#just an irl thing for me no worries !

[passiveaggressiveturkeys]

To me supernatural isn’t a show but a tumblr event that appears every few months, pops off some great memes and then disappears back into the abyss

#supernatural #spn #misha collins #I nearly started the show like a decade ago but couldn’t find it on anything #and just straight up was too lazy to pirate #anyways now it’s just the tumblr thing to me #at this point if anyone irl started talking about this well I’m worried I’d forget it is still technically a show

[wyllaztopia]

will take an indefinite hiatus on posting for a while on all my socials and blogs. i need some time to sort things behind the scenes (like the docs and other projects relating to agdt) as well as irl stuff i need to get to.

don't worry! you can still tag me or message me if you have any concerns and questions and i'll get to them when i can.

thank you for the support and patience! i hope to give you all more high-quality content when i post again <3

#wyllaztopia rambles #just so i don't worry people when i don't post for like a week #things have been a bit hectic irl for me too #nothing concerning or heavy #just stuff to do ya know?

[pkmncenterguy]

Power Seal?

what's that?

Ever wonder why you hear ancient stories about wild raging tyranitar burning villages to the ground, but in trainer battles on tv, a well trained lycanroc can get hit by a hyper beam from one and still be standing? Type advantage aside, thats thanks to power seals!

A standard diagram of a heal ball here. The blue rim, in different colors but in all pokeballs, is where your power seal is. PSA: If you ever notice a crack in that, GO TO YOUR NEAREST POKEMON CENTER IMMEDIATELY! Trade machines can exchange the same pokemon to another empty pokeball, and if you tell a nurse joy its because the seal is broken they’ll transfer your pokemon to a new pokeball for free

But anyway, power seals do exactly what it sounds like: they limit the power of a pokemon’s moves, so that in battles you can only ever knock out your opponents pokemon, and that a trainer’s togedemaru shocking you on accident wont literally kill you. Some people forget because they grow up around pokemon owned by trainers, but wild pokemon are way stronger than we give them credit for. Seriously, we don’t tell kids to avoid the tall grass for nothing. A power seal on your pokeball breaking means your pokemon is suddenly at its full power and very likely to actually hurt other pokemon in battles, so you need to get the pokeball replaced immediately

And if it worries you, pretty much all wild pokemon are aware that being caught means their power being limited, even if they don’t know exactly how. Thats why even the sweetest wild garchomp you have a bond to likely won’t just agree to be caught, lots of pokemon want a battle before you can catch them because they want you to prove you’re stronger than the power they’d be giving up

#if you listen closely you can hear me go into educator mode #but seriously it does worry me how rare this knowledge is in the general population because its SO important to know #most people are just told ‘if the line on your pokeball ever cracks go get it replaced’ but they dont understand the urgency #its a whole thing and you get treated to me rambling #pokemon irl #rotomblr #pkmn irl #lore #//enjoy: my copious headcanons on why ash can survive getting thunder bolted by pikachu #//and why everyone in pokemon legends arceus is freaking out about how dangerous pokemon are all the time #//professor laventon is afraid of handling a rowlet wrong. clearly theres something we dont know #//btw!! this is free to reblog and use! add ur own stuff have fun w it

[tiny-tf-faces]

I hope this blog is great AI dataset poison. Of course I have 3rd party sharing turned off, but it's not like an AI company is actually gonna listen to that stuff

The majority of generated transformers imagery I've seen is already just blobs of color. Ironically, robots are hard for AI to understand. And here am I, with hundreds of scruched up little (though maybe even too little to be included in a dataset) images, selected specifically for looking weird, all tagged various transformers characters. Just imagine what all those croissant Arcees could do to an image generator!

#not a face #anti ai #random thing i thought of a few days ago but forgot to post until now #i'm sorry i haven't responded to so many people yet #irl stuff has gotten to me and i haven't had the energy to try and get my slow laptop to run tumblr #so i've just been relying on the queue which is actually stocked for once #i'd be lying if i said everything was okay but it's also nothing to be worried about #just one of those 'life happens' situations that was inevitable and a long time coming #ok it's not even a 'situation' really #i knew a sad thing was going to happen and then it happened and now it's over #it's not that bad i promise this has happened to me like 30 times already and i know how to deal with it #and having to deal with it is basically the only consequence #sorry for the 4am trauma dump #i guess messing up my sleep schedule was also a consequence lol

[cinnamon-phrog]

I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :< #i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely- #-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things. #i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly' #i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child. #i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake. #i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life- #will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

[candyheartedchy]

Kinda just want to do a fancomic now about CoralBob instead of the fic.

#the thing about comics is that once I draw out something I can easily think of the next drawing #unlike writing were I’m constantly worried about misspelling or grammar and all that junk #and setting a scene through words #and it’s the constant rewriting that messes me up the most #and I know I need to wrap up my scratchyenne comic but my SB story I been working on for years #like I’m not sure if I’ll make it fully colored or monochromatic sketches type of comic #but DAMN I been thinking about this for awhile now because Coraline is the closest to who I am irl personally wise #and her story means a lot to me #so I’m just trying to decide #because I sorta did an little fancomic of them meeting in the past but I might redo it or scrap it #💬 chy chatter 💬

[bl33ditout]

i HATE my skin. i HATE having a body. i want to go away and just be a ghost

#it's never ever ever ever ever good enough #i fucking hate this plump ass body #i hate how no matter what i do it just doesn't change #i'm STILL getting pimples galore around my fucking mouth and chin area and i just want to give up and cry #i know this might sound really silly to worry about - #i know it's first-world-problems of me to be like this and like don't get me wrong i'm still grateful for a LOT in my life #like a lotta good and positive changes are happening right now irl and it's a wonderful thing #and compared to some people's worries? this issue of mine is minuscule i know #i just feel so disgusting whenever i look into a mirror. that's the truth of it all #nothing seems to work #i just know my body and skin is capable of more than this? i know i can look better but it's like it's so stubborn #it just makes me so mad at myself and depressed #i am practicing ALL of the skincare guidelines. i am on a very restrictive (but healthy) diet and what do i get? nothing #u'm just so fucking tired of looking and feeling mediocre and gross all the fucking time #i hate it i hate it i hate it #all i can see is just every single flaw of mine #tw vent #tw body dysmorphia #tw bdd #tw mental illness

[reputayswift]

Dating sounds sooo scary if you think about it being single forever is great actually

#genuinely #don’t have to deal w meeting a new family don’t have to worry about someone wanting the tv on when I’m trying to sleep #my friends in relationships (all of them) face 20 dilemmas a day #the more I see what it looks like irl the less appealing it becomes to me Ik that sounds cynical but I don’t mean they’re bad relationships #they just require SO much stress and change two of my least favorite things #tays takes

[practically-an-x-man]

Introducing myself with any pronouns

People who keep using she/her: alright fine whatever, most common with cishet/non-queer folks, technically not doing anything wrong but gets annoying when it comes from everyone

People who switch to they/them: most common among queer folks, shows a level of care/attention and recognizes queerness if still defaulting to a strict set of pronouns.

People who use she/they: my favorite so far, mostly my theatre/sfx friends or others who understand deeper queer identities, recognizes that I use more than one set of pronouns though still strangely resistant to masculine terms

People who include he/him, masculine terms: THANK YOU THANK YOU LORD HAVE MERCY FINALLY

#fun fact i've only had one person ever refer to me as 'he' and it was a mutual on here. made me so so happy fr #a few people irl will use masculine terms for me casually. like saying 'thanks man' or things like that #but i've never had someone use he/him for me irl and i don't know why there's such a hangup about it #like do you think i'll get mad at you? i said 'any pronouns' that means you can use he. honestly i'd be thrilled if you did that #i've debated switching to mirror pronouns just to try it out but i worry most people won't know what it means #and when i say any pronouns some queer folks mirror their own pronouns anyway which is cool. so like. the people that WOULD do it already d #queer #lgbtq #lgbtqia #genderqueer #any pronouns

[drewsaturday]

it is always kind of funny, albeit frustrating, to spend years of my life rotating particular characters and ships in my head and still worry that i'm exploring them in ooc ways. lol.

#txt #part of it is reasonable because i do worry projection gets in the way (while at the same time it can also add dimension) #and so i feel like... other people just Get those characters/ships better bc they can look at it more clearly #i also just generally don't know how people work on account of barely interacting with anyone irl and being so inexperienced at life #the other part is just... that it is such a fucking crime to write ooc these days that it's really annoying to have to worry about #obviously i want my faves to feel in-character i want my creations to be enjoyable but also... i don't think it should matter #as much as people make it matter sometimes #and so then all of the above all wrapped together then creates another issue of: people know me as a person who is #obsessed with this character/ship #how embarrassing is it to be known as that person but still write them that badly jl;sldjfklskd #AGAIN IT SHOULDN'T MATTER I SHOULD BE ABLE TO JUST HAVE FUN WITH IT but ough i really... #hate that piece regarding writing #with drawing i can visibly see when a character doesn't look like themselves #but with writing it's so mental and hard to put myself outside of i feel like i'm just reaching around in the dark at all times #and i kinda hate that :| #if it is that much of an issue for me i should rly open myself up to concrit and so forth but y'know #two wolves inside you: wanting to be good at this thing i do for fun vs. also... doing it for fun.... #i guess fandom being so social is what underlines it all as so dire for me #maybe if it were just a piece of writing i flung out into the void rather than attaching it to myself and my personality and fandom presence #it wouldn't feel so life or death lol #oh to be the kind of person that is never active bc they put all their time into creating #they drop one creation a month and say nothing until they drop the next one

[moonchild-in-blue]

Can someone please either validate me or send me to the Corner of Shame? This is very silly but I'm wondering.

So. I was talking to my sister the other day about movies and such, and she told me of one she recently watched with this one actor. And I casually mentioned how much I hated him. Not in a "he's a bad actor" or "he's a bad person" way. Nothing to do with whether I find him attractive or not. Just in a "he looks the most punchable guy on earth and I have this irrational rage against him" way, to the point that I just can't watch movies with him without being annoyed.

My sister looked at me like I was crazy because, "what do you mean you hate the guy". And I told her yeah? That's normal? Don't you have at least one person you can't stand for no reason?

Sister was like 😬😬😬 No??? Which is wild to me, because I could easily name 50 (which I did - not 50 but we were getting close to 20 before i got too annoyed lmao).

Now she thinks I'm slightly insane (/j) (I made myself angry and may have referred to a few individuals as "stupid" and "obnoxious"), and I kinda don't believe I am the only person alive who feels this way. But also she's an incredibly empathetic extrovert, while I'm a very low empath socially anxious creechur so. There's that?? I guess ?? Idk.

Can anyone relate to this? Or am I the weird one?

Also wait. Little disclaimer: I am not generally a violent person AT ALL. Do i get annoyed and angry easily? Yeah. Do I feel like bitch slapping someone right across their stupid face? Yeah, sometimes, sure. Do I do something about it? Not really.

I can be real bitchy and extra sarcastic and petty SURE, but that's the most I'll do if I am legitimately angry. Mostly I just go to my room and cry 🥺 (crying when angry yes it me). So yeah. Before yall think I have unsolved anger issues.

#if you're curious. the guy in question is Thimothée Chalamet #look. from what i've seen he's good at his job and he seems a genuinely nice guy #nothing against him at all like. you go timmy 🙂👍 #i do however have an illogical boiling rage against him #i don't know what it is but i genuinely feel like punching his face everytime he pops up #maybe in another universe we were arch enemies. maybe i was his school bully. maybe HE was my school bully idk #obviously i would never do anything like that but if there's one person that looks like it could use a wedgie is him #and don't get me wrong. i DO feel about about it cus it's not like i'm choosing to be irrationally angry #and this goes for a bunch of other people #i just!!! 😡😡😡 #seeing him (as in his vibe and general presence. nothing to do with physical appearance) #is the equivalent of trying to use cling film while it keeps sticking to itself #you know that one family guy scene with Peter and the cling wrap?? YEAH. THAT. genuinely so annoyed #i've always assumed this was a common thing. as in. there's always at least one person that gets on your nerves for absolutely no reason #but i guess maybe not???? *am* i a hater??? #and btw this ONLY happens with either celebrities (in various degrees) #or people irl i've had some close proximity to <- and in this case it's always justified. i don't generally hate irl people out of nowhere #(okay there is ONE person in specific BUT i do feel slightly justified IMO. and in any case i always make sure to be as nice as possible) #(because poor girl didn't really do nothing wrong. i just have never vibed with her. i tried!! but yeah) #idk where i'm going with this lmao i might just ending up deleting it #whatever. don't worry guys you're all safe i love you very much and wouldn't slap any of you (unless asked you little freaks 👀) #darya talks to herself

[willowfey]

starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal

#the first thing i do when i become conscious is check my phone to make sure nothing terrible happened to anyone i love while i slept #i never ever ever have plans and if anyone Else has plans i feel sick with anxiety until they’re back from them #if i have smth planned that week i feel completely tense and on edge until it happens #i didn’t used to be like this i hate hate hate it #i used to feel safe in my little house in the forest where i knew everyone in town and knew my way around with my eyes shut #it’s still the only place in the world i feel safe. that’s so unfair #my separation anxiety is ridiculous. if my mom goes to the store and doesn’t answer a text right away i start panicking #if my sister goes to a class or smth idk what to do with myself until she gets back #if i’m in the shower or have the fan on or headphones in suddenly i’ll think i hear someone shouting and i’ll have to quickly turn it off #ever since i moved here it’s been getting worse. i don’t feel safe here to begin with i feel so out of place it’s unreal #but then covid and trauma with my mother’s health and my uncle dying and multiple relatives getting sick and things happening to my friends #i know i have ptsd from very specific things that happened and i live on a hospital path so every day i hear sirens #and every time i do it fully triggers an anxiety attack in me for at least an hour. and my mom too #since being here my hometown burned and friends i thought would never grow apart did and my brother moved out #i know a lot of that is just Being In Your Low Twenties but also some of my worst trauma has happened in the last handful of years and now #now i’m just always scared. always uneasy. always worried. never fully relaxed. never feel fully safe. & idk how to be myself through that #i’m always paranoid and i never trust people irl anymore. ppl my mom or sister meet. i am so suspicious of them constantly. #if anything small changes at all i can’t handle it. my ability to deal with change has gone so downhill #in the last 5 years of being here i realised i was autistic which led to me unmasking a bit and that. comes with pros & cons doesn’t it #my own health has declined. my body changed a lot in ways i wasn’t prepared for and i had to get rid of most of my comfort clothes #sometimes i just wanna sit on the ground and cry about it and not have to also be the one that picks myself back up. y’know??? #but at the very least i’d love to just wake up One Day w/o feeling sick with anxiety already. just one day i want to wake up feeling rested #i want to be myself again but can i start with not being scared? not being tired? i don’t know what to do anymore #i just watch my comfort videos and read my comfort fics and stay in my daydream world

[undefeatablesin]

Gone from being artblocked as all Hell and drawing almost nothing to finishing an entire sheet of Ruza + her chikage + new outfit brainstorms AND redoing the next page of Altar. How the turn tables...

#sin scribbles #(this mads mikkelsen image is me irl honestly. it rly is.) #(anyway hi i am released from my mental prison at last i have a bumper harvest of things for u all.........) #(aloysha i love u but it is time to sit down and let Stag Wife show herself) #(i still have leftovers from my previous ruza art batch too but im too shy to post. one of them. LOL) #(but well. YOU WILL HAVE PLENTY TO LOOK AT ANYWAY.) #(no i have not forgotten i wanted 2 celebrate 300 followers i just been kinda waylaid lmao) #(allergies. eyes swelling up. pmd/pms. looking for apartments. U KNO....) #(ill figure smth out dont worry!!!!) #(but for rn i got sketches to clean. im real excited to share.....)

[justablah56]

damn wish I had some friends that I could kiss just bcs I want to know what all the hype is around kissing to see if I actually like it or not :/

#just blahs #i wanna know so bad #but all my irl friends are . yknow . either very aro and are repulsed by the idea kissing #or very *not* aro and not down for kissing someone theyre not actually attracted to #like goddamnit yall i just want to try it :[ #i wanna know if it's actually as disgusting as it looks :[ #bcs what if i actually dont mind it and then dont have to be worried abt trying to actually 'date' someone and the whole kiss thing w that #idk #someone should just come let me kiss them tbh #for science #aromatic #aromanticism #aro #arospec #bellusromantic

[padfootastic]

Day 1 - Prongsfoot Week 2023

massive thanks to the lovely Jen for organising another wonderful event for us!!! you're the best <3

What are the first 5 things that pop to mind when you think about Prongsfoot?

oooh okay, okay, not as easy as u think, this one. because the only thing that pops into mind when i think about pf is like. cacophonous screaming. incoherence. a teenage fangirl running around a room, arms waving madly, mind lost in the obsession. im uh. a bit unhinged for j&s, if u couldnt tell so far lol. but i'll try.

soulmates. in every world, they're connected to each other and they'll find each other. it's a comforting thought precisely because of how tragic canon j/s is.

unattainable. both of individually, and together, are so far out of most people's leagues its not even funny. they're an intimidatingly attractive couple, and they're almost always in the middle of an inside joke that no one else understands. their friendship is inherently exclusionary and it doesnt bother them at all

affectionate beyond belief. gosh they're a public menace. in any decent society, they'd get locked up for obscenity and 'offending sensibilities' and 'outraging the modesty of people' etc etc bc theyre SO all over each other all the time. its a problem.

jigsaw puzzle. they fit like one, filling in each other's cracks perfectly. at any given time, they're what the other needs, and both consciously and subconsciously at that. seeing them together is a treat bc they're so in sync its almost unreal. even...magical, one could say ;)

larger than life. they're not. a real couple ykno? its not a relationship you'd want in reality, nor does it make sense for that to happen. it's fantastical and amazing and not constrained by practical concerns. u dont have to worry yourself with minor issues bc these two are just. *that* intertwined. i dont know how to explain this one properly haha but just know, they're not a relatable couple nor do they try to be.

#sirius black #james potter #prongsfoot #bambibelle #prongsfootweek2023 #i have been. so bad with tumblr and fic and writing these days #i dont even know if i'll be able to do this entire week but by god ill try #someone needs to teach me time management lol #but honestly. any excuse to talk about my two boys is welcome #also: the obscenity thing is mostly a joke #i just find it v funny that outraging the modesty of a woman is an actual legal concept that can get u locked up/fined wtv #like. its the funniest most absurd way to frame harassment/assault/sexual misconduct #also blanked tf out on n. 5 lol like what else do i say bruh #the last point is why im so picky ab my pf #bc the minute u write it like a real life couple im just like eh. not my cup of tea #my fav part of it is how u dont have to worry ab irl concerns w them bc theyre above it all #idk. its just. nice.

[afniel]

Maaaaaaaaaaaan, come on.

(the post has ended up in the tags btw. I am not changing this and I need you to understand that it is just me talking to myself semi-publicly)

#Nevi Writes #things said by a guy writing a thing he doesn't even intend to be writing and it's like 10k of words now. >:[ #while that's true I do want to emphasize that nobody should get excited about it right now tho okay #because like it's just. idk. I feel very much like it could end up not worth pursuing anyway. it's just a little baby wip. #(when the fuck did my little baby wips get to be 1/4-1/2 the length of my previous 'finished' stories!! what the hell) #it just feels nice to make words tho. and it does have that kind of 'ah good to catch up with these guys again' vibe which is nice. #even if the break has once again been like. on the order of days to a week maybe. I'm so bad at this taking a break business suddenly. lel. #but I don't have anything much to say about it at this point #other than I'm debating inventing a reason that presidential elections would have been moved by a couple of years between now and 2212 #what is it with me and having to be so damn precise with dates in this whole narrative. am I just mad that Capcom never tries? #(yes) (so mad) #(and 2212 would actually be an election year is the problem. I want time to have passed but I also want there to be a pres. election.) #(it's fine don't worry about it) #(this is how I decided that Blucifer got bload up and then replaced also. weird reliance on mashing up IRL things and fictional explosions) #(but it's fun isn't it? got that veneer of verisimilitude. I'm good at long words) #idk this is inevitable isn't it. but I'm going to keep playing like it's not. I think I need a little more space for this one mentally. #the first one just sort of fell out of my head fully assembled and the second one did that also but with different vibes #though it did actually take some cutting things and adjusting things to make it work which Failure to Compile did not #Failure to Compile was bizarrely effortless until the mad editing dash. Outcome Unpredictable was WORK #fun work at least! but in hindsight it was definitely more work to make it flow properly. #the real job for the 3th if it happens is gonna be wrapping up threads without dropping new ones in bc that's such a habit of mine now