#it honestly doesn’t feel real

[book-place]

Oh. My. Goodness.

I started this blog less than a year ago with hopes of just posting a couple of the thoughts going on in my head and maybe having one or two people like what I’m doing…

But I just hit 1K followers and I am quite honestly beside myself, how did this happen? When did this happen? When did this go from me crying tears of joy over having 10 followers to sobbing my eyes out over having 1000 of you follow and like my work?

When I tell you that I can not thank any of you enough for this- like I am for real at a loss for words, I don’t even know how to express how much you all mean to me

Thank you, thank you, thank you

With that being said, I decided that in honor of this happening, I want to specifically thank those that made this possible (though there are so many more of you) with a MUTUAL APPRECIATION POST as my celebration

This is all done in no particular order, I just want you all to know how much I appreciate you and everything each and every one of you has done for me

@your-local-questioning-agender oh gosh, where to begin. You were my first ever mutual and first person to ever reach out to me on this app. You have quite honestly been there for me through EVERYTHING that has gone on in my life and I would not be where I am today without you. I love you so, so, so much and I pray that you never change because you are absolutely perfect the way you are

@foggy-isnt-here axl, my axl. I love you more than life itself. You are the sweetest, kindest, most caring and hilarious person ever. You are always there to make me laugh and cheer me up after a bad day. You make sure that I’m taking care of myself (and not to mention you gave me the coolest nickname I’ve ever received!!). What would I do without you?

@popfishjr your art honestly always makes me so happy. I light up whenever I see that you’ve posted and then am just in awe over whatever you made. I can barely draw stick figures and you’re over here making freaking masterpieces. I love our little chats and hope we never stop

@creative-girl omg I absolutely love how we’ve bonded over different fandoms (mostly marvel) we always have really good conversations about them and I look forward to more :)

@azurethevampire we interact within reblogs and I absolutely love it

@bringinsexybackk69 bubs, bubs, bubs, I love you so, so much and I honestly don’t know what I would do without you. You are an incredibly talented writer and a wonderful friend, thank you so much for being there for me whenever I needed it and I adore you so much

@its-hell our interactions consist mainly in reblogs and I love it because it’s just so much fun :D

@panic-in-the-multiverse When I say that I absolutely adore your work, it is utterly incredible and I hope you keep up the amazing work that you’re doing

@redlotus98 dc? dc. You’re blog honestly brings me so much happiness when it comes to that fandom and I just wanted to let you know that I absolutely love it all

@ihatemyselfmorethanmydepression we don’t talk very often, but I get this feeling that we always have each others backs. You were one of my first mutuals and when we do talk, I completely love it

@trashmouthsahra we don’t talk, but I hope you’re doing good and everything is going well for you :)

@xennityxen you always reblog people’s works by saying the nicest things ever and it’s honestly so refreshing when I watch as you take someone’s work make them so happy with your kind words because I know that is exactly what happens and I hope you know that too

@daughterofthequeen you’ve been my mutual for a while and you’ve been so supportive and I just want to tell you that you’re an amazing writer and I hope you keep it up! I absolutely love how we bonded over Moon Knight and just ended up as mutuals that way

@betzabobababi you have no idea how much I appreciate you. What you have done for me with your YouTube video was honestly life changing and one of the best things that has ever happened to me. And not just that, but you’re such a sweet person and I love it so much

@night3owl ugh I love your Star Wars fics so much and I love that we both love that fandom because I feel like there aren’t enough fans in it anymore. You have shown me so much support with everything I’ve done and I honestly can’t thank you enough for it

@see-the-apple we bonded over Star Wars and the rest was history… I absolutely love it

@roseblue373 SUPERNATURAL FANS!!! You not only have supported me so much with my spn fics, but you are always rebloging other spn fics on your blog and I love how much you support everyone else in this fandom. All of us, with our spn loving hearts

@kiyomi-uchiha777 you threatened to wage war against anybody that ever said anything bad about my work and it made me cry because it was honestly the sweetest thing ever

@catshrom when I say your asks make my day, everyday, I mean it. They always make me laugh (and on the rare occasion cry) and I always light up when I get a notification saying that you sent me an ask because I know I will have so much fun reading and answering it

@i-writes-things at first I hadn’t even realized that we were mutuals, I followed you because I absolutely adore your work, but I think it’s so freaking cool that ended up following each other and I hope you keep up the amazing writing

@angelic-simp you are one of the kindest people I know. You are always checking up on me and making sure I eat, rest, and drink water. It is so refreshing to have a mutual like you because you have no idea how much it means to me to have someone check up on me in that way almost everyday without fail. Thank you, thank you so much

Was this dramatic and slightly cringey? Yes. Did I cry my eyes out? Also yes

Thank you all so much again and I mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say that I love each and every one of you dearly <333333333

#book place rambles #1k celebration #1000 followers #i can’t believe it #i cant take it #i cant breathe #i am actually crying #i love you all so much #thank you thank you <3 #for everything #I would never have thought that I would be here today #it honestly doesn’t feel real

[saturnaous]

I think. Alphonse has a lot of dealings with disassociation and being in a body without nerves.

#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fma brotherhood #fmab #fullmetal alchemist #fma #alphonse elric #spenxer lou art #lou is an artist #sigh. this took three days despite the quality of it. I’ve honestly debated about posting it. #I’m not really great with comics but I’d like to get better so I’m pushing through it #grr. you can tell I desperately need to do a new hand study + actually use reference. but I don’t think they look. TOO terrible #all things considered. I had to change up one of the fingers in the third panel last minute so it looks. wonky. but whatever. #grr. . . I need to figure out new ways to lineart and render that like. . .look better #this is soo shoddy and thrown together for how much time is in it. grrr #moving on from my places to improve. I think Alphonse was heavily disassociated when he got bonded from both a lot of that trauma and #not being able to feel things properly as a big suit of armor but he’s gotten better over the years #And it’s another reason he got so shaken up by the idea of not being real. because he already doesn’t feel real so what if he truly isn’t? #anyways. sorry for all the tags. kiss kiss

[camgoloud]

one thing that’s been on my mind a lot recently is the fact that ianthe is reusing the old third house lyctor’s rooms… like did she just choose to do that because the old rooms were shiny and full of sexy portraits, etc., or was the mithraeum just a one-set-of-living-quarters-per-house-no-guest-bedrooms-sorry situation? if the latter, literally what was john going to do if the house heirs all ascended at canaan house like he wanted them to? the main reason this has been on my mind a lot recently is that i’ve been unable to shake a series of cursed thoughts about a universe in which things go according to god’s plan and silas and mercy are forced to become the world’s most dysfunctional pair of roommates, thus in turn forcing all the other newly-ascended house heirs to live with the fallout of this godawful situation constantly spilling all over the mithraeum common areas, which—even setting ASIDE the whole ‘experiencing paralyzing guilt and grief over their dead cavaliers’ thing that they’d also be dealing with!—is possibly an even worse outcome for them than the one from the canon timeline where they all just fucking died violently lmao

#imagining silas and mercy interacting is literally making me lose my mind. they would fucking HATE each other #of course this universe would also entail augustine-abigail and g1deon-judith having to share too but i feel like those pairings would #go over slightly better. abigail and augustine are of the fifth they’d be passive aggressive to each other but they’d act civil in public #and g1deon would probably just ignore judith tbh because as annoying as she can be she doesn’t know about the one (1) topic that actually #gets under his skin so i don’t think she’d get anywhere trying to get a rise out of him #but SILAS AND MERCY on the other hand #they would both constantly be on their knees before john begging him to consign the other to hell #the locked tomb #silas octakiseron #mercymorn the first #honestly i think what would happen is that augustine and palamedes would make it through about 3 weeks of constant shrieking/sobbing/ #performative praying/attempts on the part of silas to exorcise mercymorn or mercymorn to murder silas before augustine would SNAP and pull #a dios apate minor singlehandedly to keep john busy while palamedes went and murdered silas for real

[sevikasenby]

GOD I AM IN DEEP CRIPPLING NEED FOR SOFT SEVIKA I JUST WANT TO CUDDLE HER AND GIVE HER FOREHEAD KISSES AND HOLD HER HAND AND LAY MY HEAD ON HER CHEST WHAT THE FUCK 😭

#help #why doesn’t she exist #i feel personally victimized by the fact that she’s not real #honestly need to get back on my bottom sevika bullshit #as well as just soft sevika in general #cause she deserves to be taken care of ☹️ #sevika #sevika arcane #arcane sevika #arcane #sevika imagine #sevika x reader #sevika x you #soft sevika

[kicktwine]

made a ninjago oc but all it wants to do is party

its name is WULFTRAX (all caps) and it’s playing this with zane extra info belooowww

pronouns: IT'S PRONOUNCED WOLF TRACKS LITTLE MAN (it/he/they) species: WULFTRAX. digital? like, it HAS skin, and a skeleton, presumably, just… not a human head. likes: game, rave dislikes: no rave wants: to party character motivation: biggest loudest party backstory: we think it came from prime empire, but that’s all we got. maybe an unused rhythm game dj…? strengths: WULFTRAX does everything at 100%, and it doesn’t tend to stick around after a fight. it isn't fighting to win, it's fighting to go hogwild. on its back are one to six doc ock-like arms made of wire and interwoven with the stuff in season 9 that triggered everyone’s elemental powers. weaknesses: can only attack on the beat, will only fight if there’s music. it’s actually not that strong, its robot arms and machinery do all the fighting. it prefers to fight/party using someone else — elementals party pretty hard, all their colors and glowing and exploding is its favorite. alignment: very chaotic neutral. it does things on impulse and regardless of morals. he doesn’t seem to want to hurt anyone, just wants to party, and if hurting someone is how you gotta party, shrug! you can sway him pretty easily with the promise of a better rave. it’s not that clever, there is no scheming with this thing, but it does somehow get a lot of machinery and builds massive batteries and speakers and light shows

speech conventions: IT TALKS LIKE A FRAT BOY MET A CHRONICALLY ONLINE GAMER. NOT THE MOST COMPLICATED SENTENCES LMAO.

it also yells like everything it says due to the speakers in its mouth. its favorite people to mess with are kai, jay and lloyd. they have the shiniest explodiest powers, and are more split-second competitive.

#WULFTRAX #my art #‘I have made an oc to help/be friends with the ninja’ I have made an oc to fight them. I have made an oc to pummel them #people have done this before HAHDIDBDHDH except WULFTRAX is 1) a horrible fighter and 2) stupid #ninjago #ninjago oc #honestly it’s definitely someone you could/should use as a henchman. He won’t even realize. He will also destroy your lair #and then go OH MY BAD DUDE and that’s the end of that topic. Now it’s in your fridge #the second two images — it wanted to play DDR with jay and then went BRO YOU WANNA HELP WITH THIS SET so now Zane tricked it into - #bargaining to let jay out of the battery and it immediately agreed and then said WE’RE PLAYING OSU and didn’t leave room for argument so #now zane is playing a rhythm game he’s never played to let jay AND KAI out of the batteries and stop the rest of them from dying in #human osu! which was going to be its dance floor (it forgot people die when they’re hit by lightning) #And ALSO now they should probably stop it from holding the most dangerous rave #if the stuff they have is enough to send an elemental into superpowered overdrive it’s probably not healthy for a regular dude #as a meta note. #it’s obsessed w thrillseeking and adrenaline because he’s been alone for so so long that any new sensations are obsession-worthy #obsessed with feeling things and being real. doesn’t know how to regulate its obsession with something bc it has no sense of moderation #its primary purpose is to make big noise big party like programmed into it is its DJ sets. So now it makes the biggest loudest brightest #sets not understanding that this much noise/power can hurt someone or itself bc hurt is in fact an interesting sensation to it #it doesn’t KNOW this or underSTAND it. And it wouldn’t listen if told. BUT! that’s its pathology #IT HAS NO CONCEPT OF DEATH THERE IS NO THIS IS TOO DANGEROUS. THERE IS ONLY DA PORTY #it and porty mk would be besties #rule of cool with this thing. its cars are big its sets are big its music is loud and it’s got a giant flamethrower and a piano to drop #It broke from its programming but that doesn’t mean it broke from its programming yfeel #hrmmm.... yes........ self indulgent shiny loud digital dogmanthing #ill tag three of em theyre getting situations #kai smith #zane julien #jay walker

[maxgicalgirl]

Carlos is the kind of autistic I am and Cecil is the kind of autistic I want to be

#wtnv #Cecil Palmer #welcome to night vale #Carlos the scientist #cecilos #90% of my wtnv listening experience is just me wishing I could be as lovably weird and completely unhinged as Cecil is #like the guy just goes for it he literally does not give a fuck #and I’m like ‘god I wish that were me’ he’s just the character of all time and I aspire to be more like him #instead I spend 90% of my actual real life running from my problems and making my entire identity my interests #feeling awkward in the space I take up but making up for it by overextending myself via finding a problem and throwing myself at it #I think a lot of this is because Carlos masks and Cecil doesn’t but that’s a different thought for a different time #honestly them as a couple has been helping me feel better about myself #like Carlos is a great character and I find his growth indicative of growth I could experience #and I think a lot of that growth can be attributed to wanting to be more like Cecil #and from having him in his life #so by loving Carlos because he is me and by having Cecil in my life as a character maybe I too can go on this experience of growth #don’t mind me I’m just rambling again #max rambles in the tags #I kin Carlos if you can’t tell lol

[i-wanna-show-you-off]

just started watching disventure camp today (finally) and I’m already on ep 6. I have (out loud) made the “you a baby quit cussing” joke like. Every single episode at least once. I have SO MUCH to talk about..

more in tags..like spoilers and stuff..

#disventure camp #spoilers.. #i love love love lill. idk that much about her and it’s honestly kind of suspicious she’s not appreciated more like. #what did she do. did she do something malicious??? is that why I don’t ever see posts abt her?? #also I have mixed feelings on fiore. Bc on one hand I love evil characters BUT. She got my girls (lill and ashley) out. #I miss them so much. #how dare you fiore. whyd you do that to them #also love the dynamic between gabby and Ellie. love them separately as well. #ellie only voting with fiore bc it gets her further in the game. real. #gabby having trouble trusting people on BOTH TEAMS #bc her first team voted her off and her second team betrayed her #also. love drew he shouldve been there longer. grett whyd you do that to him.. #SPEAKING OF GRETT. she’s so complicated I have mixed feelings on her as well. Bc on one hand. #She’s very manipulative and is so so rude to gabby but on the other hand #It’s clear that she doesn’t get much attention prior to the show and she likely wants to win the million to finally impress her mother #also I’m not kidding when I say the bond between miriam and Jake in ep 5 made me cry. I was in SHOCK. how could u do this to me.. #Also found it really funny how in ep 5 all of them got devastating phone calls and Dan was just standing there like “:)” #There’s not a thought in that head. There’s not a brain behind those eyes.

[eeblouissant]

I have no idea if I’m going to explain this properly, but one of my favourite things that artists do with fictional characters that happen to have real people portraying them (any character from a series that isn’t animated in some way, basically) is finding a way to separate the character & the actor/actress, physically?! Somehow artists are able to make that character look like that character and have the actor seem like a completely different person. I hope this is making any sense at all but oh I love it. It’s just so cool. random little thought of the day.

#personal #this is something I’ve been trying to learn forever #because a lot of the media I’ve drawn for/from happens to have characters played by real people #and honestly? it’s hard to get into drawing them at first #because it always feels a little awkward 😅 #like ohhh this is a real person I’m drawing in this situation *how do I separate character from actor* #I think it’s just learning to blend them into your style. and adding little touches that the actor doesn’t or wouldnt have #headcanons my beloved #anyways a little ramble for you while I sit by the phone Again

[miodiodavinci]

(head in hands) man.

#i’m laying in bed trying to sleep but suddenly got the urge to look for that old render of crevan using warp.exe #but to find it i had to dig through my entire crevan tag and just #really hit me just How much i don’t like crevan sgkfgdsjfk #like not in a ‘aw man this voicebank could be so much better :(‘ kind of way #but in a ‘i am physically no longer the same person i was when i made her’ kind of way #in a ‘i don’t know if i ever really liked her or if she was just one big running bit i had because i was so scared of being cringe’ #kind of way #because let’s be real #there are very few moments in that tag where i’m not purposefully distancing myself from the things i liked #and being unnecessarily mean and snarky instead so i’d somehow ‘be better’ for not ‘giving in’ #whether to the temptation to be honest and genuine or the temptation to do the sorts of silly things i actually wanted to do #maybe a huge portion of it is also that i hadn’t figured out i was gay or trans yet #and felt the need to curate this horrible she/her creature to try to rectify the gender dysphoria i was feeling #but yeah #doesn’t feel great honestly #i love being open and kind and honest with what i love #and i don’t think i can ever really relate to crevan’s old ‘purposefully mean and cruel and antagonistic’ schtick #now that i’ve gone about that change #anyway sghlfsfjdg

[hanzajesthanza]

some terrible part of me wants to comparatively analyze the reynevan/jutta sex scenes VS the birkart/douce sex scenes as good VS evil…

it’s about the worship of VS subjugation of…

#sapkowski kind of kinkshamed with that he said no rights for S/M LMAO #no before you know it there will be people who are like ‘he’s my joker and i’m his harley quinn’ but with the wallcreeper and douce of pack #dude how the black riders slowly start becoming less of a supernatural force and more of a just general banditry and sadists #and how the wallcreeper gets WAY more context and backstory compared to the two previous books #that being said when he and douce um… met for the first time #i reread it like thrice trying to ascertain if this was r*pe or not #and then i realized it doesn’t really matter because. evil. that’s why #like what happens when two murderous sadists throw themselves at each other. that. that’s what #honestly i was very happy that douce of pack showed up and played a part and wasnt just forgotten about #she made my blood run cold in her introduction in warriors of god so i’m just happy that she met her equal and also suffered horribly ❤️ #dude when she’s fucking crying for help to not be left alone and birkart is like. ✌️bird form see ya #like contrasted with reynevan and jutta. as she. oh my god #i am loving the contrast actually it took him like this long to make the wallcreeper like a guy and not just a phantom #i mean you kind of see it in warriors of god too but. its kind of this awkward part where it feels inconsistent with the character #dude the way that over the three books everything just loses its sheen and becomes so real and painful #txt #hussite trilogy spoilers

[mellomadness]

sometimes I wonder if I should take a gender studies class just so I can bitch every day about how an imaginary boyfriend is often seen as a requirement for a woman to feel safe enough to have fun at a club, or the idea that an imaginary person with a fake “claim” over me has more influence over predatory men than my own voice saying “No, I’m not interested, get lost”

#venting #hnnnnng the double standard is really really making my teeth hurt recently #(in that I’m grinding my jaw at the mere thought of this particular breed of injustice) #I honestly miss going out with my friends. I miss going to bars and clubs and enjoying the night #but I wanna go with my friends and leave my boyfriend at home for once #he gets to go out and enjoy himself all the time with his friends and they never even have to deal with unwanted flirtation #meanwhile I go out in a tshirt and jeans and get fucking catcalled or flirted with just fucking getting groceries #and it’s not a narrative on beauty or anything. it’s about men’s perception of women #specifically predatory men and men who don’t realize they’re BEING predatory #perhaps it’s because I’ve been going to this fucking gamer school for far too long #and I’ve interacted with so many socially inept/incel men from there #who don’t know what no means or dont take women seriously when they do say no #or they literally cannot read between the lines of a woman politely declining their advances #‘but she was being so nice to me’ yeah bc if she wasn’t you’d either call her a bitch or try to force her anyway #anyway. I’m angry #im tired of living in fear of morons #I’m tired of not being able to go out on a Tuesday night and just walk the town with my friends #specifically my femme friends #we should be at the club!! instead we’re trying to make sure the group is like a school of fish so we’re less of a target #and like. I could talk about this on twt or reddit but. cmon. let’s be real here #MelloMoans #really does feel like we’re going backwards when it comes to gender equality and feminism #especially with the influx of the whole sigma male/high value male bullshit #I understand how it came to be I really do but that plus the whole pick me girl thing is just another toxic view of gender identity #and all it has resulted in on both sides is a wider degree of separation between the genders #therefore allowing both extremes to dehumanize every one that doesn’t identify as sigma male or not like other girls YET AGAIN #(and therefore also opens up the door for dehumanizing lgbtq+ folks but. let’s be real. that hasn’t really gone away yet :/

[river-of-wine]

Perhaps one day people will understand that House Beneviento functions completely differently in the main story than it does in Shadows of Rose because of who is controlling it and why they are doing so

#house beneviento in the story is about Ethan’s fear #house beneviento in shadows of rose is about rose’s trauma #Donna is making Ethan experience his fears through hallucination #losing Mia and Rose #Mia hiding something from him #rose being hurt and broken beyond repair #eveline is making rose relive her trauma #forcing her to recreate scenes of her real bullying #constantly mocking her #taking out her feelings of abandonment on rose #what rose is experiencing is not about her fear #especially not the Mia mannequins #those are honestly the least important part of the house even though they’re the most memorable #it represents eveline’s anger at rose being Mia’s daughter when she wanted to be that #and she doesn’t understand why rose was better than her #it isn’t about rose being afraid of Mia #they wrote her out of her life because they didn’t know what else to do with her #house beneviento for rose isn’t about what she’s afraid of #the whole story of shadows of rose is rose overcoming her trauma and bullying #and learning to accept part of herself that she was made fun of for #and house beneviento along with eveline are there to reinforce that

[kingdom-dance]

So I got a job offer but I. Have been putting off calling back HR because they won’t move forward with letting me look over the contract or anything until I give a verbal commitment and honestly it’s so fucked I’ve never been more upset to get a job offer

#my passion for this career has taken such a nosedive i got that call and felt sick when I should have been thanking my lucky stars #especially since nobody has been getting back to me and the only communication I’ve received is rejection letters #they were really nice in the interview it honestly doesn’t seem like a bad place to work but I’ve been bamboozled before #being locked into a year contract and facing the threat of them taking my certification if I leave mid year is like a real possibility #where I was last year did that when I alluded to wanting out #I just feel very trapped and wish I could get into something else but #my education is in something a little niche that doesn’t offer much room for alternatives and I have to revamp my application and cv #I’m honestly probably overly emotional because I think I’m about to start my period skdjjd but this is hard and I hate it here 🙃

[teamfortresstwo]

This feels really cheesy ..

#I also wish husk’s voice stayed y’know . husky when he sang #hazbin critical #I’m enjoying myself but I can’t help but nitpick yknow ? #honestly though watching this… it almost doesn’t feel real . it’s like wdym the funny 30 minute YouTube animation I heard about like 8 years #ago is like ! a show !! on a streaming service !! christ alive #dunno how you can hear about that and not be at least a bit proud of it’s creators #but it also comes with a high bar y’know ? probably higher than other shows

[flareguncalamity]

i’m sure someone on here has said this before, but i think cis tiktok really took “feminine in a masculine way” and ran with it without realizing that the appeal of being feminine in a masculine way to genderqueer people, especially afab genderqueer people, isn’t just looking hot or whatever. it’s specifically the discordance of being perceived as masculine and performing femininity.

Like, you see cis women on tiktok with the caption “trying to be feminine in a masculine way!” and then they’ll wear these super femmey suits with their hair back and like. that’s cool i guess? i’m glad you feel confident. but the angst that genderqueer people feel over wanting to be feminine in a masculine way is derived from how this feeling almost seems like an impossible goal. like, femininity is standard for women, so when people perceive you as a woman and you dress feminine there’s no perceived deviance at all. you’re just dressing and acting like how a woman should, according to the audience of people who see you on the street. The part you feel that you lack when you say ‘in a masculine way’ is the part where your femininity gets to be nonstandard.

there’s almost a kind of grossness to when cis men in particular do femininity. it ranges at times from “haha ironic comedy, isn’t it so WEIRD and WACKY when men wear skirts???” gross to something almost demonic (like how men wearing makeup were treated at the height of the satanic panic). there’s like, falseness. like the femininity is separate from you somehow, as a facade, and that there’s some kind of clash between the femininity and the person underneath. and i’m not saying those are good things- the opposite, it’s really, really bad that we treat gender deviance this way. but the longing for this experience as an afab genderqueer person is the longing to exist in a role that is non-normative without sacrificing the things we love about femininity, and to be able to be feminine without having that related back to some quintessential nature of your gender as determined by broader society. I honestly feel like Natalie Wynn described this really well when she said that for her, as a woman, there’s no “de-dragging” where the womanhood falls away from her and she ceases to be feminine in a way that a drag queen might after a performance is over. I think what genderqueer people want when they want to be feminine in a masculine way is to have that ability, to have their femininity be a costume that they can take off at will.

anyways all this to say that i don’t think cosplaying as modcloth-workwear girlboss is going to help me achieve my gender euphoria goal of old church ladies sneering at me in derision every time i wear a dress. although honestly that is a great idea for a drag queen character

#this is an extremely funny post for me to make as someone who has denied the non-binary accusations for as long as i have #like girl you are not fooling anyone with the she before the they in your pronouns. be real #oc #non-binary #genderqueer #feminine in a masculine way #obviously i don’t speak for all genderqueer people #but like. i’d love for femininity to be something i can take off when i’m not longer in the mood for it #and not something that people view as being ‘inherently attached to my essence as a woman’ or whatever #i don’t have an essence of a woman. i have like. a poorly functioning intestinal tract #the thing that is inside of me is slimy organs. please stop ascribing gender onto my nasty weird little body #there’s honestly something so alluring about giovanni pota he’s spiky pink mullet and stubble and black nail polish #like. the image of a skirt that doesn’t fit quite right on you because your hips and waist are about the same circumference. so it’s like #mismatched??? #and then the idea of wearing eyeliner but having like. stubble and acne #UGH. and like. dresses that have built in cups but you don’t have a bust? to fill it out???? auughhhh i wish i didn’t have a massive rack #like my body is SO traditionally feminine in figure i have such an hourglass silhouette and like the long legs and shit #and like. i feel like i look great maybe 40-45% of the time #i love filling out a fit and flare dress when i’m going out to hang out with lesbians and feeling very sexy in that context #but i don’t want that to be permanent yknow. there’s a restriction there that i despise #giovanni potage. idk why that corrected to pota he #considering potage is a word. fuck autocorrect

[no1ryomafan]

In my constant brain rotations of “why are people in the west so hard on mecha aside from the fandom can be a bit unfriendly” I think one thing I realized as much as I hate to say is how mecha is sometimes treated remind me of the constant hatred superhero stuff gets.

It’s such a weird comparison because with mecha I do not know what the root of it was-and I’d love to know why but I feel there’s either no clear answer or there is one and it’s stupid-where as for superheroes in the west while there’s still a dedicated community the mainstream audiences have become tired of them due to over-saturation, which I understand, but it’s caused such a massive dismal to the entire genre of it much like mecha.

People think superhero stories can’t have any substance because it’s all about fighting and not about the characters- yet forget the SIGNIFICANT impact they had to so much pop culture. How superhero stories were rooted within comic popularity, how superheroes inspired countless of stories, even so far as reaching japan since so much early anime was taken off of western media which birthed its own genre of superheroes. It’s no different to how mecha help started up the anime industry making it one of the most important genres to japans history, yet most people don’t know it and belittle it.

Yet in superhero story cases it’s even WORSE when people are against it yet then go to see one superhero movie because it’s animated and put it on a pedestal and don’t bother to try other superhero content even though they consumed is no different from the norm. It’s the exact same shit when people watch eva and then think all other mechas don’t compare to it, when the genre always had darker, mature and emotional elements, just only a select few decide to canter to a audience who doesn’t even accept what genre it’s from which makes it all the more frustrating to deal with.

I’m someone who’s hardly into superhero stuff even if some of it catches my eye but it sucks to see that the situation is pretty identical to how mecha is seen, that I can’t help to feel sympathetic whenever I see some comic book fans upset at the mainstream audience even if they too can be a little hostile.

#meg text #to clarify I do agree 100% live action superhero movies especially the MCU got really stale #but that doesn’t mean those movies being stale should single out all superhero content when the stuff before is still GOOD #I was in a server that wasn’t mecha but someone was like “I hate superheroes” yet the discussion was just about a old Justice league cartoo #again- what’s so wrong about the animated ones? when they were from a time pre-saturation and people praise shit like spider verse? #I seriously cant tell if this is also a factor of the ever growing issue of people don’t wanna check out old things despite their importanc #*me awaiting the day someone unironically saids the boys/invincible/spider verse is a deconstruction so I can sigh in pain with actual fans #I hope to god that doesn’t happen but it feels like it’s close to why people already say superhero movies don’t have characters #and maybe that’s true bc I haven’t watched a marvel movie in ages but also I think you more so mean “characters being expanded upon” #because… every story has characters… just some can lack dimension and depth… but their still characters… #oh and it’s funny how it’s always these two that get singled out for focusing on action but shonen gets a pass 😑 #action doesn’t equate to less characters!! How do people not realize this? #it’s fine if not your preference but fights can LITERALLY be CHARACTER DRIVEN #a lot of them are in fact because there’s always a purpose to these fights! Even if the meaning is sometimes barebone #also I know there’s gonna be a mecha fan who hates superhero who finds this post #and hate to break it to you but I’m pretty sure the super in super robot came from superhero and just not super powered #especially when a lot of the stuff Nagai made/worked on was him clearly tackling a superhero story from another angle #of course mecha isn’t entirely a superhero genre since we have “reals” but the 70s robots? Oh yeah meant to be superhero’s #and what I said above I think the comparison is warranted because the downplaying is unreal sometimes #will say between the two superhero’s probably have it worse because mecha honestly is more so “im curious but idk more then 5 shows” #because my god I can’t have some conversations irl where this shit doenst get unnecessary heated #had a whole English teacher who wouldn’t stop complaining about superhero movies last semester in college 💀 it’s that bad #that said mecha still suffers from people liking one show and shooting down the other it’s just not as prevalent bc mecha content is low #it’s not dead like others say but it’s mainly been gundam and people now just think gundam is every robot (which is PAINFUL but whatever) #moral of the story is don’t judge a book by it’s cover especially when that book is actually really important to fucking pop culture