#like i don’t have the energy anymore

[ickypuppi3]

someone replied to that that post you rb'ed about "if you can forgive steve for his past actions, you can forgive jonathan" with "this is why i forgive steve, jonathan, and billy" and then OP starting going off on them about how billy is irredeemable compared to them so it's fucked up to like him and they are glad he died 💀 bro

reaching my limit with stranger things fans truly

#like i don’t have the energy anymore #always a byler at the scene of the crime #crazy innit #asks #fandom wank #doing all that while solely referring to lucas as ‘the black kid’ rather than .. you know .. his actual name #like it’s something i see antis do constantly #idk seems kinda insidious #esp when you’re using everyone else’s names #it’s giving using lucas as a gotcha #rather than actually caring about caleb or his character or actual racism #also #the double standards are crazy considering billy was the one who lived with his abusive bigoted father his whole life #vs steve who literally had no reason to act like he did except for being a shitty teenager #who got mad his girlfriend didn’t want him because she was sad her friend died #anyway #cw suicide ment #i guess

[larapaulussen]

#gif #why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone #for what am I being punished #I am a good person #and I don’t think this suffering has any sense #it’s just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way #and the sad people always just get more trauma #I know I could have a relationship if I didn’t have such a traumatic childhood #my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes #but i don’t know what to do about it #every nice guy I met absolutely wasn’t attractive to me #and we also didn’t have anything in common #so I’m not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldn’t have worked out #and they deserve someone who actually fancies them #i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with #or who matched my preferences lookwise #it really feels like I’m simply not allowed to ever meet the right person #and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone #as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole #I just don’t have any energy left anymore #I just want to experience love so bad but can’t do these dates anymore #I’m so so tired

[bevsi]

I love doing comms of real people but is no one going to commission their OC making out with karlach sloppy style

#I don’t have energy to actually game anymore but like lmk

[thwackk]

welcome to the gigantic boots for silly guys convention, this is the president

#guy gardner #green lantern #i just start posting things reguardless of quality nowadays huh #it’s not that im lazy. it’s because i’m lazy #no but honestly i just don’t have the time anymore. when summer rolls around definitely but right now i do not #im also fresh out of energy. i havent opened my ipad in months now literally everything has been done on my phone #becayse i never have time to just sit down and pull out my ipad and draw on it like a normal person would do #anyways #guy has infected every corner of my mind lately i cant get him out #i just think abt him #alot #too much #my poor friends hear all my thoughts #i personally think reconciling with your abuser is stupid <3 #that’s my take for the night.

[puppyeared]

I made a lmk oc

#they’re supposed to be some sort of experiment to see if people could recreate Sun Wukongs stone egg. the goal was to make a more controlled #and tame version using carved wood and cultivation. but eventually they got worried about it becoming too powerful and scrapped it #eventually they come to life and live in the abandoned temple they were built in #their bottom half is made of wood because when they came to life their creator/s left them unfinished when they scrapped the project #they had to carve the rest of their body out of hunger and frustration because they couldn’t eat or move much by crawling on their top half #this is also why they spite their creators and hate irresponsible creation. because of abandonment issues and feeling like they have no #purpose or direction in life #their power is also very limited to due being man made since they were originally a wood carving #meo gave me the idea but one reason would be because they’re half finished. the sculpture was still half stump so it was completely untouche #that half can channel power in its raw form but the other half cannot once it’s been carved by man #so technically they could have the same level or potential for power as the stone but that was dampened #the other thing is how they were created to be a duplicate or recreation of a stone monkey and a celestial looked at that and was like #‘we’re not doing that again’ LMAO #i think the case of them carving their own legs doesn’t take away their power though. that balance was made #before they came to life so carving the legs or not can’t affect it anymore. like making a cake and slicing it #their energy levels are also naturally low because of that so their movements are sluggish and they aren’t very active overall #constantly lying in the sun to charge their batteries and get some stuff done. just like me fr #I actually don’t know what I’m gonna do with this character besides Put Them In Situations with other ppls ocs.. so if you have #a lmk oc you have been warned /lh /j #I wanna make some backstory art for them though.. maybe even the animatic treatment if I can get through dear wormwood which is 25 #SECONDS OUT OF 3 MIN BTW #doodles #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk oc #monkie kid oc #myart #my art #xin ya

[why-the-heck-not]

Starting to almost wish I could just go do this fucking presentation today solely bc I’m getting mad and tired of the anxiety, how is it physically possible to be this anxious for so many days straight. There has to be a limit how long u can be on the verge of an anxiety attack like ????

#it’s stupid #cant sleep cant eat over ’’ppl are paying attention to me for 20minutes or so’’ #i hate this so so much #bc like I KNOW it’s overreacting and unreasonable and it never is as bad as I think but knowing that won’t do shit for the anxiety #like it will he here until I’m back home tmrw after having presented it #at least it’s only like a day of this anymore but I don’t have the energy for this for even one more goddamn minute #literally what could happen in that presentation that would be worse than feeling like this?? #the realistic worst case possible is that I lose my train of thought or have a ’’brain doesnt work’’ moment and have to take like 20secs to #gather myself and like maybe if someone asks a question I don’t have an answer to #but like I won’t die or anything #even if it’d be awkward (it will be awkward) that’s legit nothing #I’m ’’just some guy’’ to the ppl and after leaving the building they’ll never think abt my stupid ass presentation again #so wHY cant I fucking chill #april 2024 #2024

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[skelly-bean]

For years I’ve thought about starting to try wood carving for fun but I never have for various reasons

The want to wood carve is haunting me again today

#share the beans #money for supplies and whatnot #time and energy to do it #afraid it’ll only be a short phase and then I’ll have a bunch of supplies I bought taking up space that I don’t even use anymore #also I’m scared of knives and sharp things and pointy things #i feel like I’m kinda scared of mostly everything for wood carving haha

[akkivee]

they activating the gooner in me!!!!!! it’s getting really bad lmao!!!!!!!!!

#this is vee speaking #no one: but don’t already goon for kuukou— #me: SHUT UP #i’ve been trying to not publicise my descent in nakanishi kuukou stanning but he makes it really difficult LOL #his calf muscles sir………………….. s…. ste…………. step— #this pose……………….. this angle………………… t…. tongue………….. anything you want— #read a report he’s been channeling a lot of hirono kuukou in his performances now like the way hirono-san tended to strip #nakanishi-san has occasionally flashed his arms doing his thing lol #i finally found someone talk about jyushi!!!!!! and he apparently is killing it with his insert raps!!!!!! #like the way sakakihara-san tearfully sang kaigen during bat live day 2 is the energy sakayori jyushi has rapping about his bullies #*clenches fist* i need…………… i need the stream……………… let me in………………. let ME IN— #unrelatedly i think it’s hilarious every day mtr and bat’s merch keeps selling out LOL #the bat stan in me is like that’s so based lol but what i think it is is that nagojuku’s 2nd drb stage battle didn’t get as many votes #and so management assumed their merch wouldn’t sell as well as the others lol #i don’t have many mtr people on my feed anymore but i would like to know how mtr is being received 🤔

[finniestoncrane]

said to my counsellor that i wasnt built for friendship because everyone always eventually just. stops speaking to me and she went “ok why do you think that is?” and then when i finished my dumb sad list she went “ok so maybe you aren’t good at friendship” and i. have never regretted spending £50 more in my life lol

#A RANT IN THE TAGS MY GOD I DIDNT EVEN REALISE I AM WRITING THIS WARNING RETROSPECTIVELY #£50 to feel like never trying to speak to anyone again or forge any connections THANKS RUTH #Ruth remember when I said that every friendship I’ve had I’ve never truly known if it’s a friendship or if it’s one sided #remember when I told you that my friend groups always had people who had a favourite and I was never the favourite #remember when I told you that several friend groups have disbanded but not really they actually just made new spaces without me? #remember that? remember my trauma? remember? #because I DO!!! #I was not born to have friends I don’t think #I can’t even make friends with other autistic people or other weird people or other queer people #I don’t even think I could make friends with a clone of myself #this is so guy wrenchingly isolating lol #like girl what do you want from me? keep everyone at arms length like I used to? #try not to let myself get attached to people in case they decide they don’t want to be close to me anymore? #please it is not great advice Ruth #THE WORAT PART is that I literally was like ‘I don’t message too much because I’m overbearing’ #and she asked where the proof was #and all I had was the complete dissolving of any relationship where I tried or tried too hard #so now I’m left in this confusing space of do I message too much or not enough because I have no happy medium #and she knows SHE KNOWS I also have energy issues and executive dysfunction stuff going on #and I know she is just trying to help and get me to think about this stuff #but it was just not the time lmao #finnie shouts into the void

[audino]

tonight’s mood is just

#upset jerma #i don’t even have the energy to vent anymore #its not like anyone really cares anyway #and I can’t cry anymore either #empty…. #just restless and unable to feel #bun txt

[crynghost]

JUST FINSIHED SONIC PRIME SEASON 2

…🧍‍♂️

I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START WITH THE FANART HOLY F-

#sonic prime #sonic prime season 2 #sonic prime spoilers #HOLY SHIT #cry rambles sorry guys #WHAT THE HELL IS THAT ENDING AGAIN #IT’S ALMOST AS GOOD AS HOME DOESN’T EXIST ANYMORE BECAUSE OF YOU FOABDOWJFK #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I’M SCREAMING CAN YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING???!!! #god i hate to work THEY SHOULD UNDERSTAND THAT I NEED TO DRAW #LIKE RIGHT NOW #THIS IS KILLING ME BUT I DON’T HAVE TIME #also Shadow is so cool #also the PEAK Sonic and Shadow energy this season??? #can we just talk about that??? #OH MY GOOOODDDDD #I LOVE THEM #THE EXCHANGES #GOOOODD #sonadow #teehee #LMAO THIS IS MY 100th POST TOO AHAHAHAH #can this get any better??

[daincrediblegg]

HEY UM. WHO WANTS TO BE ON A LADY TERROR/FRANCIS CROZIER FIC TAG LIST? SOUND OFF

#tag list #lady terror #francis crozier #the terror #egg’s oc’s #egg’s fics #bc I’m sick and tired of reblogging shit 20 times and folks who I know would WANT to see things not seeing them #I just don’t have the energy for it anymore lmao this might be easier #I will reblog this post like 20 times to make sure people know to see it and sign up but aftet thst I’m DONE

[plposting]

Scourge of the skies

(aka Skykid Descole)

#professor layton #sky: cotl #jean descole #Gens art #pl au #plskycotl #pl:fallen stars #for my silly little crossover #and or au both kinda IDK #I have thoughts abt this design and like au(?) but I’ll put them in a reblog when I get the time/energy #the only thing I’d like to mention here rn is that the blue light in the mask can shift to a red hue (similar to a dark dragon/krill) #sidenote clipstudio liquify tool is my friend #edit: this design is entirely obsolete now LOL I’d do smth else I don’t rlly like this design anymore esp w what cosmetics we have now

[littledeadling]

Excited abt the casting news for Dionysus so I wanted to quickly draw the hc I’ve had for years, which is: What if Mr. D was Justin McElroy 😳

#I don’t even listen to McElroy stuff anymore but I can’t let this vision go #the fake Hawaiian shirt aesthetic I guess #I do t think this looks like him very successfully but I don’t have much art energy rn so I won’t try harder lol #pjo #mr d #dionysus #pjo dionysus #justin mcelroy

[shapeofmetal]

Me: hmm I did not care for that interaction. “Blocks” ahh that feels better. Now I can go about my day.

The person I just blocked: on public social media “And then they BLOCKED ME. IT WAS SO RUDE. IM ENTITLED TO TALK TO OREO AND NOW THAT THEY HAVE BLOCKED ME HOW AM I GOING TO TALK TO THEM??? I’m deprived. Oreo is problematic actually! 🤬🤬🤬

Me: wow I’m so glad blocking people means I don’t have to see what they are saying. I’m living my life now and moving on.

The person I blocked: MOM SOMEONE ON TWITTER BLOCKED ME CALL THEIR MOM AND MAKE THEM TALK TO ME.

#the fact that multiple people are going to assume I’m talking about them specifically says a lot #I’ve had to deal with pushy or rude people over the years #I’ve always just blocked and moved on #if someone else blocks me I see that as them saying they don’t want to interact and I respect that #I’m not entitled to their time or energy #that goes both ways #if I block someone I’m not obliged to talk to them anymore #that’s why blocking is an option #so many people online treat me like I owe them something #wether it’s art or a conversation or a friendship #I don’t owe people anything #I just wanna draw weird robots #I’m not going to name any names or call anyone out for being obnoxious #if people want to make public callouts denouncing me for the crime of blocking them that’s their problem #I will say though that what I have been shown of those posts is so cringe #I do not regret a single person I have blocked #if you end up blocked on the internet build a bridge and get over it.