#just a post to get it off my mind today

[smashwolfen]

Bit late for posting for most but y'all have a good Father's day if you got a dad, or are a dad, or even just have a grandad!

Or if you, don't have a dad or have lost your dad one way or another, then simply enjoy the day with family if you feel like it.

Just know today can either be a special day, or just any other day and that it's alright to think so.

So happy fathers day, and if its not that day for you, then I hope you have a good day in the end

#fathers day #this is just more or less #just a post to get it off my mind today #its my first one without my dad and its rough #mostly this is what im telling myself and i know maybe someone else who kight see this might need to hear it too #love your dad while you can aight guys? #have a good day regardless

[beeduoo]

will he burn down the kitchen

#SORRY THIS ISNT FULLT SHADED Guys it is so late this daily post grind is serious #cranboo #cranboo fanart #went to the park today lots of fun....CRAZY WIND THOUGH Omfg i wouldn't mind if it didn't RUIN MY HAIRRR #it gets so flat i have really loose curls so literally anything disturbs them and ougghh its like i just spent an hour finger waving(? ever #strand Whyyyy whatever i tried to not let that get to me i enjoyed the sun.... #i tried to braid a blade of grass it Kind of worked idk i posyed a pic on twitter oohhh it was so nice out today i was just Sat on the gras #enjoying the sun #i got this skirt at altard state the other day ACTUSLLY KTS A SHORT but like its Layered so it looks like a skirt kind of hold on #altard state raleigh layered lace shorts OUGGHH so cute so COMFROTABLE omg i wore the #m to school on friday everyone lovveddd them i lovr high school everyone is so nice to me #Tomorrow it will be 77 degrees im so excited imma take the train to school there is no way imma b sitting on that bus.... #drawing for tommroow ummmm maube Omg based off the poll imma do a follow up that sounds fun yesssss #Ok i love u guys good night

[girldewar]

thinkin about the deweys . as always

#there is this trend i have noticed within myself #where whenever it hits finals season i want to avoid doing my finals so so so bad #that i just start coming up with the most unhinged depressing fic concepts ever known by man #today's is a post-trade queer isolation fic centered on the way things weren't perfect in minnesota not by far #but at least connor was a little sure -- a bit mind you nothing crazy or anything #but a little sure that if his teammates didn't already know what was going on with brandon they'd just accepted a certain level of #Weirdness #that gave them a pretty long leash re: what they could get away with without being noticed or ostracized #but now he's on the leafs and he's running into all these new issues he never had to worry about before #they want to know why he's on his phone all the time. they want to know if he has a girlfriend. they want to know about brandon #but not like that of course why would they have any reason to think it was like that. and even if they did think it was like that -- #connor has enough to worry about already without being on sheldon keefe's or auston matthews' or whoever's shitlist for being queer #or for that matter the toronto media's shitlist. and to top it all off he and brandon aren't even in the same country anymore. #not even in the same CONFERENCE #fuck. #bees speaks #ok bye im gonna go stare at this stupid poem for a while #rpf talk #2126

[rapidhighway]

ngl i had a couple rough days regarding my food intake and im just losing my fucking mind rn

#im trying to be sooo normal about food but good lord the food noise is absolutely insane rn #and it doesnt help that im not in the mood for any activities that would take my mind off this or that i was #eating absolutely horribly yesterday AUUARHF #well at least i dont feel sick and its super hard to eat normally rn #not even craving anything really badly rn i just have food noise on the highest possible setting and its impossible to determine if im #actually hungry or if my broken brain is just begging me for the food it wants #TOT #so yyyeah kinda rough and im not in high spirits overall either so its just. hard #not having much fun drawing or writing today either and i just keep getting pulled back in to thinking about the food goddaminnttt #ok um #vent #lmaoo #cw food #food mention #cw binge eating #byee <3 #um welcome to my diary i guess i just need to write these posts i always feel so much better when i do xd

[spocks-kaathyra]

lecture doodle #2 Nal again but as a kiddo. get ready for an absolute onslaught of 3/4 view busts facing left in the future fjdjfdk it's literally all I draw when I'm absentmindedly doodling

just wanted to put em next to each other. look at my girl growing up :')

#what if I post one every day w a little diary entry in the tags. not actually asking anyone's opinion it's my blog I post whatever I want #THREE social humiliations in a row today I wanna cry. any one of them alone I could've brushed off but one after another......... #whatever whatever it's fine. brush urself off get up keep moving. it's all quite inconsequential really #anyway. required course mind-numbingly boring as expected. excited for first linguistics class tmrw. NOT excited to wake up at 8am #so much going on all the time and zero privacy so no space to process anything :') just gonna talk into the void here instead lol #narcissus's echoes #narcissus draws #pythasposting #asit #nal dejar #a stitch in time #ds9

[townslore]

i feel like. goro's revenge plan being stupid as shit actually makes him way more real and just literally SHOWS that he's still young and he made that plan when he was 15

so like i kinda hate it when people criticize him for making a stupid plan as in like. "its a flaw" like. no. no its not

he was a 15 year old whos bitter and angry at his father and the world for abandoning him just for being born, and at a time where he most needed the support. his mother killed herself probably before he even turned 10 years old and people are out there saying his plan makes no sense and that suddenly makes it a flaw of his character ... like yea! it makes no sense! he was a child and literally has a persona called robin hood along with princely hero attire to represent the childhood he got robbed off, yet desperately wanting to steal it back

plus, even if he realized at some point how stupid it is (which he.. kinda didnt, judging by what cognitive akechi says) he was committed. this was literally his entire reason to stay alive, even if it meant for him to die after it was fulfilled.

#goro akechi #sorry i feel like im posting so much in the tags today but #im in bed going through excruciating pain and it is not fun and i just need something to get my mind off of things #(someone help) #nothing that happened now triggered this post btw #i just had it on my mind for a while #like reminiscing back on how i started out last year in this fandom i saw a lot of takes like the one i mentioned #just typical goro hate but yknow #i can still say things i wanna adress

[fitzselfships]

Who would've thought that being exposed to one of your triggers (that you only recently found out is a trigger) on a daily basis would be bad for your mental health. Save me f/os </3

#negative #mutual who I'm terrified of cutting off is posting about nothing but h/azbin h/otel #< the mutual isn't anyone here btw #but. I'm terrified of bringing this up with her #since she like. really seems tk not be okay with people who hate v/ivziepop or her work :( #I can't even go on twitter anymore since I keep getting hazbinhotel jumpscared #it's literally my entire tl right now even though I have everything related to it muted #I have had tk block so many peo0le today just to try to rpevent it from popping up #I feel so stupid that some show has become a trigger for me #just. finding out about that sa scene has made it so every time I see anything hazbin hotel related #I start getting intense flashbacks to my csa trauma :( #honestly at this point I think viziepop herself is a trigger for me #seeing her art brings back these memories too #you can call me stupid or sensitive or whatever but i literallt have no control ocer this #I didn't want this to happen. I didn't want some stupid cartoon to become a massive trigger for me #but it happened anyway #sorry for rambling like this lol #this has just been on my mind forever now #it's been almost 2 months now and I'm just. exhausted #csa mention #< in the tags

[doctapuella]

i was so proud of myself for not crying at all yesterday (anniversary of my mom dying) but wow today one call from my grandpa is all it takes!!!!!!

#we sent some pictures because thats a nice thing to do #he immediately yells at me and wants to know why theres not any of me #'youre ashamed of yourself' #i mean yeah but thats not his fucking business #and hey im not gonna bother applying to any more jobs because he informed me ill never get one!!! #ill be fine i just needed to vent #i just cried so hard i feel like im gonna be sick so i gotta go do something to get my mind off of it #sigh #im realizing now that the post makes it sound like today im crying about my mom #i am not #im crying because im 37 and my apparently immortal grandfather is always a fucking asshole to me

[shikai-the-storyteller]

I know Quackity said "Don't stress if you can't watch every single POV and if you don't know all the lore" and all that, but it genuinely frustrates me so much that I cannot, realistically, know every single detail of the QSMP storyline. Even trying to just focus on the "main" story isn't possible since so many people are doing things tied to it, and so many unexpected things happen.

I don't really have a point to make with this post, I'm just venting my frustrations. I like knowing complete stories and knowing I can't do that with QSMP frustrates me so much.

#i talk #qsmp talk #I also dont like that it takes 4+ hours to get 30m worth of the story #I'm realizing more and more that I'm just not cut out for long-form SMP storytelling through streaming #I've been under a lot of stress lately and I was watching stream to kinda take my mind off things #and realizing I've missed so much just kinda pushed that frustration over the edge a bit #I'm not actually a huge fan of the twitter updates and the ''summary of today'' thing the update accounts do #it's not that it's not helpful— it just doesnt mesh with my ability to absorb info #by which I mean reading twitter threads to catch up on lore makes me feel like I'm dying #I like the lore recap video they posted recently and I'd love to see more of that #especially since it's short and easy to digest #but it still leaves a lot out #idk like I said there's no real point to this post I'm just very frustrated #both in general and in terms of story consumption #(for the record: this is just a me problem and I'm not about to start demanding the server change or anything) #I just need to start consuming more short contained stories I think #just a bit stuck on QSMP because the dtory is really interesting to me #I also think I need to drop the archive it eats up too much time and energy #as helpful as it is for my own records and others' its just not realistic #especially with all the new people who are being added #a few of whom I just straight up dont plan on watching

[77ngiez]

stalker sanya is canon btw bcs i said so

#yeah watch out for beletsky and kazarina.. beletsky has a lot of talent and kazarina has a lot of #connections.... #send post #77ngiez.txt #hir and yura both become stalkers as adults & theyre both very damn good at it #they typically work together #ppl find them kind of scary theyre like and so whenever they come into contact with stalkers that they havent met the other stalkers r like #actually sooooo chill. unless u piss one or both of them off. then there will be hell 2 pay #sanya and yura r in a super cool unlabeled aro4aro bpd4bpd relationship btw and they dont rlly care what other ppl think so there r ppl out #there convinced that theyre dating and others convinced that theyre just work partners and others convinced that theyre family of some sort #oh also by the time they rise up the ranks of stalker fame both of their eggs have cracked so yura uses he/she and the names yura and yulya #interchangably and is on e and stuff and sanya binds and uses ze/hir but they also dont rlly care abt strangers perceptions of their gender #so at the end of every day they get home and have silly convos like “i got pegged as a cis guy by the grocery store cashier today” “yeah i #ropped by andreis to drop smth off and his mom was very confused about whether to call me sir or maam" #oh theyre both training this kid [my occc :333] andrei to become a stalker [bcs he begged them so so nicely] #sorry this sounds insane. glimpse into my sick and twisted mind ig

[tomaturtles]

Oc brushtest doodles :)

#rotating alyssa sooo hard on my mind... wonder if ill get around to putting her on art fight this year #those brush names aren't the actual names btw! feel free to ask if you want any of em #itll be a week or so til i can reply tho. laptop's dead #i was trying to post evangelion art but it kept not showing up in the tags 😑 if this one does ill try that one again #alyssa the fox #sabrina amaryllis #amelia amaryllis #yarrow watts #lilly watts #toma ocs #toma draws #OH YEAH also i think froggy pencil is in fact named froggy pencil. been loving that one for coloring #[edit] HUH i can't see this one in the tags either. tumblr just hates me today i think #not that it matters for this one though since it's just my own tags ill just try posting the eva one tomorrow. annoying but oh well #*laptop's dead so i can't use csp for a while. just saw that got cut off oops

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 3

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Not too much, stomach kind of upset today and my chest muscle aches/shoulders/etc. are still too irritated for like typing a lot or anything.. grr... At least it was less hot than yesterday, still not feeling great symptoms wise though.

Worked on painting the tapestry thing and getting more of the basic design down. Still don't have the Avirrekava text fully translated.

Recorded another sims episode for the let's play series on my games/side youtube channel because I just realized that I definitely won't be able to in the summer since it gets so hot in my apartment that my computer runs hotter too and I can't even play games lol, so I should get a few recordings out of the way as a backlog before it gets warm. I'm always so caught in the bliss of winter (favorite season, best season, ultimate season) that summer kind of sneaks up on me and I have a moment of realization like "OH gOds I only have like one month to get a bunch of things done that are way harder for me to do in the heat!!'' , and then scramble lol..

Wrote down a script for calling a few doctors.

Thought more about the religions and other cultural systems that exist in certain elven cities in the south, where the story I mentioned in the first Daily Log takes place. Drew the basic sketch of an outfit for one of their primary religious figures (kind of like priest robes?).

Put together a load of clothes but didn't actually wash them because by that point I didn't feel good, but at least I have them out for tomorrow lol.. hashtag ultimate productivity win

Notable sights: Found 19 four leaf clovers and 1 six leaf clover that's actually kind of a double clover? Like there's a clear spot on the stem where it's two 3 leaf clovers not entirely all the way merged. Saw 4 cats in windows, one cat actually outside roaming, and a rabbit in a tennis field. There was also a pile of rocks outside that was very nice, resisted the urge to pick one up and take it home for my rock collection. Watching a show about tudor monastery farms and there was a sheep on there that looked round and funny.

Goals moving forward: Same as yesterday basically lol.. especially post the poll adventure thing that has been sitting in a draft for weeks (I thought I would get it done today, but alas.. I don't even have to do much, just proofread and post it, I just keep having no energy/being preoccupied with other things/hurts to be on computer.. grrr.. I want to continue the story >:T.. for the second day in a row, nothing has changed lol..).

Notable foods: Not much of interest, but had salmon, my favorite fish. Also had a chia seed fruit snack sort of thing which was in a squeezy pouch, and I love anything in that sort of packaging so, very fun.

Really craving spicy udon, chicken wings for some reason (which I don't even like that much), and something like lasagna?? I'm probably vitamin deficient again from my weird diet and it's making me yearn for hearty savory foods.. evil... chronic anemia cravings lol..

#just posting these publicly since it feels more like I'm doing something or easier to hold yourself accountable if you make public #declarations of goals and progress or etc. .. perhaps.. for now.. #It's clover finding season apparently #so many good patches of clovers with lots of mutuation in them. Most of the 19 I found today were right next to each other spread among jus #t a few groupings of clovers. I think it runs genetically or something - so if you find one you're much more likely to find another #somewhere closeby. Or at least this is what I have found as someone who has like 150+ special clovers collected #I also really need to bleach my hair again before the summer but that's such a process... #I'll probably have to bleach it two more times to even get it light enough to dye it so. It's just like.. I wish I could have it done #all at once. I think anything that has to be done over multiple days makes me able to put it off more in my mind. #Actually just so so so so many things to do and it always feels like no time to do them..... AUghhhhhGG *collapses to my knees #in the rain like a dramatic character in a movie. wisps of rain soaked hair cloaking my face as my fancy velvet cape billows #in the stormwinds behind me. after a few moments you realize I'm also eating a little square of cheese whilst I sob #but am trying to hide it behind the hair that is flopped in my face and fumbling bc my evil vampire claws are too long* #ANYWAY #daily log

[fiepige]

CHAPTER 4!!!

Summary:

“HOLY SH-” Miles and Gwen simultaneously turned to cover Pav’s mouth so as to not alert the creature in the middle of the carnage below them. The creature either didn’t hear him or it was too preoccupied with whatever it was doing. To his regret Miles soon realized what that was, as another wet snapping noise broke the silence once more. The creature was crouched down on all fours over what Miles assumed was the body of an officer, though it was so mutilated that it was hard to tell for sure. Its head was buried into the chest of the body beneath it, another wet snapping noise emerging as it pulled out a couple of ribs between its bloodied jaws... Or The Spider-Gang goes looking for Hobie. They don’t like what they find.

Chapter 4 of my Venom!Hobie fic is here! 💜💜💜

#first time we get hobie's pov in this fic!!!! #Decided to split this chapter into two parts so this chapter is a bit short #but at least it's out sooner this way #I just felt like it fir the tone better to end this chapter here #honestly writing hobie is what I dreaded the most about this fic (after my grammar that is) #cause I've seen so many people complain about how people write him #but once again I'll only get better if I practice and get input if I did anything wrong so here goes nothing #I really dreaded editing this chapter but it went much smoother than I thought so I'm happy about that #I just wonder if I'm being too vague/not vague enough about how the symbiote is affecting his mind! #cause in my mind it's all perfectly clear but that doen't ensure it's clear in my writing lol #hopefully people will let me know if something doesn't make sense so I can elaborate on it <3 #it's once again way past midnight as I post this so I'm off to bed now lol #I'm so tired but I wanted to post this chapter today so here you are <3 #hobie brown #spider punk #Venom!Hobie #miles morales #spider man #gwen stacy #spider gwen #pavitr prabhakar #spider man india #across the spider verse #atsv #spiderverse #across the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse #my fic #my post

[ectoplasmer]

two years. Where do I even start with this

I'm not going to try to act like these characters have been with me through some super hard part of my life within the past two years, because they haven't. I've had a normal life with nothing too big happening that completely disrupts me from my day-to-day experiences in the last few years. But I'm not going to let that fact invalidate all the smaller and tinier stresses and spirals they've helped me through. And believe me, I have a lot of those.

They have been there for the mornings when I'd wake up too early and be unable to fall back asleep, the afternoons I spent poring over essays I could've started days ago, the nights I spent stubbornly staying up much too late. They've been there for each silly overthinking session I had, for each nervous ache I got, each stumbled and rushed phrase I spoke. They've been there for when I would be nervous to walk into some crowded aisle in the store, when I would pace around the room because something had gotten me worked up, when I would get so many emotions over something and tear up over it. Every new habit, every new interest, every little victory and small loss... they've been there with me through it for the past two years. And I really don't know how to voice how new and different this is for me.

I don't usually hold onto interests for this long. I'll get into something and it'll occupy my mind for maybe eight months until something else grabs my attention and I move on to the next thing. Any past f/os I had wouldn't stick around this long. Sure, I'd still love the character, I'd still see them as my favorite character from their series, but they wouldn't move on with me to the next interest. And while I will admit that I have loved all of my f/os, current and past, very deeply, none of them seem to really compare to the love I have for my boys now. I remember being so nervous to get into something new because I was worried that I'd lose interest, that the feelings I have for them would be replaced with something that feels lesser and less fulfilling. It sounds silly when I type it out, but it was genuinely something I was afraid of. I didn't think I could ever love anyone the way I love them, and to an extent, I still feel this way.

But, geez, if they were to follow that usual formula, they are a whole 16 months late. And guess what? I have gotten into other things, picked up other shows, other books, and they are still here. I still love them, they still occupy my mind all too much, I still think about them. This silly series still has me in a choke hold after two years and I genuinely don't think it's going away for a while yet. I was literally smiling like an idiot over some cards that reminded me of them earlier, got happy over seeing a picture of one of them unprompted the other day... I'm still so in love with them and I truly hope that doesn't end any time soon <3

It feels so nice to be able to get into things with all of them. It's nice having someone to watch and read things with and getting to imagine how they'd react over things, what things we could discuss and joke over, what specific things would interest them more than others... A lot of our time when we first got together was spent watching movies because I was overly aware of the fact most of them probably didn't get to experience the life I did. They didn't get the chance to have the childhood I had, be it because of the fact they're not even from this century, or because of the circumstances of how they were brought up. I make an effort to try and include them in everything I do, consciously or not, because I want them to be able to have the chance to experience as many things as possible. I even think about them being there with me during classes, as silly as that sounds, so it's been extra fun being able to genuinely get into things with them beside me without worrying about losing them or whatever.

I'm sure I've been over this before, but I've never been this involved with my f/os before. Like I said, I genuinely did love all of my past ones, but that love feels so much more indirect than the love I have for my current f/os. I don't think I've ever referred to a character as my "boyfriend" or my "partner" as casually as I do for my boys. I don't remember using the term "love of my life" for anyone else as often as I do for my boys. I don't even remember being caught up thinking about how much I want to marry a character as much as I have for my boys. This all feels so much more serious for me because of that. So much newer and unknown and just... baffling? In a way? It feels like so much more than anything else from before. As cliche and silly as it might be, I genuinely think they are the loves of my life. I don't know where I'd even be without them. I don't know who or what else could possibly take up this much space in my life, in my brain, in my heart. I just... I love them so much. And I've gotten to do that for two full years. And that's so insane to me.

I've loved getting to go to sleep at the end of my day and getting to imagine them holding me and sharing my bed with me, I've loved getting to go through whatever routines I have and imagining them going through their own beside me, I've loved getting to sit while doing my own thing and imagining them there with me. I've loved getting to have them in my life, I've loved getting to be all giddy and happy over them, and I've loved getting to love them. One year was insane enough for me, but two years is just so much more. I think with every year it'll just be as baffling as the last for me. And I'm not saying this with the usual sense of "if we make it another year", because by this point I'm not putting anything past them. I think I probably will be here again next year writing a post at an ungodly time of night just like I am now. That won't stop me from being so blown away each time.

so here’s to two years of me and these dorks. I’m already excited to see where the next one will take us <3

#🫐 ; anniversary tag #quartzshipping #self ship #it’s so late agdjd i’m gonna queue this post for later in the morning because i don’t think i’ll be up for a while #i’m. jeez. this is still so much for me #i have a few other posts in mind for today since i cut out some things from this one #i thought it made it a bit cluttered and took away from the overall message of this post #which is that these idiots are so much more different than any other character i’ve loved #so expect more posts later :) #i love them a lot. i don’t know how to thank them for being in my life this long other than just. pouring out my feelings about them every- #-chance i get apparently lol #oh right!! did i ever explain why i chose quartzshipping as the name #first off it’s because rose quartz is my favorite gemstone so why not #secondly quartz is generally used for balancing and healing in spirituality #it cleanses things and brings growth and stuff like that. i’m not generally super spiritual but info like that is still interesting to me #i think all of us could use some balancing and healing and growing. and we’re doing that together <3

[reikunrei]

tbh i feel like if i had to pick a single standout performance out of everyone in stranger things... it would probably be gaten matarazzo. like, i feel like he very consistently gets scenes so perfect and so genuine, while other charas always have at least one scene where i go “eh, that didn’t feel like the best take they could have used.” not with gaten. he is, as dustin would say, right on the money every time

#every now and then the post i made abt sadie sink's performance gets a few more notes #and while i do think that she did a fuckawesome job in s4 #it mostly stands out bc she had to do a lot of really heavy stuff and was the focus of the season #but man. gaten is just so fucking good #i feel like the only scene i can think of where i feel like his performance was off #would be when theyre talking w eddie in the boathouse and he's like. explaining who vecna is #like it feels a little Too dramatic but. it's still like. good. just not my personal taste maybe?? idk #i feel like the dramatic moments in this show are like a balancing act on a knife's edge #sometimes they work perfectly and other times im like okay this just feels silly and dumb #but. gaten still makes it work most of the time when dustin is involved #idk. anyway. i was just thinking about that today #like. im gonna start rewatching the show this weekend/this week #and i wanna pay attention to him and see if any moment stands out as being like a poor performance #bc i really can't think of anything off the top of my head... but for a lot of other charas i immediately can #i say all of this as if i know ANYTHING about acting hsjdfklg DONT MIND ME #now im go to bed for real i think... #i say things #gaten matarazzo #dustin henderson #stranger things

[pepprs]

crying again lol ok

#purrs #and posting online abt it so i get immediate validation / support instead of asking for help from anyone im close to i know. but god fucking #damn it to hell. ok im going to be candid about this because it hurts so fucking bad. five years ago i met someone so important to me. and I #miss her so so so so much. and every space here i have a memory with her in. and she left in July and she’s gone. and im sobbing my eyes out #FOR WHY because it was over 6 months ago and im happier and she’s happier and we’re all happier. but i think im getting some aftershocks #being here for the first time without her exactly 5 years to the week we met: when she was so important to me. she was the whole reason i #even saw myself as something. and she’s fucking gone. she left. but she’s not dead like LMAO idk why im crying so hard when i could just #text her any time and tell her that i miss her. but idk. it’s just everything is stirring memories and they’re painful to think about now or #at least today because she’s gone and it all changed. i was just saying that i feel like im not having any emotions and tonight the grief ju #just rammed into me like a train and my fucking counselor sucks ass and won’t even help me work through it and everyone is busy and tired an #and im a staff coach so im not supposed to be having a fuckjng mental breakdown over **** pacing around in my bathroom at 1:23am but ive be #been thinking about her so much and remembering all the formative interactions i had with her here and missing her so much i want to explode #and die and p*ke and whatever. so stupid to cry about it but i fucking miss her. and i hate that she’s not here. and i’m trying so hard to b #be her but i have to be me but i can’t not have what she brought here and im just crashi ng and burning and can’t be honest and im having a #breakdown and crying so hard and i don’t know what to do. i ithink i’ll be fine after some sleep and reflection but my heart is like seizing #on itself right now and nothing takes my mind off it and i just keep crying LMFAOOOOOO. i hate it here #delete later #like how can you look at me like that and then fuck off to ****** 4.5 years later. you know? im about to punch a hole into the hallway #and i have to be quiet bc ppl are trying to sleep but it’s making me fucking crazy. #retreat tag