#last year 😭 ugh anyway i need to fucking do work 😭😭😭

[kuiinncedes]

do i . reach out to a high school friend who i haven't talked to since the end of last semester bc i haven't reached out but she hasn't reached out eitherrrr <3

#i saw her on campus this morning on my way to class and the thing is i had a mask on and glasses that were somewhat transitioned/dark so #it was actually the second time i've seen her on campus the first time i pretended i didn't see her 😭 idk if she saw me but this time #we made eye contact for a couple seconds and then she looked away and that's when i tried to wave/say hi but i don't think she noticed #and idk if she didn't recognize me or if she ignored me on purpose <333 #bc then she also like i think saw a friend or something and started talking to someone else she ran into idk #why am i so shit at this :] lovely #i wanna send her like just hi i think i saw u this morning i would've said hi but i had to get to class #do u wanna meet up maybe i understand if not lol #idk if i should put that part but i rly want to be like it's fine if u want to ignore me or whatever i understand 😭 #but ig if i don't say anything i don't know if she ignored me or if she didn't recognize me #AJDFGDFHGKANGJAKFD anyway . idk #i hate myyyyy brain when it comes to friends <3333333 lovely #jeanne talks #ig like the fact that she hasn't reached out just makes me feel like . she doesn't want to hear from me or whatever idk #but ik that goes the other way too 😭😭 #we were never like close but idk she's just a fucking nice person and at least made it seem like she wanted to hang out w me sometimes 😭 #idk idk i didn't know how to be a person last year lmfao i still don't know how to be a person but i feel like i know a little better than #last year 😭 ugh anyway i need to fucking do work 😭😭😭

[jennilah]

Jenna, can you give us a rundown of who these Saw people are for everyone who follows you but has not seen and will never see the Saw franchise?

ok my beautiful and very accepting followers gather round i am going to try to provide you some basic context to these characters that feature heavily on this blog these days, and i HAVE smoked a bowl of weed already

majorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr fucking series spoilers for anyone who might actually kind of be interested

mkay first of all despite what my blog might lead you to believe, this guy is like. the OG antagonist. the main dude for the whole franchise even when hes not technically present for most plotlines. all of his scenes are baller af

his name is John Kramer and he is the original Jigsaw Killer. He truly believes he can rehabilitate people who dont appreciate their lives (or commit crimes or take advantage of people) by putting them in saw traps. he pretends its not personal but it totally is. hes always putting people he personally beefs with in traps.

hes deeply fucked up but also really fascinating tbh like the whole fun of his character is seeing what reason hes gonna come up with to justify his next atrocity and how he manipulates everyone around him into doing his bidding. hes a mastermind. hes also Peepaw. Peepaw is kind of crazy but we love Peepaw

This is Billy hes a puppet

Billy is good

This is Adam Stanheight everyones favorite dead boy

hes so funny and charming and is also such a sopping wet pathetic sad rat. everyone loves Adam. We love pretending Adam is gonna come back but hes been super dead for years

This is Lawrence Gordon the guy he was stuck in the bathroom with and he does, yes, saw his foot off to free himself from his chain. hes an oncologist

everyone loves shipping him with Adam, thats called Chainshipping and its very cute but also very sad

esp because Lawrence turns to the dark side and becomes an apprentice to Jigsaw and never went back to save Adam like he PROMISED what the FUCK

but also i love Apprentice!Lawrence because of all the nutty implications and what other fun it has given us (such as AUs where Adam lives and even sometimes joins Lawrence as an apprentice himself)

This is Amanda Young she has many,. haircuts

I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER I LOVE HER 😭😭😭😭 Shes an apprentice to Jigsaw and his pseudo adopted daughter and they have such a fucked up and tragic found family with each other.

i love that shes messy and emotional and vengeful and sarcastic and battling personal demons and questioning whether John's "rehabilitation" method really works (aka saw traps) and being unsure if she can take up the mantle when he passes. but he believes in her. and god they make me fucking emotional

this is Lynn Denlon shes a doctor kidnapped to treat John's cancer. and people ship her with Amanda, thats Shotgunshipping. it goes pretty hard tbh

like their scenes go fucking crazy through a shipping lens oh my fucking god. actually they all do tbh thats part of the fun of shipping in this franchise

oh boy big sigh here we go

this is Detective Mark Hoffman who is unfortunately my favorite character and i am REALLy high now. if u ever get confused like MANY of us did, you can recognize him by his bitch lips and/or boobies. ugh im gonna throw up i hate his ass

that last one oh my fucking god

anyway hes actually awful but i love him so much and at first i was scared that i was the only one who did LMAO.. anyway he also gets recruited by Jigsaw as another apprentice when he was in a very dark place, having just killed the murderer of his little sister. he made it look like a saw trap to frame Jigsaw.

but Jigsaw found out & was like nuh uh bitch you're working for me now, or else I'm telling on you.

But then Hoffman was like guess what bitch I LOVE it here and i LOVE killing. he becomes the Jigsquad problem child and proceeds to kill or manipulate everyone he needed to so he could be the sole "Jigsaw" remaining. But he's sloppy and paranoid af so the FBI is on his ass from day 1. And the more he kills, the sloppier he gets, and the more frantic and unable to dig himself out of this hole he gets. and the more violent and crazy he gets. But the more crazy he gets, the more he keeps evading death like a cockroach. For real, watching his downfall was the major appeal of his character for me, and the start of my downfall..ing in love with him. lord almighty

anyway everyone hates his ass and we LOVE bullying him!!!!! he deserves it. for all of the atrocities hes committed and also because hes such a smarmy little shit. even Amanda bullies him

and then we have Peter Strahm who shows up and hates Hoffman immediately, as you do. u can tell its him from his ridiculous eyelashes

and, YEAH, YOUVE GUESSED IT......... PEOPLE LIKE TO SHIP HIM WITH HOFFMAN.......... I KNOW..... RIGHT.... COULDNT BE ME.......

Because he is Hoffman's biggest adversary for two movies, knowingly in one. It's a classic cat and mouse game.

Anyway we love Peter Strahm!!!!! He's also an asshole! He's extremely hotheaded and short tempered but extremely passionate about the case. like, his dedication goes crazy. He's also quite the sassy bitch himself

but its BECAUSE he is also caring and emotional, especially towards his work partner Lindsey Perez WHO WE LOVE BECAUSE SHES AMAZING AND CARING AND SHE'S BEEN PETER'S PARTNER AND FRIEND FOR 5 YEARS THEY CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER I LOVE THEM

and those are the characters but ur probably like "what the fuck is up with the glass coffin" well my friends that is what us Hoffstrahmers refer to as our roman empire.

um i ran out of room for pictures :) but by now yall have seen the two traps reblogged and drawn by me a BILLION times, and those are: the water cube trap, and the glass coffin

so the deal with those:

the water cube trap: Strahm runs off to find Jigsaw himself after wildly following clues with no backup because he's so worked up from Perez getting hurt earlier and he sets off on revenge immediately. Hoffman catches him and puts him in the water cube.

It's meant to just kill him. he wasnt supposed to survive it. but Strahm is suddenly the main character when he fucking survives an unwinnable saw trap the fuckin crowd goes wild, it was fuckin sick dawg

and then through a series of Hoffman backstory flashbacks that he daydreams, he figures out the entirety of Hoffman's real secret identity and sets off to go catch him

and thats when he finds:

The Glass Coffin Trap: the instructions on the Jigsaw tape tell him to get into the coffin, it will hurt him but he will have a chance to survive. "do you trust me?" but he KNOWS its Hoffman and he doesnt trust that motherfucker so he doesnt get in. Hoffman approaches the scene, they get in a scuffle, and Strahm pushes him into the coffin and seals it.

but hoffman is like "neener neener poopoo you're an idiot" and tells him to listen to the rest of the tape. which tells him that if he doesnt get in the coffin, he's gonna fuckin die bro lmao rip

and so he does! hoffman, in the coffin, sinks into the ground like some cartoon villain and the walls close in and squeeze Strahm to death

anyway at first Coffinshipping to me was kind of a joke like just classic Asshole x Asshole, Enemies to Lovers, Hero x Villain shenanigans. Teehee what if they KISSED... in the COFFIN... and all.

but then i read exactly 1 fic and i was completely convinced entirely of the angst possibilities of these two. the "what if"s that were possible with them. the little Hoffstrahm community i found has been so fucking awesome their ideas are so fucking fun, and I'm having so much fun thinking of art of them and fics of them and ugh i love it here

#saw #jennilargh #jenna answers #coffinshipping #hoffstrahm

[aleksa-sims]

RL Simselfstory (18+)

CW: adult topics, unplanned pregnancy

N. told me why he was so mad at P. In short, it was about my Dad.😒 But I’ll explain, when I tell my parents about N. & me. After we talked, we went up to his bedroom. It was already light. We just talked all night about everything that had to be clarified (N.'s fiancee). This was a lot!! But it had to be! I needed to know, if Nico was really serious about me. I believed N.! He never lied to me, so I trusted him. Also, I decided to divorce Daniel😭,once I talked to my parents.

Nico: Why are you still on P.’s side and stick by him? That’s exactly what Daniel also said, when he and I talked. I was always the bad guy for you, but never Philip. You blamed me for everything, including his yoga bitch... But well, just fuck it. 😕

Me: I tried to stay friends with him. He was always there for me. But it didn't work out! In the end, we were just yelling at each other and even later, after I met D. And whenever I was mad at Philip, I was mad at you, too. This wasn't fair. Sorry N. And I don’t have feelings for P., if you think that. Really not! This was a mistake anyway. We all failed. 🤷‍♀️

Nico: Is there anything else you wanna tell me or ask me, before we ..... well, move on?

Me: Um.... actually,.... yes! But maybe I should let sleeping dogs lie?

Nico: No idea what that means? Tell me!

Me: You remember Sofia. I saw her a few times last year. Sof liked to annoy me about you. She made fun of me and said you treated me like a... sex slave. 🫤 I didn’t know exactly what she meant, but....ugh, anyway! Is that true? Did you want that from me?

Nico: 🤣🤣... Did I ever keep you in chains or whipped you or something? 😅

Me: Stop teasing me, jerk! You know damn well what I mean.

Nico: Nah, I’m not really keen on hurting you or into pain in general. You know that! I told you that before, too. But some discipline wouldn’t hurt you, babe. 😅

Me: You see? That's exactly what I meant! You kept playing your carzy mind games with me. You, with your will to subjugate me in every way.

Nico: Yea, and?... I never forced you to do anything!! And that’s the difference! If you didn’t want something, I didn’t want it either. But I know you wanted to please me and did everything to satisfy me. And you've done absolutely right. You’re just perfect for me.😏 I loved you like crazy. And Sofia, that manipulative bitch... I got SO pissed! I just wanted to protect you! My whole pad was smoky bcs of you two! You were totally stoned, brain-dead!

Me: Says the guy who put his fist through a wall. 🤨 And btw, you were constantly pissed! Not just that day.

Nico: Don’t you think we’ve talked enough?... Be a good girl and do as I say 😏😄 ... Get undressed and follow me to the bathroom.

Me: Ironically, the shower?.... You wanna get me depressed or what?

Nico: No! Never... Let's start again, where it left off.

I had still my wedding going on in my head. I told myself, " you had to stop thinking about Daniel, that’s not fair! Do it, or end this rn!" Suddenly Nico said something to me... something totally unimportant, which I actually forgot. He talked about my obession for my coconut shower gel. He asked me, if I still use it? Somehow this short conversation about that, made me feel good. It was like a kind of confirmation for me, that I needed at that very moment. I felt, he's always been the one and so I really started to let go of Daniel. And I succeeded! I was happy with Nico but...anyway.🤯

My Simself was a little embarrassed about me posting those spicy pics. 😳🫣 But no joke, I always struggle to poste something like this.

Nico: You see, babe? I have no prob getting on my knees for you, too.

Me: Yea, sure! 🤨 You only do that bcs there’s not enough room here in the shower. But you don't have to do that fo rme!!

Me: I hope you really dumped her. I know you didn’t mean to cheat on her, but if this isn’t over with you two yet, you’re cheating on me too now. 😟

Nico: I'm confused... But why do you think I lied to you?

Me: I don't really think that. I-... I just wanna be sure.

Nico: I understand why you have doubts, but honestly? That sucks. I don't wanna think or talk about her at all rn. I can’t go back to her after seeing you again. Even if I wanted to, I can’t. I can’t give up on you.

Me: And I can’t say no to you. I never could and you know that. That's why-... I thought you might take advantage of that... Sorry, I’m gonna shut up now.🤦‍♀️

I shouldn’t have thought that much about that girl, but paid a little more attention to another important topic. PROTECTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I forgot to tell N., that I had this.... hormone-free thing/ IUD removed in summer... As you know, that hormone-free IUD, had caused me damage. And my doc said, the risk of not having kids, because of the injuries I already got, was too high! He advised Daniel and me to simply use condoms. That was the only option we had. But we didn't! Daniel just paid attention when we had sex not to... knock me up. But even if I had become pregnant by him, it would have been okay for us.

But now back to the actual aim/topic of this post. 👶 N. & I had sex. He used a rubber. But when he was.......well, done, he removed it and just kept going with me. I thought, okay? Either he’s extremely horny, or...... no idea what he was up to? I could have stopped him, but I didn’t!! I thought I wouldn’t get pregnant anyway and if, it's too late? However, I was kind of sure I couldn’t have kids. Daniel & I wanted a Baby after we got married, but it just never happend. So why should it be different with Nico? After just one fucking time!?

Even if our Baby was not planned & and N. & I actually had an affair/ a fling at that time , I can say that it was.... made with Love. N. said, "I love you", when it happend. 🩷🩵 But, hm!? He always says that to me in that... particular situation. Still, I think he meant it honestly, I could feel it and not just that! Don't ask me why, but I just knew he................. hit a home-run.😨

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[shirogane-oushirou]

OMG RO HAPPY ANNIVERSARY WAJFEKAHFEKE ;-; take this as an opportunity to gush if you want!! <333

KJNASDKJN THANK YOU NICK!!! technically i messed up yesterday, it's actually tomorrow kjsndfjkn, but i started the gif and art reblogging early bc i've collected so many lmao ;; i'm the only oushirou gif-maker and people WILL see my boy!!!!!

i was going to gush on my anniversary art post, but you've handed me a golden opportunity to do it here. you will regret this. :3c 💞

[cw quick mention of a scene where he's called a slur]

oushirou's been my most beloved, specialest, best boy since my first year in college. i was working my way through the games, and i saw his profile in some artbook scans, and i went... who the FUCK is this guy??? KAJSNKDJN. i hated his design so much; it didn't fit with the rest of the series's designs.

but he immediately won me over as a side character in the pc game, and then i was Doomed the second i booted up to play the PSP port with the added oushirou route (our 13yr anniversary is the day i started posting about playing his route lol). i became The Oushirou Guy™ in the eng fandom from that point on ;; and, of course, now i'm like "i need MORE characters who look like this guy, RIGHT NEOW" kjsnfkjn.

and then a year later -- 12 years ago tomorrow -- the last game released AND, FINALLY, he had his own karedanna cd! a fandom friend sent a rip to myself and my also-oushirou-lover friend, as we were waiting for ours to ship... and he proposes in it. my friend and i both made this day the wedding anniversary in commemoration. i even have some ancient joke art i made on the release day itself LMAO

i love him so much more than i think i let on; ren's my main right now, so that's what people know me for, but oushirou really is The Blueprint for me.

he's so self-driven. he could have lived a cushy, comfortable life following the family trade as a western fortune teller, but he would rather throw that -- and an unealthy relationship with his family -- away so he could follow his dreams of being a photographer and journalist.

and he's loyal. after his life is saved by another student (kazuki), and he realizes kazuki will be held back due to spending too many days recovering from the injuries he incurred, he makes sure he's also held back a year so he can play as kazuki's right-hand-man during the remainder of their time at seigetsu academy.

also like... ngl, him being a scorpio is like 👀 he's a freak like me LMAOOOO we can be like "every zodiac girlie hates our pussiessss" together. 💖

oh. and then of course he's the Ambiguously Queer Character of the series. he's a little fruity w it in general, he loves crossdressing, he's flirty with kazuki, homare, and shiki, he's stated outright that his love for kazuki and tsukiko are equal and he can't decide between them, and his fashion sense is just a little cherry on top ksjdnfk.

ugh. honeybee's just itching to call him a slur i s2g.... wait omg wait they actually had some one-off characters call him a slur in his first route KJASNDKDJNSDFKJN WAIT???????? I JUST REMEMBERED??????? it was one of the first scenes i translated from his route i'm lksnfkns oh my fucking god. and everything since then has been like. doubling down without actually calling him anything. crying omg ksjdnfkjns.

ANYWAY. just a year ago, he was the character everybody associated me with, only beaten out once ren appeared. even my art username is based on him (zerofoursix -> 0-4-6 -> o-shi-ro -> oushirou). he's pulled me through so many things, from shitty college experiences to my health issues... to even being part of the reason why i picked art back up after i took a 5-6yr hiatus due to art school burnout. ;;

i love him so so much, forever and ever, my beloved hentai sentai red*, my adhd king, my most skilled f/o by a LONG shot**, my scorpio twin, my misunderstood weirdo... he's Everything to me 😭💗

* think i've posted about it once before, but it's a running joke that he's a sentai hero who regularly saves tsukiko from creeps in his AW route ;;

** photographer, journalist, multilingual, fashion-forward, western fortune teller, super emotionally intelligent... i could go on. the guy hides SO MUCH of his power level around others.

#i tried so hard to pare this down bc it was running so long kjsnkfjn i think i got it down to 2/3 its original length ;;; #i could ramble about him for days though. 'silly goofy side character who actually has so much more going on' etc etc #'people continue to fall for the facade the character wants people to fall for' etc etc #'people have masks they wear around others but the masks are still real parts of themselves' etc etc #📌 [ my posts. ] #[ asks. ] #[ oomfies ; nick. ] #[ oushiversary. ] #📷 [ phantom hearts. ]

[blogathan]

TW: Addiction, HORRIBLE grammar, Tagents into Tagents straight back to the original topic... Just bad writing. Way too long Super TMI journal post. This post is mostly for myself.

I've been struggling with an addiction to delta 8 the legal version of weed in my state for about 3 years. My sister's previous roommate gave me a vape cartridge and the vape for my 28th birthday because I enjoyed smoking weed with their friend group. - I added this after typing half of this post: I'm high right now. And also covered in tears and snot.

Fuck you Libby! Wait... No no. You didn't know I wouldn't be able to stop taking hits because the brain fog from this worse than weed chemical mix would cover my depression (and the rest of my brain...) while mindlessly distracting myself with snacks, porn, video games, and TV shows I had already seen. As soon as I get high the part of my brain that could barely inhibit me from instant gratification is turned off.

I wonder if anyone can relate to that feeling of not being in control. Like there have been times where Id tell myself you can be sober and get your shit together. So id put the disposable vape away in a drawer and then go do something else (although in the same room, I spent a lot of time on my PC which was in my room at the time, but also as right now a lot of time in bed on my phone... I gotta keep my phone out of my bedroom... You guys are gonna see me a lot less. I might delete the app..anyway I'd be on my phone or PC. Holy shit I was addicted to technology as a distraction before the delta 8 (and still am?)) and so after being on my PC or phone I honestly vividly remember I didn't have a thought. Like... I am looking at my screen and then all of a sudden I blink and I'm standing there blowing out smoke. Some of it seems to be lack of mindfulness, but my mind definitely works different than most as I have ADHD inattentive type, a reading and writing learning disability. I haven't been diagnosed, but I'm confident that I am autistic as well... And all of these I learned at 17 (and 11 months) so I was kinda already an "adult" already or so I thought and also legally (but at the same time.. Ive been developing slower... Ugh I hate thinking about little me who needed help and didn't know it 😭😭) when I learned I was different. And other than giving me meds they literally gave me no help to change any of my ways of thinking or even explained what ADHD was. I didn't look it up to understand iteven though I had it until last year. And it also just derailed this story lol one of the ways these things affect me are my lack of ability to control and process emotions.

I have so much emotion I haven't processed. My only memories of crying pre-25 years old was getting spanked as a kid, when I couldn't focus and do my homework. Omg there was this writing assignment in the 4th grade. I was supposed to write a one page paper on something. I got the piece of paper out. I write my name in the upper corner. I stare at the paper. I need an opening sentence. And then my mind is blank. But not just blank for a second. Actually I have no idea how long I stared at that blank page. It felt like somewhere between 5 minutes and an hour. I've never been good with feeling time pass. Anyway blank mind and this expectation that I need to write the paper. I'm supposed to write this paper and I can't think of anything... frustration growsAnd then I cried myself to sleep on top of the blank piece of paper. I couldn't get myself to do homework for the rest of the school year.. and then I started begging to stay home when projects I couldn't get myself to do were due. I started hiding under the bed after my mom woke me up so they couldn't force me to go to school. Oh wait 4th grade. I was still leaving giant skid marks in my underwear and a number of incidents that were way worse... Oh man I'm remembering more crying from being embarrassed people could smell me.. oh 8 year old Jon it's not your fault you didn't know you needed to take off your pants completely and spread your legs wider to poop. So you would push and push so hard your diaphragm would close your lungs and you couldn't breathe. And you'd choke yourself trying to poop. But couldn't. So then 5 days of no poop later a droplet would fall down your leg. Y'all may be wondering why I'm writing all of this and it's cause I've never told anyone. I've never processed this. I'm in tears I've been writing and rereading for an hour. Like when I started listing times I remember crying before 25 I had a short list spankings as a kid and my two grandfathers funerals. I kinda blocked out the embarrassment and crying I felt when people could smell me.

Okay so I got off topic because this is a diary entry and that's how I think.

So tonight my parents were watching a Chris Farley documentary and I watched the last half of it with them. If you don't know him he was on SNL from 1990-1995. Hilarious guy who couldn't control his addictions.

And then my mom and I are talking after the documentary and she starts telling me about my brother's battle with addiction. And I'm staring at her high. She says "he was high around us for 6 years and we didn't notice" and I'm high. And I've been trying to become sober. In the past year I've had 4 times where I was sober for 20-40 day spurts. But for some reason I've never been able to open up to my parents about anything. It's like... I don't trust them. Like I trust what they say. Omg it's not trust. It's safety. I've never felt safe to be vulnerable with them. My gut is saying they always just talked about being a Christian and making good grades. And I've struggled with both(okay at this point religion is not a struggle, I am confident I'm atheist).... So she's giving me the perfect opening to tell her I need help and I just keep listening. My brother was living with 3 other guys and he'd been addicted to weed, and opiates when my brother was in highschool so by then he was doing heroin and everything else. And one day him and his friends are using and someone comes to buy some from one on them. And as that transaction is happening in the doorway they can see my brother. His face is blue. Hed overdosed. But the buyer had a friend with him and that friend saw my brother and he had a can of narcan(idk what exactly my mom said but that's what I heard) They injected into his groin. He didn't wake up. They threw a glass a water on him and he woke up.

A week later one of my brothers roommates ODs. This time they don't have anything. My brother who didn't own a phone yells someone call 911. But no one wanted to. They had lots of drugs and didn't know of the good Samaritan law. My brother goes out of the apartment and finds someone to call 911. The firemen arrive and can't save him. The ambulance arrives and they save him. His other roommates laugh afterwards and say that was you last week. He knows he's gonna die if he stays there. But he accidentally got too deep. His drug dealer/roommate offered him a deal: drive him to his drug dealer and then he'll give my brother free drugs. But now he knows a supplier and they aren't gonna let him just move out or leave. So he pretends he is gonna do laundry and gathers his things into a laundry bag and then runs away calling my dad and demanding my dad come pick him up and take him to a detox center. They send him to a Christian rehab (this was rehab #3) and my brother got saved and works for that organization at their church college campus.

I know I'm just addicted to delta 8 and it doesn't kill me it just numbs me to life and lowers my inhibition so it's not the same.. but idk after hearing what my own brother went through.. I gotta face my emotions. I gotta get past this addiction. And then find some kind of motivation or something to push me to get a job. Because I can't stay in this house all day and never interact with people. I feel like I understand some of myself more but.. does the depression go away? Or.. how do I learn how to correctly live while sober? Like how to not let my emotions control me but also I've never had structure... Okay enough introspection. Kinda hope someone reads this and understands me and gives me advice. Also kinda hoping this was too long and scared off most people..

#blogathan lore #venting #addiction #i cant tell if im hiding behind this ADHD/Depression/learning disability/autism or if im actually doing well for someone who has them

[moonjxsung]

ALSKDKDJF OKAYYY !!! I’m glad it’s not a bother !!! I overthink sometimes alskdkjf

urgh so I am having A WEEK :( I hope it’s okay I rant a bit … alslkskdj

helurf okay so after midterms last week, I’ve been trying to like relax and give myself time to rest but IVE HAD SO MANY ASSIGNMENTS :((( and I’m so tired and burnt out and stressed cause I need to start studying for finals and ahhhhhh alsksjjdjf :(

okay now for some more fun updates!! i had fun at uni yesterday!! we had a super fun soil science lab we got to go into soil pits on the farm our campus has and analyze soil (ph, diagnostic horizons, colour, structure, texture etc) !! It was a lot of fun I’m gonna miss the class and my prof :( (it was my last lab)

another fun thing is its art market week at my uni so time to drop a ton of money on prints, stickers and crocheted animals !!! :D

AND okay so I made it into a special like abroad research kinda program/course in like that’s usually only available to upper years students but somehow I made it in alskkskdjdj . Anyways, we get to go to South Africa from like May 14-June 9 to do research and stuff in the field!!! and like IM SO EXCITED??? So anyways, the 19 students that also made it in (it’s a highly competitive program to get into) we had our second group meet up plus our prof (who taught my favourite class by far last term) yesterday and it was a lot of fun and we got free dinner which was super super yum and I can’t believe I’m actually going ahhhhh

and then I went to a friends house for dinner (yes, dinner again) which was fun we like catch up at least once a month and yeah

Anyways sorry for the truck load of information about my life weh

HOW IS YOUR LIFE STAR!!! I WANNA HEAR ABOUT YOU!! (With whatever ur feeling comfy sharing 💗)

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UGH I always forget how close together exam season is WHYYYY ARE UR FINALS ALREADY RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER….. 💔💔 I believe in you angel manifesting all the best for you frfr you’re smart I know you got this 🫶🫶🫶🫶

AHHHH UR UNI LAB SOUNDED SO FUN I love labs where you just get to go outside and do stuff in nature it’s fr so healing 👼 I took a geology course in college where we got to go to this creek near my school and like test the ph balance of the water and it was so much fun being outside instead of cooped up in the lecture hall fr one of the best labs we ever did. AND the art market this week???? RAHHH HAVE SO MUCH FUN we used to have something similar at my uni and I would drop SO much on stickers not even joking my laptop is covered in them still :’)

ALSO OH MY GOD??? TO THE STUDY ABROAD PROGRAM?????? STOP THAT SOUNDS SO FIXKIFNT FUNNNNN IM SO EXCITED FOR YOU WYAHWJDNRJ CONGRATS ON GETTING IN BB ‼️‼️ I didn’t have to do study abroad when I was in college bc covid hit but I can’t wait to hear all about yours and live vicariously thru ur updates AHHHH and it’s coming up so soon !! WOWOWOWOW HAVE THE BEST TIME ILY ILY THATS SO FUN

My day was honestly vvvvv boring but it was productive! I had work and then I had a shit ton of laundry to do but I was tired as fuck and I have cramps bc my period started today so I got coffee first to wake me up and then after cleaning the apartment I caught up on Ateez vlogs and now I’m simultaneously writing and watching Zelda gameplay 👼 I think my emotions are like ten times worse rn because of my period so I’m just taking it easy but I have a huge party to go to this weekend and a lot of my friends are gonna be there so I need to get my shit together and stop being sad bc I don’t want to bring the mood down ☹️ why do I always have a party in the same week I feel like shit LOL the last time I had one my situationship and I got into a huge fight and my sister had to be checking on me like every 5 minutes bc I was borderline crying the whole night it was so embarrassing 😭 (I am so tired of crying over this same girl oh my god)

ANYWAYS I LOVE U ANGEL IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AND I CANT WAIT TO HEAR ALL ABOUT UR STUDY ABROAD TRIP RAHHH THATS SO EXCITING CONGRATS AGAIN ILY ILY 🩷💖💞💘💕💓👼

#🌱 anon #ask

[taegularities]

OMG OMG RID! 😭😭 I finally read the last chapter and girl you got me crying so hard for them, I can’t believe I FELT EVERYTHING AT ONCE, I felt how desperate was jk to find oc the anxiety and after that the love you OMG I CANT TAKE IT, you destroyed me like how can I move on with my life after reading this one 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 I’m so excited to continue this amazing story I don’t think I can ever get enough of this jk I need him in my life honestly that devotion ugh, what a fucking rollercoaster of emotions in a good way 😩

Anyways I just wanted to wish you a very very nice and blessed year, 2024 baby girl 🎊 and also wanted to ask you if you have like pictures for inspiration? Like Pinterest tab or something that you see on internet and thought of cmi? And also wanted to ask you if you have in mind like oc as a persona, like maybe this kind of hair or that kind of aesthetic? I hope you can catch me bc my English rn I think sucks 😫

AHH EVERYTHING AT ONCE IS GREAT BC SAME!!! moving on from this one's tough, but i hope you like what's to come just as much, if not more!! 🥺 tysm for reading, and here's to more… am super excited <333

happy new year to you as well, love!! ✨ as for cmi inspiration – honestly, i rely on small things around me a lot, like, yt reels or rl convos and emotions. i rarely use pictures, though. i also do not have a certain oc in mind, like that's very reader-dependent… so there's no hair type/colour, eye and skin colour, body type etc! but hmmm, her aesthetic–

oc wears warm colours a lot, especially in the winter. she's more colourful in the summer and likes going for comfy pastel/floral clothing – like dresses but prefers shorts. as a manager of a fashion brand, she's courageous with her choices, but likes to be casual most of the time. joggers and buns at home, loves cotton and isn't super fond of silk; then, fancy suits and slacks and skirts at work. adores sweaters and denim jackets. also likes rose gold jewellery! and pretty hair clutchers!! natural make up <3 coffee coloured lipstick <3

(see bits of oc in cmi11.5 but also in general below!!)

and her persona – she's rather soft and kind but can be fierce, too, so her voice is gentle but confident? and she smiles a lot. (knows how to write, so good with words and v inspiring, too). i should definitely talk about her style and stuff more, but i think cmi12/13 are gonna give me lots of chances to do so 💕

#omg sorry for rambling aGAIN i will probably think of more later ksdjhfkjsaf #it'st just that i mostly get qs about jk so those about oc are super dear to me lol ty!!! <3 #hny '24 <3 #notes for rid 🌹 #spixybnny #fic: colour me in

[thegeminisage]

major spoilers

working my way towards the forgotten temple and found a well that went all the way to the depths...girl help idw to do this again so soon 😭

unfortunately i feel compelled

at least there's a lightroot right off the bat. thank god

amazing how you can see across half the map btw. like theres shit lit up literally that far away from me but i can see it from here

gloom chest??

GLOOM MOLDUGA HELLOOOOO

no ugh wait its just that water temple boss nooooo

FINALLY got it. that took for fucking EVERRR

there better be something real fuckin good in this chest.

YOOOOO a huge crystalized charge........worth 100, so another energy well basically. i wanted armor but ill take it lol

got pulverized by a monster camp. this is why i never engage them lol i have less than half my hearts remaining

i'm right under the forgotten temple!! pleeeease let there be something cool here.........

"cliff bargainer statue" i don't fucking see it

oh. that can't be it. that's so...big

girl help how do i get it to bargain?? it's creepy also

i climed it to the top and i started getting mist like in the lost woods...i'm on top of a giant statue on top of a huge mountain, am i too close to the "ceiling"? i wonder what happens when you get too high? i'm not patient enough to find out for myself but i eagerly await the youtube videos in my future

oh!!! you can buy one of a kind items from the statues now...if i broke biggoron's sword or for some reason sold oot link's tunic, i could purchase another. thank goodness lol

OH I WENT ON TOP OF HIS HEAD AND I DID FIND THE CEILING.........

too bad i can't ascend thru it lol

since i was so high up, i easily scored another lightroot that would have been hugely difficult to get otherwise

im fast traveling back to the forgotten temple since thats where i was going anyway. theres only so much of the depths a girl can take lol

god i'm so low on food i need to stop and cook and also to unlock more great fairies augh

i read somewhere the game gets harder w every temple, and here i am still wearing level 2 armor...

wait...this room behind the toppled goddess statue...THIS IS SONIA'S GRAVE HOLY SHIT

I DIDN'T RECOGNIZE IT THE LAST TIME I WAS HERE...i hadn't seen it in cutscenes yet...man, 10k years later...that's fucking insane

it's also weird that there are supposedly 12 dragon tears and only 11 on this map...i bet the last one is hidden somehow and it's gonna fuck me up

oh!!! i can see a great fairy from here...i probably can't help her without doing the quest though :/

well, at least i can go find the stable/shrine and make a fast travel point lol

i see a dragon that i THOUGHT was naydra...but it's too...gold?? i zoomed in on it and that's definitely not naydra

Is That Zelda.

CAMERA SAYS LIGHT DRAGON IS THAT ZELDA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GIRL COME BACK I AM DOWN HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can't get to her...whaatatata the ffucckckc

oh my GODDDD GIRL COME BACK.........................

even if i fast traveled somewhere high enough that i could reach her...wouldn't she despawn...?

worth a shot i guess

SHES STILL HERE AND MY MASTER SWORD QUEST MARKER IS THERE

GIRL I AM COMING TO FIND YOU

actually lmao i dont have enough stamina potions for this sob

wait wait she's headed towards the forest so maybe if i come AT her instead of chasing her.......

YES YES YES I STILL SEE HER GIRL I AM COMING TO FIND YOU

i l

i landed on her. oh my god

i'm choked up. girl WAKE UP.......

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i tried to grab it which obviously hurt her!!! and i have to! have! enough stamina!!!!!!!

WHAT IF I NEVER FIND HER AGAIN

i hate to leave her like this. i'm distraught!!!!!!!!!!

#personal #loz blogging #totk lb #totk spoilers

[guillermogoth]

Okay one more ep... episode 19...

KDGSJSBDK KYOKO with the wig in her dress mimicking Sho LMAOOO

Poor Kyoko... let it out 😢😥😭

The way the VA says I hate you over and over... such pain but also hesitancy... I feel so bad for her 😭

NOOOO Kyoko, you're not a fraud! You're good at this! You work hard! You ARE finding yourself! You're finally free to learn who you are without Sho! And it's going so well! Don't let Sho ruin this for you again! T_T

Omg Kyoko is SO CUUUTE when she mimics people, the little Ren doll speech!!!

Kyoko you HAVE a pure heart tbh...

Awhhh 😭 she doesn't want Ren to think badly of her... Ren probably wouldn't be very nice about it right now considering how his feelings get hurt so easily over his relationship with her atm lol...

Holy shit Kyoko's relationship with Moko is SO CUTE! She's happy and excited that Moko is yelling at and lecturing her 😭

I can kind of understand that, Kyoko... someone cares enough about you that they freak out over you omg omg

I WISH I had that... as it is now, I don't have that at all... one day! Anyway I'm just so happy for her 😭

AWWWWW 😭

She loves her so much and wants to protect her from a fictional bad boyfriend lol...

Moko is SO right tbh, people never take it well when you tell them their bf is the WORST and that they deserve better. Unfortunately even if they're better off they don't want to hear it... and of course on the other side, telling them and seeing them stay with a shitty guy anyway is such a hurtful situation, of COURSE Kyoko was going to feel worse after she learned how Moko would feel :(

But Kyoko should have asked Moko how she would feel in HER situation, or just gotten feedback about her relationship with Sho. Moko would never have wanted Kyoko to stay with Sho, either.

WHOOOOAAA! That scene was amazing 👏

With the tears as she thinks about Moko 😭

I LOVE how in touch Kyoko is getting with her feelings!

Amazing... Kyoko you are AMAZING!!!

Sho can't hold a candle to you babe!!!

kdhfjwbs BRO you KNOW how left the voicemail already, come on. Sign number 42345434982 that Ren is totally into Kyoko...

OHHHHHH AWWWWW !!!! She's crying about Moko again, the PAIN OF THE SCENE IS STILL WITH HER!!! I completely understand Kyoko you adorable girl... she said if Moko dies her life would be totally meaningless 😭

I'm so happy she has a friend... I'm so happy she has a life of her own finally! 😭

YES!!! EVERYONE TELL SHO HOW TO DO HIS JOB! YOU ARE A FREAKING MORON YOU DICK!!! The director(?) praising Kyoio and making Sho reshoot, I love it! I love how into Kyoko is getting! It seems like she's actually finally having fun!

Kyoko is so cute omg, talking to the Ren doll telling him to be prepared cuz she's coming for his level!

Jesus, Mimori, I don't understand how you could go through all this and still want Sho... and I can't believe Sho just treats girls who dote on him like this still even NOW! Even AFTER Kyoko tried to help her out and protect her from him!

NOOO MIMORI!!! You need help girl....

Kyoko... crying alone in the woods because she knew she could never rely on Sho to help her through it... sounds just like my relationship the last two years :(

Everything is better now but I was always told my emotions were too much and that I was always upset over the same things...

So Kyoko needed a secret place to cry and that's how she met Ren... this makes so much sense

God, Sho is the freaking worst! Kyoko is bearing her soul about her struggles and being unable to cry to him and he's just joking about it and making fun of her?! ugh! Too bad he couldn't die on set!

Ren?! Ren call?! OHHH YES!

Awwww the two people she called for help today were BOTH worried about her! She's finally getting attention and care from friends! I'm so happy for her I'm gonna cry!

HOLY SHIT, SO HOT REN! HE FUCKING ASKED HER TO TELL HIM ABOUT HER SHOOT EVEN THOUGH IT WASN'T AN EMERGENCY OR BAD THING ANYMORE! HE WANTED TO KNOW AND SHARE IN HER JOY!!

absolute opposite of that bastard Sho, and she deserves so much better! Sooooo hot and cute of them!

NOOOO

No! Noooo!!! Sho ruined it on purpose, what a fucking asshole!

I was literally SOOO happy for her now I'm so pissed off how am I supposed to sleep after this bastard pulled this?!

#db watches skip beat

[racingliners]

F1 Re-watch 2022: Round 6 - Spain

To quote Manuel from Fawlty Towers: I know nothing

The only thing I remember from this race is the gifs of Seb and Lewis sharing an umbrella during the national anthem.

So yeah, this could be... fun???

I did not know Lewis and Schumi were the joint most successful winners in Spain. That is a fun fact (Just goat things)

Also Charles is on pole, so I fear I know how this race is ending.

Seb in 16th 😭 (To repeat a previous point, the AMR22 was beautiful, but boy she was a tractor)

Livery watch: Alpine preeeeeeeeetty (blue and pink livery my utter beloved)

Lewis starting on the mediums??????

Fernando taking his sweet, sweet time getting to the grid

[Start/Lap 1]: Another clear turn 1, I’m genuinely shocked

oop didn’t last long Lewis and Kev went into each other

Seb up into 13th though!!!

[Lap 5]: Damn Ocon got past Dan like he was slicing through butter

[Lap 6]: and again on Mick

ahhhhhh Seb on Fernando violence

THAT’S MY BOY!!!

(Insert quote about how Seb and Fernando have always raced each other)

Ugh Fernando got back past it was fun while it lasted

[Lap 7]: Oop Sainz in the gravel

[Lap 9]: Verstappen in the gravel????

Not the gust of wind excuse. *2015 Testing flashbacks*

[Lap 10]: Comms are already talking about team orders. 😬

oof Dan dropping down the top 10 like a stone 😶

[Lap 12]: Russell’s car is overheating???

[Lap 13]: And Verstappen’s DRS isn’t working. 

F1 cars don’t like heat too much do they?

[Lap 14]: Given how the second half of the season went I simply do not trust the face that Leclerc is leading by 14 seconds. I will not be lulled into a false sense of security by Ferrari I know better. I just about survived Seb’s years there 😭

Unrelated: where is my midfield spice???

Livery watch: Alfa Romeo preeeeetty

[Lap 15]: SEB IN P5 STOP THE RACE

(shhh I know he hasn’t stopped yet)

“DRS = Doesn’t Really Stay” Brundle I will give you that one right bc that was funny

This race is playing into Ferrari’s hands and I still don’t trust it

aeuvheugh we’re not in 2002 Crofty

(which reminds me I need to watch some old Schumi races when I have the time)

[Lap 20]: “So Perez is on a one stop” “Blimey!” fguehguehsg

Tell me George is British without telling me he’s British

Stop interrupting Ted, let him speak!!!

[Lap 22]: Yay Seb finally pits... and drops from 8th to 17th 😭

[Lap 24]: Russell on Verstappen violence, some spice at last

Who would win? A multiple F1 race winner or one (1) rear wing flap?

Livery watch: Glossy silver Merc preeeetty

[Lap 26]: uerhaguiehgueh Perez straight up asking for Verstappen to be moved out the way. I would have spat out my tea had I been taking a drink.

“Why won’t you let me by?” Honestly, valid question.

(I’m still laughing)

[Lap 27]: Ah. There it is. The sight and sound of Ferrari betrayal. Number 16 Ferrari goes poof.

Rule 1 of watching F1: Never, ever trust Ferrari

Ted is surprised. I am not.

Ouch, that on-board of the car dying is brutal though.

ANYWAY Seb up into P13 let’s get it

aaaand Lewis got past him 😔 (It’s fine it’s Lewis I’ll allow it)

[Lap 31]: Oop Perez’s turn to get past a car like cutting through butter

(something something the W13 was not a sexy car)

VAL’S IN THIRD?????

I mean it didn’t last very long but DAMN

[Lap 33]: SEB INTO THE TOP 10!!!! STOP THE RACE

I take it it’s bc others pitted, but anyway STOP THE RACE

I feel like this race sums up the 2022 Season. Ferrari start strong, then they fuck up. Red Bull pick up the pieces.

[Lap 39]: BOTTAS IS IN 4TH???? FOURTH?????

I mean damn Val go off but FOURTH?!

Seb gets passed by Lando for 9th

Ferrari engineers looking at their remaining engines like:

PASTOR MALDONADO?!?!

[Lap 43]: aaaaand we’re back with Seb vs Fernando

nvm Seb pitted

Livery watch: metallic green AM preeeetty

continued Seb footage... feels good feels organic

[Lap 47]: Bono sighting!!!

...RBR team orders.

If I speak 😶

(They are 1.7 seconds apart my dudes)

What do you mean this race was six years after 2016???

Christ has it been that long??? The season aged me more than I’d care to admit

[Lap 50]: Bottas is still in P4. Porridge power.

[Lap 57]: Mick: Can I get points??? F1: NO

It’s fine he scores points with Seb in Silverstone 🥺😭

[Lap 58]: Three car fight for 4th? 👀

oh nvm that lasted two corners

Crofty shut up about Seb and Mick crashing in Miami I don’t want to hear about it

[Lap 60]: Oh that was a nice pass from Lewis on Sainz

I would like an emotional support Bono, he sounded so proud 😭

[Lap 64]: Seb in P11. 15 secs behind P10. 😭

DNF risk on the Mercs???? wat

OH cooling issues. shit.

cut to Displeased Toto™️.

[Lap 66/Finish]: A water leak??? a water leak?????

Anyway Verstappen won quelle surprise

Are the Mercs gonna finish though???

They lived!! That was very wild though.

Hmm. It was fine I guess?? Much more interesting than Miami, but the bar was very low. I missed my spicy midfield drama. Russell v Verstappen was fun to watch, and seeing Lewis come through the field as Lewis does was cool. Overall 6 front wings out of 10. Monaco next!

#F1 Liveblog #Spain edition #F1 2022 re watch #F1 Re watch

[sugarcherriess]

Life is ugh and I'm stuck in the ughness thats where I am 😭

🍞 WRITE THE FIC I AM DROOLING

Anyway here's a cute little birthday present to make up for my disappearance from your fave hyunjae, the lovely yandere hyunjae:

Hyunjae has been weird all week. And that's saying a lot since he's always weird.

Usually he doesn't need any excuse to spoil you. He will use any and every excuse to be an over the top whipped fool. Pancake day? Okay here you go, stacks and stack of pancakes, the syrup has gold leaf in it and its served on an antique silver tray with a vase full of flowers. The crickets on and your teams playing? Oh well then he's gotta dress you up in the teams jersey and cook for you so you can watch and eat together and Oh he's got a present prepared that he will either give you in celebration of their win or if you're sad they lost.

But it's your birthday. Or the week leading up to it rather and he hasn't mentioned it at all. He hasn't even started his prebirthday celebrations for you like he did last year. Its so weird and you definitely don't want to be the one to bring it up.

And now, the eve of your birthday. The very very eve because you were in the library till gone dark working on your paper. You asked hyunjae to pick you up but you didn't even hear from him and it only took you ten minutes of radio silence to get frustrated before you left the library and with annoyance decided you'd just walk home alone.

Honestly before you met hyunjae you were completely independent anyway. So going everywhere alone was a norm. Emphasis on was because as much as you hate to admit it hyunjar has conditioned your poor little brain to think that without him danger is imminent. That you do need your big strong hyunjae by your side to protect you.

Then you remembered you're annoyed and he still hasn't texted back and think fuck that bitch.

Walking down a lone road, it's quiet, but not eerily so. The stars are out and the moon is high and you feel content. It actually feels nice to be alone like this.

But stupidly you have let your guard down. Forgotten everything that hyunjaes taught you because in seconds you can't even register you're harshly grabbed from behind a cloth closing over your mouth and your legs kick back your whole body jolting to shake of the attacker, but it's not use. Soon your body grows weak. Drowsy and pliant under the cloth pressing on your mouth. And the last thing you hear is "happy birthday baby." - 🥛

Im??????????????? Excuse me??????????????

I was going to sympathise with you but then i made the mistake of reading the entire thing and????????????

I dont wven know what to fucking say? What the hell has he planned? What is he going to do???? Stop leaving me without answers this is so unfair 😟😟😟😟😟

#˚���· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Adonis Speaks #˚₊·➴ My Lovely 🥛

[pattytacuri]

5/14/22

I'm beginning to think I've had a more open and honest relationship with Tumblr than any men in my life. 😭🤣 maybe I'd rather be vulnerable and raw with a bunch of strangers . This is the first time I've written anything all day. Idk what possessed me to but as soon as I got home, I decided to try on almost 75 percent of my closet to see what fits and doesn't fit. If anyone knows me and my closet...they know I own like a million and one outfits . 😭🤣 fucking bpd impulsivity with spending. Clothes have a strange way of telling a story...for example, I still had the pants I interviewed with for my current job ( size 12-not keeping , too big) , the blue dress I got married in ( keeping it for, cute and I might burn it one day) , the black floral dress I went to my friend's 6 year old son's funeral too in late 2015 😭 ( keeping-still fits and I couldn't bear to part with it) , the teal romper I went into a terrible BPD episode with and dissociated in after a fight with my ex in the summer (idk -haven't tried it on-dont know what I'm doing with it yet) , the super short and tight black dress I got drunk in and made a tik tok in with my BFF this summer( keeper- too sexy to give away) , or the blue sweater I first drove independently in October also crashed in November in (its cute so keeper!) , etc, etc.

Anyways, I started to get tired and feel off, and then I realized..mercury is still in retrograde and it's been 10 months from my breakup and ugh...kinda cringy but I had to listen to "Clean" by T Swift cause of lyrics 🙃 and I whined for 30 minutes to my best friend about how haha..grief about it is here. Ugh. My best friend is beyond understanding, I admitted to her a truth out loud about it I hadn't been able to get out and it was good. Honestly, at this point, I'm at this really good place with everything about it. My bpd heart and soul have finally caught up with my logical side of it all. My logical side understand and accepts hard things and acts accordingly but it's hard to get my untamed bpd heart and soul to be on the same page with it. My logical side is 41 and so responsible and practical but idk that bpd soul and heart are irrational. In therapy my logical side is reasonable mind and my bpd side is emotional mind and to get both on them on the same side is wise mind which means tada ...I now have emotional regulation! Ugh...I'm in a dbt group therapy group and all of are there cause we all suck in one way or another with regulating our emotions. Our therapist keeps saying we all probably grew up in emotionally invalidating households and he's not wrong. Where was I going with this before my whole therapy tangent. Oh yes, I'm in my most radical acceptance and wise mind part of the grief. The anger about it has dissipated, I wish all the best for him, etc , etc. There are just these small droplets of grief that show up but at least it's not the hurricane or tornado that lasted for days or weeks.

Tomorrow I start swimming lessons with a private instructor and I hope I do well. I almost drowned at 11 thanks to my dad's drunk negligence so I hope my instructor is patient and understanding. If this works out, I'm gonna try some kind of dancing lessons cause why not. I have no rhythm but if I learned to drive again, anything is possible. I also need to lose 6 lbs. 😭 its sad that I like to eat cake and tacos and can't see myself going back to just salad. 🤣😭

#bpd mood #real life #truth #feelings #relationships #life #heartbreak #Spotify

[annyaforger]

I'm glad you enjoyed your vacation!!

Omg the switch version of Genshin is taking so long. It's as I'd expect though considering Nintendo doesn't always cooperate the best when it comes to releasing non Nintendo games on their platform >.>

I'm also on the American server! Omg kaeya is my favorite of the starter 4*s. I love him sm and he is so useful. My favorite 4* characters to use are Thoma and Bennett and my favorite 5*s I currently have are Childe and Kazuha. I'm going for Itto today asdffgbsg pls come home dummy

I've been thinking about getting into Tokyo revengers a lot of moots that have similar taste as me are very into that series 👀

Hmm anyway I should ask a question shouldn't I? What's your favorite season?

-animanga secret santa

ugh my angel sugar plum. sorry i’ve taken years to reply. i had actually seen this when you sent it and i had answered but my computer lost connection and i left the page for a second and it refreshed on me when i came back to it. i was so upset i was like i’ll reply later and then i forgot and got busy. with going back to work etc.

i am sorry!!

but here goes my reply attempt number two! ✌🏼

thank you! i really needed that vacation im not gonna lie lmao i hate my job but i need the money 😭

god damn nintendo lmao that’s why i sometimes regret not having bought like an xbox or play station lmfao maybe i’ll get one in the future. i mean i barely play games as it is so *shrug emoji* but still i do hope they release it soon if it is still in the works cause as much as i don’t mind playing on my tablet i would enjoy it more if i could play on an actual console type thing heh.

(the way im at work rn typing this up on like the notes app of my phone lmao)

Y A Y american server buds!! well, as soon as you reveal yourself to me we can add each other on there. fair warning i’ve only just started playing and my characters aren’t too leveled up and i suck as well lmao. i’ve never actually played with anyone?? idk how that works i am: shy. lmao.

my only other friend is on the europe server so we can’t play together 😭

i fucking love kaeya pls he hasn’tleft my party SINCE i got him. the other day i did get my newest fave, keqing!! i am absolutely obsessed with her pls.

how do i get him like how can i get him? i want him so bad (itto) omg i hope by now you’ve gotten him or are close to it?

TOKYO REVENGERS! yes i think you should definitely get into it if it’s something you think you might enjoy especially since a lot of your moots are already into it and you say y’all have similar tastes!!! it’s definitely a good watch. keeps you on your toes. i definitely cried for the last seven episodes lmao

as for my favorite season, i love winter. fall comes second but down here in texas with the global warming and shit it’s always like humid and gross and shit we only have like a few nice fall-ish days. so definitely winter lol.

wby?!!

what are your xmas and nys plans???

#mail.txt #anonymous #secret santa 2021