#its so fucking awful. i dont know if its grief or WHAT but i just miss that relationship so fucking bad

[todayisafridaynight]

You going back to this it would be cool if Ichiban’s mom was black.

cmon LaD8 pull through......

#snap chats #do it to apologize for making ichiban's plush fucking paler than goddamn paper oh my gd #look at what they did to my boy its fucking egregious HWAT IS THAT #WHO IS THAT THATS NOT MY BABY #THIS ISNT EVEN LIKE. THIS IRE ISNT EVENT EXCLUSIVE TO HCING HIM AS BLASIAN #HIS SKIN IS ACTUALLY JUST SO MUCH TANNER THAN THAT IN GAME WHY IS HE SO PALE #they also did ryuji dirty for the ishin plushies.... lest we forget yagami's skin becoming lighter in the remaster... #THAT'S especially awful because yagami's modeled off a real man like what the fuck i hate this franchise's blatant colorism #we all know the truth even if rgg wants to act like these characters dont have melanin #god speaking of the plush drop tho its lowkey a disaster ☠️ #cause there's ichiban's skintone but i also know there are plenty of people upset about adachi and nanba not being in the lineup #/i/ might have won with aoki but good grief...

[p33p33p00p00]

me when

#im still friends with him and we still talk sometimes but we used to talk all the time bro. i know its my fault we arent close anymore becau #se i didnt communicate to him when he upset me really bad and ignored him for a long fucking time but like. i miss when he wasnt #a dick to me. i miss when i could talk to him for Hours but now i can barely hold a conversation with him for 5 minutes #its so fucking awful. i dont know if its grief or WHAT but i just miss that relationship so fucking bad #i dont think i can get it back either. this is fucking awful i hate it so much

[pinkrabit]

ATLA LA Episode 4 Into the Dark

The glowing rock candy 🤤🤤

Iroh and Aang bonding in prison.

"I'm really starting to see what kind of person his is." "I doubt that."

Sokka yelling at Sai like you yell at your father's mistakes

Love how active the fantasy racism is.

DONT GUILT SOKKA, SAI

Sokka is still so proud of Hakoda. He's so proud to be his son, "My father would never do what you did."

Zuko sneaking in??? We've seen numerous times in the OG his stealth capabilities when he tries. So, I'm excited.

BABY BUMI ! BABY (hes still a baby) AANG !

"I like the parts of Omashu that aren't so depressing :D"

SECRET TUNNEL

Great touch to openly address labor camps and POWs with the real world terms

"It's time to stop fighting. It's time to fight."

The Flopsy statue needs more recognition.

BUMI

Even Aang looks at Bumi like he's insane

Bumi, I know he's your friend, but you shouldn't out Aang like that

"Throw him.... a feast!" Aang looking terrified as if his old friend would EVER hurt him because the world has changed so much since he was last in it breaks me.

"Not everyone out there is the enemy"

"If you stand against us, you are."

"You're fighting because of hate. Just like the Fire Benders"

YES KATARA FIGHT BACK

KATARA THUGGIN AFTER SAYING "Goodbye, Jet"

I love how awful a liar Zuko is in every universe. LEARN TO FIB MY BOY

Aang at the table, like, "did my bsf friend forget I'm a vegetarian???"

Bumi being passively aggressive toward Aang, and Aang serving back "It was a tragedy!"

"Don't you care?" Aang, Bumi has a point when he yells at you. I like this Bumi a lot. His anger feels genuine. However irrational it may be.

THE HIPPIES IN THE MOUNTAIN

Sokka slowly vibing is OOC but still appreciated.

"We're doing what we're doing." They're all high. They gotta be.

Are Oma and Shu...? The gay??

I love how women are often portrayed as ending a war or unintentionally starting it, and then there's Azula.

Thanks for the backstory hippie man, wish you had a map though.

Two lovers, forbidden from one another~

SECRET TUNNEL (×2) THROUGH THE MOUNTAIN

"They're doomed 🤠"

Prisoner cruelty!! I know Uncle War Crimes but what about the Geneva Convention?

"The direct path is not always the best path." Paralleled with Aang wanting to find a way to end the war without killing Ozai.

I hate how they took out Kataang in the LA (i understand it'd be weird to allude to making aang's actor kiss kataras, though), but I like "love" in the tunnels being familial instead of romantic. And I like Sokka using his brain to figure stuff out.

"He was 19.. Was it worth it?" "We were at war.. I was a soldier." Such is the awful reality of war. When it comes to soldiers, it's not personal. It's a job, its dehumanizing to yourself and the rest of the world. It's a politcal game. "You (Iroh) know nothing of loss." And then showing his grief.

Iroh didn't want his son to die a war hero, he wanted Lu Ten to be his son.

!!! This was such an important conversation to put into the show. !!!

Zuko having something from Lu Ten 🥺🥺

I want a separate series with just Lu Ten

Leave from the Vine playing 🥺🥺

Bumi ragging on Aang for wanting to be a kid, AS A TWELVE YEAR OLD, makes me so mad.

Yes, he thinks about fun and games. A boy shouldn't be as bitter as an old man.

Zuko showing up to kick ass for his Uncle because that's HIS FUCKING UNCLE. He's still strong enough to break metal WITHOUT BENDING. SHOWING HIS COMPENTENCY.

"We've all seen enough death."

Zuko showing concern for Iroh's Injury to demonstrate his "true" nature of being sensitive and compassionate. Which is why he was banished in the first place.

The WT Siblings just hold each other before their perceived death feels so important to me.

And I feel like we can and should read into the badgermole/ "Love is brightest in the dark" scene.

"Great, how do you think they respond to verbal commands." Sokka can you be Sappy for like 5 minutes please.

"Some of us have to fight, even if we don't want to. That's what it means to he in a WAR!" This show is delivering so many lines and comments about war and its complexities for everybody involved. Just like the original. Y'all wanna sleep on it because of minor character changes????

I have yet to see a character, Suki has come the closest, that has been so awfully OOC that I've had to stop.

Aang asking for help, "one that requires you to make impossible choices" Bumi is a little misguided here but he means well in sharing his knowledge of leading to his friend.

"Learn what it means to be the Avatar!" "No!" Aang will never give up who he is based on others expectations. And the idea that he doesn't have to do things on his own, "like a child" is going to be what wins the war.

Aangs refusal to kill or hurt isn't bad, he's going to make a difference. He's going to save people. He's going to be the Avatar, but he will be an airbender first!

SAI OUTING THE FIRE NATION IS REDEMPTION

Iroh left to be with his nephew 🥺🥺

He won't let this boy be without a father

LEAVES ON THE VINE

"Everything I need is on this boat"

This episode felt a little rushed, and felt like it lacked a little in terms of the Gaang. But in terms of Zuko, it served. Zuko's story felt stronger here. Especially, after seeing Appa fly away, but he chose instead to prioritize his Uncle.

#into the dark #atla #netflix avatar #avatar #avatar the last airbender #king bumi #zuko #uncle iroh

[backyardflames]

I definitely think EE realised they made a mistake putting Honey and Jay together but the problem is that because they did it does take the impact of Jay and Lola away. You could understand with Lola's journey that she loved other people but it just hadnt been then the right time with Jay until it was.

But with him it felt like, even though they got back together before she was diagnosed, that he pressed fast forward on their relationship. I don't doubt that he loved her but for how rushed it was that they were back together then she was diagnosed suddenly she was the love of his life, but like he hadn't been trying to get her back in the years they were apart.

I think thats one reason why this storyline is bugging me so much because he's acting like he's the only one who is hurting, maybe the only one who has a right to be hurting. Like its *his* grief and no one elses but Billy, Ben, 100% Lexi lost way more than he did. I used to like Jay but everything has been so self indulgent and well just selfish. He should have removed him from Lexis environment if he ever cared for her. If he so determined not to move on because he doesnt want to forget Lola then he should have respected her memory enough to not be around her already vulnerable daughter.

Everyone grieves differently and whilst I dont like how hes doing it i can understand it, what I cant understand is how it's been coupled with ignoring everything he promised Lola.

I think the Honey and Jay thing could have been waved away if had been a month or something tops. But it was years. And the truth about Lola and Jay is that Lola never picked Jay when she thought she had other options. And Jay grew out of his Lola obsession years ago - he didn’t care when they broke up. And the whole lonely Jay thing isn’t something I buy either. He’s been firmly established in the Mitchell family for over a decade. He’s ‘one of them’. We’ve seen it repeatedly over the years. He’s a Mitchell. Yet now he doesn’t feel a part of them?!

They tell us he has this great relationship with Lexi but we’ve literally never seen it. He’s been her often absent uncle for most of her life and of course she loves him, but there’s never been any real warmth to their relationship. They’re like buds. They now have a trauma bond.

And the thing is, I don’t even have a problem with Jay grieving. Grief is selfish. But I do have a problem with the way it’s presented without consequence. He pushed Ben into the PR thing and he knows it - and at the first hurdle he falls so spectacularly that it renders the entire intention of the PR moot. But he should still be allowed the thing Ben absolutely didn’t want and he has failed at because…?

He does drugs around Lexi, putting her in danger and upsetting her but it’s everyone else that should feel bad for being angry because…?

He puts his grieving, traumatised and in recovery friend in an impossible position, but Ben is the one who is wrong because…?

He assaults the person trying to help him and minimises his relationship with his step daughter of 2+ years and doesn’t apologise but it’s ok because…?

Jay can fuck up spectacularly. I welcome it. And I would love him for it. But when the audience and show think it’s everyone else’s fault to the point where they need to manipulate people with awful, nonsensical writing, I’m not going to be moved by it.

Jay hasn’t grown as a character in years, and if they keep pulling this shit where he isn’t in the wrong, even when it’s clear he is, he’s never going to progress.

#eastenders #ben mitchell #callum highway #ballum #ben x callum #lexi pearce

[sallytwo]

< music loverr ive been thinking about this for days here's which everything everything song fits each parousia character

faduhl: come alive diana

very much about the mythology of faduhl as a character... she's not allowed to be a person she's this great shining legend and has to live up to that myth. obviously this song choice is also a lot about aubrey... "mother looks away, father looks away for a second", "and the young diana waves inside a global grief", "I LOST AN AUTHOR THEN I LOST A DAUGHTERS AWE!!!"

ryan: president heartbeat

also about the pressure to live up to her image as a Good Officer and alsooo about her fucked up relationship with faduhl. she came to this station and gave away her entire life for faduhl only to watch her fall apart. this song is fast paces and scattered and has an upbeat pop sound with incredibly angry bitter lyrics which fits her well. ryan is really... not a good officer. she only got this position because of neptosim, she comes from a very privaleged life, she cracks easily under pressure and has rehabilitating imposter syndrome and self doubt. "and you promised me heaven and you said it would happen soon...." ugh!!!

bennet- warm healer

his. song. it's a very melancholy song abour the dread of looking back on your youth and wondering where it went. just the resignation in this song... ITS SO BENNET!! "they call me a medicine man but my old spells dont work anymore". my sad doctor :(

aleki- only as good as my god / regret

sigh. everything everything has a lottt of songs about corrupt charismatic leaders and regret over past decisions so this was hard to choose. the plodding beat of regret fits really well and like. "first you'll see me on the news then never again".

only as good as my god i cant get into much without spoilers but i chose it cuz. aleki has never taken responisbility for anything in his life so he's bitter and angry and feels this deep shame but will neverr take resposnibility for what he did. he can always blame his commanding officer or family or starfleet. "im only as good as my god burnt hair and more money".etc

ekaz- the marina

ekaz has lived through so much change on the station and this one's about like. his inability to keep up and to accept this change and the way he's slowly losing his faith. someone always has to be the rock someone has to be stable and hardworking and trustworthy and that's always him.

chyell- bad friday / cut up!

bad friday is phenomenal chyell song because it's literally about a violent terrible thing happening at a club and not being able to remember what happened. which is literally how they lose their eye. "could this be the millionth warning / could this mean i'm gonna get out?"

cut up! is an incredibly frantic disjointed desperate song and is also very chyell relating to their sense of duty.

talii- levithan

levithan is a song about a levithan as a metaphor for disabling grief and sadness. which is very talii. at her core she is a deeply, deeply sad person and it never goes away. she never got over her brothers disappearance. "looming in the distance never coming near / im missing you, im missing you, im missing you for real / under levithan"

jonathan- violent sun

violent sun is a PHENOMENAL late seasons johnny song. about feeling like you're being swept along in life and have no agency and don't have an excuse for being this way. and the SUN!! " there's a way you dont ever have to be a lunatic or an error or a prisoner to your terror / im too old to be crying out" and "i wanna be there when the wild waves comes and we're swept away" IT FITS SOOO WELL.

max- schoolin'

schoolin fits max so well.. feeling confused and small and lonely. being curious and wanting to know why these things are happening and whats going on but constantly being stomped on and ridiculed. AND the religious element of being told to go along with this with no question. "but infinite and joyless high fives are singing 'praise the lord!" MAXX

anyway thank you for reading. everything everythingg

[fairycosmos]

my depression has taken so much from me and it keeps taking i don't know what to do this is hell

yeahhh....i totally feel you it's so difficult and honestly there's no answer to this that satisfies me either......it really is hell and its completely understandable to feel that way TBH there's a lot of grief in mental illness. there's a lot left unlived. the only thing i can at least kind of recommend is letting the mourning process without trying to make your life be something it's not i.e without depression and try to work with the reality of what is and of how you actually feel. it's awful that you don't have access to the version of your life that you want, but that also doesn't mean that everything has been taken from you and that there's absolutely nothing to build from. though of course it feels that way often. accepting that this is an illness you have and that you can learn to live alongside it is key. you dont have to go back to who you were, you can make room for how you are now too. theres still going to be a lot worth living in that, though i dont expect you to believe that right now. if you're able to seek any form of help, a shitty communal support group or a heart to heart with a friend or even just word vomiting into a journal - i would really recommend it. not as a solution, thats not even close to one, just as a way for you to get back in touch with this reality. to sort out your head and see what you can do to tangibly move forward even just inch by inch, even if you hate yourself the whole time. depression takes a lot but it doesn't mean everything ever is futile. i know this doesn't help much, but i just want you to know i get it and a lot of people do. and that as long as you're breathing change is both possible and inevitable though the process can be fucking hellish. sending you a massive hug. X

resource / resource / resource/ resource / resource

#anon

[carrickbender]

Friday 5

- There are days when I really like my new job- i see amazing people making a difference and saving lives. But 2 days in a row of reasons why some people shouldn't have kids has left me empty. Yesterday was bad enough that I just came home and needed a needed a Henry hug. Fentenyl is a horrible drug, and the conditions and things that lead to the desperation that is it's use for an escape are just as horrible. Do better world, do better...

- It's going to be cloudy tomorrow am, so not going be eclipsing that much. Still, I'm hopeful. Mom assed out on going to Newberg to maybe see it too, so at least we might get some sleep. One thing about my mom is that I dont have to look any further to find an example of how to overextend and exhaust oneself. Ok, point taken...

- Our 'classroom' at work is in a county office, and it has a head of a freakishly large Roosevelt Elk hanging on the wall by the stairs, and 47 y.o. me fights back the urge to boop its snoot every day. I mean, its a DNR building, the elk is vrai apprapo,but still... #whyamilikethis #12goingon47

- CBC did a great job with graphics the other day, I couldn't help but share. Such a great job linking the byline, somebody deserves a raise. We are talking damn near Fox quality work here!

- Henry met the reptile man today at school, and it couldn't have been better. Total opposite of yesterday where... well, he tried to poop in the urinal. And before you ask, yes he knows the difference but I think he forgot in his desperation. I'm gonna file that away(almost said nugget, talk about a poor use of words, right?) for some future humour when he brings someone home to meet mom and dad. The janitor was kind about it, and H said she was going to make him cookies as a thank you. I thought that was a great plan, but though no bakes would not be appropriate.

Anyhow, pardon my absence. This last week has been awful for so many reasons. I know we have all been watching what's unfolding in Israel, and to be honest I'm filled with grief(Im sure you all are too). The messages I had to send that morning to my friends, asking about parents, sisters, kids...fucking awful, and I know mine were easy because everybody was safe. It's made me think about how contrary both Hammas and Likud are to the idea of tikkun olam, about how we need to repair the world- not just as part of a religious faith but as a doctrine of a greater belief in humanity. In my humble opinion, making a world where Palestinian children and Israeli children wouldn't even think twice about killing each other would be the best goal. Yet here we are... Peace and love be with you friends.

#me #this is my life #singer songwriter #first responders #tw: addiction #exhausted #struggling in silence #tired of killing #looking at you Hamas! #looking at you Likud! #looking at you Washington DC! #not a lot of happiness here #sunday will be better #sorry #Henry Adam

[slowpokedragon]

theres something very chilling about maes hughes. he is a man who has to be a good person to us as viewers. he is portrayed so incredibly sympathetically, because he has a wife and daughter who he loves very much, and he tries his best to protect ed and al, and he dies attempting to uncover state secrets.

but the only reason he really was getting into state secrets at all is because roy asked him to. the only reason he feels any remorse over the ishvalan genocide isnt because it was an objectively horrific thing- it was because ROY was remorseful and actively portrayed as suicidal and attempting to atone. he cared because he cares about roy, not because he cares about what he has done in the name of his country as a soldier, as an intelligence officer, and as another instrument of an authoritarian, fascist regime, which amestris IS.

i think too many people refuse to look at maes critically because he dies and therefore is sympathetic, but considering roy wanted to become fuhrer to try everyone who was involved in the ishvalan genocide (because i refuse to call it a war when it was so one-sided) because the system and the public hailed them as heroes (including HIMSELF!!!! roy canonically wanted to put himself on trial, he didnt exempt himself) i dont think maes would have been spared from that!

especially considering conqueror of shamballa, where maes hughes is genuinely a nazi soldier and sees nothing wrong with it until EDWARD (a retired soldier from a fascist regime who knows the military is nothing but dogs and was using their resources to atone for his own sins and attempt to fix his brother, not even himself, (and in a way committed suicide by doing what he did at the end of 03, because i think dimensional travel counts as a form of suicide to the people left behind)) makes him confront that ugly, horrifying truth.

maes hughes is canonically not a man who self-examines and attempts to improve past awful mindsets. not like roy does, not like edward does, and not like riza does. and the difference between them is that all three of those characters are aware of what they have done and what atrocities they have committed, and attempt to atone for them even when they know that they won't be forgiven for it, and arent even seeking forgiveness in the first place, just redemption.

maes does NOT do this. he helps roy and does things for him not because he knows its the right thing to do, but because roy asked him to. because he values roy as a friend. that is fucking dangerous. what if roy wanted something genuinely awful for amestris and for the ishvalan refugees living in the slums? i think, considering what we know of maes, he would have followed along, just because roy is his friend.

fma (and all of its incarnations) is a wonderful examination of on-the-surface kind and good people doing genuinely horrible things, and attempting to atone for those things their entire lives, knowing that it will never make up for what theyve done and what trauma theyve inflicted onto others and themselves. it is an examination of how even the nicest kindest people can be capable of monstrous things and not even fucking bat an eye. "just following orders".

and for the record, i think scar is exempt from this, to some extent. the revenge arc where they try to show roy and scar as parallels is.. it leaves a bad taste in my mouth, and they never should have been shown as similar or meant to mirror one another. roy was continuing a cycle of murder, damn the consequences, in a personal revenge quest for his friend. scar was expressing rage and grief over his entire people being slaughtered and driven from their homes and their religion being torn down and being hatecrimed in the country they fled to, the very country that did this to them because it was their only option, and KNEW he might die in the process and all he had to say for that was "i have done all i can". scar did kill people, but honestly i cannot say they didnt fucking deserve it, as soldiers who did genuinely participate in the ishvalan genocide. (this is a direct mirror, i think, to how POC are portrayed in the media. as much as i can contribute anyways, as a white person who isnt jewish.)

the only moment where we see scar as being in the wrong (or at least me) is when he tries to kill edward, but honestly i see where he is coming from in that respect too. he has no idea who edward is, only that he appears to be this fucking brainwashed child taken in by the military for being a prodigy, and he will become an instrument of war. he didnt know anything about ed, or that ed was attempting to atone for his OWN sins, or that he was planning to retire once he got what he needed from the military and the state.

i cant fault him for killing ninalexander either. it was genuinely suffering and a twisted creature made by, again, a man who seems easygoing and good on the surface and loves his kid (and his wife) before succumbing to desperation to keep money in his pocket and food on his table, even at the expense of his loved ones. another example of how people who can seem so kind are capable of atrocity.

#fma #fullmetal alchemist #fmab #fullmetal alchemist 03 #fullmetal alchemist brotherhood #fma 03 #fma conqueror of shamballa #fullmetal alchemist conqueror of shamballa #anime #manga #animanga #longpost #literary criticism #maes hughes #roy mustang #scar the ishvalan #scar fma

[blacktinnedpeaches]

im not doing well in my mind atm :/ it kind of sucks + idk what to do about it... earlier me and benno were walking to the co-op and he was like "you are RADIATING sad" or st and i was like please dont talk to me about my feelings outside lol im literally not about to start crying in the co-op

we did fuck when we got hoem for the first time in a few weeks bc of the month-long period which like. calmed me down enough to chill for some hours but its 4am now + im feeling bad again lol :( need to go to bed but im feeling v unhappy at the thought of lying in bed worrying... i might just take several valiums and be done w/ it tbh

hes been fine the past few days! so you'd think id be fine too but tbh im just in my "borrowing grief from the future" era

im okay like im not in a terrible state and im able to fulfil my commitments and stuff but there is way too much crying every day for me to be like, things are going well. and also this sounds insane probably but i know im doing bad bc i feel physically bloody awful all the time + also ive started watching archival footage of the AIDS crisis in san fran in 1982 again. which is never a good sign

i know my mum is gonna phone soon too and give me more insane advice

i showed one of her texts to ana (last month - when i was feeling desperate enough to ask MY MOTHER for advice LOOOL) and ana laughed so much they made this meme:

also this whole interaction made me laugh

SHES NOT THAT FUCKING BAD!

#sorry 4 whining so much this month but this is my blog etc

[honeyboyfelix]

i am having a lot of thoughts rn so i need to write them you can look away if you want this is super fucking long asdfghjkl

imagine you are a tiefling. your mom is an elf and will surely outlive you and your entire family. you dad is also a tielfing. you are the oldest of 4 children. you live a happy 14 years as a relatively poor tinkerers child who has an affinity for magic your parents support with their whole hearts. but you are *poor* still so sending their child to magic school is not really in the cards. you are 14 when your dad disappears and is presumed dead. your mother falls apart in her grief understandably but unfortunately, your dad was the only one in the family with a job (your mother helped with that job but without him there is nothing to help). you are the oldest so you decide to use what little magic you know to help you make money performing street magic to provide for your family, your siblings who are like 7 and a year old (twin babies) obviously cant do that for themselves. you love your family and you would do anything for them but its hard to grow your skills when all youre doing is staying alive and thats how you live for the next 6 years. youre still struggling for money so you plan on going to this festival out of town to try and get your name out. on the way there you stop at a city that asks you (why you??????) and a group of people to find one of their people whove gone missing. on the way you all realize youre headed the same way so you might as well all travel together. you participate in the festival with these friendly weirdos, you get attached to people very quickly since you have abandonment issues and all of them are really really nice and one of them is even from your hometown!!!! you make it to the finals of the competition and the group youre up against is maybe not the nicest but your group is soooooo friendly that both groups decide to be good sports in the competition and not be sore losers if they lose. during said final round you guys pick up an artifact that gives the entire party a vision of a man trapped and desperate asking you to help him. you win the competition and your name will be forever remembered in that way but now you have bigger issues like wtf was up with that vision and the artifact????? your wizardly curiosity pulls you in. you find out the artifact is one of the most powerful artifact in the world blessed by not just one but three separate gods and the man from your vision must be their champion. this is a lot bigger than you,,,, you just wanted money,,,, but your new friends want to help this man and something pulls you along. you go to the cursed city (the city where demons come out of the walls every day in a never ending onslaught since the greatest war in the history of the world ended and reshaped history at you know it)

before you get to the city the cursed moon gives the entire party horrible warped memory nightmares that make you remember the last time you saw your father, the argument he and your mother had before he disappeared. you dont really wanna think about it. your mentor who taught you magic gives you her sword which is the last thing your father made before he disappeared. it feels very personal.

the inside of this city is awful and horrible and your entire party of lovable weirdos gets slammed again and again with darkness and despair but somehow you manage to come out of it relatively unscathed, you even gain a new friend!!! one you pulled from a deck of many things in a test to prove your worth!!!! (the themes of friendship triumphing never end btw) this new friend is a tinkerer JUST like your dad and even now your brother is a tinkerer too so he feels a little bit like home but also weird cause youre not used to people taking care of you its usually the other way around so you dont really know what to do with this new guy. the leader of this town who's trying to keep the demons at bay rewards you all by giving you his vacation home for free in the city you need to go to next in your journey.

when you get to the city the head curator of the library youre working with recognizes you immediately even though youre on a whole different continent and something in your stomach drops. he asks you what your parent's names are and a cold and ugly feeling settles in your stomach before telling him. he says nothing as he takes the group to the medical research facility and you see your father for the first time in years, passed out cold covered in angry red glowing crystals. the disease is uncurable and will kill him very soon, you found your dad again just to have him ripped away and warped beyond recognition and you are unable to do anything about it really. the other party members are shocked and upset by this but none more that the parties cleric who, unbeknownst to the rest of the group, instantly recognizes the exact scenario you are going through. you do what you do best and try to bury your feelings about the situation and tell no one about how youre feeling :) it worked at home why wouldnt it work here. the cleric tells you that no matter what they are going to do whatever it takes to find a cure so you dont go through their same fate and you trust your friends so much you believe him, youre determined now to get rid of this curse. in the process of investigating you get into a fight with some cursed statues (the big bad red curse,,,, you know the one) and you fuck up your attack so bad it hurts deep in your soul,,,, suddenly your hands have a red rash across them and you feel so so so tired. see the thing about the curse... it comes from this red crystal.... the same crystal your father had been working on tinkering with before he died.... the same crystal the hilt of your sword is made of :)

the only people who see that youre cursed are the party cleric and your knight (the new friend from the deck of many things you have complicated feelings about) so you decide the rest of them dont need to know :) you dont tell them about the sword either, you just start using a new one,,,, no one asks either thankfully! anyway the library finally gives you the next location so you can hopefully end these peoples (who you are now one of) suffering but there is one problem: an aboleth who believes he is the man from the vision that set this quest off is guarding the entrance to the place youre supposed to go. oh and also!! the rival party from the beginning of the quest? theyve been helping you guys out to and they went to check it out before you could warn them almost dying in the process so thats,,,, this mission is doomed from the start you swear.

despite all warnings, you go in the place where the entrance is trying to find a way in the entire party enters a fight with these cursed eels that intensely swallow you already at half health and you already think "oh god oh god were all gonna die and my family is gonna think i abandoned them just like my dad i cant die here not like this not so close" and somehow the entire party makes it out by the skin of their teeth and more than a little doubt in their hearts. this party doesnt know when to quit so you go in again to finally fight befriend the aboleth, this party is all about hope and kindness despite all the absolute hopelessness theyve been surrounded by for the past like 5 months you see, theyre first instinct is to reach out with both hands to their worst enemies and no matter how hard the world beats them down,,,, its worked every time. so of course it works this time almost instantly (with the help of the entire group and shit ton of magical buffs on one man, its called group effort sweetie uwu)

finally you get to go into the area this entire trip has been building up, what is essentially the magical prison of a cursed man forgot completely by the world. you are obviously not having a great time, the secrets youre keeping weigh heavy on you, you feel responsible for all of the mistakes youre party has made you also feel responsible for dragging an innocent man into this (the knight who is just like you, lonely and stubborn and intelligent and awkward) and the horrors TM are kinda setting in on you every minute since you saw your dad again but couldnt even talk to him,,,,, you are running out of time and now the cleric is also cursed which is just,,,,,, too poetic really. this was already personal for you both and now its you in their shoes and the cards stacked up in such a horrible way. but youre still alive, theres still a chance, we have to make it not just for your dad or all those other strangers or for yourself but your kind friends who have done nothing but help you,,,, they deserve to make it through this. so you power through

the dungeon is,,,, awful. every room is a memory from the cursed mans life where he watched the world beat down anyone who cared for him, his parents almost killed for simply having him, the civilians he tried to protect dying because he is one man who makes mistakes, the army he commands falling in a never-ending war no matter how many battles he one the next would just bring more loss, he was cursed,,,, because everyone believed he was cursed but all you see is someone who is like you and your friends who should have been givin a chance at a better life.

his memories crush you under their weight -literally- they pin you to the floor and wont let you up and your magic is failing you. worst of all its getting your friends too and you can do nothing to help while youre still trapped like this. the knight (who the entire party agrees is somewho the best of all of you) is the first one to break free from the spell, you dont know what did it specifically but he turns to you first urging you to get up and fight the voices in your head trying to bring you down. the cursed man speaks in your head, your loved ones speak in there too, telling you to just give up to let go and surrender that the fight isnt worth it but you are so close you cant end up like your dad where the last conversation you had was a yelling match about why youd left you have to make it back,,,, so you do, you get up and you get your friends up too. because this group doesnt let people fqall into nihilism and obviously all of you still have your problems, no one is perfect, but its worth trying. its always worth the fight

#sorry this is long #long post #i just had a lot of feelings like my chest feels like bursting tbh #like literally tho after that fight with the entropy trap i was looking thru my character sheet #in the characteristic part which i fill out for this exact reason #is all shit like 'would do anything for family . loves family with entire heart. flaw: gets too attached to people way too quickly #like oh my goooooooooood this kind of angst was built specifically for me asdfghjkl #sam plays dnd #i wasnt even using my highest checks for the fight asdfghj like i coulda tried to break free using logic and reason #but i was like.... idk would they?????? like i designed this highly empathetic wizard.... i think they would try to fight thru shear will #chich is a charisma save in mechanical sense chich... is their second highest score #i wanted to spit in the face of all those academic is my entire life kinds of wizards #this wizards got..... just so many feelings guys #i tried to add a read more but its 3 am and im basically fever writing this after my nap so i couldnt figure it out

[divinedeathbed]

what is Nixonverse and or who is D-Day Night because you have me intrigued

(where can I learn about the lore of this thing)

SOSOSOSOSOSSOOOO the nixonverse is a side series in the monument mythos analog horror series (which is literally fucking divine ass series. it doesnt make a whole lot of sense watching it at first until you watch the entirety of the series and then it CLICKS) by mister manticore

its basically throw SUPERHEROS into ANALOG HORROR. i love it so so so much its my favorite series of all time probably. i dont want to spoil it too much but takeaway is this: nixon is god. grief can make you a monster

THE D-DAY KNIGHT IS MY BELOVED FUCKING HUSVABD OF ALL TIMEEEE.

hes one of the superheros you meet, and TO ME.. IS THE BEST AND MOST BADASS??? he is the only man on earth who has true free will and used that free will to save every single american life at d-day

he has the sexiest fucking helmet ive ever fucking seen ^

hes basically batman with supermans powers to be real w you

HIS SECRET IDENTITY??? THE REASON WHY IVE GONE INSANE ABT FRANK SINATRA OUT OF NOWHERE??

THE D-DAY KNIGHT. IS FRANK FUCKING SINATRA. (ive just taken the liberty to make him cooler and thrown my headcanons at him) irl frankie was 110 pounds (yadda yadda 10 pounds of it was cock we know the quote) soaking wet and 5'8, my frankie is a 6'8 beef cake and ofc heavier i just couldnt tell you bc im not good at weights awooga look at this man

the knight is... mmmwah chefs kiss i love him. he goes insane at a point does a horrific thing BUT IS SO.. DISTRAUGHT BY HIS ACTIONS HE TRULY REGRETS THE AWFUL SHIT HES DONE!! AUHGHGGH FRANKIE,,,

anyway watch the nixonverse. become insane :)

#asks for mys

[bhvr]

maybe im just typing this because i feelfucking crazy and like shit rn but i think, whether it was intentional or not, who made me a princess is a story about family and loss and grief and bonds and that always came before romance and thats why i get pissed off when people complain about lucathy not having a bigger role/a lack of Ijekiel Second ML Romance Bait. its not a romance manhwa. it has a subplot with “will they wont they” romance but it is pushed to the background FOR THE BETTER more under the cut

and sure! maybe its the delusional in me talking! but i truly think each character is a very layered and complex person, as are the relationships within the story. ‘what do we owe to each other?’ is a question thats been asked forever, but what do we owe to family? how deep do familial bonds, both blood and water, go? how long can we hold onto the past and refuse to move forward?

claude had a terrible childhood, even from birth being given the name the one who limps, never treated as a prince or an equal or anything worth anything. his older brother, the one who protected him and treated him kindly and helped him when he was sick, turns out him and he doesn’t know why. at this point in time claude is a child who is losing the very little support he has: his brother, and at some point his mother. he has felix and thats it. and athanasia (and others) find it so notable that when it comes to claude, he feels like someone you should tiptoe around. someone you have to be careful with because you dont want to get killed for pissing him off. oh, and theres felix, who says shit all the time and even speaks without thinking around claude (and remains supposedly oblivious at times when it annoys him), and gets nothing more than an irritated glare or getting kicked out of the room at the worst. felix is family to him. it is very very evident that whether claude knows it or not, he is someone who cares so much about family and always has.  and then he met diana, who was the love of his life, and was once again having one of the very very few people close to him taken away. by someone who wasn’t even born yet. can you imagine how awful that must feel? we SEE him so happy when he finds out diana is pregnant. its not that he didn’t want a kid-- he probably did desperately, because that is a complete family unit. dad, mom, kid. someone who never got that got SO close to it and then (and mind you, this was most likely not early in diana’s pregnancy) finds out its all fucking gone. he either loses diana or the child. and of course he wants diana to choose herself, this is DIANA over what is at the time a clump of cells and it no doubt hurt like hell to have to choose!!!!! nobody wants to do that!!!!!! so athanasia is born and claude goes on a downward spiral. he neglects her for the first couple years of her life until they run into each other and curses himself because he feels so mental that its like a hole he cant climb out of. and STILL. with a lot of bumps in the road, he takes care of athanasia. he grapples with the VERY HUMAN conflicts he has and takes care of her, spends time with her, gives her things, and hes doing whatever vague idea of “parenting” and “caring for a kid” he has, because nobody did that with him as a kid. its awkward and stilted and comes off weirdly at various times and he has noooo fucking clue what hes doing. in the end, thats his daughter. his first thought when it comes to people who cross her is to either kill them or get rid of them in some way, because hes the all-powerful emperor and damn him if hes 1. going to let people think that Claude de Alger Obelia, the emperor who will never be given a name that belongs to royalty and had to forcibly grab the role, can be walked over in the slightest 2. they think his KID can, because we see that there are nobles that DO look down on her not just for her age but for her LINEAGE 3. going to let her go through anything that he ever did.  oh and his brother comes back from the dead and hes kinda possessed and was kinda influenced by a ghost(???) and possibly only turned on him because of that in the first place. of course he is not very happy about that. sibling issues as the younger of the two suck ass and you feel the nagging need to reach out, and also the need to tell them to eat shit and never talk to me again. by the end of things, claude does what a lot of siblings end of having to do: you aren’t quite at forgiveness yet, you may never be, and you will probably never have that connection again. but thats your brother, what can you do? both of you are at this weird impasse that nobody wants to get near. so you have some odd semi-reconciliation filled with tension but at the end of the day you go your separate ways and dont hate him anymore. you dont. you see your daughter you wants things to be better for you and think, goddamn it, for her ill try. (meanwhile, jennette pushes anastacius to be honest and consider reconciliation as well). it is purposefully left as both brothers looking at the idea of mending their relationship and saying “ill consider it.” because isnt that all you can do? think about it? and i feel like a big part of that is them looking at athanasia and jennette and being inspired by them as well. by their sister (i know theyre cousins but theyre basically sisters eat shit) relationship and their WANT FOR A BETTER FUTURE. 

it is an incredibly fucking human ending. its also very hopeful. 

the thing that i think WMMAP gets right in its realism and topics of family is that things aren’t always black and white and there’s a lot of grey. the father is not always either the comically cold-hearted tyrant who eats puppies for breakfast OR the incredibly doting and attentive father who listens to everything his kid says and never causes his family pain. because thats what people do to everyone around them regardless of how much they love them: they hurt them. everyone hurts someone. i do. you do. the levels of pain vary but get inflicted regardless. 

SO NO I DONT GIVE A SHIT ABOUT LUCATHY GETTING THE BACK SEAT 1. THEY ARE AWESOME AS FRIENDS AND HAVE 125 CHAPTERS OF CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO POSSIBLY LOVERS BUILDUP 2. ITS ABOUT FAMILY RAAAAAHHHHH EAT SHIT also lucas is literally family to athanasia but ill make a post about that another day Teehee. this was meant to be about wmmap as a whole but ended up being really claude-centric oooops not sorry bye

#NOT PROOFREAD. #long post #wmmap #.txt #batshit.txt

[transphilza]

I. I dont know how to cope. This seems fake still. It feels like if I come onto social media it's just all mourning and I can't bc its jsut a reminder that he's gone. I dont know what to do. This is the first big loss I've experienced, I dont know how to cope.

I know he lived a good life, a happy one. And I'm happy for him. But like. I just. Dont know. Its suffocating. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry about it, but I also want to forget.

I'll get distracted and feel fine and then I'll remember and feel guilty for being happy and fuck dude I just. I dont know what to do. Writing things out like this helps a bit, the pinned post on my blog helped, writing that out was helpful. But I'm at a loss. How are you coping at all? I cant watch the clips they hurt too much I'm feeling so deeply adn I didjtn watch much if his content I'm

heya nonnie <3 i’m gonna answer this under the cut cause i found i had a lot to say

i’ve only dealt with one major loss in my life before this one and it was last year, so i’m still very much still learning about grief and how to deal with it. i honestly don’t think it’s ever something you can prepare yourself for, not fully, so just know that feeling overwhelmed or unequipped or at a loss is completely fine and i feel you

in terms of coping, i think really allowing myself time to just sit and do nothing except think about him and cry my eyes out has helped. if you haven’t watched phil’s stream from yesterday, i seriously recommend it. it’s just music and minecraft, so it was less overwhelming than trying to watch clips or videos for me. i was crying for six hours after i heard the news… i cried for another hour when i woke up this morning. it’s okay to do nothing except curl up and cry and feel bad. it’s difficult and horrible and it’s okay to just sit with that feeling. give yourself time. distractions can be wonderful, but don’t force yourself into them, don’t force forgetting or moving on if you don’t feel ready for that

additionally, understand that feelings don’t have to be mutually exclusive to one another, if that makes sense. you’re allowed to feel happy just as much as you’re allowed to feel sad, and you’re allowed to feel all of it all at once too. you’re allowed to laugh and cry at the same time

for me? …the clips hurt a lot too. the vods hurt a lot. the pictures and the memories hurt a lot. they make me cry and they make my chest clench up but i keep on watching them because i know that i need to feel that horrible horrible feeling in order to process that any of this is real. even still, i can hardly believe it. mostly though, i know that above all else, techno has been a massive source of joy and comfort and inspiration in my life, and i need those clips to remind me of that. i need to remember what he means to me while i grieve, so i can preserve the joy of these memories. i’ve sort of been inspired by him even in my grieving, that immovable object mindset of his… i refuse to let this ruin the positive impact he’s had on me. i refuse to let my grief outweigh my love, no matter how awful and overwhelming it is…. does that make sense?

i’m really good at pretending that i understand my feelings more than i do, and i’m sort of eloquent, so i might come across as coping better than i actually am. but you’re not alone in this, nonnie, i feel just as hollowed out and overwhelmed and it’s all so so suffocating, but reminding myself that it’s okay to feel like that has really been the main thing that’s kept me going.

much love to you, i deeply deeply understand how difficult this is. please, be kind to yourself. i’ll be here with my silly words every step of the way

#❤️ #talking #anon

[ajdrawshq]

ok im tired as hell and its too gotdamn warm for me to actually sleep so im gonna list off some of my omori thoughts til i pass out

i got the good ending bc i was following a guide bc i Cannot stand full screan surprises n the guide was good but the one (1) thing it doesnt remind u to do daily is water Basils plants. so. im doing all of that again now

i love the fucking characters in the game theyre all so neat n alive. i keep wanting to say im attached to someone specific but im having a hard time picking favorites theyre all so Good

theres a lot like a Lot of instances where Kel is hinted at being the lesser sibling and just the least important out of his friend group and its only really stated in an obvious kinda way once n like. he seems totally fine most of the time and he doesnt seem down often or for long at all in unrelated moments but for these he doesnt seem to even acknowledge it. and of course the others dont seem to think of him as less important which is Good but does he like. have a problem with this. i wanna say hes hiding it but i dont Know bc hes fucking good at it. i might make a whole post on this later actually

seeing Hero cry hurt more than i thought it would and seeing him jump right back to smiling seconds later every time made it Worse. its the older sibling thing

one detail i really like is that while some of the scenes are meant to be funny to the audience, Hero's fear of spiders isnt usually made fun of (the only time i can remember is when Mari apparently snuck bugs into his desk to see his reaction lmao). otherwise hes taken seriously and the others try to push him to overcome it someday, not Now but its something he should work on himself. and the bit w Kel removing a spider from their room, all while saying what hes doing exactly and reassuring Hero that the spider was gone, was a sweet thing to see compared to all the other media where siblings would throw it at the other or something yknow its just nice

Aubrey Good. thats the post

Basil

i dont even know where to fuckin begin with Basil (affectionate) this kid has Problems

seriously theres so much shit going on w these kids thats left unsaid but is worked into the environments or even just what they Dont say its genuinely incredible. beautiful characterization and worldbuilding

the real world sections of omori feel less like im playing as Sunny and more like im guiding this child in a gentle but assertive manner to Do Shit. like ok kiddo brush ur teeth and then we're gonna go outside today. yes its good for u trust me ive been there anyway ur buddy is at the door, go have fun!! oh btw i found some parents who will literally pay u to help their kids with homework. yes ur doing that. its free money dude cmon

cant believe omori lets me live my true dream job (organizing things in short bursts for money)

on that note the music that plays for the tool organizing and the flyswatting jobs might be my favorite track in the game and i have no idea why. its like the audio equivalent of the word blorbo

i wish there was a fucking therapist in this town bc god knows id drag em all there

my brother came in during one of the endgame parts n thought Sunny was a girl when Basil was teasing him abt his crush on Aubrey n went "aw yeah you cant escape the gay even here" (not in a derogatory way) n it took me so off guard i forgot to correct him. hes right tho actually

"when the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie thats omori" is the funniest joke that couldve ever come out of this game i want to personally thank whoever did that

showing all the different ways the kids reacted to grief and trauma and acknowledging that some were more harmful to themself or others and thats just how people work sometimes n they all make amends n agree to support each other in the end and begin to heal despite it all. h

also the moment that i realized the dream world was in fact a dream world made by Sunny and. everything it represents. his desires. his fears. dude

#i see a lot of myself in Sunny so all the messages abt facing stuff to heal and ackowledging change n stuff . MAN #the only bit that kinda went over my head was when everyone in the dream world was forgetting abt Basil #im. not entirely sure of the reason for that. im sure there is one but it missed me by a hair #im also aware the other route reveals a lot of stuff that im prolly missing but. i. do i have the courage for that. do i really wanna do it #ok ive been typing this stuff for two hours n its still warm as Fuck but im so so tired. gnight yall 💙💙 #omori tag

[shingogf]

And in celebration of my newfound drive to suddenly post and expand upon my (superb) opinions on my fav pieces of media, i must also say this: i dont rlly agree with the "hehe but its fun to imagine william had 0 motive to murder cuz hes just built diff lol!" affirmation like...yea ok but do u realize how dull and utterly boring that is from a writing pov. Scott cant fuckin write a linear story nor can he model humans to save his own life and has to pull 1000 books out of his ass to fill in the gaps and even THEN it still aint enough. So i can take the liberty to think about the what ifs.

Not negating the existence of serial killers that had a seemingly normal and uneventful upbringing doing what they did later in life at all, that IS a possibility. Theoretically the likes of dahmer and bundy could be put into that category (tho we'll never know for sure but i digress) so yes people who weren't abused or didnt go through major trauma can STILL commit heinous acts.

BUT i still think, for the sake of storytelling and character flavour, that it is infinitely better to say (this is fuckin fnaf lore we STILL dont have a clear answer of who was first nd i've seen many ppl who have diff interpretations when it comes to details cuz duh😑) that evan died FIRST and that was the beginning of william's downward spiral. Just imagine, an already unhealthy mind having to process such immense amounts of agony and grief. It's only logical he'll eventually snap and do something awful. And that only makes his folllowing actions all the more impactful and infinitely more fucked up.

I wont dive rn into the backstory of william that i made and how everything clicks into place when adding up the already known fnaf lore, but just the mere fact that he already by no means was a "good" person and suffered from untreated mental illness and then one of his OWN kids kills ANOTHER ONE OF HIS OWN like. USING HIS OWN CREATION. Can you imagine. That ultimately would make his already egotistical ass think "wow! life fucking sucks and if i cant have shit then no one will!" and thats precisely why he kills charlie afterwards, making her his first victim ever. And that was the only non premeditated murder bc it was done completely on impulse, he saw a chance and took it after henry berated him for his erratic behavior that resulted from evan's death bc it was causing up trouble at work and in their business relationship, so mans simply drove away angrily, saw charlie conveniently locked out of the restaurant and did it in a sick act of revenge that held nothing but pure pent up rage. And after he saw that he could even get away with killing his best friend's kid, he wanted to see just how much he could push it. This also makes sense when u think of when henry says "a wound first inflicted on me" at the end of fnaf 6 bc it implies charlie really being william's first murder and a personal one at that.

AND i have to say i also completely disagree with the whole william offed his wife and yeeted her into ballora theory. Not only would it throw more suspicion on william cuz at this point he had 6 victims and ppl deadass KNEW it was him, but i firmly believe mrs afton skeddadled sometime before elizabeth died. His fuckin marriage fell apart alongside everything else following evan's death in 1983. I believe ballora (just like how circus baby was modeled after elizabeth) was made as an homage to his wife and because it was clear the only family member he felt badly about was michael for obvious reasons. In my mind william always goes for victims he isn't emotionally involved with and actively avoids killing close ones (the only exception to the rule being charlie bc 1. it was done entirely on impulse and i believe its the only crime he regretted at least in the moment and 2. i dont think he was necessarily emotionally involved w charlie despite obvs knowing her, if anything i'd argue HENRY is more emotionally involved w william's kids bc he's a much more mentally healthy person than he is) a.k.a the double life serial killer if u will (think keith jesperson) like he literally cared abt his family in his own weird ass ways, he never wanted evan or ELIZABETH to die.

#t shirt that says under no circumstances should you ask me about william afton #.txt #mine #fnaf #he is just so silly. so goofy i have so much to say abt him. #rotating his fucked up psyche inside my mind like one of those 3d digital models on interactive screens at museums💜💜💜 #like idk if yall realize how FUCKED this is henry was one of the last remaining ppl in his life and when he just u cant be here leave lol #mf SNAPPED

[n0ct0urn1quet]

fandom ask s war kitties 1, 8, 14, 16, 18

answering this made me realize that i dont remember much about actual wc lore. ive been so focused on my own stories n characters that i was like oh yeah. warrior cats isnt my own made up creation and it already has canon established charcaters and stories . yeah <3 PLUS ALSO IT MADE ME REalize i barely know anything about the series from thr 5th series onward. like i know and have read every book from series 1-3, read 4/6 books i the 4th series, and i havent read the 5th, 6th, or 7th series. BUT i did read the first book in the 8th series annnnnd i liked it a lot so :) but yeah i dont really know much about series 5-7 but from what ive heard and seen n from what ive seen in videos the 5th series is good, the 6th series is okay and the first half of the 7th series is fine but it gets worse after book 3 KJSDKJBLKJG

1. What originally drew me to it

well. i was at the library in like 4th grade (maybe 3rd i genuinely dont remember) and i saw the cover for fire and ice (the 2nd book in the 1st series) and i waslike omg thasa kitty !!!!!!! and i read it and i aws like "WAW I NEED TO READ MORE I LOVE THESE FUCKED UP CATS HHOOOHGH WHATS GONNA HAPPEN TO GRAYSTRIPE AND FIREHEART HOUOUHG???!??!" n then i went back read the first book and after that i just. yeah <333

8. The character with the greatest wasted/unexplored potential

like. every single background character in thunderclan. because think about it so many of them could be interesting and have interesting stories and potential to do stuff but sooooo many cats are juts. wasted potential. i think hollytuft, one of lionblaze's and cinderheart's kits, could have had so much potential. SHE could've gotten flamepaw's arc of not living up to everyones expectations. hollytuft is named after lionblaze's dead sister hollyleaf and i feel like flamepaw's whole arc of being liek "ugh ive never even MET firestar and hes this IMPORTANT LEADER GUY and he's my GREAT GRANDFATHER and i look NOTHING LIKE HIM!!!!" could have and should have been given to hollytuft. hollytuft never met hollyleaf but with hollytuft her design looks exactly like hollyleaf, black fur n green eyes. something could have been done with that, with her being liek "ohhh im nervous because my dad wants me to live up to my aunt hollyleaf's name but ouhghg i feel like im not good neough because im juts a nobody im not special like she was !!!" and aughudgbhj. even her siblings fernsong and sorrelstripe could have had a similar arc to hers as they're both named after other cats, ferncloud and sorreltail who are also both deceased. but noOOOOo they gave what could have been an interesting story to Firestar Clone #4 and not her </333

14. The character/story arc I find the most compelling

i really really really like frostpaw's arc so far. idk if that rly counts bc arc 8 isnt finished yet and book 2 isnt even OUT yet so all we have to go off of is what was shown in book 1 but so far im just IN LOVE with her. poor thing was like "im gonna be a medicine cat apprentice!!!!!" and suddenly had to deal with her leader dying, their deputy being mysteriously murdered, and then her own mother bein mauled to death in front of her by DOGS. on top of that her mentor, her mediicne cat mentor, DOESNT BELIEVE IN STARCLAN and thats like a HUGE THING because a med cat is , yknow, supposed to be connected To Starclan n is supposed to get prophecies n stuff from them but mothwing, frostpaw's mentor, doesnt. believe in starclan. so its just. yeah! its very very interesting so far

16. A scene/moment that makes me really emotional every single time

there's. i think these few extra chapters in one of the books that comes after squirrelflight's hope, where leafpool dies. and its these few like bonus chapters about jayfeather (leafpool's son) and his own grief and him trying so hard to deny that he's grieving and then being visited by leafpool from starclan and just LOSING IT and its so ?? heart wrenching??? and afterwards he's like "actually no. it is okay 2 grieve . i am going to be okay" AND IM JUTS LIKE AWAHHAHAAAHAAAA <:( <:( <:(

18. A plot hole that makes me want to tear my hair out

theres so many. thers so many plot holes and inconsistencies in warrior cats that id be here all night if i had to name them all . but i suppose ill give a list of the ones i hate very very very VERY much :

i feel like every single Thing about starclan/the dark forest is just. a plot hole. in the prophecies begin and i think the new prophecy the dark forest is supposed to be a place where every Evil Cat goes and spends the rest of their life in solitude and they dont speak to any other dark forest resident. they can still talk to living cats through dreams but thats about it. but then fuckin idk in the 4th series theyre like "uhhh yeah hawkfrost tigerstar and brokenstar and every other dark forest warrior are able to communicate with each other which shouldnt be. like. possible! but oh well <3 same with starclan bc its like sometimes they can do certain things and then in other books theyre like "umm actually we cant do that" so its like . H

every single parent/kit plot hole/inconsistency. theres so many cats who we dont know the fathers/mothers of (though its more often than not the fathers who are unknown) and that on its own is to be expected, esp in super editions or in the early series. we to this day still have no idea who sandstorm's parents are. we don't know who ashfur/ferncloud's father is. we dont know who cloudtail's father is. we dont know a lot of things! but something that bothers me is when the warrior cats family tree tries to say that this cat is so-and-so's father especially when said cat is absolutely not the kit's father. like with whitestorm and brindleface, whitestorm is said to be brindleface's mate and therefore ferncloud and ashfur's mate. but whitestorm was already mates with willowpelt at the same time as he was supposedly mates with brindle, and whitestorm is absolutely not the type of person to have a mate, have kits with said mate, and then instantly move on to another cat while his kits are still in the nursery. whitestorm is loyal and by all means a good father to his Actual kits, sorrelkit rainkit and sootkit. and then the wc family tree also suggested that redtail and brindleface (yes, the same brindleface who's suppsoedly also mates with whitestorm) are the parents of sandstorm despte sandstorm during the 1st series not participating in either of their funerals. plus if you make sandstorm brindleface's daughter you make ashfur her brother and you make squirrelflight' sandstorm's daughter, ashfur's niece. and thats REAL bad when the whole ashfur having a thing for squirrelflight happens. yikes!

thats really it those are all the things i can think of. ik its only 2 things but . oh well DBJHBJKG

#thank u for the ask <3 yippee!!!!!