show has a penchant for killing off every character who's not a winchester brother or an angel of thursday but good god. what the fuck. charlie was such a good and enjoyable recurring character, and she had such a fandom impact that i've seen, and she's only around for THREE SEASONS?? (sidebar: it's amazing she has the presence she does for only being around for a couple episodes in the long run!) but: was this necessary? and she just dies offscreen after her skills are utilized to progress the plot of decoding the book of the damned?? oh my god. what in the actual fuck. i'm finding myself getting genuinely very upset at her death. she did not fucking deserve that. and i can absolutely see why the fan response to her death is what it is now. completely fucking unjustified and throwaway and useless.

#theo.txt #spn #charlie #spn spoilers #spn 10x21 #almost none of the women who've gotten fridged on this show have deserved it but still #good god this one made me especially angry #why do you use this character for a plot point and then ship her off somewhere. to oz or to the afterlife. so often?#she was such a cool character with a good story that i enjoyed and related to and THIS is what they did with her?? and from my perusing she #doesn't even really come back like bobby occasionally does?? and his death. while devastating to me as somebody who really liked him. still #felt WAY better than this #sorry i ended that episode with my jaw on the fucking FLOOR oh my god. /neg #what did she have to die for? where is that post about female characters dying so male characters can feel sad but it's a gifset of all the #bullshit ass deaths of women on supernatural #i love the show fucking obviously but jesus h christ.#but also you know what. having the context that i have. still a fucked up thing to say but i see why dean says That to sam now during #charlie's funeral. it IS an interesting look into how they respond to the other one violating their wishes/freedoms and into their larger #dynamic actually! but thats not what this post is really about #wow. i am actually livid. poor fucking charlie.#if she was like a sister to the winchesters how about you bring her back huh? how about you revive her? jesus christ #i wonder what her heaven is like. i hope its dnd and movie night with the girls #i took a little break mid-typing this to see if i was just being insane and angry but no the super wiki has a whole section about the fan #outrage at charlie's death and the discussions it furthered about the show's misogynistic tendencies #and you know what? good!#ok anyway. im going to go browse charlie art and feel abnormal now.#supernatural #charlie bradbury

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ectonurites · 4 months

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SUPER DARK TIMES (2017) DIR. KEVIN PHILLIPS ↳ JOSH TEMPLETON, ZACH TAYLOR, & ALLISON BANNISTER

#super dark times #zach taylor #josh templeton #allison bannister #fun tiny detail: in their big focus gifs... Josh is looking at Zach. Zach is looking at Allison. and Allison is looking at Josh <3 #im simply. rotating these three around in my brain 24/7 yk. so many thoughts about each individually and in the assorted combos #Zach and his guilt. his inability to accept the role he had in what happened to Daryl and how that seeps out into EVERYTHING #Josh and HIS guilt—trying to reconcile the events we saw through such a 'Zach's (paranoid) POV' filter into something coherent #Allison as the bookends of the story who doesn't even KNOW the majority of what happened—considering HER perspective on it all...#if i think about the inherent tragedy of Allison's attempt at romance with Zach i need to like scream into a pillow they make me insane #Josh and Zach's deteriorating friendship... to lose the trust of your best friend... to be so hurt by the person who knows you best...#and then i have so many QUESTIONS about Josh & Allison towards the end. What did they TALK about on those phone calls??#because there was more than just the one that would have been necessary to plan him coming over with the weed??#sam edits

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munamania · 1 month

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obsessed w my friend. i named her jackie i think forever ago lolol one of the film girlz. anyway her not letting sam get a word in last night when we had to record a little podcast together for a project. he was sooooooooooo mad

#we were Chatting...#and look first yes it's cause he naturally kept just trying to talk over/through us and she would just keep going. yay<3 and then like #she just wouldnt let him talk for more than like. i wld say 30 seconds tops but thats like barely #esp bc he just kept going back to like Well and ahahahaa so quirky fact about me is i was hit by a car #girl we've heard all these stories already including the professor and it barely has to do with our topic why are we doing this #and then after me and jackie are talking abt that one insane prof who like on top of needing ketamine injections is just not a great #person hes such a character. but talking abt how he seems to be struggling to keep up w um. post metoo life and just like women #being any more than assistants in the industry. and after like a Whilllle of this conversation w examples of shit he's said that we had to #report lololol sam goes... 'and he's also a misogynist.' hello? melania clip #abby talks #later tried to corner me abt doing a roadtrip w him and his gayass bestie to see the eclipse. like me saying Oh idk #and then him being like oh do u want me to look at tickets for u etc. girl im sorry if i do anything im going home...

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newtdrawz · 21 days

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Idk guys I'm just thinking abt Sam during the Stanford era and just Weechesters in general,,

Sam being on his own for the first time and learning what is and isn't ok to bring up to people, not being able to talk too much about his family or where he's from when asked,, learning on his own on how to socialize with others and make friends his age,,

A much younger Sam and Dean only having each other, being each other's best friends because they never stick around long enough to make other friends. Not understanding why they can't connect with the other kids at schools, not really understanding how to talk to adults that aren't hunters/their dad,, Sam and Dean always being the 'weird kids', Dean growing out of that phase either faking confidence till it just works out or copying his dad,, Sam still stuck as the 'weird, quiet, new kid'

Sam feeling out of place at school, because they don't know what he knows, they don't know about the monsters in the shadows,

But Sam also feeling out of place with his family/other hunters, because he wants a normal life, a safe life to settle down, he wants to forget about the things they hunt,,

Idk I just love the hc of young Sam and Dean just not really understanding how to socialize with others because they only really talk to their dad, each other or the occasional hunter they met through their dad,,

Idk guys,, I love you awkward, weird kid Winchesters

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samiferboy · 7 months

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#someone: earnestly talking about the themes of abuse and sa between sam and lucifer. not mincing words. supremely fucked up stuff #me: 😳😳🥵🥰 that's so fucking hot <3333 #i try to leave it out of the tags of the posts im sorry im insane abt them hyperfixation really be like #the other night i was like hmm i should branch out and try writing some other stuff. hyperfixation Simply Will Not Let Me #i cant even think about this shit without being like. i need a fucking minute #ok im gonna keep writing my dubcon drugging and addiction manipulation stuff now 🥰#avery.txt

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undeadboyfriendsupportgroup · 5 months

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SHAKES YOU SHAKES YOU SHAKES YOU

MARTIM!!!!!!!!!

MARTIM!!!!!!!!

MARTIM!!!!!!!!!!!!

MARTIM YES I FUCKING LOVE THEM SO MUCHHHH AYAHSB2JDNQKDMWKDMQKDMWKDNWEN

HAVE A DRAWING OF THEMMM BEING GOOEY AND STUPID WIDNWKFMWKDN!!!! Tim slept over and now he's in Martin's clothes AND THEY ARE very big, hehe :3

+ some closeups because I love them

+ very stupid meme because I found it hilarious to draw TIM THIS CUTE AJAJSJSJS

#sam asks #sam post #martim #I LOVE THEM SO FUCKING MUCHHHH AAAUWHDNWMDMW THEYRE SO 😭😭😭#SORRY FOR RESPONDING LITERALLY A WEEK LSTER I AM SO SLOW WITH ART LMFAO #this hurt so had to finish because like :') we just saw 119 :'))) last night :')))))) a.#ALSO LET TIM BE CUTE AND SOFT 2023 HE EXPERIENCES SO MUCH OF THE HORRORS AND HE AS A CHARACTER IS SO FULL OF ANGER AND PAIN AND #HE DESERVES TO BE CUTE AND SOFT AND JUST!!! GRRR!!!!!#LET THEM BE CUTE THEY DESERVE IT THEY'VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH #god i love martim #THABK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ASK BTW FELLOW MARTIM TRUTHERRRR #(but also i have no clue what the context of the ask is im SO SORRY)#Is it too noticeable that we find their size difference cute? JSJSJSJSJSJS #(sobbing) YOUR HONOR I LOVE THEM #2ND TIME I FORGET MARMAR'S FRECKLES let's pretend they are there #I LOVE MY 30 Y/O TRAUMATIZED MEN #AH YEAH #MARMAR IS TIMS NICKNAME FOR HIM #MAYBE SOMEDAY I'LL DO A COMIC ABOUT IT BUT ITS SO CUTE AND IT MAKES ME GO INSANE #i think mox thought of it? IDK BUT IT IS THE BEST THING EVER AND I AM SO SOFT FOR IT #timotht wimothy #martin kartin blackwood #tim stoker #tma tim #timothy stoker #martin blackwood #tma martin #tma #the magbus archives #tma fanart

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bartlovesyj · 8 days

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gnnn mutuals i’m gonna go dream about sam and lou 👍

#my posts #aegh #im genuinely so done for #while watching the fallout show. i could not stop thinking about what sam would do and how little lou would fair #it’s.. insane!#when the person asked lucy to deliver whatshisface to moldver(spelling?) i was imagining sam gojng ‘yea okay. get in backpack’#ITS OVER #THE BRAINROT IS TOO FAR #I kept looking at the craters and thinking to myself ‘mm. voidout’#IM SO DONE

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crispfencer · 8 months

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Me: 'yah I don't really have boy or girl problems lol #asexual'

Me after one glass of red wine: 'yknow you're hot right. hahaha just kidding but like. kiss me. not in a gay way or anything looool let me push you to the floor and sit on you'

#its just me sam and tom in the house tonight and :)))))))))) im going insane #why is everyone staring at each other and talking about porn. but we keep going and going oh my god #i hate domming i hate domming so bad but ive only ever done it to women lol #this is very Boy Parts of me rn fuck #we're going to sit on the sofa together and play scary games now. but if i fuck this up i will for real kill myself lol #everything is in the balance.#love you tumblr girlies!!!!!! xx #cris is talking tag

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samlover4evr · 9 months

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the way i cant watch scenes where sam is talking to amelia bc i wish that were me

#GET A GRIP HES FICTIONAL #sorry i m jsut insane about sam #this is so bad why does this happen to me #some characters i fall in love with im like aw :) him and his gf are so cute #and then others im like Ok im skipping this goodbye #i mean i liked sam and jess

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