#imposter syndrome is a bitch

[clusterrune]

i think its worth noting we all forget imposter syndrome exists

it hardly gets talked about enough

so for those going through imposter syndrom:

you arent faking

you are enough

you are disabled enough, you are ill enough

you are nd/disabled/autistic/mentally ill

you do have that disorder/disability

you arent just faking it for attention

the only people who do that, consciously do that, the fact that youre worrying about faking it in itself proves you arent.

you CAN have that aid youre thinking about it wont be taking resources from anyone if you do

if you think it'll make your life/tasks easier to any degree for any reason do it/get it.

its not "perfectionism" its imposter syndrome, your thoughts are just that and while your concerns are valid, you dont need to worry

youre not a horrible person youre just struggling and thats okay

youre not lazy youre going through a lot and its weighing on you making you tired and lack what energy and motive you need to get it done.

youre not a slob youre just having trouble getting yourself out of a bad time and cant bring yourself to handle other things right now

its okay to take time to yourself, youre not a bad friend

feel free to add more affirmations as you see fit.

i and people im close to struggle with this a lot

#imposter syndrome #affirmations #imposter syndrome is a bitch #imposter syndrome affirmations #soundwave speaks #soundwave saves #important #mental health #positivity #positive mental health #positive words #positive reminders #positive affirmations #soundwaves positivity

[wolfieisacat]

imposter syndrome is so wild bc i'll be like "yeah lol i have POTS" and i'll look through the POTS tag on here and i'll be like "wow i do not have POTS" but but like i do. a doctor diagnosed me because i had a high heart rate and then upon further inspection we found out i had low blood pressure and we did a blood test and it wasn't my thyroid and my heart rate was different between laying/sitting/standing so like i do but imposter syndrome yk

#imposter syndrome #pots syndrome #imposter syndrome is a bitch

[perfectlysunny02]

if someone could please send me getting over writers block/imposter syndrome tips, i’d be so in love with you.

#this is the worst writers block #imposter syndrome #imposter syndrome is a bitch #please help me. #i just wanna enjoy writing again #it makes me so stressed

[galaxywhump]

Yeah, I think I'm gonna step away again. See you soon, hopefully.

#i don't really see the point rn #feeling awful about my writing skills but that might be cause i'm feeling awful in general #i'm really sorry #imposter syndrome is a bitch #i feel like i tricked people into liking my writing #and anyway i'm gonna be busy these next few weeks #so yeah #see ya #marti talks #marti vents

[georgcfan]

this week has been like an extended panic attack but I been standing on business 🧍🏿‍♀️

#standing like bambie but standing #imposter syndrome is a bitch #leaving for holiday on friday. my check was graciously. heard from my brother. #got my hair done. actually going to be off work on my birthday for the first time ever #got a bunch of gift cards from parents #BACK IN THERAPY! #saying goodbye to my babies this week :/ then they’re going to act like I don’t exist #found out some deep family stuff. sleep schedule doesn’t exist. can’t breathe or have a clear thought #had a conversation with my grandmother for the first time in 3 years yikes #been crying for three days. haven’t taken my hoodie off at all #irl tag #for future me

[clearbun]

being excited to do the secret santa vs the disorders wanting me dead

#imposter syndrome is a bitch #I'll get through it one way or another but c'mon man lemme have this #there's other shit but eh that's all too hard to explain so it's w/e #dol-talks #vent-ish

[misopod]

Me: my "disability", if you can even call it that, isn't that bad! I'm only in moderate pain and it doesn't affect me much other than my cane!

Me, who nearly passed out twice in school and had to go to the nurse for salt before having to sit for 2 10 minute intervals to get to class because I couldn't stand for long:

#it's undignosed #but still a bitch #all this bc i didn't bring my cane? #whatever #imposter syndrome is a bitch #cane posting #I need a better tag.

[skidar]

At a bit of a dark gray low in my evening thinking about how I can't be bothered to sit at my desk long enough to draw much of anything anymore.

I love making art and sharing art. I have for decades, but now with all the scraping and stealing and hurdles artists have to go through to protect their stuff from getting ripped off and fed into the theft machine its almost too disheartening to share anymore.

I still make art, lots of it. I've tried cloaking, I hate what it does to my art even at the 'smoothest setting.' That's not what I wanted it to look like, that's not what I wanted to share with people.

I've tried uploading low resolution and it looks like garbage on mobile, where most folks tend to look at stuff.

My platform and reach has bottomed out since twitter died, and it feels like everyone is constantly yelling at and over the top of each other on what to do to not only protect their work but everyone else's as well.

With my platform a fraction of what it once was (still humble compared to many others) most of my engagement went with it. I used to love getting comments on stuff, sharing laughs and feelings with people that enjoyed my stuff. Now I feel like If I'm not constantly outputting art I won't see any sort of response at all. (I will say as much as I love tumblr it kinda sucks to share art on unless you're posting fanart in relevant fandoms. It just is, it has been since I joined in '11 and the other places I got more traction on actively suck now like twitter and dA).

I'm not designed to shit out 'content' for algorithms on other sites. I don't want to measure my worth in clicks and likes or whatever else the creative world has been boiled down and repackaged as.

I miss sharing art and making connections, building communities and sharing ideas, stories and personal projects in organic, messy stew of humanity. It all feels so shallow now.

Now artists are businesses and I get it, its a career, I'm groaning about my taxes even as I rant write this. You constantly have to promote, sell, paywall yourself for some sort of creative income. Studio work is immensely competitive to break into and projects are short term. You either chase every project and pray you can get in, or you dayjob it, side hustle and freelance every second.

It's exhausting. I've all but given up on ever working in a studio.

Constantly I think about my friends with successful long term careers and think of my struggling freelance business I support with my dull blue collar job and try and think back that I should have done something different. Something better to actually be good at and master.

I draw stuff and look at it and imagine all the hoops I now have to go through to post it for relatively nothing in return and wonder if its even worth sharing it. If its even good enough to share -.-

Not much engagement anymore, poor image quality, and the reach I had that used to afford glimpses of career opportunists feels gone.

I draw stuff, share it to private chats with friends, then flip the page and draw some more.

It hasn't made me want to stop creating, but it has sucked most of the joy out of sharing it with the world anymore.

It takes a lot of energy to drag my mind out of this muck and put myself back out there as an artist every day.

Just tired of feeling stuck and sinking.

#I'm just so tired #and it feels like every creative is suffering and barely treading water #I want to open commissions in february cause january was a bad earning month for me and I'm really going to feel it come rent time #but I feel like everyone's in the same boat #and so much other bad stuff is happening on small and large scales everywhere #skidar rants #imposter syndrome is a bitch #and SAD is a bitch for trying to get motivation off the ground

[hoperays-song]

Johnny’s Twitter Adventures Cont.

#sing #sing 2 #sing johnny #imposter syndrome is a bitch #i just want to give him a hug #he deserves it #the poor baby #he's been through so much

[eightfifteen]

Ever since I started writing ff 5 (?) years ago, i've been having this attitude of not being a "real ff writer". Like i'll come up with an idea and go "if only a real ff writer could write this". Now i learned today that i've written 500k on AO3.

500K.

and i'm still like 'i just write silly little fics sometimes' even though i have multiple, well-liked multichapter fics that are the length of a novel.

Am I becoming a real ff author? am i???

#imposter syndrome is a bitch #doesn't help that all my mutuals are more talented than i am #ao3 #my writing #fanfiction #renee rambles

[corrodedbisexual]

Signed up for Steddie bang last minute so I'm gonna spend the next several weeks 27% mulling over ideas and 73% panicking. Such fun.

#why did i do this again #yeah i have some plot ideas #but idk if i can make the 10k word count #only wrote something over 10k once and it was unfinished 🫠 #so yeah. new challenge. yay. so proud of myself. brb throwing up #imposter syndrome is a bitch #writing

[heartfulselkie]

why would u delete ur ao3??ur stuff is good!! i like it!!

I'm not actually going to delete my ao3. I just made that post earlier to vent a little (actually forgot I made it after sleeping for a bit and i've deleted it now). I've been dealing with a lot of stress and anxiety recently so my confidence is kind of shot. Even though I like writing and think I do it well (most of the time), I still have my days where I question myself. Because I exist with one brain cell and it is a menace.

Thank you though to the couple of people that responded to the post. It means a lot to me that there are people who enjoy my fics.

#imposter syndrome is a bitch #so is anxiety #fuck em #i'll hopefully feel better tomorrow

[i-like-turkey]

have to follow up that other ask to not make you feel like i think you have early dementia 😅

it’s not obvious as in “it shows that you forget”

what i meant is “it’s normal to not remember everything you wrote and it’s okay to forget stuff because i sure as hell forget stuff i wrote after a while”

hope that makes sense🤔

Hahahaha!!! Thanks for clarifying. I was about to spiral while looking at a draft full of [verify] notes after sentences. Like, 'AM I NOT DOING ENOUGH?!!! UHHDASHUADSHISDAHIHSADIJHADS.' But now I don't need to do that 😂

#asks #my writing #I'm not going to pretend like I haven't fucked stuff up #or repeated myself #but i do worry about frequent and major continuity errors #and a host of other stuff #imposter syndrome is a bitch #can't even shake it while doing the fun stuff

[strelles-universe]

Sometimes I'm like, "but am I really autistic? I don't have a special interest :/"

And then my friends remind my dumbass that I've writing about battle cats since literally the fourth grade.

#not quite strelles #other special interest mentions are percy jackson and pokemon #imposter syndrome is a bitch #it sucks more when you have the Triple A #Autism Anxiety and ADHD #I am mostly incapable of human social functions thanks for asking

[snugglyducklingbrewhouse]

Maybe I won’t actually write. I was just kidding myself. I’m just me and my ideas aren’t that exciting. I’ll just be a reader I guess.

#tumblr you won #unfortunately #imposter syndrome is a bitch #m rambles #ignore me my whole thing is that I crave attention

[keerysquinn]

I was having a really shitty day in regards to my writing, but then I saw someone had left a gushing comment on the story that I'm most uncertain about, and it instantly brightened my day.

This is just to say that the comments you leave on fics really do have an impact on their writers, and I appreciate them more than you know.

#she speaks #little writer things #imposter syndrome is a bitch