#im sorry i know its not this deep

[ofdreamsanddoodles]

just occurred to me that all of iruma’s main interests have, like, some tense relationship to gender. like azz & clara don’t usually focus as much on it as amelie used to, but at the start of the series, a bunch of students would refer to clara as kind of like, a weird pet iruma & azz have. even amelie has a line where she’s like “i forgot this strange beast was a girl.” clara doesn’t seem to mind it too much, even though she does have a strong identity as being the “big sister,” and the more aware she gets of her crush on iruma the more she considers doing more feminine things. it’s not that she doesn’t want to be a girl it’s that people consider her so strange & offputting that they forget she is one unless she reminds them.

azz’s relationship is, like, both less & more subtle considering that there’s a lot implied (like him being trans) but he’s never like. said anything. he very explicitly does not want to be referred to his feminine first name, always wears a certain cut of jacket that gives him a specific silhouette, is shown to be super uncomfortable with his bloodline ability, which is potentially something he considers feminine, since it’s probably related to love in some way (i know we got the pretty boy freshman & mr hat has his own thing going on, but as far as we’ve seen that seduction classes are mainly girls only, & his mom is the crown of lust). one could argue his desire to be a protector is also very transmasc of him, but i think it’s pretty clear whatever azz’s deal is, we haven’t heard the full story yet, but i think it’s interesting he’s so insistent on fighting for iruma, when amelie (who is stronger), struggles a lot with her crush towards the beginning, because she’s worried her strength & height means she’s not feminine or cute enough to catch iruma’s attention & a lot of times she actually ends up deferring to eliza on what to wear because she’s more typically feminine

judging by her comments at the evildol festival (”a girl is at her cutest when she tries her best”) it’s something she overcomes, but she still wants to be the one that gets carried like a princess despite being over a foot taller & fantasizes about iruma giving her flowers. it’s funny because her love of first love memories means she sometimes uses that as a basis for how a relationship should go, so she’s absorbing japan’s ideas about gender, but also a big part of the manga is rin’s interest in taekwando, which she uses to save her male love interest from the “evil organization,” which isn’t necessarily the most typically feminine thing either.

also, of course, if i’m talking about gender, i have to mention iruma, who shows up in the netherworld completely unaware of his own desires after a lifetime of putting others first & struggles to even do something as simple as using a transformation spell to give him clothes he likes, and canonically exclusively only wore stuff his grandfather bought him until he had azz (king of gender) go shopping with him. (also a very large part of s1 was him struggling with discomfort about being put in the spotlight bc he didnt want to be perceived) they’re all very concerned with their image in a way i don’t think i’ve seen very often in shounen manga, & i think it makes it all the nicer they end up gravitating towards each other so quickly, because it doesn’t seem like many of their classmates feel as strongly about this (tho amelie apparently only recruits “weirdos” to the student council, according to the members themselves, so maybe they're more complex than what we’ve seen so far)

#*accidentally t4ts your polycule* #im sorry i know its not this deep #mairimashita! iruma kun #mairuma #iruma kun #aster speaks

[rosenbergamot]

mister laios dungeon meshi…. as an autistic person, i dont think ive ever related more to a character before.

like laios being so disinterested by the human world around him, unable to understand it and growing bitter towards humans because of how much and how easily they hurt. with monsters theres a Reason for what they do — its all survival, and that makes sense. humans, however, hurt just to hurt. all the suffering that he and falin went through have been because of humans. why would he like them? why would he ever be interested in them? he and falin have Never been afforded being seen as humans.

i feel like, with laios, he likes who he likes, and he doesnt really think about people he doesnt like. sure they exist, and he knows and acknowledges this, but theyre not his. the only humans that really matter to him are the ones that hes grown attached to. hes very compassionate but thats because its in his nature. if he wasnt a kind person at heart, i dont think he’d bother with people at all. that kindness is such a core part of him.

if he were in the modern world i just KNOW that guy wouldnt care about a career or school or even all these supposedly human aspirations that people have-- these long term goals, these big lofty ideals. he would just care about the day to day. working to ensure theres a roof over his head and food on the table. reading about monsters. having dinner with his friends. making sure his loved ones are all doing okay. and i can just imagine people being like "but dont you want... more?" and laios being so confused. why WOULD you ever want more? why would he ever want to give himself to the rat race? be exhausted constantly? work towards a goal that only other people view as worthy? why, when what he has right here is exactly what he wanted!! laios doesnt have these "human" desires and thats a core part of why he feels so alienated from other people. so different. like a monster himself. and as someone who is autistic, let me just say.….. me too buddy.

#dungeon meshi spoilers #dungeon meshi #sorry this was in rhe drafts while reading andi just #as an autistic person i relate really hard to him #this is just how i view and read him btw which doesn’t need to be said but #im saying it anyways HEHE #i just. biting him #hes so compassionate like its in his nature but yet hes so disinterested #and its not out of a lack of caring bc like i said he cares very deeply in his core #its just. anything outside of his immediate bubble barely exists #he literally cant remember kabrus name bc kabru never made that deep impression on him #like what he did impart is very surface level and laios may not comprehend that on rhe surface but yet he still Knows it and Sees it #i want to talk more ab him. forever and ever #dunmeshi #dunmeshi spoilers #laois touden #tagging so more laios fans come to me. i need people to talk ab him with

[ribbononline]

Three idols on an island the show

#deep cut #shiver splatoon #frye splatoon #big man #splatoon 3 #idk. tags #sorry that this is the post i revive w guys #ive been drawing mons in the bg they r still in my heart. i just dont have anything im happy enough w to post #mostly just been writing up large hc walls w friend but thats not super interesting to post ksjhdfjksd #oh also i KNOW big man is a manta ray not a stingray but its just for the expression. its a ref to the special

[starryluminary]

Wow that's crazy wow that's crazy it's crazy how they're standing in a way that they look like they're almost holding hands wow that's crazy that's crazy wow that's cra

#sorry im going off the deep end #I know this makes me look like a fool that sees things that arent there but they just #make me insane #positive #ive been busy and rewatching the show by pieces and do you ever notice how often theyre together?????? #like standing next to eachother having their name called out one after the other that kind of stuff #cause its. alot. they do that alot for some reason. #ok thats it sorry for the ramblings of a crazy noco shipper #total drama #noco #total drama noco #td noco #Starry speaks

[kasumikoujou]

#i tried to make my fast sketches have more FLAIR. mayhaps it worked #i am also NOT putting this in the main gundam tags i will feel like im embarrassing my peers #the sumi rambles #me :) #sise #@ awagf on left!!!@ i can ping her now !!!!!! real #@ earlier its also liek.. u know who these are anyway... aherm #i am very sorry to g00 community also. i am a michael fan. its true and it is out to the world now #my deep dark secret 😔 #i did draw him before but. god bles i cannot share that with the world everOEMSMMWLWMF #yume

[what-aboutno]

It's crazy that in early maze days cOwen mentions he doesn't know first aid and he doesn't know how to fish. Like how did you survive as a soldier if you can't use the resources around you??

Also cOwen apperently not knowing hand to hand combat is insane. All his memories after the reunion show him fighting close up, and most of his kills later are close up too. I guess you could say that he remembers this stuff later on but it's still really funny to think about.

#zara rambles #outsiders smp #sorry for the outsiders spam #im not #but these thoughts are on the mind after i started rewatching #i know its not that deep but its interesting #how does the chip in their brain really affect their memories #because cOwen can remember how to shoot really well but cant remember how to do hand to hand combat #perhaps its to do with how his early memories all have to do with a bow but later on as a soldier he could have learned to use a spear #its interesting either way sjdjsj #owengejuicetv #owengejuice

[warblercore]

muppet of a man

#my art #this is MY puppet master #blaine anderson #glee #glee art #glee fanart #his bow tie has little water lilies on it by the way it's important that you know that #i have a deep and emotional connection to that frog im so so serious (currently holding my kermy) #this actually has layers bc darren criss is part of the muppets cinematic universe #am i projecting? yuh #also i know the piano isnt accurate sorry #i play the piano. i appreciate the instrument. i just didnt want to draw all 80 keys its just too much!!!!! ITS TOO MUCH!!!!! #fun fact i learned the little k|aine song on piano but i lost the music i wrote down so that skill is lost to history :( #edit: like five minutes after posting this i found the music written in the back of my piano book???? #warblerlore #puppet posting

[skitskatdacat63]

Hey do you remember all those videos of Fernando smelling flowers? Haha yeah....

#posting this both while im asleep and after whatever bee event ends up happening #so who knows what will happen! will we get nothing? will we get eye contact? will we possibly get an interaction? its a surprise!! #anyways this is basically me hearing about seb's bee event and he said the drivers will be there #me deep in my vettonso brainrot: OH MY GOD THEY'RE GONNA BE IN THE SAME VICINITY #will be so funny for me if when i wake up i find out fernando didnt even go 😭 #but we remain hopeful 🙏 #also this is just very funny to me bcs like both seb and fernando have very specifc quirks #and what are two of their specific quirks? seb and his bee thing. fernando and his flower thing from this season #so this fanart is perfect y'know 🥰🥰🥰 #also screeching over how this is the first canon au drawing ive ever drawn. ive literally never drawn non-au until now 💀💀💀 #okay and now some horrible jokes thay happened during the process of this: #thesis of this drawing: whats Fernando gonna do? Pollinate him? 😏 #C. why did you have to make me think of bees that produce sex pollen 😭😭 this is gonna haunt me forever. but also vettonso post-japan fic- #and then also the barry benson thing. im like what do humanized bees look like and then realized 'oh no....oh no.' #fernando to seb at the bee event: 'ya like samurais...?' SORRY 😭 #also having to pick the colors from one of my historical au drawings was haunting. just the sheer difference btwn them yknow...... #anyways please take my old men yaoi. took a break from historical yaoi to draw this 😭😭😭😭 #this is my peak vettonso fanart cannot improve from here. also a fever dream #vettonso #f1 #formula 1 #sebastian vettel #fernando alonso #catie.art. #*not gonna edit the tags bcs i like the time capsule of it all but like. yeah. we were fed. #*catie from 2 hours prior(atm its 3 am) would be so pleased right now i think

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

To that one ask that said if Barnaby were to slap Frank for whatever reason

I know for a fact that would be the one time Eddie would be the one doing the chasing

funnier option: barnaby immediately feels so guilty he starts crying, and eddie seems like he'd be a sympathetic crier. so they're both standing there sobbing over frank's unconscious body

#barnabys wailing like 'im sorry i didnt mean it' #eddie all 'i know you didnt its okay but we should really get him to poppy's' #rambles from the bog #barn takes one look at eddie's stricken expression and immediately feels such Deep Guilt-

[artbybai]

Thinking more abt Z Broly and Paragus and. Their movie is so frustrating and tragic and heart-wrenching AS WELL AS BEING GENERALLY COOL AND FLASHY

As @/RedDogJustice on Twitter pointed out:

Trying to fight Broly head on = respectable

Trying to flee/take him down indirectly = cowardice

That’s. That’s how Broly operates with Paragus. His own father. Every day of his life.

He saved his own father from death as a baby, nearly dying himself in the process, and what did Broly get for it? Being called a freak. A Demon. Being tormented day in and day out by his father telling him the mind control diadem/suppressor crown was to help him. Being forced to hold himself back his whole life until Broly was literally ripped apart by what he tried to contain to be seen as “perfect” and worthy of his father’s pride and love. USED AS A SECRET WEAPON OF PARAGUS FOR SHALLOW, SHORT-SIGHTED PETTINESS.

Z Broly never had a single friend or person who showed him any amount of kindness that wasn’t a veil for secret, hideous cruelty, his entire life, born with something others deemed dangerous, something others felt was an acceptable excuse for dehumanizing him. Nobody tried to understand or help him. Nobody even tried to see beneath the surface or ask if he was okay. They listened to legends, gossip, his father, over what they could see with their own eyes.

His most desperate cry for help turns to joy when he finally lets loose despite being told that it would ultimately kill him. Wicked glee, a chance to show others a fraction of what he’s suffered, and the endless, unstoppable fear he endured. For someone to engage with and finally see him.

Now I almost think that that final punch Goku landed on Z Broly wasn’t so much “Goku’s just that powerful to destroy him” because THIS IS THE FREAKIN LEGENDARY SUPER SAIYAN. THE ONE THAT DESTROYS GALAXIES. Goku was only the ceramic chip to a car windshield.

Broly went out the same way he started: crying for help.

Z Broly is a heartbreaking tragedy and I’ll never be over it tbh

#artbybai #dbz #z broly #dragon ball #rambles #tragedy #im sorry but broly in any form makes me so emotional #its personal #yes i know #its not that deep #but it means a lot to me #idc if paragus says he was just straight up evil #he turned broly into a villain against his will #and that shit hurted #anyways #rant post

[skunkes]

unsure how to word this but there is something about having ocs with unsavory events happening in their past where it's like. talking about it, even when asked, seems almost gratuitous and inappropriate. and i'd much rather describe it through the oc themself and/or draw Them saying it. which is like. fitting for the subject matter? like of course its weird to talk about somebody else's business...!

and falls back into humanizing em/exploratory writing and development where u consider the impact of words said/words unsaid/HOW those words are said etc etc

#because not all real persons would give u every detail of their trauma obviously #which makes sense but im an overexplainer but also it feels inappropriate to overexplain when it comes to dis #i hope that makes sense #talkys #i once described what went down with al as just directly as possible and it still felt weird. ykwim?? idk why. #well i do know why! i dont want it to seem gratuitous or like That Cheap Writing Element. fine line #same with talon so he'll just keep implying it thru text + dialogue which is how it should be ! #the only difference is i think with al i wrote it like he would've said it bc he has more access to that side of himself #and is aware of how it affected him #whereas characterwise talon absolutely would just speak in riddles about and around it #i don't even think he's conscious about the direct effects of it #(but i wouldnt know bc he hasn't made that known to me in my brain) #people respond differently to different things and all that #also im so sorry if half the shit ive said recently is so like. Well Duh. i havent made a new oc in a decade gimme a break LOL #also i realize the. irony? of me even vaguely talking about it in the way i did but 1. i think that's also realistic when you #dont want to do a whole deep dive on someone else's business and 2. people are becoming #curious about my oc(s) and im just thinking about well; significant events and how to handle not speaking about em #FOR them. <- weirdly #idk. they're real to me. #its just so much more interesting to leave it up to them! people can lie people can downplay

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Being queer and neurodivergent is great and all until you're with relatives and you watch other people and feel like an outcast in your own family

#extra fun that i cant exactly tell my therapist that being queer is one of the reasons i feel this way #because peoples opinions on queer people here generally arent good #idk sometimes it feels like I dont belong anywhere and feel really alone even though i know im not #its just the way other people live and do things seems genuinely impossible for me. i dont get how they do it #sometimes wish i wasnt who i am ngl #can someone please tell me something nice. my self esteem is buried deep underground right now and i feel not great #sorry for bringing vent posts here on tumblr. i just genuinely dont have many people or places that I feel okay talking about this stuff #especially no one irl i feel okay telling all this to #and dm'ing people is also really difficult. i genuinely struggle to do it #vent post

[oatbugs]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

#saw carnation lily lily rose by john singer seargent irl today. it was basically at my doorstep all along idk why i never went to see it #it was placed at a corner in the gallery. me and my friend sat down and sketched the paintings of beautiful naked people quite badly. paper #provided by tate britain. she told me about how she couldnt look her boyfriend in the face after a harrowing film about war. when i say the #interview was informal i mean the person who was supposed to be my boss told me let me get you a cider and then he said after #50 years of life he knows people are inherently good and it only takes a little bit of kindness to save this world. he said he tricked #his wife into keeping the baby and then he said he quit his job at a US bank to help people find meaning and in it #he would have liked to find meaning. instead he started climbing with his friends. he said he chews his cigarettes because its a habit from #when he had to hide things from people. the entire time i felt uncomfortable and incredibly enlightened. this is my friends mentor. she has #his pattern of pauses and expletive and penchant for ends-justify-means attitude. i do think im not very clever #but maybe one day i will love you enough to make up for it. i wrote code i dont understand staring at the final error i thought about how #we both thought of how when we're too old to remember the voices of our friends we would like to stand in the pathway of the LHC beam pipe #cut it open and eat light in the freezing cold vacuum (kills you long before radiation will) the invisible puncture wound unfolding dna #back to the start larger than you ever were. you go to heaven once youve been to hell. my friend is in my bed #practicing calculations of eigenvectors by hand and she is uninterested in a visual proof you are uninterested in incompetence #we catch a train this is your kind of burden you tragic hero wincing at that word you only do this because you have to. im the only one #who can. i am a coward in this for the fucking poetry. the visual proofs. the pretty numbers. an architect who was horrible at maths wanted #to be a philosopher and accidentally ended up neck in deep in 70th Error On Visual Studio Code i want to kiss your eyes before we say #goodbye we both know there is no love in the way there should be. I still have your dress in my wardrobe. i hope you make art. #you think im alright head-wise i think you fucking hate me i think ill never be so clever you want me to tell you my idea? #if you wanted more of this world i would have liked to kiss you harder. we cant both be like this. im sorry i cant be with you the whole wa #the love is gone if you have to ask it. his breath catches his eyes feel stiff it is -1.9 kelvin he is near the beam pipe i miss holding #his hand i miss her singing voice i miss his hair and i found the antonym of pain thank you for carrying me home.

[henriiiii-1001old]

i finally drew him <33333333 I LOVE HIM SM MAN I WANNA HOLD HIMB!!!!!!!!!!!!

@localvoidcat

#case theories #mandela catalogue #the mandela catalogue #deep sea thatcher au #thatcher davis #YES HE GETS TOP SURGERY SCARS!!!!! he is transmasc sam told me so #(unless sam changed it bc its been a bit since the post that says that hes transmasc in this au so who knows) #also i do know i was a lil lazy and didnt draw his lil ears in the sketch on the right but im tired and yeah #im like. in a weird limbo w my creative stuff so bear with me #im gonna be lazy w stuff :') #but ye #also to sam sorry if me tagging you is annoying {:(

[ferncloud]

hmm i wonder if tumblr user ferncloud likes ferncloud...

/.\ MAYBE...

#LOL #when i first got this username in 2014 i liked her just fine but in a sort of whatever way #over the years ive grown quite attached HAHAHA i love her shes so kitty of all time #her mother is killed horrifically and left outside her home & she immediately offers herself to lead the dogs which is a near death sentenc #& weeks later she participates in a massive battle to the death with bloodclan... these events r often credited as traumatic experiences #explaining ashfurs terrible life choices but ferncloud went thru the same thangs. & then dustpelt.... was an adult hovering over her through #out all of this. & then she just wants to have kittens & if were reading into it maybe she wants to raise kittens the way she wishes she was #raised but many of her kittens die early or make it to adulthood but die b4 her. & on top of just what we know about her life shes hated by #thousands of readers for being a woman who wants to raise kids. & SHES KILLED CUZ SHES SO HATED... #i notice even now ferncloud is still reduced to motherhood by a lot of ppl #& thats ok its not that deep shes a bg character its nobodys job to think about everything. but she can be so personal & special & emo too #she is to me 💗 im proud to be a ferncloud. if ferncloud has 0 fans it cuz i died 😁 #Oh i also have the handdrawn comic page from a shadow in riverclan by james that has ferncloud blushing at feathertail LOL #i am sooooooooo sorry for this miles long tags rant #ask

[unexpectedbrickattack]

Oooooh do you think gnomes would have their own language/dialect??

Short answer: Yes. Technically.

Long answer: I have. Feelings. About how language is treated in fantasy. Like “this race has their Own language” despite living in vastly different areas of the same world. Like. Humans having their Own language. Elves having their Own language. Elves, orcs, etc etc. Its not Bad but its definitely like A Thing that pokes at my sides a little lol.

Humans have hundreds of spoken and visual languages! Id like to imagine that in a world with other races, they would have their own variety of spoken language 😊 So yes; Gus does speak in his own native tongue. And he has absolutely badmouthed someone who got on his nerves without them realizing it lol

#answered #chattin #gustavo #theyre like WHAT and hes like what? just talkin out loud :0 #anyway #not to point fingers at popular properties bc basically ALL major games and shows do this #let ur races get confused as hell when they travel the planet lol #gustavo travels to an entirely different continent w like an adventuring group or something #and theyre like hey! theres a town full of gnomes here; maybe u can chat them up #and hes like. i dont know what the fuck theyre saying im so sorry #while were on the subject I love love love that he has such a deep voice #its very strange (obviously from sound clips being distorted) #but like i can imagine he doesnt really come across easily to alot of people #like he talks slower than usual but its also just very deep and he can often slur words together #and for some reason i keep hearing him w a southern (ish) accent in english?? i dunno how to make it stop 😭😭😭 #like very deep very gentle and hospitable…..if theres an italian equivalent of that hmu lmao #this is like COMPLETELY different from Vigis bc he sounds southern and deep too #but like he speaks WAY faster and he sounds completely incoherent when hes angry/yelling #YOU KNOW WHAT #im going to just say Gus being an adventurer #he is just a polyglot #and very fluent in those languages #justifying my sweet southern boy gus! voice agenda lmao