#living simultaneously with me

[smallredcandle]

i think possession is real in the way that i think about it all the time in every cell of every second

#me #it truly never gets away from you #and now there is a second thing #living simultaneously with me #asynchronously #unwillingly

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i saw them in the cookbook pages and Immediately thought of this meme:

#barnaby: this is so nice. just me and my buddy whipping up a tasty treat #wally: *having six simultaneous crises* #anyway. huh? #this was a pain to scribble and i Dont Know Why #i had to redraw barnaby's face literally five times #but im trying to Expand my skillset by attempting more backgrounds #or background adjacent things... Props! #im very proud of the counter & flower vase off to the side! #and uh. Filters! those as well. i wanted to make this look somewhat like its aged... #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #man. these two. squeezes them #halloween update made me love them all the more #name a better pair of best friendsssss you canttttttt #they are Top Tier and i hope they get torn apart one way or another #you see i live for the drama the pain the agony the devastation #i see my favorites and i want them to Hurt. #anyway thinking about them baking together melts my stony heart #theyre bonding 🥺 #oh man why is that emoji So Fucking Detailed on my laptop. its scaring me. kill it kill it kill it

[uncanny-tranny]

Good news! You aren't required to make your hobbies and passions "marketable." In fact, your crafts, hobbies, and passions don't even need to be public if you so choose. You don't have to spend all of your energy becoming perfect if you aren't enjoying the process. You are not a product, you are a person, a creative, and your work also does not need to be a product.

#positivity #yet another post that's like... thinnly-veiled as being for myself #i find myself freezing with anxiety when i think about the things i used to do (writing especially) because... #...i had felt this force to make it ~content~ and ~marketable to an audience~ and it was so fucking daunting... #...it felt like being a gladiator in a coliseum #even now i fight the urge to equate being marketable to being acceptable and worthy of admiration and praise #i wish i hadn't burnt myself out of writing by doing this because i'm simultaneously grieving my writing and hating it #and it sucks the life out of what makes you feel like a person and it takes the art out of art #so be free! pist your art or don't! you are beholden to nobody!!! #(obviously this is not the case for professional artists who rely on their art to keep them alive) #(and i criticize heavily the idea that audiences are entitled to an artists labour) #(i understand that this isn't universal and if it doesn't apply to you then you don't have to take me seriously) #(if you are a professional artist or what have you i hope you are able to feed and house yourself off of that career!) #(i hope you are able to live a happy life and be able to keep loving what you're doing)

[chalkrub]

challenging myself by engaging in the ancient art known as "dynamic poses", but making it harder on myself by ignoring the noble practice of "using references"

featuring belvedere and florawell

#my art #oc #florawell #belvedere #goblin #dragon #i prefer the wips i posted to my sketch blog tbh they look better than the finished thing. but nevertheless. #i also accidentally gave belvedere furry hands this time instead of his usual bald goblin hands #i think it makes him look sleeker but i prefer his ratty hands. we live and learn #fun fact i have around 20 ongoing projects which i have been workin on simultaneously which has resulted in me not getting much done #but now they're all nearing completion at once so you'll see a bunch of art from me soon maybe #when i open comms (VERY SOON.....big things coming....) i'm considering tacking on an extra option for sketches like these #cause i can do them for relatively cheap without spending hours working for peanuts #anyway. i'm seeing a horror movie yet again tonight. immaculate was surprisingly good so let's see if this one is good

[cosmicquilt]

"Is black the absence of light - or the presence of color?"

the darkness in his eyes is from the absence of any light that would usually find the color underneath...

#ITS ALL ABOUT THE ENVIRONMENT AROUND HIM N SHIT!!! RGGGHHHH HE MAKES ME SO #i desperately want to write an essay about Dazai and all that shit about how he and oda are simultaneously foils and parallels and #what makes their relationship so interesting... ugh... but no... school...school. #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd dazai #as oda said (paraphrased) “deep down dazai's just a child living in a world far more lonely than we could imagine” #he makes me want to cry good god may sir asagiri give us an arc where we can explore more of his internal issues!!

[carebeardean]

dreamling from dreams pov is like I am older than the stars and I will leave my shoes at the door because you do, even though I don’t know why. I’d forgotten what the world looked like before I saw it through your eyes. you give me hope. has it always been this easy? to fall, not as a comet does, but as gently as the sea goes to the shore? I am monstrous, and yet, still you bring me home. I have known love as war, as pain, but never rest. peace.

& hobs pov is like. once I loved you as the sailor loves his north star, so bright, far above him. now I think I love you better for the way you speak to children, how you hold each dreamers hopes so gently in your hands, despite, despite, despite. I would have waited forever and it would’ve been worth it. you tell me you’re a king. you whisper the secrets of the universe in my ear. still, I’m greedy. I want to know how you take your tea, what you eat in the mornings, what you look like when you’re happy down to your bones. you say you know the end of every story before we tell them, every word we’ll say before we speak and yet you come down from your kingdom to hear me tell my stories, again and again.

#dreamling #dream of the endless #sandman #hob gadling #sandman edit #sandman comics #Tom sturridge #& they’re both somehow one day you’ll tire of me & you’re the best thing I’ve seen in centuries #& simultaneously want to be kept and held and by nature Hob would never be satisfied being a kept lover the way some of dreams past loves #thought they could. & Dream knows he can come home to hob & just Be and live in his little domestic bubble & leave. no strings attached #not captured or wanted for his power his attention etc. #anyways. I just love that Hob can withstand the full attention/passion/rage of a being who’s literally older than god & ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #& call him a bitch to his face. that’s so good for him

[stuckinapril]

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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children #In everything I do #Like legit #I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her #And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything #But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious #Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life #But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends #While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury #And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline #Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else #It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk #It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything #But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently #And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians #I’d be so mad #And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief #For losing their loved ones #This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit #This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow #And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything #Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal #And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just #Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off. #Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night #I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this #Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do #or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up #I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think #p

[space-fool]

the most turn-of-the-century British thing about Dracula isn’t the London setting or the badly rendered cockney accents or even the thinly veiled xenophobia. it’s the fact that 2 of the 7 main characters are named John

#dracula daily #dracula #jonathan harker #jack seward #dr seward #me happily reading my dracula daily emails while living through multiple simultaneous apocalypses

[akkivee]

the boys are packing!!!!!!!

#this is vee speaking #but ​not packing heat as double barrel may suggest lol #ichiro’s coming too!!!!! ichikuu vacation lol!!!!!!!! #i’m getting nervous and excited lmao lots to do and hopes i get to lol #you know what’s crazy tho lol????? the fact we were promised guest appearances and kr hasn’t said a word about that since #whatever could be happening in this live lol????? got me anxious and hype simultaneously and it’s the best kind tbh lol

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Not sure if this theory makes any sense at all but I'm starting to believe that there's no time skip between Wally's phone calls and what we see/hear in the show's Media/Merchandise. If we see the Toyland call being made before the Homewarming episode then it would make sense that Wally's expecting Barnaby to come over soon. As well as the Homewarming sketch from the prior update. (I don't know, still kind of brainstorming this perspective)

that theory Does make sense and i've been considering it! the "timeline" is such a nebulous thing right now because we still... don't really know! there are too many variables and too many Maybes for any solid answer.

maybe the reality that the neighbors live in exists outside of time like you say, and like half of me suspects. there's so much reality fuckery already present, but I'm also... unsure of how much merit this holds given what we know / can infer about how time passes in Home. i'm putting this theory on a low shelf to look at but not prioritize

maybe it really has been 50 years, and Barnaby is either still around / Wally is still in contact with him, or Barnaby... isn't there. who knows, maybe Wally was just verbalizing some Wishful Thinking. i mean, Wally is a bit of an unreliable narrator, isn't he? we can't assume that everything he says is entirely accurate or truthful. and i mean, if it's been 50 years it makes sense that Wally would be pushing for connection / to revive WH. who knows how long he's been trying.

hm... i mean. it could be a mix of that and the Outside Of Time theory. who knows, maybe W is receiving calls from different points in the timeline - Wally may have started out just calling, and has just graduated to invading the WH website / getting pushy with the envelopes and media that's been sent to the WHRP. maybe Wally got tired of waiting for W to respond before W was even born. who's to say!

#i mean. idk the emphasis wally puts on Its So Quiet makes my brain tilt its head #it feels like wally breaking composure before he pastes the Facade back on with '-during homewarming' #that and just the way he phrased 'everyones usually so busy so its just me and home for a long while' #Usually so busy. Usually. why not Always? or Is? #usually. #and then the 'its just me and home for a long while' #the phrasing here has Connotations i think! #homebogging #welcome home speculation #wh speculation #OF COURSE. I HAVE TO DEBUNK MYSELF! #what we hear / see from Wally is - ironically - more genuine than the WHRP's or W's recovered media (save the eddie excerpts) #the WH media shows us the ideal homewarming - where everyone is getting into the spirit and spending time together and the like #but then wally could be telling us what homewarming is Really like - lonely. quiet. #WHICH MAKES SENSE THEMATICALLY! and it mirrors how christmas time is. its marketed as this joyful thing that brings people together #when in reality its lonely and stressful. i know i certainly never feel more lonely than i do at that time of year! #so there's just. layers. right now im simultaneously believing in the time discrepancy And them existing outside of time #im leaning on the first one but you know! #BUT!!! IM CONFIDENT THAT THE HOMEWARMING WALLY WAS CALLING FROM WAS NOT THE ONE WE SAW IN THE UPDATE. #wally spoke with enough familiarity about the time of year to make me think 'hes lived through many of these hasnt he' #it could be that time Has passed for the neighbors and its been many homewarmings. #it could be that it Started as what the commercials/update showed us. #but as time passed maybe it became a time where everyone just... Isolates for one reason or another. so now it's just quiet and lonely #im still rolling it all around in my head! many factors and implications to consider w/ this update! #Take All Of This With A Grain Of Salt As Usual!

[uncanny-tranny]

Something I think ought to be more readily-available and encouraged is simply... taking parental classes. I wish it were more common for people to realize just how hard - and important - parenting is, and indeed, that we all could use help with taking care of young folk. It's really alarming that popular opinion is still that parental classes are only for the "fuck-up" parents, or the parents who utterly failed. It should be seen as a good thing to take parental classes - especially on your own volition. It should be seen as imperative for one to take them, it should be a free, accurate, and scheduled occurrence so that people of any background are able to attend.

#politics #parenting #i might have posted something like this before but who knows. certainly not me (the blogger) #of course some cities and states in the USA for instance will have programs like this but it's not.. across the board from what i understand #my city has a few free parenting classes for really any parent and i am really happy to hear that #my dad talks about the classes he took and most of them are geared toward fathers (the classes he takes). i think that's a great thing #i wish that was more common when i was a kid. when i'm older you bet i'm taking advantage of parenting classes <3 #even if i have no children i won't be child-free unless i live in isolation. i want to treat them well #i would be devastated if a kid were to have a horrible experience around me because i was an asshole or i was uncompassionate or ignorant #the overall message i got as a kid was that parenting classes were a punishment for the fuck-up parents and THAT is fucked up to me #the idea that parenting is simultaneously natural AND that you're Always Correct and Never Wrong is dangerous at best #like i bet my abuser thought they were a good adult to me and that i was just a fucked-up *child*

[spider-man-2o99]

guilt & reparation & doing whatever the shock it is that a spider can do, anyways (a.k.a., mig's most-quoted line, re: power & responsibility & what really drives spider-man)

#talking tag #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #gabriel o'hara #marvel #comics #comic panels #miguel is. an Important character 2 me. #smthn smthn hes just. jaded and tired and does not Want to be the kind of person he Needs to be but there is no question that hes /Trying/ #he just... resigns himself to Not Having A Choice and tries to be Okay with everything that happens to him. man. #Somebody has to do this! and he;s the unlucky guy who got the powers & lived! it couldve been anyone but It Was Him so he has to do it. #the ways in which he is simultaneously Coping Surprisingly Well?? with vigilantism and also Not Coping At All. fascinate me

[tothepointofinsanity]

Sayaka is my favourite eldritch horror.

#Sayaka Archives #yes girl go be a living corpse who is an angel #who hides in the droplets of sea water with rain accompanying her strides of hatred #and whose transformation is often seen alongside mermaids and the ocean #a being who is alive but can gouge out her own heart #simply to show her sympathy for others #mirrors that don’t even reflect her #the water only shows a mermaid and a monster that needs to be slain #simultaneously the beauty and the beast #no one talk to me I’m brainrotting right now

[steakout-05]

ahhh fucked up little six-nippled snake-handed spiritual dude covered in buffalo fur with heterochromia and a bird beak nose my beloved

oh YEAH? you only got ONE PEENEYE????

#xavier renegade angel #he's so fucked up and weird i love him #i have the entire argument he has with himself in shakashuri blowdown memorised word for word #you slumber a cucumber! you catch up on some zzz'eds you get outta my heads! #you snost you lost #that one isn't in the episode but it's so funny to say in his voice #a lot of things are funny to say in his voice #one time me and a friend were reading the entire ''does bruno mars is gay?'' website's pages in Xavier's voice #like it has multiple pages and all of the ones written by the ''does bruno mars is gay'' guy are all hilariously written #there's like 2 people running that website it's really funny #anyway...... xra funny you should go watch it if you like really surreal 3d animated shows that look like they come from a low budget- #-ps2 game with wordplay and a story that is simultaneously the dumbest and ridiculous and most clever thing you've ever heard #it has an episode where xavier's in a pickup truck getting chased by a sentient living explosion that used to be some kid's dad #and at the end of it he says ''they say when you die you shit your pants. not me. i'm gonna shit my heart out.'' and it's really funny #in the words of julius caesar: it's like lsd on acid! #sketch

[zahri-melitor]

Yeah no I'm still not cool with the pet situation. A character's pet is for the animal's life, not for [one emotional scene].

Titus makes sense. There have been several generations of Ace the Bat-Hound over the decades. There was at least one when Dick was Robin. There's another when Tim is a young Robin, back in Knightfall era (he hid out in the tunnels with Harold while JPV was Azbats!)

Bruce, trying to win Damian's affection and teach him how to connect and bond with others, to give him a responsibility and someone who will love him unconditionally, getting Damian a dog? Makes 100% sense. He clearly thinks kids should have a dog, they're set up to have a dog, they're familiar with having a dog, particularly large working breeds that protect the property.

And Tomasi & Gleason use Titus several times, in several different comics in the run, for emotional beats.

Alfred the Cat exists entirely for the emotional beat of Alfred giving Damian a cat that swipes at him, then Damian in the next comic 'winning' the cat's affection while feeding him and playing with him, showing as a character the cat (and by parallel Damian) has changed in his time at the Manor. I get the comparison. It's cute, but I don't see the point in doing this immediately before killing Damian, particularly when Titus, who was established earlier, is right there in the scene and doing...nothing.

A similar moment of Damian appearing like a child playing with his puppy and looking innocent could have occurred, and it would feel less like Damian's affection is hoarding and transitive - he can only care about his latest animal, the earlier ones are present but forgotten in the glee for more and newer pets.

Batcow is completely superfluous beyond being a visual joke. Nothing about her holds up in any way.

"Sure, you can keep the cow," says Bruce through his gritted teeth, because he wants his son to like him and not run back to Talia. Despite that being a plot point well established as not likely to happen, as we've been over it before during Reborn and Damian rejected Talia and the League of Assassins, and we're at the start of a story where Damian's going to choose to go to his mother to save Gotham while the rest of the family are desperately trying to protect him from having to face her, because they're worried she'll kill him/end the world.

"Sure, we can have a cow living in the Cave. It's not like we know any farmers with superstrength and flight who could take a meat-raised cow off our hands and care for it in better circumstances, who you could still visit occasionally."

#mostly me grumbling about the fact a good editor would have pointed out there was already an animal character available for the scene #if DC editors were doing their jobs #I get the collaborative and multi writer nature of comics means beats get repeated and people lodge clashing ideas almost simultaneously #but in this case it's just particularly poorly thought through #Damian gets to have better and more pets than all the other kids who have ever lived in the Manor #and acquire them in the shortest amount of time #because he's the Real Blood Son #And outdo everyone else #plus the fact it's ALFRED and a CAT and he's refused to have a cat around the Manor previously when another kid asked (temporarily!)' #yeah no #I know it's a new timeline and universe but also the hypocrisy is noticed

[space-fool]

the best part about reading this part of Dracula chronologically is realizing that every hour or so, everyone runs up to their rooms to update their diaries

#dracula daily #dracula #me happily reading my dracula daily emails while living through multiple simultaneous apocalypses