#im so shaken up

[protesliaus]

something that i will always remember of technoblade is how he was kind just for the sake of it.

i will remember him claiming the monopoly sound was too loud for him to hear wilbur when he spoke of techno staying up all night to comfort him when he was sick. i will remember him taking the time to add watermarks for his artists when they themselves forgot. i will remember niki and sophie saying how he always somehow made sure they never felt excluded or neglected and how he would hate it, it would embarrass him when they spoke of his kindness publicly. i will remember him personally dming ponk to thank them for sending a 45-minute video of someone feeding hotdogs to raccoons in chat and timestamping his favorite part. i will remember his love for the people who created for him, how he would keep his mentions on for everyone before his fanart tag was formed and would just scroll and scroll to make sure not to miss any art someone made for him. i will remember half his friends and peers having some kind of a story of him reaching out to them during tough days, reassuring them, believing in them, making them feel loved.

i will remember him in every act of kindness i receive and i will remember him during times in my life when i will need to remind myself to be kind despite it all.

#sorry if this is messy and makes no sense i typed through my tears #i miss him. i will miss him for the rest of my life #im shaken up and still so much in disbelief #technoblade #bladeblr #tw death

[hyunpic]

get well soon ❤️‍🩹

#I HOPE THEY ARE OKAY 😭 #the way my heart fucking dropped to my stomach #i feel so bad for them ohmygod #im genuinely shaken up after reading this i hope they get all the rest they need 😭 this is so scary.. #i just want them to be safe always 😔 #skz

[uwemagain]

Kinnporsche The Series : La Forte Ep. 4

#kinnporsche #kinnporche the series #mileapo #apo nattawin #mile phakphum #they outsold EVERYONE #dear jesus #crying screaming throwing up #im shook #shaken #stirred #i will never financially recover from this #anyways this was too risqué for my main #but i couldn't NOT #kinnporsche spoilers #too difficult to colour so i gave up #click for better quality maybe?

[sketchy-tour]

Happy Easter if yall celebrate it!!!!! Otherwise I hope yall have an absolutely fantastic Sunday!!!!

Aaaa I feel like I'm not as chatty as I once was on here. Been a bit all over the place! Also feel silly making a ton of text posts with no art so I try and limit how often I blab on here.

But just know I still appreciate all of you who follow and like my art! Every bit of interaction I still see and it still baffles me to see such kind words. It means the absolute world to me!!!! 💖💖🌻

#plus Ive been drawing other things between wh art #but I know no one here would wanna see my original character art. Which is so okay im not lamenting that! #this blog was always meant for fandom stuff! but ya know. if im drawing other stuff it means my fandom art slows down slightly #still need to get back in the groove with drawing Dandy #really hard not to feel discourage ever since dealing with them being used without my permission (Which has already been long since handled) #but I havent shaken off that upset I felt. Made me all tol hesitant to even post Dandy anymore. #course also kinda put a damper on my fun #OH IM RAMBLING! venting??? this isnt about that #shaking my head and clearing clouds!!! anyway! needless to say im trying. i hope you guys dont mind being patient with me #happy easter! #or uh happy sunday!!!! if you dont celebrate! #OH AND HAPPY TRANS DAY OF VISIBILITY!!!!!! #Wow my tag rambles are all OVER THE PLACE #text post #just rambling #ill shut up now 💖

[spaghett-onaplate]

This guy nearly beat me with a stick today (it's ok though honestly not a big deal), but on the bright side it was probably fuelled by regular annoyingness or homophobia; and not transphobia (guy called me 'he') so a win is a win

#lol it sounds worse than it is he just swatted the stick right in front of me but was too pussy to actually hit me #i just walked away (then ran from around the corner) to the station and i had friends there #including a guy who looks pretty intimidating - i was wary of speaking with him at first - who walked toward them when i told him #they just said sorry sorry and ran off #it really sounds worse than it is #and im gonna profit off this situation idc im gonna use it to further my social connections. because i am a genius that way #i was a bit shaken up earlier but it's cool now i saw my friends and got chicken -- something i wouldn't have done normally so yay #profiting off some dumbassery

[hoperays-song]

Marcus and Johnny's Texts Again

#marcus did immediately call johnny after this to make sure he was ok #but he technically leave a note #johnny was fine. just shaken up #marcus brought him food as a 'im sorry' gift #sing johnny #sing marcus #sing big daddy #johnny and marcus both have insomnia #yes they both go on adventures when it hits #and they both freak out when the other does the same thing they do. its honestly kinda funny to stan and barry at this point #sing #sing 2 #johnny has abandonment issues up to his ears #and so does marcus. he just ignores his (not a smart move marcus but ok)

[ceruleanfuckup]

I'm so excited for my D&D campaign

#i ran one in this world for two and a half years where everything is ravaged by dragons #but now theres been a somewhat revolution because one of the only surviving major cities was impulsively conquered by my players #so things have been shaken up a lot and now they have a holiday because they brought i think three gods to earth at once #two of my players became the vessels of the gods of light and darkness and duked it out and fast forward a year or two #and their hold on the economic powerhouse of the continent is solidified and they have partnered with an organization #that specualizes in magical artifacts from every concievable reality #and my NEW campaign is people hired by this organization #The Forge of Wonders #they have this entirely greyed out library full of strange books that when you pick them up gain color and you can read their spines #and these books are stories. theyre fairy tales. theyre pirate adventures. theyre dragon babysitting. theyre demon apocalypses. #and these stories are worlds. theyre stories in truth. and my players have been hired to dive into the stories and retrieve Thing #for the forge of wonders #which means i get to make WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT BITCHES #i get to be so fucking impulsive with my story crafting #and im not going to balance anything correctly. theyre just going to have to assume from the summary in the front page if its doable #demon apocalypse? probably outside of our level. gnome tinkerers? probably not too bad #and ill have prebuilt stories and something theyre taked with retrieving and they get to choose which onr yhey do #anyways the forge of wonders started as a magic shop that only accepted platinum (1000 gold) as currency so they did a lot of shopping ther #i just took that old document full of crazy magical items and i tweaked it and molded it and added to it and the new version is 33 pages 🥰 #thats what ive been doing at work the past three days lol #dnd #my dnd

[eirian]

last night there was a giant fucking flying roach in our apartment and it was the scariest thing ive ever experienced in my life. i have actual ptsd from childhood trauma and i dont remember ever being that scared

#im only half joking but like. fr i was screaming and shaking and just generally freaking out #IT FLEW AT ME!!!!!!! AND IT WAS HUGE!!!!!!!! #i ended up one-shotting it out of the air with a water jug but . i was so shaken up afterward #yeah im a big fucking weenie what about it. #at one point it was on my leg and i nearly passed out

[lanaevyssmoved]

i never thought my paypal would be used as a way to contact me. man

#fray.txt #im so shaken up lol

[dreamcast-official]

genuine question am i just a bitch for being upset over something .

#my mom decided to open some of my dads batman figurines. figurines dad never got to open. #theyve been unopened on a shelf since dad died. i THOUGHT we agreed to leave them unopened. #apparently not! because the second my niece decides she wants to play with them (THEY ARENT TOYS BTW) she just. opens two of them. #without even asking me. she wouldve pressured me into saying yes either way so i guess it doesnt matter but. #im. am i just a bitch for not wanting my four year old playing with my dads stuff. especially stuff he never even got to open himself. #am i genuinely just being an ass because seeing that made me want to cry. #i dont care that she put them back in the box SHE DIDNT EVEN ASK ME. #THAT WAS *MY DADS* STUFF. I SHOULD AT LEAST BE ASKED RIGHT? AM I CRAZY. #it wasnt mine but it wasnt hers either. its dads. its his. we shouldnt be messing with it. any of us. no one should be messing with it. #we should leave it alone. its not ours. and its definitely not ours to give to a TODDLER who might BREAK IT. #NOT TO MENTION SHE COULD HURT HERSELF IF THOSE THINGS BROKE. #idk. i. im really shaken up. maybe im just a bitch.

[masqueradeoftheguilty]

4.0 archon quest spoilers //

looking at the end of act 2, you see the people start to immediately turn on furina the moment that she slips up and admits she's confused by the oratrice's judgement and you start to understand why she has such a strong need for control (and why she moment she's on the backfoot she redirects any doubts or anger and then leaves)

#genshin spoilers #genshin 4.0 spoilers #i have a feeling by the end furina will be left weeping alone on her throne like the prophecy but not bcs the people will be dissolved #but bcs everything collapses around her #the people's faith in her is already weak and they love drama so much they would turn on their god #even neuvillette doesn't seem overly fond of her at times #smth smth abandonment issues. the way she avoids conflict and embarrassment.... #i need her lore immediately hyv #given how much the travellers arrival has shaken the other nations i do feel a big change is coming to fontaine and im so excited #step right up! || 🪄.txt

[itstokkii]

it's maybe been about a week but even remembering it makes me deeply upset and shaken(an understatement, i don't know another word that describes how sad i am). i don't know, something about my living experience as an uzbek korean being invalidated and spoken over by someone who's only visited korea a few times... and then talked down to like a child when i tried to speak up for myself, being called immature... i guess i expected better from someone older than me but this fandom has ways of proving you're wrong every single time.

i already struggle enough with my identity being stripped from me again and again. i don't need any more reasons to struggle further.

#tokki rambles #vent post #might delete later... #sorry im just so frustrated #i was left crying and my whole body was shaken #and this person is able to hop onto the other conversation like nothing happened #it shows what kind of people are able to do something like that: people who have never had issues with what nationality they are #and never have to struggle with that #I'm not a 4 year old. don't call me immature. #hetalia #it sounds like im petty #or beating a dead horse #it's not that. more like i was afraid to speak up about this #and i decided to be brave about it and say something because it felt like i was burning up on the inside

[your-dads-filing-cabinet]

Alright, sit your shit because clearly a discussion needs to be had.

You can write whatever the hell you want on AO3 (that's their rules, set up your own site if you don't like it IDC) but you need to tag what you write. You need to tag it in its entirety.

This includes characters being killed, s/h, sexual assault, EDs and whatever the hell else I'm not thinking of. This means tagging "implied rape/non-con" and not "implied sexual content". This means tagging "suicide" and not "minor character death".

If you really really don't want to tag that because it spoils the fic, clarify that there is untagged elements in the fic and include the more detailed warnings in a dropdown in your author's note (there's a tutorial somewhere) or in the end notes of the fic.

Write whatever your heart desires, but please let your readers know what they're signing up for.

TL;DR: write whatever you want as long as you tag it appropriately

#hi jesus christ i just read untagged s/uicide and it was tagged BITTERSWEET ENDING i am not doing great 😬👍 #ao3 #filed under: speaking #ask to tag #<- seems counter productive but the point of this post is so ppl know to tag this shit and also im still a bit shaken up so if u think #i should tag this tell me /srs im done thinking for a bit im gonna go watch youtube now

[wantbytaemin]

my god i just woke up from THE most detailed gentle and heartbreaking dream about jinki im in my bed like 😮 what was THAT

#so it was way too detailed for me to get into everything but it started with him being sad and like not wanting to speak to anyone #and i was sitting on the floor doing some writing & was like hi come here so he sat down like in between my legs and rested against me #i asked if he wanted to talk but he didn’t so i let it be and kept writing but couldn’t really focus #and then minho got there and was like ‘oh good he’s here’ and i was like what happened #and minho explained that like they were planning to do a world tour and album as shinee but jinki didn’t want to participate bc of the way #it was being handled #like there was a promo poster that was super insensitive towards jonghyun too #and a bunch of other things and then it flashed back to jinki filming a teaser for the tour and it was super intricate and too much for me #to type up right now but he looked so happy & smiley #like to make a point that he had wanted to be there until all the shit went down #and then it flashed back to me holding him and i stopped writing (or pretending to anyway) and just held him #there was no minho at that point and it felt like it was hours #and now i’m up and Shaken a little. not to be off the rails you’ll understand as I’m still affected by the dream but like it was so nice to #see him smile im still feeling the feeling like. relief and joy whew whatever he’s doing rn i hope he takes all the time in the world if he #needs/wants to & im grateful to have seen him smile even as a dream

[dead-petey-au]

Hey guys someone stole my story and put it on thus website does anyone know how to take it down

#im kinda shaken up about this 😭 mostly due to the ammount of likes and reads #dudee idk what to do. im not that mad about it but still id like some regonision #dog man #dog man dp! au #important #edit: im so sorry i just looked at the adds in the images #bugs #bug tw

[mxwhore]

my bad mood knows no bounds

#i am exhausted and on my way home a fucking dog lunged at me and i had to throw rocks #im ok btw just shaken. dogs are the worst #except for my chumpis #i am now staring at nothing trying to hype myself up to do the nightly routine #and trying to break the news to my grandma that ill stay another day #and ask her to not lock me out #overall thursdays are always the worst day of my week #im so tired