#im so scared something big will come out and i wont be able to feel anything about it bc im too focused on smth else

[rowarn]

I’m so happy i found your blog ;___; your soft simon/konig are literally a breath of fresh air like the other anon said😍💕 you write them so well and so tender and caring, they’re literally dream men tbh😮‍💨💕 what are yiur thoughts on how they’d be w a reader whose inexperienced?? both when it comes to intimacy and love in general (im thinking of a feral and skittish cat 🐈‍⬛ who mistrusts every approach and touch and backs away 😭) i always read abiut these men when they’re w a reader who is very sure of her self/sexuality and confidently engages w them (and don’t get me wrong i love reading it regardless!) but what abour when reader has no clue how to act/what to do and is kinda ashamed about it bc she doesn’t want to let her partner down bc she still possesses the v card🥴

(im totally not projecting 😭🙊 btw it’s totally fine if you don’t want to answer this!! wouldn’t want to overwhelm or cross any limits!)

HI MY LOVE IM GLAD UR ENJOYING MY STUFF!!!

hmmm i think both simon and könig wouldn't actually rlly say anything about sex unless you brought it up.

simons very perceptive, he can tell that you're a little shy and skittish about anything too intimate so he keeps his touches pg and simply follows your lead. he lets you guide the pace and he won't bring up getting his dick wet unless you do first.

if he catches on that you may actually want to properly discuss it (even if u don't flat out say it, again he can tell if somethings on your mind <3) then he'll be SO patient and soft with you as he listens. if you're embarrassed or scared, he'll do his best to reassure you that he's not some bumbling idiot who doesn't know how to make it feel good. and he's also not the type to really care about the idea of virginity. doesn't matter to him; he'll guide you and teach you everything snd he'll be so careful and sweet with you, you don't need to worry. he's not great with words but he does his best to get his thoughts across to put you at ease!!

könig wont bring it up bc he's kind of nervous. his thoughts sort of race when he doesn't get a black and white answer so when he notices you're a little skittish about him touching you, he goes thru 400 different reasons why and doesn't want to ask and scare u off by thinking he's some sex obsessed maniac (he's a pro at catastrophizing!!!)

will not ever bring it up avtually, you definitely will have to sit him down and spell out your thoughts to him. he'll noticeable relax in relief when he realizes you're not scared of him you're just....embarrassed?

unlike simon, he is pretty good with words. he blunt and gets straight to the point. he'll tell you that he's...big....everywhere and that he knows how to prep you so it won't hurt and that he would be SO careful if u felt like you were ready. he also assures you that it's nothing to be embarrassed about. contrary to simon, he does understand that some people view their virginity as something special and that if u want he can make it a rlly romantic evening for u!! it's up to u!!! just tell him what u want and he will follow your lead without a single thought <3

overall, simon isn't rlly the type to just jump into bed unless he gets the idea that you CLEARLY want to have sex with him. he's had his fair share of bedmates and he will definitely be able to pick up on any flirting. if he thinks you might not want to have sex, he wont say anything. he's a grown man who doesn't need to get his dick wet (: he's got his hand (yum) <3

and könig is.....könig. he's just happy to be here <3

I HOPE I ANSWERED UR QUESTIONS!!!!!

#ask #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley x reader #cod x reader #könig x reader #konig x reader #cod smut #ghost smut #ghost x reader #simon ghost riley smut #simon riley smut #könig smut #konig smut

[tinykonig]

Ghost x reader headcannons

im so glad you guys are enjoying these??? i love making them and its helping me procrastinate finals :) as always these are written for afab, and sometimes include references feminine terms. if you like how i write for ghost, send me a lil request and i might turn it into something :)

NSFW indicated in post 🤍

Genuinely it takes fucking forever for Ghost to admit having feelings for you. He is in denial for soooo long

What finally makes him crack is getting critically injured on a mission and all he can think about is how he should have told you

He resolves to tell you once he comes to in the hospital. He figures it would be stupid to waste any more time

You come to see him and you think he doesn’t want you there because he can’t make eye contact with you and that’s rare for him

You just kind of awkwardly apologize for coming and turn to leave and he just barks out “Wait.”

When Ghost is getting something off his chest he gets it all out. So he’s just very bluntly telling you that you were all he could think about when he thought he was going to die and he doesn’t see the point in hiding how he feels any longer

At the end of his speech he looks at you and you are getting a little emotional and this motherfucker has the audacity to be like, “… why are you crying?”

Like you just spilled your heart out to me give me a break!!!

His entire body relaxes when you tell him you feel the same way. He didn’t even realize how tense he had been

You don’t leave his side until he’s recovered and able to fully function back to normal

He doesn’t say thank you with his words but rather his actions. His eyes tell you everything anyways

Sometimes he will glance around him to make sure no one else is watching and then just lift you into the most earth shatteringly wonderful hug

Puts you down after a few seconds and returns to whatever he was doing without a word. You grew used to this eventually

So protective. Like wont even let you walk on the side of the sidewalk thats closer to the road. Puts himself between you and any dangers

You will be his passenger princess. There is no way he lets you drive sorry thats his job, he looks damn good doing it so you dont mind

(holds your hand over the center console)

Big on acts of service. Does little domestic things for you like folds your laundry while you take a nap and offers to cook dinner every other day

Stares at you when you sleep. He thinks you look so angelic and peaceful and it makes him feel all warm inside but he’s definitely scared the shit out of you a few times

Not a fan of going out a lot. He’s a homebody when he’s not in the field

The best listener!!! He will offer advice when you ask for it or will just lend you sympathy when you don’t want advice

He does have his moments where he needs his space, and if you try to push him he can get mean

After he’s recharged and feeling back to normal he is touch. starved.

Likes to spoon, likes to watch movies with you in between his legs and laying on his chest, likes standing behind you while you are doing anything and just holding your hips

He always buries his face in your neck and just breathes deep. Could drown in your scent and be happy

It takes him awhile to remove his mask freely around you because its a feeling of vulnerability that just gnaws at him

He warms up to it over time and you see his face more and more often. Loves that you act the same either way

He has dimples (fist fight me if you disagree)

He can grow a killer beard, but trims it based on your preference because he doesn’t care either way

Very thoughtful with gifts and always remembers your birthday (sometimes forgets his own)

Knows your order for every restaurant and will make sure its correct and if its not he IS letting them know. How dare they

Literally mocks whatever accent you have constantly. Playfully but he’s brutal

If you are being stubborn he is not against just picking you up and slinging you across his shoulder

Sleeps like a rock this one

Likes to watch sports on tv and catches himself cheering his team on and then gets embarrassed (its so fucking cute)

If his mask is off and he sees any exposed part of your skin- he’s biting

And then going about his business like he didn’t just bite you???? So weird

NSFW BELOW THIS POINT

The biting happens in the bedroom too, specifically when he cums. Your neck will have teeth marks

Switch, switch, switch

His bedroom eyes are soo severe , he just gives you a single half lidded stare and your clothes are coming off

He loves to degrade you, he doesn’t talk a lot but when he does he is telling you how pathetic you look crying on his cock

Loves to be degraded too :) Whines if you call him pussy drunk (because he is)

A little rough but king of aftercare

Loves watching you come undone on his fingers. Has a thing for wearing his gloves when he fingers you

OVERSTIMULATION thats all

Against the wall is a specialty of Simons

Grunts a lot, growls sometimes when he is close

You go down on him and he sometimes lets go and moans

Always returns the favor

Doesn’t do quickies or risky places

Will do about anything else

#call of duty #call of duty modern warfare 2 #ghost x reader #simon riley #simon riley x reader #genie writes cod #THE GHOST POST IS HERE FOLKS

[meosq]

Tr boys reacting to a boxing gf

“ stay in the middle.. like you a little ! ”

warnings ; fem ! reader , violence

characters ; Draken , Mikey , Chifuya

DRAKEN

I feel as if he wouldn’t think in the slightest you. His beautiful gf was in-fact an award winning boxer and pretty big in the boxing world, i mean look at you… your so sweet to him and your scared of little bugs in your apartment.

So you asking him to see a boxing match with you would be usual, so he’d think its meant to make him happy as he does enjoy violence. How thoughtful of you.

when he saw you disappear in the back it confused him more but he still dismissed it thinking you’re on the look out for a bathroom or something.

But when he saw you enter the ring in your boxing gear and whatnot , it really shocked him. He never saw THIS coming.. and hes usually able to see through everything you do.

When he saw you throw a punch knocking your opponent down , something switched and he was blushing watching you celebrate your win.

“Y/n.. why didn’t you tell me something that important…” Draken whined as he came into your dressing room closing the door behind him.

“You never asked hehe” you teased while sticking your tongue out, knowing damn well you hid it on purpose to surprise him.

“Y/n…” he said as he walked closer to you placing his head on your shoulder.

“Okay okay im sorry “ you stated as you kissed his head as he looked away in embarrassment.

MIKEY

Mikey was very nosy. VERY NOSY.. to the point even you weren’t able to hide anything from him, yet you successfully hid your boxing career from him for quite a while.

Almost a year into the relationship! You could’ve hid it longer but training started to go into the quality time you had with mikey, making him more and more irritated by the deceasing time together.

That was until he had enough and followed you to where you went every day.

“I cannot believe y/n-chin had to bail AGAIN… didn’t even bother giving me reason “ Mikey said as he pouted , angry at your last minute cancellation. Watching you run of to where ever you had to desperately be at.

“You know what. Im following” Mikey stated as he hopped onto his bike and followed you.

He followed you until you reached a gym, not just any type of gym.. a boxing gym!

“no way. Is y/n-chin… cheating on me” he thought overreacting and slowly becoming emotional.

He sat on his bike thinking for half and hour and how he should confront you until he had enough and stormed in.

“Y/N-CHIN HOW-“

“what” mikey said as he saw you putting on your boxing gloves and entering the ring.

“huh? Manji??? What are you doing here??” You said as you looked at him in confusion and shock onto how he found you here.

“How did you find me?- did you follow me mikey.” You said low-key pissed your surprise was ruined because Mikey couldn’t stop being nosy.

“whoops.. hehe sorry” Mikey said as he walked towards you with the biggest smile ever.

“Never knew you could box ! “

“You weren’t supposed to.. i was gonna surprise you with tickets to my tournament” you whined knowing you wont hear the end of this until the season is over.

Chifuya

Unlike draken and Mikey , you told him at the start of the relationship!

Mainly due to the fact that he nagged you quite a bit about being safe and if you was going out at night to call him so he could accompany you.

“Y/n! You need to call me when you’re going out at night!! Even if its at 3am, gangs are going to try hurt you to get at me when i find out about you.”

“Oh don’t worry, ill be fine I promise! “ you said laughing at his worry filled face

“But it isn’t y/n-“

“If anything happens ill just punch them! Im a professional boxer chifuya… “ you said nonchalantly as if you didn’t just drop the biggest bomb on chifuya.

“y/n? What.”

You looked at him in confusion wondering what he was so utterly shocked about-

“Oh..” you realised, he hadn’t known about your professional career up until now

“That is sooo fricking cool y/n oh my god?!:£3&3” Chifuya stated as he scooted closer to you star struck by your career

Obviously you got a bit cocky.. i mean. Who wouldn’t? Your cutie of a boyfriend was over the moon and basically fuelling your ego to the top!

“I know bae. I know ! Im so cool ive won against so many people you should come to my tournaments sometime !! “

“Can’t believe you hide that from me.. thought we was locked in bae..”

“WE ARE FUYUU IM SORREYYY”

-Kiyo

#tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers x reader #tr #tokrev #anime #anime x reader #headcanons #manjiro sano #mikey #mikey x reader #draken x reader #draken #ken ryuguji x reader #ken ryuuguji headcanons #manjiro sano headcanons #tr chifuyu #chifuya x reader #tr headcanons #anime headers #manga #tr manga

[webginz]

i had the worst shower ever. i was like, tripping out. reminded me of my "episodes" i had in middle school. just like voices and not knowing where i am. and not being able to get back to reality.

well now im on my way to the dentist, theres no way in hell they wont be able to notice i was just crying. (from fear of going to the dentist, not from the shower thing lol)

im so scared :(

[took out a part here but it was just about stress and disordered eating things from this morning]

then i got to the dentist and it sucked. long dentist story ahead

okay dentist. everything that couldve gone wrong, went wrong.. i tried acting normal, and we had small talk or whatever like normal dentist x ray stuff, but she could instantly tell something was wrong with me, i guess.

she gave me a health form to fill out. i was still chill and this point and was like oh yeah i have blood pressure problems but its only if im up moving around!! so not doing that at the desntist hehe amirite?! i also checked anxiety and i think thats what she wanted. just personal confirmation everything was gonna go wrong.

after she learned i had anxiety, she was nice, too nice imo... like i was a child. im okay with that though i guess. (i mean.. she could definitely tell i was just done crying)

she was like "the xray blanket is heavy and could help with ur anxiety" BUT I WANTED IT OFF AND COULD BARELY TALK SO I JUST NODDED. it made me feel so overwhelmed immediately. THIS IS WHERE EVERYTHING STARTED GOING BAD

im also just constantly aware of my hair and when you lean back on the stupid dentist seat my hat falls off. its like LOOK THE FREAK WHOS SCARED OF THE DENTIST AND PULLS OUT ALL HER HAIR!!

whatever. so there i am on the dentist chair. bald spots for the world to see. xray blanket sensory overload. sunglasses on top of my regular glasses. but im pushing through.

she starts using the tool on my teeth. a metal vibrating thing that sounds like a drill. my worst most awful fear is high pitched drilling noises. if im in a good mood i can put up with them for a bit, but obviously todays not that day. i try not to freak out, but she notices and asks if im okay and im like "yah" (with tears)

but then my mom comes in and shes like "can you not do it a different way?!?!" "shes freaking out" and just making everything WORSE. (used the chaos here to get rid of the dumb xray thing)

ive been on and off hyperventilating through all of this btw... i heard one of the dentist ladies say "shes crying and breathing really fast..." which was like. kill me now please god.

so back to my mom asking "can you not just do it a different way?" they do have a different way btw. without the scary machine! but then dentist lady says "she used this machine the last 2 times she was here? we dont have enough time to do it manually." (proof i was just having a bad day and i totally can be normal!!! but hearing this made me feel awful like i could feel all the dentists were thinking "she did it fine last time why is she carzy today?!?")

she then asked to step away to find the MAIN dentist lady.

at this point i was crying shaking hyperventilating and felt like i was gonna throw up from nervous energy. also my mom is pestering me a bunch (shes concerned but making everything worse, her hearts in the right place tho ily mom)

so big boss dentist lady is here. she says she looked at the xrays (from the beginning, remember?) and i have A GAZILLION CAVITIESSSSSS!!!!!

she says for my dental things from now on i should go to a SEDATION DENTIST!!!!

i was so out of it i didnt even know what to say. well now i do!!!

im not usually that scared. i was having a VERY BAD morning.

the dentist i go to now is all women. the sedation dentist is a MAN, that none of the women there had ever met. I HAVE TO GO MEET A MAN TO SEDATE ME SO I CAN BE ALONE WITH HIM? SO HE CAN DO MY TEETH? i might have a silly joking tone to this post but with this im being so serious. im scared as hell that thats just gonna end with me being raped.

i dont like male doctors/dentists/anything and always have my mom with me when i have to. there was a female assistant when i had my endoscopy and female nurses when i had my surgery. i dont want to be alone, asleep, in a room with a man i dont know. JUST BECAUSE IM SCARED OF THE DENTIST???

god i keep seeing stuff in the corner of my eye as im writing this. i think my psychosis is coming back for some reason.

every things going wrong today and forever

pls like/reply this post if you read it all im sorry for my ranting

#personal #i need a journal im sorry

[yourtwistedlies]

THATS RIGHT

your girl val binged the entire first season of the dragon prince

potential spoilers under the cut

Lord Viren is a snake

ratty little scumbag

i don’t like him ONE BIT

but let’s move onto more pressing matters while i get back to that later

the king is dead *jazz hands*

okay so i have a sneaking suspicion that the letter he gave callum was a letter that said he was to inherit the throne or something like that. though, isn’t that already obvious since he’s the oldest child of the king (even if he’s his stepson)? or does it only apply if you are blood related to the king, which means ezran would inherit it? dunno.

also i do acknowledge that rayla was hiding the fact that harrow died to protect them, but like, TELL THEM. even if they would have felt really sad and stuff ᵗᵐ, i feel like personally, i would have told them. because i feel like the longer you withhold the information, the more it’ll hurt when they figure out the truth. and i assure you, one way or another the truth always comes out.

also i felt so just like in shock while seeing the bond (for killing the king) come off of runaan’s hand. it was just so fast i could not process it. also the shadow hawk WAS SO FREAKING COOL. i was just amazed by that for a hot minute. but im not ashamed to say my first thought was that is everyone who was fighting there dead? is soren dead??? now, i wouldn’t say soren is the best person but the way he let callum beat him to impress claudia, never mind his own sister is just so 💗💗💗💗💗💗. also soren is kind of a hot snatch, and you can’t deny it, that’s speaking from someone who doesn’t even really have a type or anything.

okay, so yeah now my next big thing:

aunt amayaaaaaaaaaaa!!! aunt amayaaaaaaaaa! commander gren!!!! but mostly aunt amayaaaaa!!!!!!

eeee i love amaya!!! she’s such a freaking bada*s!! also she’s deaf, which is actually really inclusive of the show writers :D i think we need more shows with people who have disabilities and the dragon prince is a great one! it shows that you dont have to hear to be able to kick some serious a*s and lead people!!! also commander gren is just such a cutie. he translates everything for her, and THAT SCENE WHERE SHE SIGNS “I trust you, you’ve been my voice. Now you will become my hands to save the boys.” (translation from @redemptiionss—they have dragon prince translations for what amaya signs that gren doesn’t say!) AHHH!!!!! i mean that is just so sweet in like a really friendly platonic way. anyways i love aunt amaya and commander gren 💕

SPEAKING OF COMMANDER GREN. LORD VIREN YOU LITTLE TWERP WHY DID YOU UN-ASSIGN HIM FROM THE MISSIONNN??? ik he did it so that his kids could lead it obviously so they could follow his orders and do his dirty work but- you don’t know how much i wanted that commander gren screen time 😭😭 he just seems like such a funny guy

now that we’re back to the subject of lord viren-

his face is NOT doing so hot rn. he need some cera ve lotion ASAP. aging is not doing him well. okay but I’m going to stop joking now. WTF????????? HE FREAKING LIKE TORTURED RUNAAN???!?? AND PUT HIM IN A COIN????? AND HIS EYES ARE SO FREAKING SCARY??????

i mean at least gren is a witness to the torture but im honestly scared for gren now IF HE EVEN FCKING THREATENS GREN IM GONNA do nothing because he’s fake. but you already know im going to be so mad.

anyways lord viren is SICK (not in a good way). he needs serious help.

okay so yeah callum broke the primal stone to make the storm so zym could hatch blah blah blah i don’t really care. though he’s sad because he can’t do primal magic and stuff but now he’s determined to find another way to do primal magic because honestly claudia’s description of why dark magic wasn’t that bad was kind of terrifying.

yeah. then zym hatched i already forgot his full name since it’s so long, but okay!!! ALSO THEN ZYM BROKE RAYLA’S BOND!!! NOW SHE CAN SLISH AND SLASH (reference 😉) AND SHE WONT LOOSE HER HAND!!!! i love rayla :D. the dragon is kinda cute. but he can’t fly. which kinda makes him less majestic but ezran is gonna train him!!!!

ALSO EZRAN CAN TALK TO ANIMALSS!!!

i always believed in him.

next big thing issssss

claudia and soren both have different secret missions that they can’t tell each other about

like way to ruin your children’s sibling relationship and trust viren 🙄 and ALSO LORD VIREN DID NOT JUST TELL SOREN THAT IF THEY’RE ALIVE “SORRY MAN BUT YOU GOTTA KILL THEM” !!!!!!!!!!!! this man is terrifying

i want to beat him up. i could take him with no magic though. ik the only thing that is going to save him is some weird dark magic and without that his frail bones are going to have nothing on me.

okay! on that happy note i shall continue

something is going on with that mirror

runaan said that he had finally found something dangerous and that has hidden dangers (i hope they’re all inflicted on viren). lord viren has some weird obsession with that mirror and the end credits had a mirror with a hand that had four fingers (elf!!!) pressing on it. yay!! plot!!!!

that’s val’s (me!!) summary of the dragon prince season one

yeah.

aunt amayaaaa!!! aunt amayaaaaaa!!! commander gren!! but mostly aunt amayaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

#my chaotic tdp season one summary #no spoils plz #tdp #the dragon prince spoilers #NO SPOILERS FOR AFTER SEASON 1 #val talks #the dragon prince #the dragon prince season 1 #tdp s1 #tdp callum #tdp rayla #tdp claudia

[acompassionatemonster]

I seriously think I’m speaking to a three year old because there’s no way you can be older than a toddler with how stupid you are. If you are older, please consider going back to school because you’re not gonna get far in life with your lack of common sense and underdeveloped brain. There is no way you can call me illiterate when you literally started your reply with, ‘not you’re mad’ and ended with ‘stay one that Jujutsu Kaisen season two’. And in your first reply you did get your ‘your’ and ‘you’re’ mixed up - you used ‘your’ when it should’ve been ‘you’re so scared’. Now please tell me if that made any sense. Take your head out of your ass and admit how much of an imbecile you are.

Love don’t worry about if I have a job or not, I know I am and will be fine but it’s you that you should be worried about right now. I don’t think you can get a job with your stupidity and illiteracy - no wonder why you read manga, bro just follows the pictures and ignores all the actual writing. Please do yourself and everyone else a favour and log off of Tumblr and every other social and pick up an actual book.

Oh come on now, don’t be a coward and avoid my question. I’ll stop bothering you when you either answer what media you are planning to consume soon or admit that you putting a Gojo spoiler without any spoiler warning and under a Toji tag was idiotic and insensitive (even though you strongly disagree - I’m sorry I didn’t know we had a new Joker over here- not that you have the IQ to be able to pull that off). I’m sorry that I’m the only honest person in your life to say you are insensitive. I bet you don’t even know what that word means given that your literacy and comprehension skills are very limited. So I’ll help you out a bit (because I doubt you can even spell it) and give you a definition, ‘insensitive’ (an adjective) - showing or feeling no concern for other’s feelings. A synonym would be ‘inconsiderate’. You can’t prove me wrong that those words don’t describe you. It was a big spoiler and I know it because you were probably crying over it and in your post you literally say you’re not ‘reading jjk anymore idc’ - therefore, you had no right in spoiling it for others, get that into your thick head and small fish brain.

I’m sorry I didn’t know you were a sheep and posting spoilers without warnings because, ‘literally everyone on here isn’t’. Are you that daft? Just because everyone isn’t, doesn’t mean it’s not wrong. Bro are you saying that if the purge happened and everyone was out wreaking havoc, you’d do the same thing and still say it’s not wrong? Are you a child that doesn’t know right from wrong? Please for the love of God, for your own future and safety, go back to school.

TLDR: stfu and tell me your opinion when you have a present dad x and sorry if this was too much writing for your bozo self to process mwah.

I think I'm speaking to someone who dropped out of school, like literally dropped out of school in the 7th grade. Because if YOU'RE SO SCARED OF SPOILERS WHY ARE YOU ON TUMBLR?? LIKE I FUCKING SAID YOU PEOPLE HAVE SERIOUS ISSUES. IF YOU DONT READ THE NEW CHAPTERS THEN THATS, ON WHO??? ITS ON YOU. and why are you harassing me about my spelling?? Bitch it's fucking Tumblr, I'm not writing a thesis, a research paper or even a fucking essay. If I wanted to write a whole fucking article and then yes I would make sure that my spellings of both 'your' and 'you're were correct. However IM NOT. AND IDGAF. So why tf would I care if I spelt something wrong or mixed a few words up???. You bitches are talentless, jobless, bored and can't fucking read nor write and still live with YOURE parents in their BASEMENT. AND WANNA COME AFTER ME BECAUSE YOU GOT SPOILED. BITCH I DONT CARE IF YOU DIDNT READ THE CHAPTER AND FOUND OUT GOJO IS DEAD!!!!! BECAUSE SOCIAL MEDIA HAS SPOILERS E V E R Y W H E R E. DONT COME ONLINE AND YOU WONT GET SPOLUED THEN YOU FUCKING ASSHAT. YOUR mother must have dropped your special ass on the head as a baby, because why are you at YOUR grown ass age GOING ON DIFFERENT PROFILES TO HARASS ME ABOUT A FICTIONAL FUCKING CHARACTER. I just fucking know you don't take baths OR EVEN WASH THAT FUCKING FILTHY ASS OF YOURS. it's fucking disgusting that YOUR Neanderthal ass came on here to give me a hard time because you what??? Can't keep up with the chapters when it releases??? Not my problem fucktard. And I'll tag my fucking posts with whatever I want. And I did answer your question, I said and I quote I don't care sweetie. So why don't you go to sleep and roll over on that cockroach infested ass floor mattress you sleep on every night. Roll over and go get caught up to the new chapters. Imagine trying to harass someone because YOU live in a section 8 apartment, with 15 other family members, have roaches and rats crawling all over you while you sleep and mad at me. NOBODY GIVES A FUCK ABOUT YOU!!! I'm just sure YOURE a fucking foster child whose mother and father left your Crack baby ass in foster care. Because there's no way that someone who had a loving, family or SUPPORT SYSTEM IS THIS BOTHERED. AND IF YOU'RE SO FUCKING BRAVE WHY WERE YOU POSTING ANONYMOUSLY??? GET A LIFE YOU SMALL BRAINED, LONELY, PATHETIC, NEANDERTHAL ASS BITCH. I HOPE YOU TOSS AND TURN ON THAT FLOOR MATTRESS YOU SHARE WITH YOU 8 SIBLINGS EVERY NIGHT.

and stop coming on my page, mad ass., stupid ass, MONKEY ASS BITCH.

[ankhisms]

gobus rewatch thoughts for ep 5

i really love this episode (i probably say that about almost every single episode) because its a good focus on youkos character and on her and ryuujis relationship. youko has been raised by ryuuji, shes known him for almost her entire life and so of course she thinks she knows everything about her big brother. but before now she had no idea about ryuujis weak point. youkos weak point is a lot more obvious and presumably is more easy to slip into, if she forgets to eat enough candy shes out of commission, so it makes sense that ryuuji & usada & kuroki are all very aware of her weak point and are used to reminding her about it or used to it coming up regularly. overheating honestly isnt that hard to get into as well, if ryuuji overworked himself at any point or if the air conditioning broke (as we see later in the show) then he very easily could lose control. but for the entire time that youko has been growing up ryuuji has made a huge effort to make sure that youko never sees him lose control and that he never exposes youko to his outbursts of rage.

now of course youko is going to be shocked and hurt by ryuuji lashing out at her. ryuuji is both like her older brother and a father rolled into one (which i could get into talking about the possible aspects of an older child being parentified after the loss of parents but i wont here, im wanting to focus more on youko) and shes always seen him as a very loving and comforting figure. hiromu makes a comment about how ryuuji suddenly didnt live up to youkos idea of how he should be, which hits the nail on the head. ryuuji has obviously as the eldest of the trio been aware of just how traumatizing it is for a little girl to violently lose her mother and has taken great pains to try and always be kind and gentle with youko, to the extent of hiding a large part of himself in order to try and not upset her when she already has experienced such a great loss.

im reminded of another one of my favorite stories which heavily involves sibling dynamics- mob psycho 100. youko and ryuujis relationship at this point really makes me think of how ritsu hides his true feelings and his true self because hes scared of upsetting shigeo, and thus the brothers arent able to have a truly healthy and open kind of communication where theyre allowed to disagree as brothers. youko similarly has not truly seen the whole picture of ryuuji, he has not felt like the can be fully open and honest with her out of a sense of responsibility and not wanting to scare or traumatize her further. and although his intentions with this stem from loving youko and worrying for her and wanting to keep her safe, as youko grows older this becomes more and more of a problem, because one sibling hiding a large part of who they are and not communicating their feelings is not at all healthy.

youko realizes that even if ryuuji lashed out at her in that moment, he still is her family and he still cares deeply for her and that is why he hid this part of himself for so long- but now its not necessary to hide parts of himself. even if he gets angry, even if outside of overheating they have an argument or a disagreement or he scolds her about not doing her homework, shes still his little sister and he still loves her at the end of the day and him being upset doesnt change that.

and now youko and ryuuji are on the same page and on equal ground. where youko has relied on ryuuji in the past, now ryuuji can rely on youko in turn and they are both open and honest with who they are, both as a team and as a family. they both know they can count on one another even if they argue.

side bar for a second importantly id like to note that ryuuji very much takes responsibility and apologizes for lashing out at youko, and although he cant promise that it wont ever happen again he obviously has the intent to continue acknowledging if he upsets her. he very clearly owns up to when hes done something to hurt her and feels remorse, and in the end the two work to improve their relationship and grow as a family. in contrast, enter does not take any kind of responsibility for the way he treats escape, only ever expressing remorse near the very end of the show when its far too late. where youko and ryuuji are team mates and rely on each other as a family, enter and escape are constantly competing and trying to push the other down and never view one another as equals. i have so much more i could say about the parallels between the gobus trios healthy family relationship vs escape and enters dysfunctional family relationship but i will restrain myself

#gobus rewatch

[zipndots]

Saw the tags.

Here's an invitation to scream about the way people treat having a car/driver's license.

oh look at you, enabler you <33 (i literally moved to my pc so i can type this out just a smidge faster and more effectively. pardon any mistakes)

when my sibling was around my age, even a little younger, it got its permit. cool, right? soon enough my big sibling would be able to take me to school and get us food, i thought. its total driving time in its life is around. 4 hours? and thats me being generous.

fast forward ~8 years and im here with 4 hours of driving time under my own belt, hell, even my own car, because my sibling is physically disabled and i wanted to be able to help. thing is, i get so sick and dizzy behind the wheel out of anxiety that i literally cant go on an actual road without crying my eyes out and having a panic attack.

turns out my sibling was like that too, and thats why it had to stop trying.

my own reasoning to justify this anxiety and this sheer dread is because nobody can actually drive on the road here. i probably know the rules and laws of driving in my state (usamerican, sorry) than the majority of people licensed to drive here. you see people with bald tires flying down the highway at 80mph in blizzard conditions, half the time without their headlights, and no turn signal (either out of sheer laziness or because it is broken). do you know how many people on the road are willingly operating a 2 ton hunk of metal so irresponsibly? too many. too fuckin many. i, as a pedestrian, have accepted the fact that despite having right of way across a street that isnt even busy, will more than likely be run over on a normal day because nobody pays attention to their surroundings.

im constantly hounded by my own mother, who says she understands my feelings and anxieties around driving, on when im going to finally start driving and why i keep avoiding it etc etc etc. she doesnt want to teach me because it scares her. my dad doesnt want to teach me because he doesnt have the time (fair, hes a really busy man). my sibling literally cant walk half the time let alone drive. anyone else i dont trust to be in a car with without holding the "oh shit" handle because theyre impatient, irresponsible, and dont even know how to drive safely themselves.

i cant get a job where im living right now. i just recently learned i have some really bad asthma and that paired with dry air, intense weather (below zero temps in winter, above 100 in summer), and going uphill prevents me from commuting to anywhere close. there was a bus stop once upon a time, but they apparently got rid of it in the route, but never bothered to actually get rid of the stop, so the closest bus stops in either direction are uphill and over a mile away, and i genuinely just dont have the right metabolism to endure that.

every time i mention that to somebody, they always, without fail, say "why dont you just drive?" oh, gee, i dont know, probably the fact that i dont feel safe in something that can easily crush me, next to people operating the same machines unsafely and irresponsibly, and have seen first-hand how bad user error can destroy many peoples lives? combined with the fact that i simply prefer being a pedestrian?

the US is so abysmal when it comes to road safety and accessible sidewalks that its almost so funny it makes me want to cry. i feel disgusting having to use a ride share app or call a taxi and waste 40 bucks on a 20 minute ride because either there isnt a safe bus route/walkway or the route that takes me there via bus takes over three hours, taking up the majority of my day. efficient and safe transport here is so fucking awful and of course they wont fund any improvement on it because they dont see a profit to it. because of cars.

i dont even know how to end this rant. im just pissed off more and want to burn down my local government buildings.

#the anxiety was much worse when i wasnt medicated though so i guess thats a plus #i still want to throw up at the fact that i have to get in my car to go anywhere #and not just because it hasnt been cleaned in 20 years

[blog-of-reaction]

ANTMAN AND THE WASP: QUANTUMANIA SPOILERS

More unasked for thoughts on this movie. (Except this time I remember to put it on my thoughts about movie/shows blog instead of my main)

I wish the og? Kang had survived. Like, I’m sure the other Kang’s are cool, but I really liked him as the villain. Also, with Kang being the big and of phase five. (Is it phase 4 or 5? I honestly don’t know.) with him being the big bad though, I can’t help but feel like killing off the Kang that literally all of the other Kang’s were so scared of they banished him to the quantum realm was a mistake. Like, they already (most likely) successfully took down him, how are other Kang’s who aren’t as scary going to feel like much of a threat?

Especially since there will be multiple. Like, I realize the Kang we’ve seen so far could be an outlier, but I’m not so sure they wont be able to be divided against each other. (Then again, them being divided against each other would most likely cause just as much if not more damage then them working together, given the whole monologue at the end of Loki.)

Also, Cassie was great and I love her.

I’m not necessarily an expert on Modok but I liked the what they did with him. Also, the part where Scott asked “Shouldn’t it be Modofk?” was perfect. Ive literally asked myself the same thing ever since he showed up in EMH.

I really liked the family dynamic they had in the movie.

Hope and Scott’s relationship actually had like, some real substance to it this time. Granted, it is very little but their romance is still much more believable than in the previous movies. (Which I mean the bar could not be lower there and it still feels a bit like “what?” but not as much as in the previous movies. Their relationship is mostly like, subtly implied and definitely supported and kind of lifted up via the overall family dynamic everyone had, but it still felt a bit forced at the end. I am slowly coming around to it maybe though? Like, I no longer passively dislike it. Instead I passively accept it.

The side characters were great, fun to see, and I loved them. I actually teared up when torture laser beam for a head guy was killed.

There were a few brilliant scenes that I especially enjoyed or found funny.

First off, like, just put yourself in Scott Lang’s shoes for a minute. All sorts of things weird unbelievable stuff has happened in your life and now you’re in the quantum realm and you lost sight of your daughter after being captured by these strange quantum realm people. And then when he finally sees her, he sees this teenage girl with what looks like blood dripping down her chin and she just cheerily says

“Drink the ooze!”

And then the camera cuts away. Hilarious.

“Those buildings are alive?!”

“What, are yours dead?” said with genuine concern. Beautiful.

The surprise actor for Chidi and pretty much everything when it came to his telepathy.

“How many holes do you?”

*excitedly after being shot a lot* “I HAVE HOLES” and then turning into a vacuum cleaner and just straight up going eldritch something on these guys

Also, Darren’s death. My response to that entire conversation was basically to laugh and ask myself what the fuck? I’m pretty sure Darren said some of that stuff just to mess with Scott but I’m not sure.

I want revenge and im going to kill you and your daughter! “You’re being a dick.” “Yeah but I don’t know what else to do.” “…just stop” great idea, thanks. And immediately doing a 180 and helping your previous sworn enemies.

Also, Kang was great, and a good villain and I was actually like, a bit scared of him. I mean, I still havent seen Wakanda Forever (I know and I hate that about me too) so I can’t comment on Namor and while Killmonger was a good MCU villain Kang is a good villain. And like, those are two very different things. So that was refreshing to see.

Back to Kang I don’t know how the rest of this phase will play out. Like, how will the, for lack of a better term, council of Kang, react and what will they do? Besides maybe destroying the multiverse according to prime Kang. (Speaking of, the Kang in this is just like, a younger version then the one that Sylvie killed in Loki right? It’s never outright stated but it seems pretty clear.)

#antman spoilers #antman and the wasp spoilers #antman and the wasp quantamania spoilers #quantumania spoilers #mcu spoilers #spoilers

[kingtrollexparty]

(broppy wins on the vote so here a story d'or pur favorite couple,and trollex his the best Friend of Poppy and the bff of Branch in here)

he was on There for jours thinking of words for her,but it like hid brain was not able to focus.he decide to take a walk in the forest.

he passed in front of couples felling sad that he couldn't tell her,she was the love of his live.

Mayby he could ask her normally,but how.what if she says no?what if she doesnt like him anymore?what if he messed up?

Trollex:yo Branch man

Branch:what oh hey lexy

Trollex:are you all right,u look bad,no offence

Branch:no it ok,question,ur good whit ladies and atract them,can u give me advise

Trollex:(blush)umm thanks but first,im more into boys,second,im just protective to them because there fragile and tird,why,his it about a pink troll~

Branch:(blush)stop,ur too flirty,and what makes say that

Trollex:POPPY I NEED TO TELL U SOMETHING

Branch :ok ok,it his,jeez,stop yelling

Trollex:so~

Branch:really stop,and i wanted to ask her ....for that (shows a ring)

Trollex:(gasp)NO WAY,were the problem

Branch:WERE THE PROBLEM?u now if i mess up girls get offencive,and if she think im weird she will leave me,so i need ur help

Trollex:whit what,i never ask someone

branch :DASH COME HERE

Trollex:OK OK,I WILL HELP NOW STOP

Branch:someone interest~

Trollex:(blush)stoppppppp.

Branch :ok here the plan

(a few moment later/

Poppy was on her pod looking out the window,she was thinking about him,she wanted to tell him but she was weird.he might not love her.was he pretending?

She saw her best Friend outside and got an idea.

Poppy:trollex!

Trollex:oh fish soup....

Hé flew to her pod and sat beside her

Trollex:so whattt popppinnn

Poppy :well- why are u talking like that

Trollex:nothinggggg

Poppy:u Do it each time u lie

Trollex:ugh,why

Poppy :someone as a crushhhh

Trollex:WHAT NO

Poppy:u now i now,spit it

Trollex:ok,i might have a lile one..but anyways,why did u call me

Poppy:i need help,i wanna propose branch-

Hé didn't listen to the rest went he hear propose,he was in a big hole,both of his bestie asked him.he could rouin it any time,but hé couldn't tell them so he might need to play the game.

Poppy :trollex, trollex are u listening

Trollex:hein hein what,oh y..yes

Poppy:all right here the plan

(later that night)

The sun start to set as he watched the both sitting akwerdly togheter,hé add PHONE to talk to both of them,even if he was shaking bad from it.the two started to talk,well that what we could say.

Hé could hear his heart beat miles away,he hope the two didnt listen or hear it.

Branch:(to trollex)ready for fase two

Poppy :(to trollex)fase icing lexy

Hé sweat and release the flies,but they felt his nervousity and Hide.

Trollex:(to the both)umm they flew away

Branch and poppy:ok,umm,who are u talking too,no one why are we talking at the same time

Trollex:fish fish fish

Trollex and poppy:(to trollex)vase 3,vase cupcake

Hé gulp and swam whit dolphin hoping they wont feel his nervousity.of corse bad luck strike him as he got caugh whit them swimming and jumping evrywere.

The couple saw him flew in the air and into the sand.they ran to him and check over if he was all right.

They realize and look at each other nervously.

Poppy and branch :i can explan

Trollex:ok im giving up,Poppy ,Branch asked me to help to propose to you since he was scared,Branch,Poppy told me to help her since she was stressed

Branch :so u were on both

Poppy:wait,u wanted to propose too

Branch :yes,u too

Poppy :yes,soo..

Branch:u Wanna ...

Poppy :yes

They both walked away leaving the beach.trollex watched them happy for his besties,that went he saw dash....

To be continued

#King trollex #Poppy #Trollex #Queen poppy #Branch #King Branch #Ring #Kiss #trollstopia #trolls 3 #fashion #fanart #fantroll

[shushthisaintmytumbla]

a year in the books - 8/9/22

It always just amazes me how much can change from the previous time I write here. I have definitely neglected this space for quite some time (longer than usual) as its been almost a YEAR! It’s always so insane to see how much has changed and where i am now from where i was in the last post. I truly don’t even know where to begin, but I guess i will just state the fact that tomorrow is my one year anniversary of living in NYC.... HOWWW?! So much has happened over the past year. New friendships, self growth, hurt, feeling lost, finding myself, you name it its happened. Its crazy to read my last post and see how un settled this city made me feel. I can now leave my apartment and get just about anywhere by memory. I have so much to say and update on so I guess we shall start with a big part of my last post. D. 

Wowow i don’t know what to say but girlllll you were just getting started with this heartbreak. To say being in a toxic relationship is difficult is just an understatement. Its definitely been one of the biggest struggles from the past year. I have been hurt countless times, but yet i still find myself stuck in the same place. From where I was a year ago, I’ve been back and forth and pulled in every direct. From a genuine relationship to a hook up to a toxic friendship to friends to enemies and back, we still gravitate towards one another. Our relationship makes zero sense to me, but id like to think my mental state of the relationship has begun to take positive steps out of the toxicity. It’s hard to say what the future looks like but all I can hope is that I find a way through this muddy path. I know I am capable and I hope to continue to work on finding my way out... I guess thats all I can really say.

other than THAT! lol so so so much good has happened. Sometime after this post I pushed myself out of my comfortzone to make nyc MY city with MY friends. It took some trial and error, but through a literal friend dating app I found my best friends who I now could not imagine life without. Were literally going on our second trip together this weekend like thats how freaking amazing they are. They make NYC home and I couldnt be more grateful. Not only do I have them, but ive been able to connect with people who I barely knew im college, I have molly and her friends and I even had brooke (who unfortunately just moved back to LA) for so much of the past year. Once i got out of my comfort zone this city really openned up to me. My friends here are the reason I love new york as much as I do and for that I am forever grateful.

Not only have my relationships changed, but MY JOB changed. This I never thought I’d be saying a year ago, mostly because I thought my job was going to be the coolest thing ever. It was at first, dont get my wrong, but once things set into place i realized the scam that is reality TV lol. I am now at a new job that has been one of the most challenging ones yet. Hold onto your seat bc you wont believe this... I AM SO BUSY. I thought i was cursed w boring jobs hahah but not the case anymore!! I really really struggled the first few weeks, but id like to think im getting the hang of it now. Its still in influener marketing which I enjoy, but now i do everything from sourcing talent to contracting to runnning a full campaign. I hope to stay in this role for a bit and grow at the company because it definitely seems like there is a ton of room for it. Im excited to see what the future holds w this career path.

Another big thing is I started therapy this year! It is something ive always been so scared to do, but something i really needed. I am so good at venting to an online portal, but actually seeking a mental health outlet has been so good for me. Sometimes i doubt my progress, but ive been able to open up a lot more and id like to think its made me more overall healthy. 

I feel like thats a pretty lengthy update on the life status for now, but i hope to come back soon w even more life  wins and not go so long without writing here! I am so so excited to see what the future holds, how my nyc life will progress, and what new challenges will come my way to make me even stronger. 

xx,

C

[ddejavvu]

hi daisy, ur so nice and lovely, and i adore your writing, i rlly look up to u, so i want to know if u have any tips/advice for me getting into writing fanfic and posting it. i feel really embarrased about getting into this but ik that this is something i wanna do and that embarasment im feeling is just bc i dont now ppl irl who read fanfic or anything so ya anyway sorry !! what im trying to say is im struggling to get started, and am discoraged by the fact that i may not get good feedback on my writing, so any tips and/or advice , i would appreciate it sm !!! <33

(also you probably wont recognise me but im just on anon for comfort bc im so bad at social interaction nsdkfj </3 /lh)

babe ofc i recognize you only one person sends me messages with tone tags but you don't have to come forward i won't expose you 😌

i'm glad you enjoy my writing, and I'm glad that you enjoy my presence here too!! i'd love to give you advice, because you're not wrong, it's difficult to get started!!

the hardest thing to get over at first is the stigma around fanfiction!! it's really not something that's very outwardly common, of course tumblr is a safe space but people outside of it can be assholes! please just remember, fanfiction is not only a great way to start writing, but it's an excellent way to improve your writing, and grow with it!! you work with predetermined and pre-exposed characters and a defined setting, and of course you're taking creative liberties with the confines of the scenario and with their character, but you're able to cast away some of the burden of major character building to focus on the little things!! you're able to work with characters that you love, and it helps you fine-tune the more advanced areas of your writing because you don't need to focus on the worldbuilding! ignore what people have to say about it, i swear to god people will criticize fanfiction for being cringey and delusional and then watch porn and imagine themselves in the scenario.. like.. babe that's the same thing.. just ignore them!!

the advice that i usually give when people are scared of not getting feedback is to make sure that you're liking what you're writing! if you write something because you think other people will like it, and then it doesn't get as big as you wanted it to, you'll be discouraged. but if you write something that you think you will like, even if it doesn't get as big as you wanted it to, you'll still have it for you!!! just remember, growth doesn't have to be linear (don't get discouraged if you rack up 80 notes one day and only 30 the next, it doesn't mean you won't ever get 80+ again), and don't ever discredit your work just because not a lot of people are seeing it at first! you still wrote it, whether it was 200 words or 20,000, you wrote that and no one can take that away from you just because they don't see it

i will say though, tumblr has a difficult feedback system. the ratio of likes to reblogs can be absolutely atrocious at times (41:0 and 289:3 might be my worst), and it hurts sometimes that people don't seem to want Your Thing on Their Blog, y'know? But i guarantee you once you get a good reblog/review/piece of feedback, it's like meth. those reviews are literally good enough to break you out of that funk!! i hope you get lots of those :D

it's hard work, writing on tumblr. if not for the act of writing itself, but for the act of putting yourself out there and not knowing what you'll receive. it's a brave thing to do, and i hope it goes well for you!! if you are who i think you are i'll definitely keep an eye on your blog and make sure to check out whatever you end up posting!

#mei's mail #writing advice

[capeplace]

it all goes back to the roots

I just had a phone call with mum. And as we were on the phone I could feel this intense sadness and tears were strolling down my cheek. And I wanted to say I felt sad but was scared to. I think maybe because I avoid saying it because I’m scared of her not giving me the reaction I need, and another part of me was just overwhelmed. 

I think a part of me wanted her to ask about lavine and I would maybe let out the sadness, and she did but then when I said I felt sad about lavine and sad about our relationship (mine and mums) she said ‘I spoke to funmi and bims and they said lots of people have divorces and that its not my fault’ or something alogn that line (without the word fault). And I found myself feeling rage. I just felt like it was confirmation that she never understands my emotions and I guess there was a part of me that almost wanted to prove that. Almost as if it would scare me if we could resolve it i dont know. But to begin with I was still frustrated cause she couldnt recognise why that comment was unhelpful. And I said this is exaclty the problem, if you cant understand how to repsond to my emotions when Im sad and then when I try to explain the problem you dont get it, how do you think I felt my whole life. 

But Mum really was invested in trying to understand, even when she didnt quite get it. I would get more frustrated and she would try again to understand. She was really invested in this being something we really have to work through. And im grateful that she is. And when I kept pushing rather than giving up, she would be more reflective and some of what she had said initially she would give more context and id feel less angry. I think it is also about me meeting her in the middle. At one point she said please dont give up and I said Id already given up. I think thats a big part of it. Like I feel like Ive already accepted that we are ‘doomed’ and maybe I do the same with relationships. Im looking for something that confirms that they wont work out. The question is why? To save myself dissapointment. 

The sadness I felt before the phone call felt like this overwhleming feeling of what if there is all this sadness that just gets released. And its almost like the plug is in with my relationship with mum. Like I try and switch off, distance so that I dont have to face the sadness of her not understanding me. When maybe there is a third option, that I help her to understand me and that I experience us working through a conflict. 

The whole denial about smacking came up but I think in general the outcome of the call was positive because I did something new. Rather than getting so angry and defeated that I end the call, I stayed on the call and we resolved it. I then (although I was uncomfotable) continued having a warm chat with her and letting myself laugh. This felt massive because I think I stay in negative emotions and find it hard to then suddenly be happy. Like im trying to prove something or punish them. 

I think it taught me that 

- if the root of everything really does come back to mum, then maybe I need to work through our relationship to be able to have a healthy relationship. Almost feels a bit spiritual - like Im being forced to face these things like how I was with sexuality. I also think its a reminder that there is still work to be done. That one san pedro realisation is not enough to fix everything. 

- There seems to be parrallels with my relationship romantically and my relatonhsops with mum. Even me avoiding mum as Im going through a challenging time and blaming her. its like that avoidance itself is me not wanting to face the pain. So I avoid it  cause im scared of dissapointment rather than pushing through it and actually resolving the conflict. I think I need to practice resolving conflicts with mum. 

- I think I do have a fear of being alone. And I wonder whether that comes back to mum also. Like when im in a relationship im masking the feelings of being alone. and when im single i truly feel alone  when really its cause it feels lonely to not be able to rely on my mum emotionally. I wonder whether if I can get to that place, I wont feel as dependant on a relationship to determine my mood so much. Rather than playing out my relationship with mum with my partner, ill play out the feelings with mum instead! 

I wonder whether the laughter is a part of it. I think I find it hard to let myself laugh with mum. Like distancing myself from everything includes the joyous parts too. 

Sadness: I think this deep rooted sadness might also be linked to this sadness of our relationship, but if I can work through stuff, maybe the sadness can be replaced with hope and the pessemism with optimism. I wont depend on the highs to give me highs, I will let myself see that life can be hard and theres still joy there, rather than just the optimism being a temporary solution and then the ‘real’ pessemistic me will reappear. 

Its time to change the narrative and allow love to include all aspects 

I feel more hopeful, not even in an elated way, in a more this is doable and we can get there, 

mum also said im not as bright as you you have to remember i get mixed up sometimes. And not that shes not bright, but hearing her reflect on getting mixed up was helpful becasue sometimes I am so perplexed as to how her brain works. Whereas I too have to have compassion and patience. 

I said some harsh truths too like how I felt I had to mangage her emotions, that I feel like we are in two realities, that Id ‘given up’, probably more. 

A part of me feels like ok quit whinging now, take some responsibiltiy and then other part of me is like let your inner child be angry, let your inner child have the fight and resolve it like you wanted to do back then. Let her carry the pain that you didnt let her carry then.I guess it feels odd because I feel a bit like a child. But maybe thats exactly what i need to do. 

in general this was positive. And not positive in the light fluffy way I want it to be. positive in the full sense including all the parts not just the bits I think are ‘good’ 

[thegeminisage]

ok, i'm fucking BACK. sitting position. tv on. god i missed this game

the stable i saved at has a cucco finding quest. this is a huge move it's a big deal there was one of these in ocarina of time. great job zelda devs made me feel super nostalgic

did my first backpack korok vehicle. crashed hilariously, but it got me most of the way there

found a chasm! not today, satan

i see a geoglyph, but it's near lake hylia and i'm scared of the gleeok lol. maybe it's time.......

well, this will certainly do no favors for my heart rate but let's give it a go

OH MY GOD???

i can't even get NEAR it...i don't have any high-temp gear

i had to dive into the lake. no choice at all lol. that thing shot at me almost until i reached the edge. terrifying!

there's a chasm i wanted to check out in the lake but i am So Sick of being underground. geoglyph first

i like how theres always a korok in one of these lol

ok. im prepared. im bracing.

oh holy shit okay sonia is dead fr. check THAT off the old bingo square

"i came to you after finding a man underground" and ganondorf's theme comes in >:)

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

SHE SAID

HIS NAME

SHE SAID HIS NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE FINALLY HEARD THEM SAY HIS NAME.............

not "the demon king," GANONDORF!!!!!!!

oh boy. we are in it now. ok. unpausing

oh no if zelda cries i wont be able to deal with it

OH THIS IS THE SCENE FROM THE TRAILERS.......

not the main theme coming in when they say links name 😭

oh my god DONT cut it off there...WHY IS SHE HERE........

ok, i also wanna check the whirlpool before bed

COOL.................... "underwater" shrine. no idea how to get up to that island though lol

oh!!!!! painter sheikah is here!!!!!!!!!!! mc who will likely never see this i agree w you so much he SHOULD remember link >:(

UGH i guess i'll check out the chasm while i'm here

oh, wait...there shouldn't be anything down here? this island is srrounded by water on the surface, which translates to walls here...no wonder i can't make out any landmarks or lightroots to head for...at least i won't be down here long???

doesn't seem right tho. theres gotta be SOMETHING or why would they put it here

i found a........tunnel? maybe??

oh! and there's the tree. whew. i was starting to worry i'd find the scary hand thing everyone keeps talking about down here and i am just not prepared for that rn.

omg i backtracked to see if there was anywhere else i could go (i dont think so) and found some of those little frog mfs DIGGING UP MY BRIGHTBLOOM SEED...............evil

very last stop b4 bed is lookout to get my quest reward for going down in the mines 😭 i worked hard for this one so it better be good

YOOOOOOO a hot air balloon.......ok worth it <3

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[chelleztjs18]

Hello you mrs. used to be sushi waitress lefty eyebag 😅

Yeah, it's been raining since yesterday and I like it because then I can just lay in bed and be comfortable. But of course I gotta work and it sucks because it's so slow and I'm starting to get a headache again.

Oh I still read it. While reading it though, it made me think of that one Netflix show, called You. Have you watched it before? It already has 3 seasons and it's coming out with a 4th one. It makes me wonder if R was raised by a crazy person to make them that way.

Of course you won't spoil it right? Hahaha

Yeah I do know how to drive.. I just need more practice though and it scares me to drive with all the crazy drivers around. Oh yah, the expedition is a big one. That's why I just like the Escape because it's compact but not too compact.

I see. Well hopefully she is okay and just busy.

I can't tell you the meal, cause then you'd know the secret to my heart! That's cheating hahaha

So you like to confront the problems head on and communicate about it? We kind of have the same answer. I would also add if they are mean to my pets, and don't appreciate them like I do, then it's off lol

Do you like PDA?

-CuriousGeorge

Hello hello darling righty eyebag!

how was ur day? hows work?

oh noooo! you got headache again? how is it now? better?

oh u read it?? yaaay! were u able to read it until the end or was it too dark for u? can u please tell me what u think about it? :D any favorite scene? or how u feel while u were reading it or after u read it.

n yes, it was inspired by that netflix series You. Gosh, i love that series so much. The plot twist in every season, it's insane! I really wish i could write stories like that. After the second season n when i saw the third season trailer, I thought how could the writer make it better than the season 2 n probably wont be as good as the previous season. Turn out, I was wrong. it's crazy good. I cant wait for season 4.

I tried to make the R in The Monsters Within like a mix of Joe, Love and Joker. lol even though i think it's not possible for someone to be like three of them in real life, i think. haha.

hahah of course i wont spoil it. Just stay tune, i will post the next on the 15th :P

ah i see. so u ride a motorcycle every where u go? or u take public transportation? yeah I agree with u on ford escape. i like bigger car when it comes to road trip or costco shopping. lol.

Well, i hope the same. I hope my crush is doing okay. I meant i totally understand, she doesnt have to talk to me all the time n i understand she is busy. She always let me know why she was gone or sometimes give me a heads up that she will need to focus on stuff so she wont be talking much. but yeah, my bad habit or trait, i sometime overthink n that's not the fun part. I just hope it wasnt because i said something wrong or i was being annoying or something. oh well, I'll just wait n hope to hear from her soon. sorry for the rambling. i actually miss her. oh well, let's move on to the next part of ur ask, shall we?

haha so it's not pasta nor pizza? is it a dessert?

yes, i prefer to talk about the problem together and solve it. I never want to go to sleep angry. That's my principal in relationship. Unless if i already express my thought on the problem n i never get any respond or being ignored multiple times, then i'm done. n when i'm done, it wont be good at all. it doesnt mean that i would go crazy or psycho, i would be quite n wont talk anymore n thats when they have to be worry. i would be numb n in a second the love n care could be gone n i wont care about that person anymore. (that's when im really hurt, disapointed n done.) :D

yeah, i will add that to mine too. if they r being mean to animals n other people n especially to their parents.

yes, i love PDA but not too much that make others want to puke though. lol. what about u?

next question?

Cheerio! (not the cereal one) lol

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