#im very glad i read it

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[copepods]

if (when) beyond the spiderverse is delayed i dont wanna see ANYONE complaining btw. if it takes 2, 3 years for the workers to create a good product and not crunch and overwork themselves that’s what it takes!!!!

#tbh when i saw it was slated for 2024 i was very nervous bc that didnt seem like nearly enough time #so im very glad that seems to not be the case anymore lol #spiderverse #text #apparently (according to my dad who read the news) theyre still in story development so like. lol. theres no way #makes me wonder how the writers strike is affecting things? but also sony is apparently infamously un-unionized so

[crescentfool]

the persona 3 protagonist 25th anniversary nui in food appliances!

#lizzy speaks #persona 3 #minato arisato #makoto yuki #guys friendly reminder that this is what adulthood is about dont listen to anyone who calls you cringe #hence why im putting these in the main tags. i mean they're not incorrect for what the photos are about. lmao #anyway this was a very fun birthday!!! i feel very loved and supported by so many people and i got to do very fun things (like this)... #i think... birthday is like thanksgiving to me. in the gratitude respect. #a reminder of all the lovely people that i have gotten a chance to meet and how i've learned from them #it makes me very happy to have been born... i think every day is a great day to celebrate life's grandeur + brilliance + magnificence #it's just a very poignant and strong feeling that i have that i'm happy to have met so many wonderful people #and while there are some people i've only known for brief periods of time or people who i havent really been good at keeping in contact wit #i do cherish it! im so grateful. so happy that there are people who cheer my silly shenanigans on #while there are ways in which aging makes me go “oh hmm” i think overall i'm happy that i get to keep on living and learning #i have so much fondness for humanity and people... like even if i dont get to talk to ppl directly i just get very emotional yknow #like wow.. you exist.. thats so fucking awesome... i hope you have an awesome day... im glad our paths could cross #if you have read up to this point of my tags.. thank you for reading and being part of my life #i will keep on being the silliest guy ive ever known! cheers to more shenyanigans and self-discovery :3

[stormbreaker101]

THIS FRAME GOES SO FUCKING HARD HOLY SHIT

THEY ARE BOTH THE CONSUMED AND THE CONSUMER. AT THE EXACT SAME TIME. THEY'RE CUTTING OUT THE MIDDLEMEN OF OTHER ANIMALS AND PLANTS TO EAT AND BE EATEN BY. LIVING IS INHERENTLY SELF-CANNIBALISTIC. AWSJDKFHSHDFDSKJGARWHAAGRWAFHAEGAGH

#is this a very surface level reading? yes #am i still going nuts over it? yes #leah speaks :3 #meshlive #yknow what this can go in the main tag #dungeon meshi #anyway im so glad y'all convinced me to watch this i can feel my neurons rewiring i can use this for my own writing

[plulp]

whitney (design kinda mid but its alright ill deal with it)

#my art #dol #whitney the bully #will not lie while i was drawing this i was thinking about MY bully from elementary school (LMAO) #they do not look dissimilar. but thats unrelated and she wasnt that mean to me anyways i think we fought over classroom toys or something #we were good in middle school though #anyways what was i going to say #oh had to draw whitney full body a few times to be like. hey youre going to like this design. so thats where im at #looks better in cute style than my normal style though #ill have to figure that out somehow #also for the next few days probably no art because im going to do stuff and things :( sorry #but when im back hopefully ill be able to draw more but ill get as much done as i can 2 NITE #also THANK YOU so much for liking my OLD man drawing i posted previously #so glad everyone likes that design #when i was reading the tags i was like 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊 YAY!!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!! <- like that #im not very good at designing characters because i have terminal fanartist syndrome #but with how many hours ive spend on this game. ive dug up something out of my head that people like #so thats cool

[idolomantises]

ngl, the more I think about it, the more I feel conflicted over how people sexualize my characters.

On the one hand, it would be silly to deny that I don't go out of my way to create aesthetically pleasing/attractive characters because I love to draw what I enjoy, and I love it when people simp for them.

But on the other hand, sometimes it does bother me that people are so fixated on sex and their own arousal that they miss important lore/plot information that I get a bit frustrated

#txt #i dont really mind that people missed the fact that powers had horns but i do have issues with people thinking the scene would lead up to #sex??? lili had a very clearly shocked face but people were expecting them to just. have sex and fall in love #twitter and instagram is pretty respectful to my works but i think webtoons and especially tiktok (good lord tiktok) is where people are #just. like they're not even paying attention because they wanna fuck my ocs lol #its a lot of work to try to give these incredibly short comics decent pacing and dialogue and it sucks when people ignore gestures or #verbal communication because they saw powers muscled chest and went 'oh yeah. its sex time' #i started posting my bugtopia comics to tiktok and these people are so goddamn obsessed with sexualizing everything that i read comments #where people were expecting arachne to peg her FOUR YEAR OLD SON #and its like. hey guys. im glad you enjoy my work but i dont like how you cannot perceive my characters as anything #but something to whack off to #anyways i dont see myself discussing this on twitter because unfortunately people have 0 fucking reading comprehension lol #to this day i get rude messages accusing me of hating people who enjoy lesbian media or finding my characters hot #because i asked people to not call me a fucking f*ggot when i draw to men kissing

[hatchetmode]

Warm Bodies (2013) lighting studies 

#warm bodies #my art #this was really fun :> #and shockingly easy #these arent meant to be perfect either! #i like that they are still very sketchy #R is sooo much fun to draw when he has blood and gore all over his face sdfvbh #never done lighting studies before and i never do digital painting :'> #so im glad these turned out well! #ill have to do more in the future #any way uhhhh watch warm bodies and also read the book!!!!

[waitineedaname]

a while ago, I had been joking around with a friend about the idea of a shonen hero who's like all about the power of friendship and draws strength from their friend group, but their friend group is made up of minor antagonists, and now that I've watched it, I've realized the show I was looking for was mob psycho. That's literally just what mob's friend group is like.

#mp100 #with the exception of reigen and his friends from school #but like. all his esper friends? all of them were at some point antagonists or at least fucked up in some way #teru? literally strangled mob to the point of unconsciousness in their first encounter. now admires him more than anyone. #shou? the son of a supervillain. caused problems on purpose for mob in season one. now just a fortnite kid. #ritsu? corruption arc. the consequences of giving an angsty gifted kid psychic powers (turning evil). #is now no longer being evil but is still kinda fucked up and very willing to use violence #even the finale antagonists from season one are allies in season two! #even dimple! the first person we see mob go 100% on! fucked up evil spirit! eventually becomes friends with mob and protects him! #of course now. well. things are a little fucked #i havent read the manga so no spoilers #but mob doesnt seem to believe that dimple was just using him this whole time and i agree #i think dimple is just refusing to acknowledge that he has come to care for the kid #anyway that's besides the point #the point is that shonen protag with a friend group of villains is really funny and im so glad it exists through mp100

[logicpng]

by the way, how do you think your organs would handle conversion to a binary format?

ohhhh you wanna play re:curse you wanna play re:curse so baaaaad

timelapse under cut!

#re:curse #caroline #caroline re:curse #rpg maker horror #indie game #devpalmer #hi i didn't know it was possible for a small game to appeal to me so much on so many levels #especially amazing given im an amateur dataminer and datamining is very much encouraged #in case dev is reading this thanks for making the game <:) heard of it by accident but im glad i have #also i want to befriend caroline; not possible ingame but i can dream 💔

[chryblossomjjk]

god i know everything comes to an end but i hope fanfic never dies like there’s nothing cooler to me than a community of people sharing their lil daydreams with eachother

#yeah #lowkey feel like this community is fizzling on here with the boys enlisting and what not #but !!!! #i shall cherish it while it last bc it’s so much fun #and i love you all #and im glad i met you #and got to read your writing #and see you on the feed makes me very happy

[milimeters-morales]

I like the idea that random ass people on the street and old ladies in a book club know more about Spider-Man's (Miles's) personal life than his own friends after the events of ATSV. Henrietta and Rosemary know about his baby sister's teething troubles while his friends don't even know she exists (and won't know for a long time), some people in the city are planning on getting him cupcakes, coupons, a fruit platter, and expensive markers for his birthday stuff when he's never even hinted at when his birthday might be to his friends. stuff like that, because i mean. they barely know him anyway

#like im glad that they are typically written as friends and such but they literally dont know shit about Miles canonically #i mean unless you count the stalking miguel does? but that doesn't automatically mean he knows who miles is as a person (very obvious anywa #i wanna read a fic where they just learn about miles (smiley face) and what makes him miles rather than what makes miles spider-man #miles morales #spiderman #spider-man #m&m posts

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

The Jinn-Bot of Shantiport

set in a cyberpunk Calcutta-inspired city, loosely inspired by Aladdin

chaotic monkey bot who wants to fight in underground mecha/bot tournaments and leave to become a space hero

his human sister, the daughter of failed revolutionaries who has been working her whole life to free their city from oppression and inequality, especially with the recent rumors that their planet is scheduled for destruction

and an old unearthed bot whose function is to observe & record the story of a client who meets the siblings and quickly becomes involved in their lives

and a treasure hunt to find an old and powerful piece of alien tech that has the power to radically change their city

#The Jinn-Bot of Shantiport #aroaessidhe 2024 reads #I really loved this #a little robot with a big personality? TWO of them? im in. #The pacing is a bit weird - the first half could honestly be a contained novella. the second half is a bit all over the place #But I’m ultimately glad to have that extra more complex part of the story #it’s like very action packed with a few dense moments especially like the infodumps about what Lina / her mother’s deal is. #which kinda makes sense on a technical level (Moku learning this all at once) but also I definitely felt a bit confused at why/how some of #the stuff that was going on was happening #I did also find every now and then weirdly worded prose took me out of it? but I can look past that #I felt the side romance was random and weird. I felt like it did a disservice to her otherwise complex character to have her just forget #her goals and values because Hot Man? #idk. it’s lampshaded a bit by being viewed through the POV who also thinks it is weird and makes no sense #but they still get together again in the end…. I would have preferred if they didn’t. #that's mostly complaints LOL but the world is so rich and interesting and i love robots that are little shits (affectionate) #queer books

[silverskye13]

I've been meaning to ask about this because I love love LOVE your writing but aren't really very deep into the hermitcraft fandom....

would I need to know anything prior to reading your hc fics? I've heard very many good things about redstone and skulk and I want to read it , but I dunno if walking in clueless is a good idea...

Oh. Hm. Well. I'm maybe not the best person to ask this, ironically. I have a hard time differentiating between actual common knowledge and fandom osmosis common knowledge. My thoughts under the cut because this might get long, but here are my, I guess, fandom initiation thoughts on my fics, for anyone curious?

Redstone and Skulk:

I think it can reasonably be read with little-to-no prior knowledge of the fandom. I do a decent job of explaining what the story is about, since most of it is original worldbuilding with (mostly) original characters. It's a mirror world, where in the main world death doesn't exist, but in the mirror world it does. All the mirror world characters are the bad parts / evil twins of the main world characters, and how they cope with that varies (and is sometimes explicitly stated). The first few chapters do a decent job of establishing this information, and I've had a few people mention RnS was either their first delve into hc fandom, or they had never been in the fandom and read it anyway because it came recommended by a friend. This signals to me it would be about like reading a sequel to a book series. You're clearly missing some establishing character stuff, and maybe some setting stuff, but you're not missing enough to be completely lost.

[basic knowledge of Minecraft mobs and game mechanics would definitely do you good, but that goes for all of these].

Monsters Splitting Hairs:

I personally think you can jump into this with no prior knowledge. All the characters are loosely based on the hc members they're named for personality wise, and place names [Octagon, Horsehead Farms] come from builds the players have made. Just about everything else is my personal world building though. The only upper hand knowing about HC will give you, is maybe cluing you in to who/what the different monster characters are before they're revealed [a la Rendog, who walks around with dog ears on his MC skin, is very obviously a werewolf in the fic.]

This fic is unfinished, and while I plan on finishing it eventually, it isn't being actively updated, and probably won't until RnS is done. It does have a lot of words on it though.

Hound's Tooth:

You need to know a lot of information to go into this one. Not only do you need to know a decent amount about the HC characters, knowing about both 3rd Life and Last Life is also kinda necessary, since the crux of the character motivation is Doc angsting over Ren doing Last Life after 3rd Life fucked up all his friends so bad the first time. Also, you need to know a decent amount about the early Octagon plotlines in s8 of Hermitcraft, the different adventure mode trial rooms they did.

This fic is finished.

Everything else I've written are ficlets, little one or two chapter deals. Anything tagged "RnS fic", you should probably read RnS before reading. Most of the others you need specific information for, since they're generally addressing topics that I had /just/ watched an episode for at the time, and I was responding to an idea or plot point being brought up. Anything with "Hels" or "Helsmet" in the tags or title, know it's about the mirror world and the evil twins.

[shrug]

I hope this helps?

#answering asks #anonymous #im glad you like my writing enough to try to read stuff out of your normal fandom sphere :') #thats very very cool of you #if you do give the fics a shot i hope you like them! and i hope theyre not confusing

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[moodymisty]

Wow, it's been a crazy year. I never really expected to end up writing so much, but to see it all laid out has been kind of insane.

I guess I'd just like to thank everyone who's visited my blog, or interacted with my stuff. Even if you're a lurker, just know it means a lot to know people enjoy the silly little things I create. And another thanks to all the friends I've made here this year too.

Maybe it's 'cringe' of me to say, but I really appreciate all of you. I grew up an extremely lonely rural homeschooled kid, so to talk and make friends with so many people from so many different places is, awesome. I never got to be a kid, so it's been great to have a nice, peaceful place to go. I know that's funny considering pretty much everything I write for is pretty grim, but as someone who's so sick of fandom wank, I really like the place we've created.

To a new year! I hope to make tons more stuff, and share it with you all. Here's a bit of what I still have in my drafts for an idea of what's to come:

Stuff for Sevatar, Lorgar, Vulkan, Horus, Ferrus Manus, Roboute, Lion'el Jonson, Rogal Dorn, Perturabo, MULTIPLE things for Konrad because y'all are so horrifically down bad and frighten me to no end, an Unnamed Black Templar/reader, Part 3 of the Stolen Historitor!Reader with Angron, More Sanguinius

Tbb Wrecker/Reader, Boba Fett, multiple things for Darksiders Strife, two things for Darksiders Death,

The highly requested Yandere Salamander fic, and more. Some of this is NSFW, some isn't. That's a surprise <3

#i used to be hella into the discourse shit years ago but to have this place now is amazing <3 thanks you all are incredible #im glad i stopped reeling about pointless shit and just have fun writing about our little dudes in armor. be it Star wars 40k or whatever #not writing #also psst most won't read this but i'm very close to 2k and I'll be doing something fun for that so I'm gonna really focus on cleaning hous

[deesi-academia]

its so weird that the one friend who has my baby pictures isn't going to be in my life anymore... like we were practically born and grew up together but times change i guess?

#everybody (she) moved on but i stayed there dust collected on my pinned up hair- #oh well nostagia is not a good mood rn #childhood friends #broken friendships #friendships #love #main aisi q hu #if youre reading tags then why i spill to you special person #basically she chose the view of a new friend about me over the actual me #it was some very disturbing stereotype but she went with the new friend #fine then bye #even though im sad im glad such a fragile friend isnt here anymore #okie bye