#it feels worthy of the blog

[realjrwiquotes]

day 59

Charlie: When you said we weren’t going to like what happened today, I thought you meant Niklaus was going to show up and call himself daddy again

Riptide #109: Fates Worse Than Death - 11:44 submitted by me

#queue #real jrwi quote #submitted quote #jrwi riptide #i wrote this down months ago and i forgot i had it lmao #it feels worthy of the blog #(people who have submitted quotes: fear not!! they will be posted. i have let the queue diminish and this is a very late queuing) #(i have about 20 sitting in my inbox. ideally tomorrow i'll queue them all. if you're off anon you'll be told what day its queued for!)

[hersweetrevenge]

#blorbo from my shows #glup shitto #feel free to tag your most underrated or unknown blorbo #daneposting #how dare you suggest such a thing #of course this isnt about dane #(it is) #but its also about every actor for whom i have watched some truly mid content #because they were an extra in it 15 years ago or in it for 15 seconds #rohan campbell #brian van holt #bill moseley #brad dourif #especially brad. the way he is the foundation my writing blog was built on #and for all my random glups who i decided were worthy of main character energy #the things we do for our faves (watch mid media)

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A digital drawing of Minos Prime from Ultrakill, who's wearing a strapless slit dress and sandals of the same deep purple. He faces towards and slightly to the right of the camera, his head is tilted further right. With one hand he gestures in a vague pointing motion, his arm folded and held close to his body. There is nothing in the background, but bracing himself on one arm, Minos is implied to be leaning against something about the height of a countertop. The background is a blank purplish black, save for three diagonal stripes in the colors of the bisexual flag. End ID]

Shading study that quite literally came to me in a dream two weeks ago, after this post apparently beamed itself into my mind

(also a few edits below the cut! they're very slight but whatever :])

[Start ID. Three different versions of the previous drawing. The first changes the tone of the lighting from blue to pink, and similarly the shading from pink to blue. The second replaces the faint black border with pink, purple and blue, syncing with the stripes in the background. The third combines both these changes. End ID]

#the tags got NERFED so let's try this again. #peridots-art #minos prime ultrakill #ultrakill #ask to tag #organs #...? gore maybe? for the whole ''transparent chest/visible cardiovascular system'' thing. not very detailed/realistic though so #i don't think this has all of the same charm as i usually find in my posts. but i tried my best to make it work so i don't think it matters #also ''not too happy with how this turned out'' is something i've seen tacked onto posts worthy of being preserved in museums #i heard someone say his snakes should be ball pythons. i'm not autistic about snakes so i decided to listen to the masters #i still have seven levels to p-rank before i can meet this guy!! halfway there (lust/greed and 1-3 remaining) i've only had my own copy #of ultrakill for a week and i already have 33 hours in. anyway he's grown on me i think. absolute bi king and only monarch i respect <3 #i think it's interesting how i now define my queerness by being gray-ace and trans when i first only identified with bisexual. it's still #an important part of me even if sometimes i forget. sorry that sounds completely unrelated but it's related to my feelings on this piece #anyway (i wonder how many ''anyway''s i've slapped on so far) i also find it interesting how often people draw him with this body type. #i think it's cool there's variety in how people draw the uk characters. it just kinda feels right here? i know i unfortunately don't draw #fat characters often at all (partially due to being a primarily fandom blog who likes to stick to canon designs. i wouldn't say i have #trouble with drawing a realistic amount of fat even on rather thin people though lol) but i try! also genuinely unsure what counts as like. #fat vs chubby? or whatever? i don't know exactly how the terminology works and a fair amount of minos' bulk is muscle anyway but. yeah 👍 #men are pretty in dresses my final message. goodbye

[paperlovesadness]

No, because I'm not over processing "Now & Then" and freaking out about what a perfect epilogue it is for the Beatles, but also what a perfect homage it is to John & Paul's friendship. And how much it feels like destiny.

The words "Now & Then" have so many strange ties to these boys. Because:

-> John's last words to Paul (during a meeting that no one could expect was their last) were: "think about me every now & then old friend".

-> John was murdered in December 1980. In February of 1981 a friend of Paul's - fellow musician Carl Perkins spent a week with him, participating in a recording of a song for his album. To thank him and Linda for their hospitality during the time, the night before he was meant to leave, Carl sat down and spontaneously wrote them a song titled "My Old Friend". He played it to them the next morning and Paul started crying and had to leave to gather himself. Linda McCartney then assured Carl it was okay and thanked him for helping Paul, because he had problems facing his emotions about the attack before that. And then she stopped and asked him "but how did you know?" and Carl had no idea what she meant. She explained that the only people who knew what John's last words to Paul were was her and Paul himself. And then she revealed what those words were. Carl had no idea, but he ended up accidentally including them in that song.

The chorus of that song went as follows:

My old friend, Thanks for inviting me in My old friend, May this goodbye never mean the end And if we never meet again this side of life In a little while, over yonder, Where it’s peace and quiet My old friend, Won’t you think about me every now and then

Paul then insisted on recording that song with Carl Perkins, which they did - and recalling that story later Carl said that Paul felt like that song was sent to him by John through Carl.

-> By now we all know the story of how this "new" Beatles song came to be - After John's death, Yoko found a demo tape of songs he never completed, that she then handed over to Paul so that him, George & Ringo could record the last new Beatles songs in 1995 as part of an anthology that was being released. (they wanted to record new material, but had promised never to do so without all the members included. So using these demos was the only way).

There's lots of places that claim the tape with the demos had "For Paul" written on it by John - but admittedly, I haven't actually seen a source quoted. Still - the fact that one of the songs on that last demo of new material they ever got from John was titled with some of the last words he ever said to his best friend? The lyrics of that song being what they are? Come on.

(It very much also just felt like a song for Paul to me. With how complex that relationship was - how intense all the emotions were - through love and diss tracks to still calling each other best friends while they weren't on good terms. Missing each other).

Then - destiny working the way it did, not allowing them to record that one track in 1995 because of the awful quality. Making it so that it was their actual last song in 2023. Because only now did the technology allow for seperating those vocals and fixing them up so that they can actually be used.

Like are you kidding me??? It was that one. The one that felt most special.

-> Bonus fact. The back of the record sleeve has a photo of a special art piece on it - from George Harrison's collection. One that provides another serendipitous moment in connection to these words:

Image source: [x]

And I'm just supposed to be alright with all of this?????????

#well - i haven't posted for a while but I was just overstimulated lately #and also processing this release on the side #I couldn't not write anything about it #these facts have probably been quoted everywhere ten million times in the last weeks #but I also felt the need to quote them on my own lil blog #so #here we are #hope you also fins this meltdown worthy #these sorts of serendipitous stories are... actually like religion to me #okay no - i hate religion. But they're a big source of my spirituality #songwriters; poets; artists often have so many of these beautiful moments of synchronicity snd serendipity #Paul McCartney for one has so many beautiful stories like that #that just make me... feel calm about afterlife whatever it is #if we're being ~deep and dramatic~ in the tags #okay #so that was that! #xoxo to anyone who's reading these 💖 #(also these boys were twin flames in whatever sense of the word you'd like to see it i don't make the rules it's just what it was) #(that connection was so intense and deep and special and indefinable!) #// #Just Twin Flame Things #Paul McCartney #John Lennon #Beatles #Lennon & McCartney #blog stuff #screaming shouting going crazy #Now & Then #just twin flame things

[demigodofhoolemere]

I’ve been seeing this float around on Facebook lately and it’s bugging the crud out of me:

What is with everyone’s obsession with insisting it’s bad to need to be rescued? For as long as the human race has been on the planet, people have had problems that they needed other people’s help to resolve. Needing help is not a failing nor should it be the takeaway from these princesses’ stories as if it’s a bad thing that makes them weak. Yes, they do need help. Your point?

Snow White and Aurora were both under a curse that rendered each of them effectively dead. Were they supposed to magically wake themselves up? I’d want to be rescued if I were them. Plus, breaking it down to “she needed a prince” belittles the efforts of the Seven Dwarfs and the Three Good Fairies, who did most of the legwork in the resolution of their respective movie plots out of deep platonic love for the girls under their care. Then there’s Cinderella, who lived in an abusive household. It’s not a weakness that she wasn’t able to get out of that situation on her own, and once again, giving all the credit to the prince (and credit where credit is due, he did search far and wide for her and was able to take her away from that life in the end) detracts from the aid provided by the Fairy Godmother who enabled her to get out in the first place. All of these ladies had more helpers than just their princes, and it is because of the combined love and efforts of all of these people that our heroines were able to have their happy endings. There are plenty of great stories where the heroine is able to fight for herself, but these particular stories aren’t about that because these ladies are each in terrible circumstances where they simply don’t have the ability to do so. They do what they can, but in the end they can’t save themselves alone and there’s nothing wrong with that. These are beautiful stories about having people in your life that value you enough to fight for you when you can’t fight for yourself. Wouldn’t we all want someone to come to our rescue when there’s nothing we can do about our situation? Is it not a good and comforting moral to show that there are people in your corner who will show up for you no matter what the circumstances?

The other thing that’s bugging me about this:

Leia has to be rescued. By a man, and at that, one who could technically be seen as a prince. No one bats an eye at this, because it’s understood that she’s being held prisoner on the Death Star and couldn’t possibly be expected to get out of that on her own. It’s not seen as a weakness that someone had to come for her and take her away from there. Leia is awesome and is rightfully acknowledged as a great heroine, but she also needs help sometimes, because everybody does.

So WHY do people get so hung up on these princesses who also shouldn’t be expected to get out of their own prison cells of eternal sleep or abusive family by themselves? Why the strong negative reaction to girls needing outside help in such serious scenarios? For all that people say these stories teach girls to sit and wait for a man to save them, the stories themselves absolutely never try to say that, and frankly, with the opposite trend in recent years of fictional women who have to do everything on their own and can’t be shown to need help because they have to be the Strong Female Character, I’d be far more concerned about the impact that would have on girls. Far better to say you might need help at some point in your life than to instill the idea that you’re not a strong girl or not good enough if you can’t do everything by yourself.

Anyway. Justice for the classic Disney princesses.

#this is a disney princesses defense blog #disney #snow white #cinderella #sleeping beauty #star wars #sw: originals #leia skywalker #rant #and on a personal level? i’ve been in the position of feeling like an idiot or failure if i couldn’t do everything by myself #i was terrified for a long time to ask people for help because it felt like admitting that i was what i felt i was #if the modern stories where women being strong means they don’t need help had been a thing yet when i was at that age #it would have made me feel even worse #and as someone who has since that time also had to learn to live with chronic illness #and the reality that there’s not a ton i can do for myself #the stories of women who need help and are never looked down on for it but are seen as worthy of that help because they are loved #those are the kind of stories you end up starting to need at some point #give me more maidens in towers. i don’t care. #the idea that people love you enough to find you well worth their effort is what some of us need

[saltymongoose]

Hello! ♠️ Anon here

So...super duper cliché ask, but I got another idea, ya' know Steven Universe right? If you do then I think you know where I'm getting at with this. What if Player could fusion with their vessels? Like they change their appearance and gain some different abilities, but they also need to keep a balance in the emotions or at least be at some level of synchronization to keep the fusion together (Ex. If one part feels very different about something or experience a strong emotion but the other doesn't the fusion breaks)

Heya ♠️ Anon! Another Anon asked about this as well, complete with some art, so I'm going to compound their ask with this and share their art at the end of my response (cause there is quite a lot of it wow 0o0).

Within my own fic verse and self ship, I've added the idea as semi-canon like... What if the characters could fuse (a la Dragon Ball or Steven Universe)? What would those fusions be like, what would be their biology, their PSYCHOLOGY even? How would it embody their relationship? Would they be multiple people existing within one thing, or are they close enough that the fusion would be its own sort of person for as long as it is done?

Anyway I am leaving this to encourage you and others to think about their own spins on this! I have art of some of mine as well as interpretations of what those fusions function like, but they're all for my self insert haha. Feel free to just use them for ideas. Faers name is F94G (pronounced as "Frag" as in "frag grenade" and written in LEET/L337.) The fusions present are F94G/Hank, F94G/Doc, F94G/Deimos, and F94G/Tricky. (On my self ship blog are full descriptions of what those fusions have going on with them but like... Lil nervous to out that I'm sorry lol.) Anyway the art! Enjoy toying with the ideas! - The other Anon <3

Alright, to finally get to the topic of fusion, I think if emotional stability is what keeps it together, the Player would have a difficult time keeping it together. It's not like all of the characters are particularly emotionally volatile or unregulated, but given how experiences of strong emotion could break a fusion, there is the question of whether the type and level of love the grunts have could do so. Love to the level of obsession and ignorance of rationality at times definitely is a strong feeling, so it would at least be a lot for the Player to come to terms with.

Since we're on that topic, I think that this would also be an effective way for the boys to sort of "confess" how deep their love for you really is. It's one thing to convey it through any number of love languages, it's another to fully project the pure feelings themselves. No matter how long it may take you to fully process this sudden rush of adoration and overwhelming happiness the perspective grunt feels, you'll never doubt their feelings for you, so that's a bonus.

When it comes down to how the fusion appears, its personality, and general behavior, this can be attributed to who you'd be fusing with. With Doc and Jeb, they'd be more reserved, while Deimos, Sanford, and Hank would likely lead to a more expressive fusion. (Though a fusion with Hank is unlikely to be very verbal given how he doesn't talk a lot).

Tricky's fusion would likely be more difficult to keep together as well, considering his unpredictable personality and how the improbability drive effects him. It's a challenge that he's more than excited to take on, mind you, so even if that's a difficulty, you can make it work.

Either way, I do think the resulting fusion would be extremely confident with themselves due in no small part to your vessel's love for you (in addition to how self-satisfied they feel that they're your partner for this). You could make this a less obvious feature considering you're probably calm not completely obsessive with your affections compared to them, but it's still easy to see, regardless of who you fuse with.

Speaking of any other specific traits can be rather difficult considering how each vessel would imprint their mark on the fusion, and the fact that the character of the Player is a reader insert ofc. However, it is likely that the more dominant traits of the vessels would still make themselves apparent. For example, Hank's fusion with you would probably still find violence as the solution in a great deal of situations, while Jeb's fusion would take on much of his savior complex. If you want to get really wild, I'm willing to bet that Phobos' god complex would also permeate through the fusion you would create, and it's only enforced by the fact that you (an actual god, insofar as he's concerned) are a part of it.

As for abilities, with grunts like Sanford and Doc, you probably wouldn't gain much except for perhaps increased strength and intelligence. Hank's agility would definitely come into play, and given how The Machine refuses to let him die, they likely wouldn't let a fusion do so either. Deimos' pyrokinesis would occur in the fusion as well, as would all of Tricky's odd abilities.

I think the appearance of the fusion is better left up to your interpretation as the reader, but in my mind, you'd probably will have both a visual cross and your eyes, which is very interesting. Having more arms is also pretty basic for a fusion, so that's to be expected as well. I believe it's really up to you though, as I'm not one to assign many physical traits the Player anyway lol. Plus, this can lead to some extremely creative results, as can be seen with the wonderful art below with F94G (the other asking Anon's OC). :)

(and lastly for reference, the lil grunt doodle of F94G)

#The other Anon in this case was unable to make the ask off of their blog so this is why I answered it this way lol #(I'm including my art comments here because I feel like it would be too off topic for the central post.) #Again #very creative and I love the choices of color for the fusions! They're very visually appealing #The poses are also expressive for the characters and the linework for F94G in that final doodle is sticker worthy. #Very “tattoo-like” lines imo #and I love tattoos so that's a compliment lol #ask #chat tag #♠️ anon #other's art #other's ocs

[ps4peter]

also i've long been so particular about the amount of times i would post and how it would clutter up my archive bc i do like using the archive as a tool to look back on things. i have not had a day where my queue has been empty for the last 8 years! idk i'm being so particular about this long built in system i have that i'm wondering why i'm making this feel like such a chore 🤧

#also being particular about never rbing the same post twice. i'll see a post and stop and think about if i've rbed/queued it before #organizing was fun when i felt i had the capacity to spend that much time curating every aspect of my online post consumption #but i'm getting overwhelmed at the sheer volume of Stuff. i have so many cluttered likes to go through #i have a resource blog with posts i've saved for later but i've never touched again #an aesthetic blog i use like a pinterest collection that i have also never looked at once i've rbed something to it #like if i look at it less with the intention of organizing and managing every thing i've seen and deemed worthy as cataloguing- #and instead just let it be a collection of past mine Stuff i'll feel better #GOD i also have so many paper mementos i've kept in bags that i've been meaning to organize for years. i'm just a hoarding hoarder 😭😭 #both in an online and physical sense 🤧🤧 #j.txt

[birdmenmanga]

every time I check the tags for the heart of tomas I'm like. ah. this place is filled with people who have no idea what this series is about

#just thinking thoughts... #seeing some 'thomas was a total manipulative bitch' takes in there and I'm like. #he didn't kill himself because he wanted juli to love him back. #he killed himself because he wanted juli to love himself. #and he realized that as juli was he couldn't accept any sort of love for himself because juli perceived himself as a sinner #and THAT'S why thomas killed himself. he was universally loved by everyone; #so he commited a huge sin BY killing himself and it's a query to juli. do you love me any less because of my sins? #and if you can still find it in yourself to love me despite the fact I killed myself. #can you find it in yourself to love yourself too despite your own sins? #sorry. thot is like. the biggest piece of misread media that I passionately love #sorry there was another take that was like oskar and erich will LITERALLY have the best dynamic and then not end up together?? for what?? #and well bestie I hate to break it to you. even though thot is oftentimes called a forerunner of bl. #it is actually not about boys getting together with other boys. it is about juli's religious journey #I get that if you're reading thot after reading a lot of modern bl it will seem weak and half-baked #because you're evaluating it from a 'the characters must eventually become a couple right?' standpoint #but it's not about that. free yourself from your shackles. come with me. #we can find it in ourselves to see worthy stories not just about loving other people but loving ourselves as well #I feel okay saying this bc like. ONE thot blog follows me #usually I'd complain in the dms to my friends though LOL

[moonlightaugust]

I no longer tw tag drugs, alcohol, blood, weapons etc. The only thing i tag is flashing gifs, eye strain, light nsfw, and fast moving gifs.

#important #it was just waaayyy too much work to tag all that...and constantly thinking 'is this worthy of that tag?' or 'am i misusing this tag?' #sorry y'all #feel free to unfollow but its my blog and I'll do what makes me the most comfortable

[oneirataxia-girl]

alvita's birthday exchange ⇝ for hadley @supermarine-silvally

ft. Bravada Yara x Portgas Ace

"And I'll surrender myself to you."

x x

I hope you like it!

bonus:

a small icon set to thank you for all the art you made for me! <33

#alvita's edits #alvita's birthday exchange #hadley my beloved #okay so fun fact #i Do Not Know how ace's and yara's skin tones compare to each other #but i stalked -- i mean poked around in your blog and i've come to the conclusion that they're supposed to both be relatively light skinned #idk i am bad af at colors y'all #also tried to keep a purplish coloring in the cover #i ended up keeping a non-purple ver bc the shade of it was making me upset #the title is supposed to be purple fading into gold #keyword supposed to #heavy sigh #i've never done an animated cover so this is New™️ to me #so if you want to have anything changed pls hmu! #i feel like covers are THE graphic for a fic so i want to get it as perfect as possible #another fun fact is like idk which is right and left anymore #so if i made the dumbest mistake ever and colored/covered the wrong eye PLS tell me #the quality enhancer also doesn't consider ace to be worthy of its attention #that's why he's grainy af #i tried to get it to enhance him but cutout was like 'lol nope' #so yeah #alright these tags are getting long af again

[aeide-thea]

i had a one-reply-per-person, civil-on-both-sides disagreement with a stranger in someone else's comments recently, after which i subsequently became aware that my interlocutor had blocked me, and honestly—i'm pleased about it? because we did fundamentally disagree, we weren't going to convince each other, and while i personally could've lived with seeing them around (they weren't insulting, just wrong!), it's also honestly reassuring to know that at least one person who has me blocked did so on the basis of an interaction where i'm totally comfortable with what i was saying and how i comported myself! really takes the sting out of blocking tbh. ☺️

#anyway. a dumb post but i always get very 😔 abt being Deemed Annoying even by ppl i reciprocally deem annoying #so like. nice to have a thing i can show my brain that feels different 2 me! #like. it's fine if they think this was block-worthy. i feel fine about it and sort of charmed they blocked me over it. #ergo being blocked ≠ being Objectively Bad. <- deeply dumb convos 2 have with ur crazy lil brain. but. u still gotta have em #(also ftr my stance was that when an anon (not me) writes in to a public forum (OTNF) to announce that Shaving Just Looks and Feels Better #it is not then unreasonable for a subsequent anon (also not me) to inform the first anon #that this stance on depilation is not‚ in fact‚ Abstractly Correct necessarily) #(my interlocutor felt it was a personal opinion that didn't need pushback but i gotta say i think that argument holds much less water #once you take yr so-called personal opinion off yr perblog and into the inbox of another blog— #which is pretty explicitly a public forum where every topic gets debated to tithonian undeath by a community that won't let anything rest— #and express it in a way that does‚ in fact‚ imply it's universally and not just personally true) #anyway! none of this really needed 2 be posted about but. what is a perblog for if not for recording forgettable trivialities. #metatumbling

[creaturefeaster]

Um here, I give tonight's doodle page to you guys 🐓

#feels weird just sharing one of these pages all on its own #but i had some time to draw for myself tonight and ik you guys eat these up soooo #:3 #not worthy to go on my art blog #brambleramble #ig

[shades4dogs]

dellarune

#txt #this doesnt feel worthy of my art blog #deltarune #utr

[brother-emperors]

a pair of scenes out of The Comic™ that had to get cut: Cassius doing his best impression of Cassandra with the foreshadowing re: Publius raising his hand over his face to block out the sun and later Publius taking an arrow to that exact hand at Carrhae

I ended up scrapping it because there was an underlying dialogue in the second scene where Octavius asks Cassius what he’s seeing, and the thing is, Cassius is too far away to actually see when Publius gets hit, and originally I wrote it in because of Cassius and his thematic eye sight out of Shakespeare, but this comic isn’t about that and keeping it in would have just too many underlying implied themes going on.

that said, I’m still kind of fond of it, so here we go!

Plutarch’s Crassus

Cassius and Brutus: the Memory of the Liberators, E. Rawson (there’s a very fun counter argument that Cassius should actually be compared to Tiresias instead, but I went with Cassandra)

The Cassandra Scene in Aeschylus’ ‘Agamemnon,’ Seth L. Schein

society6 | ko-fi | redbubble | twitter | deviantart    

#im not sure how i feel about posting things like this but i do have a fondness for this rejected bit so it gets to be immortalized #on the blog #generally tho i try to refrain from posting behind the scenes stuff or rejected edits. feels weird. don't like it #with this as the one exception lmao #anyway truly the final version of this scene is SO much better. just straight up a horror nightmare sequence #also this draft had too many medium close up shots. like a REALLY embarrassing amount for something #that's supposed to be a partial homage to old hollywood epics. like. absolutely cringe worthy and visually Ugh #the current/final draft is so much better with the negative space and visual balance thank god #i think i'd start eating my pencils if i had to revise carrhae one more time

[dykedragons]

i love making things for my friends!! i love it when my friends enjoy the things i make them!!!!!

#ramblies #i just appreciate them all so much. its the little things- the pins ive made them on their bags‚ the art ive made them as icons on socials #maybe its not much to them but its everything to me to know that the little things ive spent a little time making are worn #like badges of honor. its so special to me. #like‚ generally now i just feel so valued. my relationships are natural and reciprocal. #its like... finally!! THIS is what ive been fucking missing this whole time!! this ease!! #i dont need to prove myself‚ to compensate‚ to ask for reminders that im valued. they show me all the time. i never have to ask. #i dont know what happened. i dont know what changed from high school to now. i became a better person‚ i met better people? both. #i dont care how long it lasts or if its not this good forever. im just happy to be here. i finally feel worthy of this‚ without question #ive only known them for a few months but its the most secure ive ever felt. #maybe im oversharing!! i dont know!! i cant tell them outright ill overwhelm them!! its my blog and i can overshare if i want to!! #i dont know. im just grateful. #in other news i cleaned up my room a bit too‚ did lots of housework. always feels really cleansing. #after a stressful day yesterday this is what ive needed. a self care day. i have a lot of stuff to do but... it can wait while i rest lol #idk its just. so special to feel like i finally dont have to be the ''best'' or whatever to be loved. im loved as i am. #no arbitrary comparisons. its not conditional. i dont need to compete‚ i always feel like theres room. i hope we all thrive.

[garbagesalt]

i wish i could do everything always, i want to do all the art trends and challenges

#this blog has become so inactive cause i just haven't been doing much art that's like intended for posting #like all the art im doing is like for school or feels unfinished or something #and ik none of that like matters and i can post that stuff anyway but idk #just doesn't feel worth putting in the effort to make a post when i don't feel like the piece is like worthy of posting yknow