#ill have to figure that out somehow

[plulp]

whitney (design kinda mid but its alright ill deal with it)

#my art #dol #whitney the bully #will not lie while i was drawing this i was thinking about MY bully from elementary school (LMAO) #they do not look dissimilar. but thats unrelated and she wasnt that mean to me anyways i think we fought over classroom toys or something #we were good in middle school though #anyways what was i going to say #oh had to draw whitney full body a few times to be like. hey youre going to like this design. so thats where im at #looks better in cute style than my normal style though #ill have to figure that out somehow #also for the next few days probably no art because im going to do stuff and things :( sorry #but when im back hopefully ill be able to draw more but ill get as much done as i can 2 NITE #also THANK YOU so much for liking my OLD man drawing i posted previously #so glad everyone likes that design #when i was reading the tags i was like 😊😊😊😊😊😊😊 YAY!!!!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!!!! <- like that #im not very good at designing characters because i have terminal fanartist syndrome #but with how many hours ive spend on this game. ive dug up something out of my head that people like #so thats cool

[artoutforblood]

LAMB LAMB LAMB LAMB

#cotl lamb #cotl #cotl fanart #cult of the lamb #ive been having a hard as hell time drawing anything but i managed these #idk i dont have a name for my lamb maybe ill just keep it as lambert #i dont draw a lot of anthro #im still trying to figure out if i can somehow blend hooves with hands. like allow the full dexterity whole also being hooved? #very much based on my run. cares very much for their following. #hasnt had a single death to anything besides old age and sacrifice #has some.. skewed ideas on death and sacrifice (trauma) theres a reason they're so gungho about being toww's vessel #i made their collar larger. their beheading scar is p brutal and they cant grow any wool or fur there #if it does its patchy and uneven. they just cut it off and covers it up #they do have a good camaraderie w the crown. names them camellia while crusading in darkwood because of the red and it was right there #bonesart

[californiannostalgia]

sometimes I think

hey maybe it's that time again

it's that time to write an abuse survivor mental illness fic with lester papadopoulus and maybe that will help me figure out what the fuck is going on in my brain

maybe my obsession with normalcy and potential dangers and spiraling late at night and being suspicious of people and the hollow disgust at the desperately cheerful person I become around my (changed behavior) parents isn't normal people stuff

maybe I'm gonna be afraid forever incomprehensible forever non-normal forever and maybe apollo wants to say a few words on the subject

#lester papadopoulos #my thoughts #child abuse #I can't though because I suck at writing -> see I know this isn't strictly true but this is the first thought I go to #it is fucked up how I've internalized the concept of writing as a waste of time #feeling sort of insane hah when have I not felt insane #merry christmas and happy new year everybody somehow it's that time of year #I can't even figure out whether I want to keep going on this life trajectory bc most of the time I can't guage the misery level difference #is this academic student thing more difficult? less? what am I comparing this with? #is the fact that I was abused and so easier to take advantage of gonna be obvious to everyone I meet? how mentally ill do I seem to others? #vent post #trials of apollo

[mikkokomori]

Me thinking about drawing fanart for AUs as if I haven't had a painful time trying to find motivation to do anything

#i want to draw... mmm but at the same time i have to find character refs for the aus i wanna do #well....ill figure it out somehow!!! maybe I'll post some sketches if I can't find motivation #miko talks

[seaquestions]

not a man or a woman but a secret third thing (girlguy)

#incoherent turtle noises #remember when i said i wouldnt have any more gender breakthroughs cos i got it all figured out? ‘twas hubris. #having gender thoughts is fun and nice its way better than being anxious about the reality of living #im like. man doesnt rly describe me like ill go with it but i rly prefer saying guy. and im def not a woman but ill call myself girl #im just a lil weirdo normalguy girlgenderthing. im an ikea shark. im a quagsire. im a tiger keychain. #and yet somehow im still on the fence abt calling myself nonbinary. in technical terms i always have been but in terms of wanting a label.. #ehhh… i dont rly feel…like yes nonbinary is an umbrella term comprising all kinds of identity and pronouns but um. just being fr. #i dont wanna get they/themmed by randos more than i already do. sry but like u know its true! it already happens & i got he/him in the bio!

[kaijusmart]

finally figured out how to pose travis's face. i had to re-rig his whole body -_- the whole rig is kind of janky so i think ill run some print tests with posing his original rig. if i want to make his figurine with an expression i might see if i can make a post JUST for his face/head. and print a little version of just his head + neck that i can attach to the printed body of the other model. that does involve figuring out how to A: cut his geometry in to pieces and B: model peg attachments for his head. i will say it would be cool to make him modular though. i could cut his torso legs and head apart and model a peg attachment for each to mix and match different printed poses???? that might be too advanced for me but well see. anyway playing with my touys

#my post #i am actually having fun with this #im glad im not trying to wrangle my own model #ill figure out how to properly model someday #but trying to rig this is fun #when i figure it out i can make some actual fun renders #if anyone has specific requests #i dont however have his beam katana so. ill have to find a model of that to somehow add.......? #theres a couple beam katana models on umm. thingaverse or websites like that #but its the one from nmh3 which is like. way different texturing and polycount than nmh1 lol #but anyway :) having fun #no more heroes #nmh #diary

[mykocalico]

i wanted to draw a group pic of the gang and i also made it into a ref bc i keep tweaking their designs 👍 i was feelin lazy with the clothes can you tell lol. i am in pain

#art #drawing #furry art #character design #idk i hate tagging. sorry. #im still not rly sure abt any of their last names tbh but i guess it also doesnt really matter that much #i just figure Some of them could have names from the actual vague conlangs i made rather than just. english. lol #since they're just vague i usually try to base the names on actual en/pl words btw lol. but for now out of these guys that's just kavri #i just remembered i was also gonna change val's last name to be somehow based on some hawk moth but aughhh i don't have the energy rn #and also i am definitely not editing this image right now anyway. i've had ENOUGH of that. whatever #anyway i hate this whole post but whatever GODDDD. if i dont post this now ill forget so

[insomniac-pbparker]

HOW DO I FIGURE OUT MY VOCAL RANGE/SINGING VOICE WAHT

#irls have been telling me about that kinda thing and i wanna know mine; b #ut I don't know how to figure it out ☹️ #oops #peter prattles #will update later #man i quickly scrolled through my talking tag AND MAN I TALK ALOT. SO SORRY FOR EVERYONE'S DASHES #AIGHT I'm out to go figure the thing out #or brute force my way through it somehow #<- no clue how to do that but ill figure it out

[karvakera]

random oc doodles I have that no one asked for 😼

#im going to write a whole essay in tags dw abt me guys #anyways haha #my oc mau never beating these gojo allegations #maybe thats why I like gojo sm I see him as my silly son😭 #I dont think ill care if this flops I just want u guys to see them I love my sillies so much #also I dont want to be strictly jjk artist so😼 watch me figure my own account out #kinda want to do trigun art too... or genshin.. I have had so many silly moments in coop #most fucked up thing is how little time I have #saw screenshots of new jjk episode AND I CANT WATCH IT (maybe saturday though) #literally did biology homework FOR THREE HOURS #OUR FIRST BIOLOGY LESSON IS TOMORROW!! WE HAVENT EVEN MET THE TEACHER YET #I think I have a test tomorrow in swedish 😨 #also my roommate broke the lamp trying to help me change the trash bag (old one had broken somehow) #I vaccuumed the floor like 6 times #I still find glass #its like glitter #its on the floor its in her hair its in the corridor its in my slippers and I even found one in my foot #oc #own character #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #guys could u tell but I hate musk so sooooo much #mau and sol #I have a pan on my shelf #theres an amogus plushie in it #I miss artfight it was so much fun #(I was fighting for my life trying to revenge everyone)

[jaetaimjadore]

cryingggggg enha just released what im positive will be the masterpiece of a century, @lebrookestore finally showed up in my feed (f u tumblr 🖕), and the weather is ABSOLUTELY DIVINE but here i am stuck in interview prep hell T^T

#im alive i swear i am #and i promise i will be back yall I PROMISE #these past 2 years have been so wOOOoooooOOOOOooooooOOOOooooOOOO #lots of hard work but also so much uncertainty about my future career/life etc #literally cant catch a break #(still cant figure out how i wrote doublure dargent last year 😪) #yall promise me that whatever you do #DO👏NOT👏SET👏YOUR👏HEART👏OUT👏ON👏MEDICINE #it will eat you up inside THIS IS YOUR WARNING #hopefully it will all be over for me on dec 3rd tho and ill get into my dream uni and things will all be fine 🤞🤞 #also i swear im not complaining.. just repenting #and brooke ily i miss u and im sorry for being such a phantom this year (does not excuse me nonetheless) <3 #and to the 201 followers that have somehow stuck by me: i love and appreciate every single one of you! #its really a miracle how i still see notifs on this blog ... #please stick around cause i actually have 2 new fics that im really excited about that i want to finish off and post within the next year!! #anyway rant over i will have a baddie comeback on of these days #i feel it 😌 #medz moodz.☁️

[aria0fgold]

Yaknow what? I'll just post my lil isat au fic here instead. After I eat.

#aria rants #idk why ao3 became intimidating to me somehow but am also like-- i shoouuullldd upload it to ao3... but-- #tbf im still indecisive bout the au with it being in its baby stages so ig the lil fic idea i got is like-- testing the waters #if i write this and upload it to ao3 in the next moment ill be having ANOTHER oafb moment in my hands. i can feel it #so ill do planning First by a Lot before i set off to the wild with a possible longfic au idea #also its cuz that fic idea i got ends in a somewhat cliffhanger tone in a: to be continued? kind of way #so its obvious that i got mooorre plans for it than just a oneshot but the thing here is that i also got nothing else rn #so yea. to tumblr it goes! until i can figure out my isat au some more then to ao3!

[maxmemer]

Hello!

Do you by any chance to have a sona?

Technically yes but I told froggie I'd make a new one so I'm gonna wait till the new one is made :>

#Diona!! #mutual froggy family moment #moots #I'll figure it out #i haven't got a good idea yet but ill figure it out #give me a deadline and I'll have it done somehow

[musical-chick-13]

What if I made this as off-putting as possible instead of romantic.

#I mean I'm very heavily leaning into the humor for this one but what if I made it funny AND creepy #then I wouldn't have to pretend I know how to write a functional relationship #(well. as functional as these two characters can be anyway.) #the problem is that most of my ideas are about analyzing relationships between characters #and some of them are fucked up with the romantic element unrealized (which is a lot easier to write because of. you know. personal history) #and some of them are about how mental illness interacts with one's relationships #but the rest of them are straight up 'how would these characters get together and build a relationship that works for them' #and I WANT to write those things because they're important to me and because I want there to be more fic for my unpopular ships #but the idea of ME trying to write something where the entire focus is people getting into a happy and relatively straightforward #relationship feels...laughable. #c2g is different because it's not like...straightforward at all? there are a lot of elements at play there. #and the characters are ALREADY together. and most of the fic really is just unpacking their psyches. #I wouldn't call it a romance fic? #but Deranged Oneshot is...probably somehow actually closer to that idea. #but like. what if it wasn't. #ugh maybe I DO post this one anonymously like I hate considering that but that might be the #only way it actually gets finished #(though. of course. I have to figure out how to get c2g finished too. because we are ALSO struggling there just #for different reasons) #mc13 writes #c2g #The Fic That's A Lot #(and others)

[bayonetta-origins]

having aa5 bayo origins thoughts( ´-｀) ill ramble in the tags

#normally id do this on my twt priv but my friends on there havent finished aa5/played bayo origins #so i dont want to spoil #also idk i think id juzt like to ramble on here #anyway I STILL DONT KNOW who will be lukaon... #nothing romantic will be Implied in this au i do not want anything to do w that.... #i had the idea of simon being lukaon so that aura is motivated to get her brother back #but i *really* want simon to be cheshire #so maybe.. ill connect it somehow #speaking of simon he wont be able to talk normally and has to talk using widget #idk. just thought it would be fun #since cheshire doesnt really have a voice.. in a way(? #idk how to word it but YOU KNOW!!.!!!! #also i just dont want to give him a mouthLOL #and aura.. was looking at morganas wiki page the other day to get a picture and was reading the description of #the character page of her demon masquerade form #''​each [morgana and lex] have nothing but endless rage built up in their heart.'' #and was like waaa.... aura...... #that really wanted me to connect simon to lukaon in a way #ill figure it out.... #the wisps will probably just still be the wisps in origins #i thought of the idea of them looking like the robots wifh hearts robots but i was like #hm. maybe. idk #again ill figure it out.. i just wish i wasnt so busy w school weh #also i still havent finished my bayo origins anniversary art. help. #I NEED MORE FREE TIME #ok ramblkng over bye . i will probably do this again #athena and the lost demon #i dont have a text post tag

[impossible-rat-babies]

me sweating in eyrie getting a bit too real for comfort at times

#comfort character of you are gonna Confront some shit #eyrie’s lonely childhood is like. still causes problems #their peers finding them odd so it was easier to not get close to any of them and remain in the comfort of family and that security #which made them into an adult who won’t voice their wants or needs out of a desire to not put pressure upon others #who takes burdens of others—emotional and physical—to feel useful to others as to not be completely isolated from others #even if they are ill equipped to handle the burdens of others. they gotta figure it out somehow or they’ll be all alone #the desire to please others. to be a certain way. to be Fine and Okay #I’m thinking a lot about how that plays into their dynamic with alphinaud in HW #how him and Tataru are the only ones left and they have no choice but to stare their loneliness in the face and come to terms with it #they keep alphinaud at a distance bc they are angry with him but it makes it easier to wallow when they don’t have him there #oc: eyrie kisne

[sidesteppostinghours]

Rolling in 10 hrs late but— 27, 28 Caine, 17, 34 for Cecilia? And B for all ur Steps, if you don’t mind :)

morning! thank you for the ask :D 

27. What causes them to feel dread? 

the fun thing about caine is that hes got really good instincts. its only heightened with hark (over 30 precog im p sure?) since hark encouraged him to listen to their gut. so if somethings about to go wrong, yeah, the dread is kicking in and theyre nope-ing the fuck out of there (the only exception to this is the casino scene). but there can also be false alarms if he disassociates hard enough, which is becoming more frequent lately. their paranoia+growing insomnia just adds to all of it. basically they just feel dread half the time,,, but also a more tangible thing that causes them to feel dread would probably be ortegas mind. if theyre in the wrong headspace, ortega brings back too many bad memories for them to feel safe.

28. Would they prefer a lie over an unpleasant truth? 

hmmm,,,, im not sure! it really depends on why the other person is lying about it ig, and how severe/urgent the unpleasant truth is. by default he tends to prefer the truth, but its mostly for informations sake. for example, with argent, they Really wouldve preferred not knowing what she was capable of. now that the cats out of the bag hes even more paranoid, especially since they have no information on her to use to protect himself. meanwhile, with the autopsy pics, they appreciated chen telling them what happened because it gave them a better idea of what happened while they were gone, and in their eyes chen had no obligation to tell them (plus they got some free bonus info about the kind of contacts chen has which is really useful too). basically, if he thinks he needs it to do things better or more efficiently, hell be ticked off about somebody withholding the truth from him, and vice versca if he thinks the lie would be more beneficial to him instead. either way though, theyre good at keeping their emotions in check, so hed be fine getting the unpleasant truth either way.

17. Are they easily embarrassed?

nope! not at all. i mean, if she hyped herself up and managed to fail spectacularly, then yeah, i could see her getting majorly embarrassed. but thats p much one of the few situations i could imagine her feeling like that. ceci isnt known for shame– shes extremely blunt, to the point of being insensitive, and shes willing to do a lot for a quick kick. except,,,,,hmmmm,, argent making a comment or stealing a quick kiss when she didnt expect it and managing to fluster her,,,,,, please hold while i experience the visionsTM.

34. How hard is it for them to shake a sense of guilt? 

oof. i think prehb the guilt of what she left behind was definitely there, but it got buried under the satisfaction of being free and having fun for once. nowadays, she still lives by those principles, that no matter what happened at least shes here now, but this time around theres an added layer of her actively trying to forget. if she does something she genuinely regrets, its still getting buried, but itll just claw right back to her in inopportune moments. most of the time though, guilt is getting tossed right back out the window so it doesnt disturb her happy fun loving times. no, ortega, no, finch, she is NOT repressing, she is simply being #goofysilly and will not stand for regret ruining her vibe.

B) What inspired you to create them?

speaking for my general process with all my steps: im rather predictable when creating characters. lots of them follow the same molds, they just tackle different storylines, and the differing plots are what makes them all different characters. so when making my steps, i ended up using those same character archetypes and taking them to their logical conclusions based on what choices the game offered. it makes it easier for me to imagine how they react, and its fun to tack on a slightly different trait to the mold and see what happens. ultimately, they all fall somewhere on the extreme ends of the "good/evil" spectrum, but with an added bit of ✨spice✨ from the other end to get them going into fully fledged characters. these are my inspiration/archetype for each individual step:

Caine- being an imported character for the exile if, i already had his character in mind when making him! in exile, they were very much meant to be the stoic leader character that was just beginning to doubt what he fought for. the problem when i tried to put them in fhr was. chen. chen i love you but holy shit it was so hard to make him unique and interesting when you were literally RIGHT THERE covering all the bases they were supposed to cover. and chen has a dog which made him obviously superior. it was annoying, but my frustration with their similarities pushed me to put a lot of love into them and well. look at where my son is now lmfao.

Cyrus- @ that one person who made that post about herald subverting the cinnamon role stereotype: thank you. i owe you my and my bastard sons life. cyrus was just meant to be a step i used to explore heralds ro route, so i didnt mean to take him too seriously. because of that, and because this was directly after caine and i was getting frustrated figuring them out, i kinda just went with the flow– he was originally a character closer to the "flirty and funny but actually competent and surprisingly apathetic" type. he used to have like. 50% ruthlessness lmfaoooo. a lot of his major character beats were caused by me making mistakes and figuring things out by clicking random choices out of curiosity. after i played him once, the higher ruthlessness route i went intrigued me, and i started tweaking him further, which is how we got here.

Cecilia- i! wanted! to! have! someone! fun! i wanted to have someone fun. i just wanted to have a step who would dick around and do stupid shit because they wanted to. she was my third step, both caine and cyrus were so serious, i needed somebody to juxtapose that. she was very much the "fuck around and find out" character. i created her to explore the lupin route, which seemed appropriate for the sort of character i wanted her to be. i also wanted to romance argent. it all just sort of culminated in a whirlwind of the most out there, daring step i had. it was only later i considered adding some more serious edges to her story, she was a bit like stress relief lol.

Cynthia- i created her with ortegas ro route in mind! even though caine was technically an ortega ro step, he was secretcrush so they couldnt really do much lmfao, so i was itching to play somebody whod actually pursue her. i chose the "calm, kind, do not burn down the house please and thank you" character for her since it seemed like fun to try with ortegas more out-there energy. i also had her as an anarchist, which i thought would be interesting to see play out since she was definitely on the more heroic end of the spectrum and i wanted to see how she would tackle one of the more destructive job choices. unfortunately, the kinder characters are almost always the hardest for me to work with, so it did take cynthia a while to find her footing. now, though, i think shes come together nicely! very much a balance of the nicer character i wanted for her originally while having that small kernel of "i can fuck things up if i wanted to" that i find more fun.

questions from here!

#i guess i DID end up answering those questions for caine #cecilia in particular is funny to me because like. yes my beautiful girl. go destroy your life for an adrenaline rush. #that is the normal way to respond to a lack of simulation. godspeed #i had to refrain from listing off other ocs i had that fit those specific archetypes whdjsjsjdjs #i have lots of beloved children ok. i need to figure them all out at a reasonable interval Somehow #that said. rip my other five steps #id say ill get to you someday but honestly. probably not lmfaooo #btw fun fact. the caine-cyrus-cecilia-cynthia order i always answer questions for them in is the order they were created in #caine lynzal #cyrus becker #cecilia rider #cynthia garcia #sidestep #fhr #pulp answers #ask game