#lays on the FLOOR.

[verm1c1de]

one of the biggest things keeping me furom writing fanfiction is that i am nefur efur confident in my ability to write characters in-character, which is something that matters to me, and second i have no idea what to do fur a plot. mostly, its the adhd, but the anxiety ofur "he would not fucking say that" is a purretty big part

#mewd think this is about one of my dozens of zimfics but actually this is me remembering tunderale exists #and thinking about my psychosexual torture ship #sigh. #vermi.txt #lays on the floor. #mew can give me advice but it better not be ''mew can make them say whatefur mew want them to furefur''

[cakesdown]

I KEEP FINDING BOOKS WITH REALLY AWESOME CONCEPTS TO READ AS BOTH ENJOYMENT OF A NICHE AND FOR RESEARCH FOR HOME NOT FOUND BUT THEYRE ALWAYS SO FUCKING BAD

#i am dying dying forever always. three bad books one million dead solarises #ITS NOT LIKE W BAT OUTTA HELL WHERE I CAN JUST WATCH THE ENDLESS AMOUNT OF VAMPIRE AND GREASER MEDIA #lays on the floor.

[tillman]

I think I have too many books. . This is not great .

#there r two more stacks on my table. uhm. #lays on the floor. #at least I have a gnome. #txt

[blujayonthewing]

I think about that time aubree got a casual hookup a lot I think largely because it was a time something nice happened to her with no downsides

#I am imagining her being treated softly. I am imagining her being touched gently. I am imagining her falling asleep in soft arms. #aubree talks about cooking with a gnome who named herself after an herb and drinks wine and has sex and wakes up and makes coffee for two #and doesn't think or talk about The Horrors even once. for twelve blessed hours. what a concept #I've had three glasses of wine and I am now crying about my blorbo ahskfdlsh she just has NO SUPPORT in the PARTY!! #justin has built a world full of kindness and goodness where being kind makes a real difference #where you can form real and rewarding connections with people in a living and responsive world and it's so wonderful #but we travel because we're adventuring!! so aubree only has the party actually present!! #and the party consists of a bard who works overtime to be rude and mean and make a BAD impression everywhere we go for no reason #and an overwrought teenager whose trauma is 1) the only trauma that matters and 2) overpowers ANY of those real and meaningful connections #her player constantly like 'ooOHhhHh justin your GRIM WORLD you are PUTTING LISBET THROUGH IT hohohooo' #ACTUALLY the entire POINT of this grim world is to highlight the power of love and hope in the face of darkness and despair!! #but you keep CLOSING YOUR EYES TO THAT!! and CHOOSING TO PLAY GRIMDARK NO MATTER WHAT!! #so I'm just sitting here like :) this is a world full of kindness and hope and aubree doesn't get any #cause she's the only one IN the party BRINGING any!! #and we don't stay long enough with any one NPC for them to be there for her #LAYS on the FLOOR. #it's a weird contrast with mel who is ALSO profoundly lonely because mel doesn't understand that #and if she DID she HAS friends she could lean on-- zhartook at the very least and probably also claire #aubree grew up in a big family in a tight community-- she KNOWS she needs connection and right now doesn't feel like she HAS anyone #sucksss #about me #aubree

[brw]

sorry for descending into the horrors (tv show). it will happen again.

#brieuc.txt #lays on the floor.

[spacedace]

What is it about laying on the floor when you're overwhelmed that makes everything feel so much better?

#like its better than laying on a bed when it comes to that very specific state of absolutely out of your gourd overwhelmed #it takes serious self control for me some days to just not lay on the floor if things are too much #floor time is best time

[heretichromia]

I forgot Weedy's tail.

#It's fixed now but. #Lays on the floor.

[futurefind]

//dear god i hate anxiety in general but esp the positive feedback loop of 'no talk me anxious' -> extra anxious bc no Talking -> no talk me anxious-- AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

(vent/neg below the cut :'))) aaaaaaaa)

nothing quite like missing my og tumblr career yeah bc more active rpc but also being able to be shameless and confident!!! bc i didnt have extreme trauma from ppl playing polite to my face and then HAVING to have shit talked me behind my back to organize an en masse blocking And Then give give me a reason you suck speech 'bc you asked for honesty (while having a breakdown on main) that!! explicitly blamed the new trauma thatd ACTIVELY fuck with me for a year on before i could even start to get better abt it!! being too excited!! and not being able to 'tell' that ppl wanted me to stfu/was 'pushing' shit and that ppl were lying to me abt interest!! AND that i was shitty and 'guilt tripping' by saying i felt unwanted/unwelcomed (when i WAS lmfao)!!!! and my first ever 'friend' group/social setting no less!!! on top of making me feel like shit for my Already shitty mh!!

i miss having the spoons and shamelessly to just Initiate and jump into ppls inboxes more!! :'))) i miss when we were ALL younguns w relative spoons and just Time for our blorbo sandbox hobby!!

and!! (esp wrt hellbrain/anxiety bs!! im not blaming anyone for anything at all but!! AAAAAAAAAA) having always always always felt like a Z Team chaser :'))) where if i'm not actively shoving myself in everyones face theyll just ignore me and feel i dont even exist until i myself remind them. and i Know!! its not personal!! and that everyone has their own lives and social circles but!!! i rlly wish i wasnt batting a like max 2% hit rate at Actually making friends to begin with least of all keeping them LEAST OF ALL getting to be a Part of their lives/social circles rather than just a passerby :')))

to say nothing of the hell that is having no irls and wanting to MAKE some....... post 2020. when theres like no third spaces anywhere. or rec centers. or just fucking School Clubs for adults. to say nothing of being unable to even try for Most of that time since then bc too ashamed to bc spent most of that time unemployed :'))) and think ur boring awkward etc etc :')))

to say nothing of pms + having a horrific fight w my bro sunday night just before moms birthday bc 'no one cares abt him/his feelings' and 'everyones gaslighting him' and 'what about HIS feelings'.......... when i all of tried to explain how/why he hurt My feelings like fucking great job dude way to fucking communicate like an adult and not use ur rsd/anxiety/mh as an excuse to bully ppl into shutting up. yeah its bad to tear down ppl and hurt their feelings but only if sb Otehr than you is doing it great talk way to validate me not feeling safe around you and refusing to indulge in you trying to bully/shittalk me into talking to you w passive aggression instead of just Trying To Talk Normally

just!! screams!!!!!!! wish i didnt have to feel cuz its all shit all the way down and!!!!! screams.

#tbd // #vent // #to say nothing of how inaccessible / wild goose chasing mh help is :skull: #i asked doc for a Referral. she said shed send me a dr list directly. i ask her abt it. mssg manager tells me i need to look it up myself #i find a list of drs in my hospital. find my top candidate w e visits AND a 'make an appointment! :)' button. fill out that form #and 3 days later: 'lol lmao yeah u cant do that <33 u need to call <333' #lays on the floor. #smth smth the woes of zillenial coming of age in the now times #intersected with 'had no friends in school ever esp not meaningful ones usually their 'project'' bs

[vict12r]

@70th said ❛ the awful things we do to make the head go quiet. ❜

 ‍  ‍ a part of katniss wishes she didn't understand so clearly what annie means. a year ago, probably, she wouldn't have. maybe not even after the 74th games. there has always been noise, she thinks, but there were always ways to ignore it without thinking about it too much. it wasn't until she was here, sequestered under tons of rock and rubble, often left alone when her face isn't needed for inspiring propos, that it became something so taxing -- or maybe it is just more recognizable now that she has been forced to spend so much time with it.

 ‍  ‍ the more time she spends with the woman ( which isn't much, what with the training she has forced herself to undertake and the way annie and finnick are attached at the proverbial and literal hip, not that she can blame them . . . ), the more she begins to understand her. she has her moments, but katniss understands now they are all scarred, all carry some permanent injury that is aggrivated at the slightest trigger. annie cresta is also kind, and her soft - spokenness does not dilute how bright she is. “ what do you do? ” the girl on fire asks, keen eyes following a path of fidgeting hands and freckled cheeks to sea - hued eyes, voice gentle in its sincere curiosity. more than it has been in days.

 ‍  ‍ she knows what finnick does, losing himself in the twist and pull of the rope until it is such a thoughtless action he doesn't have to think, strangely beautiful intricacies forming under his hands. it would help, doing it alongside him, but lately . . . few things silence her thoughts, except for total exhaustion. and then the nightmares churn anyway.

#70th #ANSWERED ‍ … ‍ ⁀ ➴ back between villages & everything’s still. #INTERACTIONS ‍ … ‍ ⁀ ➴ the fighter forced to perform. #ARC ‍ … ‍ ⁀ ➴ the mockingjay. #lays on the floor.

[chronicpaingirlie]

btw something im working on learning is that disabled is something that im allowed to be in public.

im allowed to lay down on the living room floor if im in middle of a conversation & enjoying it but feeling too lightheaded to sit up. im allowed to sit at the table to do meal prep and to sit on a stool at the stove to cook. im allowed to use my cane while i run errands.

if people are uncomfortable with my disabled existence, it’s their responsibility to work on that, it’s not my responsibility to try to hide my disability from the view of abled people.

i shouldn’t be relegated to my bedroom or to my house or to places where no one else will be just to have accommodations. im allowed to just exist & not have to pretend to be able bodied for the comfort & convenience of others.

#writing this as i lay on the floor of my parents’ house because my body is too fatigued for sitting up 🫡 #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #disabled #disability #0

[herorkgk]

no one talk to me

#.txt #lays on the floor.

[gojosbf]

it was ALWAYS about him.

#gonna go and lay on the floor jump off a building or smth #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk leaks #jjk 261 #jjk spoilers #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu #stsg #jjk manga #jjk manga leaks #jjk manga spoilers #1k

[sketchy-tour]

Blame eechytooru for Beta Wally taking up so much free real estate in my mind. And blame work for as to why I am posting...MORE sketches. But! These were some Wally practice cause I'm never happy with how I draw him but also just...ya know. *Gestures to the art

Anyway. Beta Wally am I right? Yea??? Yea....

....Yea

#welcome home #welcome home puppet show #wally darling #welcome home arg #wally darling fanart #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally #beta wally darling #wh wally #beta wally #I really wanted to color some of these if I'm very honest #but work is...destroying my motivation #Like I have so much I WANNA finish and draw but my schedule has been all thrown off and augh #*laying in the floor #so many sketches...so little time #Beta Wally's colors are so lovely to me though I NEED to color him someday please work please let me go #*shaking the bars of my cage while crying

[tillman]

well thats rocketed me awake i wanna draw but i really do not want to bother going out and sitting w my laptop in the other room to draw. a bit cruel innit.

#txt #lays on the floor.

[ghostwnby]

I just saw someone say Oscar looks at Lando the way Lando looked at Carlos and now I want sob until I throw up

HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME

#im shattered #sobbing #im going to go lay face down on the floor spongebob style and cry my eyes out #lando norris #oscar piastri #landoscar #carlos sainz #carlando #formula 1 #ferrari #mclaren

[beyondplusultra]

It's like I blinked and "Haha I'm going to kill myself" became a funny joke to make again, or an alright thing to say ironically. You guys stop that. You'll feel better for not saying it, I promise.

#this is also a psa to please not put that in tags for my art #i LOVE the gushing and the “oh my god my heart is in a blender i am laying down on the floor crying sobbing screaming” stuff! #just not the kms stuff. it took me a while to unlearn that habit and some of you guys need to do the same #it's so much funnier to say stuff like IM GONNA EAT A WHOLE GIRAFFE #or other such hyperbole #i promise #mango talks