#it keeps me functioning

[vagrantclown]

every time i take my adderall im just fucking floored that this is how nt minds work. you mean you DONT have to guilt yourself into picking up the trash thats been sitting on your floor for a month??? god truly fucking nerfed my genetics

#TELL ME WHY OH WHY ARE MY GENETICS SUCH A BITTCCCCHHH #shiloh wallace core #f.txt #also my god #the balanced dopamine #i will never fully adjust even though i take this every day #my depression is so much less bc my body can actually regulate itself #idgaf that this is like $50 w out insurance #it keeps me functioning

[fictionadventurer]

How did Treasure Planet manage to come up with the greatest aesthetic in all human history? Victorian elegance plus space-age flair, with just enough dirt and grime and wear and tear to make it feel real? A combination of traditional and computer animation that perfectly embodies the movie's blend of old and futuristic? How does it get any better than that?

#treasure planet #turned it on on a whim #because sylvia's lovers put me in the mood for sailing ship vibes #and it turns out it fits in really well with the north and south space opera i've been thinking about again #it's really hard for me not to give thornton a giant beautiful space sailing ship #(no you can't do it! the point is that they're industrial and purely functional!) #also i've got another post brewing about how treasure planet is an excellent boy's adventure coming-of-age story #and we need more of those because i feel like the genre doesn't exist in the same way these days #but i'm not sure i could say what i mean without getting folks up in arms #so i'm keeping it to the tags

[nonpoppie]

played the space train anime game . guess who i fixated on

#sampo koski #honkai star rail #star rail fanart #my art dump #wow i hate all their clothes why r they so hard to draw #HE'S SO [incomprehensible hand gestures] #pathetic and silly and highly suspicious. My god #i hesitate to say evil bc i just dont know !! bro is speaking lies !! #im kind of obsessed with him highkey #also LMAO im trying to get back into the vibe for drawing so bad its so bad for me rn #now i have a game to hyperfixate on too. Will i never function properly again #im FINISHING THINGS . he cant keep doing this to me

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

after failing miserably the first go around, (crochet) Home's walls are complete! we're less than halfway there but hey! The Walls!

#wally. doesnt quite fit... but thats okay! #not all homes are meant to be entered i think #ok that top photo is. At An Angle. #ALL OF THE WALLS ARE SYMMETRICAL I SWEAR!! #i kept careful track as you can see on that sticky note! #counted the normal rows AND the blo rows! #FUCK I FORGOT TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THE ~freshly blocked~ FLOOR #photos from the bog #ok i got the walls (majority of it anyway) and the floor done #whats left is the wall Triangles + roof + detail #OH! and i need to get some felt #just a lil somethn to glue to the interior to make sure it remains Sturdy #this will be a box after all! fully functional and Delightful to have on my shelf! #what will i put in this small home. fuck if i know but we'll find out eventually! #maybe she'll hold my chapstick collection... #OH! OR MY STICKERS! the ones that dont have a Surface yet! #oh thats perfect :]c home can keep my unused stickers safe for me :]c

[lesbaurinkos]

self-portrait of how it’s been going for me for the past week

(bonus: unauthorized fucking thing)

#sometimes u have to be a bit mentally ill to get mentally well etc etc #and u know what yeah. wad IS getting me out of bed. and getting me to take my meds. and im soooo normal for it #everyone claps and cheers for how functional i find myself at the age of 22 etc etc blah blah #THANK u dan. sometimes the sinister homosexual ruining ur life also helps u keep it together. so #dnp

[dizzybizz]

redraw of that same frame i did a redraw of this febby

here's a timelapse (+ an extra little treat) set to hip hop cherry pop by lemon demon cause that's what i had on my puter DHASHfaafsjhfd

#the timelapse calling me out. you can see the way i keep accidentally moving entire layers AHD Hg. the bg randomly shifting and then being #fixed kills me 😭 i forget i can lock layers sometimes i swear #i cope with art block by doing redraws... and pretty boys #yu yu hakusho #yyh #yyh kurama #yoko kurama #my art #lvoe kuram a 💖💖💖 what a fella #i wanna utilize csp's timelapse function moreeeee!!!! its so fun!!!!!!!!!!11!!1!!!!1 🤗😚🥰 #i was struggling with this one esp in the early stages but i pulled through look at me go #another piece done. fkn slay pop off i need to hibernate

[time-woods]

I'm impressed with how quickly you post such amazing and detailed pieces! May I ask how do you manage to do that along with school work? I'd like to take notes 📝

thank you ! but- i dont go to school any more, , school wasn't the best for me, autism be damned this boy cant do school. Im planning on getting a GED though !

#asks #12 hour school days really fucked me up #loved my school i just cant function in that environment #it was a specialty school too so they had rlly high standards to keep on top of ur academics and whatever you were there for

[hoofpeet]

balls posting

#hoof draws #misc #<--dk why i made this b/c voltorb is like a D tier pokemon to me but it's funny to imagine how they function as a species #but it would be funny if melli had insane beef with a 7 year old because her birds keep trying to kill his voltorbs

[brainrotisseriechicken]

..

extra:

(it was a spring morning)

(he was a frail boy with no friends)

(he ran into you from across the wall)

(you said hello to him, and asked him to play along)

(at that very moment, he received his lifelong—)

extra 2: oscar boogaloo

yeahhhh....iykyk

#ozpin #professor ozpin #it never gets less embarassing tagging this #rwby #ugh #wait hm #ozma #salem #not tagging ozlem because its kinda giving ottokallen and ergh #oscar pine #sighs anyways #both of them have the same role functionally #they parallel eachother via #hold on im getting ahead of myself #he really does remins me of otto #theyre like prometheus #but with the gift of flight instead of fire #(haha flight as a heavy-handed metaphor for civilization) #they both give said gift through something of the previous civilization #im playing fast and loose w otto but he gave the gift of flight through ingenuity #thus wooden planes #ozpin gave the gift of flight (quite literally) through his magic #thus #gestures vaguely #i have so much more to say but alas ... #horrible corvid anatomy cw #while ozma is kinda su coded tbh...immortal brown dudes dealing with their megalomaniac white-haired situationship core #if you know what im referencing im so so sorry #EVERY NIGHT BRINGS A DREAM BUT THE DAYYYY RELENTLESSLY KEEPS ME AWAKEEEE #honestly idk where the quote is from kevin said it so it must be true

[front-facing-pokemon]

#NEVER MIND I GOT THEM TO WORK #i spent multiple hours just tinkering with this model trying to get it to work just because of how long it had tormented me before this #and like. i dunno i was just bored and looking for something to do with my hands. and i tinkered with this for a while and got it working #this level of work would be unsustainable for every galarian form that doesn't have a normal functioning model #so. y'know. don't expect this for all of them. but i'll try to remember the process i used for this one so maybe i can apply it to them #so ignore the tags on the next post about me not being able to get this one to work #galarian farfetch'd #every pokémon is someone's favorite. i gotta keep that in mind

[eddis-not-eeddis]

I need some prayers. My health is really bad right now, and i might lose my job.

#i had to go home on Saturday because I had a fever and wasn't really able to function #I took Monday off two weeks ago so I could see a doctor about some of the health issues I have #then today I had another COMPLETELY unrelated health problem that sent me home (it's sent me home from my last job on multiple occasions) #i don't know what to do #i keep getting sick #(fevers puking and lung infections) #and i can't kick it #and that's ON TOP of the other chronic issues I've been dealing with for the last three or four years #i'm so discouraged and upset right now and i have no idea what on earth I'm gonna do #i just want to get better and not have to deal with this #i have never been this sick for this long in my entire life #but I've been sick for month long stretches three times already this year #i don't know what to do at this point #i hate this so much

[nbnaruto]

For the older grayson brother danny au, realistically Danny would meet all of Dick's younger siblings gradually but the idea all of them meeting him all at once is so funny to me. Even better if none of them knew Dick had an older brother (and 2 older sisters), Dick just mentions he can't hang out with one of them in the gc because he's hanging out with his older brother and all the batkids are like "wtf are you talking about?" Dick swears he's mentioned Danny (and jazz and ellie) at least once but all of them swear they've never heard those names before. Cue the meeting, they've decided to meet at Mcdonald's or sumn and right before they get to the mcdonalds Dick stresses that they should be on their best behaviour cuz Danny and Co aren't from Gotham and they are Normal Civilians TM, they turn the corner and see McDonalds is getting robbed, they rush in to find Danny beating the shit out of the thief with a napkin holder like outta that scene in shameless, Jazz is getting a first aid kit ready and Ellie is cheering in the background

#this is a crack au so i can say what i want :) #dp x dc #danny phantom #i dont think Danny could keep the whole ghost thing also ellie is my clone thing secret esp from Dick who is nosey as hell but its funny #also the thought of 18yr old Danny flying around with 14yr old Dick on his shoulders is incredibly endearing to me #BUT Dick thinking Danny and the rest of the fentons are freaks but like normal freaks is also incredibly funny #Danny shows 12yr old Dick how to make a bazooka with ingredients you find in any normal household #dick who is 12 and has been a vigilante since he was 9 is just like wow :D coolest brother ever and doesnt think twice #its also funny if Danny was alluded to for years but because of assumptions nobody even knew about it #dick says sorry i got to help my brother with something in front of one of the batkids and they assume hes talking about one of them #or using them as an excuse to get out of something #in reality Danny wanted to hang out with his lil bro so he convinced dick he needs help building a functional rocket or sumn #older grayson bro au #mine

[toytulini]

who is in charge of all the stupid arbitrary changes to every fucking app and website for no fucking reason have you never heard of "if it aint broke, dont fix it"?

i swear to god every app website service etc is just slamming the randomizer button on features every week and hoping it unlocks a market changing innovation instead of like. waiting to make sure the change is actually innovative before forcing it upon everyone

#toy txt post #im so tired of it #can you please just......maintain it. just keep the service functional #cos quite frankly youve been failing at that. ive avoided the new layout so far but i know its inevitable now theres no updating it ever #again. and also these last like??? 2 yrs have been the buggiest discord has ever been for me. its insane. #like every update the erode the functionality of it a little more and hope i dont notice cos they filled my screen with nitro ads #at a certain point im gonna have to find a new fucking service i guess? #this is getting ridiculous. #discord #enshittification #trust thermocline or whatever #frankly mine is fucking snapped

[dicctor-blog]

I'm like if booktok was for 5 year old European kids

#TO BE FAIR I have always had a moomin fixation when I was younger but it went dormant after a while #the new game really ignited my moomin craze #I was making this post while playing salmon run it was awful #moomin valley #moomin #snufkin #snufmin #IM SORRY I KEEP POSTINF ABOUT SO MANY INTERESTS GUYSSSSS #I need side accounts so badly but I hate that tumblr doesn't have an easy function to switch between them #it's so hard being ME!!!! #<==== loves to overexaggerate

[suntails]

I’m going to paint you a picture of modern communication, and how it is fundamentally broken.

Let’s look at one friend. You chat pretty much everyday, and mostly talk to this person on twitter and discord, with occasional tumblr DMs. That’s three places you talk. But that’s actually not true, because you also have each other’s priv twitters and talk there as well. That’s four. Now account for, let’s say, one post reply per account per person, in addition to your DMs. That’s eight. But that’s ALSO not true, because not only do you talk in discord DMs with each other, but you’re in a friend group server as well! And you talk in those channels together! That’s nine.

This is one friend.

Now look around you. How many friends, how many mutuals are you in contact with. A few, a handful, a dozen, more? How many accounts per person do you have, how many places can you send each other posts, devolve into separate topics and conversations? How many people text you as well. Friends, family, coworkers? What do you do day to day around catching up, what IRL commitments will rip you away long enough to let the pile build again?

I can’t do it. I cannot live an actual life in the real world and balance this much interaction, it’s crushing. I reply to a friend’s post because I’m interested in the subject, I want to have a discussion! I WANT to talk about it with them, but I immediately kick myself for adding another conversation to the pile. Day by day, I ignore messages for hours on end and watch mountains pile around me, to reply en masse at the end of the night to let the cycle repeat. I wake up to six discord DMs and as I clear the third, the first replies back again.

We weren’t meant to have thirty simultaneous conversations. We weren’t. And you know in your bones that the number isn’t an exaggeration.

#hush catríona #this is essentially copy pasted from my twt last week but made a touch more coherent #iiiii spiral about this pretty regularly. i think this is the 4th or 5th time ive gone on this spiel bc its agonizing #i feel horrific guilt for ignoring messages for so long. and its absolutely voluntary. but i cant FUNCTION like this i cant DO it #i have friends where we talk Every Single Day and i LOVE them so much. so unfathomably much. but it KILLS me #hell take my roomie for example. one of my fav ppl in the world. we text- twit dm- discord dm- ig dm- reply to posts. thats five right? #i guess!!! but we also LIVE TOGETHER. i see them in real life and talk to them out loud with my voice and its still this much to add on!!!! #and i feel like nobody else talks abt this shit and it makes me feel crazy. am i the only person completely debilitated by this??? #i dont want this to come across as like ‘boohoo we get it ur sooo popular’ that is NOT what this post means #i think a lot of ppl big acct or small. fandom or otherwise. talk to a dozen ppl online. and i dont get how anyone copes #this is agony. and every single time i ever make a post? its another opportunity to add to the pile #i only reply to comments on posts on twt and this is why. i cant DO it i cant keep up. i see every tag and im so grateful but i cant ever #reach out. i cant add to the pile. theyre already taller than me

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

sits up in bed. so lana and ema definitely thought they were responsible for edgeworth "choosing death", right?

(the rest of this post was supposed to go in the tags, because it's not very well organised or written, but it got too long so. here are the slightly edited tags for your reading pleasure (or otherwise)):

i was going to make this solely about ema because she's the obvious one with her open adoration of edgeworth, but the thing about rfta is that it goes to great lengths to emphasise the connection between lana and edgeworth as well.

the sl-9 incident showed that lana grows attached to people deeply, hence angel starr's comment on how, when neil marshall died, 'she (lana) felt like her own brother had died.' with edgeworth, i think it was similar but worse. because he's not just a coworker or subordinate who's dear to her. he saved her life. and it cost him his own.

at the beginning of the case, edgeworth says he was mistaken for thinking that lana was always looking out for him post sl-9 (a statement interesting on its own because that's when everyone else says she grew distant), and, later on, he brings ema fingerprinting powder because lana asked him to. then, of course, there's the 'lady luck' comment he makes.

similarly, on lana's side, you obviously have the end of the trial when she says he did well, but there's also that additional moment post-trial where she's the only one to notice — in a group comprising her, ema, phoenix and gumshoe — that he's 'hiding', listening to their conversation. point is, there's enough to suggest that she might have been the nearest thing edgeworth had to a mia; his 'chief prosecutor' to phoenix's plain 'chief'. they're as close as two people can be in a relationship where one of them is constantly lying and the other is von karma's star pupil.

rfta is pretty straightforwardly depicted as the case which solidified edgeworth's resolve to do what he did; i don't think i have to prove that. rumours about him have reached new heights, his car and knife were involved in goodman's murder, he makes an unprecedented mistake in court by failing to connect the evidence room and carpark incidents, thus forcing the chief of police to enter the trial to do so himself, and he's publicly revealed to have relied on falsified evidence to secure a conviction in the sl-9 case, all of which only happened because of lana. jake marshall even claims that from the beginning — that if you trace edgeworth's rumours back to their source, you end up meeting one person: lana skye.

and it gets worse because at the end of rfta, she thinks he's fine!! she literally says, 'i was afraid the pressure would break you, but you rose above it,' and reminds him he's nothing like gant because he's not alone. she leaves the case thinking he will be okay. and then, what, like a week passes, and she finds out that he wasn't, and that he's gone, and it's her fault. even after she was freed from gant's control, even after she had finally stopped lying, she couldn't prevent herself from claiming another life. so much for 'lady luck', i suppose.

and the game reiterates this multiple times. gumshoe states at the start that edgeworth's ties to those higher up in the department have made him the subject of constant rumours, and phoenix says (in front of ema) that he shouldn't be held responsible for the forged evidence because that was all lana's doing, which then leads to edgeworth commenting (again in front of ema) that he feels as though 'something inside him has died.' it all goes back to lana. we can argue and say that it was technically gant's doing that caused all of this, but lana still took actions that led to it. even her complicated friendship with edgeworth isn't spared; it's that closeness between them that exacerbated those rumours. how could she not feel responsible in some way?

and with ema, it's rather obvious, isn't it? if she hadn't gone poking her nose into things, none of this would have happened or come to light. and, of course, she'd never choose anyone over her sister, not for anything in the world — it's simply not a question, but that's the problem, isn't it? it's not a question. it's not some hypothetical moral dilemma. it just is. she may not have killed neil marshall, but she still has one king of prosecutor's blood on her hands. and now she has to live with that. she just. has. to live with it. no matter if he chose otherwise.

moving on from that a little, i think it's actually wild how much of ema's journey to becoming a forensics investigator is paved with bad memories. neil marshall's death and her subsequent inability to testify are what drives her to begin pursuing it, her first proper investigation results in her idol's "death" and when she finally graduates, the person who saved her sister has been disbarred, and she can't even help because she isn't allowed to. all that pain and constant pursuit of her goals, and she's still the same ema skye, still that girl shrouded in darkness, always one step behind the truth, one step a little too late. no wonder she was angry in aa:aj. i would be furious.

#and then like a year later they find out edgeworth's fine and if that happened to me i think i would kill him fr #WKSHDKAHDKS #lana skye #ema skye #miles edgeworth #the skye sisters' relationship with one dramatic depressed prosecutor is something that can be so personal... #ive literally never thought this much about lana or ema ever. they never occupy my thoughts but somehow. #everyone else: man edgeworth's vanishing must have had a real impact on franziska and phoenix. me: what about these 2 side characters who #technically only appeared once in the whole trilogy. in a dlc. what about them. #it's actually so interesting how much lana is set up to be important to edgeworth. phoenix even says she reminds him of mia and when i #first read that i was like ??? bc of the scarf? there's more to mia than a scard phoenix. but then you pay attention to how she interacts #with edgeworth and it's like oh. i see it now. and then she disappears forever. #mind you i dont think she or ema were like. destroyed by the news of edgeworth's supposed passing. not in the way phoenix was anyway. #for better or worse both lana and ema are shown to have a tight hold over themselves emotionally speaking. lana keeps a lid on them for #years and ema is told she might have killed neil by accident and is functional after a brief faint and recess. like those women are strong. #but i do think it would have had a deep impact regardless of how well they were able to cope. like i've said i dont see how it wouldnt. #anyway this concludes my rfta moment. time to go back to being unable to say a thing about susato-san even though she occupies my every #waking moment. if you read all this ily <3 #it's also past midnight so if this is all a bit everywhere im sorry